#Major Assessment

[frogbitsalad]

Major Inconvenience? more like Major Sus

Iterator oc by @drawwithmis !

#rain world #Major Assessment #rw_oc_mi #iterator oc #cat's art #he's trying to project other symbols to his head and came up with this... #hehehehehhehehehehe #cat's art! #he is drawing energy from an unknown source #this is fine

[sharptoothed-gaze]

Hello fandom. I understand that very few of you will care about my personal opinion, and that's fine, but I find it important enough to how I run my blog to share anyway.

In the future, all of my posts will simply be avoiding any mention of Wilbur wherever possible. His character is a major part of Tallulah's story, but I will be keeping him away from my blog as much as I can.

Typically, I would go with a "death of the author" approach and keep mentions of the character and cc more separate. However, the cc's alleged quest for money and fame changes that entirely. I will not be contributing to that. That's just my personal choice, so there should be no shame to anyone who chooses to separate the two, obviously.

I watched Shubble's video and I saw his response. In my opinion, it was terrible. The way he centralized his own "growth," minimized the pain he caused, and left the actual apology on the second page is revealing. His statement reminds me of some of the past emotional abuse I've experienced, so his content will no longer be welcome on my blog. I believe in the merit of archiving, so I will not be deleting any past posts, but he will no longer have any place in my death family related tags.

#I am not usually an unprovoked statement kind of person #especially because I don't think that's why people look at my content and I 100% understand a desire for escapism #However his name would absolutely pop up naturally on this blog since I main Philza. #I have little interest in letting that happen though. #I have mentioned in the past how victims should never feel forced into silence and this is a part of that. #I listen to the victim. I wait for more information. I form an opinion when I can assess both parties b/c victims deserve to be heard . #I have listened and will continue listening but Wilbur and his own words are enough to paint my own picture. #Unless something major changes this is how me and my blog will be handling it. Thank you. #qsmp #qsmp wilbur #wilbur situation #tw abuse

[hiemaldesirae]

[sees radiostatic vampire! AU] arrax, my darling, my dearest...marry me lol

ANYHOW i would kill for poor vox finding himself trapped in a Renfield-esque situation with a powerful vampire because he’s just Too Fucking Pretty — lmfao, he Would. getting sick imagining demon! Al seeing what happened to his bestie/future wife and going ballistic, spending literal centuries trying to find a way to free vox’s soul from his sire with (I can imagine) the very limited contact he can make as a demon in the human world, committing All of the atrocities and playing his cards right with the upper echelon in the hopes that he can somehow gain a corporeal form again; meanwhile, poor vox is wallowing so deeply in his religious guilt and missing his friend and What Has My Life Become that he writes off all of Al’s attempts to communicate with him from the afterlife as hallucinations/fever dreams from one too many nights at the bar. He *is* confused as to why he’s imagining his dead best friend with deer antlers and an ATROCIOUS haircut, like What was in that scotch, but those moments are the few and far between in his monotonous and miserably prolonged existence that he milks it for all he can (aka Alastor definitely stuck around into the late hours of the evening possessing any radio/mirror/hapless human bartender in vox’s vicinity so that he could listen to his love rant about his boss while shit-faced, whispering softly as to guide Vox to good potential targets)

Thing is, though: I can see Wannabe Dracula noticing Al’s presence — maybe because something something freaky demon magic stuff, maybe because he notices that hopeful sparkle and pure adoration in those lovely eyes once more — and oh, he is pissed; you see, he’s been dangling the promise of somehow allowing his familiar the chance to see his beloved once more as long as he swears his eternal servitude and devotion to him for decades now (he’s lying through his teeth and vox knows it deep down, but can’t bring himself to admit it) and that smiling fuckface is trying to intrude on HIS plans, take away HIS precious pet? so, he starts to tighten his control on Vox: running him ragged to lure and fetch him his meals, never letting him get proper rest and nutrients, and only worsening the issues by draining him of his blood until he’s tethering on the brink of death — it’s gotten so bad to the point where the very few (secret) human friends Vox has managed to make in his increasingly rare moments of freedom assume he’s an anaemic trapped in an abusive relationship and try their damnedest to get him help. The thing is: Vox can’t even bring himself to fully hate his sire or his possessive actions because if he closes his eyes and let’s his mind wander, he can pretend those cold lips against his neck as Alastor’s, that all of this is *worth it* for Alastor, and by God, does he hate himself for it...

