#It's my normal state of being

[redactedcrowart]

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#this is pretty good if you ignore all the parts that are bad #anyway i hope you like double encryption i'm starting to get into it more <- normal sentence for normal people to say #something something tim begins to distort more the more distressed he gets or some shit idk brother i just work here #i was being forced to watch the room while i drew the majority of this if you want an idea of my mental state during the Artistic Process #my art #art #illustration #marble hornets #marble hornets fanart #mh #tim marble hornets #tim wright #i'm Not tagging all of them that is so much #eyestrain cw

[communistkenobi]

does anyone have reading recommendations that clarify the difference between liberalism and fascism? I’m having trouble distinguishing what is just like normal levels of imperial/colonial violence conducted by a liberal state and what pushes it over the edge into a fascist state. Is fascism simply mature liberalism? Is it liberalism in crisis? Can we only make historical, reactive judgements about what is fascist, which is to say, can we only know if fascism occurred after it has come and gone? I take the general point that calling all liberal states fascist can let them off the hook for types of violence considered normal or “just doing business,” invisibilising the daily violences they conduct as part of the regular maintenance of a liberal capitalist state. People are calling the US fascist for its direct participation in and funding of the genocide in Palestine - a diagnosis I don't disagree with, but if that’s the case, where do you draw the distinction between the US being merely a liberal state with aggressive global imperial ambitions and the US being a fully fascist state? Perhaps more bluntly, what’s the difference between a liberal drone strike and a fascist one? I’m struggling to understand the value of the fascist label, because everything it describes (ultranationalism, a theory of racial and cultural degeneracy/decline, paranoia about an imminent external threat expressed as violence against internal populations deemed to have insufficient loyalty to the country, a turn towards a mythologised tradition of the past, imperial expansion, genocidal projects against minority populations, etc etc) just seems to me like a description of United States in general lol

#if we call all liberal states fascist we risk exceptionalising liberalism <- point I am sympathetic to #but if that’s the case then like what does the fascist label get us? What does it ‘do’ as analytical tool? How does it help us understand #the world today and the history of the world? #was the iraq war fascist? If so are we meant to understand that the US stopped being fascist for a couple years #and is now fascist again? Despite the continued occupation & violence & sanctions in Iraq Libya Yemen Afghanistan etc during that time ? #are all the coups it did in Latin America fascist or just normal liberal behaviour? Was the Korean War fascist? The Vietnam war? #what about the Cold War? What about the genocide of indigenous people in North America? What about chattel slavery? #I guess I’m just at like a point in my knowledge of history that none of the governments or movements or actuons called fascist #seem even remotely different from just like regular imperial and colonial violence #and so like my current inclination is that either all of this is liberal or all of this is fascist #and that doesn’t feel satisfactory lol

[saintedwhore]

You can take the girl out of the nov 5th, but you can’t take the nov 5th out of the girl….

#HAPPY ANNIVERSARY #HERES TO NEVER FEELING NORMAL EVER #girls will enter a fugue state and come to having made fanart #destiel #deancas #nov 5th #spn #fanart #my art #goatsart #digital art #big day for annoying people #also. all these years being into spn. and i still can’t draw them properly love and light❤️❤️ #saintsart

[vinyls-and-valentines]

There are whispers of things before Battery City.

Of stubby buildings not unlike the skyscrapers modern citizens proudly call home and safety, but adorned with flimsy wood and glass cut-outs, or plaster casts that range from vain to downright obscene. Of wilderness, untamed, smothering clean and orderly neighbourhoods in an onslaught of burrowing roots, web-woven branches, and leaves serving as nothing more than breeding grounds for pests.

The bones of what once were giants now rest on the outskirts of town, hollowed and forgotten, like stalwart reminders of hardship overcome through ambition and human ingenuity. Yet, if one were to take a closer look at these remains, they would find little to no proof of any of the above: no scars left in the pavement or shattered stone ornaments— only scortched earth, shattered glass tinted by years of grime and canned paints amongst pieces of plastic all strewn about and shriveled up in shame.

Instead, the truth lives in glimpses caught between the pages of tattered journals, lost family albums, and long-overdue history books. There once were museums where Battery City now stands. Churches, libraries, and synagogues. Broadcast stations and astronomical observatories. There were post offices and schools, and houses older than the ages of everyone you've known combined, none of which still standing in the age of Progress and Valor (or more aptly known as the Danger Days).

