#they all deserved better frankly

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

#mental health #mental health support #positivity #if anybody has ideas of their own definitely include them! #i just think being stuck with this feeling that you don't have autonomy and that you ultimately aren't an equal person or a person at all.. #...in comparison to other people can be a really troubling and dangerous place to be in... #...and that isn't the person's fault for feeling that way. they didn't pluck those thoughts out of thin air... #...like i have felt that exact way all my LIFE because i have been abused for. probably 2/3s of my life... #...only within these past few years have i even FELT alive. frankly it's going to take a while to repair what i have been left with... #...so i know the feeling and i want to help others feel even a LITTLE bit alive. you deserve it... #...you deserve to take in a deep breath before slowly realizing 'oh my gd this is what it feels like to be alive' and SMILE about it #i want that for you even if it is brief. even if it is small. even if it is a whisper. i want you to feel alive #unironically getting rid of the idea of 'guilty pleasures' has made my life SO much better

[aquitainequeen]

Ridley Scott: I made a film about two rival officers constantly duelling throughout and in the aftermath of the Napoleonic Wars, and now I've actually done a film about Napoleon!

Me: Great! Could you also do a film about Baron Dominique Jean Larrey, a vital innovator in European battlefield surgery and triage, often considered the first military surgeon; who pioneered the ambulance volantes ("Flying ambulances") to quickly transport wounded men from the battlefield, effectively creating a forerunner of the modern MASH units; co-led the team that performed one of the first accurately recorded pre-anaesthetic mastectomies in Western medicine; was spotted helping wounded men while under heavy fire during the Battle of Waterloo by the Duke of Wellington who purposefully ordered for his soldiers not to fire in Larrey's direction; and when captured by the Prussians after the battle was about to be executed on the spot when he was recognised by one of the German surgeons, who pled for his life because he had saved the life of Field Marshall Blücher's son some years earlier?

Ridley Scott:

Ridley Scott: Um.

Me: Yeah. Didn't think so.

#Yeah; Baron Larrey was one of my dad's heroes #When we went to Père Lachaise Cemetery we went partly to honour his grave #ridley scott #Baron Dominique Jean Larrey #baron larrey #Dominique Jean Larrey #napoleon 2023 #the duellists #the duellists 1977 #check out the duellists; it's a REALLY good film! #Larrey did a lot of other stuff that I didn't mention; otherwise I'd just be vomiting the wikipedia page #He was a close favourite of Napoleon and went on the Egyptian campaign #he started a school in Cairo where he researched opthalmy (inflammation of the eye) #He made sure that all soldiers (not just French and their allies) were treated #The mastectomy was to treat suspected breast cancer #(unknown to this day if there actually was cancer but perhaps better safe than sorry) #and the patient was Frances Burney #who frankly deserves a film or tv series of her own #If you're up for it she wrote her own description of what the operation was like; which is there to read on her wikipedia page #Whether or not her breast WAS cancerous she lived another thirty years #Ironically her husband DID die of cancer #anyway #*jazz hands*

[dragynkeep]

Yang in volume 1:

Yang in volume 9:

Yang in volume 2:

Yang in volume 9:

Yang was more mature in the early volumes than she is now change my mind

They fr just butchered Yang's character and stripped her of all the positivies she had in the earlier volumes, supposedly before her "development".

#submission #frankly in the first volumes she didn't even stuck me as the type of character whose defining trait was anger #she was quick to resolve to it when she was fighting sure #but generally for someone whose main flaw was supposed to be agression she didn't seem like an angry person to me #well except for that scene where she yelled in blake's face and shoved her against the desk twice #that was just yikes #wasn't romantic at all🫠 #in fact at some point in her development of dealing with her emotions I believe she should've recalled moments in her life #when she didn't notice she needlessly resolved to anger even when she genuinely meant well #during my first watch she even gave me the impression of that empathetic older sister type #who would on the contrary sometimes would know what to say to calm someone down #and who is just too mature and cool to get pissed over some bs #and when they got angry you knew it meant shit mustve gone bad for real #yes i know i slept on the series #but now she's really walked out on the only significant development she had #yang deserved better #rwde #yang xiao long #luke.txt

