#People getting angry with you is just a phase of life; they can't be mad forever. They have their own problems to deal with.

[movielosophy]

Derailment | Holding back is okay for me.

#how f****ed someone's life that she stops trying #I've just begun #and it's striking a really deep chord with me already. #this is one of the drama where the heroine is not sweet nice lady #she's not an angel and she gets a lot of hate because of what she does #and it's normal #she's human #And while she thought she wasn't going to receive love from around #"She found not only one #but many kinds of love #People getting angry with you is just a phase of life; they can't be mad forever. They have their own problems to deal with. #anyway #this one is good #derailment #liu hao chun #character: jiang xiao yuan #lin yi #character: qi lian

[inconspicious-random-thoughts]

You know what I think would be interesting about Charlie and Alastor's dynamic? It would be in how they influence each other going forward. Alastor is slowly pushing Charlie to becoming a more assertive and inspirational princess as part of his plans to "pull all of the strings" and get out of his deal. Under his tutelage, Charlie will become much more willing to use her abilities in defense of the Hotel and her loved ones, potentially developing something of a ruthless streak as the threats to the Hotel continue to pile up. I also imagine she will start using his philosophy about using smiles to project power and confidence to hide her personal pain and growing trauma (which knowing this show will no doubt be a lot) to the point of becoming self-destructive and somewhat isolated from her inner circle, potentially even Vaggie to avoid weighing them down with her burdens (which would be ironic since it would be similar to how Vaggie hid her past as an Exorcist out of guilt and fear of her girlfriends rejection). Taking a level in badass in exchange for a drawn-out mental break down.

As for Charlie's influence on Alastor, Charlie's compassion is already rubbing off on him enough for the Overlord to risk his life fighting Adam and the Exorcists for them, something that he found so out of character that he had a villainous breakdown over this realization. While resistant to this growth of character at first in the name of preserving his dreaded reputation, Alastor will slowly becoming less withdrawn and more willing to engage with the crew even when doing so doesn't help his goals, even becoming less antagonistic towards Husk and Lucifer who in turn will actually enjoy his company to a degree. He will remain a ruthless bastard committed to his personal goals, and likely won't be redeeming himself anytime soon, but he'll still become a member of the family all the same. Whether this will resolve his existential crisis or drive him even more mad I can't say right now.

Good to hear from you again,

I been meaning to respond quicker but apparently I'm not allowed to sit and think for more then three minutes at a time. :( So my thoughts/ respond may seem disjointed as I was writing small bit at a time.

To be honestly, I haven't really consider Alastor influence on Charlie beside the standard of nudging her in the direction towards his own agenda. You are correct, now that it's pointed to me. He would have a great influence on her beyond the manipulation. TBH his manipulation might not as nefarious as we think (I still think it because of his contractor) but it can be just that he made to guide her to reach her full potential and power. Which would still align with his own goals with breaking his deal of his soul.

We already see Charlie being influence and episode 7 after they made their deal and Alastor told her about the power of a smile. She took that advice. When Vaggie was made aware of the deal, and Alastor suggestion of meeting his friend to gain numbers she agreed with "What was that about smiling?"

Charlie will become much more willing to use her abilities in defense of the Hotel and her loved ones, potentially developing something of a ruthless streak as the threats to the Hotel continue to pile up.

I wonder why she so hesitate to use her powers in the first place. Like, would she even need Alastor if she simply just use it to begin with? To fix her own hotel? There must be a reason for it. Its either, she cant control it as she doesnt practice it, or it effects her morals/personality, or just the general fear of innocents being caught in the crossfire. It could be all three. But her powers probably tie in more to option two as we only see her demonic powers come out when she upset/annoyed/angry.

Maybe why she so chipper is because as child she more likely threw a tantrum or possible from her teenage ansty emo phase lol...I hope because of her emo phase because emo goth Charlie is entertaining...and hurt so many people from it when her powers manifested in anger and lost control. After that, she swore to herself to always be chipper. So in a way she always used a smile as a mask. But after Alastor, she learn that she can do a lot more with a smile. If this is a backstory that happen, I can see her following Alastor guidance much more easily as she start to see that they may be similar in some ways.

Charlie will definitely become more confident with her powers in season two after the battle. We saw her stop Adam punch. We know she blames herself for everything. Sir Pentious death, Alastor being wounded when it comes to light, Dazzle death, Vaggie taking a bit of a beating from Lute to protect Charlie. She is stronger then all of them, but here they are or harmed as they attempt to protect her. She may take this as a lesson to just just suck up any reservation about using her power to prevent more of her friends from getting hurt when she could have easily stopped it before. I wouldn't say she become ruthless, or at least consciously. Alastor ruthless and wants to be. Charlie "ruthless" is she momentarily lost herself, overwhelmed by the influence of her power.

Charlie seeking Alastor mentorship over guidance from her father would be possibly Alstor has a great sense of self control and discipline then Lucifer. Lucifer would also be too gentle that it be too dismantling. Lucifer training is, swim wings, training wheels, or end up doing things for her to save her the trouble, while Alastor would be blunt and throw Charlie in headfirst to learn. You know Alastor the type that throws a kid in to learn to swim or push someone off a cliff to learn to fly. Everyone in the hotel, when giving advice or bring up issues, tip toes around charlie feelings about thing. Alastor doesn't. Alastor doesn't factor feelings into decisions. He does, calculate how people would react because of feelings, but the issues themselves he does factor them in. Which may be another reason why she would seek his advice.

I also imagine she will start using his philosophy about using smiles to project power and confidence to hide her personal pain and growing trauma (which knowing this show will no doubt be a lot) to the point of becoming self-destructive and somewhat isolated from her inner circle, potentially even Vaggie to avoid weighing them down with her burdens (which would be ironic since it would be similar to how Vaggie hid her past as an Exorcist out of guilt and fear of her girlfriends rejection).

There be definitely be something she'll hide from Vaggie, I just don't know what. Lack of ideas currently, I'll go with keeping Alastor injury a secret or he used their deal for something but has to keep quiet. Or Charlie undergoing demonic power training under Alastor guidance-which Vaggie would hate so much. Vaggie is super suspicious and frustrated by this. Vaggie feels like she failing Charlie somehow, but forcing herself to trust and give Charlie her space while trying to support her while keeping her in the dark.

As for Charlie's influence on Alastor, Charlie's compassion is already rubbing off on him enough for the Overlord to risk his life fighting Adam and the Exorcists for them, something that he found so out of character that he had a villainous breakdown over this realization. While resistant to this growth of character at first in the name of preserving his dreaded reputation, Alastor will slowly becoming less withdrawn and more willing to engage with the crew even when doing so doesn't help his goals, even becoming less antagonistic towards Husk and Lucifer who in turn will actually enjoy his company to a degree. He will remain a ruthless bastard committed to his personal goals, and likely won't be redeeming himself anytime soon, but he'll still become a member of the family all the same. Whether this will resolve his existential crisis or drive him even more mad I can't say right now.

I am so looking forward to whatever direction the creator will take Alastor. But I am hoping and looking forward of Alastor growing and eventually accepting the soft spot he has for the hotel and its people.

There's something I been thinking about a lot, it was the night before the battle when we witness Alastor and Niffty share a moment.

That was the real Alastor and his thoughts and feelings. His facade was dropped there. Think about it, With Rosie, we saw him relax and generally be happy. But he still had to put up a front, and a mask. He has to act like the overlord that he is. He had to be confident to ensure everything moves forwards as plan. So, as much as he less acting when he around Rosie, he still has halls and acting in some parts. But why would he need to put up a mask there with Niffty? He not going to confine to Niffty of all his plans and agenda, But he also didn't need to put up as much of an appearance in a near private, quiet moment, alone with Niffty, . What he spoke there was 100% honestly. He admitted he enjoying his time there and and like the idea of continuing it.

The other real moment he had was his break down. Grappling with the idea he nearly died. Even as mortals we know we can die any given moment, yet act invincible despite the facts. Now imagine, being immortal soul and a powerful one with near complete control....Dieing seem so improbable yet...here Alastor, freaking out that that near improbable thing nearly became true. Now on top of that, greatly injured and cane broke in two which will have consequences. All because of...he grew to care and want to protect the hotel (outside of a possible forced to by contract)

Alastor will slowly becoming less withdrawn

I think he will be more withdrawn and reclusive...at first anyways. He will want to hide his wound but also distance himself from developing more feelings for the hotel that nearly gave his life for. He be more cruel and ruthless to make up for growing soft, gain distance from the hotel as well make the radio demon feared again, especially if the video gets leaked. He going to be alone. Not willing or wanting anyone in.

The last 10minutes showed the little factions.

The vees.

Charlie and co/hotel including her father

Emily/Sera/Sir Pentious (Tho I think there be tension between Sera and Emily)

Lute and Lilith

Alastor was alone. (break down) But align himself with the hotel but hes not with the hotel. Its like when a group of adventures pick up someone because they are heading in the same direction. They will provide aid to each other but their missions are different. Alastor going to provide aid to the Hotel but he going to be too seclutive to appear that he needs any himself. Nor will he show or admit it unless he absolutely force too.

The thing is, being alone will end poorly for him. Just like how the battle went. The hotel fought together and more or less, made it out. Alastor fought alone with his pride and ego and he lost. lost badly.

So Alastor will be alone until he backed into a corner and just about to lose badly once more but Charlie and co will come to his aid. Quite possibly when he thought he possible burnt that bridge from something or betrayal that happen a little earlier.

That's when he accepts them that's beyond territorial and contract obligations. They saw him at his weaken and vulnerable and not took advantage of it. Despite everything. He'll finally learn to accept them because they already proven time and time again that they accepted and care for him. His walls will slowly start chipping away. Unfortunately he still hiding things so he can't full embrace the idea...but it a start.

He still going to be the Radio demon, generally being a prick and Alastor hiding behind a mask, but we get to witness Alastor slipping it off occasionally.

What would be fun is the idea of Charlie rubbing of Alastor, is that perhaps Alastor against his instincts and to his surprise....showed compassion. It be to Vox of all people. Shocking them both. Vox ending whatever Vees had plan that surely would not bode well for the hotel because of it. That Vox and Alastor end up having a truce and possible rekindle their old friendship.

Tho, I be laughing if Alastor showed compassion for once because Charlie got in his head, only for it to backfire terribly. Then Alastor grumbling that he was a fool to show mercy.

*Alastor limping away after killing the sinner who took advantage of Alastor showing mercy for once while clutching a gaping hole in chest. "It's important to show compassion she said," Alastor scoffs before poorly imitating Charlies voice. "It doesn't hurt to show some kindness!" Alastor laughs mirthlessly and winces from the sharp pain it caused. "Well, tell that to the gaping hole in my chest!!!!"

