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axeoverblade · 10 months

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Hello 👋🏻 your writting is so amazing! if its not too much to ask, would i be able to request a earth 42 miles thats slightly aggressive and a bit of a delusional yandere with the phrases 15 & 16. Totally fine if not! 👍🏻

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Earth 42! Miles x fem! reader

Synopsis! As much as you loved Miles, you couldn’t be stuck in the house any longer.

MASTERLIST

Genre: Angst(?), toxic! Miles, yandere activities.

Warnings: mentions of manipulation and lowkey abusive behavior, nothing crazy. Foul language

Word count: .9k

Authors comment: Toxic is cute on paper not irl. Blurb.

The room was silent. The tension felt thicker than the blood coming from your lip you bit too hard in attempt to compose yourself.

“I’m not playing with you ma. You need’a relax on allat’”, Miles spat, not sparing you a glance as he sat in his desk chair lacing up the Jordan’s he sported for his prowler “job”. You rolled your eyes, upset with how he was responding to you. He had been talking to you like this a lot lately, dismissing you without a second thought. And frankly, you were tired of it. “You can’t keep me here” you seethed, standing up from where you sat his bed. He furrowed eyebrows finishing the double not of his lace, standing up to match your energy. “Oh for real? How much you wanna’ bet?” He cocked his head at you, tone stern.

All you wanted was one night out. One single night.

The number of occasions your friends had invited you out only for you to say “Oh I can’t tonight” knowing good and well you had nothing planned had become exhausting. But Miles thought it was safer for you in the room than outside.

“Siéntate mami, Im not playin witchu’ today.” He said swiping his hand over the lower portion of his face stressed, letting out a deep exhale. His eyes unwavering in his gaze.

You don’t know how it got to this.

It used to be different, you used to enjoy your time with Miles. It wasn’t that you didn’t love Miles anymore, you don’t think you were ever capable of stopping loving Miles. But the longer you were in a relationship with the boy you had grown so fond of, the more overbearing he became.

The amount of friends who would tell you how dangerous Miles was, who you ignored or just randomly stopped hearing from had become too many. You should’ve listened. You really should’ve.

You should’ve seen the signs. The signs to leave as soon as possible, to run without looking back. But being the stupid love struck teen you were you saw the things he did as endearing, only fueling your attraction to him.

It started with him becoming over protective, asking for the logins to your social media and knowing your phone password, having his face ID linked to your phone.

Then your male friends became a problem. He made you drop them, saying it was “them or him since you want em’ so damn bad.”.

He stopped letting you wear certain things, saying too many guys would see and you were for his eyes only.

Then he stopped letting you go to functions alone, convincing you Brooklyn was “too dangerous for you to be out by yourself”. And after being on duty as the prowler seeing you go to the store by yourself for a quick snack, where he ended up having to kill a guy who tried to mug you, he stopped letting you go out at all together.

Anywhere.

“Miles you can’t keep doing this” your voice was strong, trying your best to sound as confident as possible under his intense gaze. “Stop doing what? Keeping you safe? You're crazy if you think that’s happening.” He stepped closer to you. “So just sit down-” “I’m not sitting down Miles. So stop suggestin’ it.” You raised your voice standing your ground. Miles chuckled and cocked his head back, but you both knew there was nothing funny about what was going on. “It wasn’t a suggestion. Sit yo’ ass down before I make you.” You looked at him like he grew three heads,“Who are you my father? What you gon’ do?” You mocked, cocking your head to the side.

Before you had time to think, his hands grabbed at the small of your waist and forcefully sat you on the bed. “Ion know why you think I’m joking right now.” He scoffed, hands still on your waist. “You’re gettin’ on my last nerve right now and I gotta go and handle business”. You scoffed, “You mean the prowler business with your uncle? The one where you go out and slaughter people in your free time?” You remarked snidely, throwing his hands off your waist. Though much of stretch, you figured it would get under his skin. “ don’t do that. You know if we aren’t helping the community no one will.” He paused angrily. “ You know I do this for you Y/n!” He yelled as he stood up fully looking down at you. “For you and mi mama. Eres mi corazón, you keep me alive. I make sure the streets are safe so nothing bad happens for you! I protect you the both of you every damn day, don’t act like you don’t see that.” He pointed his finger accusingly at you, his voice becoming louder the more he talked.

You looked away from him and shook your head, “I never asked you to do that. Don’t blame me for this” your voice ran quiet, barely audible. “I’m not-” he paused and sighed, putting his finger under your chin firmly, guiding you head to look at him. “I ain’ blaming this on you ángel, I’m trying to explain to you since you wanna’ act dumb.” His face was scrunched together, clearly fed up with the argument at hand. “Miles, you think it’s healthy to stay inside for three weeks straight? What am I supposed to do huh?” You scoffed, throwing your arms around. “It’s better than being dead.” He replied letting go of your chin harshly, walking over to the window not even trying to understand from your perspective.

He opened the window, the cool breeze from the night washing in over the room. He looked at you and sighed, “Listen. I know you fed up ma, but you need to understand something.” He paused, climbing out the window. He stuck his head back in and looked at your sitting figure on his bed before closing the window.

“You ain’ goin anywhere.”

©axeoverblade

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scentednuttragedy · 9 months

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A Love Like No Other

Leon S. Kennedy X Reader

P.S. : Reader is like a Spy/Agent who's working on their own and stealing/destroying virus sample before bad people gets to them. (basically idk there's like many plot holes when it comes to the readers profession) This is like my first fanfic writing so please don't judge me<3 thank you<3

Leon S. Kennedy, The man that everyone knew as President's Golden Boy. Everyone questioned if he had a lover, his friends thought Ada was the one for him but no. Ada may have been a part of him but his heart, soul, mind and every inch of him was with someone else…. His secret lover and his dirty little secret

The first time you had met him was when you had rescued Leon from a zombie back at Raccoon City Police Department. You were not police, you didnt work for anyone. You were in a league of your own wanting to help people even if it meant being criminal in everyones eyes. He didnt trust you at first but your goals were same, what you did was for the greater good and he respected that maybe admired you too for being so cool and badass but he didnt wanna admit it right in front of you.

He remembers it very well, when you gave him your lucky pendant which was given to you by your family as a protection charm. He knew you cared and he did too but both were too stuborn to admit it.

Leon remembers you taking a shot for him as you laid unconscious in his arms, he was terrified. How could someone he met for such a short amount of time make him feel this way… he was scared to lose you. He remembers the feeling of your lips against his when you opened you eyes and asked him if he was ok, even when you were the one hurt, he had made sure to put every thanks and care into that kiss. Oh how he wishes he could experience it all again, kissing you for the first time.

When Ada had kissed him suddenly in that elevator, He felt so guilty as he glanced at you apologetically. All he had and still has in his heart is you and you only. And when you had kissed him goodbye promising him that you will meet him again, he had looked forward to that day. He remembers all of those little adventures, letting each other know about missions so you both can go together. You both were unrivaled, fierce and so in love. You were his other half and without it he knew he would fall apart.

Leon was a stoic and reserved man and only you knew under all his demeanor he was just a lovestruck puppy.... only for you. He hated the cat and mouse chase, it took so much energy and time of his but you. You didn't make him chase you, you were genuine and you weren't afraid to love. And how could anyone deny the way you both looked at each other? as if there was more to your relationship than what it looked like at the surface.

All those missions you both went on, all those things you did for each other, All the times you almost died for each other, how could he ever forget that? No matter how far apart you both were, you always came back together in the darkest of nights. He was grateful for having you and he made sure to prove it to you every night. All the desperation and unspoken words shown through actions only lovers could do. He was just a man after all…. He loved being with you and feeling like home.

He remembers when in Spain you came to rescue and assist him. that very second he knew he was gonna make it out alive. He remembers when Ada had appeared, making him question his love for you but he knew better, you were better. The smirk on Ada's face when he had rejected her offer to go with her just for you, he remembers it all too well. That was the moment Ada had known where his heart lied, and it was with you. You were His and He was Yours.

Thank you guys<3 im scared its not as good T_T

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fulgurbugs · 4 months

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Doll review time!

today I received via target the Sunny and Luna Madison two-pack, which i had had my eye on for a while but decided i would wait on a sale for them. and they went on sale recently for 50% off! they were 25 dollars (plus shipping, as my target was unable to let me reserve one for in-store pickup so i had to order them shipped) but in my opinion a very good price for both of them!

i really appreciate that RH always has the color-coordinated stands. saves me from having to get cheap generic stands every two seconds like with mh LMAO. also, Sunny is actually my first Rainbow high doll, since all my other girls are shadow high! i also noticed that shadow high has slightly different stands with spikes on them as compared to the RH ones.

here's the back of their hair.

Sunny's hair is CRUNCHY. i'm talking rock solid. for this elaborate hairstyle she has though, i understand why. Even though i could probbaly at least get the four dangling curls looking nicer with a wash and re-curl, for now at least i'm content to leave her as-is. Luna's hair is significantly less crunchy and more in line with the typical amount of gel for this curl pattern. out of the box it is in two distinct halves, but i separted the curls a bit to give her some more volume.

now, for some individual details.

I'll start with Sunny! In my opinion, she's the clear winner of the pack, and one of the cutest RH designs ever. the reason i was interested in this pack was for her adorable outfit, as well as the fact I like this Luna outfit more than her basic doll.

first up, her face! Sunny's very cute, but what struck me the most with this doll is her hair clips! she has 5, and theyre all different colors. combined with her shooting star earrings, there's a lot to love. I'm very fond of the yellow and rainbow color scheme of this doll.

Her shoes! yep, heel crocs. and leg warmers. it's so ridiculous and over the top, just like everything about this outfit. they're perfect.

I took her jacket off to kook at what she's wearing under it. the little decal on the shirt is surrounded with embroidered safety pins. cute!

the skirt is two layers. the pain white skirt, and the clear plastic with stickers layer over that. i love the pocket details, though they aren't seen much with the shirt and jacket over them. i do like to see that they're there though!

one thing that struck me with this doll is without the jacket, her outfit is actually not very yellow at all! it's mostly white

as for that tiny jacket, it's as pretty and detailed for its size as i'd espect out of rainbow high. tiny ruffle details, pockets, and drawstrings. on the back is a little cartoon sunny with some more rainbows, and a sun and moon that match her hairclips. also, a little cameo of the bear bag.

