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bisexual-horror-fan · 9 months

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Omg Bexxx!!!! Been a fan for the longest time. Everything you write is just so hot! Ive been dying for an update on Through The Heart Is The Only Way.! My roomie showed me how to jailbreak ChatGPT and I fed it the whole fic and the little preview and the AI was able to finish the fic for me!! IT WAS SO GOOD!!! If you're still having trouble writing the next chapter you should def try using it to help you finish!! <3

Wow. Okay. So. Hi there Anon.

I dunno where to even start with this.

So you say you are a really big fan of mine, and have been for a while. So where were you when I reblogged this post? Talking in depth about people plugging fanfic into ChatGTP, and me wholeheartedly agreeing that it is fucked up. Oh! Or how about this time? Or this one? Orrr this one? This one too. I said in the tags of those posts if anyone does this to me I am going to riot, so get ready for a fucking riot.

I have posted and reblogged several, SEVERAL TIMES, that I am not okay with and do not consent to this shit. I will repeat now, with my whole fucking chest, so the fucking nosebleed seats can hear me, like a goddamned theater kid trying to impress a broadway talent scout level of volume, straight up BELTING TO THE BACK ROW-

I AM NOT OKAY WITH AND DO NOT CONSENT TO MY WRITING, TO MY ART, BEING PUT INTO AI PROGRAMS!

This is just, so far removed, I don’t know why you would think this is even remotely okay!

I write for the love of the game, for the sheer love of CREATION ITSELF! Do you understand how much my writing and love for it and the media these characters are in and those same characters themselves permeate my thoughts? My days? I pour so much care and thought and effort into my shit behind the scenes. Hours and hours of thought and parsing, re-watching, writing that you don’t see and I do it not because I am getting money, not for likes, or comments or followers but because I fucking LOVE it. The urge in me is literally uncontrollable to do this. I feel proud of what I do! Do you have the smallest conception of the time, effort, blood, sweat, hours of sleep lost to my craft and this hobby that gives me creative satisfaction? I do NOT want this discounted or tramped on or heaven forbid forgotten.

How about we really break this down so you understand it. Let’s do some math.

Through The Heart Is The Only Way has not gotten an update innnn a little over two months, sixty four days to be exact. But. How much writing have I posted in that time since I last updated that fic, the last chapter of which was, if you remember, is twelve THOUSAND words? I have posted, in the past sixty four days, since that last update, thirty eight thousand words.

Wow! That is a lot of words for slightly over two months!

It is almost like I care so much about TTHITOW that I am purposefully taking my time with it, not rushing it and writing it when the inspo grabs me by the fucking ovaries and will not let go. I re-watched the entire movie franchise and the tv series for this fic, I have a doc with piles of ideas and character study, I have chapter ten plotted, outlined and had it started! But shit like this?

It doesn’t make me want to write it Anon.

It is demoralising.

I feel disrespected as fuck right now.

I KNOW what I am doing with this fic, I KNOW where it is going, I have the ending already planned, we are about half way through this fic AT BEST! I have probably another over sixty thousand words in me to tell this story the way I want to but knowing me? Definitely more. The fact that you think the only reason this fic isn’t updated more frequently or isn’t done yet is through lack of thought, from not knowing where to go? Is insulting as fuck. Me taking my time with this fic doesn’t mean I don’t care, it doesn’t mean I am not obsessed with it or love it. Frankly, it means the opposite, me dragging this out is because I love it so fucking much and I want to do it right.

I have a ton of love for lots of movies, lots of characters, I want to give them all attention, I want to follow my muse, I don’t want to FORCE myself to write something when the mood isn’t right. The readers deserve better but so DO I! This is my love, this is my hobby, I want to do it my fucking way, because I guaran-FUCKING-tee, that whatever the fuck ChatGTP pumped out for you is a weak, pale, pathetic, whisper of a God forsaken SHADOW of what I have planned to unleash for this fics ending.

I know that a lot of people look down at sexual content which is what 99% of what I do is. Lots of people view it as base, lesser, shallow, no care or thought or heart. That is not the fucking case, certainly not for me. Sex has deep personal meaning to me dude, I CHOOSE, actively make the decision to write and do these fics in the fashion I do. I write these character explorations and studies centered around sex and sexuality and write them through that lens because that is what I want to do, that is what speaks to me, that is what is important to ME and what I want to contribute to the fandom space.