But in the case, Charlie did need to train her demonic power, I can see how Charlie end up influencing Alastor while he trying to mentor her. Not just the growing fondness hell have for her as his protege. But they probably end up having topics of discussions that arises as she trains. Alastor obviously mocks her point of views, but her words will sink into mind unconsciously. And those words will whisper at him, showing their disapproval at what depravity he trying to act out. Frustrating him that she getting to him

HE may even not go through the acts, not wanting to disappointed Charlie if she was to find out.

Or surprisingly more, maybe after training, Charlie able to control her powers outside of anger. We only see her demonic powers when shes mad. But Alastor witness, Charlie is noticeably stronger when she fighting for something she loves and care for. Which may leave a door open to a path for Alastor to consider to follow.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel theory #hazbin hotel headcanon #alastor the radio demon #hazbin thoughts #hazbin theory #hazbin charlie #hazbin hotel charlie #charlie morningstar

[dotster001]

Yves Kloss as a Yandere

Summary:Yves x gn!reader. Pretty much just the title

CW:Yandere content, unhealthy mindsets, guilting, manipulation, self doubt, spoilers for Yves route because this takes place afterwards

Other Versions: Leon

With Yves, things start out soft and pretty, much like him. But the deeper things go, you're left with a sour flavor in your mouth.

Yves knows you have to spend time with his brothers so that you can choose the king. They can't all be king forever, a solution will have to be arrived at eventually. But he enjoys this early honeymoon phase. Waking up in your arms, styling the both of you for the day, hand feeding you pancakes he made himself, private tea parties after training; he's never been so happy.

But pressures from Benitoite and Jade for word from the ill king have picked up, and Sariel insists you make a decision. So your days, while still spent with Yves, are also filled with his brothers, each one trying to prove to you that they would be the best king.

Yves no longer feels like he has to be king. He doesn't have to prove himself to anyone. So he helps you come up with questions to ask his brothers, he conducts his own interviews and investigations, he takes notes for you, he's enjoying life as your pretty secretary. It feels so domestic. He's so in love with it.

The brothers grow closer to you everyday, so that when the day comes to choose a new king, none of the brothers are opposed to abolishing clause 99 in favor of you and Yves remaining together.

You both move into his home in the lands he's in charge of managing, and things feel even more domestic. Your days are filled with eachother, and his people quickly grow to see his human side with you on his arm. He's so happy.

He's so excited to show off his newfound luck and happiness when the king decides to visit each of his brothers lands to officially meet the people.

Yves spends the day prepping the castle for the visits. He delegates out tasks, and puts you in charge of entertaining the king until he's able to get there. One thing leads to another, and he gets farther and farther behind in his plans. But he knows you have it under control. You always do!

…

…

…

He knew you had grown close to his brothers. He didn't know you'd grown close enough for the king to put his hand on your knee. 

When he notices Yves, the hand is immediately removed, but you don't seem to think anything of it, and turn to greet Yves happily, asking if everything's ready and if he's okay.

He nods, and gives out a slightly angry response, which you assume is because of his plans being delayed.

He escorts you both around his kingdom, holding your arm tightly the entire time, and gritting his teeth when he has to address his brother. The king gives his speech, they have a feast, then he leaves the next morning. All is well.

The second incident is when you fall ill while out picking apples. Obviously, Rio had followed you when you'd moved in with Yves. He was an excellent butler, and Yves knew he could trust him to someday be his head adviser/manager/representative. He knew you were close, but you'd chosen him.

Then you collapsed with fever in the orchard, and he'd watched as Rio scooped you in your arms and took charge of the situation.

For three days, he watched as Rio tenderly brushed your hair from your sweaty forehead, gazed at you with loving care, and never left your side.

He didn't know how he hadn't seen it before, but Rio was absolutely mad for you. Too much for his liking.

The third incident is when Jin comes to visit. The three of you chat for hours, and as the night draws on, he ends up resting his head in your lap. You simply laugh, instead of telling him off, like you should, and Jin makes a comment about stealing you out from under Evie if he's not careful.

He's angrily whisking eggs the next morning when you ask him what's wrong. He slams the bowl down, uncaring of the liquid that spills on the countertop.

You don't love him anymore. You hate him just like everyone else. He was never lucky enough to hold onto you. He's not strong and smart like his brothers and Rio, who was he ever kidding.

You're standing and wrapping your arms around him. No! He's the one you love! You don't want anyone else, he's your Evie!

He feels guilty how deeply he relishes the attention, but he won't complain when your warm arms are embracing him, and you're telling him everything you love about him.

For a while after that, you're more clingy than usual, like you're scared if you let him go, he'll disappear. You're more attentive, too, trying to prove that you love him. You still let Him rest in your lap, but the way You're treating Yves, it's clear you only see it as a platonic gesture. He feels a little silly. Of course he had nothing to worry about.

But when Licht hugs you for a moment too long when he visits to celebrate Yves' birthday, it no longer feels like he has nothing to worry about….

Both you and Licht immediately catch on to the change in his mood, even though you haven't caught on to the why of it. But he doesn't care. Of course you'd like Licht. He was noble, and strong, and, despite his cold exterior, incredibly soft hearted. He really didn't stand a chance when he looked at it.

And he tells you so, that night, after he finishes brushing his hair. You love Licht. But it's fine. He gets it. He hopes you'll be happy together.

Any rest you may have been looking forward to is far gone in an instant. You're immediately kneeling before him, crying into his lap, your words tripping over themselves as you try to tell him how you only love him. He gets the gist of it from your sobs, and the fact that you don't even look at Licht for the rest of the weekend, let alone talk to him or touch him.

The glee he feels, knowing your attention is solely on him, is addictive. He knows he should feel bad. But he can't.

So the next time he starts to worry you're drifting too far away from him, it's back to the guilt trip. You don't love him anymore. He isn't the one you want to marry. You just feel bad for him.

It doesn't take long for your kind heart to crack, and for you to be ultra aware of the people you interact with. Now before you look at anyone else, you always nervously look at Yves first. If someone else interacts with you, you always make sure it's quick, and then return to Yves and tell him everything you love about him.

But it's still not enough.

All these people want to steal you from him. You are the only thing he has been lucky enough to have. No one else will ever love him like you do. Don't they all understand that?

Even when you aren't interacting with other people, and it's just you and him, if he notices you aren't putting as much effort into proving your love for him, he lays on the guilt thick.

By the time your wedding finally comes around, he feels a joy that is hard to hide. You only look at him. And if your eyes aren't on him, they are on your hands, or closed as you rest your head on his shoulder. You're always touching him in some way, whether it's an arm around his waist, a hand threaded with his, your foot bumping his under the table. He's ecstatic! You truly love only him, and now all those other people know it as well!

One day, Jin pulls Yves to the side, and expresses his concern over your new behavior. He's worried. You only ever talk to Yves now, and you always seem nervous. Are you sick? Did something happen? Him, Licht, and Leon have all been very worried.

But Yves assures him everything is fine! The two of you have never been more happy and in love! 

As to why you don't talk to other people, maybe You've grown a little shy, since you spend all your time with each other? He doesn't know, but you always seem fine to him! 

Jin nods and gives a weak smile, but it's clear he's not really buying the explanation.

It doesn't matter though, now that you're his perfect, well behaved spouse, who only has eyes for him! Who cares if they don't understand your love? As long as you only love him, only look at him, only touch him, the both of you will finally have a happily ever after!

#ikemen prince x reader #yandere ikemen prince #yves kloss x reader #yandere yves kloss #ikemen prince #ikepri #ikepri yves #yandere ikemen prince x reader #yves kloss #yandere yves kloss x reader

[mlobsters]

random thought from last night, with having the demons alastair and crowley, makes an aleister crowley. of which i read the diary of a drug fiend back in the illuminatus and schrodinger's cat trilogies phase of life.

SAM Besides, I just figure it's best we keep busy. That's all.

DEAN Better than what?

SAM Nothing.

SAM Okay. Look...um...last few weeks, you've kind of been worrying me.

DEAN Oh, come on, Sam. Stop. Look, just because we're in the loony bin doesn't give you the right to head-shrink me.

SAM Dean--

DEAN Ellen and Jo dying--yeah, it was a friggin' tragedy, okay? But I'm not gonna wallow in it.

SAM Dean, you always do this. You can't just keep this crap in.

DEAN Watch me.

supernatural s5e11 sam, interrupted (w. andrew dabb, daniel loflin)

now he's been in a handful of things, seinfeld which i do remember because of the aforementioned all things seinfeld burned into my brain but also

get shorty (1995) jon gries as ronnie wingate

the x-files s2e4 sleepless - jon gries as salvatore matola

DR. FULLER Well, to be frank, uh, the relationship that you have with your brother seems dangerously codependent. I think a little time apart will do you both good.

the unnecessary prostate exams, less than delicate handling of mental illness, dean's....

DEAN I just got thraped. So, no, I am not okay. Tell me you found something.

ugh. also, unncessary hannibal silence of the lambs lip slurping noises. ew. and big ew to sam jamming that swab into the hole in dead ted's neck. that kind of thing usually doesn't get to me but that one i did ew out loud. and the causal sawing off his skullcap. okay.

there's a whole lot of this i don't like, but it is nice that dean gets to be honest with someone.

playing another doctor in a small but memorably distressing role

the magicians s2e5 cheat day - michelle harrison as dr higgins

DR. CARTWRIGHT Why you?

DEAN Why me, what?

DR. CARTWRIGHT Why do you have to hunt monsters? Why not let someone else do it?

DEAN Can't find anybody else that dumb. It's my job. Somebody's gotta save people's asses, yours included.

DR. CARTWRIGHT So, is there a quota? How many people do you have to save?

DEAN All of them.

DR. CARTWRIGHT All of them? You think you have to save everyone?

DEAN Yep. Whole wide world of sports.

DR. CARTWRIGHT How? Believe me, whatever you've got, I've heard weirder.

DEAN It's the end of the world, okay? I mean, it's a damn Biblical apocalypse, and if I don't stop it and save everyone, then no one will, and we all die.

DR. CARTWRIGHT That's horrible.

DEAN Yeah, tell me about it.

DR. CARTWRIGHT I mean, apocalypse or no apocalypse...monsters or no monsters, that's a crushing weight to have on your shoulders. To feel like six billion lives depend on you...God...how do you get up in the morning?

DEAN That's a good question.

(it's sam)

well i did not see her being a hallucination coming. so was it self-therapizing or wraith-directed therapy? nonetheless, he talked to someone.

SAM Most of the time, I can hide it, but...I am angry. I'm mad at everything. I used to be mad at you and Dad, then Lilith, now it's Lucifer, and I make excuses. I blame Ruby or the demon blood, but it's not their fault. It's not them. It's me. It's inside me. I'm mad...all the time...and I don't know why.