I love the decora (i think, correct me if im wrong im not super knowledgeable about jfashion cultures) influences on her. everything has a cute and childish vibe, but while altogether its definitely something i could see one of my more fashionable friends wearing around our college campus. a 10/10 sunny (i think she's definitely the designer's favorite)

next up, Luna!

Luna is quite pretty as well, and im a sucker for the series one grayscale dolls. they're such a unique concept! however, I feel like she just lacks that last bit of punch that sunny has. maybe because she doesn't have quite as many acccesories? maybe some hairclips for her too, or a necklace.

here's her face! I love her face in this doll, I'm pretty sure the mold is identical to sunny's (they are twins, after all) but their makeup makes them look really different to me imo. epectually from a distance, Luna looks a bit more mature. in person as well, her eyes are quite clearly a lovely shade of purple, (that isn't too intense as to ruint the grayscale effect) though it seems like it doesn't come off well in the pictures.

not as many details to show off for Luna, but here's a close-up on the shoes. my roommate said she recognized them so im sure theyre in referece to some designer shoes (as RH/SH often does) that i'm not familiar with.

nothing particularlt special from the back. but you can see the little attachement loops on the belt to the skirt a bit better.

he'res her bag, though it's not as fun as sunny's bear bag, it's quite cute, and light enough that it can be held up by Luna with the small handle, or worn on the shoulder instead. it also opens, which i always like to see.

of course, the customary .5 shots

Final thoughts: This is my favorite of the twin 2-packs out of RH/SH so far, I think they're gorgeous and well worth the sale price. Sunny in particular is once again proving to be of the most consistently well-designed characters of the whole line (i love her Fantastic Fashion look as well, and while yellow + rainbows is basically always sunny's thing, I think this is the best execution of it out of all her dolls. I also really prefer this luna to her series 1 doll, where the chrome is more contained and it looks more like an actual outfit you might see in a high school. happy to add both of them to my collection!

Thanks for reading, if you stuck around for this whole long long post lol!

#kenjaku cameo at the end hi buddy #dux doll tag #dux doll review #rainbow high #shadow high #they literally look so good together its insane #im gonna have to rearange again but. i will find a way to keep them together when they make it back to the dorm

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lumibye · 4 months

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hii charm i wanted to ask , what was sycamaris first date ? 🤔 how did it come abt , who asked, how did it go ? im soo interested , and i hope uve had a wonderful weekend ! - @catake

hehe hi clara ! hope your weekend's been lovely as alwayss and i hope your finals went just as well !! i'm sure they did but sending my heart and wishes anyways ofc ofc

( ♡ ) ty honestly sm for encouraging me to talk abt them bc it's all in my drafts but i'm just . . soso shy ( if you could believe it ehe ; ) so it really means a lot to me ! i'm v grateful i get to speak my silly nonsense eek >_< their first date was . . it was a ' date ' but it wasn't ? this is prob a good time to explain why they're ' working together ' ig for context purposes ! ( i'll prob compile this all into a post at some point actually )

( long post again bc my filter is broken ehe ; )

although he has a lot of information on mega evolution in regards to battle , he doesn’t have a lot in the way of contests

pokemon aren’t affected by any external factors like attacks or status conditions when performing , but they’re still expending a good amount of energy with the use of moves

so , as someone that’s very invested in the subject , his research and the bond between pokemon and trainer - this information would be valuable to compare and contrast with his current findings

he doesn’t really know anybody in the contest scene? there’s serena, of course, but she’s also currently undertaking the gym challenge and being one of his pupils it doesn’t feel right to stick this kid with even more work considering she’s a dex holder so mariannes his best bet , even though they're only acquainted at the time they share a mutual acquaintance in serena at least . it's mutually beneficial in a sense , if marianne can't use mega then she's going to be at a disadvantage in the contest circuit ( i hc that contests are similar to ORAS in kalos hehe ) her ' job ' would be to monitor the behavioural changes in her pokemon after rehearsals and performances as well as their general health and wellbeing . there'd be weekly or biweekly ' check ups ' at the lab for more thorough analysis but these ' reports ' are more casual to fit both their schedules also , it's a good excuse to go out for him to go out for coffee considering he's so busy . but they're not dates , don't be silly . . . ( /hj he doesn't intend it to be . . but . . ) anway ! to actually answer your question now ( i'm soso sorry i can talk for aages they live in my head rent free 24/7 ; ) once he proposes this to her at the lab ( it's like on a weekend so nobody's there ) and gives her a list of pokemon that can mega she notices the only one that can is benched because of her accident in the unova circuit reasons and she goes ' umm , i don't really have any on this list at the moment ' and augustine is kind of stumped because this meeting is now way shorter than he expected it to be so he goes ' oh , that's ok . . well let's go out for coffee instead ' ( not those exact words ofc ) because

a.) she's not super familiar with lumiose and having a kind of ' guide ' might be helpful

b.) atp he knows she's a bit of a reserved person and the few times they've met he hasn't seen her with any friends so that's mildly concerning

c.) if they're eventually going to work together he should know her a bit better and

d.) she's piqued his curiosity honestly marianne's very bad at saying no especially on the spot so as nervous as this makes her she agrees , for similar reasons too . this person's offering her an advantage in her career so it'd be rude to say no , wouldn't it ? so they go to soleil ( because taking a shy girl to your best friends cafe on your first outing seems like a really bad idea ) and he offers to pay and she protests and there's that cliche back and forth about who's going to pay that makes the barista a bit ticked off ( people pleasers , the both of them ) and it takes her a bit to open up but he's genuinely enthused when it comes to learning about people . so eventually she does crack a little bit , especially when the topic of coffee comes up . she used to be a barista in castelia and coffee is his passion so that's their jumping off point . after that they both surprise each other with just how similar they are ! they talk about their thoughts on self expression ( he asks about her career ) and just how important it is and their energy just gels . they end up almost gushing to each other about their thoughts and beliefs , which is something she hasn't done in ages since she's been alone for quite a while so it makes her so so happy . he didn't expect this to come out of someone like her and she didn't expect someone primarily invested in research to share her beliefs and ideas . afterwards she feels bad that she's talked primarily about herself but still . . . it feels good and honestly ? that's kind of exactly what he was hoping for and he's pretty happy himself . they both are ig , more than they'd thought they would ! she definitely goes home and screams into a pillow about how embarrasing she was tho ehhehehe

#: charm's chatting ✦#୨-sycamari-୧ #⊱ lore tag ⊰#⊱ mailbox ⊰#ty clara u r such an angel - hugging u ♡

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arcaeda · 1 year

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🎭 MASKS - do they act differently around certain people? what's different between the way they act around friends, family, strangers, etc.?

emoji headcanon prompts

readmore bc there's a lot. im so sorry

there's a common misconception (mostly with reddit incels and sometimes even in feh *rolls my eyes*) that caeda is some kind of seductress or temptress. i think that couldn't be further from the truth. it's often heralded in the archanea games that she has an immense amount of charm to her, something that she carried over from when she was a child, yes. but that hardly means she's someone that tries to seduce others or anything like that. at her base self, she is someone that wants for peace always. rather than use her weapons, i think she's trained herself in the way of words instead. as a kid her natural charm was used for more selfish personal things because she was yknow a kid, but as an adult i think she uses her charm in order to make people get along.

i don't think she ever necessarily lies about people's qualities, but rather that she always speaks from the heart— even if at some point she exaggerates. read: roger, which is often what gets her the accusations of being a temptress. honestly after rereading it again to properly answer this question i don't see why people get so riled up over this conversation. LMAO

like does she try to tug at the heartstrings? yes, but i also think she does see that roger could be a genuinely kind-hearted and good person. she pulls the underlying good qualities in the people she speaks to and tries to speak in a way that will get them to act in peace. there's hardly any seducing (least, on purpose) involved in any of her conversations. (some people dont have reading comprehension, ig)

so to strangers, acquaintances and sometimes even friends, she's the charming princess of talys. to those she's closest with, i find that she's far more honest about herself, more vulnerable with them. she has a duty to uphold as the right queen of archanea, so of course she must appear strong to her citizens and to archanea's political alliances. there's not quite room for a queen who cries and complains, after all.

her honesty with her emotions is most exemplary in regards to marth and kris, if i'm being real here. the conversation that comes to mind for kris is the one where she entrusts marth to him in her stead, where she cannot be there for him. she speaks of fear for marth's life so genuinely, of her feelings so genuinely. she entrusts him with that vulnerability, just as she does with marth as well.

that's not to say she doesn't have her charm and wit here either— she's less modest about herself with him— with them both, and i think as well this is where her 'tomboy' personality comes out most with him. she's not shy and reserved necessarily unless its *eyes emoji* (if you know you know) but speaks of her feelings without so much as blinking. they have that natural relationship where i think they're some of the only people they can just be themselves with (and that's something i like to focus on a lot when it comes to private conversations they have).

#{ headcanons. }#{ this is such a perfect one for her thank you so much }#{ again i feel like i just. threw up words all over the dash LMAO }

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orbleglorb · 11 months

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you didn't specify a ship for them, so i'm just gonna do yuniesky/a-z

NOTE: the character names, in canon, are conditional yuniesky and chester abu-zaid. in my lore, conditional yuniesky is comprised of a supercomputer monolith (named conditional) and its caretaker/friend (yuniesky). chester abu-zaid is comprised of a guy who got isekaied from a children's anime to blaseball land (nadeem abu-zaid) and his cyborg service dog, chester. so although the name is technically chester abu-zaid, im referring to the human as nadeem.

this kinda got long so it's under a read more now

1. Describe their first date.

their first official date, they just make dinner and watch a movie at nadeem's apartment. but there were a couple of non-official dates where they were like "is this a date??? are we dating???"

