#Im more frustrated that they know im going to forgive them so they don't apologize to me because I'll forget about all of this like usual :

[oneshortlove]

It's a nonverbal day for me I guess :)

#Vent? Yeah #I like how im told things last minute when I should be the first or second to know #And then when it is in fact the last minute I'm getting yelled at to clean up areas that are in fact not my room :) #When i say i dont wanna im called lazy #When someone else who shall not be named says they don't want to they're defended because “they do everything” #No they help deep clean once a fucking week #And help with dinner #Last i checked it was in fact me #But that doesnt matter at this point #Now they get to enjoy their day and play games while I have to sit in my room so I don't cry in front of anyone and get called a crybaby :) #Im more frustrated that they know im going to forgive them so they don't apologize to me because I'll forget about all of this like usual :

[thelov3lybookworm]

Remember me? (Part 11)

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10

Summary: Under the Mountain, Y/n met the High Lord of the Night Court, Rhysand. She was scared of him, but soon she found out that he wasn't who he pretended to be. Despite her efforts at not falling in love with him, she fails. It's not that bad as he loves her back.

But now he's gone, and she's left alone with nothing.

Except for a very adorable reminder of him.

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Tw: secret pregnancy, none more that I can think of, so let me know if I need to add anything.

A/n: honestly dedicated to @thehighladywrites because we love High Lord Eris in this house 😏😌🫶🏻

also, i feel like this timeline ca be confusing because i honestly dont know what im doing lol so just so you all are aware, this part is supposed to be based on the time just before feyre has fled the night court 😉

(Not edited as i am going to slee, sorry! ignore any mistakes ❣️)

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The curtains were parted to let in a gentle autumn breeze which toyed with the ends of Y/n's hair, and she huffed gently when she felt someone watching her.

She finished adjusting the covers around the sleeping Fin, taking her time to smooth out the creases before she straightened, turning to find Eris leaning against the doorway, his arms folded across his chest, his eyes trained on the softly snoring boy on the bed.

And he was shirtless.

Y/n told herself it was not that big of a deal, that she had seen plenty of men naked, but seeing that pale expanse of skin covering those hard earned muscles, something shifted in her belly.

He glanced at her, blinking when she stepped forward. He straightened when Y/n continued walking forward, and his arms fell at his sides when she passed by him.

Her brows furrowed as she glanced at him and found a blush covering his face.

"Eris? Are you alright? Is your magic malfunctioning or something?"

He shook his head, still standing in the doorway. She paused to turn an watch him.

"You look a little red, you know. Are you sure you don't have a fever?"

He shook his head again, glancing back at Fin once before he inclined his head towards the corridor leading away from the boy's room.

To say Y/n was concerned and confused would be an understatement.

Eris closed the door to Fin's room gently, then grasped Y/n's hand, hesitantly, tugging her towards a large window nearby.

Y/n whirled towards him the moment he stopped walking. "Eris? What is going on?"

He didn't say anything, simply pulled out a piece of paper from the pocket of the pants that hung dangerously low on his hips.

Y/n's frustrations finally got the best of her. "Are we playing charades, Eris? Or did someone cut off your tongue?"

He sighed. "I did not want to be the bearer of bad news, but I guess I still am as I brought you the letter. It's from Feyre. Forgive me for reading it, but it was open when it fell onto my desk."

Y/n's heart slowed down in fright. It... It could also be something good, right? It didn't have to be about her leaving Rhysand. It could be about him getting better and apologizing...

Y/n knew how stupid it was, really, to hope for that.

And even if that hope had really come true, Feyre was responsible enough to not send the letter practically in the middle of the night.

Y/n opened the folded piece of paper, her eyes moving frantically as she read it and searched for words that would soothe her worries.

It was all in vain.

Y/n, I can't live here anymore. I will soon be winnowing to autumn with Nyx. I hope you don't mind.

Y/n suppressed the rage that reared its head in her chest, taking a deep breath as her eyes rose to meet Eris's.

His eyes held the same sadness she felt and was sure were displayed in her own eyes.

"I have weakened the wards enough for both of them to come through without any harm coming to them, and have already ordered the servants to prepare quarters for them to live in. You don't have to worry about much."

Grateful, Y/n moved without realising what she was doing. One moment, she was standing facing him, the cool autumn air curling around her, and the next, she was surrounded by warmth, her face buried in his shoulder, her arms thrown around her neck. He stiffened, but moments later, he relaxed with a heavy sigh, wrapping his arms around her waist.

"Thank you." She mumbled onto his welcoming skin, tightening her hold, knowing she shouldn't.

She felt him nod, and she pulled back to glance at him.

If there was any chance Y/n had been mistaken before about him blushing, she wasn't now.

He definitely was blushing, as red as the colour of the leaves in the court he ruled.

"It- it's nothing."

Despite the heavy news that they had received, Y/n felt her lips curl. "Are you blushing, Vanserra?"

He huffed. "Of course not. Why would I blush?"

"You know," Y/n began as se stopped leaning on him and straightened, though his hands tightened on her waist, as if unwilling to let go. Y/n chose to remain silent on the matter. "It is not nice to lie. Did your mother not teach you?"

He leaned his head closer, a smirk forming on his lips. "She might have, but she also focused more on how to treat the female you love the right way. Must've forgotten about the lying lessons."

Y/n blinked, her face going hot. But before she could say anything, she felt Eris stiffen under her arms. He pulled away instantly, tearing his hands through his hair.

"She's here."

Y/n nodded, her hands falling heavily to her sides.

"Let's go welcome them."

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Part 12

Remember me Taglist: @holb32 @awoa1 @cleverzonkwombatsludge @luvmoo @we-were-beautiful @eerievixen @zoe2 @fussel9913 @j-pendragonx @thesnugglingduck @jesssicapaniagua @devilsnightz @esposadomd @littleffawn @mandowhatnow @bubybubsters @eos-princess @nightless @bigcreatorwombatdreamer @princesslolaasworld @asemkta @cat-or-kitten @txzii @bunnyredgirl @theofficialmadman @leeknows-wife @aria-chikage @amygdtjhddzvb @azriels-mate123 @inky-clover @kemillyfreitas @12358 @justdreamstars @cuethedepession @princessvesta @fides25 @nocasdatsgay @acourtofbatboydreams @stained-glass-eyes0708 @glaciuswduo @wallacewillow0773638 @cassie6392 @quackitysdrugdealer @txzii @anuttellaa @coisas-da-dani @hnyclover @sassyslytherinshai @historygeekqueen

General Taglist: @bubybubsters @eos-princess @nightless @harrystylesfan2686 @cassie6392

Eris taglist: @kennedy-brooke @hnyclover @minnieoo @sidrapotter

#eris x reader #eris vanserra x reader #eris vanserra #eris acotar #a court of thorns and roses #acotar fandom #acotar fanfic #acotar fluff #acotar series #acotar writing #acomaf #a court of mist and fury #acowar #acosf #a court of silver flames #acotar #mating bond #sarah j maas #acotar headcanon #pro eris vanserra

[fiberglassandflowers]

Tell them about Colin's lore

ohhhhh....... colin...........

ok so colin used to be in a band called the replacements [they might be giants reference?!?!?!?] with a few other people, one of which being their like bestest friend ever. they're like borderline codependent friends, or at least colin is dependent on them [they don't have a name yet im gonna call them X].

i don't know all of what happens yet but the two of them have a falling out, which is mostly colin's fault. there were enough people in their band so that it could have kept going, but their conflict rocked the boat enough that they just stopped practicing and performing. plus, colin and X were kind of the glue that held it together in the first place, none of the other members were like as involved as the two of them were if that makes sense.