What remains of the past now rests alone and dejected, a warning lost beneath the waves: Make yourself insignificant enough, and maybe one day you'll get yourself to believe comformity will lead you to survival.

#been thinking about cyberpunk/dystopian settings again lately and ended up using my battery city hcs as a point of reference because it's #got some interesting details like how the only surviving buildings from before the danger days are gas stations corner stores and suburban #homes while everything else got demolished in favour of power plants and skyscrapers #anyways. being so normal about change and the state of disrepair of various landmarks from my youth <- lies (silly) #danger days #killjoys #ttlotfk #battery city #danger days headcanons #headcanon

[skania]

Some OnK Chapter 131 Thoughts

And by "OnK" thoughts, I predictably mean "Akane and AquaKane" thoughts lol

Once again, Akane is the one correcting surface-level statements and showing insight into Aqua (and even Ruby!).

I've been wondering how Aka would have Akane and Aqua interact after Chapter 116. I'm actually surprised that they were so at ease with each other during this chapter, it's like they overcame a hurdle in Chapter 116.

Akane knows where Aqua stands, just like Aqua knows where she stands. For Akane in particular, deciding to stop Aqua's plan likely gave her something tangible to hold onto; something practical that she can focus on, a way in which she can make an actual difference. For Aqua, knowing that Akane is planning to stop him told him that she will keep getting involved with him whether he likes it or not.

Of course, since Aqua is always fighting his own nature, he probably likes it in the same measure in which he hates it. Akane burning the bridge with him would be for Akane's own good, and thus what Aqua wants - but there's likely a part of him that is relieved to know that she is still there.

He may not be able to rely on her, but the person who saved him little by little simply by acknowledging him, understanding him and choosing him is still there. She hasn't given up on him.

And it just so happens that Akane is not willing to let Aqua forget that.

I think Akane may have gone there for two reasons. On one hand, she is probably keeping an eye on his every move; she needs to, if she doesn't want to let Aqua catch her by surprise.

On the other hand, Akane likely knew that Aqua would have mixed feelings after meeting Ai's mother.

So I think that by going there, Akane was also hoping to emotionally support Aqua. Just like she promised she would back in Chapter 51.

After all, if Akane wanted to simply watch Aqua, she could've done so without revealing her presence; the same way she managed to follow him all the way there.

But just like Aqua wanted Akane to see him back in Chapter 116, Akane wanted Aqua to know she was there.

The way she throws his stalker tendencies in his face is so funny! Despite the gloomy atmosphere, the two of them instantly fall into a very easy-going back-and-forth and I love that. It's not what I was expecting at all (I love tension), but I'll take it because it's positive that they can joke around about personal traits that anyone else would see as flaws lmao

Plus, good on her for serving Aqua some of his own medicine!

I already mentioned this, but this exchange right here immediately made me think of Chapter 52.

Funnily enough, that Chapter was titled "Boyfriend x Girlfriend" and featured the moment Aqua and Akane truly started playing their parts. And in this chapter, we have Memcho describing Akane's current role in Aqua's life: His ex-girlfriend.

Aqua and Akane have gone through so many stages in the manga, I can hardly keep count. Right now they're in their "Exes" era, yet they're still as entwined as ever lol

And now we get to the part that truly caught my eye. I feel like this interaction can be read in different ways:

There's more to Ayumi Hoshino that meets the eye. Akane knows this but doesn't want Aqua to know, and he can tell but decides to play along.

Akane understands how frustrating it must be to find out that the tragedy that was Ai Hoshino began due to something like this. What's more, she understands how Aqua must feel seeing Ai's mother and knowing that... there's no point in him hating her, because she already hates herself enough for both of them.

The first would fit the Masterminds™ game that these two are supposed to be playing, and as such it would be pretty fun. But we have seen Akane lie to Aqua in the past and she is... kind of very bad at it lol

Maybe she's bringing her S Acting Skill Level to the game this time, and I'd applaud her for doing so if she is. But for the time being, I'm leaning towards the second option:

Akane knew that knowing Ayumi's truth would give Aqua mixed feelings and that he may stay stuck on that, and so she came to help take that burden off his shoulders.

And good thing she did, because as Ichigo put it: Aqua is breaking.

That said, there's something kind of ominous about the way we're shown Ai's mom looking at them in the last panel. I can't decide whether it symbolizes Ai's mom seeing her grandson (the one she thought she had no right to meet) leaving her and her pain behind, accompanied by someone who is obviously a part of his life - as well as Aqua deciding that indeed, Akane is right: there's no point in hating Ai's mom anymore, because she is already living in a hell of her own making.

