#Toxic post from a toxic person

[birthdaycakeplate]

He is strong. He is brave. He is beautiful. He is a bottom.

Look how familiar he is with being dragged.

#Curse tumblr’s 10 pic limit #Tfa #tranformers animated #Toxic post from a toxic person #optimus prime #tfa optimus prime #tfa optimus

[shakingparadigm]

what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?

It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:

During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.

Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.

I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:

I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.

The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.

This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.

The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.

I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.

#ivan u fucked up little guy. #also okay i just wanna clear this up #i know i make a lot of posts about ivans darker side and his more problematic traits #but this isn't me trying to villainize him or reduce him down to “toxic yaoi” #I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW ALL MY TOXIC YAOI POSTS ARE LIGHTHEARTED. #i just want to clarify that ivan was always intended to be a darker and complicated character. even since his debut in round 3 #the way i refer to ivan (“twisted” “creepy” “obssessive” etc) are literally the direct words used by q and v themselves to describe him #but despite that id like to emphasize that i don't see ivan as a villain or a completely bad person. hes complicated #there is no normalcy in this world they are living in. none of the characters know what being truly normal is #this isn't me condoning his actions #but it has to be acknowledged that alnst is fucked up in nature. we can't expect perfect relationships from people who are born to die #plus ivan has a lot more layers past the “dark” parts. he's constantly battling himself and his desires #especially at the end of round 6 where he performs a myriad of conflicting actions (kiss strangle peck smile) #thanks to the r6 production notes we now know that ivan was going through a rapid internal conflict #“sure and unsure at the same time” #there is sooo much to ivan. his low self-esteem. his desire and possessiveness despite knowing till will never love him #his VEHEMENT insistence that till will never love him vs his desperate persistence in trying anyway #uh i need to shut up i think #anyways sorry. just wanted to clarify my thoughts on him in case people think im. yk. #in short. hes a fucked up little freak and he fascinates me. this poor tragic child. i love him. #SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY #alnst #alien stage #alien stage ivan #alnst ivan #asks

[gayvampyr]

“queer spaces should be inclusive of people who don’t enjoy sex and who have “strange”, negative or repulsed relationships with sex” and “sex is an important aspect of lgbt community, history, and activism and queer people should be allowed and able to talk freely about sex without stigma or shame” are ideas that can and should coexist.

#‘queer people were banned from and shamed for having sex and that’s where a lot of our activism stemmed from’ and #‘not liking or having sex is considered abnormal and a mental illness and also needs to be destigmatized’ are concepts that not only can but #often do coalign #it’s esp important to consider that a lot of lgbt ppl who have a tricky and strained relationship with sex are like that because of trauma #which is very common for queer folks #it’s really not an ace-only thing #like i am sex repulsed but it’s very hard to discern if it’s because i’m asexual or if it’s the trauma. either way i deserve to have those #feelings and be included in lgbt spaces and discussions about sex and treated as just another queer person with a different experience #instead of being alienated because my feelings about sex don’t directly line up with yours #im so sick of people in this community trying to pit us against each other. as an ace lesbian that shit is so toxic and harmful #my relationship with sex is fluid. im sex-positive always‚ but i often find myself sex repulsed. im otherwise neutral about it but im sick #of people acting like it’s either you enjoy sex and have it frequently or you hate it and you shame everyone who has it like youre a puritan #and it’s often aphobes who bought into that ‘aces are puritanical celibate straights who want ppl who have gay sex to die or think they’re #‘dirty’ or some shit. and it was literally 90% crypto-aphobes pretending to be aces to get people to adopt that into their belief system #the same way crypto-t/rfs pretend to be trans women who want to prey on the ‘innocent women’ #and y’all will use those posts/screenshots as ‘evidence’ that whatever scapegoat you’ve selected is actually inherently bad/homophobic/ #misogynistic/etc and not even #acknowledge the giant hole in your logic cuz you’re too busy trying to find a scapegoat #it’s the same tactics and y’all fall for it every time #text post #like. lesbians are CONSTANTLY getting hounded and told that we’re broken or mentally i’ll for not showing interest in (having sex with) men #for the same reason asexuality is considered bad or wrong or weird #not showing interest in heterosexual relationships or sex is why this is so important #anyone that falls outside the scope of heterosexuality is part of this community whether you like it or not