17. How well do they communicate? Are they open with their feelings/thoughts or more reserved? Why?

ok. so. this one requires backstory.

yunie's whole thing is that he is trying so hard to never feel emotions. they're literally that post that's like "the best ship is goofy guy x guy with catholic guilt." also sorry for introducing catholicism to the blaseball universe. anyway, he had a sort of front he put up for different social circles. although, the spies are kind of his only social circle. yuniesky put a concerning amount of effort into his act. like the same type of inner dialogue Light has with himself in death note. except instead of "would kira do this?" it was "would the specific version of myself that i have crafted in order to keep my coworkers friendly but at arms-length do this?" and then, inevitably, everyone Found Out and they were fucking pissed at him for lying to them (except for nanci, who was just impressed and intrigued). everyone was like "what did we do to be so untrustworthy?" and yunie's like "im going to get such a good grade in being a spy." it wasn't until rosa died that he was like "oh! i might be with these people when i die. these might be the last people i ever see." and slowly, he started letting down his walls. it was the first time that it occurred to him that he was doomed and, yet, not alone. and at some point, he gets closer to a-z specifically, and tbh i forgot the question. um. communication. yuniesky TRIES to communicate now. he's still not very good at it, but there's much more of an attempt now. nadeem, on the other hand, is a good communicator. so them and yunie have come up with non-verbal ways to communicate what's going on (and ways that don't involve words at all). nadeem sort of wears their heart on their sleeve, and they're generally really good at just taking whatever's thrown at them with some amount of grace. yuniesky has never had an emotion he didn't overanalyze to hell and back and then suppressed. he's much more reserved about everything in his life, but at some point becomes open enough to at least keep people updated.

18. How do they care for each other when one of them is wounded/sick?

for sickness: yunie makes food and brings it to them, does chores for them, makes sure they're comfortable, etc., but stays a healthy distance away. nadeem, however, is not as careful, and will 100% just give him a kiss and then get sick the next day.

for injuries: they both scold each other for being an idiot whilst patching the other up. yunie has a lot more knowledge about how to deal with wounds (mostly hiding them) but nadeem is better at actually being careful when dealing wounds and not just, like, poking it to see if it hurts like yunie does.

#blaseball (organizational)#asks 4 sasha #nadeem abu-zaid #chester abu-zaid #conditional yuniesky

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buggybugkilo · 1 year

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anyway now that it’s seven in the morning and i REALLY need to be asleep i’m gonna do a funky funky introduction for an oc i’ve had for about the same amount of time ive been fixating on twst

except he’s just as developed as all my other ocs

(i will actually do a full effort drawing for him..hopefully)

edit: replacing the image ahdhd

anyway so shoshi (name may be changed-im iffy on the name ngl) is based off of shock (nightmare before christmas) i have the other two from the trio and oogie (neon haired guy i’ve drawn a few times) too just need to make a proper intro for them

anyway then his cat familiar z-whos based off of zero

so shoshi is technically supposed to be like white pale but i don’t like it as much so he’s just a normal amount of pale

backstory stuff is a wip but the very base of it is:

shoshi comes from and kind of is (?) a ✨grim reaper family✨ living in halloween town (in which most ghosts will avoid him naturally..dude is almost completely oblivious to that fact)

his childhood wasn’t too bad-growing up he was a rule follower, had good grades, had a few friends-overall good kid so not much happening

the only bad thing being he has a goofy (/j) homophobic and transphobic father who was like hella transphobic

shoshi is trans and slightly fruity-so you can imagine how that went-basically being the bright happy child to being almost cut off from his father-eventually shoshi gave up on trying to get accepted by his father and instead said it was a phase and moved on-this being the main reason he grows his hair out

(when asked about going to nrc he just said he heard it was a good school and tricked them into thinking he was a dude)

anyway back to the being a grim reaper-z was a street cat that shoshi had befriended as a small child basically growing up with z- this cat was also supposed to be the first soul he would help guide-shoshi just didn’t (in a more dramatic way but that’s for me to write when i’m not still figuring everything out) and instead made z his familiar-z is linked to shoshis feelings and it’s rare to see the two having different reactions (so z would have to have a very strong emotion for it to show) which is kind of morbid now that i think about it but i swear it’s more of a in sync kind of thing 😭

the two others from the trick or treater trio are childhood friends

in general things

shoshi has very sensitive skin to the point where when going outside he has to use a sun umbrella (hence the being pale) which wasn’t much of a problem with halloween town being very cloudy and dark but now in nrc is quite off putting with the quiet and mildly reserved nature along with the sun umbrella

he often takes the role of being responsible for his other friends often scolding them for reckless behavior

shoshi is most definitely a cat dad kind of dude

he and z will give someone the most judgy look if they do something stupid

..and then cover for their ass five seconds later

definitely into darker fashion styles (so like alt or whatever wearing a bunch of dark colored celestial clothing is)

probably has trust issues ajsjdjdj

his dorm is a funky funky oogie boogie one i have yet to fully make (is vice president of it)

anyway now that it is a whole ass hour later i’m gonna go sleep

#kilos twst ocs #twst oc #original character #twst shoshi #art #oc rambling #twisted wonderland #kilo needs sleep #twst z #kilos ocs #i’m tempted to do a x reader with a few of my chars #it’d be kinda funny #so if anyone wants to see that i am all ears to hear #i may delete those tags when i wake up #oc intro

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asahicore · 1 year

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this will be long so....

as always let me know your thoughts otherwise i will find you and hold you at gunpoint,

you dont need to hold me at gun point (idm if you do) to tell how much i love your works. ♡

“Right, sorry.” You cleared your throat and sat up straighter. “I completely disagree with your statement, Jongseong. Just because a movie has young teenage girls as its target audience doesn’t mean it is completely insipid and has no value, like you’re insinuating. If you look at Mean Girls, for example-”

ah LOVE IT WHEN MY WOMEN ARE SO SEXY WITH THEIR WORDS LOVE IT. funny i have done this exactly, cuz i do be writing mails for my friends lol. Fun fact never watched mean girls in my life #not like other girls fr 🤭

“Oh, and Jay, I do have to side with Y/N here. There’s a surprising amount of things that can be said about that film,” your tutor admitted with an apologetic smile.

Yn 1 - jay 0

“Yes, Jongseong, that’s exactly the case. I’m sooooo obsessed with you, I took this class just to see you.”

spoiler if im not wrong she actually did ask jake bout it, and took the class in the old (ill see later on in the fic) or was it another fic.

“You see, Y/N, I also major in Visual Studies. I’m not a single honors Econ major like you. Loser.”

STOP I JUST DECIDED ON WHAT TO STUDY DONT MAKE ME CHANGE TO BUS🤢🤮BUSIN🤮🤢BUSINESS STUDENT (/j i love the capitalism kids they do know how to keep the country running i hope, lowkey wanna do econ tho...) GOIN OFF TOPIC

“H-hi, Heeseung.”

No. Fuck off. no I DISLIKED THIS MAN SM IN THIS FIC

"It’s not even just about that, Y/N. You know his reputation, he’s clearly bad news. There’s no point in liking a guy like that.”

See even jay agrees. yall might be enemies (lovers) but take his words on this pls

“Whatever. When he inevitably hurts you, though, I’ll say I told you so.”

aren't you the one that hurts her before him 👎👎👎 or was that SCENE AFTERWARDS HMMMM (future me exactly fuck you jay how could you hurt my girl like that.)

If anybody remembers this, they’re probably thinking that you were fucking awesome. Can’t you see how everyone is cheering you on in the video?”

we love a supportive friend ! pls this is so me 😭😭😭

“you literally asked Jake to tell you what courses he was taking this semester and when his tutorials were, and when you somehow managed to be enrolled in a class that’s supposed to be reserved for Visual Studies students, you emailed the tutor to make sure you’d be in the same group as Jay. I’d say that requires some effort.”

SEE I TOLD YOU. I KNEW SHE DID THIS, HAHAHAHA GIVING MIXED SIGNS BABE FRR

“Is no one gonna say it?” Sunoo asked, bewildered, looking around at your friends. “It sounds like you like him, Y/N.”

SO TRUE ITS SO ?!?!??! OBVIOUS YN GET YOUR MIND INTO IT good that you didnt put that much effort into heeseung that ass

Sieun took your hands in hers and tried to convince you with her eyes, her eyebrows furrowing slightly. “But think about it, Y/N. It’s the enemies to lovers trope!”

Agreed EXACTLY BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS NEVER DONE BEFORE BEST TROPE.

“I’d come, but the idea of serving rich people as they give out ten thousand dollars when they could give a million and it wouldn’t even affect them in the slightest, not to mention having to do it with a smile on my face, makes my skin crawl, so no thanks,” Sieun said. She wasn’t wrong, but this was also Jay’s parents you were talking about. Not only would Jay be there, and your presence would surely piss him off, but his dad’s company was one of the top of the country and being introduced to their world, maybe even getting to know some people there, even just as a waitress, could really benefit you in the long-term. You’d never admit it to him, but you’d been dreaming of working there ever since you’d first heard of it. Nothing might come out of this, but it was worth trying.

Sounding like you love jay more than heeseung babe. I dont blame you me too <3

The two boys in front of him groaned in unison. He raised his head and added defensively, “What? I’ve barely said anything yet.”

FELT mE TOO THEU BOTH ARE SO OBSESSED WITH 3ACH OYHER PLS

Jay rolled his eyes. “No, of course not, but I’m gonna be hyper-aware of her presence and I don’t want it to distract me.” A third groan. “Plus, I don’t like the idea of her being there as a waitress. She should be with the students who talk to the guests, she deserves it more than anybody I know.”

CUTE FUCKING CUTE

“It’s 2022, Sunghoon, nobody says things like ‘man up’ anymore.”

😭😭😭😭😭

“You always say that, but how the fuck am I supposed to ask her out when she’s only ever seen me as her rival? Plus, she’s head over heels for that prick.”

Give it a chance park WE NEVER KNOW HMMMM.

oh it just hit me what happens or their fall out in a way. now im sad now im too sad to continue ill be back after a moment im back and im gonna erase memory of what happens SHHHH

He hated the idea of you having to be there as a waitress, handing out drinks and mini toasts to entitled guests who probably wouldn’t even look at you. There had to be a few strings he could pull, right?

YAYY MY JAY BOY GO SLAY GET YO GIRL OF DREAMS IG 🤣

“Wow, he does have good taste.”

WOAH WOAH GO JAY I SEE YOU BABE HEHEHENE

While they didn’t make you look like a Hunger Games Capitol citizen, when they were done with you, the reflection that looked back at you in the mirror was uncanny.

