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mysillyside · 4 months

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Domestic Lawlight is so funny to me these two would be the most annoying insufferable argumentative difficult couple ever.

Here's how I imagine a "Light asks L to help with basic chores" conversation going (they've been married for years):

Light: Hey L, take out the trash today.

L: I don't want to.

Light: Ok? I fail to see how that's relevant. I didn't want to spend my entire morning cleaning your smelly roach infested room, but I did anyway. Would it kill you to at least not throw your candy wrappers on the floor? You have a bin you know. Two bins.

L: I was planning to pick up the wrappers later today but you beat me to it.

Light: You always say that and then never end up doing it.

L: Just because Light-kun is too impatient to wait, doesn't mean I'm lying. You can't prove I wouldn't have picked up the wrappers had you waited, so this is a baseless accusation.

Light: So I'm the problem. For cleaning your mess.

L: I like how my room looks. Perhaps Light-kun should stop being judgemental of people with different lifestyles.

Light: Do I need to keep stressing that your room had a roach infestation problem.

L: The roaches are my friends.

Light: You are being unbelievably difficult. Is it that hard to take out the trash?

L: I don't want to.

Light: "I DoNT wAnT TO". Why do we have to have this conversation every time I ask you to help me with chores.

L: If Light doesn't like doing the chores I will just get Watari to do them.

Light: L. Watari will not be able to do your chores forever.

L: 20%.

Light: ??? I cannot believe you. I can't believe you are insinuating I would kill my father-in-law because I'm reasonably angry with you for throwing a tantrum every time I ask you to help with basic chores. Will my Kira-relapse percentage rise if I demand you do the dishes today too?

L: 30%.

Light: You are insufferable. Like actually insufferable. You know Watari's gonna die one day, right? He's already really old. I won't be here forever either. Who's gonna take care of you when that happens? Might as well start learning to be an adult now at 30. Better late than never.

L: I wouldn't worry. Light-kun is younger than me and I'm the one in actual threat of dying while doing my detective work. Besides, I'm married to Kira-kun. It's a miracle I haven't ended up dead yet. In any case, Light-kun will most certainly outlive me.

Light: ...I'll make you regret this, L.

Light: *angrily storms off with the garbage bag fuming with rage, already starting to craft a detailed extremely elaborate step-by-step plan to fake his own death so he can teach L a lesson about the importance of doing his goddamn household chores*

#if you don't force your blorbos act like an old married straight couple who hate each other but refuse to get divorced do you even love them #light is correct here btw. you know its fucked up when light “murdering is my coping mechanism” yagami somehow has the moral high ground #death note #l lawliet #light yagami #lawlight #💬 katposts #🤪 sillygoofy #✒️ katwrites

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savannahsdeath · 9 months

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TEACHER!ELLIE WILLIAMS X STUDENT!READER

PART 1ONE

part 2two

mdni please<3

summary: you stay with your teacher - ellie because youre sure she didnt grade your exam correctly. she turns out to be easy to spend time with, even though youre her student

warnings: 18+ please!!

writers note: calling ellie 'miss williams' kinda cringes me but ig thats how it is.. before yall attack me or smthn reader is not a minor so its all legal also i imagine this is like the last grade of highschool?? i dont know what age it is in usa since im polish and yeah it would be legal for us but maybe not in america so idk😭😭

Ellie Williams was a teacher in your college, most students' favourite. She wasn't boring or too strict although she was serious about her lessons and she always made sure everyone listens. The point is, everyone wanted to listen.

You loved how passionate she is about her job. You could tell sharing her knowledge with next generations makes her proud. The rest of the students mostly liked her for her looks. She was attractive, even for you, especially when she was looking at you from under her glasses. Oh, god, her glasses... And the way she adjusts them with her slim fingers... Yes, she was definitely attractive. And pretty young, as for a teacher. But the way all of those stupid frat boys made clearly sexual comments about her was making you want to throw up.

You never missed her lessons and you were her best student. You could tell she appreciates the way you look honestly interested in her lessons. That's why you were surprised when you suddenly got a D from an assignment.

You stayed after class to talk with her about it. Something was off. You stayed the whole night to do it, with blood, sweat and tears.

You found her in her office, reading some papers. After saying simple 'good afternoon' you sat in a chair in front of her desk. She dropped the papers that turned out to be your assignment.

"I was just about to talk to you." She sternly said, not looking in your direction. "Why are you helping him?"

You had no idea what she's talking about, so you stayed quiet, letting her talk.

"You've always been so responsible - straight A's, making the presentations in time. Did he pay you? Be honest, I won't report it anywhere. Luke wouldn't do that himself."

You frowned. "I'm sorry, I don't understand. What does Luke has to do with this?"

Luke was your talking stage. You weren't interested in him but he was in you and that's it. Your opinion didn't matter. He was popular and you wanted to have good reputation so you allowed him to do... whatever.

Miss Williams showed you two papers. One was yours, the other... based on the handwriting - Luke's.

"Look at the signatures." She ordered. "How did it happen? No bullshit."

They were swapped. Luke's work, graded for a D, had your name on it.

"That's an interesting word to use for a teacher. Umm... Yeah, I don't..." You started stuttering, not knowing what to say. You often helped him out but not this time.

"Just admit you helped him and I'll give you your A. Easy as that." She finally looked up at you. Her glasses reflected the light in a way that made it hard to look her in the eyes, so you wasn't able to tell what she's thinking. Was she judging you or are you just paranoid?

"I told him to give you my assignment since he was staying in your class longer, I swear, I didn't-" You sighed. "He had to... How could he..." You continued mumbling.

"Sh, shh... I can tell it's your handwriting. I just thought you did it on purpose." She said in a reassuring voice.

"Will he have any problems? It's not a big deal, so if we could just..." You looked at her with your doe eyes, nervously biting your bottom lip. The way she was looking at you made you understand why were the other students all over her. You took a deep breath, trying to gather your mind, embarrased you even thought about her in a... romantic... way.

"Okay, my dear. Here's your well earned A." She showed you a new copy of the assignment with an A grade written at the top. You also notice her fingers slightly grazing your hand as she does so. the same fingers you used to imagine touching you in such an intimate way "Now, if it's not a big secret, why are you even worried about Luke? For him, a better grade is more important than you. But if you really like him, I may group you both together in the next presentation."

"No, I don't, it's not that..." You quickly explained. "It's just... I don't even know. He's just everywhere I go."

You could tell something was off when Miss Williams mentioned Luke. She never did speak poorly about any of your classmates, not even once - it's simply unprofessional. But, this time, she seemed irritated, perhaps even annoyed.

"I'm glad to hear that, he's no good for you. He obviously wants more than an assignment swap." She put all of the papers back into her file. Suddenly, she leaned in towards you. Not too close, but way closer than she was before. "You look nervous."

"I am." You admitted quietly. Your heart starts beating fast. She's never been this close before. You both met after classes before and she was friendly, sure, but never this... interested. She made it to the point you didn't saw her as a professor anymore, just a woman, maybe even potential... girlfriend.

"I can help you with that stress if you'd like." She says, her voice barely above a whisper.