[martyrbat]

[ID: Bruce Wayne and Minhkhoa Khan breaking up in the rain. Bruce is in normal civilian clothes while Khoa has a white cloak on and a mask that hides his eyes. Khoa persuades, “We'll start in a small city in Southeast Asia, and systematically dismantle its criminal underworld. Out all the corrupt politicians. And then we'll go to the next, and the next. We'll build a high-tech base of operations that moves with us. We'll live well off the coffers of the gangs we dismantle. We'll expand from there. In time, maybe we could even tackle a city like Gotham. Not like boys, but like men at the peak of our skills.” Bruce simply tells him, “No.” Minhkhoa points an accusatory finger at him as his angry response has been edited to be a post by @/egirlbutternubs that reads, “But babe you love being gaslit.” END ID]

#everybody has their burdens. for example mine is constantly thinking about batman 105 and how it could have been soo good.... #like this drives me INSANE. #hes trying to convince bruce to stay. to not leave him. he shouts he doesn't care about anyone or anything but is standing there #in the rain while bruce is about to literally board an airplane and hes trying so hard to convince him to change his mind #to not 'throw away' what hes been training to do. to not limit himself to just one city #like haha silly edit but the fact ghat khoa is putting his heart on his sleeve the most he ever will right here #to his one and only friend the only person who seems to understand him and then being told hes broken?? #literally it's such a betrayal. its heartbreaking and infuriating. its insulting. #i have a big and better post about this in my drafts somewhere...... #in the meantime i love toxic yaoi & im plagued by the idea of khoas potential in a good writers hands and how itll most likely never happen #c: batman | i: 105 #crypt's panels #batman #posts from the crypt #minhkhoa khan #ghostbat

[tubbytarchia]

It seriously feels like there's more bitching about toxic FH in the flower husbands tag than there is actual toxic FH posts. It is really funny though. Man yells at cloud energy

#when you're so upset that you start calling out posts and opinions that arent even there half the time #this is like. 5 people you're calling out for. what? #flower husbands #if the bitching can go in the maintag then so can this post #These posts keep complaining about toxic FH being so widespread suddenly when it really is not #I swear to god this notion is just being adopted from the various “defending FH!!” posts and not whatever theyre actually supposed to #be in response to #let people have their fun interpreting media even if it differs from your interpretation goddamn girl !! who hurt you #The small amount of people who hold the “toxic” interpretation probably feel really awful for having such vocal backlash #did they commit a crime? Did they personally attack you? Sorry its still funny but also just really baffling

[galedekarios]

maybe i'm Too Old and fwiw i do understand adding your own touch as an artist or writer to a certain extent, but i honestly don't understand the appeal of changing entirely how a canon character looks and/or acts to the point of where i have to check the tags/description to make sure i'm in the right tag bc i never would've thought it's them otherwise

#like at what point is it still that character and at what point is it an oc #is this just bc established chars get more notes and engagement in comparison to ocs or... #anyhow me when i see another post abt 'gale' beating or needing to beat someone up and i'm like ??? who is that #bc it's not gale #that's not even 'dark' gale #and i'm glad it's not #that's your weird skinwalker oc #get that toxic violent man trope bs away from me tbh #ch: gale dekarios #vg: baldur's gate 3 #series: baldur's gate #text: personal #fandom critical

[sunsetzer]

When I finally hit perfection on switch I am buying stardew valley for pc so I can mod it. I would love some mod recommendations but also want to keep in mind that my poor laptop is nine whole years old and wheezes even running webkinz when I get the sudden urge to play it and I'm pretty sure too many mods would kill it lmao

Note: I know y*ndere elliott is a popular one (censored bc I don't want this showing up in the tag out of respect for those who actually enjoy it,) but that trope is genuinely triggering for me thanks to a terrible friend I had as a teenager so that's already in the no pile haha

#catch me downloading the axolotl and raptor mods instantly #also that one that lets you adventure with friends #i believe elliott would be willing to dive into the mines with his husband any day bc then he knows vincent is safe #also imagine the inspiration for his writing #and the fact that he can and will rescue you if you faint in there too implies he 100% knows how to fight #stardew valley #sdv #stardew mods #sdv mods #my post #i only recently realized why y*ndere makes me so uncomfy and once again i can blame the most toxic person ive ever known :') #we love having trauma that prevents us from enjoying certain things hahahaha

[bonefall]

I know you're keeping Clear Sky as an antagonist (and he's very compelling as one in your rewrite), but I'm curious: if you absolutely had to give him a redemption arc, how would you go about it? (Besides not fridging his sister and wives, of course.)