I am human. I write to an inhuman degree, (remember last week when I posted three fics, totaling over eight thousand words in one day? Crazy that still isn’t enough somehow and you felt the need to do this-) but I am still a fucking person. I am an artist, a writer, an author and I deserve the most basic respect of my supposed “FANS” patience and ability to WAIT. That is the barest minimum. I write so often, I give so much of myself to it but some days I just want to come home from work and watch a movie. I want to have a bath, I want to cook or bake or spend time with my husband and those times, those breaks, make my writing all the better. My writing, all writing that is worth a damn, is inspired and pulled from real life experiences, hence why AI writing sucks, there is no actual life experience or interpretation, no fucking soul. All it is capable of doing is vomiting back out what is put into it and the idea that my shit is in there, that you took my writing and it is contributing to that writhing mass of technological horror that is doing this to countless other artists and writers? It is genuinely fucking upsetting.

I am so unbelievably mad it is insane.

This was so gross, never do this again, to me or anyone else. And if you ask what to do when you are having trouble waiting for a fic? How about you leave some detailed comments? Try to talk to the author? I bet that most would LOVE to be talked to and asked about their fics, they are the prime people who want to talk about this shit, they are writing the fucking fic, clearly have a lot of love for it and get it, and also if you talk to them about it and show interest it might kick start their inspo again which means you will get that real and authentic update from the artist themselves. Also. Re-read, just re-read or explore more new fic, like me for instance, I have, again posted over ONE MILLION WORDS IN THREE YEARS OF POSTING! I have so much backlog, go read some of that while you wait for the updates man fucksake.

I don’t want to hear this is too harsh, I don’t want to hear this is too mean, I do not fucking give a singular goddamned shit at all. You fucked up here hard Anon, take a good look at yourself and do fucking better.

And in case it wasn't obvious, my writing? Isn't for you, not anymore.

#I literally cannot BELIEVE YOU ANON #The fucking BALLS on you #Like WOW #I know I usually try to be nice or calm or measured but this is SO fucked up #Never do this again to me or anyone #Full scorched Earth #Like this is legit heartbreaking #How dare you attach this to my baby to my long fic over year long passion project #My GOD #THE AUDACITY #BHF asks #I am sickened

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lotus-pear · 1 year

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you can clearly see where scara gets his good looks from

#i believe in ei supremacy🛐#idc if she discarded scaramouche or whatever she was doing it for his own good #miko legit wanted to kill him but ei set him free upon seeing him shed tears in his moment of creation #she saw his gentle heart and wanted him to be something more.. she didn't want him to just be a lifeless vessel for her gnosis #even if scaramouche didn't understand and felt betrayed.. abandoned by the woman he called mother #ei had a heart kind enough to set him free.. i hope one day she gets the chance to tell her son that she did this out of love #bc you can clearly see how much scara wanted ei's love–its absolutely heartbreaking #HE STOLE THE GNOSIS BC EVEN THOUGH HE RESENTED EI HE WANTED A PART OF HER WITH HIM #HE WANTED TO SHOW HER THAT HE COULD CARRY HER GNOSIS JUST LIKE HE WAS INTENDED TO.. THAT HE WAS NEVER DEFECTIVE #DEEP DOWN?? THIS WAS NEVER ABOUT REVENGE. HE JUST WANTED HIS MOTHER'S ACCEPTANCE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#I DONT THINK YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND HOW INCONSOLABLE I AM ABOUT THIS #genshin impact #raiden ei #ei genshin impact #ei genshin #raiden shogun #beelzebub #lotus draws

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armyofpsychictrashcans · 1 month

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Just finished heartbreak high sorry harper haters the Chlamydia montage actually clears her of all wrongdoing sorry, just how it works

#legit i heard harper was terri le and honestly #i didnt see it?#like was she a dick? absolutely #do i completely understand where she was coming from?#also yes #like sorry harper is just peak teenage girl i love her #also fuck dustin #heartbreak high #harper

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gasstationclown · 27 days

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loa posting because i caught up with edge of midnight !!

