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thewandererh · 15 days

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HII wait are you THE the Wanderer (like the one on yt)??? Really sorry if not and I’m mistaking you for the wrong person here

In any case! I love the way you draw iterators and slugcats SO MUCH??? Like your style is just so incredibly eye-pleasing and wonderful to look at I am in incredible awe. Anyway uhm. Yeah! Scuttles away

(- @strandedaylily)

yes!!! i am :]!! the one who animated tr on yt yeash thats me💥. and its you!! the real strandedaylily,, reposted some of ur stuff recently to show it off f4 answering this. love ur thingers :DD✨

and thanku sm 😭😭 that means??? so much??!? its been a journey finding my style and i love that u love it sm!! i have a few diff styles for iterators and slugcats, and whipped up these fast sketchy style analysis sheets last night.

observe:

Iterator Styles

I have two main styles for iterators: chibi and humanoid-ish. round head vs oval head with a cheek curve (cheek curve is a staple of my style. was actually against it when drawing iterators with it for the first time, yet it’s become such a signature now XD. I love it a lot huhu). here is an example with my lovely boy Twine (he is not the main antagonist despite his mischievous posings). also!! slim eyes for devious characters, like twine and shadows (and leaves, unwillingly /lore). the two ogs 💛 with their yellow jack-o-lantern faces. theres a phrase i made up a bit ago: you can’t spell wanderer without jack-o-lantern-faced iterator, can you?

got better with posing over the years but im still struggling with fabric and cloaks </3

Slugcat Styles

now for slugcats, its evolved a different way. rather with two stages, they have a few more. when i first discovered rainworld, i had a very simple way of drawing. u heads and 3 fingers and toes, aswell with really odd aggressively-digi legs. and then it evolved when i learned “sketching” (blotting down odd shapes with barely any sense of proportion. balls for the elbows, no line of action, eyeing it and getting anatomy wrong lol) and things got really disproportionate. theres more stages, but i made a few complex and simple examples of my style over the years :]!! maybe i put too much effort into it but it was interesting to figure out!!

theres some timeskips in the big timeline one, and some other arts of mine might showcase style changes a bit better, and this is only my digital gallery, but oh well!!! whats done is done until its undone💥 /ghibli movie reference

didn’t do iterators or general effects-and-tidbits-i’ve-learned (shading, rendering, lineart, etc) bc i’ve spent so much time already. so you get SLUGCAT BEAM BLASTED💥💥. all this art ranges from 2019-2024 (the years i’ve been a rainworld fan :])

yes i spent hours analyzing my old and new art just for fun but i think i learned something. thanks for asking this and putting a big smile on my face :]!! have a good day you (and anyone else whos reading this. thx for reading so far and so much💛✨!!)

#rainworld #rainworld slugcat style evolution #style evolution #style growth #personal art journey #art evolution timeline #art evolution #style changes #rainworld slugcat #rw slugcat #rambling #yapping into the void #slugcat beam blasted #wanderer overload #hashtag look at my old art #im happy about where i am rn and how far ive gone :]#keeping arting you lovley beginning and intermediate and master artists!!#artist appreciation

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solradguy · 9 months

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Hello! I’ve been archiving stuff for a fandom I’m in (RWBY for context) and posting it to a side blog for fun. Really, I’m just compiling stuff I don’t see anyone sharing. I don’t want to misidentify what I’m doing!

I was wondering if you had ever posted anything about how you upscale images? You’re quite good at it, so I was wondering if you had shared any advice. When I upscale, the quality goes way down!

I don’t want you to think I’m using you instead of google! I’ve looked up guides on this, but I’m still struggling a bit. I’ve tried working with “vectors” on the advice of a friend.

Of course, I’m not really sure if this is the polite way to go about this. Maybe it’s a super secret and this is a severe faux pax! Please disregard this if it is! You feel a bit like an upperclassman in archiving (a senpai, if you prefer) and we’ve interacted several times.

Not top secret at all!! It's just kind of... esoteric lol... Been too lazy to explain it. But since you asked... ;P

I use Real ESRGAN for the main upscaling part of the process: https://github.com/xinntao/Real-ESRGAN/

It comes with instructions but basically you plop your image into the same folder as the .EXE and then run this in the terminal:

./realesrgan-ncnn-vulkan.exe -i input.jpg -o output.png

Replace input.jpg with the full filename of the file you're upscaling and then change output.png to what you want the upscaled file to be named. I usually just make it like [OG filename]BIG.png haha

Waifu2x works alright-ish too, if ESRGAN doesn't work on your machine for whatever reason: https://waifu2x.udp.jp/index.html

Once I've got the upscaled file, I do the rest in Clip Studio Paint EX 2.0. CSP's image resizer's not very good, so I don't rely on it. But the Smart Smoothing and general image adjustment tools are useful. Sometimes I'll do some light cleanup in CSP before upscaling the file too, like removing dust with the Clone Stamp or light redrawing of fuzzy parts, etc. Most art/image editing tools will have what you need. I don't get to use Smart Smoothing for archival stuff often enough to say it's absolutely worth buying CSP for.

ESRGAN is a very powerful tool, but it does lose almost all of the image's original texture when it upscales. Things like analog art or anything with rough or grainy textures will get smoothed, but already smooth digital art upscales beautifully. The best workaround I've found for restoring texture is to take the original image, resize it in CSP to the scale of the upscaled image, and then paste the OG image over it, adjust the opacity, and then use the Sharpen filter to fix it from there.

So if the original image is 400x800px and the upscaled image is 8000x16000px, you'll use the CSP resizer to enlarge the OG image to 8000x16000px and use that as the overlay to restore some of the texture. It's not perfect, but it looks better than leaving it entirely smooth. Each image is different, you'll get pretty good at figuring out what texture to use and which to erase. I've found making a greyscale static texture, setting its layer to Overlay mode, and adjusting that helps a little too. I'll put the texture I use under a readmore below.

If the image is too small, not even ESRGAN can help... It's also not too good at text if there's a lot of .JPG noise in the way. If there's text, there's a good chance you'll have to manually redraw it or font-match it and completely redo it.

Good luck!! Hope this helps. Thank you for the compliments, too!!

Sometimes Gaussian Blur-ing this very, very, slightly works with the image better but most of the time I find that leaving it crisp looks the best. Editor's discretion.