If I was forced to give Clear Sky a redemption arc I'd slip a femur right out of my legmeat and beat someone to death with it

I'd never write a redemption arc for him, ever. It would be a completely different character.

Clear Sky's redemption arc is not even an idea worth considering; This an extremely consistent abusive family member who drives the entire plot, a predator who will leverage the love people have for him, whose defining characteristic is that he dresses up his megalomania as "Just Trying to Protect Everyone"

And I'd give that up?! for what?

I'd rewrite the whole plot, JUST like how the writers did with TWO born evil foreigner villains so their story wouldn't get boring, so I could prove the he could be a good boy if he wanted to? WHY?

It's doing the same thing the Erins do, totally uninterested in the story of his victims to write yet another plot centered around the pain of an abusive man.

Elder Bones is disappointed in you if you even think about it, actually. I am holding the femurbone in my hand as we speak. I'm gonna GETCHA

#Bone Babble #Clear Sky can be redeemed in my wine cellar. if he'd like to come down to take a look #And I am sorry but like. I've never seen it done well. ever #When other people attempt it #I have never enjoyed an AU or an analysis post exploring some possibility for an alternate redemption arc #And I have seen a *LOT* of them #Every single one has played into legitimizing his Oh So Sincere Pain And Regret #HELL no!!! #NO he fucking doesn't!! EVERYTHING revolves around power to this character! #Any moments of sincere reflection or remorse get shoved down in the pursuit of more power and respect #He is incapable of sitting with his shame and that's INTERESTING #How he's a complete weasel who will find a way to twist the words of authority telling him to Cut It Out into something that benefits him #How the emotions people feel when interacting with him is either Guilt or Fanatic Affection #He's a horrible and toxic person!! The kind of person you're VERY lucky to get away from #So I've never actually seen anyone do it in a way that works. #And I'm not entirely convinced it exists. Anything is possible but no. Not in my house

[winslowat3am]

You prob won’t see this but hi! I follow you and your beautiful wife bc of your love for black women and life tips! I wanna share a story that happened yesterday where I was harassed in a gas station by an aggressive black male security guard and get nonblack poc feedback bc I no longer feel safe around black men and just curious to what advice or thoughts you have.

Last night I walked inside a pilot gas station to use the restroom where I wore a yellow camo track suit with the hood up bc I was cold. The security told me to take my hood down even tho there was no policy where I could see and followed me to the restroom door and called me out my name (I heard him thru the door), after I finished in the restroom I went to confront him at the register he was hiding behind where we got into a heated verbal exchange , I cussed him out amd I hurt his ego evidently bc he felt the need to follow me outside to escalate it but I outtalked him and got in my car. I never took my hood down. I went back in the gas station with a girlfriend for water after informing her of what happened where he then tried to make me remove my hood again and tried to encourage the women at the registers to refuse me service bc I wouldn’t remove my hood, we got into it again. He was aggressive, approached me slamming his hand on the counter, got loud, and sensitive bc I got the best of him twice verbally and in the end I still got the water and never took my hood down; the nice white lady at the register took my money from my friend who paid for it, the black woman at the register was a m@mmy. He nitpicked my outfit and physical appearance but ppl passing thru wore hoods and had pants hanging off their asses, tummy shirts, brought dogs in the store, but was never harassed like I was. I don’t have a problem following a policy but I won’t follow a policy when it’s enforced on me but no one else. So I called the police and they told me to file a complaint with corporate and see what I can do about it so I will be calling them in the morning. Did I mention the security tried to get me banned for trespassing just bc i didn’t back down and verbally whooped him?? LOLL!!! I’ll be carrying a switchblade from now on and learning to shoot a gun real soon!