I LOVW THE REFERENCE PLUS I LEGIT THOUGHT OF THAT WHEN THEY SAID MAKE UP AND LITTLE GLAMMED UP LOL

Because you’re the most amazing person I’ve ever met and the world should know about it, was his immediate thought. But of course, he’d never say that out loud, so he opted for,

SAY YOU COWARD SAY IT. OR ELSE IM GOING RUN BEHIND YOU WITH THIS BROOM FONT MAKE ME GO ALL ASIAN MOM ON YOU JAY FUCKINH SAY IT TO YN #biggestyn&jayshipper

is it me or is it a bilingual thing to suddenly change to ur mother tongue when you're extremely excited or extremely annoyed cuz its taking a lot in me to not swtich languages right now and you wont understand shit i said😭😭

“Anyway, I’m doing the closing speech soon. I’m gonna be awesome, so look closely, yeah?” You knew he wanted to look cool, but you thought he sounded like an excited kid who was about to put on a show for his family. How cute, you thought, and immediately chased that thought away from your brain. That damn champagne must’ve been laced with something.

look at you yn finally finding who you actually like awwn <33 cutie Jay is such a cute i wanna hug him. give him a highfive or something idk honestly.

Nothing was off-limits when it came to their rivalry, and you were most definitely not an exception, not to Heeseung. He couldn’t stand seeing Jay have something he didn’t. At that moment, he made up his mind.

FUCK. OFF. HEESEUNG. I HOPE YOU TRIP AND FALL OR HIT YOUR TOE NESR YOU BED.

this is a one-time thing. Find an excuse, say we broke up or whatever. Fake dating is like, the most predictable trope ever,”

IT REALLY IS BUT I STILL LOVE IT AND I EAT IT UP EVERYTIME 🤭

"Y/N, be honest with us. Is Park Jay your sugar daddy?”

sunoo 🤝 me

big brained frr

After a moment, Sieun broke the silence: “Y/N, you’ve become a real walking rom-com. I’m so proud of you.”

me too. can my friends be in one too its so borING I NEED SOME EXCITEMENT IN MY LIFE TOO wtf

“Y/N, that’s literally the whole concept of fake dating. You’ll think it’s only that one time, and before you know it, you’ll be married with three children, and it won’t be fake anymore,”

SO TRUE FORTUNE TELLER LOL.

“And you’ll be blowing something else soon…” Sunoo muttered, just loud enough for your table to hear.

its NOT A LIE SOOOOOO 🤭🤭

“Your whole rivalry thing is too cute, I can’t take it seriously. You won’t admit it to yourself, but you clearly like Jay a lot more than you do Heeseung,”

PLS THINK BOUT WHAT HE SAID YALL ARE SO IN LOVE ITS SO ?!?!?&#(#,#((# MAKES ME WANNA BREAK THE FORTH WALL AND PUT YOU GUYS TPGTHER AND BE LIKE THEY LIVED HAPPY AFTER THE END.

She looked at you with a knowing smile that moms loved to wear. “I do know. You’re the one who doesn’t.” You’d dismissed her with a roll of your eyes. Everybody around me’s going crazy, you thought.

see RVEN THE MOM KNOWS YN PLS TAKE THE HINT FOR FUCK SAKE IM GOING TO..... ITS SO CUTE HONESTLY TLOVE YN BEING IN DENIAL KINDA.

“Yeah, I noticed. I don’t think anything you’ve ever done or said offended me more than that one time you showed up to class wearing a ‘where the hell have you been, loca?’ t-shirt.”

STOPNDKDKD I DIDNT GET TO FINISH TWILIGHT CUZ I THOUGHT IT WAS WERIDS NGL BUT LMAOO GO ROCK THAT T-SHIRT IG.

“Just say I’m pretty and move on, Jongseong.”

OMFHSIBDKDKDKD

I thonk i missed some parts here but anyways

“but my father’s company, the one I’m in charge of now, only started being successful when I was in high school. My dad worked his way up from the ground, so he and I both know what it’s like to not be well-off. I’ve tried to not turn Jay into one of those rich kids who think they’ll rule the world just cause they have money, and… well, I hope I did a good job.”

HE REALLY IS !!! i love him !! I love mamaa and papa park sm they the best ngl <3 everyone so nice they are so nice and fun lovw jay sm ill cry sp bad odk what im even saying right now. The whole dinner scene has my heart its so really cute and wholesome.

“Fine, fine!” you said between breathless giggles. She finally relented. “I think Jay’s hot.”“Do you, now?”

I SCREAMED I WAS ON THE FLOOR I WAS DOWN BAD TOO

The fact that he was manspreading and leaning back on his hands, the top buttons of his shirt undone and his trousers stretching against his thighs, wasn’t particularly helping.

only one word and one word only hot.

“Um, I’ve got something, actually. I forgot to give it to you with the rest of the things.” He fished a small box out of his bag and got up to stand behind you. He took out the necklace and put it around your neck, asking you to hold your hair up. You complied, looking at his reflection in the mirror. His hands slightly brushed the back of your neck as he locked the necklace, and you had to keep yourself from visibly shivering at his touch. This was infinitely worse (or better) than him zipping up your dress.

SCREAMIHDJD BLEEDONGD IGHTISNS LOSINGSIDB BFODHURHEODNO

DHEMEOOBPKSGSUHSK

OKAY JUST REALIZED THE PART I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IS COMING SOON QND I DONT WANNA EVER REMEMBER THAT HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITHOUT THAT PART SHH

He walked you to your room, tucked you in bed and even got a wet wipe to take your makeup off for you. ”The sight of Jay cooking breakfast for you and your mother alone was enough to cure your hangover. You sneakily watched from the staircase as he expertly flipped pancakes and cooked eggs at the same time, all while holding a conversation with your mom. You walked into the kitchen and poured yourself a cup of coffee before taking a seat next to your mom, trying to but failing to suppress a smile. “I didn’t know you were also a housewife, Jongseong,”

He really is we love a house wife jongseong so much. love my men as housewives fr

“Y/N, there’s no way in hell you don’t wanna date that boy. Hell, if he wasn’t half my age, I probably would."

SAME YN's M0M SAME ME TOO

“Isn’t it common knowledge that Breaking Dawn is the last book in the series?” “It’s just that you’ve mentioned them so often, I thought I should check at least the first one out. Turns out they’re pretty addictive,” he admitted sheepishly. “Research purposes, of course.” A short silence ensued, the sort of silence you should’ve been used to with Jay by now but that always made you feel giddy - the sort that’s awkward in a lighthearted way, the sort where you’re repeating all the words that have just been said in your head and committing them to memory. The sort where you hope the other is feeling all the things you’re feeling.

STOP THATS SO ?!?!?#&¥#, I FEEL SP HAPPY SO FEELINGS MY FEELINGS ARE BEINGNPLAYED I FEEL SO I LOVE WITH IT WHEN PEOPLE SOMETHING WHEN PEOPLE LIKE IT SM AND YOU GET THE POINT JAY IS SUCH A SIMP omfg JUST KISS ALREADY GUYS ITS HRUTING ME MORE. #jaylittlesimp

“But you did. I think that shot of you will end the film perfectly.”

omg. omfg. omfg OMFG IM GOING TO LOSE IT IM GOING TO JUMP IM GPING TO MELT EVAPRATE IDK SCREAM THROW UP THAS SONDIDNDKDNDB I LOVE IT WTF I LOVE THIS SCENE SO MUCH ITS SO RAW AND SO BEAUTIFUL I JUST. I CANT. I CANT.

“Then we’re more similar than I’d thought,” you said, and looked at him again.

we love some bonding time fr

“Um. Yeah, I knew,” he mumbled. He still wouldn’t look you in the eye.

“Since the beginning, really. My dad’s not the type to do favors, and he wants to keep up that image. So if you’re my girlfriend, he wouldn’t give you the internship.”

stfu jay i. i BO BOOO BOOO no it broke me so much cuz yn reallyvwanted that internship and jay cpuld LEAST HAVE HINTED HER IG ?!??!! URGH fucker. oh god that would mean.... heeseung ew.

“That’s none of your business, Heeseung,” you replied curtly, opening the book.

exactly leave taje social que and LEAVE.

Plus, you had the perfect dress for the occasion.

SEXY LOVE IT MWAH

It was his turn to laugh. “Wow. That’s impressive. You managed to fool me.” His smile dropped. “Now get the fuck out.”

I hope you get kicjed in your balls. I curse you wtv. Hate you.

You sighed amusedly as if Heeseung was just joking around. “I just think it’s funny that you won’t fuck me because I’m not actually Jay’s girlfriend, when that’s not stopped you from getting with a different girl every single weekend. Whore,” you said, adding that last part in a whisper.

SPEAK THE TRUTHH BABE

“I like you too, Y/N.”

finally amd they lived happy ever after the end.

the "yeah" YEAH IM THAT WAS HOT.

“That’s okay. I would’ve waited my whole life if it meant I could have you at the end.” Butterflies erupted all over your stomach at his words. You kissed him like you’d stop breathing if you didn’t.