#asks #long post

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akamikazae · 7 months

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how do you do digital art like arrgggh it’s so hard

Haha I feel you!! I am probably the wrong person to ask about digital art😂 I’m still learning and have only very recently started drawing digitally, I was very against trying it for a long time as I love traditional fine arts. But even knowing the basics I found making the switch super hard, like learning how to draw all over again. Which it kinda is! Programs aren’t at all intuitive and drawing on a tablet is so so soo different than paper or canvas. Idk what kind of materials you’re working with, but I use an iPad and what helped me feel more comfortable was buying a ‘paper texture’ screen protector. It doesn’t feel like paper but it does provide a lot more ‘tooth’ and the pen doesn’t slip and glide as easily. Idk if they make them for other tablets?? but I use ‘paperlike’ protectors, they’re cheap and you get two, and I haven’t even changed mine out since I got it—almost two years ago! It’s just a matter of getting used to it, which I still am not! lol to make good art ya gotta make bad art! So do studies if you can, find artists you like, and do master copies, pick apart what you like about their work and try to figure out why they made the choices they did. And learning the basics and stuff always helps too even if that knowledge won’t apply until you figure out how to use whatever program you’re using. If you know the rules it makes it easier to break them haha. Theres so many tutorials out there but I almost always go back and look at my fine arts books still lol. Oh and remember to flip your canvas !! -I always forget haha

Thank you for the ask<333 I hope this was moderately helpful lol, just know that you are not alone in your digital art struggles ahaha

#ask #thank you for the ask #art is hard #digital art is v hard #I am always looking for more tips too #v kind anon<3

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carbo-ships · 2 years

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Hey, this is probably a weird question and I mean no disrespect but I was wondering if you can give any tips on how to write selfship stuff? I’m struggling to write it as I keep “cringing” at it (i know it’s not cringy at all but still). I love your writing, thanks for sharing it with others! Your account is wonderful and super inspirational :) (if this ask offends in any way pls delete it)

Oh, wow, thanks! I'm actually super insecure about my writing, so that's awfully kind of you to say 😅

I've been writing selfship fics since I was uhhh..... 11. So that's 13 years ago. So I got into it long before I ever experienced cringe or even knew what selfshipping was. I usually write on an app on my phone so that I can jot down ideas wherever/whenever. Most ideas aren't big enough to be a full story, so it also feels less like I'm abandoning a "project" if it's only a draft on my phone (similar to why I do digital art rather than traditional, putting it on paper feels like a commitment, I wanna be able to easily drop ideas that won't work). But when I have a longer story I really like I'll shift it over to my laptop to make sure I actually fill it in.

Sometimes when I get stuck in a story trying to figure out how I get from Point A to Point B, I'll just put [] where I need to go back to finish and just write what I already know is gonna happen. I can figure out the details later, no need to let them stop me.

Also remember you don't have to share your writing with anyone if you don't want to. The first 11 years of my stories will never see the light of day, and that is perfectly fine. Y'all don't need to see middle-school me fawning over Roy Mustang. Those will remain in the Google Drive for all of eternity. Imagine that FMA equivalent of "My Immortal". Now please stop imagining. There are also some stories I write with Sol that I worry about how they'd be received, or that address something too personal, so I just don't post those. Easy peasy.

I also tend to write in the third person because it makes me feel less embarrassed lol. Like this isn't me, it's my s/i (we are exactly the same, there is literally no difference, but it feels less cringe to me).

Does that help at all? Feel free to DM me if you have any specific questions, I am in fact just some guy.

#ask #anon

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noxcorvid · 2 years

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5.27.22 - ilgur sketches

Not much to say here. Rediscovered the pencil tool on the super old drawing app I’ve been using for years and it’s been made concepting/digital art in general much more bearable. Not really fond of that 3/4 headshot but ehh. As always my mental image of ilgur remains vague and frustratingly difficult to pinpoint but think I’m getting it, so naturally working out armor/clothing deets. Casual stuff towards the bottom, Thalmor infiltration towards the top - was trying to decide which outfit should be her canon outfit, leaning towards canon clothes + undrawn fur shawl. In more initial concepts she was more fashion forward but I’ve decided to work within Skyrims natural aesthetic of more salt of the earth. Somewhat rugged, balancing it w some femininity. Still trying to figure out her hair/dreads progression.

Defining her character more into one I enjoy working with, not one I think should exist for the … sake of it? Idk something I’ve struggled w for a while is when making ocs (not just w Skyrim and ocs) to like. Have them be judged by how cool/realistic other ppls content and I feel like that’s limited me a lot. So been trying to break out of that pattern and it’s been a blast so far w ilgurs character and her story beats

#Skyrim #my ocs #orc tag #orsimer #tes #my art #ilgur tag

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risingroseart · 1 year

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I posted 37 times in 2022

24 posts created (65%)

13 posts reblogged (35%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@risingroseart

@southfarthing

@abyssanyon

@rainbowchibbit

@risingroseakira

I tagged 29 of my posts in 2022

Only 22% of my posts had no tags

#my art - 14 posts

#doodle - 12 posts

#digital art - 11 posts

#fanart - 10 posts

#risingroseart - 9 posts

#mcyt - 9 posts

#sketch - 8 posts

#critical role - 7 posts

#cr fanart - 6 posts

#critical role fanart - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 108 characters

#i know its a common choice bc tangos colors are warm so colder colorscheme is obv a good opposite to use but

My Top Posts in 2022:

You know when you have these jokes and shitposts that only you and one other person on the planet really understand?

Well I thought I would share this anyway! even though only @galaxy-minecart has the full context to this jfhgkfhg

So here's the first one. Some more Wither-Watcher Deity!Grian stuff (you can find a proper drawing of him here, since I gave up drawing him properly after my 5th redraw on this fucking meme shitpost) but he's been thrown into empires smp.

More context under the cut

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So its basically from a deity grian crossover with empires (i made this before he canonically visited the server LOL) coupled with the imo absolutely hysterical concept of Joel just refusing to believe in deities and demons and the like. I mean when Xornoth showed up, mans deadass went ''i do not see. i am looking away. Xornoth? never heard of them.'', so its probably the same with gods.

Anyway so deity!grian shows up on the server and bumps into joel and makes him his 'listener' (which does NOT mean the same thing as it does in canon watcher lore in the absolute slightest. listeners in my lore are basically followers of the watchers, and as far as i know canon listeners are against the watchers so kgkfhghg v different) but joel the small king refuses to believe (or at least admit to believe) that grian is a god so he acts like they're just ''allies''. nevermind the dread of feeling the very gaze of the universe itself befalling Joel whenever he does something Grian dislikes, no supernatural powers to be seen here, no gods in this town,,,

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Hello!! I’m alive and well.