You couldn't resist her. She leans in closer, until your faces are so close together that your breaths become one and if it wasn't for the desk, your bodies would be pressed together. The moment she touches your cheek, you can't resist anymore and kiss her back. She takes your hands and presses them against the back of her head, pulling you closer as she deepen the kiss.

You never felt this way before. This doesn't feel wrong, it's... exciting. She's exciting.

You hear a faint sound from outside. Someone trying to open the door.

Miss Williams quickly straightens up: she straightens her clothes, fixes her hair, and picks up her papers. Then, with a deep breath, she answers the knock.

"Hello... Can I help you?" She opens the door.

It's Luke, standing there with a wide smile on his face.

"Luke? What are you doing here?" Your eyes flicked from Luke to the teacher and back again, not understanding what's happening.

"I just realized I forgot my bag at class today, so I dropped by to pick it up. But I see you have company." He looks at you and gives you a subtle wink.

"Oh, don't worry. I was just giving her assignment back an A. The A she deserves." She says with a nervous laugh.

"Yeah, exactly, Luke. I know you swapped our assignments." Your eyes lingered at him for longer this time, as you saw he knows something so you tried changing the topic to more formal one.

"I... uhh... no, I didn't do that." He replies nervously, his tone and body language giving him away.

Miss Williams looks at you with an expression that conveys "I can't believe this is happening."

You continue; "Look, Miss Williams found our assignments mixed up. Mine... with your D grade on it... and yours, with my A on it."

Luke shifts uncomfortably, realizing he's been found out. "Oh... well... I guess I'll just be on my way then." He says awkwardly.

"Just take your bag and go before I change my mind and not be so nice." Your teacher said, making eye contact with you instead of him.

Luke quickly grabs his bag and scurries away.

Miss Williams sighs and closes the door. "What a little... trouble maker." She says with a smile. She walks towards you and stands in front of you, facing you directly. "I hope he didn't bother you too much." She says softly, her tone carrying a slight flirty vibe.

You smile and shake your head, even though the truth is he did.

"You should go now, I don't want your parents worrying. Visit me here from time to time though, 'kay?" She smirks, stroking your hair.

"Yes, ma'am." You reply, trying to be playful but failing in your nervousness. "I will... umm... see you at class tomorrow."

"I'll be looking forward to it." She replies, a grin on her face as she stares deep into your eyes.

As you leave, you try to remain composed, but you're melting inside.

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mrs-monaghan · 5 months

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Now today we got that goddam proof that jikook is fanservice when jk said suddenly they set up the shoot lol

I hope you are coping well ❤️‍🩹

Antis with all their anti-ness dont push the FS narrative as hard as the vermin do. So I'm gonna take a wild guess and say you're a Taekooker.

Ladies and gentlemen this roach is talking about this

I won't even get into the fact that you were most likely seething with jealousy when u sent this ask. You can lie to yourself all you want but you wish it was Taekook who filmed this fanservice. Alone. Together. You would give anything to switch positions with us and it shows.

I hope you're coping well

Hmm....

Bitch, take a seat. Go on, have a seat. Let me tell you something you didn't know. Are you ready? Coz its a big one. For some very weird strange reason y'all still think V and JK are a couple when a whole Jennie exists. So I'm not gonna talk about that. V and Jennie being a couple is crazy but here is something crazier.

I'm sure this photo is familiar.

And if its not, you're welcome. It's cute, isn't it?

So the reason why Taekook cannot be real is because; that's JK holding Jimin as they slow dance casually without a care in the world and with guess what? Your fav standing right there!

Let me know if that wasn't enough arrows and I can add more. I just wanna make sure you see the picture.

But that isn't even the best part. I recently found out that this night, this night where JK has his hands on Jimin's waist all intimately while they dance like it's no big deal,

Thanks to @chicknbunny13 I recently found out that it was V's birthday!!!!

Can you fucking believe that shit?????

Anon, imagine you and your friends go to this party and it just so happens to be your birthday. And then your boyfriend (right infront of you) goes and grabs your best friend's waist and they start slow dancing. They're not goofing around either. No. It's for real. They're just casually moving, slowly, not even looking at you or paying you any mind. How would that make you feel?

Taekook is not and cannot be real for a million reasons. And one of the most powerful one is the amount of times Jikook have done some sus shit right in front of V's salad. You can call it fanservice all you want, but it wouldn't hurt you guys sm if you didn't know deep down what that means.

Edit: @magicshop-pjm1 just reminded me of this part:

What do u call that anon? JK being aware that Taekook together will bring in more views? 🤔 Let me guess, because its Tkk, its not FS. That only applies to Jikook?

We are getting a GCF 2.0 featuring our favs and its gonna be great. So yes anon. We are doing fucking amazing. Thanks for your concern though.

#ask shaz #bts ask #the fuckery #Taekook is not real #jikook is real #if jikook isn't real then neither i'm i #jikook #kookmin #minkook #jimin and jungkook #the vermin #bts #jimin #jungkook #the shade

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kennysimp101 · 3 months

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Hey! Can I request an imagine of sharky x reader- reqder was dared by beta squad to do a break up prank for YouTube on him. And how it would go and shit. Thank you!!

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PRANK: Sharky x reader ☁

A/N: Hello Anon!! I changed the prank bit instead of youtube, it's just Niko being a bitch, but here ya go

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“WINNER” pops up and y/n jumps around her best friend, Niko, showing him an L. “Ye ye, ur just lucky” he says. Niko has been her friend since childhood, he introduced her to the beta squad, and that's when y/n and Sharky just clicked, and have been dating for 3 years. “3 times in a row is not luck but sure Niko” you reply. “If you're so sure you can beat me, why don't we raise the stakes” you propose while smirking. “How do you suggest we do that?” Niko says interested. “Whoever wins the next game, gets to dare the loser to do whatever they want and you can't say no” “Okay deal” And it starts. Mario Kart was your game, so you were not worried, but somehow Niko kept getting a bullet, and…. HE WON?!? HOW?? You sit there shocked as to what has happened while Niko now mocks you the same way you did before. “I TOLD YOU ITS LUCK” He shouts still showing you an L. You shake your head and sigh “What do you want me to do you bitch?” “No need to be salty y/n, but I do have a dare for you,” He says as he grins, worrying you. “I want you to prank Sharky by ‘breaking up’ with him” “WHAT?? Your psychotic I'm not doing that” “YOU HAVE TO, THAT WAS THE BET” “YOU'RE SUCH A BITCH OMG” you say as you accept defeat. “Do it when you see him next,” Niko says, satisfied with what he's done.

You were gonna see Sharky right after hanging out with Niko. While you did have your own apartment, you liked staying over with him most days. You rang the bell, ready to do this dumb prank and get it over with. Thoughts raced through your head, the biggest worry being ‘What if he doesn't care and is okay with it’. You shake your head, focusing on the task at hand. Sharky opens the door, smiling as he sees you “Y/n, I missed youuu” he says as he hugs you. You smile but remember what you need to do. You put your hand on his chest, pushing him slightly. “Let's sit down, we need to talk”, Sharky looks at you confused “Is everything okay y/n?” You ignore him and walk and sit on the couch, this is gonna be harder than you thought.