[also the rest of the members were kind of mad at colin as well, since as i mentioned it was mostly their fault]

so pretty much X is out there living their best life (kind of), but colin is still all guilt-ridden about the whole thing and still really really thinks if she tries hard enough things can go back to how they normally were, or at least that the two of them can get back on good terms again. but the thing is she waited for a bit too long and that period of not talking and ignoring just pushed X fully to not want to forgive them.

so colin reaches out and is all like "hey im sorry blah blah blah do you wanna be friends again 🥺" but it doesn't really help that, while she did mean every word of the apology, he's just really really bad at it to the point it seems insincere. idk i hope that makes sense but you might probably know the kind of apology im talking about. it also doesn't help that the apology wasn't even in person and it was literally just a note that they put in X's mailbox.

anyways even though colin is still so so sad about everything he still hasn't taken the initiative to follow back up with X so she's just kind of wallowing in that self-pity. she's the kind of person you would get kind of frustrated with giving advice to because they never ever take it and keep digging themself into that hole

i feel like there's more im forgetting but that's the basic gist :thumbs up:

#colin [lastname] #asks #explanations

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

aster episode 8 made me. so mad. it was a little aggravating. like im gonna keep watching but it made my hopes kinda dwindle a little bit.

i rlly hated the like. generic story beats if you know what i mean?? like.

vash gets saved by humans who magically know to check for signs of him being a plant despite also them not knowing ahead of time that he is an independant, and also they dont trust him at first until he can do something for them, then suddenly he is a real person!

and then suddenly conflict emerges when they hear a very small partial conversation and then make assumptions despite vash showing no evidence over the years they knew him to this point of him being evil! and then suddenly they find that one piece of paper where he apologizes for his guilt and promises to atone and suddenly they believe hes good again!

and also what they did to knives.... i will never forgive this. why are they kinda building him up to have been evil from the start like come on please dont i really like knives arc and his character in general. dont do this to my evil guy....

it fills me with fear of how stampede is gonna go...

i think with knives it could still go either way, bc they aren't positioning him as like, an evil kid (before the fall at least), i don't necessarily like that he's more "inhuman" it kind of makes it seem like it's more natural he'd distrust humanity or whatever, but it's not like knives doesn't have a reason to be distrustful of humans if luida & brad are just like. locking vash up solely because he's not human. idk if the show will actually bring that up, though, because it is very much people do things for the sake of plot instead of their actions moving the plot if that makes sense

the generic storybeats are getting like. really blatant. i remember seeing a few people complain about rosa in episode 2, for flipflopping so fast on vash & everyone. first she loves him, then she's after his bounty, then suddenly they're all enjoying a beer together. it'd not as bad, but it does kind of feel like they only go back to the bar at the end so they can get to a "day is saved, lets party" end scene. like, the plant is still dying. it's natural to celebrate getting it back, but nothing actually gets solved for them.

none of luida's and brads reactions make sense to me though like luida's like "i've heard of independent plants" except... all information on them is classified??? so how would she??? even know?? it just feels like the show thinks we need this information quickly but a lot of this would probably be solved if they'd just... given us another episode for backstory. like it's really hard to not see it all as contrived, especially when brad's yelling about how vash is OBVIOUSLY working against them after they'd spent 5 years together, only to immediately do a 180 and ask Luida to apologize to vash for him. like, they could have just had him be more hurt than angry (they'd known each other for five years, he vouched for vash, & yet he was still keeping such a big secret, that's definitely a reasonable time to have complicated emotions) but instead they just went the most basic route possible. it's not a story, everyone's just getting herded around into the plot rolls they need to fulfill. it's frustrating!

#but of course i am always here to listen to u complain <3 #i want tristamp to be good so soooo bad but i think it just. doesnt have enough time to be #like maybe the season'll end w/o any explaination on knives motivation jsut bc they dont have the time to go into it all #though i do think they have to explain the access code stuff at least a little #asks #trigun

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

tw family trash maybe verbal abuse mention?

i guess i want a little advice or clarity. is it wrong that things are actually going ok in my family right now, like relationships are pretty quiet and the assholes of the family are being mostly quiet and its not bad at all and i still don't like it at all? like i'm still upset no one's apologized for anything that's happened (like ppl excessively bullying me, or yelling at me until im in tears, or picking on my sister even when she's clearly saying her feelings are being hurt and shit) and that no one's actually changed, they're just being kinda quiet rn.

i know i should be grateful bc things are good right now, in the grand scheme of things. things aren't as stressful as usual. but we go through cycles like this over the years, where things are "ok" and then everything goes bad and i know it's not gonna last so i can't even ENJOY it bc i'm still pissed over what happened before (mostly bc i'm used to it happening to me but it went so far this time and i'm not used to my little sibling being brought into it! and im so pissed she was! and i don't think ill even forgive them for picking on her.) and i'm tense bc i know shit is still going to happen once the "ok" cycle ends. is that wrong? that im still angry, that i don't like it even though its "ok" rn, that im not letting it go? like, it's not like i'm getting physically hurt or something, it's just, picking and bullying and like. yelling. not hitting or something. but it still sucks and i just can't get it out of my head.

luci

Hi Luci,

It makes perfect sense to be frustrated and tense when you start to recognize the cycle of abuse, and knowing that good moments will happen right before bad moments. It sounds like there's a temporary calm, but you're still carrying the weight of past experiences and unresolved issues.

You mentioned that no one has apologized for the past incidents of bullying, yelling, and mistreatment, and that no real changes have taken place. It's understandable to feel upset and frustrated when there's no accountability or genuine effort to address and rectify the hurtful behavior. Just because things are quieter at the moment doesn't erase the impact of those negative experiences or the valid emotions associated with them.

The fact that you're anticipating the cycle of things going bad again shows that you have a realistic understanding of the patterns within your family dynamics. It's not wrong to be on guard or to have reservations about fully embracing the temporary calm. Your experiences have shaped your perspective, and it's natural to be cautious given the history of recurring issues.

I think it's important to remember that comparing yourself to others you feel have gone through worse doesn't help you process or heal from your own experiences. Additionally, verbal and emotional abuse can be just as damaging if not more so than physical abuse. Even though emotional abuse doesn't necessarily leave a physical mark, it still matters and can still be severe.

Please know that it's okay to hold onto your emotions and not let go until there is genuine change and resolution. I hope I could help and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw abuse #tw emotional abuse #luci

[ihateeverything101]

i'm not upset with you, just going through a lot. i talked to Him about how i'm not happy or fufilled and He apologized and has been better since the talk but idk i don't think this life is for me. i don't like how He acts sometimes towards our other partners, like Katie. also i don't have any privacy and they don't have many boundaries. i feel more comfortable with no boundaries with Him, like Him coming in while i'm showering to grab something quickly or messing with my stuff. the other day Katie and him fucked while i was in the shower doing my morning things to get ready for work, honestly i don't care they fucked but then Katie came into the bathroom to clean up afterwards. i don't expect her to go to the other bathroom down the hall but she didn't knock, we haven't said: if i'm in the shower you can come in. like it's not that big of a deal but it's aggravting. her and my relationship is more that of acquaintance, it can grow to be more but like. ugh. not this way. not doing things than saying, oh i hope that's ok!! if you're not sure you should ask before doing the action. i HATE the asking for forgiveness instead of permission.