Read my tags. I'm assuming you're a bw? It doesn't take all the hoodrat buffoonery Glocktavious displayed to ask someone to remove their hood. Talk to a lawyer, they'll help you go about prosecuting Dustavious the right way. So unprofessional. I hope this isn't a late response, I don't really check Tumblr lately or read every ask but yours grabbed my attention. You did the right thing! Always stand up for yourself. You're a savage for checking his ass. Never be afraid of a man, & keep a weapon on you. 👏👏👏👏Insecure, pussy "men" pick fights with women, they think being aggressive & loud intimidates you & they never prepare for a strong retort that shuts their shit down. My completely honest & straightforward unfiltered pov: We need to address the fact that the bullying of bw is a problematic behavior that is perpetuated by bm primarily (not all, but atp it's so common it might as well be). You'd be better off opening up your dating options to men outside of your race, tbh. (Be very selective & careful when itrl dating). Non-bm build their communities & protect their women. [Redacted] That's why I don't understand why some ww leave wm, who have privilege & power, for bm, who 9/10 don't have anything to offer except dick, kids & struggle love. Even when bm manage to have success it doesn't change their crusty ass mentality. I recently learned that a bw is killed by a bm every six hours. [Redacted] Bm are the only race of men who publicly bash, degrade & bully their race of women while praising, fetishizing & worshipping non-bw. But you can't expect men who hate themselves to love or value you. I see the bs bw have to deal with daily & it saddens me. I feel like they target bw cause they think it'll make them men & acceptable in the eyes of wm, it's embarrassing. [Redacted] I can't imagine treating my baby like that. [Redacted] I'll never post or reblog a "this is a safe space for everyone" post. It's not. I don't post for them. I don't want racists/colorists in my space where bw & woc tell me that they feel safe, seen & protected. I gatekeep my blog so that you're safe expressing your feelings here. I thought it was obvious since I never acknowledge bm but it needs to be said. I 100% agree with the bw advising bw to choose higher quality men. You should watch Cynthia G & Paris Milan on YouTube & other black women who cover domestic & racial topics, it's very educational & insightful, they offer a lot of perspective & I agree with so many points they make. [Redacted] The best advice I can give you is to run & never look back. Good luck. ❤️

#you can sue him personally for discrimination & verbal harassment & file a complaint with corporate #If you're banned from the store then you can have the cops get his information & press charges #once corporate finds out about the incident he'll more than likely lose his job #Make sure to stress that he intentionally embarrassed you by making a scene followed you to the bathroom & outside of the store in attempt #to escalate the situation he was highly aggressive & approached you & that you felt scared for your safety which caused emotional distress #those are super important details & ultimately where he fucked up #& if you're able to write down the date/time this occurred & have the camera footage obtained by police & your friends as witnesses #it'll help your case #The moment someone loses their cool & lowers themself even lower than they already are you already won #As you go through life the more jackasses you'll encounter & you'll become so immune that shit won't even anger you the way it used to #Speaking from experience #I don't see him living long cause losers who fuck with people & think being loud & ghetto gives them an upper hand never live a long life #toxic masculinity is a fear of strong women masked by a fraudulent superiority complex #he's corny asf if the only thing he could think to call you was ugly like what guy doesn't automatically run to that as an insult? #They even use it when they get rejected it's always that or 'bitch' cause they're sooo original #they're tiring #long post #ask

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

Source: Lesbian Newsletter August 81 - by The Lesbian Newsletter Collective located in Australia

#finally getting to posting some stuff from this #Australian lesbian history #lgbt history #lesbian history #image #lgbt #photo #quote #toxic shock #feminism #personal #lesbian

[orcelito]

ooooookay so i havent seen anyone on tumblr talk about this directly yet so i figured i'd make a post linking to ppl talking about it. im not personally involved, but since this is an artist i recognize & see around, i figure ppl have the right to know

so uh. long story short. @/valdrickvile on here is kinda uhhhhhh not someone you'd wanna interact with, maybe.

^ this thread goes into it

& in case anything happens to the tweets, here's the big document that goes into it. ive read thru a good amount of it and uh........... yeah.

im not sharing this as a call to harass the people involved (Please Dont) but just. people have a right to know. so pls just block and move on.