I haven’t had much to post as most of my art has been unfinished and/or private worldbuilding stuff or figuring out people’s designs. However I have fallen into a deep critical role hyperfixation on campaign 3, Ashton’s design and Campaign 1 Percival (etc etc) de Rolo and his whitestone arc, so I’ve been doing a few doodles of some designs here and there - specifically for c3 since I’m still new to c1. This is the first proper colored one however, so yay! It’s Ashton in pretty much the same outfit Taliesin wore during Ashton’s introduction bc I haven’t been able to get that visual out of my head :] I love their laugh, whenever I hear it is when I can best visualize them in my head, it’s so distinctly their sound. Might be my now pfp, maybe! love them a lot. Also hi critters! I’m new in this corner of the internet! any fellow newbies out there? :>

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hi im rusty and not supposed to draw bc it has been a month and my hand has continuously hurt the whole time (which is also why there hasnt been any posts in a bit) but I had to do at least ONE doodle during the restream. I hope to make a "there's strength, but there's pain; There's pain, but there's strength." painting once im able but that might be a while

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hi fcg’s eyes are a struggle and im still working on his design but uhhh decided to draw my beloved he/they player character duo. also yes im aware ashton’s outfit looks different in their character art but i felt like playing around with it some more :v he’s so much fun to draw.

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My #1 post of 2022

Team Rancher has my whole entire heart

Hi, hello, I'm alive and I'm Totally Normal about these two.

Wanted to post this before I get so swept up in Empires Season 2 that I forget to put this here- I saw the scene where Tango was raging and Jimmy did his best to calm him down and stop him from doing something stupid and he said that quote and this. came to me in a vision, i immediately grabbed my tablet lol. Team Rancher brainrot is real, i love that these two got put together as soulmates. cant wait for next season when theyll probably burn down desert duo's incredibly flammable base [Reblogs and Comments help the artist and are very much appreciated!]

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #team rancher #c3e35 #cr spoilers #cr #critical role spoilers #critical role #< gotta make sure to keep the spoilers from that one post tagged

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ottercakesart · 7 months

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Lately I’ve been struggling bad.

Struggling to put what I see to paper or in my case the digital canvas.

It is right there in front of me and I get overwhelmed and anxious at attempting to put it to paper perfectly enough for me to be satisfied. In other-words, I cannot seem to get around the “break the form down into something like shapes.” For example if I was drawing the human form, I cannot figure out how to approach my subject, people online or in books and my teachers when I was a student always said break them down into shapes whether they be 2D or 3D shapes but I cannot imagine the shapes to begin with so I do not know what I should do in this situation because this advice is just useless to me as it does not apply. I try to think of the shape in my head, but no images are seen… it is empty space up there, I cannot even visualize it being pitch black.

How can I see the shape and know how to place said shape on the paper in the correct spot or however my thoughts had in mind. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself and over thinking everything.

I can only think in words, thoughts, concepts etc. I cannot even see the words when I think of them. There’s just nothing going on up there.

It sucks. I have so many ideas but because I cannot get a visualization in my head, I am unable to properly execute them on my canvas. So I end up feeling dissatisfied because it ends up being one of those, “not what I had in mind” but ok I guess, moments. Which is funny because I do not see what I have in my mind, it ends up just being thoughts on potential concepts but I still get this feeling that it isn’t perfect for me. I do not want my art to be copy-pastes of reference images. I want to make my own unique stuff. But its so hard for me to do this.

I find I have to heavily rely on reference, which I do not mind. But now its gotten to the point where I feel anxious straying away from the reference because perhaps without the reference I do not know what I am doing. I feel like I am just copy-pasting or even just cheating, it doesn’t feel like my work and I want to feel that satisfaction of creating something amazing- I’m not there and It makes me feel sad. I wish I could draw from the mind like others but what can you do. My favourite area of interest is mythology, so I want to draw from my imaginational concepts in my head but I cannot visualize anything. Even with reference I struggle to visualize how to break down what I am drawing in simplified forms. I get anxious and even procrastinate my studies because It starts to make me feel overwhelmed and do not know how to approach something in front of me. I could have a reference for example that has a necklace I want to draw but its positioned a certain way and I want to do a different position of it, but because I cannot imagine visually, I do not know how to approach the change. I could maybe edit the reference and move the shape another way but what if the reference cannot be reshaped or edited because the positioning is too complex…. It just another limitation.

I am even struggling with using references too. For example, I need one reference for the pose, one for the clothes, another for any accessories and or further references for whatever else but finding a reference with the exact pose, exact shape or fit for what I want to draw is very hard. So I struggle alot with trying to add additional subjects or topics to my artworks.

I’ve been thinking about it lately and it makes me feel like maybe I lack creativity. I have imagination to some degree but I am just feeling so ugh. Its like I am in a constant art block. I do not know what else to say about my struggles other than I feel so disabled by it lately.

I give myself a migraine trying to force a visualization only for nothing to appear in my head anyway.

#aphantasia #artists #illustrator #digital art

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h0ney-letters · 7 months

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About me (kinda)

Age: 24

Pronouns: she/her

Main blog: @h0neyfreak

Genre/style: literary fiction, speculative fiction, creative nonfiction, flash fiction, poetry. I would also love to one day write a themed cozy mystery series under a pen name that sounds so fun.

Published?: no, not sure if I want to or if I just want to write for fun. I’ll probably submit things to some journals eventually and maybe self-publish if I ever write anything longer

Other hobbies/interests: knitting, drawing (traditional and digital), painting (oils mostly), ttrpgs (currently DMing a MOTW campaign), and I’m a casual Formula 1 fan

cw tags: I’ll always tag explicit depictions of rape, gore, and violence as “#cw: [subject]”

(Some of my) favorite books:

Madness is Better than Defeat by Ned Beauman

The Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan

Series of Unfortunate Events series by Lemony Snicket

The Giver by Lois Lowry

Piranesi by Susanna Clarke

American Gods by Neil Gaiman

Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky (but only the Constance Garnett translation)

The Letters of Vincent Van Gogh

Who is Maud Dixon? by Alexandra Andrews

Catch-22 by Joseph Heller

Current wips (updated monthly) (current ver. Oct 2023):

Long work 1: Every Reason Why. A novel following a waitress as she gets into an abusive relationship interwoven with anecdotes from her life before her abuser (going back to childhood) building two parallel stories. ~10k words at time of posting.