also me and Katie were at the grocery store yesterday and she was like oh do you want to get new loofahs? and i was like yeah!! and she was like blah blah blah yeah i've been using yours. that's not a big deal but come on. you never asked and i didn't tell you, you could use it!!

i work remotely on Saturdays and my work space is in His chill space. that is frustrating because i cant focus on work and sometimes when i'm on calls they'll keep talking and doing shit, i know it's frustrating on us all to share the space but come on. i'm literally at work, can you not suck His dick or just be flirting the whole time. it's so distracting and sometimes i can hear the customer even with the volume all the way up.

idk i'm glad He wants to fix things and work on things but i feel like it's too little too late, i don't really like Katie and want my own space which isn't plausible now and probably won't be anytime soon. i'm just in a tough spot because i don't think i can support myself on my own, i might be able to but it would be tight with all the bills and my income. i would need to make more money. i have a couple of places i could move into, "friends" from the internet they're both in New Mexico. they say if i moved in there would be no expectation for sexual things. i believe them but also, i don't want to jump into another toxic situation. i like these "friends" but they have some negatives and i wish i could just move out with myself only. i don't want to live in an awkward environment or basically the same situation im in now. also i would have to quit my job here in CO and move to a new spot.

if i talked to my family they would tell me to move back home but i don't want to do that. i want to be in CO so bad. i even have a huge crush on this guy i work with currently, my ideal situation would be that i can live on my own in CO, start living my life and doing things how i want again, rediscovering myself. keep talking with work guy and see if that develops, i don't want to rush it i don't even know if he is in a relationship

[my-white-canvas]

Megamind is now ur friend and some *magic* about a happen

Warning: swearing

Okay just because she held you by the collar with a not - so - threatening threat doesn't mean you could just bury them. "Why?!"

"She was threatening you! What do you want me to do?! Just watch?!"

"I wanted to talk it out but you were a little too rash there! I know you just want to protect me but at least tell my what was so dangerous with her" but Teyvat just sighed in frustration and left the room and locking herself in the bathroom so you waited a couple hours for her to calm down and talk it out.

"Teyvat I'm sorry about earlier I didn't know your side of the story and completely disregarded it, I understand why you're upset so can we talk? Properly?" You pleaded from the other side of the door.

Teyvat came out soon after your apology "I too apologize for acting to rash and not giving you my reason but I'm afraid I still can't give you a reason because..." They paused from their words and you thought that you'll learn about it soon.

Another thought in your head pops up "what happened to megamind anyway?" That thought stuck to your head like super glue and you needed to pry it out so you had to apologize so you two don't get on bad terms.

The next day you packed a gift which was your old drug dealer phone as a compensation for the trouble your Mother made that day. You walked to the city and a couple meters before reaching the gates you were dragged by vines and into a rabbit hole back to your house and meeting a dissatisfied Sentient Teyvat looking down on you with a gaze that could kill of she wasn't holding back. "IM SORRY!! I DUNNO WHAT I DID BUT I'M SORRY!!" You pleaded with your life.

Then furious expression on Teyvat's face shifted to a less angry one "Just- don't go to the city for a few days" she went inside the house while you were dropped on the floor. You ran after her and asked "Can you at least give this to megam- I mean fancy lady?"

She annoyingly agreed and snatched the decorated gift from your hands"Fine, as long as you do as say from these next few days" she said in a stern and commanding voice and marched off she must be a lil' jealous.

While you were deciding to give Teyvat your ancient android phone or not she already left to deliver your gift to eight- head. Instead of asking from the guards she just escorted herself to the open windows in humongous dome head's balcony "knock knock, you have a present from a friend".

The archon of Fontaine was vigorously mapping out how to get to your house while keeping up with the jury was startled by the knocking from her window and when she looked through the transparent glass she might have lost 20 years of her life. She has asked scholars about a her since she looked familiar in some way only to find out she barged into an private territory of the sentient but found nothing about the person with the glass device.

She opened the doors blocking the way of the balcony and bedroom then fell to her knees and pleaded with the consciousness of Teyvat before her for forgiveness "I sincerely apologize for barging into your private territory, please forgive me" she pleaded without thinking what would really satisfy the apprised Teyvat.

But Teyvat wasn't having it, She only wanted to you to stay away from her not because of hatred but for your... "process" to finish. Nothing more, nothing less so she just handed over the parcel "It's from [name] she wanted to give it you, the one you interrogated for their "phone" then she disappeared leaving a small pile of petunias on the floor.

The wiper god slowly opened the box to find a "something" and a piece of paper thet read;

You wanted to know what a phone is so here, an old one I don't use anymore. It's not really like the one you saw but it was from a decade ago and I don't have anymore on me

Then a set of instructions from behind the note, she smiled from the least birthday of respectable words you wrote " *giggle* I wonder what else you have in store?"

You saw a silhouette of Teyvat outside while you were looking for socks some local foxes took "Hey Teyvat, where have you been? I wanted you give you something" but when she came closer she looked a little upset or more... jealous, probably because you gave a random person a phone and not her.

She passed right through you with a pout and went to the kitchen mumbling about how much she's done for you and and you gave her nothing (but attention and otherworld wisdom)

You entered the house but then your eyes started to hurt real bad so you closed them thinking they were just dry but when you opened them the pain increased 10x worse and dark sparkling ooze came out your eyes so you closed them shut to avoid the pain, you looked for Teyvat with closed eyes while calling her name. You were able to find her.. somewhere after bumping and stubbing your toes on everything (but mainly she came to you) "Teyvat?!! I need help!! My eyes hurt!! And there's something coming out!!!"

Cliffhanger cuz modules

Masterlist

#genshin #genshin impact #sagau #genshin impact sagau #genshin sagau #genshin oc #sentient teyvat #mommy teyvat #genshin teyvat #teyvat #hydro archon #archon

[roscgcld]

Im feeling Angsty tonight so I'mma drag you with me :D

TW: Abusive Ex, argument, gaslighting (?), angst shit, don't worry fluff(?) at the end ;) (Every relationship has to go through the pain of argument, it's a common thing and for me it's somewhat a sign that you two really love and care each other)

Imagine having an argument with Nanami, it started small but it became heated to the point where he accidentally yells at you and threw a glass at the floor shattering into pieces.

You let out a yelp and flinches while you cover your head with your arms as your tears are threatening to flow like a river. You we're slowly getting used to the warm feeling of having a significant other not the feeling of pain and guilt like your ex put you through, Nanami knew about your past, you opened up to him when you were starting to feel more comfortable with your relationship with him.

He came home stress, stressful than the other day, you wished you had discussed this in another time but you can't help it.

The realization hit him like a truck when he heard a faint 'Im sorry, I'll do anything just please don't hurt me again' leave your lips. He didn't mean to scare you, he didn't mean to bring those memories back, he was overall stressed with the curses that suddenly appeared, paperwork's and Gojo's stupid antics that he let out his frustration to you.

"Y/N..." He's voice came out soft, almost a whisper telling you to look, you couldn't as tears started to fall down your cheeks. He hated seeing you cry, especially if it was his fault. Guilt was so overwhelming it hurts his chest.

"I-im sorry Kento... It's my fault..." turning around not facing him as you choked on your words trying to sound like your laughing it off, but you knew better, no matter how hard you try to hide the pain, he will always see through your eyes.

"I-I shouldn't have talked to you about this right now, I knew you we're stressed out but somehow I d-did. It's not your fault-" you jolted feeling a pair of arms wrapping your body making you stop your sentence.