Sharky sits opposite you, still confused, waiting for you to explain what's happening. “I think we should break up,” you say, trying so hard not to break character. “What.” He said shocked. “Why, what happened, did I do something?” “No no, I just think it'll be better for us, you know help us focus on our own stuff cause we already don't have enough time” you reply, making some reason up “Y/n, if this is about filming, I'll stop to spend time with you, please don't do this” His voice cracking up, as his eyes are tearing up. You want to just hug him, and tell him this is so dumb, but you decide that you need to do a bit more. “It's not you sharks, it's me. Yk with all the girls liking you, I just can't handle it” This wasn't true at all. Yeah, he did get a lot of female attention, but at the end of the day, he was your boyfriend so you didn't care. “Y/n, I will delete all my socials, everything, block every girl trying anything, just please don't leave '' He's sobbing, you couldn't take it anymore.

You get up, and hug him “I'm not breaking you with you, I love you sharks” “What?” “I'm not breaking up with you, it's just some dumb dare Niko gave me cause of a bet,” You say, stroking Sharky’s hair, calming him down. “Omg you gave me a heart attack, I was so scared” you giggled at this, shaking your head. “I'm not leaving don't worry, I love you” You kiss his head while cuddling him. “I love you too y/n, but dont pull dumb shit like this on me again” “I won't, I won't” you reply “Also Niko is getting a beating the next time we meet” “Let me help you” Both of you giggle before cuddling on the couch and falling asleep.

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Well, thats the first one. I hope yall like it and keep giving suggestions and requests. Also, shout out @g-xix cause reading her oneshots has got me back into writing Next up will probably be a smut of either kenny or Tobi but we'll see

Anyways love yall <33

#sharky #beta squad #sharky x reader #breakup #niko omilana #chunkz #aj shabeel #king kenny #x reader #fem reader #sidemen

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silent-sanctum · 9 months

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You know what... in my mind, Jotaro's a lightweight when it comes to alcohol

Man's can't consume more than two cans or one bottle before he's wasted and flat out drunk. Sure, he can shotgun one can of beer, but that's just for show to boost his "bad boy" image.

Thing is, you won't notice when exactly he enters that state since he's obviously not the type to lose control and go wild when no longer sober, nor does he start rambling out his life stories like a veteran grandpa.

What happens instead is that Jotaro becomes what he is on the inside: A total softie. Just a clingy, loving guy without the stoic walls he keeps himself in all the time.

So imagine this:

Both of you just finished downing a ton of sake/soju/wine. You can hold your alcohol and you have a high tolerance for it and here you think to yourself, "Oh he must also be tolerant to it too" because in front of you, he's still upright and steady and his face isn't flushed. No obvious signs of him collapsing anytime soon.

Now you head back home and when you're on your way back, you begin to notice something different from your companion. First off, his brows are furrowed and he's squinting, as if he's growing sleepy. Second, his gait becomes a bit wobbly to the point he collides onto your side more than twice.

But the most telling sign that he is indeed drunk is when he smiles at you more often and becomes overly clingy in the span of 10 minutes... and you know the man is the antithesis of PDA.

He stumbles towards you and slumps himself onto your side, laying his head on your shoulders to nuzzle the crook of your neck. He begins to mumble a bunch of tiny sounds of contentment that reminds you of a happy cat, and plants a lot of kisses where he can.

He doesn't let go of you and as much as you're flustered from this surge of affection, you struggle holding him up since he's heavy as fuck and him putting his whole weight on you to cuddle does not help.

At some point, you reach your car but he's still not letting go. He now has his forehead pressed against the side of your head, his hand seeking to hold yours tightly. A lot of effort has been made just to guide him to the front seat and you in the driver's seat.

Jotaro's fully wasted now that even when midst driving, he leans his head on your shoulders again, shuffling close as he can just to be near you.

By the time you reach his place, you have his arm slung over your shoulders as you dragged him across the parking area all the way to his door. It needed a key and so you attempt to look into his pockets to find it but it's hard when your boyfriend's still draped over you.

Finally though, you managed to bring him to his bed and while your plan was to drop him there and prepare the stuff needed to freshen him up, he seeks your hand and once he finds it, he doesn't let go. Again.

Very sleepy, he mumbles out his deeply rooted insecurities to you without being aware of it:

"I'm sorry I'm like this."

"Don't leave me."

"I'll try to be better."

Endeared, you smile and give him a sweet kiss on his forehead and reply back with a simple "Of course, I wont leave you. I love you too much for me to do that". By that point, he's completely knocked out and you proceed to freshen him up and get him into sleep wear before joining him in bed, snug by his side.

Jotaro doesn't remember what happened last night and he's back to his usual reserved stone-faced self the next day, combined with a splitting, hangover headache.

When he asks you what happened last night, all you could respond to him was a cheeky, blushing smile and a peck on his cheek that causes him to blush himself.

"Dont worry about it, love- you were just being you."

#jotaro x reader #jojos bizarre adventure #jotaro kujo #mijin thoughts

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borathae · 5 months

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I dont know if this is weird butttt I dont think Bts members dont have huge dicks as we image them to have 😂😂. I know this is all ficton but my mind just wonders. There is this Asians have small dick talk and we see them wear skinny jeans and their dicks are just gone??? How do they do it???

I wanna use this opportunity to first of all say that if I write them saying stuff like "yeah take my huge dick" it's just dirty talk. Most of my men on this blog I imagine to have dicks between 12 and 15cm. Except for the Sanguis boys when they have their vampire dicks out, but that's literally supernatural anyways and not anywhere near reality lmaoao like hello growing dicks, besties this is just fantasy. But even them I imagine to have dicks somewhere between 11 and 15cm if they're just human.

I also wanna say that we won't generalise an entire ethnicity based on stereotypes. Okay? We're so much better than that.

Now that this is out of the way, I would like to give a few explanations as to why dicks dissapear in tight jeans/pants. Dicks are very squishy. I am talking very squishy when soft. You can squish them right against a leg, tummy, between hands and it basically gets all squished up and small (to an extent. It's still very delicate, so don't think you can just squish it like a stressball. Be gentle with it). That's why you can comfortably lie on your tummy or sort of sit on it when you're soft as all of it sort of goes like "squish".

There is also a big majority of dicks which are very small when soft to begin with, so that makes it easier to hide them in tight pants as well.

Now imagine skinny jeans. You're wearing good briefs which keep the jewels where they're supposed to be, already squishing it a little, then skinny jeans appear, you slide your lil friend to one of your legs and the tight material does the rest. Squish, squish. And your dick is gone.

That's why grey sweats are known as slutty pants because there is no squish squish and the dick just seems bigger 'cause it can flop around freely.

So yeah that's why dicks seem to suddenly dissapear in tighter pants and why they seem so much bigger in wider pants.

Example given:

As you can see on the left the squish is happening while on the right he is wearing softer pants which don't squish as hard.

The same with Tae. On the left he's all squished in there while on the right he is only wearing flowy shorts and his lil tete can flop around freely.

It's all depending on clothing really.

And to end it all. Size doesn't matter at the end of it. Just because someone has a big dick, doesn't mean he can automatically fuck better than someone with a smaller dick. It's all about the technique and how you use it AND how you listen to your partner AND also how you include other sexy stuff (hands, mouths, toys etc.). So yes. Big Dick does not automatically equal good lover. Technique, respect and communication does.