Me too hun me too

THAT WAS SO CUTE OMFGDUDBNFN I LOVE IT SM ONCE AGAIN YOU DID IT IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL NOW I GO CRY AND ANNPY FRIENDS ABOUT THIS AGAIN. THANK YOU FOR WRITING THIS MASTERPIECE

anon what if i start crying in this train… this is like. the best kind of feedback ever 😭😭😭😭 the freaking out over jay and y/n being cute and being idiots is so real tbh.. all those keyboard smashes are making me so happy hahaha also the fact that this is a reread 🙏🙏🙏 thank u so so so much anon u deserve the world for this fr it literally means so much to me… you’re off my holding at gunpoint list 🙏 also thanks for hating heeseung this much it’s what he deserves ANYWAYS RHANK Y THANK UOU THANK YOU I LVOE YOU HOPE BOYH AIDES OF UOUR OILLOW ARE COLD TONIGHT

#answered #anon #work: all i see is gold #crying crying crying

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chimielie · 3 months

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HIII MERRY CHRISTMASSS MWAH MWAH!! i hope your holidays have been well :) ive been having so many thoughts recently and i just gravitate to your work when i feel like i need to empty my brain and just rot in peace HAHA anywayss to answer your question, here are the things ive baked this year:

strawberry galette---its easy and so good! you should definitely try it, you can use different fruits too!

vanilla sponge fruit cake---for my friend's birthdayyy, it was so fun decorating the cake with homemade icing with her

taylor swifts chai sugar cookies---my friends and i made them to celebrate getting tickets to the eras tour

strawberry shortcake muffins---absolute chaos, my friends and i did the blind, deaf, and mute baking challenge but 2 of us were deaf because theres 4 of us! muffins came out..edible

tiramisu---does this count because its technically no bake hahaha! turned out to be my most "popular" one. the recipe i use doesnt have alcohol so my aunt who doesnt drink is always asking me when im making it so that she can reserve a little box for herself :)

craziest thing is that i did all this without my own mixer or oven! im amazed that my love for baking has allowed me to connect with my friends more! but i cant be baking at their houses forever.. im super lucky to have gotten a mixer as a gift and my family is looking to buy a new oven :) theyre going to be getting sweet treats all the time starting next year! i also achieved a new years resolution goal of mine which was to bake at least 3 new treats!

aww its okay, maybe youll be able to bake when you have access to a nice oven :) oh yeah definitely take credit for that bread haha!! bread is a territory im super intimidated by so ive only tried it a few times. 2 of which had me kneading the dough for hours past my bedtime LOL also no need to apologize about talking about your bf HAHAH love that for you! im taking about my friends in these asks ALL THE TIME and its so funny when i think about it because its always the 4 of us girls doing random stuff together! but i love spending time with them and im sure you feel the same way with your bf too! have the merriest christmas pookieee i would love to know what youre doing this holiday season :)

love, 🍮 (ive yet to make pudding maybe ill try that next year hehe)

STRAWBERRY GALETTE sounds like the best thing i have ever heard of. omg have u had ur show yet?? was it amazing??

BAHAHAHAH the …edible sent me 😭 omg no bake tiramisu sounds amazing. pudding anon i am giving u a michelin star

i love hearing about u and ur friends!! i hope u all are having the most fun and laughing lots together :)

this is so late and i am terribly sorry but my friends (+ k) and i did a little roadtrip together which was a lil stressful but also very fun! and for new years i spent the day with my family and we had fondue :) and then my bf had to go to the er and that was very very stressful so then we spent a decent amount of time just cuddling in bed lololol and now i’m back at sch**l

i did receive a lot of very exciting vintage cookware and dishes so i am hoping to cook a bit for my friends but that’s for when i’m better :) thank u for stopping by!! love u!!

#ask n answer #🍮!

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celestialpotat0 · 10 months

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july begins

When i last wrote in here, i was sad having had to leave the tahoe area knowing that it might possibly be my last trip into the mountains this summer. last chance to experience beautiful wilderness in all of summer's glory. and i ended my reflection with how i needed to turn to appreciating small, everyday occurrences.

so in the spirit of cherishing the ordinary life on the peninsula, away from my friends and family in socal, away from the frequent fun adventures of my 20s, and not being able to travel bc of working more than 40hrs a week lol, wanted to jot down favorite moments from last few weeks:

thinh's fourth of july bbq party at her house on 7/3. woke up the next day after the party with a headache from not drinking enough water the night before, i fail. it's been a cold summer, like why is it freezing outside at night in july. but i enjoyed meeting nice people, karaokeing was a blast, and am really happy to have such a wonderful person as a friend. we work at different hospitals but can relate in many ways. i've always considered summer to be full of events that break up the monotony of the rest of the year, and i'm happy this felt like that. instead of the new normal adulting summer when im no longer graduating anything or celebrating the end of one chapter and the beginning of the next

on 7/4 we went to a college campus on a hill and were able to see fireworks from foster city, redwood city, shoreline amphitheater, and more

dinner and drinks with lauren, doris, and chloe. it hasnt been easy leaving behind my friends in socal and moving to a new area; during the first part of my time here, there were occasions when i cried feeling lonely. ive really made an effort to use dance as a means to feel connected to others. you cant just expect friends to happen, you have to put in the work to build a community of support. i'm grateful to have found some ladies who share a love of dance. i like that we all come from different occupations and grew up in different parts of the world but can bond over participating in this art.

swam outdoors on a hot day in a 25-meter pool. free of electronics for an hour, just focused on each breath and motion to propel me through the water

moved into a new apartment. the novelty in and of itself is enough to make me happy, which says questionable things about me such as to what extent have i fallen victim to consumerism. at my previous apartment i never fully unpacked. i had plastic bags of stuff strewn haphazardly in bathroom cabinets. i kept prioritizing other things in my life over organizing my bathroom, closet, and pantry. but now everything in the bathroom is exactly where i want it to be. my small victory is so satisfying: unpacked and organized the bathroom completely. im not going to allow myself to travel until i fully organize the apartment this time.

I feel like it's the beginning of a new phase in the bay area. im getting more accustomed to work, and my commute is short now. i have a good amount of PTO planned. now have a list of activities that have been discussed to do with friends and the only problem is lack of free time--and lack of time is a better problem to have than lack of people who are willing to do them with you. im currently on a hiatus from scheduled dance, and for the time being im dancing only on a drop-in basis, which has actually been a huge sigh of relief; it's been good for my mental health to have less commitments on my plate. now my days off are actually days off where i can choose to dance if i want. while it's extremely rewarding to dance, not having any true days off (bc i would always have dance scheduled and mandatory on my days off from work) was detrimental and making me burnt out. in this new phase, i want to expect to travel less and say no more often and reserve time on my days off to be truly off.

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cparti-mkiki · 10 months

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i know you all must be tired of my misanthropic tirades but i genuinely don’t understand why so many people on trips go to museums when it is clear they don’t care about nor particularly like anything they’re seeing, that they aren’t having a good time here, and that they would probably find anything else more interesting and enjoyable. like having a few beers in the town center or going on a bike sightseeing trip? there’s so many things to do in a city. and especially there’s so many things to do in places that don’t get easily crowded, and where the presence of many people does not negatively affect everyone’s experience. certain famous museums are booked months in advance and then almost fucking impracticable when you get there from the amount of people crammed inside, but it’s not people who want to see anything that’s there. it’s people who are on a guided tour going through the motions, and it’s people who think going to that museum is “what you do” when you’re in X city, and it’s people who want to check out the gioconda and leave when they don’t see anything else that’s “famous” and all that

quintus, who made you the fucking gate keeper? do you think you’re the only one who can go to museums? and the only one who’s doing it the right way? that’s why you feel entitled to have empty halls for your enjoyment? people don’t deserve to have access to art because you don’t think they’re appreciating it “the way they should”? you think art galleries should be reserved for a cultural elite? etc etc. these criticism are all valid in some form: i know i’m being unpleasant and unreasonable. but god, i hate massified tourism.

there are galleries that have astounding collections and are relatively empty all year long because they don’t have a super marketable poster child artwork, and they don’t appear first thing on tripadvisor, and their names are not household names. i’m thankful for that and they should keep it that way. i’m just saying that if the louvre put the mona in a shed outside and charged a different ticket to go inside the shed only, they could decrease crowds in the main halls by a good 50% (conservative estimate). the vatican museums already have a de facto fast track to the sistine chapel… just go one step beyond? of course they won’t do that because they might be one of the few art museums in the world who are actually making bank but. as a suggestion. one day the louvre will be forced to clean the damn thing when the filth starts gaining life of its own and eating at the painting and it will be a devastating financial blow to the institution. i don’t even know what point im making— in any case, if i were the evil dictator of the world, my first order would be to ban all guided tours. my second would be to ban advertising for big art galleries, and to make it as byzantine as possible to obtain tickets (some countries have already mastered this art though. wink wink). i would make all the famous museums change their name so that you cannot brag about visiting them— because your friends won’t even know what you’re talking about. you would have to answer these riddles three to enter. imagine the scene: uffizi with only the people who actually want to go. i think it’d still be pretty full all the time, but it would be, like, livable, you know?

#my posts

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so, i dont really know how tumblr works so I kinda hope this doesn't show up on anyone's feed, but I've decided that I'm using this like kind of a way to keep track of whatever is happening to my silly little paranormal crew. For the record, I'm currently on ep 94, so a lot has happened already but there's still a long way ahead.

Please, if someone somehow reads this, don't tell me anything about being right or wrong, I want to keep listening and see it by myself <3

Right now I know that there are this entities, gods or whatever involved and as far as know the monsters/entities/avatars belong to one of them?

The Eye (Elias, John, The Magnus Institute?)

The Beholding (my friend told me that the Eye and the Beholding aren't quite the same but they go together somehow?)

The Desolation (The Lighless Flame, Jude Perry, Agnes)

The Vast (Michael Crew, the Fairchilds?)

The End (Georgie's statement)

The Corruption (Jane Prentiss)

The Distortion (Michael)

The Stranger (The Unknowing ritual?)

Don't really know where to fit the Leitner books in here...

More stuff:

As Georgie pointed out in ep 93 (i think?): why did Elias (or the Eye) choose John as the Archivist? Why was he special? And why did they need to replace Gertrude? As far as I know she was doing quite well, right? She was getting closer to stopping the ritual John is supposed to stop, then why kill her? What was she doing "wrong"?

And besides, the creatures such as Jude Perry seemed quite happy to see her gone, but they don't have such reservations with John (yet). What was Gertrude doing? Let's not forget about that statement of the ritual that was most likely pulled up by the Lightless flame (ep 37)

Another question I'd like to answer:

What the fuck is inside the Do Not Open coffin? Is one of my fav episodes and it's still so unclear what the heck was that

I maybe tend to get caught on stupid details but after Jude Perry's statement I can't stop thinking about Tom (NotSasha's bf) who worked on a wax museum... like???? that's so specific

The Circus.... i know it's going to be so fucking bad but I need, crave, beg for answers. Does the Calliope turn people into muppets or smth?

The moving company or whatever that is (Breekon and Hope)... what is wrong with them, who are they. Btw there being more than one character with the same name is something that has happened before (I spent like a good amount of episodes thinking that there was only one Michael) but... one of the guys carrying the coffin was named Tom (ep 60)..................... [probably doesn't mean anything but still... weird]

Where is Gerard Keay I miss him

Daisy is giving not human ngl but idk

Elias is also giving not human. Like who is that man?? Who put him in charge???