[tswwwit]

I would love, even if its just its just brief summaries, to know the different thoughts going through bills head throughout the last smut. (mainly when he got the text and when dipper starts just blurting out thoughts and ideas bc i think those moments would be fun to see)

Imagine you're having the shittiest day at work. You're gritting your teeth and hanging onto it by your fingernails, knowing that eventually dealing with this absolutely idiotic, waffling, overstuffed, condescending dipshit of a client will be done with, you'll charge him out the nose for your services - which will probably be, like a hundred dollars, the way this is going! What bullshit. At least afterwards, you can collapse onto the bed and complain to your spouse about it. Which you have been doing, actually, waiting for a decent excuse to bail or check out early.

Then you get a text. And it's your partner saying they got you a brand new console, your favorite pizza - Oh! And a million bucks in untraceable cash - but you might have to kick your shitty client in the nuts so hard his eyes pop out. Does that sound... okay? No pressure or anything.

The reason Bill was a minute later than expected is because even he needed a moment. It was the sheer whiplash from going from Shit to Fucking Amazing.

#answers #Bill went from full on eeueuughhh about his day to practically having hearts floating around him #Perhaps literally depending on the magic situation in the place he was in #In my head Bill was 'hired' by a (shitty) villain and he got out of it by doing a quick betrayal and demanding to be cast out by the 'heros #“I Got THIS to get back to!! You think I wanna keep him waiting???” #He already hovers in his normal triangle form but this man was practically floating with delight heading back to Dipper #A graph of Bill's mood would start out super low then spike sharply at the pic #It then stays super high up with more spikes during all the shenanigans #After the smut they likely get cleaned up. Cuddle. And talk shit about idiots they've had to deal with #Bill Cipher has gone from doing his evil deeds and playing piano to an empty bedroom while raiding his own bar for distraction #To coming home to someone who'll listen to him bitch about his day and absolutely bicker with him about it #Calling him the worst thing in the universe. A scourge upon reality. #The most clever awful bastard. How *dare* he be handsome that's a crime -and frankly Dipper basically did it for him so he can't take credi #And sometimes even saying 'yeah you didn't *entirely* deserve to be screwed over that way. I could have done that *way* better.' #While Bill rests his head in his lap. Having someone listen to him ramble while he gets his hair played with. Lots of really good kisses #Warm. Close. Grossly domestic. But hey! Even *sex* can seem gross if you phrase it weird and *that's* a normal demonic pleasure #Sometimes fun things are just fuckin' FUN y'know?? Even if this one seems weird to other demons #It's. Nice. REALLY nice. #There's absolute no goddamn way he's going back to NOT having this #Even death won't pry it out of his greedy little mitts

[ihni]

Mike’s not the heart, he’s the appendix.

#stranger things #listen i was talking about things with callie #and we are equally annoyed with how poor will went 'you're the heart' to mike #listen #i would not miss mike at all #will deserves better and frankly so does el #mike deserves to work at a low-paying job at ikea throughout his 20s

[cats-jade]

the way quinton reviews talks about the victorious fandom being convinced some of the ships are wholesome and ship it and like… i don’t think he understands that most of us, as far as i’ve seen, don’t ship the characters bc we think their relationship works, but actually because it doesn’t. we’re all a bunch of sickos who like to see the characters suffer. i’m dead serious about this, like, yeah ofc we make slightly ooc versions of the characters in our heads so we can imagine them in a somewhat healthy relationship with each other and write fanfiction about that, but we also like to see the toxicity of some of those ships (canon or not). he said it himself, victorious is like someone watched it’s always sunny but didn’t get the joke; they’re all awful people (except cat, maybe, although she’s a triple murderer) who don’t deserve to win but they win anyway, so it just feels good to have them suffer in a unhealthy relationship, it’s cathartic, and i know that i personally get soo into it that i end up coming across as someone who finds the ship wholesome sometimes but i certainly do not, i just love it anyway. and i do project into the characters, and that’s because, well, i’m not gonna be toxic to people in real life, i’m not gonna have an abusive relationship, so writing about it (whether it’s fanfiction, meta, elaborate headcanons or just brief tumblr posts) allows me to get the edge off, simply put. i don’t know if this never occurred to him, if he doesn’t get it cause it’s not something he does, or if he’s aware of it and just doesn’t mention it in the videos, but i’m pretty sure a lot of the fandom is with me on this one ?