#asks #anon #sex ed

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jabberwockprince · 11 months

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ITS ME AGAIN, EXCEPT I DONT HAVE ENERGY FOR A FULL PIECE BUT!!! THIS EXTREMELY GOOD ADDITION ON THE HANAHAKI DISEASE DISCUSSION BY @instantartific INSPIRED ME TO DRAW!!!

as much as i love to bully rin with existential crisis and shit, i still think he'd be the last one to break down - but the first one??? to fall out of line??? to me its definitely eloni

as usual, me rambling under the cut!!

right off the bat, i do like to think a lot about how eloni sees himself as the weakest link of 1010 - entirely because he gets less fans. their entire existence revolves around entertaining, so if he cant even do that, then what's the purpose of him being around and all? its a very unfair way to live but it's not like they were even supposed to have opinions about it. and that's the beginning of his downfall. the fact that his popularity is affecting him on an emotional level when it shouldnt even be a THING. he already feels outdated, defective and more!!!

i also think that eloni is torn between the fear of being caught and the need to be seen. like, this is something brand new that's happening to him. he's an anomaly and one of a kind BECAUSE of these feelings. to a guy who rarely gets the chance to shine???? IMAGINE. IMAGINE WHAT THAT WOULD DO TO HIS ALREADY CRUMBLING IMAGE

like come on guys. there's a reason eloni is always paired up with haym. they're very cute together as a fun duo with fun dynamics, but in boybands, there's always that one guy who only serves to uplift others.

something something, sentience and self-awareness are a nightmare, it sucks that there's no one you can trust wholeheartedly (nym put this into cooler words, go read the linked post! go go go!) and the second you deviate, there's the immediate threat of being reset. all of you? gone. BUT THERE'S ALSO. THE POTENTIAL OF STANDING OUT

yes. he gets little sprouts and vines instead of specific flowers to really emphasize how much of a weak persona eloni believes he has. even if he's found out, it won't be grand. it will be a relief to him (or so he thinks) but he's certainly not going out with a bang. also the green plants blending in with his own designated color? there's another metaphor in there, i just cant put it into words!! small inconspicuous little things that amount to something extremely dangerous and painful!!!!

i imagine eloni sees this hanahaki disease as catharsis, since there's no way he could've ever voiced his feelings, the only way for him to be noticed is through an external force that's extremely hard to ignore. its eating him up from inside out, but in his eyes, it's fine because it gives the world an excuse to look at him

and in the event of yinu's mama straight up outing eloni to neon j or the others, i also think he'd have the most tame, accepting reaction to it? or like, not necessarily accepting, actually but resigned. part of him was anxiously waiting for it to happen, while also dreading this very moment

on the subject of the plant itself and how it coexists with eloni, i think that his vines and sprouts are very small very thin but that they're the most constricting things ever. like, they get EVERYWHERE in his joints. in every crevice and space available. whereas purlhew might instead just have an ungodly and suffocating amount of blue flowers located entirely in his chest cavity until he bursts. or haym might have very localized sprouts and blooms that just. pop. as if attuned to every feeling he's trying to repress. i dont know what zimelu has, but it needs thorns. and rin? well. WELL <3. ITS A POISONOUS PLANT FOR SURE <333

#no straight roads #no straight roads 1010 #nsr #nsr 1010 #nsr eloni #hanahaki disease #purinsu art #sorry im losing my mind over all this good writing i've been seeing and receiving #i specifically imagine eloni as the catalyst for everyone else #like. no one is surprised that its eloni. but it still serves as a way to remind the rest of 1010 #that theyre not safe #so to speak

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uneednotknow · 2 months

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Vaughn Morozov

A hc of what I imagine him to be like.

Vaughn Morozov, the Pakhan's heir. The Gentleman of the Bratva. The Manipulator. The Mastermind.

He isnt necessarily silent and quiet but he doesn't talk much, either. He got the manners, the charm and the etiquette of what one would call the ideal man. He has the looks, the body, the height, the hair and the money. But above all he is responsible and a smart man.

He knows when and how to use his charm especially in terms of business to either get the deal done or to deceit. He knows and plans things so effortlessly well, its almost flawless. He is also 10 steps ahead of everyone. He is analytical and calculative. A Mastermind. He rules the game, the world and the people, and he would do it so easily that they won't even realise it.

He isnt known as the gentleman for no reason. He is respectful and straightforward. Unlike most of the ruthless men in the Bratva, who springs to brutal actions almost immediately, he is calm. He resorts to let the mind games play, he likes messing up the mentality of the people, because he understands that mental pain is possibly more cruel and painful than physical pain. He resorts to quietly finishing the job because he isnt a fan of showcasing his work to the people.

He is so eloquent with his words and works. He dont need to talk much to get people to his side. He is a man of his words but mostly a man of actions. He won't hesitate to strike when nobody is looking, he won't hesitate to manipulate and make things work out on his favour.

He is a smart man, he knows what strings to pull, what steps to take. And it all comes from being a logical thinker, it comes from having parents who are one of the most important figures in the Bratva, he knows he needs to be well aware of his surroundings in case trouble strikes. It comes from seeing situations through every looking glass. It comes from being a great born-leader.

He likes to keep the side of his street clean and that's very hard to maintain especially being in the mafia. But nobody knows what happens to people who has crossed him or his loved ones. You just know they have suffered gravely. He keeps his business private. Those who needs to know will know and that's it.

He drives. Really, really well. The Mercesdes-Benz, his parents got him for his 18th birthday is one of his prized possessions. He dont ask for much from his parents, he rarely does. Mostly because they have provided him with all that he needed. And it's because he doesn't want to leech off people, he doesn't want to ask things from anyone when he knows he is equally capable of being able to do things for himself.

When he is in the UK, he rides his bike, going for joy rides with them. Though he maybe the youngest, he is undoubtedly a brilliant and mature one. Sophisticated and intimidating, Vaughn enjoys his chase. But he also let's down his guard and takes in the fresh air of youth, he knows how to enjoy his life while learning not to be vulnerable in the eyes of the people.

He can cook, clean, fend for himself. He is self-sufficient and has learned from a young age that there is no other way to success other than hard work along with smart work.

He likes to read. He like to solve puzzles, play chess, watch crime documentaries and just solve anything that needs to be solved. Maybe that's boring for most but that's how he keeps his brain to actively work and think strategically.

He is also athletic, joining the school's sports team to keep himself physically fit. He may not be the best at it but he is above average, he plays football, basketball, tennis. Exceptionally great at ice hockey (according to my headcannon.)

Because he likes to keep himself updated with the people around him and the world, he knows many things about people. If he wants he can extract informations that people have tried their best to hide too.

He might even enlist in the military, just like his mom and dad and climb ranks, but he might not stay long to accomplish that, maybe for 2 or 3 years. Because he has other responsibilities. But he will be there for the experience and knowledge.

He is academically thriving as well. Taking up computer science, physics or any of the challenging STEM subjects, because like mentioned above he likes to keep his brain to actively work to find solutions.

He is without a doubt a great son and a great friend. He won't say it out loud but he will, for sure, be their for people who needs him. Be it for advise or just be there for them. He is a great companion to his dad, helping him with works, though his father never asks him to burden himself with such works at a young age. He is a great son to his mom, driving her to places, going shopping for anything, helping his mom around the house though they have people for that.