So when that one fateful night happens, when he feels those warm arms again around his waist, protecting him from the midnight chill, and that wonderful, mellifluous voice crooning in his ear, Vox can’t help himself. Once the shock settles, he weeps and throws weak punches at the smiling face he’s been dreaming about seeing again for so, so long. Alastor sees his beloved, weak, disheveled and pale, those lovely eyes bruised and hideous bitemarks blemishing fair skin that vox has been feebly trying to hide with turtlenecks, and he sees red. Oh, how he wishes so badly to tear that wretched vampire limb from limb with his bare hands and present Vox the still-beating heart to consume on a silver platter — but he’s forced to push those lovely thoughts to the back of his mind, for another day, as, with Vox’s “schedule” and Alastor only having limited use of his physical form for now, the two of them are living on borrowed time. So he settles for pulling Vox in close once his love has had his fill of sobbing/cursing him out, gently brushing his dark curls from his eyes as he kisses the tears away, relishing in the bitter taste.

Vox lets himself be guided away to safety in the shadows of a dark alleyway — ironically, much in the same way he would lure his own prey — as Alastor trails hungry, possessive kisses down his throat, roughly pinning his wrists against the wall and tracing the letters of his name along any blue vein he comes across, slicing his own wrist to feed the poor thing before *properly* for the first time in months. His master’s furious demands reduced to nothing more than an annoying insect’s buzz in his ears, Vox throws his head back and allows himself to truly enjoy the moment as Alastor growls into the crook of his neck, sharp teeth grazing sweet skin but not biting, not *yet*.

“He wants you, the pathetic fool, he *craves* you, but he’ll NEVER have you — not when *I* saw you first, my dear...”

hey mk wanna know a fun fact. about an hour or so after you sent this in yesterday i got a followup ask from arrax about the vampire radiostatic au. geniuses truly do think alike huh love that for you guys! let me officiate the (un)holy union :thumbsup:

ANYWAY..... your mind is truly so very powerful. the idea of al trying to reach vox in any way he can, travelling through radio frequencies or hacking into on-earth radio broadcasts / possessing people around vox to talk to him so that he can reassure him and make sure hes doing alright ...... URHGH they make me SICK . al fucking HATES seeing vox broken down and chained to a master who treats him in such a way and if he had more power he'd no doubt kill vox's vampire sire, but as it is the amount of power lucifer granted to him simply wasnt enough to even assume a fully corporeal form, much less take on an ancient vampiric lord

and the scene in the alleyway URGHDHD... i absolutely cannot with them they are SO disgustingly in love. in this scenario i feel like alastor would probably end up striking a deal with charlie to help her with her hotel, so long as she helps convince her father to help out vox. does it work? probably, actually. when he finally amasses enough power to tear the old bastard apart, though, the first thing he does is give part of that demonic energy to vox and guide him to kill his sire himself

#SORRY FOR THE DRY RESPONSE im not very smart rn #<- just finished a major assessment and ive got an essay to write but i REALLY wanted to get to this #ran rambles #hazbin hotel #general asks #radiostatic #vampire vox au

[sionisjaune]

post mortem w brocedes pls, nico as the dead one bcs im hurt no comfort like that xoxo

26. the post-mortem

There are three reasons why Lewis hates the circuit in Bahrain. 

One. It’s the beginning of the season. Another one and another one. The championship used to start in Melbourne, under the sun, Lewis so jetlagged he could hardly think. It was better that way. All he can do is think in Bahrain, in the damp dark of the cockpit, and think and think and think. You don’t race by thinking.

Two. He’s won here more than anyone else. He lands in Bahrain, and then he wins, and then everyone talks about how he always wins, and then he has to talk about it too. It’s a curse, winning in Bahrain. It’s twenty-five points in the bag now and a party afterwards. He isn’t in the mood to party, but he can’t not, so he tucks himself beside the bar and sips whiskey until he’s allowed to go home. 

Three. Nico Rosberg died here. The corner after the straight killed him, in a pile-up the likes of which the junior formulae see all the time, and then they named it after him. This was back in 2005, when the circuit was a little bit different and Lewis hadn’t raced there yet. He took Nico’s seat and won the thing the following year. It was the definite end of whatever was blossoming between them and the explosive finale of the inaugural GP2 season. Nico had already bagged the championship by then, anyway. No one talks about it anymore, least of all Lewis. 

#tw major character death #(not graphic but a dead dove nonetheless) #also full disclosure i meant post-mortem in the figurative sense--as in the assessment of the relationship after it's over... #but this works too! #breakup prompts

[irhabiya]

there's so much about the way the medical field operates that i hate, from medical school to actual medical practice. so much of it just encourages these passionless, soulless practitioners who never had their hearts set on helping people in the first place and that translates in their work and affects real human lives

#i was having a conversation with my brother (a dentist) about this earlier this year when i was still hesitant about my major #and he pointed something out that i kind of intuitively knew but didn't want to acknowledge #he said that most people who go into medicine or dentistry have no interest in helping people #they're mostly people who graduated with high averages and feel like it would be a waste to pursue something else #it's like they're high achievers clubs basically #or they're people who have a general interest in the field and specifically the sciences being taught but no passion for helping others #those usually end up in academics or research. the amount of people who go into medicine with a genuine interest in providing better care #is very very low #and like i can't speak for other medical schools #but our assessments for sure don't encourage taking this profession as anything more than academic #:/ #🩺

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!