DEAN Stop. Stop it. So what if you are? What are you gonna do? You gonna take a leave of absence? You gonna say yes to Lucifer? What?

SAM No, of course not. I--

DEAN Exactly. And that's exactly what you're gonna do. You're gonna take all that crap and you're gonna bury it. You're gonna forget about it, because that's how we keep going! That's how we don't end up like Martin! Are you with me?

DEAN Come on, man. Are you with me?

desperate, sloppy, needy Dean indeed. with the stellar advice.

aLSO i'd like to note that i was very surprised with the pronunciation of castiel - that it was said castiEL instead of CAStiel. and i've noticed in the past handful of episodes more than one person, and i think sam in this one? saying it more like the latter. and i feel somewhat vindicated.

#supernatural #spn 5x11 #spnwatch #spnhiky #hiky #get shorty #the xfiles #the magicians #john gries #michelle harrison #andrew dabb #daniel loflin

[emmenai-kalliston]

Sorry, a little personal sadness under the cut. It's about being rejected so I guess no one else should care about it but me

What do you do when your childhood friend, one of the people you love the most on Earth, goes out (possibly on a date?) with a guy who rejected you? He told me he didn't want to date anyone because he had to graduate and now...? He's out basically every night (I see his Insta stories and at least every Wednesday and Saturday he's partying) and now he's on some kind of date with my friend? I shouldn't care so much because he was literally a guy I met at a party (my childhood friend was also there, that's why they know each other) who I texted briefly and then asked out, but this is seriously undermining my confidence + I don't want to be jealous of a person I love but I feel like she's always better than me (she's very outgoing, people naturally find her friendly and charming) and now she's possibly dating a guy who didn't want me. I'm crying about this. Even if it's just as friends it's still more than I ever had from him and that's so demeaning

Little update, a couple hours later:

So, I asked my friend how it went and she told me they have been texting for a while some time ago (which is a thing I imagined) (possibly at the same time I was texting him) then he disappeared for a while, then he texted her saying he had had a negative life phase or something and asked her out. At this point I'm not even sad, I'm randomly angry. I know you can't decide on people's feelings but come on, you decide to get out of your shell and you don't accept *my* offer and you ask someone else out? Then the lack of time wasn't the problem. I'm not mad because he doesn't want me, I'm mad because evidently he lied to me and I even praised him for being honest when he rejected me. I'm sad again now that I've typed this.

#personal

[somethinginthethunder]

omg i love the hc u did of julieta:( i love it and thanks for accepting the request!

so can I please have a pepa x reader? reader is just overprotective with her, and even discuss with alma when she is too hard on pepa, guard dog vibes

thank you sweet thing<3

``overprotective!reader``

notes: i loved writing this :D sorry for the late replies!

warnings: none!!

—

-ever since you were children, you held the reputation of being pepa madrigal's guard dog.

-it had started with the kids in town making fun of your future wife, mocking her for her inability to control her gift

-even though they were bigger kids you somehow landed punches on them, calling it a win when the adults took notice of the fight and dragged the two of you a part

-abuela alma rushed you to julieta, who pretended to be mad at you for going into a fight like that

-once her mother left, though, she laughed with you at how badly you kicked their butts

-after you had gotten healed you went to see pepa, who was near tears for various reasons.

-one of them being because she was shocked that you would defend her like that, and another being that you had gotten bad injuries in return

-when you saw the raincloud above her head drizzling all over her you simply sat down next to her and gave her a hug

-"but... but (n/n), you already got hurt today. you don't need your clothes ruined, too," she sniffled looking over at you with her big doe eyes

-"i beat those guys up because they thought your gift is a problem. why would you think i'd mind a little rain?" you gleamed in return, giving her a toothy smile.

-from then on those kids would have a hard time even looking at you in the eyes

-it 100% boosted your ego

-all the way through adulthood, any time someone would complain about the weather you'd give them a death glare or a nice... talk.

-you had grown out of your physical fighting phase long before you two had gotten married, thankfully

-after you did you had made only one goal outside of living a happy life with your lover: to get alma off of pepa's back.

-you understood the inconvenience of indoor-hurricanes and snow in the bathroom, but every time alma tried to deal with it it only made everything worse.

-so you invited her to sit and have a drink with you after everyone was long gone to bed.

-when you explained that she shouldn't be so hard on her daughter alma protested almost immediately, saying it was the family's duty to serve everyone

-"we can't serve the village if they're frozen over!"

-"and i understand that!" you retorted. "but telling her that she has a cloud, which i can tell you she always, always knows if there is a cloud, is not helpful! you think after decades of being told to control herself she's forgotten what her gift is?"

-the older woman was silent, half angry at you and half unwilling to admit that you sounded to be right.

-"perhaps instead of berating her for having emotions you could help her to calm down instead."

-your voice was strangely cold, and your mother-in-law noticed. usually when you called people out your tone was angry and annoyed, but this time you knew that this was the only person left who really needed to stop her judgement. thus, your voice was slow and calculated.

-"she loves you because you're her mother. acting mad any time she's unhappy will only lead her into further unhappiness," you told her solemnly, standing up and leaving to go join pepa in slumber, unable to handle the stubbornness of alma.

-that night you had no idea if you had gotten through to her at all, but those concerns washed away when your wife turned around in her sleep and clung to your body the moment she detected your presence.

-the next time pepa had a cloud she was taken by surprise when her mother did not scold her. not even a single, 'pepa. you have a cloud,' or, 'calm down, pepa!'

-instead, she took a deep breath and relaxed herself, asking her daughter, "what's wrong, mija?"

-the daughter in question felt like she could just cry at the question, her bottom lip quivering when she confessed she didn't know. just a rainy mood, perhaps?

-"i'll get (y/n) then," alma said calmly, only leaving pepa to be even more stunned.

-the way her mother changed her habits that day was an immediate remedy to her strange emotions, the cloud dissipating almost instantly after her mother walked away

-when she saw you coming down the stairs with a concerned look on your face she threw herself into your arms, excitedly telling you about her mother's new attitude toward her gift

-at first you were going to tell her it was because of you, but you decided it was an unnecessary detail. instead, you gave her a big smile and kissed her sweetly, sharing her excitement as well.

BONUS:

-pepa was unknowingly pregnant with your first child, which is why she didn't know why she was in a mood that day. just a bit of a mood swing :)

#pepa x reader #pepa madrigal x reader #encanto x reader #encanto

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

ok you cannot tell me Nanami isn't a possessive mf, man perhaps may not show it at the moment but once you get home, daddy is going to make you scream who do you belong to

GOD no but he is, he really really is and it's such a hassle man sksksk

Oh lord, where do i even start?

First off, Nanami isn't one who's first response is possessiveness

He's an adult and you are too and he's grown past his angsty teen phase where he would want you all to himself

He's mature, he doesn't get angry or pissy when you hang out with other men bc he knows that you love him and he's content with that

But then Gojo comes along and fucks it all up sksksks

Gojo brings out all of Nanami's insecurities

He feels like he's a lesser man when his senior is around shit wouldn't yall too if some dude wouldn't shut up about how great he was 24/7, so he tries to avoid him at all costs

But of course life isn't always so simple and occasionally he will bump into Gojo while you are around

And Gojo is such a little shit

He unabashedly flirts with you, complimenting your hair, your eyes, your outfit, everything

Nanami tries to ignore the acid building in his throat, but he can't help but want to scream when Gojo touches you in any way

It isn't even anything suggestive! He could just pinch your cheek and Nanami will be fuming bc god damn it, you're his, not Gojo's and Gojo has no right to touch you so nonchalantly

Gojo knows that Nanami gets pissed whenever he's physical with you, and since he's a bastard who likes to cause trouble, he just ups his touchiness with you

The minute he hugs you is when Nanami says "okay that's enough" and pulls you away from him

Quickly excuses the two of you and rushes off, making sure Gojo doesn't follow you two

No matter what you say or do to try and get him to talk, Nanami stays silent until you two get back home

You're about to head to the bedroom to change when he grabs you and pushes you against the wall, smashing his lips to yours

It's sudden and unexpected, but definitely not unwelcome

He will not hesitate to rip off whatever you're wearing: doesn't matter if it's Yves Saint Laurent or a flimsy sundress, it will be ruined without a second thought

Probs fucks you against the wall right then and there bc he's been aggravated for the last hour and needs to fuck out his frustrations on you

Sex will definitely move from the wall to the floor, down the hall and eventually in bed where you can't lift your head let alone walk on your own

His dirty talk is really vamped up as he fucks you, gripping your hips so tightly that you can feel the bruises forming

"You're mine, understand? You're all mine, and that's not going to change."

"Dirty girl, getting so wet. This better all be from me or else."

"Such a good little slut for daddy, aren't you?"

"You're my whore, my slut. You only act this way for me."

"Nobody gets to see you like this but me, right? You're a naughty girl just for me, only for me, right??"

He's usually careful about leaving marks bc he doesn't like being very public about your sexual encounters, but right now he doesn't care. He'll mark you up every place he can, smiling when he thinks about all the people that will see the love bites and know that you're taken

He's very rough with you, not because he's mad at you but bc he's frustrated with his jealousy and insecurities

He tries to be better than this, but he's only human. It's only natural for him to lose his shit and fuck you senseless

He'll be very apologetic afterwards, running a bath, giving you a massage, making your favorite dish for dinner

He feels like a shithead for pretty much using you without thinking about your pleasure but let's be real, you came 3 times for every time he came so you were more than satisfied by the end of it

Regardless, he feels bad, and it takes a lot of positive affirmations on your part to make him feel less shitty about it all

You admit that you actually enjoyed it quite a bit and wouldn't mind if he fucked you like that again but obvs not anytime soon bc jesus christ your vagina is RUINED

So basically now whenever Kento is frustrated and needs to relieve some stress, you just present your holes for fucking and he goes to town

But yea, possessive Nanami for the win 🥴

#ask #nanami kento #smut #weeeeeeeeeeee #☀️ asks

[racheljoyscott]

hi, i hope your day is or was good :) do you think that rachel had days where she was frustrated or mad at the world, for things like homelessness, poverty, etc? or were there days where she was just stressed and maybe lashed out at people on accident? i’ve been having days like that lately because of school, and it makes me feel horrible because i want to be kind to everyone, but sometimes i feel so overwhelmed and say things i don’t mean. just wanted to hear what u think !

Oh yes. It got to her a lot. This is something I experience too. You try so hard to be a good person, yet it's often never returned. Like I always say, being a good person isn't easy, but it is so worth it in the end. Certain people have innate motives to care and desire to help. You can habitually learn and develop that train over time, or it's just ingrained in you. I feel Rachel and I have that motive naturally.