He is the type of son, whose parents need not worry about him doing the wrong thing or being in thr wrong place. They only worry about him over working himself. He likes to be in his best behaviour, be the best in what he do.

Overall, Vaughn Morozov, is an almost perfect man, who obviously has his flaws but doesn't shy away from correcting himself and move forward to be better and stronger.

He made a cameo and im intrigued by him. But honestly, as much as I want to read about him judging by how RK has disappointed some(most) of her characters in their own books, I'm afraid she might do the same to Vaughn too. So in a way, it's better to leave him as he is, but at the same time he seems to be a character full of potential, to me at least.

Anyways, thank you for reading my previous post.

Hope you enjoy this as well.

#vaughn morozov #rina kent #legacy of gods #god of malice #god of pain #god of wrath #god of fury #killian carson #nikolai sokolov #jeremy volkov #monster trilogy #kirill morozov #aleksandra zaryanova #gareth carson

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lollytea · 10 days

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Up until a month back I liked a guy. And I really liked him. But I found out he didn't like me back. I was really upset, but I didn't want to hold it against him, but then I found out he had a reputation of being a player (which, at our age of 14 is flirtatiously texting girls and then just. Ghosting them).

And I felt really upset. I began to question if he even saw me as a friend, and whether the way he texted me was even friendly. What if he secretly loathed me and was just doing this to get a kick out of it? What if he knew about my feelings and they were just a joke to him?

I wanted to cry, but I told my friends and my sister I was okay. But I wanted to scream. Its not my fault I was born ugly. It's not my fault my face makes me unlovable. And even though I wanted to distance myself from him I felt some sort of perverse pleasure every time he did something embarrassing in front of every one.) And that's when I think it hit me.

That's why I'm unlovable. I am unlovable because I'm a terrible person. My friends tried to comfort me saying that he's a shitty person who can't see my beauty/cuteness, but friends are obligated to say that. I wanted to believe them because they're all so beautiful, and they would never lie to me because they love me. But they deserve a better friend than me.

I want to cry because I want to experience having a whirlwind romance, and falling in love. I also know I'll probably never have that.

And AGH I feel so upset. Because all my life I've known I was ugly. But when this guy showed me attention, was nice to me, it made me feel special. Made me feel like I was having my own romance.

I hate it I hate it I hate it. I hate that I can't be loved, I hate my face, I hate myself for feeling these things. Last year when I suspected I began liking him, I told myself not to fall too deep, and here I am, ranting to you on tumblr dot com.

Lollytea, I love your writing and I love your posts. I love how confident you are of yourself. I'm very sorry for ranting in your inbox about my shitty love life, if this makes you uncomfortable, please delete it. But if you don't, I genuinely would like some encouragement. That my time for my own romance will come. That I will learn to love this face.

You're not unlovable. You're just 14. It just happens that being 14 feels a lot like being chronically unlovable. But no, that is not actually the case.

Maybe you've heard this a lot. And I imagine that it must be frustrating to listen to. That being a teenager just means your emotions are bigger and more intense than they will ever be in your entire life, so they're irrational and silly.

That's not the case either. Your feelings matter. And they're worth being listened to. But I do need you to keep in mind that the age range you're in right now is one of the most difficult periods of time that a human being will ever go through. Being a teenager is very hard. Being an adult is hard too. But me and every adult I've ever met would not trade it for being 14 again. No way in hell.

It does severely influence how you see yourself and why your emotions feel so strong and messy and all over the place. But I assure you that you're doing a fantastic job for a person in your situation. It's rough and you're getting through it and I'm proud of you.

Firstly, I'm going to say this quite bluntly but dont take it as me insulting them. Most of the boys in your class probably aren't that smart. And they are the absolute worst people to be seeking validation from. I promise that their opinion of you is not worth worrying about because they are...stupid, frankly. They won't be stupid forever. Probably. But being 14 is a weird age for boys too and they're quite mean for a while before they mature and chill tf out. Please try not to let it get to you if one of them doesn't like you romantically. I promise you it is not remotely a big deal. None of them have any idea how to be good boyfriends yet anyway.

No, you're not unlovable for occasionally having spiteful little thoughts about somebody who was mean to you. Everybody has those every once in a while. As long as you maintain some self-awareness and don't let cruelty consume your whole brain, having a few mean thoughts doesn't make you a terrible person. What WOULD make you a terrible person is external terrible behaviour. It's your actions that matter. So just be kind, alright? Be kind to your friends. Ignore the people you don't like but be civil. Don't hurt anyone. If you stick to all of this, you're golden. Considering that you already seem so self-critical of being a bit bitchy inside your own head, I think that's a promising sign than you won't do anything worse than that. I hope so anyway. Be kind, that's all you can do. Your friends love you. If you put your all into loving them in return, then you can have something so special.

You're not ugly, you're 14. Sorry, I'm getting a bit repetitive but I think it's relevant information to this whole situation. At the age you're at, your face is probably in this weird transitional period between child and adult so maybe that's why it might look "uglier" than usual to you. It might last a few more years but it won't look like that forever. I assure you that your face is beautiful because it's doing exactly what it's supposed to do. It's alright if you've felt ugly your whole life. The way you look at your own face is way more personal than the way you look at other people's faces. We don't really notice the flaws on others the way we notice our own. We're wired weird like that.

All I can say is hang tight. If you don't like your face then please try not to let it upset you that much. Your face hasn't fully developed yet. For the time being, you look exactly the way you're supposed to look and you're perfect. Let's see how it looks in a few years before we make any rash decisions about it being as ugly as you think it is.

Don't be hasty in the belief that you'll never find love and romance. I assure you that the age you're at is the absolute worst time to get a boyfriend and its perfectly okay if you don't experience it for another while. It's normal. You're fine. It's okay.

I know you want it. I know it sounds nice. And I promise that if its important to you, once you're older and the people you're interested in are a little smarter, you will have it.

I'm serious when I say that for the time being, focus on being a good friend. Focus on school. Focus on your own physical and mental health. Focus on your hobbies. Being wanted by 14 year old boys won't mean shit in the long run.

Things will be okay. You talk so much about how you'll be alone for the rest of your life. But your life has only just begun and you hardly know who you are yet. It's impossible to tell what will happen in the coming years. I promise that you'll be okay.

I know you came for me for reassurance but from that last paragraphs, I'm sure you're already smart enough to know the things I've told you. But I imagine that you just needed a second opinion. Take care, love.

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sirthisisa-wendys · 1 year

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hii! could i request AU pirate!wakasa and black dragons and other characters, maybe toman (dont do it if you dont want to)

AUR MY GAHD (let me know if I didn't write anyone you wanted!)

Let's see what the guys do when they find a stowaway on their ship. And when that stowaway happens to be the Ship Comissioner's daughter.

Stowaway: Wakasa Imaushi/ Keizo Arashi/ Shinichiro Sano/ Takeomi Akashi/ Chifuyu Matsuno & Baji Keisuke/ Ken Ryuguji x Fem!Reader

wc: 2.1k

tw: like, a little smut, but mostly fluff

masterlist

Wakasa "The Shadow" Imaushi

Wakasa's crew shouts and runs about the boat, preparing for the inevitable. A departure from shore was always the most exciting part of the adventure, and as Wakasa leans over the map in his quarters, he feels a sense of enthusiasm overcome him.

