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[darrengrave]

as a Jew I find the antisemitic trope of the Wandering Jew endlessly fascinating and there’s a version of it that lives rent free in my head that I can’t get out

because yes, we have been cursed—not by G-d, but by man; not for anything we’ve done, but for libel against us—and the curse antisemites have forced on us is that we must wander forever. we don’t get a home, here or there. we aren’t allowed to put down roots in diaspora, but we aren’t allowed to return either; regardless of which we do, the nations try to drive us out and impose their sentence on us: you must wander some more

there is a deconstructed version of the Wandering Jew that I want to reclaim, not as a testament to our sin but as a witness to the nations’, how they’ve treated the wanderer in their midst. on some level, a witness to how the nations treat all wanderers: Jew, Roma, bedouin. but ultimately, a testament to the libel & persecution we as Jews have endured & persevere through

this Wandering Jew is a weary old immortal forced to wander by hatred that goes before him through the nations, who has seen those nations come and go, empires rise and fall, and bears witness to our plight through every one, waiting for injustice to be righted so he can finally rest

#judaism

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i love digesting lactose it’s so easy to do

#the cruelest irony is whole milk is the best tasting and most hydrating milk #not even close to any other kind of milk #me just casually drinking that shit like every other day #more hydrating than water

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Oh hey Silent Hill 4 is on GOG. Maybe that means they'll get the rights to 1-3...? I don't see how 2 and 3 particularly are any more difficult than 4 to port or get permission to sell..

#homecoming is on steam but it sounds like the worst port imaginable #silent hill #its like 10 dollars drm free

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My laptop running

A decade+ old action platformer (Alice Madness Returns): 🥵🤒(rip fps)

A decade+ old notoriously buggy open world rpg (Fallout New Vegas): 😃👍

..girl, what

#she was dropping frames on The Path i was sure she was going to crash before launching an open world rpg let alone run it smooth as butter #so wtf do i have to do to get you to handle these other games from the same era and platform like that then

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Ceremonial Sword of Emperor Maximilian Ist from the 15th Century on display at the Hofburg in Vienna

Made by Hans Sumersperger in Hall (Tyrol) in 1496.

Photographs taken by myself 2016

#c art ref #weapons #hvn

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Look at them!

They ✨️match✨️

Also!

They like cats!🐱🐈‍⬛

#im not a soulslike kind of player but lies of p has me seriously reconsidering #alice madness returns #lies of p

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#sh

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"why can't they just be friends" not in the homophobic way but in the "their platonic relationship in the source material is far more dynamic and complex than the sanitized personalities they gain as a result of shipping" way

#me with cloud and tifa #i hate the way the shippers strip down their personalities and worst of all rob marlene of her father just to play house with them #im not against it overall i just cannot stand the shipper fanon versions of these characters

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I’ll try to post the actual pictures I took soon, but I was bored today and wanted to shirk some other responsibilities, so I decided to do some general vague Minoan or Mycenaean look since it’s been on the mind and also my hair was looking really good today and I wanted to take advantage of that haha

#greek

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SILENT HILL 4: THE ROOM.

#sh4

[darrengrave]

I am sorry.

I enjoyed the show, I didn't analyze it critically when I should have and actively recommended it.

I realize the error of my ways and feel guilty.

Do you have any recommendations for good media in place of it?

The thing is that engaging with media isn't activism and engaging with more "ethical" media doesn't make for a better worldview. It's fundamentally impossible to purify your soul by consuming art, and the idea of purity in that way is already missing the forest for the trees.

Fallout New Vegas, along with 1 and 2, are games I love deeply. But New Vegas has horrendous problems with racism- specifically anti indigenous racism. 2 has some awful tonal problems and some downright horrifically aged humor.

The thing is, despite these works not being perfect- I still find tremendous value in them. The show, for all I have said about the ways it makes me deeply uncomfortable, is still quite often an engaging piece of art: an impressive passion project of thousands of creators and writers and filmmakers coming together to make something they believed in.

While I find the show's narratives quite troubling- I am also enraptured by the ways they're often presented. It is a show that is stylish and interesting and I think most people watching it don't notice these things.

Media analysis isn't a means of solving the ills of the world- because making media less problematic wouldn't solve any of the underlying biases that the society that PRODUCES this media has. Works like these are a branch of the tree, not a root. I'm pointing these things out as a way of countering some of these narratives- but also with the hope that it will help people notice these narratives in other places.

I'm not telling you that you can't like the show, or that liking the show makes you a bad person. I don't like it personally- and I'm wary of much of what the show is saying- but ultimately it is just a piece of art, and it should be understood as part of the current cultural landscape- created to turn a profit and entertain audiences. It is a product of its time and its culture and should be understood as such.

The things present in the show that we find offensive stem from the society that produced it- and must be understood as systemic problems and not one-off failings of the Fallout show team (not to say they are innocent, just that their particular wrongdoings are part of a larger issue.)

There are things far more important than the fallout show being problematic. Save the energy for other fights. There are a lot of people who need help right now. Take this as a learning lesson, and look out for these things in the world around you- not just on TV and in movies.

I hope this doesn't come off as rude or dismissive, and I hope it gives you something to think on.

#ENGAGING WITH MEDIA ISNT ACTIVISM #AND ENGAGING WITH MORE ETHICAL MEDIA DOESNT MAKE FOR A BETTER WORLDVIEW #do not agree with all og points about fallout but thank god someones saying this #you are far better off consuming something with less than ideal themes and learning to enjoy something critically #than surgically excising any and all arbitrarily problematic media from your sight altogether #youre not thinking critically when you have no opportunity to think critically

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I didn't realize the mods for fallout on pc were to get the games to work at all, not just quality of life shortcuts and graphics tweaks.

Suggestions for 3? Sounds like Tale of Two Wastelands is a must.. I'm stuck with integrated graphics right now (i5 3rd gen, 16gb ram on SSD) which makes me nervous. Usually it can handle the 360 gen but a notoriously buggy open world I'm not so sure about..

#fallout

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ALICE: MADNESS RETURNS 2011 | dev. Spicy Horse Games

#alice madness returns

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I love this soundtrack so much. <3

#alice madness returns

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#going insane in my room like #alice madness returns

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