Long work 2: [untitled] A group of friends meet at summer camp and ~something bad~ happens. Follows them through adulthood as the bad thing unravels/becomes clear. Currently just a vague idea with some bulleted lists and snippets. Has not left the notes app.

Short work 1: What Violence? A short surreal body horror story about a young girl who gets stabbed in the chest with a knife and discovers it does not hurt or bleed the way it should. She searches for someone to bring her to a doctor to give her stitches but struggles to explain what’s going on. Based on a dream I had. ~300 words at the moment.

Short work 2: He Called Me Something Bad. A young girl kills her teenage step brother (or woman kills stepson, still sorting it out) in what appears to be an accident. The social worker/detective interviewing her starts to realize that it was not An Accident. Currently in the notes app/ideas phase. Unclear if it will make it out.

Tag list (mostly for my own reference/benefit)

#ref -> helpful lists, words, resources etc.

#guides -> kind of like ref but more to collect posts about how to write specific rules/identities of characters or settings

#inspo -> quotes, art, snippets, prompts and other things that make me want to write

#wip -> I’m a slut for a good Pinterest board/Spotify playlist/other way to outline ideas without having to sit down and write so that stuff will go here. Along with any snippets

#ocs -> any stuff about my characters. idk how much I’ll use this one because I mostly see people making OC content for genre fiction and it feels weird to make stuff for short stories and kinda disjointed literary fiction. But I also might be a weird little freak (likely) who needs to get over herself (extremely likely)

#tips -> useful info about the writing process, publishing, software, etc

#my work -> anything I write myself. I can’t pick a title to save my life so tagging by title won’t work

#good stuff -> writing by other people that I love and want to come back to and read a bunch because it is good

#review -> book/story/essay reviews. Goodreads stresses me out but I want some way to catalogue what I read now that I’ve graduated and have time for it. Also reviewing stuff helps me figure out what I want my own writing to sound and feel like.

#writeblr #writer introduction #about me #writeblr introduction #about the writer #about the author #new writer #writers on tumblr #creative writing #tumblr writer

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chasing-rabbits · 1 year

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I’m just feeling sjdklsjl today. Idk I’ve not been feeling great for awhile now and in therapy yesterday it just all came out more than I realised was getting to me. I’ve been struggling a lot physically as well with TMJ and stuff just general issues which I still need to see someone about but that’s on hold for now until my mum’s blood tests come back. They think she might have an autoimmune disorder so we figured wait til her results come back to see what it is and if it’s hereditary at all before I start booking appointments to see neurologists and stuff. My eczema has just been in what feels like a continual never ending flare up right now probably due to stress. My hands and wrists have been hurting so much typing this out now is starting to hurt. I feel useless I can’t do fucking anything not even the things I used to do for self care for my mental health so of course that’s becoming affected by lack of ability to do well much of anything. I’ve lost all passion to write and I’m starting to doubt I was ever really any good at it anyways as I look over my old poems. I’ve tried to write new poems but I mostly end up getting a mental block on being able to finish a piece or struggle to even get a poem started now. I’m enjoying learning digital art through tutorials on youtube but with my hands hurting so much I’ve not been able to do much of that recently I had a little go at it but haven’t been able to come back to it and finish it. And my hands/wrists are really starting to ache now so I’ll just leave it at that.

#I am trying to see the good and not focus on all the negatives I promise but it’s hard and idk rn I’m just not feeling it #I’m not doing awful I’m just tired with my body and my mind not cooperating #erin rambles #life update no one asked for but is getting anyway

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rozugold · 2 years

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Sorry idk if this is FAQ question or sorts but i adore ur animatics genuinely they’re some of my fav pieces of dsmp content especially your ‘Nobody’ and ‘I’m alive (reprise)’ animatics and i adore how fluid and lively ur animatics are !!! if this is isn’t any bother do u have any advice for basic scripting / planning of animatics, i currently have a storyboard but i’m struggling to get it onto digital lmao, but overall how do u plan and plot ur animatics ?

sorry if iu have ever answered this before anyways keep up ur work it’s genuinely some of the most incredible stuff i’ve seen and so nice to watch and see i adore ur art style and especially ur c!Tommy design and interpretation

Aaa thank u :D!!

And for scripting animatics.. hmm let me see if I can explain this right

So the way I plan out animatics is by first picking the main focus of what I want to tell a story about. Since animatics are basically telling little stories yknow? Usually once I pick a song I want to animate that main focus is pretty easy to figure out. So like Nobody is about Tommy’s hardships in exile and how it still affects him, I’m Alive Reprise is about Dream being out and all evil again, She Used To Be Mine is about Tommy mourning his past self. You pick a main focus and keep it in mind when planning scenes out so you know what to keep and what to cut.

And since animatics are like little stories they usually have a beginning, middle and end. So like how does it start? What are the characters doing/ what are they feeling? What happens/ happened to them? What are they doing/ feeling in the end?

This is where the song comes into play! (Of course this is for if you’re using a song with lyrics) Drawing a scene around each bit of lyrics works but also don’t be afraid to not take it too literally, if that makes any sense. So back to the Nobody animatic:

Tender as a bruise - Tommy pulls his hand away from his bleeding nose

Sharper than a razor - Dream lifts his sword

Wrap her tentacles around me like she’ll never let me go - Dream wraps an arm around Tommy’s shoulder before lightly stabbing him

But also I don’t always follow this rule since right after it’s:

Fury shakes the rafters - blood drips

But never in my favor - Side profile of Tommy, dazed after getting hit

I’m trembling in the eye of the only storm I’ve ever known - Tommy looking up at Dream before he drops tnt in the hole infront of them

That’s all I can think of at the moment, hope it helps! If you have anymore questions feel free to ask, I’m always down for animatic questions >:D

#rozu asks #anonymous #askdhdj hopefully this is comprehensible #I’m usually able to picture animatics in my head while listening to music but that’s not a very helpful response #also I’m no professional obviously this is just the way I do them

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thegracelessfaceless · 2 years

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Hey! If matchups are still open, i’m a Hispanic/Native American guy. I don’t have a label for my sexuality but I have a very heavy prefrence for men, I’m 5’5 (unfortunately) and currently studying studio art! i have curly hair that I’m very proud of and do my best to take good care of, freckles that cover most of my cheeks and a very mild case of vitiligo that has only recently begun to affect my face, which I’m not to happy about but if It happens, it happens.

my current favorite hobbies are art, mostly painting and sculpture but I do some digital on the side, as well as writing which I will never have the confidence to post and I’m finally getting back into reading, which I’m very happy about.

general things I enjoy are music (although I’m actually not too fond of heavy metal, I more prefer indie rock and grunge) a good chunk of the horror genre with rob zombie being one of my favorite directors, oddly enough video essays? i struggle to do repetitive tasks without background noise so I often put on video essays in the background so i have something to listen to while i work, and more recently, books!

my main love language is touch, to a worrying degree. I have a bit of a habit of being overly cuddly and smothering past partners and friends in too much affection. A close second however is gift giving, I’m not sure what it is but I absolutely love getting my friends sentimental gifts or going it in search for things they might like!

im currently learning spanish and ASL, and I want to go to college to become an art professor, and hopefully go abroad one day! I definitely don’t want any children and most likely never will but one of my goals in life is to get married and eventually settle down with someone I love, which creates a surprising amount of conflict in my life.