Why does the recorder keep starting on by itself, that creepy old thing. I can't help but imagine the Eye or Elias or whatever it is listening to the recordings in real life and giggling, like dude give these people a little of privacy I don't think it's too much to ask.

Out of the people who disappeared in the fish market (ep 1) two have been already mentioned (if I didn't miss anyone). I'm pretty sure there were 6 people missing?

Im looking at the episode list and trying to remember things at this point

Ep 13: I think the Lukas family was also one of the families mentioned more than once.

Ep 18: what the fuck was that why did this man need so much meat

Are ep 27 and ep 85 related?

Ep 29 Cheating Death, so many questions in general

Ep 30 (Killing Floor) and ep 72 (Takeaway) are related, but I can't really fit them with any entity?

Ep 33 about the ship called the Tundra... feels like... unfinished

Ep 36 I know the guy from the Care Home was mentioned on another ep, can't remember on which one, tho

Ep 52 why did Maxwell Rayner visit Montauk on prison

Ep 58 how did the institute get this statement I'm so confused

Ep 59 why was Anges on that house, why did she help Ronald Sinclair. The table seems to be tied to the creature that replaces people (cause somehow notSasha was tied to it). Does that mean that the owner of the teenage home was a NotSomeone?

Ep 68 not really about the statement but I found it interesting that the institute statements were leaked in 1999.

Ep 74 weird, i don't understand why Michael is there

Ep 87 i was so confused about this one but the man giving the statement is such a legend, i think he deserves the best

Ep 90 just... what

Ep 92 why does Elias have a bunch of bones that are like 200 years old on his office, that's fucking weird, what a weirdo i don't like him. Also /Mordechai Lukas/

Im forgetting so many things i just know

There's also another thing that i don't really know where to fit: The cult of the divine host. They are gone since the section or division 31 idk how it is called (a c a b) interrupted the weird ritual. I have thoughts about them, but my thoughts are too complicated to write since Im stupid and i keep on writing on english instead of one of my first languages. Maxwell Rayner, Im keeping an eye on you.

#magnus notes

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wanderrlust0 · 2 years

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first meal of the day at like 11:30pm and i tried wingstops chicken burger for the first time.

it was the spicy korean one and it was decent. it was more like a bbq sauce flavor but it was nice bc it was saucy. also tried some of the lemon pepper chicken burger and that was good too. that one felt more like an original chicken burger flavor since it didnt have all the sauce on it. their fries are so unique like i just realized they put sugar on them and thats why they taste sweet but i like it. now im full and tired but not tired; my body is tired. wasnt expecting to but i cried a little today and i did it in front of my bf. i can count on one hand the amount of times he’s seen me cry in person. i just feel like my body doesnt allow me to cry easily in front of people except one person. so yeah that happened while we were cuddling and just talking about parts of my life that is a sensitive topic for me. i didnt think it was but the more that it has come up in discussion, ive realized that it just makes me wanna cry and i’ll typically just fight back tears and hold it in. im also really bad when it comes to expressing the thoughts that i try to forget about or avoid sharing bc i feel like im trauma dumping. my bf helps me sort of break out of that mindset and to let things out. its still hard for me tho and i always feel choked up when i talk about situations and feelings i keep hidden. i also dont like making eye contact when its deep, vulnerable convos like that. ive always been kind of weird with eye contact. sometimes im still making sure that i keep eye contact with whoever im having a convo with. mostly if they keep looking at me i feel like i need to look at them back ofc & then sometimes my mind starts wandering bc im thinking about if my eye contact is too strong. if i look weird. if they can tell that i feel forced to look back. obviously this is more so for people im not friends with bc ofc im fine with friends but yeah. i always break away eye contact to feel more comfortable and so i feel less stared at, especially when me and my bf get into more serious talks. they know im reserved and stuff. idk, lately life keeps giving me highs and lows. as soon as something good happens its like okay something bad will happen soon. it always does. theres always something new. i literally just wanna feel like my life is normal. be as independent as my friends. have normal family relationships like my bf. not feel behind in life. feel successful and healthy. i feel like ive developed abandonment issues over time. i worry about the thought of losing my bf in my life. not in a codependent way but in a way where my life will just drop in serotonin. in recent past, when ive made him upset and he confronts me about it, it always made me scared in the moment that i could lose the one person who literally loves me the most. i mean he like loves loves me and it shows. i honestly still have moments where i’ll get insecure over things like if they mention another girl i’ll overthink and worry or whatever or i’ll wonder if they miss people from their past. i feel like thats normal tho maybe. i wanna cry again. as i was getting ready for work i was seriously saying to myself that i just want to cryyy right now and there i am, hours later, quietly crying in his bed. then about another hour later were just fucking lolol. so he mentioned androgyny and opinions on what i think he can do to look like that. that surprised me a bit but just a bit. i had no problem with it anyways. i think androgynous people are really attractive. i already like guys with femininity soo.. and ugh if theyre partly emo or looks like a pretty male and could prob be a twink lol and they have piercings or tattoos i. am. interested. completely random but my sex drive has been kind of on and off. i also kind of sort of want to get a sex toy. i dont own any rn so i want to try one. i also think it could help make me feel a little more pleasured in bed and thats a whole long separate topic. i shouldve taken melatonin but maybe i’ll get more sleepy soon and i can sleep in so its fine. didnt think id write this much but its been a while since i have // 10.8.22

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I looooove Inception in Japanese too, sounds like an anime opening 😭 I can't believe the amount of Fireworks slander I'm witnessing so I gotta fight for my bestie! Mist, Utopia and TMH are on my list as well but also MY WAY this song is my lil meow meow actually idc, I love it. <3 but then Dazzling Light and Win and Desire too and omg shit I forgot The Leaders 😭🤚🏻

I'm always laughing at all the Shinestars who know nothing about Hwa's nerdy activities, SW, Lego, superheroes hdhwushegsghahs or football thankfully I know it all, I think it's one of the MANY reasons why he's my ult too. I see I ruined you, I'm sorry but that ASMR video IS ALWAYS THERE

Well I think about nerd Hwa every single day because I have him on display, so you need to think about him as well <3

You know I actually don't mind even if she's a bit annoying, no offence but I'm tired of shy weak little girls. I know they're relatable to many people but I just... ugh, even though I never imagine myself in Y/Ns shoes I'm often bored by them. Some can be introverted and reserved and still interesting, but many are just so bland, I feel bad for saying that but it is what it is.

After the monstrosity they were selling at concert venues I'm glad they went with something more subtle. Their Thunder merch was amazing too! Please my friends have so many "orders" they'll have to make a few rounds to the store ksudushsjsjsgsgs hopefully shit won't sell out quickly

Wish I was a MILF. I aspire to be one, Hwa is my inspiration lmao. One of my cats is kinda fluffy, another one is a tiny small baby and the third used to be fatter, but he's been sick for years so now he's a bit skinny :/

I don't know my mother is a cap too and 💀💀💀 maybe she is funny but in a ridiculous way

Not you almost outing your friend as a scammer 😭😅 but you know I bought fake broadcast photocards a few times and they're literally the same?! It's crazy. I bought all the members, it's cheating yeah but I'm not gonna pay 💰💰💰💰💰 for the real ones. I do own some I even got a few personally, but I have my limits

Dhishsdhgsshhsthe selfies I legit choked on my coffee?!?!?! The side profile this man has is unrrrrreal 😵😵😵😵 not to be weird but I love his lil moles and the one he has on his throat too, whenever they photoshop them I 💀 same with Wooyoung's under eye mole

DEUCE?! IM YELLING THIS IS TOO FUNNY

Oh which song did you get? I got Bowie's All the Young Dudes and the description is fairly accurate. Now do this! I really wanted to be a vampire or a pirate obviously, but I'm a knight it's cool as well. I'm Seonghwa's knight perhaps 👀

https://uquiz.com/quiz/oNBCMs/pirate-knight-cowboy-or-vampire-coded?ref=trending_quiz_bar

- DV 💖

hello hi!!

IT RLY DOES !!! like a fantasy anime for sure,, no bc fireworks IS GOOD I WOULD GET EXTREMELY HYPED LISTENING TO IT but like u wont catch me listening to it often jsvdnd,,, MIST GOD 😩😩 ok but what about better 🤚🏼 MY WAYY LIL MEOW MEOWWW i was did the “play this sing at exactly 12:58 so dreams are everywhere will play when its new year” THE WAY I SOB LISTENING TO THIS SONG GHENF omg dazzling light is sO STUNNING,, don’t go @ win that seonghwa hAUNTS ME

JFBWKDHSK RIGHT OR THE NEW STANS WHO THINK OF HIM AS SCARY HOT INTIMIDATING GUY who has a personality of a flower and plays legos 😭😭😭 FBWNDBEJ DONT LINK IT HERE IM GONNA START SCREAMING

Well I think about nerd Hwa every single day because I have him on display, so you need to think about him as well <3

i keep thinking of that miss tenelkadjowrites’s sub hwa with pink hair HRJQJDJQKDJQKJEW also

LMFAOOOO 😭😭😭 she’s very straight forward in a way it flusters hwa 😭😭 calls him cute two seconds in his job hcksj AAAAA YEAH I GUESS SOME LACK A PERSONALITY !! so true the shy reserved ones some are written in such a way that u can actually see something interesting in them i would advocate bbhwa yn as exhibit 78

YES EXACTLY!!! its like merch u can wear on a daily without having a huge ass “ATEEZ” on it or “ATEEZ WORLD TOUR 2022” its also so very aesthetic,, OH GIRLLLL THE AMT OF PC’s U GUYS R ABOUT TO GETTTT ROBBINGGGFG

after hwa i aspire to be a milf without kids <3 if hwa can do it we can too <3 AWW PLS IM CRYING THE SMOL ONE 😭😭😭😭 IM GENUINELY TEARING UP IMAGINING HIM 😭😭😭😭 omg nOOOOO 😭😭😭 is he still goofy and stuff wHICH ONE CUDDLES MORE I CALL DIBS ON THAT ONE 🔫