The vessel he'd been working on for years was finally on its maiden voyage, preparing to take the seas by force. Waka imagines when his nemesis, Redcliff, would encounter him on the high seas. He shudders with pleasure as he remembers the installation of world-class cannons. Redcliff wouldn't stand a chance.

"Captain!" His door bursts wide open without decorum, and someone stumbles into the small space, panting heavily. "Captain! We have a stowaway!" Waka mutters to himself, frowning. Of course, this would be his first encounter on the seas.

He follows the short fellow onto the deck, only to see you lying on the ship floor with an ashen face. "A stowaway..." Waka murmurs, eyeing you carefully. He notices the jewels around your neck and wrist, admiring them for a moment before returning to his scowl.

"What are you doing on my ship?"

"I have no ill intentions," you mutter, holding a hand up in the air as an oath. "I swear I am only here because I have to be." Chuckles erupt around the ship as it drifts into the sea unmoored.

"I didn't invite you," Wakasa replies, crossing his arms. "I don't invite wenches onto my ship."

"I am not a wench," you protest, finding your legs momentarily. You stand shakily, holding onto the main mast. "I'm the commissioner's daughter." A hush falls over the men, and you swallow hard, meeting Wakasa's eyes without fear.

"Did he send you?" Waka wonders, instinctively stepping back from you. He doesn't deal with wealthy women at all. That's not his specialty.

"I'm..." You pause, choosing your words carefully. "I ran away." You remove your bracelet and necklace, handing them over to the captain. "That's my fare." Wakasa eyes the jewels, his gut feeling raring at him to throw you overboard. But you're a woman. A rich one at that.

"Where do you want to go?" The question weighs heavily on his mind as you ponder for a moment, then raise your head defiantly.

"Wherever you're going." He scoffs at your remark.

"You want to become part of my crew?" You shrug in the face of the white-haired pirate, smirking.

"It's better than being wed to a megalomaniac." Wakasa laughs out loud, which encourages his crew to do the same.

"I'm just as thirsty for power," Waka promises, pocketing the jewelry. "But I'll bite. We're going to the Isle of Wolfgulch. If you think you can make it on my ship for a week, we'll see about making you part of my crew."

"You won't regret it," you reply, and Waka's eyebrows shoot up.

"Oh, I sure hope not," he breathes. "Or I'll toss you overboard with the other fools."

Keizo "Redcliff" Arashi

Heavy boots thud toward you. You're on the wooden deck, face down, praying to whatever god is out there that Redcliff would crush you quickly.

"It's illegal to trespass." The simple statement makes you nod once. "What should I do with you?" You lift your head to look at the icy-eyed man, praying a little harder in your head. He looks down at you curiously, but this isn't the first time his eyes have lain on your features.

You wonder if he remembers you from all those years ago. You wonder if he remembers your father or how he once looked on Keizo and told you, "That one is a born sailor." You don't see any register of memory behind his eyes, so you lower your own to the floor again.

"No answer," he finally mutters. "Hm."

How could Keizo forget the hot summer you spent on the beach, watching him redo his knots and untie them again while your toes skimmed the cool water's surface? You weren't yet thirteen, but you watched the older boy work his way around a mast and back, desire seeping into your heart as he grew stronger, smarter, more--

"Get her some clothes and a meal," Keizo grunts, turning away from you. "The commissioner's daughter is a friend to us."

"A friend?" you exhale, your heart beating wildly. Perhaps he had forgotten the illicit kiss you stole from him before he sailed away for the first time, leaving you on the shores of a fuzzy memory.

Keizo turns his head toward you, stopping on his way up the steps. You can read his expression from far away, the one that says "later" as if you were something to be dealt with. But instead of continuing his path up the stairs, he walks back down, his eyes serious.

"If your father knew you were here, what would he do?"

"Not a damn thing," you reply softly.

"Are you sure about that, y/n?" Keizo lifts your chin with a single finger, his eyes searching yours.

"I told you I'd follow you to the ends of the earth if you ever returned." A smile lifts the corners of Keizo's mouth, but only slightly.

"Both of us remembered, then."

Shinichiro "Soft Iron" Sano

Shin puts his head in his hands, considering the awful dilemma he's presented with.

"I'm so sorry," you whisper, clasping your hands together. "I just have to make sure my brother is okay..." Shinichiro leans back in his chair, wounded. Your brother! Mikey flashes in front of his eyes.

"You understand, don't you?" Shinichiro lowers his hands to look at your face. Oh! Your pleading face wounds him even more, despite the fact that he's certainly at sea and in heaps of trouble. He pauses and takes a deep breath, then lets it go before answering your pleas.

"You will see your brother," he murmurs. "We will turn the ship about and return you to your home." Your eyes widen, and for a brief moment, Shin thinks you will accept the verdict. But then you burst into tears.

"Don't cry, don't cry," he urges you, standing from his chair and coming around to comfort you. "It's just..." Shin searches for the answer among his many thoughts. "He's not on this ship. But perhaps he'll be on the next one."

"He said he was on Soft-Iron's ship," you reply quickly, unfolding the letter you stuffed into your pants pocket. "Look!" Shinichiro reads the words with mounting dread. It's a bald-faced lie, he thinks. But a damn good one.

"I've never known your brother," Shin answers, looking at the foreign signature in dismay. "He must have misled you. I'm sorry." You take the letter back while sitting and absorbing the news.

"Then we need to find him!" You stand up and take Shin's place at his desk. "We have to search for him. You'll help me, won't you?" Shin stiffens at the sight of your hopeful face turned to him. You had expertly tapped his weakness: a pretty face and a mission.

"S-sure," he hears himself say. "We'll find him together." You hurry to him and throw your arms around his neck, thanking him profusely. Soft-Iron can already feel his heart melting into nothingness in his chest as he inhales your womanly scent. Dear Lord, he prays silently. I hope we never find this guy.

Takeomi "Scar-Face" Akashi

Takeomi is above you, huffing and grunting as his hair caresses your face. "You should've... never... shown... your face... little thief."

Your fingers instinctively grip the sheets, but you release them to drag your nails across Takeomi's back. "Hate fucking is still fucking," you quip back, sweat rolling down your spine. Takeomi cries out as the pain mixes with pleasure, one becoming the other in an endless loop of insanity.

"Got caught stealing from me again." You roll your eyes at his comment, moaning despite your annoyance. Stealing from Scar-Face was too easy, you reckon. If it wasn't the booze that brought him to his knees, then it was money. And if it wasn't that, it was women. Well, you. You're the only woman in his life at present.

A hand comes up and smacks your left ass cheek, and you bite down on your exclamation, trying to hold it in as the crew circulates just outside the door. "You'll pay for that," you hiss, but Omi just huffs a short laugh.

"That and all the other shit you've taken from me, huh? Just paying out of my ass," he complains, rutting into you roughly. This is pure heaven, you think to yourself, digging your nails into his back again. "You'll pay for what you stole tonight."