#How about I just start strangling ableists from now on? #Would THAT convince them I’m actually this person’s real friend? #Literally nothing I say to them is able to get through their dense fucking skulls— #as if it’s sooooo hard for them to believe I actually enjoy their company #Also (halfway unrelated): if I hear “It takes a special person to work with special children” one more time I am going to SCREAM #Tell me I’m calm; tell me I’m patient; tell me I’m creative— do NOT tell me I’m “special” for doing a job I LOVE #Can you imagine telling a quantum physics major “It takes a special person to solve special math problems?” #😂💀 WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. I’m gonna start saying that to people from other professions. To see how they like it. #The children are not a burden to me; the children are very enjoyable to be around #and I enjoy troubleshooting what is preventing them from learning and coming up with workarounds for them #I made a glued roll of paper for a kid who constantly peels their skin because I saw them peeling crayons #It works! #I made math problems into a Skibidi Toilet role playing game for another kid who hides under tables when it’s time to work. It works! #You know why I was able to come up with either of these inventions? Huh? You wanna fucking know? #1.) I peel my lips and mouth and palms of my hands and calluses and cuticles and scabs; and #2.) I have awful executive dysfunction and have to do weird stuff to engage myself #People talk to me like I’m one of the “normal” ones; little do they know I’m getting assessed for ADHD and score 142 on the RAADS-R #and I essentially self-destruct when I get mad so I don’t break valuable items or punch through drywall and oak doors #I give myself bruises that swell a half inch high and form hematomas under the skin #I think I’ve permanently weakened the blood vessels and a vein in my right thigh from beating it so much #because it only takes one well-placed blow on my right; but several blows to my left #And I can see the bruise pooling towards my heart along the path of that vein from day to day after the initial beating #and sometimes it just randomly aches when it’s not injured; so I have to shift my weight when the kids sit in my lap wrong #so with that and something else I did to it not super recently that I should have gone to urgent care for… I probably have nerve damage lol #so it’s gross when people say such things about other NDs to me as if I am above them #Just fuck off already

[artbyblastweave]

An interesting thing about Mark Waid’s writing, his superhero writing in particular, is that, as an author whose career occurred in lock-step with the development of online fan culture, he very clearly gets social media on a fundamental level- the underlying dynamics, the applications, the cult-of-personality building, dirty-pool techniques like sock-puppetry and harassment campaigns, online bubbles, the whole shebang.  However, he’s also, like, 60. Thus he’s written a number of works where the integration of social media into the plot rings true, but the wording and lingo used anytime you actually see a character using social media comes across as very “how do you do fellow kids.”

#half-baked assessment #I'm thinking of Insufferable in particular #which has a major part of the story being that a superhero is being driven insane by being Too Online #thoughts #meta #clearin out the drafts

[dramaphan]

I watched that stupid cat video the other day and I have been fighting a losing battle against logging into Tumblr ever since

#I've been lurking 👀 #assessing the vibe #I do be missing you freaks sometimes #but like at this point I'm so desperately out of the loop #if someone wants to write an essay in my inbox detailing every Major Phannie Event of 2023 I would kiss you with tongue

[xiaeom]

my commissions are open ♡

#commissions #im finally free from alot of major assessments so !!!! #i'll try my best

[archersgoon]

BUT GARGARIN DIDN'T LET GO. INSTEAD HE HELD A HAND TO ARJURO'S FACE. I WANT MY BROTHER BACK. SO I SAY WE ARE EVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#arj&garj famous 4ever #last day of classes over now it's time to brothers abroi post <- guy with 2 major assessments + an exam still to come

[professionalowl]

not reblogging the post because i know it's a flawed test (and infuriatingly poorly worded to wit) but the RAADS-R autism test is going around again and i got an 87, which is i think what i got the last time i took it and also tracks - i'm personally pretty certain that i'm not autistic, but (autistic) friends of mine have historically been split on the issue because apparently i 'act' like an autistic person and they're often surprised when i say i'm actually not