"I'm sorry Y/N, I shouldn't have yelled at you, I shouldn't have threw the glass, I shouldn't have taken out my frustration on you. I know a simple apology won't fix the fact I brought those memories back but I'll do anything just so you can forgive me"

You couldn't help but let out a small quiet sob as he let you turn around to hug you properly, minutes later you pulled away calming down the storm inside you.

"Want me to ready the bath for you?"

"will you join me?"

"are you sure?" He was hesitant to but seeing you nod makes him feel a lot less awkward.

The bath was quiet, but there was something comfortable with the silence. Maybe the fact that you just cried letting your emotions flow, or you felt comfortable and safe with Kento. You two didn't have to say anything, you two knew that you want to do. He knows you too well it's somewhat scary. Will he take advantage of it? Will he use it against me?

Those words always floats around your head making you feel so anxious but you knew Kento too. You knew he would never take advantage of you, you knew he would never hurt you because he would rather face the world than hurt you.

After the bath session, you both lay down to bed, both facing the wall. You couldn't help but want to have a glimpse of your boyfriend Beside you only to see his face facing you staring deep down to your e/c eyes.

"I'm sorry" you apologized.

"I should be saying that, not you" he protested as you shook your head. You reached out your hand making your way to his hair. He always love when you run through your fingers to his hair, it relaxes him as soon as you touch his hair, it also helps him fall asleep.

You can't help but kiss his forehead, it's a small thing but to him it's a big thing, "We can fix things, right?" You asked while Nanami gave you a genuine smile as he place his hand over your cheek.

"Of course love"

You nuzzle to his chest making you hear his heartbeat beating.

"Kento"

"hmm?"

"I love you"

"I love you more dear"

And so, everyday he never fails to give you different types of flowers, it was his way of saying sorry, you knew giving you a gift was his love language so you accepted it. Some of your favorite flower he bought, you kept it forever by drying and labeling them as you put it somewhere safe.

He found your dried flowers by accident when he was looking for something in the drawers. He couldn't help but smile at the thought of you keeping the flowers he brought.

HOLY SHIT IM BRAIN STORMING TODAY WOOOO!!! omg my heart broke when I wrote this but it makes me Happy if someone cried XDDD I'm actually going to start a jjk blog soon but idk how you do the "keep reading" thing you see when you read some post. I'm like starting to make the rules and shit.

WHY ISNT HE REAL ITS SO ILLEGAL!!! I have like 3 fanfic draft for Nanami in wattpad but I'm still writing an aot fic and I haven't updated it TT

I am more than happy if you want more Nanami or daydream!reader content! I stalk your account often since you makes me happy a lot :D (GOD I'VE COME CLEAN MY SINS)

Have a good day/evening!

- ☕

....it is too early for this-

NO - I mean yes because Nanami is sweet, BUT NO! NO! NOOOOO!

This was so sad at first before it became somewhat sweet at the end?

AND YES WHY IS HE NOT REAL? NANAMI NEEDS TO BE REAL T^T MY NEEDY ASS NEEDS A MAN LIKE THIS. And did I see that you're about to start a blog yourself 👀👀 gimme your url later lmaooo. I am not sure on mobile, but on computer when you enter in your drafts there is this tiny grey box with dotted lines inside? That's the 'read more' tab. Idk on mobile tho

i would always accept more daydreaming!reader and nanami content, my inbox is always open for you love! sending kithes!~

#roscgcld asks #☕.nonnie #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #nanami kento #kento nanami #nanami x reader #nanami kento x reader #kento nanami x reader #nanami x you #kento nanami x you #nanami kento x you #nanami supremacy #jjk nanami kento

[themadauthorshatter]

Do you guys know what could've been kind of interesting to see in SGE? More specifically, the first book? Tedros realizing he has some possible feelings for Agatha while still thinking he's in love with Sophie.

Think of it like this:

Tedros trying to be closer with Sophie, i.e. trying to talk about his life back in Camelot, any frustrations he's having in his classes or with his friends, or even just wanting to know more about HER, but Sophie only hugs his arm, rests her head on his shoulder, or simply holds his hand and tells him she loves him.

Upon seeing this, his mind and eyes drift to Agatha, who is doing something like getting some homework done early or practicing some magic. Maybe he sees Kiko and Agatha together and Kiko is complaining about accidentally dying her hair green and making it all spiky, so Agatha waves a glowimg finger and fixes it right up for her, explaining to Kiko, who wanted blonde hair, that she's beautiful with her dark hair and Tristan is an idiot if he doesn't see that; not a very "Agatha" line, but I imagine she'd be tired of seeing and hearing Kiko cry and is genuine in her words because Kiko's nice to her and a pretty decent friend.

Maybe a challenge happens where people from the opposite side partner with each other and Tedros OBVIOUSLY partners with Sophie.

Agatha, however, doesn't get a chamce to think before Hester and Anadil equally take a step forward-

AND HORT CRASHES INTO AGATHA INSTEAD-He wants to get Sophie back for using him, and Hester is not taking her away from him.

Even with a possible concussion, Agatha and Hort do well, the challenge being getting across a deep and raging river by walking across a log or something, I'm not good at making up challenges for fairytales.

Because she's in heels and doesn't want to ruin her makeup, Sophie crawls across the log rather than walks, which makes Tedros have to slow down and wait for her.

I should probably mention that this log is close to the water and is cracking beneath them, so THEY NEED TO GTFO the log.

Tedros knows this, but doesn't want to leave Sophie(both because they'll get points taking away for leaving their partner and he's still pretty sure he loves her).

Chekhov's gun fires. The log breaks and both Sophie and Tedros fall in and are swept away beneath the surface.

Agatha follows with most of the students and Yuba following.

Because she's a smart person, can swin, and doesn't care about her looks, unlike many of the other students, Agatha recruits Chaddick, because he's strong, and Anadil, with she has rats, which are CRAZY intelligent, and they find another dead tree or a vine or something to put over the river, thin enough for Sophie and Tedros to grab, but thick enough that it won't break. Anadil kicks her maguc into overdrive and grows her rats to be the size of pitbulls, and Chaddick and Agatha use them to get to Tedros and Sophie out of the river before the tree or vine snaps.

I'm sorry for making Anadil OP, but she's exhausted when her rats are back to their normal sizes, too tired to even stand up as she glares at Agatha and tells her, "That is the last time I'm helping you."

Tedros storms back to the Evers with Sophie trailing behind him, begging for him to listen as she apologizes.

Under water, she had flailed and held Tedros down as he tried to get above the surface, which almost made them both drown.

He doesn't talk to her at lunch, but does notice Chaddick awkwardly commending Agatha for her quick thinking. By awkward, I mean it's almost painful to watch him find the right words to thank this "witch" for helping to save his best friend.

Again, this is an awkward exchange and it takes a few minutes for Agath to understand Chaddick and not get offended.

Tedros thinks on this and considers all the "connection" moments he's had like the goblin challenge where he mistook Agatha for Sophie and when he picked Agatha's coffin.

Sophie notices him staring and asks if everything's alright and why he isn't paying attention to her; water on the brain.

He shrugs, smiles, and says it's nothing, which makes Sophie smile and go back to talkimg, Tedros inconspicuously watching Agatha cackle her giddy ass off when Beatrix accidentally falls in mud while trying to approach Tedros in glass slippers. Kiko laughs behind her hand, but is close to tears. Agatha does magic her clean, but Beatrix still pouts and gets a little mad, even if the squeal she did was nothing short of hilarious.

Trial By Tale happens, events and all, but Tedros doesn't instantly break up with Sophie. He keeps his distance instead.