I don't have an entry or something from her at hand, but since I feel this struggle too, I'll explain from my experience. For me, I go through phases. My kindness isn't constant. I go through stages where I am not social, I don't feel like talking to people or doing much. Then when I do, I just want to talk to everyone, strangers, friends, family, and that's when my desire to help and take care of the people around me rockets. Helping others gives me more satisfaction than it does to benefit myself and my own needs. So when I get to a point where I can't fix something, I can't help someone, I feel guilty. When one of my friends passed away, I felt it was all my fault. It's irrational sometimes.

Like Rachel, we all have bad days. Heck, Rachel even apparently pushed a girl down the stairs in middle school. Who knows how accurate or fabricated that is. I have bad days. I have days where I am above everything angry. I get sour sometimes. I've been going through a lot lately and it's been taking a toll on my happiness. I've been missing my friend that passed, I'm mad about some of the situations going on in my life, somedays I'm mad at God, similar problems to Rachel. Some days it is so much harder and such a bigger task to be nice. Some days I just feel like putting a sign on my back saying don't talk to me. On those days, it's hard to be nice. Especially to those who don't necessarily deserve it. Especially on days when you need someone to return compassion the ways you give out. I get angry sometimes that my kindness isn't returned, respected, appreciated, or even acknowledged. Some people call me a bitch, which I know isn't true. Some people just suck, some people are good. Some days are bad, but the next day can be good.

We all slip, we all make mistakes, we all have bad days, we all do things we don't mean, we all act in ways we try not too. Here is my advice to you, and I feel it is similar advice Rachel would tell you. It's all ok. Without those bad days, you'd never understand the degree to how much kindness is needed. Without doing mean things, we wouldn't know the importance of doing good things and how it makes us feel. You have guilt, cautiousness, awareness, and accountability for your actions. Above all, you have the desire to want to be better. All of these things are rare. Most people are aware of their actions and don't care, they don't try to be better, they aren't accountable, they don't feel guilt, they don't care about changing their ways. But Rachel did, I still do, and so do you.

All you can do is forgive yourself and others, and just try to be a better you everyday, even in the smallest ways.

[mykingdomforasong]

Hey! Do you have any more of the Royal Han Skysolo AU? I just reread your original bit and can't get enough XD You're a fantastic writer!

the fic in question

I do not, unfortunately. I really like that bit of writing, but I don't know if I'll continue it because I don't feel like doing all the world-building, like how Han came into his position. However, I have been thinking about cleaning it up and putting it on my Ao3 account. It probably wouldn't get much longer, but it'd be easier to find.

I have thought a lot about how I would keep going. I'm too lazy to write a full fic, but here's the general outline:

Luke wake up in the morning with the signet ring on, and ask Han about it.

Han would confess that he is serious about marrying him. That he wants to give Luke everything he'd ever want, raise his family up in society, and all of that.

Luke is young and in love, but he's not a fool. He knows Han can't just marry him for love. At best, he can look forward to a life of being Han's lover, while watching him probably marry someone else. And that's the best case scenario.

Luke gives him the ring back, and says: "Don't make promises like that if you can't keep them." The subtext being: "If you can really marry me, propose and I'll say yes. But don't ask again until it's a reality."

Han pushes the ring back into his hands, insisting that he keeps it. Luke laughs because that's an incredibly romantic, but naive thing for Han to do. He tells him, "If anyone finds me with this, they'll have my hand cut off."

So Han loops the ring onto a shoe string, and ties it around Luke's neck, and tucks it under his shirt.

Han is now more determined to figure out how to marry Luke. He goes to Lando (again, vague on the world-building details, but I think Lando has something to do with Han's place in society). He asks Lando, rather vaguely, about marrying someone from the working class. Lando just assumes he got some serving girl pregnant and feels bad about it, and he tells him that if there is a bastard and mother who need his support, then he can give it more discretely than marrying her.

Han assures him that's very much not the situation, and that he's actually just in love. Lando laughs and thinks Han's under a spell or drunk or something.

Fast forward a few days, and oh no, Luke is caught with the ring and accused of stealing.

He gets beaten pretty badly by the guards, although he puts up a very good fight in response (he's scrappy). He insists on being brought before the Lord (Han), and is before he can be badly maimed.

When he's brought before Han, Han has to pretend like he didn't give the ring to Luke himself, so he asks Luke where he got it, hoping he can think on his feet.

"It fell off your finger, m'lord, on this morning's ride, when you took off your gloves. I found it in the stables. I was going to give it to you in the morning."

Han takes the ring from the guard who's holding it, and put's it back on his own hand. It obviously fits him perfectly. "Damn thing is always falling off. Thank you for returning it to me." Luke nods.

Standing that close, Han can see just how bruised and bloodied up he is. He orders one guard to send for a doctor, and for another one to send for a hot bath to his room.

When the room is empty of every except Luke and Han, Han tries to embrace him, but Luke pushes him away. "I told you, I told you I shouldn't have that!" Han admits that he was right. He kisses Luke's forehead to try and calm him down, and it works a little.

"I know. You were right. Let's get you upstairs."

Han puts him in the bath, and Luke feels better right away. It's nicer than the baths he takes. The tub is nicer for one, and the water is really hot, and scented with oil. Han takes his time washing him, apologizing to him.

When he's washed, the healer comes in, makes sure his cuts are cleaned properly, wraps up his sprained wrist, and tells Han that he'll likely just need rest of a few days, but riding will be hard with his wrist like that until it heals in a few weeks.

Luke's a little pouty, but Han promises that he can stay in his bedroom with all the books and the comfortable bed until he's healed.

Han wraps him in his softest bur blankets and goes to send for something for them to eat.

He runs into Lando on the way. Turns out Lando was privy to their entire interaction after the guards were dismissed.

"So the stable boy?"

"The stable boy."

"Do you really love him?"

"Nearly fired all of my guards just for touching him."

"I can't actually keep you from marrying him, can I?"

"Probably not."

"Then do it. It won't be a big affair, but it's sure to make you popular with the peasants, and unpopular with the other gentlemen."

"I'm already unpopular with them."

He nearly skips back to his room once he's sent for some fancy foods and expensive wines.

Luke is crying a little when Han get's back. "Sorry, everything just hurts a lot," he explains. Han gives him a handkerchief.

He gets on the bed, and cups his face, and tells him, "Soon, you will be their lord. They won't be able to hurt you anymore."

Luke's about to push him off and get mad at him again, but he sees how serious Han is. "Really?"

Han takes off his ring again. "Will you marry me?"

"Really?"

"The wedding will be small, and after you're healed. And also people will probably be angry about it. But you'll be able to keep the horses. And your aunt and uncle will be cared for, of course."

"Really?"

"Yes, really. All of it."

Part of Luke is still so skeptical, and doesn't want to get his hopes up. But a bigger part responds with an enthusiastic "Yes!"

Luke's too hurt to fuck, which is a bummer to both of them (even though Han thinks he could ride Luke gently enough). But they enjoy a lot of wine between the two of them (it help's Luke with the pain).

They just get all snuggly together.

Granted when the news breaks, it is a huge scandal and a lot of people don't like it. But they don't care. Luke gets some fancy new clothes, his aunt and uncle get some financial security, and Han gets to enjoy watching his new husband put on some healthy, much needed weight(he gets a little spanky).

Basically they're too in love for rumors or gossip to even phase them.

#skysolo #my writing #hanluke #star wars

[fktonofwhatnow]

ok hold on. acomaf is my fave book out of the whole series (it's mostly out of emotional value, i read it when i was younger and didn't have a real understanding out trauma and abuse only that i saw a character i loved getting out of a bad situation and getting happy) so obviously i didn't mind feysand being endgame and the development all of the characters had. i can accept tamlin turned out like that is realistic due to his trauma, i can accept feyre had to flee because it wasn't right for her, but the thing is after acofs i see no point to feyre leaving tamlin when rhysand ends up doing everything they told us tamlin was evil and unredeemable for. hiding the risks of her pregnancy, putting on shields on her, having feyre need to compromise over it. i honestly felt so betrayed by that. i'm not saying feyre and tamlin were good for each other, but it doesn't feel worth it to dismiss the potential they had for what we got with feysand.

also, sarah learn to treat "ugly" trauma with respect challenge. no they don't need to learn to physically fight to fight it. no they don't need a love interest to overcome it. yes the behaviors acquired from trauma and abuse aren't pretty but that doesn't mean a person is undeserving of kindness and compassion.

i think i had a point somewhere but i can't get to it. so hope you don't mind my rambling. anyway i loved your meta about tamlin i think he deserves better too

HOLY SHIT THIS ONE IS SO GOOD OK IM SO EXCITED

Bro you are so fine, I'm the one who doesn't make any sense and I totally get what you're trying to say. (Acomaf was actually my favorite book in the series too ngl)

BUT FUCK YEAH LETS TALK ABOUT RHYSAND.

I don't think it's a secret that Rhysand is one of my least favorite characters in media, probably ever? (How do I even put this into words) He is a bad character and to me, laughably so. You know how if you've ever written a character, there's that little phase that's like "what if people don't like this character' and then you're sad for a little bit? That's how Rhysand feels to me. He feels like SJM looked at this character and thought "I can't stand the thought of people not liking this character because I love him so much" and then did everything in her power to make sure we know how great he is.

Idk if this is just me screaming into the void, but I get to this place with my characters where like, especially if they are a little more morally gray or their decisions have negative impacts, I understand that I don't need the audience to like my main character. they can stand on their own, they can own up to what they do and they can grow from it. Thats what a good character does. That's how you keep your audience rooting for them. You gotta knock them over sometimes.

SJm doesn't knock Rhysand over. She doesn't push him to make mistakes, apologize, own up and move on. Rhysand has never made a decision that ended poorly for him. Everything goes the way he wants it to, because SJm wants us to know how cool and great he is. People who are cool and great don't make bad decisions! SJm doesn't let Rhysand fail, and she doesn't let him suffer his own decisions. Everyone else suffers his decisions, not him.

Rhysand's reputation as a good person hinges entirely on the audience liking him and/or thinking he's hot. And then what happens when the audience thinks neither of those things? Ya get a rly long post like this by a lil enby who is mad all the time. Rhysand loses all credibility when you look at him through a critical lens. Not a single thing the man does makes any goddamn sense. Here I thought acosf would give us a different perspective on Feysand and I was desperately hoping that Nesta would tell us what she really sees in them and how people around them really feel, I hoped that SjM would throw us for a loop and tell us that hey, she does know that Feysand are fucking toxic as hell and ruin the lives of people around them and she wants to show us that from an outside perspective but noooOoOOOoOoOOOO...

Instead we get Nesta hating herself because Rhysand told her that she shouldn't tell Feyre that Feyre could uh die in childbirth. Hey what the fuck.