#victorious #quinton reviews #nickelodeon #jori #tori x jade #cade #cat x jade #catorade #cat x tori x jade #bade #beck x jade #tandre #tori x andre #jade x tori #i’m not tagging any other ships cause frankly these are all i care about. i hope robbie dies alone #also i love trina vega but she deserves better than dating anyone in this show so she’s not included #meta analysis #sort of #mp #tori vega #jade west #beck oliver #cat valentine #andre harris #kinda weird that i simply know all their last names like 😐 questionable choices i’ve made in my life #sam & cat #puckentine #sam x cat #sam puckett #meta

[thewhizzyhead]

I know the reunion concert was literally just 2 days ago but my bros my guys my dudes I miss WATT so so much and I really do want this show Actually Revived because I miss my cheerleaders, pma's stories and music are fucking great and I wanna hear more, watt has so much room for improvement, and I wanna see watt thrive aaaaaaaa

#like i have had my fair share of musicals that Greatly Deserve A Revival (alice by heart (!!!) and love in hate nation (!!!)) #but i cheer for watt the most because um well yes it had me hooked in 2021 so im biased #but also because i've spent so much damn time analyzing the damn show #and ive said time and time again that it is a genuinely well crafted show that not only treats the teenage experience with mature respect #(like watt is the only modern-teenage-girl-focused musical that comes to mind that doesnt ridicule its demographic) #but also has a perfectly crafted emotional core (that being the story of vices and grief with annleigh farrah kate and chess) #+ the relationships they all share with one another! #and another reason why i cheer for a revival because i really do feel that show can be improved even further #(i still stand by my 2 yr old rambles that act 2 could be better and that the exploration of guilt with kate annleigh & reese would be nice) #and i really do want watt to improve because frankly the emotional aspects of the show have so much potential! #and lastly: as an aspiring writer and musician i genuinely admire pma and his works so much #and id love to see him become even more successful and prominent in the mt sphere or wherever he wishes to be #anyways yea watt has a special place in my heart and id love to see it officially come back some day #and thats the end of my ramble gotta go bye damn i really am in a 2021 mood #we are the tigers #preston max allen

[gothmods]

But also if someone really is going to decide to do absolutely nothing with their life despite being thrown a rope on multiple ocassions i would still rather they do that nothing in a clean and safe home. If someone is going to neglect their own physical and emotional wellbeing i would still rather they recieve the same standard of care as someone who doesnt.

Because i dont know if we can ~save~ everyone so to speak. As in i dont know if we can fix all those wrongs in a persons life that have lead to that point. Preventing them from happening to begin with feels less daunting than confronting the baggage thats mounted up over years. A chunk of that is at the end of the day down to them.

But i still want everyone to have a level of dignity in life yknow?

#and there are people now who are willing to provide those services imagine how many more people would be if cleaning and sanitation workers #were treated better #theres a biography i really wanna get by a woman who dedicated the latter part of her life to doing it #she worked as a trauma cleaner and trained other people into it - cleaning crime scenes hoarding basically all the jobs that regular #cleaners wont touch #a watched a shorter documentary that followed her and it was really eye opening i guess in terms of like #how much doing that work meant to her and how little judgement she held against clients and just #if people are willing to go to those lengths now then i think the question of who under socialism would be willing to do those jobs is... #well frankly its stupid #are people deserving of that care if they never give anything in return? i dont care thats something to weigh on their conscience #if i refuse them that care then that is on me #you dont solve anything by neglecting yourself but you also dont solve anything by neglecting the people who do