One night, after he's won and hasn't spoken a word to Sophie or sat near her at lunch, eating in his room instead to avoid her and because he's still a little injured, he is awake and can't sleep, so he wanders the quiet school halls, watching snow fall and reminiscing about home and how his school year's been, maybe even having a made up conversation with his father about what's happened.

HOW COINCIDENTAL THAT AGATHA IS ALSO OUT OF HER ROOM AND LEANING AGAINST A LEDGE TO ALSO WATCH THE SNOW.

This is the conversation between them that follows:

(Agatha turns to look at him with annoyed eyes)"... Here to call me a witch again?"

"Well, as long as you don't punch me again, I won't."

(Narrows her eyes a little mire before turning back to the snow.) "Why are you out here?"

(Tedros leans against the wall facing her and tips his head back, watching the snow.) "Can't sleep. Hester's demon got me better than I thought." (Chuckle) "I still have a bruise on my side from the thing."

(Agatha gulps as she remembers how it broke into pieces and attacked him, but says nothing.)

"How about you? Does the witch have you doing her work for her again?"

(Agatha gasps, surprised by the jab to her friend and at how he figured it out. Tedros's face is mostly expressionless, though he does raise an eyebrow as if to say, 'Go 'head. Prove me wrong.' She relaxes again and shakes her head.) "My room doesn't have a good view of the trees. I bet it's snowing in Gavaldon, too. Harder than it is here, maybe."

"Gavaldon?"

"My village. Where Sophie and I came from. Our home."

(Tedros laughs) "I'm sorry, how long have you two been friends for?"

"Long enough. What about you? What brings the prince of Camelot out to watch the first snow of winter?"

(Tedros's smile drops as he returns his gaze to outside.) "Like I said. I couldn't sleep."

"Why are you REALLY out here?"

(Tedros is silent for a few seconds, biting his lip because he's obviously uncomfortable.) "... Your village. Gavaldon. Do you... miss it?"

(After another second of silence, Agatha responds.) "A little bit. We were better friends there, at least. And I miss my cat."

(Tedros humms quietly as he gives a slight nod, biting back a 'witch' comment.)

"I guess you're used to the attention. Being the prince and all."

(Tedros shrugs and scratches the back of his neck.) "Sort of. Not really. No one ever followed me around like Beatrix. Could you see a maid being on my tail like SHE does?"

(Agatha can't help but laugh, Tedros chucklong with her before his smile drops.)

"I don't know. I mean..." (He leans on the ledge.) "I like being with my mates and all, but... it gets annoying when there's always a couple of girls giggling at you behind the corner. I miss my room, too. And the library. And the court yard. And the garden. And the field."

(His voice breaks at that last one, but Agatha doesn't bring it up. Instead, it's her turn to talk about home.)

"I miss my mom. We didn't really get along, but she's my family, Reaper, too."

"You named your cat Reaper?"

"He took care of our rat and bird problem. You'd be surprised at how many blue jays come to a cemetery." (Agatha's smile drops.) "I miss that, too, the cemetery. It was quiet. And just reading fairytales in my room instead of studying to BE in one."

(Tedros nods at that, no joke or quip.) "It's all fun until you learn how dangerous it all really is." (He is silent for a second, gulping and running his hand through his hair.) "Thanks, by the way."

(Agatha turns to him, playing coy because she's not used to the Evers ACTUALLY being nice to her, save for Kiko.) "For what?"

"The Trial. Saving me. I don't think I'd be here, if you didn't."

(Agatha blushes and looks at her hands.) "No... No problem. I mean... Well... I guess that..."

(Tedros smiles and slips some hair behind her ear and kisses her hand.) "'You're welcome, Tedros. I hope you can repay me, somehow, Tedros.'"

(Agatha almost tells him to forgive Sophie, but instead says something else.) "Can you talk to Sophie? She's sorry about what happened and she really does love you."

(Tedros frowns.) "Love isn't pulling someone down with you when you're under water. And neither is leaving your teammate to fight alone."

"You said you wanted to repay me, this is how. Do you really want to be indebted to a witch?"

(Tedros reluctantly nods.) "Fine. I'll talk to her."

"Thank you."

(Agatha turns and walks back to her room, but Tedros only watches her leave, speaking when she's out of ear shot.) "I don't think you're a witch."

I feel like I could add more, but this will be enough for now.

I hope you guys enjoyed, sorry if this came off as fanfiction-y or any of the characters were a little OP, magic or otherwise. And like I said in my progress post, this is just what I would have done to have Tedros and Agatha fall in love, or start falling in love

Either way, I hope you enjoyed this

Incase you're interested, here's a link to part 2: https://themadauthorshatter.tumblr.com/post/642332442965983232/im-bored-im-continuing-with-that-tagatha

#school for good and evil #tedros #agatha #sophie #sge tedros #agatha of woods beyond #sophie of woods beyond #tedros of camelot #sge agatha #sge sophie

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The Helping Hand

This is a Repost from my Ao3 I wanted to bring it to Tumblr. I hope you like it Its currently 5 chapters I will be uploading the rest throughout the rest of the week.

Word Count: 3300 approx

Summary: Y/N Krast Illegitimate Daughter of Tony Stark. Product of an unwanted teen pregnancy. What would Howard Stark be capable of doing to assure his sons future? What will happen when Tony meets our Beautiful, young, genius, rich philanthropist.

Tw: Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Drug use, Drug addiction, Teen Pregnancy. (If there are any I missed please tell me.)

Ch.4

Chapter 5: Age of Ultron pt.2

Ch.6

"Y/N you can't keep coming in and not talking." Your therapist tells you quite frustrated. "I'm paying you aren't I, I'll do what I please with the time I pay for." You say finally making eye contact with her. She only sighs. "Y/N I find that often people ask for help in the most obvious yet concealed manner."

You turn away, she continues. "You said it yourself you're paying me… If you don't want me to ask these questions, walk out and stop paying me." You look back "I can't… because I feel like I might just explode at any point." She nods encouraging you to continue. 

"Recently I went through something that combined with all the other shit i've gone through… I can't cope. I don't know how." You wipe your eyes and continue. "I've never been stable, but i've always been okay with that. I've never lost anyone in a traumatic way." Your therapist lifts their head. "Who have you lost?"

"I never knew my parents so I didn't really lose them. I knew that Howard was going to pass and I got closure." She jumps in when she realizes you stopped talking. "And what makes this loss different?" You look at her with a tear rolling down your cheek. "The fact that it was my fault."

Three Weeks Ago 

Wanda speaks first "I read your mind and all I saw was destruction." He promptly asked her to check again. He then goes on to have some sort of existential crisis not knowing what he actually is. I didn't really start to listen until Clint mentioned where Nat was… Sokovia. You immediately got pale once you heard what Ultron was planning to do with Sokovia. "I need to make a call" you say mostly to yourself but Pietro heard you. 

No one noticed you stepped out of the room but him. "Who do you think you're calling?" You jump as he sped in front of you. "I need to warn my family they need to get out." Pietro only laughs "Forgive me but you don't seem like one to have family much less in Sokovia of all places. Why don't you just tell me the truth"

"Im aware you might not know me but I'm Y/N Krast… I run the practice I need to warn my friends.  They'll spread the word and start an evac." He sighs. "You need to tell the rest of the guys. It might not be the best move." You nod and walk back into the room there all in. Tony notices you and walks straight to you fearing the Maximoff kid did something to you. 