Now I don't actually ship feylin, I kinda always sorta knew, even without spoilers, that it wasn't going to work out. Tamlin isn't sjm's idea of a good partner because he's not charming and witty and dark and handsome ya know? We met Rhysand and I knew that I was going to fucking hate this romance. Which sucks because I found Rhysand so intriguing in the first book. Ngl all the time spent in the spring court was kinda boring and every time Rhysand showed up to throw dead faeries at Tamlin I was like "oooooo" and I wanted to know more about why Tamlin, this awkward, blunt and kinda shy dude had beef with this super duper sly and shady man from another court.

I don't know if I've ever said this before, but SJm doesn't let her love interests grow. Rhysand doesn't change over the course of the story because he was already a good guy and his motives were for Feyre's sake I swear, the same goes for Rowan in TOG. SJm doesn't give Rhysand room to change. She needs to get to the part where they fuck make sure everyone knows that Rhysand is a good guy and actually he was good all along so that we like him more than Tamlin. It backtracks on everything bad Rhysand has ever done because you know... He had a good reason! It's fine!

I know it's probably just because SJm doesn't actually know how to write a good character growth arc but... Like can you imagine if Rhysand stayed the bad guy? Or at least remained the bad guy through acotar and acomaf? And then when Rhysand comes to take Feyre for his bargain it really was only to spite Tamlin? What about Rhysand, taking Feyre to the night court with him once a week every month for a long time, if only to see Tamlin's eyes grow darker and emptier every time he goes, and then he really starts to fall in love with Feyre. He's been a monster all this time, angry and cold and cruel and then he actually starts to fall in love. And then to get Feyre to stay he really does try to change, he stops antagonizing Feyre, he stops throwing dead faeries at Tamlin, and he stops harassing the Spring court. He starts spending genuine quality time with Feyre, he starts to learn about her and all the things she likes and he stops trying to get her to come with him just so Tamlin will be mad. He starts asking her to come with him because he wants to be around her and he prays that someday she'll want to be around him too. What if SJm let him grow.

But nahhhhhh instead we have a character who always knows the right answer to things, and he always knows how to fix every issue, and he is always so innovative and outside the box except that he isn't. We get a character who does the same shit as Tamlin but it's ok because he had a good reason not to tell Feyre that she could very well die in childbirth. Uhhhh don't know what that is but uhhh I know he has his reasons because all he has are his reasons.

It would be so easy to hold a mirror up to Rhysand and say "look at this. Look who you are. Do you not look just like Tamlin right now?"

But nooooooooOoOOOo Rhysand doesn't get to be wrong. Rhysand doesn't get to look like Tamlin because Tamlin is evil and Rhysand is definitely NOT I SWEAR.

But yeah I think the point I'm trying to make is that Sarah thinks so highly of Rhysand that he could never do wrong. He could never be like Tamlin, despite the narrative literally telling us the exact opposite.

Like you said, we lost the potential of what feylin could have been if SJm didn't suddenly decide that her audience needs to love Rhysand as much as she does. I think feylin could have been slow and sweet and a story of true healing and learning about one another. I think it would have been kind and steady and lots of "are you ok"s and "I'm sorry"s and "talk to me"s. Everything about Feysand feels rushed and hard and fast and the rest of the world doesn't have time to catch up. It's fucking exhausting to read it ya know what I'm saying.

(also can we talk about Rhysand like dying and Feyre finding the suriel and learning he's her mate and then instead of being like "k let's put a pin in that and fuckin save his life first" she like throws him around and everyone is like "wtf woman" and she's like I neeD tO Be alOnE these people have no idea how to prioritize)

Truly, I think it's innocent to a degree. There is absolutely no harm in wanting people to like your character. The harm comes when you destroy another character with no reason or explanation other than you want people to like a different character. Villain arc? Completely out of left field. You gotta build to that shit or like... Make it so that when you look back you slap your forehead and yell at a wall "OF FUCKING COURSE I SHOULD HAVE SEEN IT"

anyways, SJm treat "ugly" trauma with respect challenge SECONDED.

WELL IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK ME WEEKS YO WRITE IM HAVING A HARD TIME I know it probably doesn't make any sense I can't find my braincells BUT thanks for the ask @xelly

Tell me all your acotar things I love yo hear them !!

#rhysand #anti rhysand #anti sjm #anti acotar #anti inner circle #tamlin #lucien deserved better #they all deserved better frankly

[sk-lumen]

Need serious advice about setting boundaries or communicating when dealing with a person who:

Is a parent

Has unhealthy communication methods -- it takes very little for them to start full-blown screaming, shouting out all your 'negative' things/mistakes/past, can continue to scream-criticise you even after you've gone silent, for WHOLE MINUTES even if you've shut up, will not accept anything that even hints at them making a mistake

You can't trust since childhood coz u made the mistake of confiding in them with a serious issue as a young teen --- mental related --- and they belittled and invalidated you, and since then pretended you never confided in them and have NO IDEA how you've been coping without them or ANYone else for years... Yeah thanks, parent, what u said back then made me think I was the one at fault and so I stopped trusting even friends coz yeah, when ur own parent doesn't give a damn, why would anyone else?

Is a master at silent treatments without explaining what EXACTLY they're punishing you for, then when theyre in the mood, will start talking to you as if they hadn't ignored you for days. Lol I'd rather be water boarded I think. Especially for all the damage this caused when I was a child

Won't openly talk about what they want, yet expects ALL FHE TIME others (in the family) to know what they want, then will complain/scream/angry for AGES about how no one cares, no one gives a damn... And when someone asks them what they want, they either say: nothing, or "you should know! Can't u see?"

Upon asking them to please talk normally, will blow a fuse, and lose it --- happened multiple times today

Literally will use me as a scape goat to unleash their frustrations upon. Even when I leave the room, I can hear them b*tch about how much of a failure I am etc. The trigger being anything that bothers them, from a phone call to something other siblings did, bla bla. I limit my time with them... But it's like, it feels impossible to have them treat me normally, without ridiculing or criticising me. I'm already a very low self esteem person... This doesn't help AT ALL

In short, refuse to tell/ask/discuss important stuff, and getting mad randomly that no one read their mind, bcoz everyone's 'old enough to have enough sense' to know what they 'should' do... Eg will not pikc up the phone when we call them from the store to ask when what the needed isn't available, so what other alternative can we get... And then when we get home, will instead blame us for being fussy and not getting the alternative, completelt skirting around the issue they didn't deign to pick up the phone... I mean, I don't get it. In the past I HAVE in fact asked them to just openly tell me what they want/expect from me to make them happy... Got passive aggressive answers like "don't you know? Are you dumb?" Bla bla

Passive aggressive to the max when they've lost it

Expect me to drop anything I'm doing and immediately cater to them, and expect me to help them in their hobbies (while simultaneously, as I learned many years ago to much heartache, not being interested or even pretending to be interested in my hobbies. The disinterest taught me very quickly how much what I wanted meant, leading to years of self-invalidation. Luckily I've learned it really is them, not me. My hobbies are valid)

Will not talk about why they're feeling angry, what causes it. Instead will blame me, who's like the golden scapegoat in our amazing family, by saying :YOU made me negative. They've said it many times now... It hurts a lot, when I'm also struggling with my own issues which I ofc can't confide in them about :)

Today I manned up -- the outburst of hatred happened again! Over a simple thing. It was NIGHTMARE and made me angry/sad/frustrated/triggered---, and so I told them to stop talking like that... Boy was that the wrong thing to say... I don't think I can accurately tell u what happened afterwards...

Usually children learn communication skills from the parents... I at least learned to recognize the unhealthy ones, and what NOT to communicate like lol. Like, other parent is even worse, believe it or not. But that's another complex situation

I'm not bashing on the parent. Lord knows I even have that much of a right huh? I hate myself eveb more when they invalidate me if I try to show how MUCH THEY HURT me after a 'communication session'. As in, heaven forbid me if I BE SILENT afterwards and DON'T wanna listen to their retardation. Nope. Even then they provoke me, rage at me, you know how sometimes enraged people hiss vitriol thru gritted teeth? Yeah, that's what they did today after I stayed silent and tried to ignore them an hour later after the 'session' when they wabted something. It's like they don't even need me to say a word and will carry on and on for minutes 🤢

I feel alone, helpless and at a loss what to do

I want to move out. Due to severe mental issues I can't even move out rn coz it scares me even more. But this has to stop. Things are only okay if I'm absolutely passive, say yes to whatever they want, kill my wants and needs, and become a perfect robot bred to cater to them (parent)

I hope you can help me out, dear

Hi darling,

It sounds like you’re in a considerably toxic environment. I'm sorry you're going through this. Know that this is not normal, nor is it how a parent/child relationship should be. In case there's any doubt, let me start by saying you deserve to be supported, respected, listened to, to have your needs met. You deserve to live in an environment that offers you all of these things.

With that being said, from the many scenarios you’ve mentioned you’ve already tried reasoning and setting boundaries, to no avail. There is only so much you can do on your own, if the other person in the equation is not meeting halfway or at all. After all, a healthy conversation involves two people, not just one.

Here's my advice, in this order:

Calmly and maturely asking the respective parent to have a serious discussion with you and to listen to what you have to say. Share how their actions and behaviour is making you feel, let them know you care, and make sure to mention several solutions for the issue as well. If this doesn’t work…

Bring up the subject of needing help from outside, such as the assistance of a specialist/therapist. Family counselling can shed a lot of light on toxic behaviours that are ingrained from childhood (both in their case and yours), on fears your parent may have, stress from their work, whatever is causing their outbursts and anger - because there is always a reason. Behind anger is sadness, and behind sadness is some need not being met, or an underlying fear, trauma, etc. This is not a justification for their behaviour, they are responsible for it; this is simply the fact of how energy dynamics work. People bottle up their frustrations, fears, etc, and let them out on those closest to them, to whom they feel superior. It’s not fair, and it’s not healthy, but it is frequently how this pattern works. If this solution doesn’t work either…

Then unfortunately, all you can do is focus on yourself. If they refuse to meet you anywhere along the road, you have to pack up your things and go your own way. Literally or metaphorically. They may be your parent and you may love them even in spite of their behaviour, but you cannot hold yourself responsible for anything they say or do; that is on them. In those cases, you have to prioritize your own mental health and wellbeing, and focus on moving out. If your (home) environment is toxic, you have to focus on first changing it. That’s vital. Only afterwards can you start healing, refinding yourself, reclaiming your self-esteem and confidence, your sense of worth. As long as you stay stuck in a toxic environment, you cannot really heal; if there is abuse of any kind (physical, mental, emotional), the causes are still there, leading to re-traumatizing.