I have no idea how exactly matchups work so I’m so sorry if this is formatted weirdly or contains too much/not enough information!

Thank you for the request and the follow! Welcome to the blog!

I match you with...

Robert Silva

(Art credit @marymar )

When I got done reading your description,

All my brain had to say was Robert, Robert, Robert

In fact, I took the weekend to figure out why because the words weren't coming to me

Then I realized the Robert in my head was excited to see you!

So let's unpack this

Robert doesn't want children either

He's not got the patience or responsibility to take care of a kid 24/7

Which is why he took Sal and the gang under his wing

They're kind of his surrogates

And

He didn't even have to go through the messy part

His teenagers just walked into his apartment, mostly grown

So that was pretty great

Do prepare for Robert to completely gas you up on your art professor dreams!

He's gonna help you with your studies

Doing flashcards and even letting you read your notes to him

Robert will go through extra lengths to create your ideal study/ working space

Adjusting the lighting and temperature

Lighting incense or oil burners or using essential oils meant to increase focus and vitality

Playing you music either on the stereo, or actually playing you songs and singing

Or he can read to you if you prefer

Robert has pretty good taste in books, preferring surreal thrillers, stuff like Lovecraft

Robert's music taste is similar to yours, grunge from the 90s, shock rock like Alice Cooper, Marilyn Manson and Rob Zombie, the cheesy 80s stuff, and some good punk thrown in

Think Misfits, Danzig, Black Flag, Rollins Band, NOFX, The Bouncing Souls, etc

Would love to take you on yearly dates to Warped Tour and Taste of Chaos

Loves to watch you create your art, no matter the media

He'll just sit, transfixed by your motions like a mouse hypnotized by a cobra, for as long as you're working

Might even start learning from you, becoming your first art student!

Robert is always super critical of his own work

It's part of being taught that you have to work hard in anything

Even though he's got the money to never work again

Robert values the feeling of a job well done

With your skin condition,

Robert thinks that it's very cute

He likes leaving soft kisses along the borders where the pigment is different

But he understands your feelings about it as well

If you have a skin care regimine to stave it off, Robert totally participates in it with you

If you don't have one, he'll help you figure one out

Spends literal hundreds in skincare products for you, after researching what works best

Calls you Fun Sized

Can be really protective of you, especially in public

No one is jostling Robert's darling around in a crowded place

He'll part a crowd like the Red Sea for you to pass through, just with a look

You don't ever really see that look though

Only out of the side of your eye

Because Robert is physically incapable of looking at you with that straight up murderous look he uses to create space for you

He just thinks you're the entire universe

And would be honored to settle down with you one day

#sally face #sally face matchups #robert silva #sally face robert #sally face robert silva

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acaseforpencils · 2 years

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Tom Gauld.

Bio: I make a weekly cartoon for The Guardian newspaper about books and a weekly science cartoon for New Scientist magazine. I work as an illustrator and have written a number of comic books and, most recently, a children’s book called The Little Wooden Robot and the Log Princess. I’ve drawn ten covers for The New Yorker and a number of illustrations, but never a cartoon: which is something that I hope to remedy sooner or later.

Read more about the cover here!

I think this Spring Music cover may be my favourite. I can't read music, so I worked with a fact-checker from The New Yorker called Fergus, who understood music, to make sure the notation was correct, and all related to spring. We had to use pre-1930 music, because even publishing these tiny excerpts from modern tunes would have cost too much.

Where I sit to draw when I get tired or bored of standing. and where I work on the computer.

Tools: L-R: Uniball Eye Micro Ballpen, Pentel Micro-correct Whiteout, Pilot G-tec-C4 (for thin lines), UniBall Air (for thicker lines), Bicmatic Pencil, Eraser, Ruler.

Tools of choice: My favourite drawing tool is a ballpen: the Uniball Eye micro, which gives a lovely smooth line and has very good ink. I love to draw in Maruman Art-Spiral Sketchbooks. For me, the sketchbook is the most important part of my process. It’s a great place to play around with ideas, and look at them in different ways, without feeling anything is fixed. I try to spend as much time as I can doodling and making notes in my sketchbook, because once I move onto drawing on paper or using the computer, things seem to be on a specific path to completion. Which is necessary in the end, but only once the exploring and playing has got to somewhere interesting.

A pretty typical sketchbook page.

I also use a couple of other ballpens (one a bit thicker and one very thin), and a Pentel Micro-Correct whiteout pen. I draw all my pencils and roughs with Bicmatic pencils, then trace them in ink using my big light box (shown in the photos). I then scan them into the computer and use photoshop to do the colouring.

Lightbox:I stand at this to do most of my drawings.

Tool I wish I could use better: I’m quite colorblind in the red-green area so colours have always been difficult for me. Photoshop is really useful because you can try all sorts of things, then just undo them if they don’t work, plus I can read the CMYK numbers to figure out what the colour is mathematically, even if I can’t tell visually. But it’s still a bit of a struggle. So I suppose the tool I’d like to be able to use better would be all the colour tools analogue and digital. It would be nice to add colour to my ink drawings with watercolour.

I sit in this to think while doodling in my sketchbook.

Tool I wish existed: A paintbrush with an undo setting.

Tricks: A few years ago, really just out of interest, I made a font of my hand-lettering using a free online service. It turned out to be really useful for making rough versions of my comics and is much easier to edit than rewriting by hand. I don’t use it for finished art because it lacks a truly handmade feel, but it’s great for speedily working things out.

Misc: When I started making cartoons, I didn’t understand scanning or resolution at all, and saved all my art as atrociously low resolution files. If I ever want to reprint any of that stuff, I’ll have to find the drawings and rescan it all. Now I do the opposite: I save everything at super high resolution just in case I ever want to print it bigger.