#speculation nation #adding the disclaimer there. i am NOT doing this as some toxic callout post or anything. #there's just some... really bad shit in there lol & it makes me personally very uncomfortable with interacting with his stuff anymore #so. people deserve to know. #i contemplated posting this in main tag but decided against it. bc i really dont wanna poke the hornet's nest lol #but for my followers. Here You Go. #twitter goers have probably seen this already but i havent seen this on tumblr yet (aside from a vague mention of it that alerted me to it) #had to dig. ended up getting this post from someone in my server sldkjfsldkfj #SO. sharing so u guys dont have to dig for it. #i spent too long reading thru all these screenshots and just. eugh.

[birthdaycakeplate]

This is an emotional ramble on why I got into tfa Blitzbee (not that any body asked me and will be leaving this post a little bit scarred- I simply think way too much about fictional men, and have to talk about them to balance my blood sugar)

I saw tfa when I was like 13 and hated it vehemently. Couldn’t wait for the next show on CartoonNetwork to come on. I saw Transformers Armada in snippets  when I was 8 and loved it. Because of Hot shot, basically... and Starscream.

Now one year ago I saw Tfa again on YouTube, after being stuck in G1 and Armada hell for trying to revisit childhood memories out of NOWHERE, and it’s now the most important piece of fiction to me on the planet. I can’t believe how much I love this show, now that I’m old as hell.

On to my point.

I have some kind of problem -that I won’t be telling my therapist about- where I HAVE to ship characters that I think are cute or cool 🙃 If I like you, you get yourself an in universe pairing. I can’t enjoy literature or media without romance or ships in it, same with real life. Obviously I don’t know why that is, or if should be worried.

Anyway, Blitzbee was an interesting case, because, while truly watching this show for the first time finally, I thought Bee was rude compared to his G1 self, and Blitzwing was just thousands of tonnes of cute, strong, extremely interesting mech.

I tend to base my ship relationships off my real life one of 13 years (so that’s how you know I’m biased and unreliable).

Big-strong looks precious with little-sassy. That’s my default, but not my only means of forming the connection between characters. Otherwise I wouldn’t indulge so deeply in Strika x Lugnut.

-Extra clarification, if I’m being confusing-

🔽🔽🔽

With the millions of exceptions I have to this default template, I should say (in my only, extremely weak defense) that it basically depends on the character I’ve found cute and cool. Like Overlord x Tarn, to give an example. They are vile, reckless, brutal, and their ship is saturated in dysfunction and animosity. Not to mention, there is no one specific cute, little baby to keep protected and loved (just kidding, it’s Tarn. He’s baby).

So the template isn’t a final thing. You don’t have to be a big bruiser with a little angel, when I’ve got equal power ships like WonderBat, JesseJames from Team Rocket, or rk1000 from DBH  in my arsenal.

And even then, like OverTarn, I subconsciously label someone as the sweetheart who needs protecting, just not in the same sense. Starscream x Windblade is a fun ship, and in that one, I think of Starscream as a needy, self conscious, broken mech who needs lots of affection.

Y’all did not ask for this, stop this, Cake.

——End clarification, back to the point——

It just so happened that Blitzwing got the role of ‘big boy is stronk and assertive’ (for reasons I’ll explain below) and I my kind, I wanted to assign him by favorite formula of a tiny sass machine to provide for.

I ignored finding him a ship for a while, and focused on the one that got me interested in Tfa suddenly in the first place- Megop. Who also fits my default template, splendidly.

I consumed more content just to see those two cuties in their natural habitats, until at last, Bumblebee wasn’t the rude bot I thought he was.

He was confident, playful, moderately easy to fluster (adorable), and compassionate ✨ He knew how to live life (I wish I did), made MANY mistakes (my favorite kind of character, because I regret everything I’ve chosen in life), and he was so happy whenever he could be with his family and just chill.

Bee was a sweetheart, I just hadn’t realized. When he told Sari to go ahead and cry all she needed and just held her in that one episode, that really did me in finally. Bee was now an awesome character, and I’d just needed to get to know him better. Which is frequently the case- I started off hating this show, after all.