If for whatever reason moving out is not (yet) an option, I would emphasize seeking some sort of counselling for yourself, if nothing else. You need an anchor, some sort of support that will help you along your path until you do get out.

Now, I don’t know how old you are. I am going to assume you are over 18 and of age, so only mind my advice if that is the case. (As disclaimer, I don't provide advice to minors as it's not the scope of my blog nor am I specialized/focused on that area.)

I understand moving out seems scary because it is unknown, but with that line of thought you may wait another 10 years in the same situation. Wouldn’t you wake up 10 years later already having done the hard work on moving out, finding your independence, claiming your sense of individuality and moving on from this sort of environment, this phase in your life?

Sooner is better than later, but do so with mindfulness and care over your mental health, of course. I know it’s scary. But being an adult requires some difficult decisions at times, and setting boundaries begins with choosing your wellbeing and doing what needs to be done, even if it is something uncomfortable short-term, but highly rewarding and beneficial long-term.

Hope this helps... and wishing you much luck, clarity, gentle guidance and comfort.✨

PS: Lately I've been receiving longer and longer letters in my inbox. As solution, I was thinking of having longer asks/letters redirected to my blog where there isn't any length limit, and readers can more comfortably browse both my tumblr and blog - and those requesting advice can share and receive a more in-depth response.

-Lumen

#mental health #toxic relationship #toxic environment #boundaries #parenthood #ask #tw? not sure what to tag just in case #tw: swearing #tw: mental health #tw: anxiety

[ratsoh-writes]

Alright, this is my first time actually sending anything anonymous (or any ask to someone who isn’t a mutual) on Tumblr but guess ya gotta start somewhere, heh

I’m serious and cold to anyone who I don’t know well and I have a habit of being sarcastic whether when I’m annoyed or trying to joke around with people I’m unfamiliar with though with people I know well, I’m supportive and a lot more open to laughing and joking around. I have a blank resting face, really the only time I smile is when I have something to smile about.

I’m actually really protective of my friends. I have a difficulty discerning what’s rude and not, I’m blunt but I’m also very careful not to say anything that could hurt someone’s feelings (of course I don’t have the best judgement with that).

I don’t always express my emotions properly, I’ll storm out when I’m nervous which can make it look like I’m angry when I’m more scared than anything.

I have really bad anxiety, especially when it comes to anger, it doesn’t have to be directed at me. I panic relatively easily, it doesn’t matter if I’ve lost something or it’s a rude comment, it can be someone who’s close or whom I’ve never met. Unfortunately I tend to be a bit of a pushover when it comes to defending myself, I’ve gotten better, I have certain times where I will stand up for myself but for the most part I just panic.

This also transitions when talking to people I don’t know well, sometimes I’m either ‘eh’ or really awkward if I have to actually talk to them.

Likes:

I like to draw, write, video games (more turn based and relaxing ones rather than shooting games) and collect animal figurines (they just make me smile, I remember when my mom first got me one and I was immediately grinning). I absolutely love animals, I have my own smol doggo and kitty cat :) I myself am a cat person

Dislikes or pet peeves:

People who are loud (like all the time, I can handle someone who laughs loudly) or nosy. I’m also not a fan of being touched, especially when it just kinda… happens. Not a fan of sports overall

Deal breakers:

Somebody who gets mad quickly or one who can’t calm down and talk about it rather than yell. Also somebody who can’t respect that I don’t like being touched without being asked or even then I might say no. I’d like someone who’s level headed or relaxed, though will take situations seriously. Or somebody who forces me to go out

Some specific traits I’d prefer is someone who is patient yet stubborn and won’t take my ‘I don’t care’ as an answer cause that’s my answer to many things because of my anxiety and my fear of upsetting people. I’d also like someone who can read body language as well. They also need to be able to wait for like a minute for me to answer a question properly since I uh decide things rather slowly.

Weaknesses:

-I don’t talk about my feelings, not even to people who I trust and am really close to

-I panic a lot

-I’m easily irritated, though I don’t often act on my anger unless it’s pent up, doesn’t mean I don’t show it y’know… via body language

-I’m more of a pessimist than anything else

-I’m a perfectionist, I have to do something right

-I’m prone to burnout

-I don’t have a lot of patience when it comes to people, specifically to people who nag, are idiots, or just rude

Strengths:

-I can and will stand up for my friends

-I care deeply for my friends and family

-I’m not a very judgy person, like let people do what they want man

-I’d like to think I’m somewhat good at giving advice

-I actually have a lot more patience when it comes to animals, they can poop in the house or tear something up and I’d be more frustrated than I am mad at them

Tidbits:

-I have 0 stamina or strength

-Legit someone can gently punch me and it’d hurt for a solid 30 seconds

-Tickling makes me want to cry(?)

-A long conversation can leave me exhausted, I need time to recharge and that time can either be a couple of hours or up to two weeks

-I pace a lot which is mostly to zone out and go into my own fantasy world, I’ll either pace in silence or while listening to music

-I can't focus on a single task if I'm working, gotta be doin something at the same time like listening to music

I have freckles, I’m a sandy blonde which is almost light brown, and blue eyes. I’m really short lol, I’m 4’10

Alright, after a lot of consideration, I think the best fit for you would be…………ACE (mafiaswap sans)!

First of all, ace is literally a mafia boss. He been dealing with temperamental and jumpy people his whole life. Your personality when he first meets you won’t phase him at all. And ace is just the right amount of patience and persistence to befriend anyone!

Ace is also very observant and witty. His whole job is to charm the pants off of people and make them relax. He’s great at picking up those signals for when you’re feeling uncomfortable. And it doesn’t take him long to figure out which buttons to push to help you loosen up. He’s not an enabler though. Ace does care about his loved ones and will insist on them stepping out of their comfort zones once in a while. He knows their limits though and is good about not pushing them. This is the main reason I picked him over second choice.

Ace is no stranger to video games. They aren’t necessarily his favorite thing, but he can be convinced to play with you. He does it plenty for his little brothers slim and bruiser.

He tends to show his affection more in acts of service and verbally rather than touch. And words mean a lot to him. He doesn’t except you to bear your soul to him all the time, but he would want to hear an “I love you” sometimes

Ace with a SO can be pretty playful. He likes leaving silly notes in his SOs pockets to find later, or sneaking mini treats or gifts into their room. It keeps them on their toes and gives him a chance to be stealthy.

If you’re curious, second choice would’ve been wine

#matchups #mafiaswap

[bookycharm]

The types as people I know in real life (not all the types sorryyy)

Intp (a friend of mine)

Does basically nothing, studies the night before but still has pretty solid to really good grades

Really intelligent, has a really high iq but insecure

However, confident enough to tell me about her high iq

Awkward AS FUCK, can be a bit cringy but lovable

Secretly thinks nobody likes her and has conspiracy theories

Teachers love her

Sad

Surprisingly flirty

Probably had an emo phase she hasn't told me about

Entp (my brother)

Caothic AF, got in a LOT of trouble when we were kids

Has the luck of Neville fucking longbottom

Very very very lazy

Once made a pretty decent bow out of sticks from our backyard

Will fight you anytime

Is a ravenclaw but wants to be a slytherin because "they have the most fun". (Also, he hates Gryffindors)

Has lots of friends

Teachers HATE him (with a few exceptions who think he's just funny as fuck)

Isfj (a friend)

Cutest human being

Genuinely funny, has a very unique sense of humor. Could have easily been vine famous

Obsessed with shrek memes

Has lots of hilarious tik toks she made on drafts but she's too afraid to actually post them

Cries easily

Can get sad easily

She's literally so awesome but so fucking insecure

Secretly romantic

A pure bean of light. Is nice to everybody

Always the first to say sorry

Enfj (my best friend)

If she loves you she will love and spoil the heck out of you

If she hates you, you'll know immediately

Tries to be nice but also is pretty judgemental

Considers herself an ambivert

Very studious. Loves to learn new things

She spends all her free time in the library

Is a really good friend. Will hear to all your ranting. Gets mad at the things you get mad, will defend your honor

Rants a lot

Very smart, top of her class

Will read Aristotle and a freaking children's book on the same evening

not afraid to express her opinions

Infj (a friend)

Brutally honest. Sometimes she isn't aware it can be hurtful. She doesn't do it on purpose though, it's just the way she is

Smol but will fight you

Serious most of the time but also adorable

Loves for everything to be organized

Is trying her best

Studies hard

Loves dark humor

Is having non of your shit

Is shy and it was hard for her to make friends at first bit now she has lots

She can get stressed really easily

Enfp

Obsessed with star wars

Honestly hilarious

So FREAKING lazy, he failed most of his classes

Lots of self-deprecating jokes

Comes up with the funniest Instagram captions

His Instagram stories are just him doing the stupidest, craziest, funniest things I've ever seen

A meme

Honestly thought he was secretly a weeb but he's just a nerd

Infp (a friend)

ADORABLE

Hates where she lives (with lots of people) but everyone there loves her

She isn't trying to be funny she just naturally is

Writes stories on her free time

Learned a whole new language in like 6 months

A dork

Loves to read

She can be savage as FUCK

Has a hard time saying no

Indesicive, needs a lot of different opinions before she makes a decision

Worries over little things

Genuinely cares about you

Estp (my other brother)

I'm truly amazed at how he does so little, and with little effort he gets straight A's

Really popular and knows it

Will debate with you just for fun

Can't stand stupid people

Has no patience

Will get really angry sometimes but also has a soft spot

Has watched like 100 anime series, got the entire family into anime.

His friends go to him for help while studying

Hilarious

(Might do a part 2 if I can correctly type other people I know, these are just the people whose type I know for sure)

#mbti #intp #entp #infp #enfp #enfj #estp #isfj #infj #mbti meme #mbti personality types

[dangan-happy]

KAME-HAME FORGET ABOUT IT!

I would like to say thank you to mod taichi, mod rantaro and mod komaeda. I am the anon who was desperate, the one who struggles with academic issue, keep sleeping past midnight because of extra chores, and struggling with executive dysfunction. I don't know how to refer myself haha

It's funny, I saw the notification from your blog about my ask when I was REALLY in need of comfort unexpectedly. it was one of the worse day, I failed the selection to go to college I'm aiming for. there is an alternate way by taking a test but it was a huge and important thing for me, because other relatives would talk (or possibly brag) about how their children are doing wonderfully in academic stuff to my parents. I don't want my parents to feel embarrassed because of me. so of course, it gives me a LOT of anxiety. my heart is beating rapidly that my chest hurts so much.