Website, etc.

Website

Twitter

Instagram

#tom gauld #what pen does tom gauld use #how to draw new yorker covers #artists on tumblr

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meruz · 3 years

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Aforementioned long ask post please excuse me while i try to figure out tumblr's new text editor. I’ll get into the art meme questions first and then the rest at the end.

Ok first of all thank you all for sending in questions! Giving me an excuse to talk hehe. I’ll address these in number order. Here’s a link to the ask meme for reference but also I’ll restate the question for ease of reading.

1. When did you get into art?

Super cliche answer but I don’t remember a time where I WASN’T the weird art kid! I started keeping a dedicated sketchbook when I was about 12? But here’s a page from my kindergarten journal about what I want to be when I grow up.

2. What art-related sites have you ever signed up for?

LOL this is a weird question. Not sure why so many people want to know. Anyways I definitely had a dA. more than one dA account. I used to browse oekakis when I was a kid but I think I was only signed up to some small ones that internet friends owned. What else...? Mangabullet,Tegakie, Paintberri, iscribble back when that was a thing, instagram if that COUNTs, I used to post art on livejournal and dreamwidth too. Patreon, I guess. Gumroad, inprnt, bigcartel, storenvy all for selling stuff.

In terms of resources.. I have a schoolism account that I’m sharing with friends. Used to take classes on coursera for free. I signed up to textures.com for work recently haha. I can’t remember if I ever had an account on posemaniacs. Did they have accounts...? I definitely used to visit all the time.

3. Show us your oldest piece of art you have on hand.

Alright here’s me actually logging into my old deviantart account. These are from September 2008 So I was 13 years old. I don’t have a deviantart account from before then because 13 was the required age for having an account and I didn’t want to lie about my age because I wanted people to be impressed by how young yet clearly incredible at art I was LOL.

4. What defines your artistic style?

You guys are probably more equipped to answer this than me but uh... I wanna say... Focus on colors. And... a slightly heavy hand? Like confident... not always well-considered mark making HAH...

Also I think I have a pretty healthy mix of american comics/manga influences. I feel like people who are into american comics always think my art is too manga and people who are into anime/manga always think my art is too american. And I’m taking that as a good sign.

5. Do you practice other styles/have you tried other styles in the past?

I like to think I switch it up a bunch! I mean, these are pretty different, right?

I think I’ve mentioned this before but one thing I really took away from art school is that, for an illustrator at least, art style shouldn’t be consistent. Your greatest weapon is changing the aspects of your style based on the task, the emotions and message you want to illustrate etc. So depending on the project I’m working on, the fandom I’m drawing for, whether I want something to be funny or serious or dramatic, I’ll change things about my style all the time.

One thing I don’t rly post on here is really tight polished work and that’s because I do that for my day job haha. If you’re not paying me... I’m probably not gonna color in the lines.

6. What levels of artistic education have you had?

I have a whole ass diploma LOL. Bachelor of Fine Arts in Illustration. from the Rhode Island School of Design. And I had a great college experience tbh. Besides the student loans. If any of you guys are thinking about art school feel free to e-mail or message me questions or concerns, I’ll be happy to help. Be as honest as I can be.

7. Show us at least one picture you drew or sketched recently that you did not put on a public site.

heres the wandavision kids. Uhh what else do I have...I feel like I’m rummaging for loose change here...

assorted valentines prep doodles

8. What is your favourite piece that you have done?

Well, obviously this is gonna change all the time and generally it’s gonna be my most recent piece LOL. So yeah, why the hell not. I’ll say it’s this one. I have a pretty short memory which I count as a blessing for an artist. I don’t dwell that long on older work and it keeps me moving forward.

10. What do you like most about your art?

I like that it’s something that only I would make! I had this thought fairly recently and I wrote it down in my sketchbook, it’s pretty cheesy and rambling but it felt revolutionary at the time:

So yeah. I like my art best when it’s the most me and for me. And I like it least when it feels like I’m just making something for social media or for other people’s expectations or whatever.

14. What do you like drawing the most?

Kids in baggy clothing are like my go-to LOL idk if that’s obvious. but also I like being challenged so lately I’ve really loved drawing multi-character compositions, environments, weird angles, etc.

oh i LOVE drawing the underside of shoes lol. And bandages. People that are kinda beat up.. I think it comes from getting a bunch of cuts all the time. I’m always patching myself up and I want to patch characters up too.

15. What do you like drawing the least?

mmm I try to find something to like in every drawing but lets see... I don’t like doing commissions of people’s dogs. Just because it’s normally like... a family friend and my mom volunteered me without my consent and I don’t even really know what they’re expecting me to draw and I don’t even get to meet the dog. Also I’m not that great at dog anatomy. Trying to learn though.

18. What is your purpose for drawing?

This could have a million answers! Uhhh to GIT GOOD??? But also to express myself... and also to make money... I mean it depends on what the drawing IS. I draw fanart mostly to connect to people in the fandom so if you ever see me drawing fanart please take it as like an open invitation to talk to me about the character haha.

20. How would you rank your art? (poor, mediocre, good, etc.)

Good!!! I have a lot of self-confidence primarily born out of ignorance and a short attention span. If I don’t think too hard about how many other artists are mindblowingly unfathombly good... its easy to think I’m good too! LOL

In all seriousness though, I think the opinion a person has of their art is like a crazy balancing act, right? Like you have to think you suck enough to want to get better but also you have to think you’re good enough to not want to give up. I think we’re all walking that line, I know I am! But also I’m a glass half-full type of person so. Most of the time I feel good about it.

22. List at least one of your “artspirations.”

This is a good question because I’ve been trying and failing to put together one of those “influence map” memes for like a full month now. What’s giving me a hard time is I feel like none of these are actually really obvious “““influences”““ in my art? Like it’s hard to see a lot of them in the work I make...? But idk maybe you guys’ll see what I can’t.

And these are just a couple! God there’s so many more. I could talk about other artists for ages, from all different genres of art. Daumier, Rockwell like every illustrator out there, Dana Gibson, Alex Toth, Hiroshi Yoshida, a lot of the Brandywine School. Lots of current working artists too, Karl Kerschl, frikkin Masashi Kishimoto lol, Jake Wyatt, Richie Pope, Edouard Caplain, Matt Cook, Sachin Teng, - lots of big internet artists, Sophie Li, Freddy Carrasco, Milliofish, Angela Sung... like all my friends from art school too. I could just keep going but I’ll stop for now lol.