Or if maybe Ai's mom is hiding something. I seem to remember one of the sidestories mentioning that she even put glass shards in Ai's food once, which kind of sent a very different image of her compared to the regretful woman we saw this chapter lol

Alas, for now I'm going with Option 1 though, because I think there's something really beautiful in the symbolism of Akane coming to pick Aqua up, and the two walking away from that painful memory together so that Aqua doesn't have to wallow in it alone.

Ruby was hoping that Aqua would start to lean on people soon. As it is, he can't lean on anyone - but Akane is still there to guide him home either way, and luckily Aqua let himself accept that much.

#aquakane #my aquakane meta #akane kurokawa #fandom: onk #me: onk #the panels about akane talking about her and ai not being normal but wishing they were kind of deserve their own post #but I'm not in the state of mind for that right now so I'm just going to push my shipping agenda lmao #aaaaaaand now I'm back to zzzzzz about onk #shame there's a break though or I'd have looked forward to next chapter #I wonder if this means we'll now be able to see aquakane interact more often #or if aka will just save their interactions for moments like these lol

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[icewindandboringhorror]

little lord cottonball gazing down from his ominous perch

#cats #Actualyl very too stressed and tired to type much in the tags for once as I typically do lol #I have many appointments this month and other things plus like 3 projects I'm trying to finish so... eughhghh #I actually have like 5 outfit pictures orsomething nearly completely ready to post on here and plenty of like #Content or things I could be posting to keep up some semblance of being a Normal Social Media Using Person but #idk.. i have to be in a very specific mood to post online lol.. a very vague conceptual state #It does not come naturally to me at all especically when I'd rather be off in my own world doing whatever like organizing rocks #and rolling little balls of clay and thinking about fantasy elven religions and etc. #like when stressed out so on and so forth... so I actually have to force myself like 'hey... remember.. you did an outfit.. POST IT' etc #ANYWAY... #a beauntifulle little cat image...

[kenobihater]

apparently if you pressure astarion into sex after his confession in act 2 he'll straight up dump you, which makes me happy to hear because he's developing his boundaries and relearning self worth. it's a hard scene to watch (and one i could never bring myself to play through personally), but i'm really glad the developers included it bc your actions should have consequences and you shouldn't be able to treat the characters like shit and have them still fawn over you. also, he says THIS in response to tav saying that he seemed to be enjoying himself, and i don't think he could get more explicitly ace unless he had a big blinking neon sign on his forehead that read ACESPEC

#len speaks #astarion #bg3 #like i understand not everyone gets this dialogue (i sure didn't) but it feels bad to ignore his plainly stated identity tbh!! #idk. i'm very nascent in my gray ace identity but its not nice to see people straight up ignore his identity for their own gratification and #pleasure (like the drow scene tbh. not a fan of that) #like at the end of the day its a video game and he's fictional and you can do whatever you want forever but his asexuality means a lot to me #and ik i'm not alone in that. so i think allo ppl should be aware and respectful of that and at the LEAST not spew aphobia or anything #like the bar is in hell but it's still not being cleared. thankfully i havent seen very much of that at all firsthand but i do not trust #this website to be normal abt characters like him lol

[imaybeabear]

Once again being haunted by the "I do not know what strength is in my blood, but I swear to you, I will not let the White City fall, nor our people fail." "Our people...I would have followed you, my brother...my captain...my king." to "Sons of Gondor, of Rohan, my brothers! ... There may come a day when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends, and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day!" pipeline

#oh i am being so normal #so so normal #yes i am watching Fellowship for the second time today but in my defence there isnt any baseball on the channels we have at work :( #i love Boromir an absolutely normal amount #and his influence on movie!Aragorn's journey to accepting his kingship is so so good and fascinating and as previously stated #i am being normal about it!! #aragorn #boromir #the fellowship of the ring #lotr #lord of the rings #this is making me want to reread the books again

[jamesbranwen]

#dr. robotnik #agent stone #stobotnik #thank you for coming to my ted talk #i would like to state two things one is that i am gay dont come for me the next is that i do not think agent stone is a normal human being #but he has the act down #king of masking

[achillean-knight]

Oh yeah before I forget....