Then I receive your response to my ask. It's very comforting, it calmed me down. I may teared up a bit. I really appreciate the advices, encouragements, and hugs. (I love hugs) Especially mod komaeda's advices. Thank you so much, I appreciate them. They really mean a lot to me. I didn't realize how much I needed all of these. To be honest, when I was re-reading my ask, I almost can't believe I typed all that. I didn't realize how much I struggled and desperate I am. It was truly a moment of weakness lmao

I've been struggling to respond your response because,, well. I'm still struggling haha. Unfortunately, after I send that ask, things are getting hella rough for me. It was one of those unlucky phase of time, where your days get worse each day, except this time is WAY worse because I'm going to graduate in a month and I have an important exam in two days. Then I got hit by other problems too like a member of my group project doesn't corporate so we were late to submit and it was even half done (it happened just a hour ago and it gives me an emotional breakdown because it was an important one but I'm fine now), I got blamed for something I didn't do (this happens a lot anyway but I'm very drained mentally and physically), I accidentally spat something that I've been keeping to myself to my parents and made them angry (I don't want to talk about my true feelings to them bc they only make me feel worse or worse, they get upset), more homeworks to catch up and more stressful stuff .

Basically anxiety is on my ass 24/7. It's the worst time of my life.

But whenever I hit rock bottom I would re-read your response and it lifts me up, you know? It always cheers me up reading your kind words about me, and as cheesy as it sounds, it makes me feel hopeful haha. But I never felt this hopeful before. So I'm very thankful for it, and thankful for the other mods who work hard helping other people too who come to this blog. Because even though I'm still struggling and facing the worst time right now, I'm not doing as bad as before.

Is it alright if I ask for another hug? Sorry, this whole ask ended up with me venting again haha. But I really am doing not as bad as before... I guess I'm doing better. Step by step maybe. Again, thank you so much!!

( By the way, this is out of topic but... hopefully people who know me don't recognize me on this blog for this question haha (if they do then oh well. shrugs): which one does look scarier for you, Once-ler from Lorax or the character designs from the movie called Cats (2019)? I'm not hating the movie, my friend and I are having a lighthearted discourse about it. u_u )

(Neither. Neither one is even that scary at all, for I fear nothing ~ Mod Hajime 🍊🌈)

---

O-Oh, welcome back, kiddo! Whoa, that’s quite the ask you got here. But it’s more or less an update, i-if I’m correct, and a decent one at th-that. Like you said, it’s all step by step progress, wh-which is still progress no matter how you look at it.

I-I hate to hear that there’s been a few extra bumps along the road since your last ask, b-but I’m at least glad to hear that you’ve been making some sort of progress. Progress is still progress, no matter what. I-I’m just glad that you came to us. I-I’m just some average programmer, but I will agree that Nagito and Rantaro did amazing. Nagito’s... quite the interesting kiddo, but he means well, and Rantaro’s a brotherly figure th-that everyone likes, one way or another. Me? Ah, well... I-I can at least give good hugs, I guess?

S-Speaking of hugs, I’d love to give you one. I-I can at least do that right, heh. I’ll give you as many hugs as you want, kiddo. I personally don’t mind at all.

-

Hey there anon, you don't have to worry about referring to yourself, I remember you just fine! Hey, how's that for awesome timing huh? I'm glad you could read our answers when you needed it. I'm sorry to hear that you were having a worse day, but hey, it sounds like there's a way to make that test up a different way, so I'd give your all to trying that route. Don't give up just yet ok? Damn, yeah, I'm no stranger to the whole family bragging thing, that's a whole lot of pressure I think both of us can do without. It's really thoughtful of you to worry about your parents in this scenario, but you can worry about yourself too ok? Regardless of what you do, they should still be proud of you, and if they aren't, they're completely oblivious to your intelligence level and the amazing things you can do. Aw, I'm smiling real hard hearing how much our response helped, I'm always worried that I didn't help, or I somehow made it worse. Not gonna lie, this did give me a confidence boost. Hey, it's ok, you were in a more emotional state. It wasn't a moment of weakness. Everyone breaks down like that from time to time, and I'm happy that we were here to help you at the time. So don't feel bad about that, you're only human, and it's ok to get like that.

You don't have to worry about having the perfect response either. As much as I wish we could, we can't automatically fix any anons' problems, we can only toss our two cents in and cross our fingers that it helps. The good news is that you came to us with your struggles again, so we can try to help some more. Eesh, yeah, those periods are never fun. Pretty sure Komaeda knows more about them than I do, but I can understand at the least. First of all, congrats on graduating! That's real impressive all by itself, so hopefully you can take some pride in that. Ugh, ok, wow, the second part of that. Damn I got hit with all the feels. I hate it when group projects go like that. I'm usually stuck with all the work, or the one who's up at one am trying to finish the damn thing. I think I'm getting kinda incoherent, so sorry about that. I'm glad you're doing better on that end though, hopefully things work out with that. Aw man, I'm really sorry to hear about the blaming thing. Is there any way to prove your innocence? I'm not saying go all class trial or anything, but is there any way for you to argue your case? Even if it happens a lot, that doesn't mean it's ok. You shouldn't have to get used to things like that.

Yikes, yeah I can totally relate to the last part too. I'm also the type to clam up about my feelings because I don't wanna make anyone mad, but that happens some times, and honestly you had every right to say how you feel. You're keeping this all in, and it's gonna take a toll on you. Yeah, that's a whole lot of stress for one person to carry. I'm really impressed you haven't crashed and burned under the weight, seriously, you're an amazing, strong, resilient/ person, and it just blows me away. Trust me, you're gonna get through this stressful time. You're getting close to the end of it, and I know that you're gonna make it through. Damn, I'm smiling and blushing now. I'm really really glad we were able to help you out that much. Good! It's not cheesy at all! I'm glad you're feeling hopeful! The little steps are just as valuable as the big ones, and the fact that you're at least doing a little bit better is fantastic. Of course you can have another hug! It's ok, we're here to listen to vents, so say whatever you want to, no one's gonna judge you, I promise. Yeah, step by step, that's how you do it. 

Oh damn, that's an interesting question. Honestly, I unironically love the Lorax movie, so the Oncerler ain't scary to me. Cats however...that was a trip. I don't have a better way to describe it, it was just a trip. So the Cats designs are way scarier. Like if I met the Onceler in a dark alley, I'd be just fine, but if I saw a cat-human-thing in a dark alley, I'd run for the hills. However, if I met the onceler fandom in a dark alley, that's a whole other story. Ok, I think I'm rambling again, so I think I better stop talking. Keep making those small steps forward ok? You got this.

W-wow... my advice actually helped someone? Please tell me your joking, or better yet pinching me. I can’t believe my little words could affect you so much.... I think I’m tearing up... hehe. I gotta admit, Rantaro and Taichi did a better job than me! What else do you expect from two amazing Ultimates! Anon, I’m terribly sorry to hear that some things have turned up and made your life a bit more harder, but I want you to keep your chin up ok? You’re doing amazing Anon, I can truly tell! Having a partner that doesn’t help with group projects stinks too! It’s ok that you vented again, it’s always good to speak your mind when you feel bad! Helps to let other people hear to so they can help you! And hey, compliments from Taichi? So nice of you! Never heard myself being called an “interesting kiddo” it’s cute!

I thought you’d never ask! I’d love to give you another hug! As long as you’d let me, I get worried when people want to hug me since I’m utter garbage, but if it makes you feel Hope, then I’m happy to oblige! Ah, and the Onceler or the designs of cats? I’d say the cats, I remember everyone having the hots for the Onceler once, so he can’t be that bad, right?

#danganronpa #danganronpa roleplay blog #ask #taichi fujisaki #rantaro amami #nagito komaeda #mod hajime #mod rantaro #mod nagito

[luckyjadeofliyue]

Liyue Lantern Festival - Childe x OC.

Short Story. I got really inspired after finishing the fanart I made lol.

AGAIN, I AM NOT A WRITER. I MIGHT HAVE SOME GRAMMAR AND SENTENCE MISTAKES SO YEAH. YOU WERE WARNED :p

A cool breeze is always welcomed during this hot summer nights. Liyue has always been a busy city, but today is extra special. All-day long everyone has been preparing for the annual Summer Lantern Festival. Once a year, people around Liyue gather and celebrate this auspicious event with friends and family.

Liyue streets are filled with people; everyone excited and having fun. You can see some people dancing, laughing, singing, shopping and having the time of their lives. Children are running around with their lanterns on hand, screaming excitedly about having their wishes come true.

Jadiz only experienced joining this festival once in her life despite living in Liyue since birth. And it was only inside the Yu Clan Compound grounds as she was not allowed to leave the safety of their Clan's residence.

Jadiz walked towards the nearest stall selling lanterns, she looked around and saw a medium-sized white lantern with the lotus print in front of it. She had to tippy-toe to get it, gently taking it into her hand. She stared at the red lotus flower in front of it.

Lotus Flower, it's her and her late mother's favourite flower.

"Is it true that if I wished on a lantern today, it would come true?!", a younger 6 years old Jadiz asked the beautiful woman in front of her.

"Yes little lotus flower, as long as you believe it, then it will come true", her mother kneeled in front of her brushing away a stray curly hair in front of Jadiz's face.

A huge smile grew on Jadiz's face. "YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!", she screamed, jumping up and down in a place like a bunny. "Can I write my wish on the lantern now? Please, PLEASE!!!!", tugging on her mother's sleeve.

Her mother chuckled at her enthusiastic reactions. She handed over a small white lantern with the Lotus Flower print in front of it to the little Jadiz. "Here you go, my dear."

Jadiz took the small lantern, struggled a bit to balance herself. The small lantern looked bigger than it is on her tiny little arms. She struggled to walk towards the table and took a brush dipped in red ink and started writing on the lantern.

"Be careful with your spelling my love; you don't want the gods to get confused and not grant your wish", her mother jokingly said.

"I will!", little Jadiz replied, not even looking at her mother. She stopped writing to check her work; she rubbed her nose with the hand she used to write, smudging a bit of red paint on her nose. Her calligraphy work is more than impressive for 6 years old. "DONE!", she jumped up and excitedly.

"And what does our Lucky Jade wishing for?", a manly voice asked.

Little Jadiz looked up and saw her father walking towards her and her mother. She placed her lantern down and ran towards her father. Her father opened his arms to hug the Little Jadiz and carried her in his arms.

"Hello my love", her mother gave his father a small peck on the cheeks making her father put an arm around her waist and giving both of them a hug.

Little Jadiz' eyes glowed with joy and happiness. Even at her young age, she always wanted the kind of love her mother and father has for each other.

"So, what did our Lucky Jade asked for?", her father asked once again out of curiosity.

Little Jadiz gave her father a wide and bright smile. "I….."

"Would you like to get that lantern young lady?"

Jadiz came back to her senses and saw the shop keeper smiling at her. The old man was standing behind the stall and holding his hands together in front of him.