"Did he do anything kiddo because if he did I swear to…" you cut him off. "Im fine but I need to ask you something." He nods telling you to proceed. "Can I warn my friends back in Sokovia? They can help get the people out of there." Tony looks at you and nods. "I guess it can't hurt to take some precautions. Do it." You smile and walk out the room Dialing David immediately. 

"Y/N are you okay, it's like three in the morning." You're relieved to hear his voice. "Listen to me David, you need to get as many people as you can out of Sokovia. The people are in danger." Davud sighs "Are you having another melt down remember breathe. In and out…" 

"David this is not a game, you have to get as many people as you can out now… Tell Viv too she needs to get her family out. Do as I say David please the people will listen to you." David starts talking again, the panic rising in his voice. "Y/N what do you know… more importantly how do you know?" You raise your voice. "FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE DON'T QUESTION ME! Just do it." 

David, shocked by your reaction shifts his tone. "I'll do my best. I need to go." He hangs up not even giving you a chance to say goodbye. (This is what you'll end up regretting later.) 

"You truly care for these people… your family or friends." You look up and see the last person you expected. The witch is standing there in the doorway. "Yes, I do care, Wanda because believe it or not we're not all bad people." The comment came out more spiteful than you expected wincing at your own words. You're about to apologize when she beats you to it. "I'm sorry about earlier." She looks down picking at her hands. 

You sit down on the steps facing a window and signal for her to sit as well. She joins you reluctantly. "I'm not going to bite." You say. Drawing out a small laugh that made your heart flutter. "Did you see inside my head?" You ask. Her head tilts at your question, but ultimately she shakes her head. "Yeah it happens sometimes I can't control it." You nod. "For the record I dont think youre a bitch. Well I did in the moment…" she cuts you off laughing. "I believe the words you used were 'Crazy Bitch'." You chuckle. 

"We should get going…" You stand, helping her up and go to the team. “I contacted my friend David, and I texted my… other friend Viv. They’ve started evacuating people as we speak.” Tony nods and gives you an understanding look. “Now what's our plan to save Nat.” Steve goes on to explain his plan which consists of getting as many people as we could out then fighting Ultron. Once you arrived in Sokovia the streets were desolate. Not a soul in sight.

Pietro gazes in astonishment. “Your friends are good.” You nod relieved seeing that David and Viv did what you asked. “Well check if there are any people left behind…” Wanda cuts in. You weren't given the time to check for any last bystanders when she city starts shaking, and there are bots everywhere. You realize that Sokovia is flying. Tony then informs you of Ultrons plans. You all split up fighting the bots and Bruce made his way to Nat. Not long after Hulk and Natasha had made their way to the now floating Sokovia. Long story short the bad guy was defeated, and all was right in the world again.

Present 

“Alright Doc, have you been following this I know first hand it can be a little complicated.” She nods as you continue. “Well my friends, not the Avengers. Umm… their names were David, and Vivian.” She notices your struggle to continue but you power through the tears building in your eyes. “You see, saving the world came at a price, a price that I was willing to pay, but not like this. I got to the compound, and dialled David and what did I find?” She tells you to continue. “Five… Five missed calls from David telling me that he was going to stay behind in the Practice with Viv.” Tears are now streaming down your cheeks. “Now I imagine that you know what happened to Sokovia ‘Boom’.” You signal with our hands telling her that it was all gone.

Suddenly a timer goes off and your walls are up again. “Y/N you can continue if you want to, I don't…” You interrupt her standing up and heading to the door. “Actually I think that, that was enough for today.” You say walking out. It was confirmed both David and Viv dead… and it was all because of you. After this you distanced yourself. Declining Maria Hills offer to become an Avenger, and also walking away from the Stark Industries collaboration. Unfortunately falling down a deeper hole than you'd ever been in with our addiction. When walking out of the office building your shrink is in when you bump into someone.... 

“Long time no see Y/N!” You recognize the voice immediately. “I saw you following me last week, as a matter of fact i've spotted you multiple times Natasha.” She laughs, and you roll your eyes. “Now why are you mad Y/N what did you think would happen? You ghosted everyone after Sokovia, why are you angry?” You sigh and start walking away but she stops you. “Because you were right Natasha there was a cost to this and it's taking quite the toll.” Natasha lets go of your arm confused “What are you talking about everything came out great.” you laugh bitterly “For almost everyone else oh and feel free to tell Pepper than I'm not taking her calls no matter how hard she insists.”

“Does this have anything to do with the drugs Y/N because if it does I know some people that can help you.” The way she says it almost makes you believe that she cares, but at the end of the day you know she had orders. You look at her incredulously walking away again, this time she doesnt stop you.  

Natashas POV

“Well if you're not going to tell me guess i'm going to have to find out the hard way.” You walk into the building Y/N just came out of and make your way to the Shrink's office. You not so nicely asked for Y/N’s file. As youre reading the file you remember her words bitter and angry “For almost everyone…” Now it makes sense her friends died and no one was there for her. Fuck. You pick up the phone and dial Pepper. “I know what's going on. Call a meeting in the compound and I'll get there in thirty minutes.”  

You meet up with everyone at the compound. You share the files with the team and everyone is shocked talking with each other until you notice Wanda. She doesn't look surprised. You pull her aside. "Why are you being quiet? What do you know about Y/N." She sighs "It was an accident alright when we came back I looked into her head. She looked so happy I was curious… When I looked she was grieving, tearing herself apart." 

You look at her. "And you said nothing you let us believe that she just didn't care." She laughs. "She doesn't! She doesn't want your help, she made that quite clear already. The one person she thought that she could count on was some guy named Logan." You querk your head, was she jealous, are you jealous. You shake your head. "What else did you see?" Your ask casually. Testing the waters you didn't want to expose Y/N but you have to know what she knew. 

"Was there something else I was supposed to see?" You shake your head no, and make your way back to the team. There's fighting over who should talk to her. "I think Tony should go…" Steve says like it's nothing. You almost laugh. Tony gives you a dirty look. "I think pepper should go." You say matter of factly. She asks you to elaborate. "She cares for you the most, but she is angry not at you in general." She nods and everyone else agrees for lack of a better idea. 

Peppers Pov 

You walk out of the compound with Tony by your side. "You can come if you want to." Your say to break the silence. He shakes his head. "When are you going to tell her that you're her father." He only sighs "I can't tell her… I can't ruin Howard for her because she loved him." You quickly counter "It's going to be worse the longer you wait." You continue "The only reason I didn't push before was because you weren't sure but now you are Tony she's your daughter." 

"That's exactly why I can't tell her now she's dealing with a lot. It's not a good time." You nod "Fine." Is all you can say. You walk into Krast industries expecting to be greeted by a busy work floor but are surprised when you see the exact opposite. You do see a familiar face though commandeering the floor. Logan. "Hey logan how are you? I'm hoping I could talk to Y/N." Logan stops in his tracks. 

"What do you mean if i've seen her? I thought she was with you guys." He says the panic growing in his voice. "Umm… no she's not been with us for a couple of weeks now. Are you sure you haven't seen her and what's going on here." 

Logans Pov 

Of course you knew where she was, but you weren't about to tell them. "Yeah no I've talked to her on the phone I just figured she was with your guys." Pepper is still confused about what is happening. "She asked me to get ready for major remodel… all our employees will work from home for the time being." She nods. "Do you know where I could find her? I really need to talk to her." Well that's not going to happen now. Seen as she's currently passed out on your couch. 

"She might be at home… She does this sometimes. She runs, but i'll give you her address if you really want to talk to her."