#my *closest* friends tend to think i'm not but - to quote one guy - '[i'm] very smart and smart ppl tend to have traits that overlap' #which is an interesting assessment (he's autistic tb clear) and i think i know where it's coming from #i'm very direct with comments; i often have trouble with empathy; i'm clever (or y'know 'clever' for a given value of the word); #i don't feel emotions particularly strongly - or immediately - and this comes across in my speech #which i've been told can come off as detached/disaffected/uncaring even when it's not trying to be; #i'm apparently quite difficult to read sometimes? or come off as intimidating per neutral expression; #uh. one time an english teacher told me that i'd taught her to 'think more logically' whatever the fuck that means; #these are i think stereotypical autistic 'smart guy' traits which do not actually map on to the majority of autistic people afaik #at least not as a package or all expressed the same way - but in this case i think it's a category error #interesting food for thought nonetheless. i spend some time thinking about it because people do ask me occasionally #and the general autistic mileu of tumblr.com has actually helped me be nicer to myself about those traits #(as well as check myself abt other people; i'm not going to pretend to be some kind of saintly autistic whisperer or w/e) #considered going back and taking the test with the 'most generous' and then the 'least generous' answers and comparing them #but i can't be bothered. add a button for 'in specific situations' or die by my hand #i WILL say that some of said autistic friends who were surprised to find out i wasn't #expressly thought i WAS because they drew a correlation between their behaviour and my own #so it's not just 'people are misreading me because of stereotypes about how autistic people act' although i do think that can be an element #let me know if this post is weird or w/e it is literally just speculating on myself and how people perceive me #as a consequence of tending to occupy circles otherwise occupied largely by neurodivergent people #('fandom' and 'archaeology and anthropology')

[lesless]

All my friends are falling to pieces & it’s challenging because I really only know how to support the emotional end of that but 2 of them lock up, don’t talk & I think 1 of them who does talk listened a little too hard to my advice & is now getting a divorce. He sucks though.

#they have a whole ass child & he has to be TOLD to brush his teeth or feed him???? #she has to schedule his haircut appointments #he doesn’t make sure she comes #she’s stressed bc she brings home a majority of their bill money & managing him & her child is a second third full time job #anyway all I said was #I want y’all to be happy but more than that I want YOU to be happy #I’ve known her single & she was happy #I knew her with him in the beginning & she was happy #it’s now to the point where he started a full day fight bc she asked him to mow the lawn ‘too early in the day’ #like girl I know you & you don’t create an environment that makes you unhappy #& you deserve to be happy #so you should assess what needs to change but keep in mind he still has to do his half of the work actually changing #& she called me a few hrs later like #he’s not going to change fuck this #oops #me

[sleepy-bear-tm]

Me feeling crushed after the weight of a heavy therapy session: yuh it was great I swear

#talking about my birthday is always a toughie #also filling her in on how my dad will likely be movin 16 hours away in no more than two years was a shitty time #she’s lovely it just made me cry #and then Halloween was brought up and she started saying I probably like and feel safe in scary situations because part of me may feel like #monsters don’t really have a home to return to either #she was English majoring my English major ass in terms of assessing me today #I want to curl up under a large blanket and cry again tho #shhh let me believe I’m handling this awful time well please ma’am #kylie rambles #not art #vent post

[flightyfinch]

kubrick staring at my end of year self assessment in the throes of major burnout

#chirp #im technically on leave for it but this has to be done this week #here's my assessment: none of my major goals are done bc i didn't get the support i asked for 💖 #thank u for the money tho

[kringelorde]

not to get controversial but why is that an outrageous tag lmfao like why is it weird to request that something you presumably made not be read a given way? the majority of us who make content aren’t professionals creating shit for broader appeal; we��re just guys on the internet often drawing for ourselves and a small circle.

I’ve drawn step-siblings before that are semi-popularly paired off together and, while it’s not a case where they’re particularly close as such nor necessarily even aware of being related by marriage, it personally squicks me the fuck out so yes, in order to indicate that platonic affection I’ve drawn is not romantic, I will indeed explicitly ask that you don’t do this. go look at shit made by people who do view it through whatever (often) taboo lens you’re after and stay the fuck away from mine.

it’s not “thought policing” or whatever; you can do whatever you damn well please in your brain. it’s a request. I’m explicitly laying out what I meant with a given piece and this is especially important for things that are meant to be personal explorations of things via projecting onto a character or scenario.

I don’t like my shit tagged as “kin” either for similar reasons. “don’t like don’t look” applies to your ass as well, bozo.

#I usually don't even bother engaging with this kind of shit but I thought this was particularly stupid so #do not view my takes as an 'anti' or 'anti-anti' #I'm capable of assessing things on a nuanced contextual and individualized basis and #also not an impressionable child that needs to be guided through interacting with shit #this is just about being a bitch lmfao #I've had pairings that are pretty major squicks for others and I can respect the request not to interact just fine get over yourselves ffs #spext

[mack-anthology-mp3]

about to go to my first ever formal and my outfit has victorian-period fantasty novel side character energy wish me luck

#i don't really do social events but this should be fun #yknow major teenage life experience #also i have a long brown corduroy coat #feminine in a boyish way i think #god i hope the music is good #i did my second instrument performance assessment today also it went pretty well #my teacher told me to turn my guitar down a bit #so i felt really exposed singing #but it went okay #don't often do personal posts but here you go :)