"Oh…uhhm", Jadiz started to pat her pockets trying to see if she has mora left. She dug deep and found nothing. She sighed sadly, "I-…"

"Here you go, keep the change", someone said beside her.

She looked up and saw a tall red head man with a mask on the side of his hair. The young man smiling giddily at her, looking smug and proud of himself from buying her the lantern.

She raised an eyebrow at him, not sure what to feel or say. Part of her wants to say thank you and be grateful, but the other part wants to walk away or punch that smug look out of his face.

"Thank you, Childe, you are so generous! You didn't have to!", Childe said sarcastically.

"I-will-punch-you in the face..", Jadiz glared at Childe still holding the lantern. She started to walk away from him. "I swear…One time…I'm gonna freeze his sorry butt in the spot..", she mumbled.

Childe couldn't help but chuckle at Jadiz's reaction. He loves teasing her so much because she might be a cryo user, but her temper is hotter than any pyro user he has ever fought. He started running to catch up with her.

"Jade wait up!", he laughingly said. He caught up with her, now walking side-by-side. "You know, you are so cute when you are mad".

"Well, watch me get freaking adorable", Jadiz glared at Childe walking faster, still holding the lantern.

Childe laughed out loud and matched Jadiz' phase; he didn't have to. She is so short that his regular walking speed is her faster-walking speed. "Come on, don't be too mad now, I might fall for you if you become adorable", he teasingly says.

She stopped all of a sudden that he almost collided with her. She turned around, eyes blazing, cold air starting to form around them.

"Uhhh….now now…", he nervously said. "You know I was just joking", he laughed nervously putting both his hands up in the air as a sign of surrender. Man, she is something else he thought to himself in a good way he silently added, trying to hold back a smile.

Jadiz stared at Childe, intending to freeze his ass after the last statement. 'Fall for her?' He really needs to stop teasing her like this. It's hard enough as it is to resist his charming ways; not to mention, he was just flirting with the female store keep at the fabric and clothing store a few minutes ago whic for some reason annoyed the living wits out of her. "Hmph", she turned around so fast that her hair hit his chest and the lower part of his face.

She heard him chuckle again. ‘I still don't get why he enjoys making me mad so much’, she thought to herself as she walked fast trying to get away from Childe. She stopped suddenly to avoid colliding with the little girl that tripped in front of her.

The little girl laying flat on the ground started to sob. She kneeled, placing her lantern on her side to help the little girl to stand up. "Hey there, you're okay", she gently said, trying to comfort the little girl. She then saw a scape on the little girl's knees. "Does it hurt?", she asked worriedly.

The little girl nodded while sobbing, trying not to burst into tears. Jadiz lifted her right hand, cold air formed around them, a lotus flower made from ice started to form on her hand. She put the ice lotus flower into the child's scraped knee and almost instantly the wound disappeared. "Better?", she smiled sweetly.

The little girl's face lit up and smiled. "Thank you, big sister!", the child said, giving Jade a small hug and then running away to her friends.

Childe was trying to catch up to Jadiz and saw the little girl tripped. He stopped on his tracks and watched Jadiz turn from a mad dragoness to a sweet, endearing lady. He couldn't help but smile, she looks so beautiful when she whether she is angry or not; but even more when she is handling kids. She has a gentle touch to her that kids seem to love (he does too).

He started walking towards her after the little kid run away to her friends. He held his hand trying to offer her some help standing up. He saw her looked up at him with those gorgeous jade coloured eyes. She hesitated for a second but ended up taking his hand. He pulled her up gently, but she lost her balance and had to use his chest to stop herself from falling.

Warm. Sweet. Lavender. He thought to himself as he accidentally had a whiff of her scent. He had to calm himself down as he stopped the urge to pull her closer to him. He didn't want to let her go but she already pulled away turning her back on him.

He cleared his throat and picked up the lantern on the ground.

Jadiz had to look away, she can feel her face getting flustered, it was hard not too... She had a whiff of his scent. He smelled like Morning Dew, Ocean and Rain.

‘Calm down, calm down, calm down’, she thought to herself as she tries her hardest not to blush. She knows if he saw her blushing, she will not hear the end of it.

"I know the perfect spot to light this lantern", she heard Childe say.

She took a deep breath and turned around to face him," Really?"

"Yeah, follow me!", she felt Childe take her hand and started running towards the Harbor. She couldn't help but look at this man who is basically dragging her.

After a few minutes of running, they reached the Harbor. They passed by groups of people trying to send their lanterns out as well. Childe finally stopped in front of a very tall crane.

She looked at the crane, looked at Childe, looked at the top of the crane and back at Childe. "Up…there?...", she asked while pointing weakly at the top of the crane.

"Yep", Childe grinned.

"I…You know I'm scared of climbing heights!"

Childe chuckled, he turned around and crouched, "Hop on", gesturing for Jadiz to hop on his back.

"I…can't we just do it here", she started walking towards Childe really slowly.

"Hurry up, or I'll climb without you."

"F-Fine…", she reluctantly agreed. She placed her arms around his shoulder and clump her legs around his waist. She felt his right hand, making sure she is secured on his back. Handing her the lantern so he can use his other hand to climb the crane

"Alright! Let's go!", he excitedly said starting to climb the tall crane.

Jadiz closed her eyes holding on to Childe tighter.

"Not too tight now, I have to breath", Childe chuckled once again as he started to climb up.

After a few minutes, they reached the top. He crouched again to let her down.

"T-thank you..", she shyly said. She never had any trouble thanking anyone, so it has been a mystery to her why she is having difficulty saying those 2 words to him.

Childe chuckled and sat down. She sat down beside him, she took her pen out from her leather satchel. Jadiz then started writing her wish. She felt Childe leaning over to read what she was writing. She glared at him and turned her back away from him.

"Hey! No fair! I wanna know your wish!", Childe protested still trying to read what she is wishing.

She ignored his protest and continued to hide what she is writing. When she finished, she took a match from her satchel and lit the small candle inside of the lantern. She stood up, closed her eyes, both hands on the lantern, making sure to hide her wish from Childe. She felt Childe stood up beside her as well.

Childe can't help but look at Jadiz. Her face illuminated by the light of the lit lantern. Her black curly hair partly on the way. A part of him wants to brush it away, but he resisted. She is such a mystery to him. One moment she is gentle, the next she is a fighter. She is a huge contradiction, an enigma. Probably why he is so interested in her, he could easily finish this mission, but he is enjoying her company. He wants to unlock all her layers, so far it has been such a challenge. Never before has any woman resisted his charm this long. Never before has any woman captivated his interest this long.

He saw her gently kiss the lantern before letting it fly into the sky. A part of him wondered how her lips would feel on his. Her lips were plumped, it looked so soft. He wanted to taste them, maybe nibble on them until she moans from pleasure. He caught himself imagining that scenario and had to stop himself before he starts getting flustered. He looked back at at Jadiz who kept her eyes on the lantern until it's no longer visible.

He cleared his throat, trying to regain his composure, "So…what did you wished for?"

Without looking, she answered, "Something I used to see every day but have lost..I wish that for myself someday...", her voice trailing to almost a whisper.

Childe can sense the loneliness in her voice even though she tried to hide it. Something inside him grew, it's something that he only felt for his siblings which confused him even more… It was the urge to make her genuinely happy… It seemed so strange. All he wanted to do before was to fight, to kill, to get stronger; then this girl came along and something inside him changed... It also doesn't change the fact that he knows he won't be able to do it…she is…after all…his mission...

#childe #chiled genshin impact #childesimp #childe fan girl #childe fanfic #childe fanart #tartaglia fanfic #tartaglia fanart #tartaglia genshin impact #tartaglia childe #tartaglia #tartaglia genshin #genshin #genshin impact #mihoyo #fatui #fatuiagent #fanart #fanfic #childe x oc #childe x reader #tartaglia x oc #tartaglia x reader #ajax genshin #genshin oc #genshin impact oc

[teacher101]

This is the letter that I wrote for my dad to explain how my little sister, who is attracted to girls, is still is is little girl. He is Catholic, Republican, and a veteran which makes him very cold and dismissive of her.

My little sister (Katie Mari) is a happy, normal preteen. She loves Theater and drawing. She is just as my father raised her.. He just can't see that. I know that many kids are in her position and I want to help them. I know many people want to help their siblings like me!!

If you need to send a letter like mine for your sibling, just copy and make it your own!! Maybe together we can make the world a better place for our siblings!!

--‐----------

To whom this may concern (You Dad),

Hey, I wanted talked about why Katie Mary has been feeling and acting standoffish towards you. Do you remember the time you guessed that she was gay. I know you do I also know that you try To deny it. I understand that you cannot understand What she is going through. I know you grew up in a world that was less connected and where your childhood was more about playing than politics. Katie Mari's world is like that too! She is focused on her friends, her hobbies, school, and getting along with people. Every girl I know thinks about these. Katie Mari is also at an age where childhood crushes start for girls. That is a fact that stands the test of time. Girls think about romantic endeavors earlier than boys do. That first crush, that first cute boy, I first felt them in middle school. Katie Mari looks at boys and sees friends. She looks at girls and sees them first as friends then BAM!! one girl is cute. Crush formed. YOU raised a child that is more in tune with herself than a lot of kids. It has nothing to do with being in a mostly female household. Katie Mari liking girls instead of boys right now is how God made her. Dramatic and funny, smart with no common sense. That's our girl! Maybe her crushes will change to boys in the future. But NOW cute girls with freckles, glasses, pigtails, etc. are her crushes. In this very circular discussion, Katie Mari is defensive with you because she does not completely trust you. The defensiveness comes from the exhaustion she gets from second-guessing all of her interactions with you. What will make you mad and what won't. I lived those feelings, Lilly lived those feelings. Feeling like your father only loves you if you can act a part is exhausting. When YOU confronted Katie Mari on not liking guys, YOU disregarded a part of her that is so important RIGHT NOW and created those seeds of distrust. Growing up in a religious family that disregarded the LGBTQ community did not plant those seeds, you did. Every time you mention boys and liking them in the same sentence, Katie Mari is reminded that she has to hide from you. I thought not having secrets and not walking on egg shells is what makes a family. All of us girls are walking on egg shells around you. I feel trapped and angry, I can't imagine what Katie Mari is feeling. She shouldn't have to doubt your love at ELEVEN!! Your love is supposed to be unconditional through all the phases of life. All you have proven is that you disregard parts of us that you do not like. The only reason I am writing this is because of the anti-depression pills. The solution, the only one, Lilly and I have for Katie Mari is that she should wait you out through high school, through college but that's a long time. I can so guarantee you she will not be Daddy's Girl any longer. Our love for you has only grown stronger as we see you power through and overcome your faults. Please overcome this and support Katie Mari through all phases that she goes through. Our family will be stronger for it.