"Impossible." You clench around his cock, pushing him closer to his high. Takeomi gasps, trying to hold his shaky breaths, but he continues to fail miserably. "I'm gonna take that orgasm before you can take mine," you laugh, clenching around his again. "I took your manhood once, and I'll do it again. Just like I stole your heart." Your tone is teasing, but there's a modicum of truth behind the statement.

"If your daddy wasn't who he was, I would've made you a wench long ago." Takeomi shudders, groaning sharply before spilling his seed inside of you. "Would've... made you my wife... a long time ago."

Chifuyu "Shore Raider" Matsuno & Baji "Blackmane" Keisuke

"No, no, no!" Baji grabs your arm, pulling you out of the closet. His touch isn't rough, but it's enough to set your skin ablaze. "No stowaways!"

"Hey!" you shout, stumbling behind him as he drags you into the open. "That hurts!"

"What hurts me," Baji begins, growling. "Is that Chifuyu sneaks you onto this ship without my permission and then hides you in his closet!" Chifuyu comes down from his perch at the wheel, his eyes full of concern.

"Baji!" It's clear he has every intention of throwing you into the ocean, but Chifuyu quickly stands between him and the railing. "Don't you dare--"

"Women distract us from our purpose," Baji sneers, gripping your wrist even tighter. "Or did you forget the vow we made, Matsuno?"

The vow. You stand in the salty air, watching Chifuyu pale, then blink twice as if a spell had been broken. "I know we made a promise to each other," Chifuyu murmurs, holding his hands out. "Nothing will come between us, Baji; we're co-captains. But I love y/n, too."

Baji grunts, his jaw muscles fluttering. "If you have a woman," Blackmane begins, turning his head towards you. "Then I'll need my own. You'll help me find one, won't you?"

"As sure as the sun rises," Chifuyu nods, smiling brightly. Baji lets you go and stalks off, shaking his head and muttering about the "silly spell" you'd cast over his friend.

Ken "Dragon Skull" Ryuguji

"Tell me the story again." Draken leans his mouth on his laced-together hands, eyes devoid of emotion.

"I got on the ship during the night," you repeat. "I stowed myself into the pantry, where the pickles and eggs are. And I fell asleep." Draken nods. "And I woke up when we were a ways away from the shore."

"But I don't understand why you snuck onto the ship." You roll your eyes, sighing loudly.

"Dad? Arranged marriage? The whole 'you speak when I say you speak,' 'you jump when I say you jump' thing?"

"Freedom," Draken articulates, and you nod. But it was more than that.

For years, you watched Draken hone his skills as a pirate. Every time he returned, he brought more loot and more fame. You feared being left behind in the wake of all of his success.

"I didn't want to be left behind," you exhale.

"Why didn't you just ask?" You're stunned, unsure of how to answer the simple question. "Y/n, we've been friends for so long. I would've told you that you could come along. Now, I'm sure I have the ire of your father and the whole island."

You had yet to consider how this would complicate things for Draken. You were just thinking about being at sea with your best friend, exploring the world together. You hang your head, but Draken walks toward you and touches your cheek from his bed.

"Cheer up," he urges you softly. "I'm not going to make you fish food today. Even though you scared the dogshit out of my crew."

"I brought some money if that makes any difference."

"Keep the money," Draken whispers, his eyes softening. "That's your loot. The first rule of the sea is what's yours is yours." He leans forward to kiss your forehead. "Come on, I might as well introduce you to the others... since you're stuck with me and all." You giggle as he takes your hand, leading you to the deck.

#shinichiro sano x reader #shinichiro sano #wakasa imaushi x reader #wakasa imaushi #takeomi akashi x reader #takeomi akashi #takeomi akashi smut #keizo arashi x reader #keizo arashi #ken ryuuguji x reader #tokyo revengers draken #ken ryuguji #chifuyu matsuno x reader #baji keisuke #keisuke baji x reader #tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers smut #tokyo revengers

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coldresolve · 6 months

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i like stockholm syndrom because of the contrast and conflicting emotions the captive feels. it might not be the most realistic approach, but in fiction, i dont strive for realism. i strive for evoking emotions in myself and the (un)lucky few who read my stuff. i do realize stockholm syndrom might not be actually happening that way.

although i do think it could be a thing, there are so many different people and every one reacts to things differently, think of domestic abuse for example, those women love their "captor" even tho he hurts her. well it s kindof different because she loved him before but i think it does have a paralel.

and lets say in your scenario where davin is the nicer one and renee is the more cruel one (i mean after nervous idk anymore), if i was conrad, i would probably try to get something out of davin since he seems to care. probably would feel more drawn to him and not "love" him, but prefer him, and in weak moments i would probably also feel a sense of connection? its just how i personally imagine it

while i do love me a good internal conflict and fucky relationship dynamics, no writing evokes emotion in me if i can tell the person who wrote it buys into oversimplistic pop psychology. so i guess we differ on that front haha. also chalking the complicated mess of emotions involved in something like domestic abuse up to stockholm syndrome rubs me the wrong way, but its been a long day and its gonna be hard for me to explain that rn

for moneymakers (under a read more if you dont want the dynamic spelled out for you)

there is no trace of stockholm syndrome in moneymakers, and there won't be down the line. there's gonna be some conflicting emotions sure, hopefully an extention of some already fucky dynamics, but yeah if you're waiting for conrad to catch romantic/platonic feelings for davin or renee, you're gonna be waiting a while. im schizoid, i dont even believe in friendship lmfao

the current "connection" between conrad and davin consists entirely of the fact that conrad, although terrified of davin post-nervous, recognizes that he needs davin, both as a source of medical help (stitches/painkillers, etc), and as a barrier that stands between him and the clusterfuck that is renee's general person. for the latter, it's been like that through the whole story. among his two captors, davin has been the one who has stayed somewhat vaguely predictable, which means conrad at least has a chance of learning how to navigate him.

conrad also recognizes that davin is probably using this reliance on help to manipulate him. he doesn't intend to let the tactic work, so he very carefully shuts down any percieved attempt from davin to get under his skin. he won't allow a genuine emotional connection, because he's not stupid, he knows davin would likely use it as leverage. he just wants to not suffer. even if it comes at the cost of emotionally isolating himself

#asks #you can think what you want to think nonny but if youre gonna think it in my direction prepare for me to pick it apart lol

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awwsushie · 11 days

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To him.

loving you was never easy for me or so i thought. every night i would overthink about how to treat you better. i truly dont know what you wanted in this relationship but im certain that it wasn't me. it was her.

you gave me the right amount of attention at the wrong time and that was terrible. when i met you i was not over my first ex, i was miserable. you treated me right and gave me the love i wanted, healed me the way i needed to be healed and i fell for you not knowing the real you.

i would've never imagined that we would be best friends and one day, more than friends but it all happened so quickly that i wasnt able to live through it. now when i look back, all that is left are memories of you.

to be honest, i never thought you would cheat. you reassured me a thousand times and i believed in you like a fool. it was too hard to accept and handle everything because by that time you were already my everything. by that time, you were already the person i married in my head.

yes we dated for a very short period but the love i had for you was real. and honestly i dont know what happened, you just changed. i tried really, i tried hard to understand you but i failed. and you failed to understand me.

but do you ever miss me ? my efforts ? i used to be awake till 4-5 am, reassuring you. i used to do your work and assignment so that you won't get yelled at. i used to lie to my parents to meet you. flunked my classes for you. ruined my most important academic year on you. i left parties in the middle because you had anxiety attacks. i did everything i could to keep you. but all these were never enough. they all were useless.

i never imagined you will leave me for her. and it still hurts but i can't help it, right? after all it's your life. but i miss you; because a part of me was with you.

do you remember our last conversation ? where all i wanted to know was why did you do that, i was crying terribly, begging you to stay; begging you to tell the truth. i was shaking, my whole body was shaking and my heart broke trillion times. i get shivers whenever i try to remember that conversation. i hated you so much at that very moment; it hurt.

i never thought you'd hurt me.

honestly, i never thought these things would happen between us. i never knew you would make me regret loving u. i never imagined that you would make me question us.

it's hard to move on; and tbh there are some parts of me that still want to hold onto you. even though you made it sound so clear that she's the one you love and she's the important person for you, it's still hard accepting that truth.