24. Do you have a shameful art past? (recolour sprite comics, tracing art, etc.)

I mean if that’s how we’re defining shameful?? sure LOL. It’s not sprite comics but I used to do pokemon sprite recolors all the time. And I used to trace manga panels and color them... Granted this was all when I was like under 12 yrs old so it’s not even embarrassing. Can you really call it shameful when a 7 year old wets the bed or whatever? Not really. In fact some of these are cool as fuck. Look

25. Draw a picture!

Man I’m so tired now but here.

I used to get a lot of compliments for drawing people smiling lol but I don’t think I’ve drawn a lot of smiling lately.. here’s proof I’ve still got it.

OK MEME DONE. onto the rest.

I read this ask first thing when i opened my computer in the morning and it made me really emotional.. I’m so glad my sketches could help you!!

I think a lot of artists on social media talk about the struggle of making art but imo not enough people talk about the joy! Like I know it’s corny but. I really meant what I said at the beginning of that sketchbook about re-contextualizing art around process and progress > product and perfection. I think its super important..! The strength of messy, unfinished, and energetic art! For the feeling of it, for the love it!

That's crazy!!! I hope you like 'em. The whole line of x-books is really good rn imo.

Hi! I totally have the answer for digital stuff on my faq lol. But in terms of drawing on paper.. it varies! I tend to use sketchbooking and any on-paper doodling I do as a way to loosen up/warm-up or experiment. But right now my go-to aresenal is:

from top > bottom

- kuretake no.55 doublesided brush pen

- tombow fudenosuke

- muji 0.38 ballpoint

- medium size poscas

- grey tombow double brush pens

- good ol bic mechanical pencil

not EXACTly sure which inking you referring to from my sketchbook but if I had to take a guess it'd probably be the kuretake no55. That's been my main inker, lately. Great for sketching with the thin end too.

You can print out and eat my art if you like. Just please don't mass produce or re-sell. <3

Thanks! I've come to accept that my art is always gonna be sort of gestural and painty naturally. It's getting it to tighten up enough to be legible that's hard lol...

uh yeah lol I agree actually. I think yolei is great.

I assume these asks are related? LOL

1) Yeah totally true. I love David.

2) I don’t take requests, sorry! But if you want to commission me to draw Legion i would be MORE than happy to. Just e-mail me at [email protected].

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#ask #anonymous

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spectrumed · 3 years

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8. book

I decided to start writing a book. A novel, it’s going to be fiction. It’s a big project. I dread big projects. I don’t feel as if I am ever able to complete them. It’s going to be left unfinished, why do I even bother? So many projects that I’ve started and never finished. I get an idea, then I can’t make myself do the actual work to make it a reality. Why do I think I can write a book when I can barely read books without becoming distracted and doing something else instead? I give up too easily. But, then again, do I really have it in me to produce something that is good? That people would want to read? Insecurity creeps in, telling me that I will fail. I fear failure. Of course I do, who doesn’t? Whenever people say that their greatest fear is failure, all I wonder is who out there is not afraid of failure? Is there someone out there with so much confidence that they absolutely do not in any way fear failure? Even narcissists technically fear failure, it is what leads them to such ridiculous overcompensation, putting on the facade of bravado to mask their actual dire sense of insecurity. Do not fall for the scams, no person is truly without self-doubt. (Well, I guess maybe psychopaths, but there’s a whole lot of things amiss with them.)

Ever since I was a kid, I’ve entertained myself by coming up with stories, fictional universes that I would populate with characters of my own invention. When I was a kid, what I really wanted was to become a comic book writer and artist. Well, in between other gigs I imagined would suit me, including at one point wanting to be a “singing farmer,” as I put it. Still, I’ve always returned to fiction and storytelling. There’s something about creating a world that lets you so fully distract yourself from all the stressful daily hullabaloo that goes on around you. Escapism, it’s fun, it’s therapeutic, I think. There’s a reason why humans have been telling each other stories for millennia, since even before we lived in houses. Back when we were all huddled around the fire, wearing our best comfortable animal furs, sharing tales of the hunt. Your uncle who once took part in killing a mammoth, the impressive beast nearly gorging him with its big tusks. How clever he was when he noticed that the mammoth had one leg weaker than the others, and used that to his advantage. How the entire hunting party banded together to bring the behemoth down, getting all that meat to feed their families with for months! Stories make you feel good. Like as if you have something to celebrate, even when you might be starving due to the more recent hunts not having gone as well. Damn that saber-tooth tiger that killed your uncle…

Storytelling is linked to acting. Both with acting and with storytelling you have to commit. Whatever you are doing, whatever role you are performing, you have to sell it. You may be on stage talking about that time you went scuba diving with your future wife, and how you encountered an oyster with the most magnificent pearl inside, and how you made a ring for the pearl and used it when you proposed to her. You have to sell it. You have to get the audience laughing, gasping, crying, going “aww,” feeling as if they were there with you that day. Of course, they don’t know it is all just lies. You made it up. It’s all fiction. But you committed, so they won’t ever know. Storytelling is a gift to others, people will appreciate you if you tell good stories, but you’re also kinda deviant. Even if it’s technically based on a true story, you’ve certainly added your embellishments. You’re a trickster, a devious individual. No wonder actors have historically been seen as dubious folks. They come into town, romances all the young women and men, telling them big tales of their lives on the road, and they can’t possibly know if you are telling the truth or not. You may just be lying. You probably are lying. Let’s be honest, you’ve probably not told a single true thing in your life.

I am bad at the hustle. No, I can talk quite well, and I can keep people’s attention for a long while. But I can’t be a huckster. Going out there, putting myself on the line hoping people will swallow my bullshit. I can’t really avoid speaking from my heart when I do speak. Or when I write, as I happen to be doing now. This blog has so far been thoroughly candid in places, in such a way I may come across like I’m at a confessional. Not that I have much evil to confess, but I can’t help but be transparent. I can’t flip into different kinds of personalities, each with its own schemes and plots, being some master manipulator, someone who you can never figure out what they're truly up to, or what they truly want. No, what I am is clearly written on my face. I’ve got one self, and it is the one before you. He’s hairy, and tall, and a bit of a dork. I am happy to talk to you, to engage with you, but I won’t be anyone but myself. I am me. I hope that’ll do.