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adastreia-12 · 4 months

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hey show of hands do we have greeks of any kind in the pjo fandom? or just ppl who know greek? I got something cool I wanna show you :))

#non threatening smileys #cause imo it’s pretty heartbreaking #I feel like the only greek pjo fans on here are legit my mutuals tho lmao #hi guys #αν δεν έχουμε άλλους Έλληνες φαν θα το κάνω για εμας <3 #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo tv show #pjo series #percy jackson

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protectoratenova07 · 1 year

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I've always wondered what Alec's and the rest of the Heartbroken views were of heroes and their lack of effectiveness against their dad.

Cause if you think about it, there about four main issues for taking on Heartbreaker at the start:

1) his power affecting you

2) his power affecting your allies and the people he's surrounded himself with

3) Heartbreaker apparently being sneaky with his location

4) the thralls he has in high places to cause mayhem if he's captured/killed

As the years pass, you also have to account for his kids' powers in case they fight you as well.

And like, for a small group, any one point seems like a difficult hurdle to get through, let alone all of the them together and you can kinda see how he never got taken down

But

(Even ignoring the fact that Imp managed it because she has a power that nullifies the first two points, Tattletale for the third, probably didn't care too much for the fourth, and I think she talked the rest of the kids into standing by if they noticed her at all (I'm including this bc Cherish managed it and I don't remember all of their powers))

The heroes had Dragon. Like, yeah she's busy as hell, but Dragon alone takes care of the first and third points, she could use the same skills that solved the third point to backtrack and minimize the fourth point, and she's apart of a large team to help with the second point. The kids are the wildcards, but that they could, I dunno, observe for a week and see what info they pick up. I can't imagine the kids kept their powers underwraps and a few even went off to school during during the day so it's not like it's a constant worry. (Or just go in bc their supposed to be heroes and save the victims from the Worst Parent TM)

Also, you know, they could have done it before Heartbreaker had the chance to traumatize multiple kids into gaining powers. They've all been around for a while.

Maybe the kids just never gave it too much thought. I'm sure they've seen some heroes try and fail, but with all the times Dragon comes in to Brockton Bay I could see Alec just getting pissed his power doesn't directly help and go "well where the fuck have you been all this time if you can shit out mechs like this constantly?"

#parahumans #worm #alec vasil #heartbreaker worm #i should note that i havent read the imp epilogue in a while so if it got brought up there then feel free to say #im also not an expert on alec but i feel like all the undersiders got annoyed with how often dragon would show up #taylor kept asking why they're not chasing down Jack but i also think they juzt deflect the question so that may be the go-to strategy #god i hope i dont sound like someone who only cares about powers i just legit have trouble getting alec's POV and im curious #also i think it would be fair for them to ask superheroes why they dont deal with the one guy who can canonically be found by cape groupies #part of the bonding between dragon and taylor is them ignoring privacy so i feel if fans of heartbreaker can find him then dragon should to

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sarahivess · 11 months

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Found these and they are so INSANE. So extremely accurate to my own experiences, and I also noticed how many others there were who also found these accurate

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caitlynmeow · 8 months

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look at this pure baby girl

#daniela dimitrescu #house dimitrescu #castle dimitrescu #re8 #re8 village #re village #resident evil 8 #resident evil 8 village #resident evil village #someone in capcom decided that the baby of the family has got to be a true BABEY #i want to wrap her in a warm blanket and give her heaps of books to read #she deserves the world #no you don’t UNDERSTAND #she was so confused when ethan was hurting her #LEGIT confused #that entire part was heartbreaking #ok i take that back capcom i don’t like you for treating this angel so cruelly #you’re alive and happy in my head so #canon can go kiss my ass

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konnfusion · 1 year

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Owen and I just broke 22k words (unedited) on one of the most devastating installments of our DW feat. Odessa plots, and this fiendish man asks me if we should publish this first, before we've even written and polished her linear character introduction.

affectionately, there is evil in this man's heart.