Have a wip :>

#i call this my phone artstyle #idk why it looks different to my normal digital art style #maybe its the brush i use idfk #also accidentally made the detective look like Dojima from Persona 4... whoes a detective #solving murder #lmao #I guess detective designs from me will always be haunted by my persona 4 phase #anyways wip of the hinted AU thingi mentioned :> #this'll take a bit bc like i stated.... it's on phone #but i like doing comics on phone more anyways for some reason do #so #win win #wip #michael afton #also I imagine mikes like- so fucking uncomfortable at being called Mr Afton 😬

[best-enemies]

I've reached season 5 on my CSI rewatch and I'm a few episodes past "Swap Meet", where a woman is murdered after attending a swing party with other couples from the neighbourhood. Near the end of the episode there's a moment that made me jump from my seat:

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two cups. He hands her a cup of tea.)

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - BRASS' OFFICE]

Erin Brady: Everybody fantasizes about other people. (She glances at Grissom.)

Even you, Mr. Grissom. A neighbor, a friend ... girl at the office.

[INT. POLICE DEPARTMENT - HALLWAY]

(The door opens. Paul Brady walks out of the hallway. Erin Brady walks out into the hallway. Sara is sitting in the hallway chair watching them. She watches as they meet and kiss.)

(Grissom walks up to Sara and takes the seat next to her. He's holding two culps. He hands her a cup of tea.)

LIKE!!!!!!!

Right after Erin ends her sentence with 'girl at the office', the first time Sara and Grissom meet again, he brings her tea. This might be an innocent interaction but to me it seemed like a nod to this relationship they have where both are into each other, know about the other's feelings, but can't/won't do anything about it (although Sara has kind of given Grissom an ultimatum). I don't know if it was intentional - I'm guessing it is, because I picked it up immediately. I might or might not have squealed in delight.

#csi #gsr #i'm very Normal about them btw i don't think about them 50 times per day or anything #need to talk more about these two here #because im obsessed about them in a Normal way #sara is like. my dream wife. i totally get grissom being in love with her for years and barely holding it together #i would not though #i'm 1000% sure she's bi. but the writers have been cowards so far #also she and i dress THE SAME. yes i love 2000s clothes so what #i could talk about her forever she's everything to me #and grissom. oh grissom. i also get why she's been in love with him forever #i mean what the FUCK went down in san francisco did they hook up and sex was so good it scared them #and now they have to live with that tension and they're scared of crossing that line #nah i'm guessing with these two they just REALLY clicked. like. they were an instant match and they knew it #but grissom didnt want to lose focus on work or whatever and they lived in separate states you know #but oh my god i totally get sara. grissom is such a silver fox. he's like one of the hottest old men i've ever seen in my life #you know what i 100% get tumblr sexualizing old men it's completely valid i'm in this now too #he has this LOOK. whenever he's angry at a suspect. and he looks angrily at them. i'm chewing on my keyboard just remembering it #and his smirks #AND THE WAY HE LOOKS AT SARA #im losing my mind #i love all of gil grissom but seasons 4-5 jesus fucking christ #ok enough with the sexualizing i love him as a character SO MUCH. he's absolutely fantastic #one of the things i love the most about him is that he doesn't judge people. whenever the team is confused about someone #or this persons' lifestyle #he's always trying to understand them and not judge them #like a true scientist he wants to understand the nature of things and people #and he's such a sweetheart i love him so much #like there are so many things i love about him i can't fit them all in the tags. same for sara #they're a perfect match for me

[torahtot]

sth that always frustrates me is when people on here say things like "jewish ppl u can let go of connection to israel bc you can be at home in the countries you live in!" and someone responds with a whole essay on how antisemitism is alive and well.. bc that still accepts the original premise. you're saying yes, i agree, we would not feel a connection to the land if antisemitism didn't exist, but it does. this ignores the root misconception that makes someone say things like that, which is that they deny (or simply don't realize/understand) our connection to the land, which transcends the existence of antisemitism in the diaspora. walk into any orthodox school that doesn't even consider itself zionist, and you'll find the kids having conversations with their teachers about how to reconcile feeling comfortable in galut with the desire to properly mourn the beit hamikdash & yearn for mashiach so that we can return. this isn't metaphorical in the slightest; many of them will make aliyah whether mashiach comes or not (and it won't have anything to do with secular zionism or antisemitism). eradicating antisemitism in the diaspora would never change the fact that we are in galut. if they were smart they would actually shift the conversation to why we don't need an explicitly/exclusively jewish state in order to live safely & thrive in eretz yisrael, but they won't bc a) that would require accepting the validity of our connection to it and b) they consider it "validating settler fears" or wtvr the fuck. so instead they will continue to be totally inept at realpolitik solutions & fail to see eye to eye in conversation with jews bc they fundamentally misunderstand.. everything about us.