Your Pov 

After running into Natasha you went to a bar. A complete rookie move. You knew better, but at the same time you didn't care you've been loading up taking a larger doses and mixing with alcohol. You called Logan to come pick you up and he was there like always. "I can't lose you Logan, I wouldn't survive it. Why does everyone I love die?" He holds his tongue you can tell. "Tell me what you're thinking it's not good to hold your emotions in…" He laughs bitterly. "You think I'd survive losing you Y/N this feeling goes both ways. You're blind to my pain Y/N seeing you like this hurts me it shakes me to my core."

"I'm not blind to your pain… I know you better than I know myself. I'm going to therapy, and before you say it i'm actually talking this time. I'm getting help." He nods "Every step of the way that includes relapsing. Y/N just don't make me lose you." You nod tears building in your eyes. "I won't." 

When you wake up you're in Logan's apartment it's nice. Your head is pounding. You decide to go home… in hindsight that was a horrible idea. You have no idea where you are and also have no idea where you're going.  "Fuck… taxi, TAXI." 

They dont fucking stop you dont blame them you look like trash, hell you feel like it too. You make it to a coffee shop and just sit there. Waiting for what you don't know at least not until the owner comes around. "I don't want to have to kick you out but it's nearing closing time, want me go call a cab." 

You laugh "See id say yes and please but I don't remember where I live." He nods feeling bad for you. "Having a bad day, want to talk about it?" You sigh “I would, but sadly my opening up to complete strangers quota is full for the day.” They laugh handing you some coffee. “It 'll help you sober up, So what is it? Alcohol, meth, let me guess pills.” You widen your eyes. “Don't worry, I'm not judging I meet people of all walks of life.” You nod. “Do you mind if I make a call my friend is probably worried sick.” He hands you his phone and you dial Logan (the only number you know by heart.) “Y/N where are you ive been worried sick. Why did you leave?” 

“I went out for coffee you know to sober up faster I needed air.” He sighs “Can you make your way back or do you want me to pick you up?” You turn from the barista person in front of you. “Um I want to go home but I can't for the life of me remember my address.”  David gives you your address and calls you a cab. You thank him and end the call. “So it looks like I'm heading home in a minute the taxi won't take long.” He smiles reaching his hand out to take their phone back. “I’ll see you around probably…” You nod "probably not.” You say hesitantly, and he laughs. You Are interrupted by the taxi honking its horn. “I hope to see you around by the way. I'm Zack Gordon.” your smile drops immediately. 

You compose yourself before he notices your change in attitude. You plaster on a fake smile and make your way out turning one last time. “We’ll see each other around Zack.” He smiles. The whole cab ride was silent, you're contemplating fate. What are the fucking odds of all the cafe’s you could have walked into you walked into his. When you least expect it you’re in front of your house. You walk in and immediately notice something off. You walk into your living room only to see someone sitting in the dark. You know who it is immediately. “Always with the theatrics, it's starting to get old. Would you like something to drink.” She sighs “Y/N I want to talk.”  You sit clapping your hands causing the lights in the house to turn on.

“Right Pepper talk, i'm listening” Her eyes widen, showing her confusion. “Look, I'm not angry with our team or you, but I just have some crap to deal with… Alone.” Pepper looks down. “You don't have to go through this alone, you have us now.” Your eyes bolt to hers. “And how exactly do you know what i'm going through… You know what I don't need to know because it doesn't matter.” you sigh “I’ve gone through life alone. I dealt with the punches life has thrown my way by myself. This won't be the exception.” You see Peppers complexion turn red, she's angry. “Why can't you stop making yourself a martyr, talk about dealing with children? You and Tony are the only ones who can make me this irritated.”

“Because I'm broken Pepper and before Natasha or Wanda decide to tell you I'm an addict. Everything is wrong right now so I need to take a step away, I need to get clean.” Peppers eyes soften moving to sit next to you. “You know i'm not leaving your side right?” Your eyes begin to water. “I relapsed… it's bad Pepper. I've never fallen this hard and I'm scared.” She hugs you. “I’ve never had this… people who really care it was just Logan and I.  As of recently it was David, Viv, and I. Now I lost them and I can't. I can't sleep, I can't breathe, and I'm so tired Pepper I don't know how much more of this I can take.” 

“Okay come on Y/N let's get you to your room.” You and Pepper stand on your way up the stairs and you start to stumble. “I’m sorry you have to see me like this. I am very sorry I drank coffee to sober up but it didn't work.” She nods “It’s okay we’ll talk about it tomorrow.” You both finally make it to your room and as soon as your head hits the pillow you fall asleep.

When you wake up you are surprised by your surroundings you didn't quite remember how you got here. You sit up and hear chattering downstairs. You go down stairs, the memories of last night making their way to you now. THE AVENGERS HAVING BREAKFAST IN YOUR KITCHEN. You watch as thor brakes your plates making you flinch. “As much as I appreciate your enthusiasm I dont think Y/N would appreciate us breaking her plates.” you clear your throat and as you do everyone goes quiet. “Good Morning everyone.”

#avengers #tony stark #pepper potts #tony x pepper #wanda maximoff #thor odinson #vision #pietro maximoff #clint barton #natasha romanoff #marvel #avengers ultron #reader x avengers #natasha x y/n #wanda x reader

[xgiannax]

Hello! I hope you're feeling a little better! Would it be ok to request a Kaminari x reader where the two of them are playing video games and one of them cheats using tickles? I don't want you to feel obligated to write this if you're overloaded or not feeling well still so please put yourself first! :D have a great weekend! :3

I am feeling be a bit better thank goodness😭 i know it’s like Thursday now🤦🏾‍♀️ but I hope your weekend was good too💓

“Denki what flavor do you want?” You asked over your shoulder

“Strawberry Kiwi, duh” he shouted back from his position on the floor, you grabbed two Capri Suns and rushed back into the room

“What’s the rush? You that eager to get beat?”

“No I thought you’d start the game before I got back, seeing as the only way you’d beat me at Mario Kart is if you cheated” you shot back not missing a beat, he squinted up at you while you settled on the couch above him cross legged

“Yeah whatever, we’ll see” he challenged accepting his juice with a quick thank you. The two of you selected your characters and he scoffed at you

“Yoshi? Are you ever gonna pick anybody other than him” you rolled your eyes at him

“Mind your business, I’ll still beat you with Yoshi” You jabbed waving your hand at him, the round began and as soon as the countdown ended his character shot off ahead and was in first place

“Are you kidding?!” You exclaimed leaning toward the TV hyper focused, he laughed smugly shaking his head as he easily stayed in first place and beat you. He looked back at you raising his eyebrows, you glared

“That doesn’t count, that was just a practice round!” You argued crossing your arms

“Aww, you’re cute when you pout!” He teased and leaned up for a kiss, you put your hand on his face pushing him away

“Nope, let’s go again” you grumble feeling your competitiveness surface, he snickered at your frustration and started the next race. Again you picked Yoshi, and again Kaminari beat you.

“Oof, that’s twice in a row babe. You ready to admit that I’m the best yet?” You growled throwing a nearby pillow at him

“Shut it, sparky!” He dodged the pillow laughing

“We could always play another game-“

“No, one more time” You squinted scooting forward on the couch, he shook his head leaning back so he was on the floor below you with his head on your leg. If you weren’t so determined to beat him, the guesture might have melted your heart. You internally ‘aww’d snapping back to focus when the character selection screen popped up

“Still picking Yoshi, Huh?”