Struggling with the emptiness of Blitzwing having no partner despite my insane infatuation for him (again, why does everyone need to be in a relationship, Cake? Life is fulfilling without romance. Well, I’m not going to tell my therapist still, so this is just my brain forever, I guess. Relationships or I lose interest) I was ✨immediately enlightened✨ I could see it now, I could see THE PAIRING💕 the one I’d waited a month for 🥺

But it got better, AS SOON as I’d given the thought life.

They could also actually.... ✨WORK✨

I realized they could be a sensible couple and I hadn’t just thrown them together like I had ShockBlur.

And it was literally all thanks to Blitzwing’s random, playful side I was given this little puzzle piece.

I could have my cake and eat it too (hence my name 🙃).

Blitzwing could be rough, tough, and sharp and protect his cocky, lighthearted, friendly, goofy little Autobot mate. AND he had a matching personality.

Years of war, violent, traumatic experiences had hardened him into a responsible, keen mech (in my head canon of him at least) which reminded me of my own partner in life. So another brick in the ship I was build.

BUT, Blitzwing could also be playful when his little one needed him to be. He could be reckless and daring and confident when Bee needed it, but still settle down for the day to watch him play video games and keep him cuddled in his lap.

(Obviously this is all shipping jargon, and I’m delusional, but you have to be delusional to ship characters who are unloving enemies, and canonically disgusted with each other, I guess 😭)

So, here I am projecting all my shit (these poor fictional robots) onto this amazing couple, I’ve finally met a justification to ship together (I have to have justification or I lose my freaking mind) AND THEN.

THEN Blitzwing calls Bumblebee (and Fanzone’s matching car) “Cute!” Because ‘they’re twins’.

And that’s all I needed for my formula of nonsense. Blitzbee was born, and can you guys freaking imagine what it was LIKE to enter into a fandom that was not only still alive, BUT SHIPPED the things I shipped? Like I cannot leave this place, I have never lucked out on old media still being popular, and loved enough to assign ships I genuinely care about an existence.

Am I old? Do y’all ever get this?

Anyway, I AM SHARING THIS for no other reason then I think so much about how perfect they are together, and I’m generally jarred and sad when in the show they don’t show each other the barest hint of kindness. 

But more accurately, I’m sharing this because I’m hoping someone will like read this and say in the comments wow BirthdayCake this is actually me, like these are my thoughts and feelings. You just described me, you are not alone. I literally could not believe how perfect two mechs having a similar personality type was when they were both so cute, what were the chances 🥺🥺🥺

Another part of me hopes none of you will read this, because I sound like an idiot.

So, anyways I need therapy, but I’m using cartoons instead. I’m sorry if you made it all the way to the bottom.

#Ever just share too much on Tumblr because you are just so into this one Monical having bitch? #Rambling #my insipid thoughts #Toxic post from a toxic person #Blitzbee #tfa #tranformers animated

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Sorry to be a hater but this is how I’ve been feeling recently

#listen. #I love fluff #fluff is great #but does EVERY relationship have to be fluff and only fluff #I’ve noticed in the past that fandoms fandoms tend to #like #stray away from any conflict between characters they ship that doesn’t end in ‘omg you were right and I was so wrong 🥺’ #‘no I was wrong and I’m so sorry 😖😖😖’ #‘okay let’s agree to never fight again and be healthy and happy forever 🥹’ #and I’m more into complex not quite a perfect fit relationships right now #ones where they struggle to stay together #or where they both like each other but don’t get together for reasons OTHER than miscommunication #ones where they know they love each other but there’s obstacles #or where they’re both abusive shits #or where they’re both shitty people and they fit like a glove #I want more than just ‘luv you bby’ ‘awww me too’ ‘let’s go pet puppies together’ #like sometimes I find two characters and I’m like ‘YES! something refreshing! let me find more content’ #only to find all the fandom flanderized the characters #especially with the more toxic ones #it’s like. they’re shitty people but the fandom can’t explore that so they just remove everything that made them interesting #and its like ‘…why are you using *these* characters to do this?’ #there’s every other character in the world to be sweet and cutesy #I’m hyperfixate on *this* dynamic #not the same dynamic every other relationship before it had #it’s like copy paste characterization regardless of if it makes sense #anyway #sorry for being a bitch about this but whatever :/ #personal post