Of course you are familiar with all those pick-up artists that plagues the internet. Or well, not just the internet. Go into any old-fashioned bookstore (where they store books on paper, not in digital code,) and you are bound to find some sleazy book written by a sleazy guy about how to sleazily seduce women. Those books don’t want you acting like me. According to them, seduction is all about manipulation. To figure out the very right thing to say to get women to fawn all over you. They don’t want you to be sincere, telling the truth as you see it. Nah, you gotta keep that stuff bottled up, deep down inside your soul, because most likely, your true self is ugly. It’s interesting how you can get little details from these pick-up artists depending on the sort of things they say, the tips they provide. The fact that all of them seem to harbour this festering misogyny is no big surprise, but every so often, you get these little glimpses of these people’s true worldview, one where power is everything, true love is a fallacy, and happiness is a lie manufactured by Hollywood to make us all into docile consumers. No wonder the “red-pill” so often leads to people taking the “black-pill.” First hucksters will lure you in, telling you that they’ve got the secret as to how to be a success, then when they’ve got you isolated, they reveal to you how truly misanthropic and bleak their actual beliefs are.

I am fascinated with cults, for much of the same reason why I am fascinated with storytelling. What is a cult leader if not just a great storyteller? They’re something like the modern day shaman, capable of spellbinding people with their weird idiosyncratic way of speaking. High-functioning people with autism are often said to have an idiosyncratic way of speaking. No, I am not suggesting that cult leaders are all somewhere on the spectrum, though it wouldn’t surprise me if some famous cult leaders did turn out to have been on the spectrum. However, for an autistic person to become a cult leader, I think they would have to be a true believer, and not some fraud just looking to scam others. Ultimately, no autistic person would want to surround themselves with people unless they truly do believe it is essential, to like, save mankind from damnation or something. It’s the difference between sincerity and insincerity. It is difficult for autistic people to be insincere, as insincerity requires a lot of social skills that autistic people struggle with. Having to juggle all these balls in the air, making sure you keep the big lie going, that you remember to change your behaviour depending on who you are speaking to in order to keep them from figuring out that you’re a bullshitter. Hollow people are great at being insincere. People like L. Ron Hubbard, the founder of the highly profitable cult that is Scientology, was at his core a hollow individual. He had no problems twisting the minds of the people around him, because he never felt a need to be sincere. If an autistic person were to become a cult leader, I can guarantee you that it wouldn’t be a profitable cult. Nah, autistic people aren’t in it for the money, we’re all about keeping it real.

Being a sincere person, surely I should be able to write a novel and make it feel earnest. Like it was delivered with passion, because I wouldn’t be able to write anything that wasn’t true to myself. Well, I do hope so. Having something I’ve made be referred to as genuine is something I see as a great compliment. I’m a student of art history, I’ve made some “serious” art before, I know how terrible art can be when it is not delivered with good faith. Sure, some art is cynical, or ironic, but even then, it tends to come from a real place. Good artists, even when they’re fully armed with the dada mindset, must believe in what they are doing. Whether they are doing it for a laugh or not, that’s irrelevant. Even if all you wish is to be silly and make something that is comical, you have to believe in what you are creating. Or else people won’t bother engaging with it. Why look at a painting by someone who is just interested in making money? Insincere artists do exist, and they can end up becoming quite successful, but ultimately, history won’t be kind to them. Damien Hirst comes to mind, heard he's into NFTs now.

Sure, I don’t like insincere people. Does that make me a bigot? Like, it’s not as if they can help themselves. It’s just who they are, spineless maggots with no soul. It doesn’t mean we have to hate them. No, no, no... I am just generalising. Don’t go thinking there’s just two kinds of people in the world, the sincere and the insincere. It’s not a binary. Most people are both, just like with introverts and extroverts, humans are complex. But there are definitely those that decide to feed into their insincere side, realising that it is often the key to success. Through insincerity, you learn to let go of self-doubt, you stop worrying so much about what others think of you, because you are never truly yourself. If they hate you, then so what? They don’t actually hate you, they just hate a role that you are playing. So what if you seduced that woman, made her feel as if you were the perfect match, then you ghosted her and completely forgot about her? It’s her fault for falling for your tricks. You were clearly just playing the game, being a super-seducer, she should have known better. By embracing insincerity, it’s like gaining a superpower. No longer do you have to care about the impact you have on others, no longer do you have to worry about what it means to be a social human being making choices that affect the others around you. Because you’re not the person they think you are. Actually, you’re not quite sure you’re the person you think you are… Who are you?

I’ve got the plot all laid out in my head for the novel. It’s going to be based in the fantasy world that I’ve been working on for the last few years. I’ve been working on this world for almost half a decade now, come to think of it. Why do I keep feeling as if I am never able to keep to a project, when I’ve clearly been working on a massive project all this time? Sure, it’s all just in my head, but it’s not as if most people have the kind of patience to keep going back to a single big project, even if it is just in their head. Not once, while thinking about my fantasy world have I been distracted and started thinking about cute puppies, instead. And you know how difficult that is. Maybe I am too hard on myself. Maybe I will finish this book, and maybe people will want to read it. Maybe it will even get a minimal number of angry reviews, like, I may get a book published without some folks trying to harass me into committing suicide for daring to think I can write. Some people may even be enthusiastic, blowing up my ego with great praise. Maybe someone will come along and tell me that they want to buy the rights to make my book into a movie or a television series. Maybe I will get rich? Maybe I will get famous! Woo! Success here I come!

Well, no, here I go being insincere. That’s not what it’s about. I should be writing this book because I want to write it. Because I want to prove to myself that I am able to write it. Sure, it’s not as if there’s not a little brain goblin inside my mind whispering sweet nothings about how one day I might turn out a real respected author. One with real fans that gets to do big book tours talking about how brilliant I am, how brilliant my work is, and how brilliant things are going for me. I am not going to pretend I don’t have the same aspirations for success that others have. Inside of me you will find the same greedy piglet of an ego hungry for more adoration and more validation that you will find in any person. Humans don’t know when to quit, we always want more. But I am at least safe knowing that I will never debase myself, descending to the same depths as those inhabited by soulless grifters who go through life abusing the trust of others in order to get by. I’m sincere, in the end. I always turn out sincere, in the end. I am a good boy.

And I am also really sexy. I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before on this blog, but I am really, REALLY, sexy. Like, you wouldn’t believe it. Oh, I am so hot. And if you follow and subscribe and hit that bell, I will teach you how you can be just as sexy as I am! And buy my book! And my merch! And my new single! And of course, my new cryptocurrency, by the name of “autism-coin.” It’s going to be a real success on 4chan, let me tell ya!

#neurodivergent #neurodiversity #autism spectrum disorder #autism #aspergers #mental health

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