I don't know my mother is a cap too and 💀💀💀 maybe she is funny but in a ridiculous way

LMFAOOOO BFNABDKWB cap men are nasty absolutely despise them if they aren’t kai & taehyung,,, they always so popular too 🔫 DOMT DO HER LIKE THAT FBWKFBK both my parents r leo’s and it’s a circus everyday <3

LMFAOOOO GFWKDH THE PCS LOOK SO GENUINE I DOUBT ANYONE THINKS HES A SCAMMER DBDB,,, no fr who cares save that bag get then dupes !!!! YEAH HAVE UR LIMITS and then u proceed to buy every single other pc of hwa to ever exist 🤨

FBWKDKW HES INSANE, UNREAL, THAT OP WHO WROTE THAT REDDIT POST WAS ME AFTER SEEING THOSE PICTURES FBWKFJWK. they almost took his mole off in THR second pictures 😭😭😭 BOOBA I TRUSTED U no fr they take mingi’s off too + with wooyoung’s lip mole

DEUCE?! IM YELLING THIS IS TOO FUNNY

LMFAOOOO HEY ITS NOT FUNNY OKAYJCVWKDBWM 😭😭🔫

i GOT stay soft by mistki! the description called mE out i just wanna chat with these quiz creators bc wtf 😭😭😭 UR A KNIGHT ayo are u the general in duke 👀

https://uquiz.com/quiz/oNBCMs/pirate-knight-cowboy-or-vampire-coded?ref=trending_quiz_bar

im a pirate im actually buddies w jack sparrow

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three questions (he wished were never answered) — sim jaeyun. spider-man au. best friends to lovers. fluff and angst.

synposis. jake has always been grateful for a lot of things: his grandparents, the opportunity that he has as Spider-man, and so much more he hasn’t fully figured out yet, but he was beginning to or in which three questions are asked and answered (4.2k words)

warnings. major character death

notes. this is my entry for the power of love collab event! the theme is superpowers and i just had to go for spider-jake hehe please enjoy ^_^ also the questions are taken from lang leav(?)’s poem im not a super big fan but i kind of got inspiration for the flow of the fic from the poem

What was it like to love them? Asked Gratitude.

You’re not sure what time of the afternoon it is when you stumble around the side of a hidden building, just a little dizzy – at least, just the right amount of dizzy to still recognize the familiar face that’s grinning in front of you right now.

“You okay?”

The question usually laced with concern is said in complete and genuine laughter as Jake gauges your reaction. 15 minutes ago, he had managed to convince you to join him in a swinging-around-Seoul-City escapade, and you (who didn’t know any better), agreed to your best friend’s proposal.

Of course, only now that you’re back on the ground did you know that you probably should not have agreed to him. But how can one say “no” when it comes to Jake Sim? Your best friend and the boy who has looked out for you since you were kids.

Jake Sim was the person who continuously taught you and showed you that there is love in the most mundane, everyday things that no one really thinks about – whether that’s him carrying your backpack for you, or in the shared quiet moments of walking home together, in the small talks and worrying about your future, in comforting each other over the pressures of school, in asking if you’ve eaten already, or why you can’t sleep. There is love in Jake Sim.

“Hello? Earth to _____?”

“Uh, yeah, yeah I’m okay. Sorry.” You grin sheepishly with your untamed hair and short breaths. “It’s just never…. never doing that again, I’m never doing that again.”

“Okay, good.” Jake had managed to let out amidst his little giggles, keeping a hand on the small of your back in case you were still feeling a little dizzy. “Well, grandpa bought pizza and I think grandma’s in the apartment too. Do you uh, maybe wanna come over?”

“Okay, yeah, sure. Let’s just, maybe walk? And maybe you should uh, get changed out of that.” A quiet chuckle escapes your lips, patting your hair down but coming out empty-handed as it refuses to tame.

Jake tries his turn at gently trying to smoothen your hair, but with a swift gesture of his hand, he ruffles it to mess with you even more which earns him a slap in the hand and a turn of your head when he tries to kiss you on the cheek in apology.

After successfully changing and hiding his suit, the pair of you trekked towards his apartment, stomachs rumbling, pizza in mind. It was a silent walk, noise reserved for the passersby or the cars on the street, and maybe Jake’s working mind - maybe it had something to do with how close you two were walking beside each other. Similarly, Jake thought that there was love in watching ou fondly over from a distance. But sometimes, he wonders what love would be like if it had a chance to step out of the shadows.

Biting his lip, he takes quick glances at your hand, looking straight ahead from time to time as a front before looking back at your brushing hands.

Contrary to popular belief, Jake wasn’t as forward as people put him out to be. While some would think he’s quick to a decision, a million different knobs have to turn through his head before actually being able to do something.

And choosing to bite the bullet, he shyly takes your hand in his, looking back to see if you were okay with that, and you didn’t seem too fazed with the idea (aside from the creeping blush threatening to spill on your cheeks). Then again you did go full-on swinging around Seoul, so holding hands was basically nothing compared to that.

Well, nothing for anyone else.

But you and Jake weren’t like anyone else. The two of you have been yearning from a safe distance - and he thinks he’s never seen anything quite like you. His nights are reserved for catching glimpses of you in his mind. Endless hours thinking of every flitting moment with you, every smile, every gentle glance, every soft look.

“Oh my god.” Jake chuckles next to you upon seeing his grandparents dancing to a record playing. You made no remark, eyes glued towards his grandparents who had the brightest smiles on their faces. You didn’t need to look at your reflection to realize you had a small smile playing on your lips. (You didn’t notice how Jake was grinning softly at the sight of your smile, finding happiness in your own smile).

It was something so beautiful to you, the concept of still being so in love even after time had taken so much from the two of you. And unbeknownst to you, Jake thought the same thing. Jake thinks there’s something so beautiful about being in love in general. Not that he has thought about it a lot, but ever since the pair of you turned sixteen, he couldn’t help but start pondering on the word and its meaning - especially when suddenly, he could no longer describe the way you made him feel. A strange yet comfortable uneasiness overwhelmed him every time you were closer than usual, and he thinks it’s funny how he wants to feel it more and more every day.

He didn’t realize he was in love with you at first.

Sure, the thought of you filled Jake with a warmth he’d never been introduced to, but he didn’t think it was love. And somehow, everyone knew except for the pair of you.

His grandparents knew from the way Jake seemed to always visibly relax on you walk into their apartment. Sunghoon knew every time he caught Jake sharing a soft smile towards you from across the crowd everytime he had a competition. Jay knew when he noticed Jake wearing green shirts more because it was your favorite color.

It started from the silent gestures that made it obvious for someone like Jake, because he was usually on his guard for the rest of the world, but with you, the armor just seemed to fall. You were his achilles heel.

The day he realized it was just another ordinary day - he was poking fun at Jay and Sunghoon when he heard you laugh. The same laughter he seeks, and he’s staring at you and he’s thinking – ‘you are as beautiful as the day I met you’.

And suddenly, an overwhelming sensation washes through him and he almost wants to vomit, but he holds in it to buy him some time to bid you farewell as you exit his club room, and it was only when he felt a sharp pain sting through his heart once you left the four restraints of the room that it finally dawned on him; he was in love.

And he’d do whatever it takes, whatever is necessary, to deserve you.

“You should join us!” His grandma urged, a knowing look on her face which successfully snapped him out of his thoughts. Jake’s grandparents were very well aware of his feelings for you, and they’ve tried to take every opportunity they got into setting their grandson up with the person he was very much in love with.

“Us? Me and Jake?” You shook your head and crossed your arms over your chest, quick to shoot her down with a soft smile. “Oh well, I don’t dance–”

“Everyone knows how to dance, come on Jake, show her!” His grandma insisted.

And just as quick as you were to shoot down the invitation, Jake was grabbing your hand and pulling you all the way into the living room. You’re pulling yourself back, and he’s laughing so hard at how you were trying to avoid dancing in front of his grandparents. It was especially more amusing when you retreated almost immediately as soon as his grandparents themselves went over to position your hands on Jake’s shoulders.

“That’s it!” His grandpa was smiling so wide that you couldn’t bring yourself to deny them the sight of his grandson dancing with someone any further. If you had, his grandma had planned on pulling out the “we’re old and almost dying” card.

There was laughter in his voice when you awkwardly just stood there, arms sliding down his arms before he told you to put them back where his grandma had placed them on. “That’s right, on his shoulders.” Jake’s grandmother smiles as she watches you place your arms back on his shoulders – she cannot fathom how you and her grandson aren’t together.

“______, darling, I’m gonna need you to explain something to me.” His grandma starts, still in the middle of the living room. You nod, smiling at them politely and encouraging her to continue speaking. “How come you and Jake aren’t together yet? I just, I don’t understand.”

Her comment leaves you in a coughing fit, voice cracking a little as your eyes widen. “I’m sorry, I don’t think I… It’s - me and Jake are, you know, best friends.”

“No, see that’s what he would tell me whenever I asked him too. Alright, get back to dancing kids, but when you two start dating, don’t say I didn’t tell you so.” She smiles mischeviously at the two of you before turning the record’s volume up.

You and Jake try to ignore the obvious tension building – and it’s successful when he playfully scolds you for just swaying side to side. You reply almost defensively, eyes trained on your feet with your hands awkwardly resting on his shoulders.

“God, you have so much to learn. You really aren’t a dancer, huh?” Jake chuckles before taking your chin with his thumb and index finger, lifting it gently so you were looking at him, immediately falling silent upon meeting your eyes. The counting of steps he was doing earlier was completely forgotten.

And he might’ve gotten distracted from the way you were looking at him because he most definitely stepped on your foot. “Looks like I’m not the one with little coordination.” You grin truimphantly, sticking your tongue out at him.

“I stepped on your foot one time! Compared to the gazillion times you stepped on mine, I’m pretty sure it’s all bruised and sore now.” He joked back at you.

“Really?” You asked, eyebrows shooting up with a playful smirk on your lips. “Let me step on it again and see for myself.”

“No, no! Come on, I’m trying to teach you to dance.” And Jake knew you didn’t like dancing, and his heart warmed at the thought that you’re dancing right now because he asked you to (his grandpa practically forced you, but Jake’s brushing that over).