[mcybree]

yknow I wasnt feeling like finishing my flower husbands essay (I feel less of a push to now that I dont technically Have To meticulously prove/justify my stance— people do just. agree with me now! which is insane) but I’m starting to think maybe it’s still needed actually

#I’m cautious because it was always a passion project rather than one of spite. I dont want to resume it out of spite #But on review of both my tag and recent fandom discussion of toxic fh portrayals… #having it all laid out in one place seems preferable to the sporadic posts in my tag. #I’d just need to adjust the hypothetical audience I am writing for a bit from ‘guy who knows about fh and is open to other interpretations’ #to ‘guy who doesnt know about fh’ #However a lot of joy I personally get from fh comes from my own somewhat fanon interpretation of it #(aka I like to imagine they‘re slightly more ‘’‘in love’’’ than they actually are shown to be. surprisingly) #actually. the canon speaks for itself in what scott does in the absence of it. I think I just need to refocus….. #…hey guys. do we think two essays with different focuses within the same document is a good or rational idea ? #bree barks so fucking loud

[dragon-tamer-1]

I want to be able to reblog people's art without having to worry about people's negative reactions when it's someone that a majority of people don't like, is that so much to ask?

Why must it be a problem if I like someone's art even if the person believes in something others don't? Why must people treat people like they're bad for liking someone's art and writing when others don't like that person because of their beliefs?

I'm just hanging out and reblogging art and writing that I find enjoyable. In the end that's just what I'm doing when I reblog stuff. Enjoying it. If it's something I don't enjoy/like to see, I just block the tag or, if it's a specific blog that I decided that I didn't enjoy and don't want to see I block that blog as well. Otherwise just vibing. I don't hate anyone that doesn't like someone else of course, but the way people talk about that one person, it's like they think it's the worst possible thing for someone to enjoy that person's art and writing. I just can't hate someone based on that person's beliefs, it just goes against my own personal beliefs, and I can't help that I still enjoy those things.

I try to keep the drama and stuff off my blog cause I'm not about that. And it shouldn't be treated like some kind of crime to still enjoy someone's art/writing/etc just because other people don't like that person, in my opinion.

#vent post #i only feel this way cause someone on anon asked why i still follow a certain person cause i reblogged that person's post updating their fic #and i think it's weird that if people don't like that person. then just don't like that person #i just enjoy the art and writing #i only see hate going to that person yet that person has never spread hate for anyone to anyone #i just want to reblog stuff without it becoming this big thing of drama #discourse tw #stop spreading hate and just move on #at this point it just seems like toxic behavior (not attacking anyone. just how it feels to me) #like i said you can freely dislike someone #its just that it seems controlling when you want others to think like you do and dislike who you dislike and congorm to your own beliefs #I'm just here to enjoy art and writing #regardless of who it's from #unless that person has legitimately hurt people #just block certain tags and the person you dislike and move on #i don't think anyone is bad for liking or disliking people for their own reasons and personal beliefs #i also just cant hate someone for their own beliefs. especially since they're not hurting anyone with those beliefs #sorry for the down mood #this whole thing is just tiring for me and i just want to enjoy the things i like without being all “man people are going to dislike me - #just because i still like the art/writing of someone that everyone around me dislikes. i just want to enjoy stuff why must it be such #a controversial thing to just like something “ #can't we all just agree to disagree instead of being mean to someone who likes something /someone you don't? #liking and reblogging stuff that doesn't have any harmful stuff in it can't hurt anyone #i wish this stuff didn't make me feel as stressed as i did #I'll be fine #i just want to enjoy the art and stories that i came to love by the people who made them #regardless of their beliefs #cause i think that just because someone believes something doesn't make them a bad person for believing that

[tiger-balm]

some people are soooo negative all the time like girl shut up !

#like maybe if you stepped away from your screen and experienced the real world you would realize nothing is that serious <3 #like at this risk of “toxic positivity” or whatever #i just personally i dont think yelling online about players or coaching or whatever is productive or healthy #the world isnt ending bc of one bad game from a team or from a player #and unless you work for the team it really doesnt impact your life at all lol #so why not just have fun when you can <3 #anyway whatever #sometimes i would just like to look at things for my teams without having to scroll through a million negative posts #talking to myself