#or max theyll say uhm we never said ull b KICKED OUT or KILLED we think u should safely live under [nationalism but in the other direction] #it's actually very telling that if you look at activists *in* i/p who do real things instead of internet activism #the entire reason they're successful is bc they do what im talking abt here. they acknowledge the reason it's important #to both of us is not bc of antisemitism or oppression but just bc it's our homeland #also to be clear you can explain why the feeling of the need for a state is fueled by antisemitism #but 2 conflate the state w the land & say that our connection to the land can be erased or made metaphorical once antisemitism is conquered #is bs and wont get you anywhere #shoutout to that one post i saw saying yearning for eretz yisrael was always metaphorical... im So Tired #like besides being ahistorical that really only reflects the lived experience of the most assimilated among us. it's true for u maybe #but my community was absolutely not dicking around when they spoke about galut #nachi speaks #on galut #also if anybody normal wants to reblog this if u have sth to say too long for replies. lmk ill consider it

[braisedhoney]

do you think if i asked really nicely the narrator would let me do the doc ock thing for like 5 mins? i just think it look really fun

you know i have conflicting answers for this.

this is the only thing so far i can think of where asking politely is probably less likely to get you what you asked for—but for a good reason? because if you're being really nice and polite when asking, he won't want to subject you to what would happen if he did let you try lol.

we've established that the scarf arms are heavy as hell, but their weight generally seems to fluctuate bc he's able to control how much pressure he allows vs how much force he puts into each movement. he can wrap people up to immobilize them, drape it around their shoulders (or his shoulders more likely lol) etc, and it'd feel like a weighted blanket.

but uh. if you tried to wear it without him controlling it to some degree it would immediately become impossible to move at best and completely crushing at worst. he's the only one who can budge it at all, and that thing can destroy the ground without much trouble lol. see he wears it like a shawl/scarf, but it's not really an object so much as a concept?? so it isn't meant to be separated from him, which is also why the lines are weirdly 2D.

buuuut if you're really polite abt it and he's being nice that day, you could theoretically make it work if he had a hand on them the whole time and he helps. so reach for the stars, dear anon!

#ney's chatter (ask answers) #narry design lore dump ig? #this is my way of explaining how he can wear the weird eldritch line btw #it's not meant to *be* an object beings can touch/move—he only does it bc he likes to flex his dev abilities #but normal people coming into contact with it is kind of like touching a glitching chair asset irl. who knows what can happen #it's not meant to exist #the default state of the line is just a painted but endless thing that extends through the parable (and maybe beyond it??)

[soldier-poet-king]

I know I have terminal insane silly brain disease and my feelings on this matter will change in probably the next 5 minutes but like

Damn I am funny and hot and generally trying to be kindhearted and good, and my teasing and flirting and emotional rambling, which is maybe Too Much at times, is still a privilege and a blessing, not a burden, to the people around me

#the duality of fran #i say teasing and flirting but its not even necessarily romantic #my flirting is indistinguishable from my platonic affection because i cant comprehend ever falling for someone who's not a friend first #dating apps??? could not be me. (reason 237384883 im single) #but anyway! i love you! if youre reading this yes you! #standing invitation to come flirt or joke or tease or yell passionately about both silly and also serious things in my inbox always #i contain MULTITUDES and tbh!!! most of them are pretty great!!! #yes everything is bad and I'm work stressed and ive had a 5 day long tummy ache and headache #and its a zillion degrees and the ac is broken and i cant wear short sleeves bc my boss hates tattoos #and id rather not have to open that can of worms with HR #and im so so so so tired and my meeting is tmrw and i havent prepped #and also im having mad scruples and idk if its like the normal flavour or it means smthn #unsettling confession dreams. i try not to read into them bc i have the connect everything to make meaning disease #and it fuels my ocd #but oh boy we live in a but what if state of being #However. maybe sometimes the but what if can be good #but what if things work out. what if love and kindness find you. what if there is joy and beauty not just despite but because of the horrors #what if all shall be well at the end of all things

[buckttommy]

anyways. i'm calm now

#actually I'm not I'll be full of rage about this the entire day but that's just my normal state of being tbh