“Alright, let me try again.” You adjusted yourself, jumping up and down and shaking your hands before resting them back on his shoulders. He seemed to be lost in thought so you reached out to grab his hands and put them around your waist. “Come on, idiot.”

“Okay.” Jake let out a quiet whisper, gulping out loud. He always knew he liked you, but at this moment, he was starting to think it was something more, and that thought scared him, not because he was scared of loving you, but because he was scared of losing you.

Time feels so fast.

Jake continued to try to joke so he could quiet down his head.

Jake has always been grateful for a lot of things: his grandparents, the opportunity that he has as Spider-man, and so much more he hasn’t fully figured out yet, but he was beginning to, starting with the clumsy person in front of him who kept stepping on his foot.

It was like being exhumed. And brought to life in a flash of brilliance.

What was it like to be loved in return? Asked Joy.

Jake didn’t have much luck in the field of love. There was always this voice nagging at the back of his head from the “bad romantic side” of his head that he knew all too well.

When Kyeong said ‘yes’ to his invitation for Homecoming, he thought that was it. He thought she’d be all he’ll ever know, but then Vulture happened, and Kyeong had to leave.

It was a difficult time for Jake, ditching Kyeong during Homecoming and basically fighting off her dad, and it took him a long time to get over Kyeong moving. He put so much blame on himself, and he thought he was never going to be able to leave that negative headspace.

Until you happened.

It was during the first months of you two finally indulging in a relationship that Jake entertained the idea of you possibly feeling the same way as him. He had a small inkling when you danced together in his grandparents’ living room, but he brushed over the idea because he was afraid of losing you. Sure, he felt really shitty when his first relationship didn’t go well, but the thought of losing you (his best friend and his entire world) brought upon a different type of pain Jake never wanted to experience.

Still, the little things you did always made his heart rile up. From the way you smile to the way you curl your lips when you concentrate enough - it always made his stomach flip and he thinks you’re the most beautiful person he has ever seen. He didn’t want to waste the opportunity of being with the person he loved, so after a long debate with himself, he asked you out.

Jake reasoned he shouldn’t be thinking about the inevitable pain, because if life continued to be kind to him, maybe it wouldn’t have to reach that point. Besides, he was starting to get used to the way your hand felt in his. And he likes the way he could be himself around you, and how you always seemed to know what was going on inside of his head.

So, for once, he ignores the “bad romantic” side of his brain and indulges in romance with you because Jake is truly, madly, deeply in love with you. And he’s sure he will still be years from now. Not that that’s something he would tell you.

It would always just pass over, and he was never brave enough to utter those three words, afraid that it was all too soon and definitely afraid that he’d scare you off. You were never one for PDA, usually reserved and happy with the little circle of friends and family you had, and Jake didn’t wanna mess anything up.

That was until that one fateful Sunday night. Jake had taken you to the rooftop of an apartment for your first year anniversary (the view there’s amazing, he claimed. Perks of being Spider-man, you thought.)

He tried to plan it all out, really tried to make everything perfect for you, but right when he was about to get the food he had ordered, a bank robbery had ensued, and so takeout was long forgotten and he ended up just buying pizza after a very long night of crime fighting.

However, Jake still made time for you. He always made time for you (despite time constantly chasing the two of you).

“Did you know that the moon is actually lemon-shaped?” You spoke as you chewed on your 3rd slice of pizza.

“Really?”

“Yeah, despite how round it looks, it’s actually lemon-shaped. It has flattened poles and bulges on both the near and far side around its equator, hence the lemon shape.”

Jake munched down on his slice, smiling at your cross-legged figure as you looked out towards the moon, trying to point it out to Jake.

“Come on, tell me something.” You urged him, trying to get out some hidden facts he knew about that you didn’t. Jake was smart, and in the time of that you knew him, he always had something different to say wherever you went.

By now, you’re convinced you’re about to outrank Einstein from the way Jake told you so much about the world you didn’t know before.

“Uh hold on, let me think…. how about how Neptune has only completed one orbit around the sun since its discovery?”

“Hm?” You urged him to continue.

“It takes a whole 165 years for Neptune to complete one full orbit around the sun right? And since it was discovered in 1846, I’m pretty sure, it’s technically only completed one full orbit. And what’s even crazier is how Pluto probably hasn’t even completed one yet.”

He was blabbering about Neptune and Pluto and the number of days it took to complete an orbit, and then about how Pluto’s technically no longer a planet, and once he finished, you had just naturally fallen silent.

Time always seemed to move slower whenever Jake was talking - especially something he was so fond of, it was almost overwhelming the beauty that rises from him.

When you continue to stay silent, Jake immediately starts growing a bit more worried, had he been too talkative? Had he taken too much pizza? Did you want more? But that dissipated the moment he saw the way you were looking at him. It was the same look he always gave you.

“I love you, Jake.”

It was a whole new experience hearing you say it first. He hadn’t felt this whole in a long time, and Jake knew you were always unsure when it came to feelings and being close to people, so hearing those words come from you awakened a whole different part of him, a dangerous spark that made him so excited.

Unbeknownst to him, you had actually known for quite some time that Jake loved you, and you weren’t fully prepared to relay those words back at him for the first few months of their relationship. But hearing him talk about the things you both loved with so much passion, seeing him look at you with adoration, knowing he’d do anything to make you happy, made you realize just how much Jake truly meant to you.

“I really, really do, and it scares me because I don’t want to lose you.”

Hearing you share the same sentiments he thought of that one day you were dancing together was so special to him, to know that you returned his feelings, it was a different kind of happiness, one he wanted to know and have for the rest of his life - with you.

“I love you too, so so much _____.”

And it’s in this moment that Jake understands what it truly means to be in love with someone so deeply. Every moment that he makes with you in his arms makes him feel as if he has never truly been alive before this moment.

It was like being seen after perpetual darkness. To be heard after a lifetime of silence.

What was it like to lose them? Asked Sorrow.

Jake knew he’d be putting you at risk by being with you, especially with him being Spider-man, but he took extra precautions and measures to keep you safe.

He’d always double-check your building during his usual patrolling, and he’d always make sure that you would never be in harm’s reach. Jake was fairly prepared when it came to protecting you, at least that’s what he thought.

Nothing could ever prepare Jake for what he saw next.

It all happened in a flash. Getting as many people out, the building crashing down, the rubbles, and that one scream, a voice Jake could distinguish anywhere, the voice that usually gave him comfort but was currently the reason why his heart was plummeting down to his gut.

The decision between going after the villain he’d been tailing for months now and digging through the piles of rubble was the easiest he’s made his entire life.

You weren’t supposed to be there, you were supposed to be in the safety of your own home, how’d you get there?

His desperation is seeping through him - he didn’t want to lose you.

The running towards the collapsed building came in a slow, untimely motion. All Jake could hear was the beat of his own heart, your name escaping his lips in frantic screams. All rational thinking flew out of his head as he dug aimlessly through the debris. He kept digging and digging, distant sirens echoing in the background but still, all he could hear was the pounding of his heart.

His hands were bleeding, he was badly beaten up, but he kept digging. Whimpering your name whilst trying to grasp for air as tears kept escaping his eyes.

“______!” The scream that left his mouth was the most heart-wrenching thing anyone has ever heard. Jake’s growing more and more frustrated, tears clouding his vision as he pushed through the debris.

His head snapped in the direction of the quietest whimper, coming out as a helpless call. Tearing his mask off, he whipped his head around to try and hear better, trying to grasp onto the hope he was refusing to let go.

“_______!” He scrambled towards the faintest cry he heard, pushing away the rubble and the concrete that was holding you down.

That was when reality dawned on him, this could be it. It only pushed him to move quicker, to remove the concrete faster. He didn’t care that his body yelled out in desperate exhaustion, that wasn’t a choice.

Just the slightest sight of you and Jake comes to a full realization of the severity of the situation. The tears continued to spill down his bloodied face, picking you up as if you would break at any moment. And it scared him knowing that it could possibly be true. You really could break, your future could be taken away from you in these minutes, and he could really lose you right here right now.

“_______…” Jake’s voice was weak, limping towards any space his tired and frantic brain considered safe, dropping down to check on you even more.

There were bruises everywhere, and there was too much blood.

Jake shook his head, caressing your face and looking around for any sign of an ambulance, but there wasn’t any. The thumping of his heart grows louder when your hand finds the material of Jake’s suit in the weakest grip.

“I don’t want to lose you, please don’t go. You’re all I’ve ever known, you’re the only thing that makes sense to me, please I can’t lose you.” Jake was pleading, begging for something you couldn’t give him.

“You’re gonna be okay, none of this is your fault.” your voice was barely a choke, just loud enough to be heard, trying to move your hand to hold onto Jake’s face, a melancholic smile plastered on your own, barely noticeable but it was still there.

“We’re gonna have more time, just hold on, I’m sure the ambulance is coming, just hold on please, so stop it, stop saying those things like you’re going to die, you’re not, you can’t.”

You just smiled at him, a weak wistful smile, hand falling down to grip his hand. Your fingers tightened around his one last time, words that no longer could be said filled the silence of your thoughts. Life was supposedly going to flash before your eyes before your untimely death, but all you could think about was what your future could’ve been together.

“_______... just hang on. It’s okay, you’re okay. I don’t wanna lose anyone anymore, especially not you, God please, not her.” Jake was trying to stop the bleeding, looking at you with so much desperation in his eyes, a silent prayer to a God he didn’t even know was real or not.

“I love you, Jake.”

He turns to look at the sky, pleading. And then there was silence, and Jake knew, Jake knew but he refused to believe.

When you’re in love with someone, you spend days wondering why time won’t stop. You wonder why seasons pass by so quickly, and how one day you two are dancing together in his living room, and the next you’re celebrating an anniversary together.

But when love is taken away from you, time seems to stop. Every second feels like forever, and you no longer clip onto a hope that you will still be able to hold your lover the way you used to be able to. It will only just be you. It’s no longer you and someone else - just you. The realization hits Jake harder than it should’ve and he cries over the love he was most afraid to lose.

All anyone could see was a stranger screaming a name, holding onto the lifeless body of the person he dreamt of building a future with. Two teenagers who could’ve been so much more if they had more time. A final “I love you”. A final silent goodbye.

It was like hearing every goodbye ever said to me – said all at once.

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