[aeide-thea]

a while back i made a post (that of course i now won't be able to find) that was like, two really popular (complementary!) fallacies are (1) thinking an experience is universal, when in fact it's specific to one's particular body/psyche/milieu; and (2) thinking an experience is specific to a particular body/psyche/milieu, when in fact it transcends such divisions—

anyway i get that the phrase 'purposelessly cloistral' is fun to sneer but i'm afraid that, like rhetoric about 'touching grass,' i actually think it's both unkind and intellectually unrigorous as analysis. yes, exposure to a broad variety of people is good for you, and can help you realize that positions you've taken for granted aren't shared by everyone; but people tend to cluster into insular echo chambers anywhere they congregate, whether that be in chatrooms or churches or cities, and i'm frankly very tired of this recurrent urge to, like, resurrect middle school ideas of coolness and use them as cudgels. clubbing—of either variety!—doesn't make you a better person.

#you'll also note the 'like this' in the post i'm criticizing‚ which is elusively‚ frustratingly vague as a condemnation— #like *what*‚ you may ask! #but if you have to ask‚ you're obviously not cool enough to be part of the in crowd #god forbid we define our terms and have a conscientiously careful discussion #that's a CLASSROOM standard for NERDS who spend time INDOORS #so if you object to our framing‚ you become exactly the sort of loser we're denigrating! #anyway. some of us are‚ in fact‚ purposelessly cloistral #and frankly deserve better than to get subtweeted with sloppy sneering analyses like this. #like i PROMISE you there are people out there getting warped into absolutely wild shapes by insular environments based on irl socializing #everyone wants to connect! dots! and it's like #sometimes—often‚ even—the real picture is in fact more complex & less binary than yr simplistic dot-connecting urges are allowing for #anyway‚ as with all such rhetoric‚ pushing back at this unavoidably makes me sound like exactly the sort of hothouse loser it skewers #but what can you do? accept that or else be preemptively shamed into silence (which is of course its goal). #✌️

[kanerallels]

Well I have officially deleted the Tumblr app, gotten rid of the tab for the tags I'm following, and unfollowed almost all the tags I was following

#i have had it up to here with these bots #it makes me sick #and frankly we all deserve better than to have to deal with this kind of thing #it's getting to the state where i might have to leave for a while

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[kimbapisnotsushi]

i for real think bnha should be academically studied honestly

#bnha #ESSAY IN THE TAGS YOU GUYS SCROLL DOWN FOR TLDR #the way it went from being like . . . normal mainstream popular to like. ig still mainstream popular enough #but being bashed upon and jeered at and called cringe #among other things via fandom culture #i really do like it!! #it's fun and feel-good and makes me want to cheer for people #and it's SO creative #like my head would hurt if i had to come up with that many individual powers AND give them all distinct names #AND come up with that many superhero/villain names #AND design them based on aforementioned powers #i think this is one of the few rare cases where it being gimmicky and cheesy works bc that's part of the charm of a superhero story #superheroes ARE gimmicky and cheesy #you know they're about doing the right thing!! you know they're about being the good guys!! #yeah yeah i know it goes a lot deeper than that but. you get what i'm saying? #and like how could i possibly hate bakugo becoming better #how could i possibly hate hawks being a kickass mentor and being a hero who strives for something different #how could i hate aizawa defending his students so dearly and monoma and shinsou being underdogs who rise up to the challenge #how could i hate a group of kids who are so kind and good and are so keen on helping each other??? who are trying to protect each other??? #i simply can't!! #tldr i have a soft spot for bnha and this is my love letter for a series that quite frankly doesn't deserve half the vitriol it gets #sou says stuff

[darrengrave]

I'd probably appreciate a romantic take on cloud and tifa more if everyone I've ever encountered that's super into that ship wasn't absolutely insufferable. Queer platonic best friends it is then.