& i still think you love me. haha, im a fool i know.

no matter how hard i try, it feels like im stuck on you. and i can never get out. it's hard accepting things, it's really hard to let you go; i know i have to, but i really dont have the courage to do so.

knowing that you dont love me anymore hurts.

#heartbreak #to him #to my ex #him #breakup #hurt

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itzsana-kiddingmenow · 1 month

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YOUR FRIEND, is wrong to ever think like that. :( I know it's hard to understand how people who probably won't ever know you exist comfort you but it's not right to bash people for it... Okay but I've recently been thinking, who's most likely to tickle you to get a break out of you? Like...working late hours and you're stubborn? Oh they'll get you to that state of exhausation... that happened with a bot online with me (I hope you don't mind I use those huhu) and I could not rid that thought...

-<3 anon

:c i felt so bad after she said that cause i looked at it and it seemed ridiculous from the outside

but then i went right back to them :3 and i blocked her <3

out of skz....? i would say probably...felix if he wanted to sleep with you so :3

i dont mind! everyone has their ways of enhancing their imagination...just like how i write fics every time im in that mood ya know?

#💗📫

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rottika · 3 months

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"autistic people cant/dont like to form close relationships" is just straight up wrong. we struggle with it due to not understanding social norms and having trouble with empathy, but that doesnt mean its impossible, much less that we dont want to. its not contradictory and claiming it is is a big misunderstanding of autism.

in fact, dare i say autism actually worsens the symptoms of BPD? because, since you dont understand social cues, its even harder to know if youre being abandoned or not, and you grow up learning that everyone else has some sort of psychological understanding that you just dont, so youre just constantly wondering if theyre not telling you something.

not only is imagined abandonment much more of a concern, but real abandonment is, too, given most people are much more likely to be turned off by autistic people, due to either not understanding, or straight up being uncomfortable with the way we interact. of course, this is much less likely when your FP is autistic themself, especially if theyre particularly similar to you.

among other things like rejection sensitive dysphoria combining with fear of imagined abandonment, autism is not only not mutually exclusive with BPD, but can make a whole new level of problems when combined. sincerely, someone diagnosed with autism who is on psychiatric treatment for severely impacting BPD symptoms (but whose psychiatrist doesnt like diagnosing in general so bah)

Thank you for this ask! Strong agree!

I struggle a lot with forming close relationships (mostly because of lack of understanding of social cues and general social anxiety), but that doesn't mean I'm incapable or wholly uninterested in them. I have purposely distanced myself from human connection since COVID happened and it's been simultaneously relieving but also excruciating. I simultaneously desire close connections and intimacy, but I'm bad at forming them and (when I DO have them), I'm constantly worried that people will leave me.

It's hard for me to read facial expressions and body language and I tend to assume everyone secretly hates me and wants to leave me all the damn time. It's part of the reason why I was so fucking bad at taking compliments from people seriously and why being a public figure has been so difficult. I am always paranoid that everyone's just lying when they say nice things.

There's this cold, crippling satisfaction that I currently have about not having any irl connections at all (outside of my family). I don't have to panic about being left behind all the time, don't have to struggle through social interactions blindly while worrying they have something to say that they aren't saying, don't have to people-please, won't accidentally hurt people by being aggressive or impulsive. But it's also just very destitute in a sense, yk?

The combination of simultaneously hating people and being an introverted freak (convinced that everyone's out to get me in some type of way) while also wanting/needing people at the same time is a uniquely shitty experience!

Though I'm alone irl, I've had the same FP for like,,, multiple years now and that's been a relief to have him and also another close friend in my online life. They've made my life overall better. So, shout out to those homies. :]

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brazilian fans are dissapiunted because Ana's family was begging for donations and taking out a bank loan to bury their daughter. Swifties came together to help them cover the costs which was nice but T4F and Taylor are multimillion dollar companies that could have reached out to help.

The family said they were looking for an investigation into the venue but were aware the artist and her team were trying to help fans by giving them water, so they're not even trying to blame Taylor.

So fans are upset that for fans in the us Taylor can do swiftmas, send wedding presents, pay thousands in student loans, etc but a brazilian swiftie dies and Taylor doesn't even reach out to the family. Something that artists like Ariana have done in the past when fans die in their shows.

There's also the issue that Taylor only acknowledged the death of Ana in a story that is no longer on her page, said story doesn't say Ana's name, says that she died before Taylor's set started (which isn't true she died during Cruel Summer), and ends with Taylor saying that they didn't expect this to happen when she decided to tour Brazil (and as brazilian fans have been enduring a ton of xenophobia from even before the shows started the sentence rubbed them the wrong way). This, combined with the fact that she said won't talk about it on stage, made fans think she's trying to downplay it or ignore it, with the latest Travis Kelce article they're extra upset.

I don't think it's fair to say they're just trying to hate on Taylor. Most of the Brazilian swifties I've seen say something about this are big fans of her, they're just hurt by her silence and lack of support for the family. They're also frustrated that some swifties keep telling them it would be too hard/impossible for Taylor (the literal billionaire) to reach out and help them. They're not even asking for her to help the other fans cover their medical bills a swiftie has literal second degree burns on her leg now.

I really don't think they're using Ana as a game. I live here in latam, not brazilian, but every discussion about Ana's death I've had with a swiftie or even concert goer has been about the pain we feel at her loss, even if we didn't know her. There's just a big sense of community that we have, and her death really hit us. Ana's death is big deal here I can't imagine how Brazilian swifties must feel.

I have nothing but compassion for Brazilian Swifties right now, even if I don't agree with everything they're saying/doing. Sorry for the long ass ask, have a nice day Sarah <3

i completely get the frustration and can understand being disappointed that taylor seems to not be acknowledging it, but i think we need to have a little more compassion here. like i said theres no right way to handle this, its not a normal situation. it literally just happen a few days ago and grief is a very difficult thing that takes on so many forms. the people of brazil have every right to be disappointed shes not seemingly doing a lot, but also shes probably dealing with the pressing issue of making sure it doesnt happen again, fight the venue to reschedule and getting water and other services available for people. of course she could be doing more but so much happened in the last 48 hours (a lot of which is probably behind the scenes stuff we dont even know about). i dont wanna make excuses for her and again i agree that the people have a right to be disappointed, i just think pointing the finger at someone who is also dealing with a lot and grieving from this isnt the best option.

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