#text #my life #my marriage #owen #odessa #oc talk #legit have sobbed multiple times reading/writing this #can't wait to publish it someday #BUT NOT FIRST everyone deserves to like #meet odessa properly first instead of starting with a heartbreaking story about universe hopping

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harrylights · 8 months

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do u ever wish u could go back to the first time u heard sott

#bc i’m stuck in that rn #i was in a really weird time of my life and very far removed from the fandom #but i was just. in awe #and so so so so proud of harry #like i legit cried so hard even tho i was walking down the street lmfao #listened to it on repeat nonstop for at least a week #i was like at the end of my first terrible relationship and honestly it opened up a floodgate #god. i’m still so proud of him #so much has happened since then it’s crazy #never ever could have predicted even half of it #but he really Did That #like yes bitch i can both write and sing amazing beautiful and heartbreaking songs lmao #the line welcome to the final show hits so hard now god damn #ANYWAY GUESS WHOS FEELING EMO AND WISTFUL TONIGHT LOL #rowyn rambles

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thedevilsrain · 3 months

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blacula was so good i really really liked it i cant recommend it enough

#the analogy of vampirism and slavery was great #manuwalde is literally given a name by dracula as well #i also like it that everyone in the movie calls him manuwalde instead of blacula #the mina -> tina change was also pretty smart lol and when she died i legit had my hand over my mouth #since its blaxpoitation + marketing it gets labeled as also having eroticism but it really doesnt JLFDJKGFG i mean not for us anyway #its like ome scenes of manuwalde and tina making out and thats it #but yeah really good the ending was more heartbreaking than any dracula movie id ever seen #also really enjoyed how all the cops are useless because manuwalde's victims are gay men and black people

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gxtzeizm · 1 year

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me after watching the first episode of aot season 4 part 3:

total pain 🙃

#no but there's too much for me istg #pain heartbreaking goosebumps emotional etc etc #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #iz being too random #(well i mean i'm legit crying right now...like there's a lot of emotions coming on although it's just the 1st episode rn 😭😭)

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xolaanii · 5 months

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i think my recurring chest pain might be my heart breaking slowly but surely

#vall txt #remember i said yesterday my period attacked me? yeah i'm feeling very weak and sick as per usual because of it #and my mom deemed it more important to go with my 30 year old sister to an appointment she def didn't need comoany for #and left me with a 1 year old baby #while i'm in extreme pain and feeling like shit #i'm legit crying of legit just heartbreak rn #am i that fucking worthless that she consistently leaves me alone for a 30 year old married woman with children #even when i really need her and shouldn't be taking care of a baby by myself #jfc why am i being a baby about it lmao #she made me help said 30 year old move furniture even tho i had fallen and twisted my ankle the day before #sorry guys i'm just super sad and don't want to vent to my friends through text because we've been knew i'm a baby #to delete.

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armyofpsychictrashcans · 22 days

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REALLY thought that the forget amerie note was from Spider all the way to the end. I'm not even a die hard spider amerie (spam?? Lmao) shipper but like. It was right there.

Plus also I didn't want it to be Rowan for some shit that happened off screen. Like it was still in character absolutely but gooddddamnit.

#heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2 #heartbreak high s2 spoilers #also harper continues slaying #like she always does #like legit loved her so much this season too

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thorinkingoferebor · 2 years

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"I won't have peace. I'll be worried about you all the time."

"That's just love. Nothing you can do about that. I've never loved anything the way I love you and I've never fretted on anything more, but this time you can't stay and I can't go."

#text posts by thea #thea watches andor #andor spoilers #fuck man #jfc #legit so fucking upset about this #had a therapy session this morning and my therapist was like 'do something nice for yourself tonight'#so i thought i'm gonna watch the new andor episode tonight instead of saving it for Friday and this is what I get #just heartbreak #nevermind how much this resonates with me at the moment cause my mum can't come to me but I can't stay with her and :((((((((((((#it's just so freaking sad #like everything #and normally i'd go 'hey put they're gonna win and by the end of the season things will be fine'#but they won't be #they're all going to die based on what we know from rogue one #i dunno #maarva is such a complicated character #but god damn she's triggering my child-mum relationship feelings #it's so fucking sad :(

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jokerislandgirl32 · 1 year

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So….

My eye surgery might have already failed. You know two weeks after I had it done. Sigh….

#tw surgery #tw ventish #i am so frustrated #seeing double in the eye i paid 3k to have fixed is just heartbreaking #it’s like my doctor and i can’t win #and he is legit one of the best cornea specialists in the us

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