#ffvii #frankly im way too queer to care about love triangles #just let them all date each other tifa and aerith clearly dont have any bad feelings toward each other its a perfect poly scenario #strictly storywise though its always been extremely clear where the main themes are being carried #so much so that i picked up on the romantic overtones immediately from my first exposure to ff7 in a cameo in a different game #sorry i have some media literacy #some of us know how to read and interact with media outside of shipping culture #frankly i think tifa can do better #she doesnt deserve someone who aggravates her insecurities this badly

[hourglass-full-of-stars]

Nine Liars review: he committed to the bit a bit too much

#nine liars #truly devious #nine liars spoilers #it was SO much better than the last one ????? #the David stuff ? I think what I always thought and was frankly justified the man is not good enough for my girl #and he brings her down #and this book proves it #Stevie Nate best friend truther #OK THIS IS BURIED ENOUGH I REALLY LIKED THAT END ???? #THE PETER CHAPTER #like. I want a book about him #the man axe murders his friends #and is like alright what’s all this then #my guy #I like how he barely even snaps the man just runs #so interesting #Maureen Johnson give me the nine liars prequel I deserve #DESERVE #the box in the woods was lame #this gave more truly devious VIBES #I think it was because of the setting #also if it’s one thing she’s gonna do she’s gonna release the book in the month it’s set in #respect #maximum vibes #unrelated I have a fear of axe murderers now and can never trust anyone again #my stuff #8.7/10 #David as a person brought it down #and then he cheats on her at the end anyway #if I see a David/Stevie shipper it’s blocked on sight….

[twicecut]

man. rewatching s3 scenes to get re-acquainted with diego and. the red flags. every single flag is red. i think lila is trying, and i understand her, i do, but the framing of each of their serious talks makes me want to yell.

#the whiplash of them being on the cusp of breaking up and diego's clearly upset #and lila demanding he go to a wedding which he does not want to go to because he NEEDS to save his family #his family is everything to him #the. ah man. the trying to force him to choose between her and saving his family. #and also trying to force him to undress when he clearly Does Not Want To. #and that all being frankly kind of alarming. juxtaposed with him giving her a romantic confession and (probably) having make up sex. #without like. really properly letting diego look at how kinda messed up that just was. #idk man. ik lila apologizes for lying and manipulating diego into thinking stan is their child to ''test'' him. #but the apology means so little to me when she does this and then later threatens to kill klaus if he talks to diego. #i do not think that lila is trying to be abusive but like. there is so much emotional abuse going on here. #and... idk man. i love her. their toxicity could be interesting. but the show keeps glossing over it. playing like it's romantic. #i want so badly for them to grow together not stagnate and ignore their glaring issues. lila and diego deserve better. aghhh. #out of knives [ooc];

[we-are-inevitable]

how about we stop forcing the "racetrack higgins-esque" role onto Ben Tyler Cook and realize that

he's not JUST race anymore

he's not going to exclusively take on race-like roles

his portrayal of your favorite blorbo in ONE piece of media doesn't mean you can ignore the actions of his character in another

and he's a talented actor capable of so much more than his fans seem to want from him

#i am STILL !! seeing mouthpiece apologists on this app just bc hes played by precious blorbo btc #yall know ben can play different and complex roles right ?? 💀 #hes not gonna be 'lovable idiot racetrack higgins' forever and tbh he shouldn't be !! #and you cant defend every character he plays just because he played your favorite newsie years ago. thats not how it works #ben is a capable actor but y'all act like you only want to see him typecasted as the impulsive funny blond #thats not how you grow as an actor! frankly its kinda weird that yall are hanging onto his portrayal of race with such an iron grip #and don't get me wrong i love race! but how about fixating on the character instead of the actor #sigh. my two cents for the day #jac txt. #dont reblog this with discourse i really dont care enough to argue #i'm just saying! he deserves better #all my opinion and feel free to disagree if you want <3 #newsies #west side story 2021 #wss #west side story #west side story mouthpiece #mouthpiece #ben tyler cook #newsies live #racetrack higgins #race higgins #the jets wss #the jets west side story