“sTiLl PiCkInG yOsHi HuH” You mocked making him bite your leg gently in retaliation, you jumped swatting at him with a small laugh. The round started and the same as last time his character shot in front of yours. You groaned throwing your controller to the side going straight for his weak spot, you leaned forward wiggling your fingers in his neck.

His shoulders shot up and he went limp falling to the side and laughing adorably

“Oh my gosh, what! You sound so cute!” You exclaimed laughing and getting down to straddle his squirming form, he opened his mouth to talk but all that came out were laughs and squeaks. You took your time to take in the moment because you knew once he gained his strength back you were done for

“Ahahah okahahaha I give! Cuhuhut it out!” He yelled tapping the ground, you stopped smiling proudly down at his red face and giggly state. Sounds from the TV caught your attention and you saw that somehow you managed to make it to 11th place and Kaminari was in 12th even though neither of you actually played.

“Hey look, technically I still won” you declared

“Uh huh” he replied quickly flipping you over so that you were under him, you squeaked in surprise laughing nervously

“Uhm, truce?”

“Nope, I don’t compromise with cheaters!” He accused leaning down to blow a raspberry right a above your bellybutton you arched off the ground screaming and pulling at his hair

“NAHAHAHAHA” he laughed into your stomach at your reaction which still tickled bad enough for you you push at his head

“I can’t believe you would stoop so low as to cheat, Y/N!” He tsked scribbling his fingers against your ribs and stomach, you laughed shaking your head back and forth “No? You don’t think it was bad for you to cheat?” He gasped in disbelief switching to kneading your hips, you jumped laughing louder and wiggling under him

“STAHAHAHAHAHAH!”

“Wow, I don’t know why you picked a fight with me when you’re this ticklish babe!” You kicked out trying to pry his fingers from your hips but that only made him go back to your ribs which was much worse

“DENKI PLEHEHEASE!”

“Apologize, Y/N” he said smirking down at you, for whatever reason you felt like now was a good time to be stubborn. You shook your head violently feeling tears staring to form in the corner of your eyes, he quickly slipped his hand up into your armpits digging in and you instantly screamed

“Apologize!” He prompted laughing while you lost your mind

“IMSORRYIMSORRY OKAHAYY” His hands stilled and you flopped against the floor completely out of weak and giggly

“I gueessss I can forgive you” he said helping you sit up, you crossed your arms and glared. Denki leaned forward to peck your poked out lips

“Don’t be mad at me, it’s not my fault I’m the best!”

“nOt mY fAuLt iM tHe Best-“ you froze glancing at him, he smirked evily at you

“You just want me to get you, don’t you?” You ran without answering him, not looking back to see if he was following because you knew he was.

#bnha x reader #bnha fluff #sfw tickles #tickle fic #tickle fluff #tickling #ticklish!reader #lee!reader #request #bnha denki #mha kaminari #denki kaminari #denki x reader #denki x you #denki x y/n

[radiorenjun]

Lavender Antics

→ Pairing: Han Jisung x Reader

→ Summary: Shooting in a drama with him was your absolute nightmare. Working with your enemy and pretending that you were love interests has been the most frustrating experience of your life. Though, after saying your farewells, the scent of lavender never leaves.

→ Warnings: Explicit Language. Antics. Mentions of insecurity. Alcohol, Making out. Suggestive?

→ Chapters: 4, 5, 6

As Jeongin continued to play with Jisung's switch, Jisung stared at the ceiling with his hands behind his head as he layed down on the bed next to his best friend. Jeongin noticed how disturbingly quiet Jisung had gotten since he called him out at the bus stop.

Jeongin tried his best to get a reaction out of Jisung without him being too obvious to see if he was just spacing out because of a horror scene he probably came across on YouTube or if something had really upset his friend to get him sighing exasperatedly every 13 seconds.

Jeongin gave out loud reactions as he played his game, chewing his snacks as loudly as possible and fidgeting around the king-sized bed next to the spaced out boy, but nothing exept an exasperated sigh was released from the squirrel-looking boy.

Jeongin gave out a dramatic exhausted sigh, putting down the switch on the table and sitting up on the bed with a snack on his lap. "Alright, hyung. What's wrong? This is literally killing me." Jeongin asked, with a perplexed expression.

"What? Seeing me all sad boy?" Jisung mumbled, not tearing his gaze away from the ceiling. "No, you're literally killing me in this game because of your loud ass earthshaking sighs." Jeongin stated simply, laying his chin against his palm cheekily.

Jisung's brows furrowed as he turned his head to look at his friend smiling innocently. He rolled his eyes and continued to stare at the ceiling, getting lost in his thoughts once again. "Alright, all jokes aside. What's actually wrong, hyung? You haven't been this quiet since Minho and Felix got eliminated in the survival show." Jeongin asked.

"Promise not to be a childish dick about what I'm bout to spill?" Jisung muttered, avoiding his friend's eyes. "Unless you did a really hilarious stunt that caused you to slip and fall, no promises." Jeongin joked, earning a small hit from his friend.

"I'm serious, dude!" Jisung exclaimed, sitting up on his bed. "Okay, okay! What's up?" Jeongin raised his hands up defensively with a shocked expression. "I.. I made y/n upset." Jisung spoke hesitantly.

Jeongin's brows furrowed as his lips formed into a small frown. "And your point is?" he asked, confused at what's the problem. "What do you mean 'my point is'?! I made her upset!" Jisung exclaimed, giving Jeongin a nudge.

"Come on, hyung. I know you're a dumbass but surely your ass isn't dumb enough to not realize that you make her upset basically on a daily basis." Jeongin shrugged as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Which, it was at that exact moment.

"No, you prick. I made her cry!" Jisung exclaimed, falling back into his pillows and burying his face into the soft fabric. Now, this got Jeongin's full attention.

"What? How? Did you make her smell your feet or something?" he asked, earning an annoyed look from Jisung. "Okay, okay! I'm sorry. But what happened?" he exclaimed, taking a pillow as a shield as he saw Jisung ready to go out on him.

"Well," Jisung sat up again, pulling his hood on and pulling on the strings as he plays with them in between his fingers. "She was being rather quiet and I got bored, I tried to get a reaction out of her like always but she kept quiet. So I pestered her the whole day until she finally snapped."

"And when she snapped, I just kept on going and going but then she screamed at me in the middle of the streets and she was crying. Then she just stomped away to walk to the hotel herself." Jisung shrugged sadly, guilt filling his stomach as he recalled your teary eyes.

"Dude. That's fucked up. Didn't you know the poor girl's grandma passed away?" Jeongin tsked in disappointment, folding his arms and shaking his head. His actions reminded Jisung of Bang Chan in this sort of situation. Man, he misses that guy.

"What? Her fucking grandma died?!" Jisung exclaimed in shocked, guilt filling him up even more. "Dude, no one told me!" Jisung ran a hand through his hair in frustration. "Didn't you hear Yeoreum telling us, more specifically you, to leave her along to grief this morning at the makeup room?" Jeongin scolded.

"I couldn't hear shit! I had airpods on!" Jisung groaned. "So that's why she was so damn sad the whole day! Fuck, I should've just left her alone before she snapped." Jisung whined, collapsing to his pillows once again. He felt like shit. He was the type to joke around but he didn't mean to make people cry when doing so.

"You fucked up bad, buddy." Jeongin patted his hyung's back, grabbing the switch as he leaned against the headboard to leave his friend wallow in the pit of guilt of his own actions. Jeongin's eyes darted from his switch to his friend who was dramatically sulking into his pillows.

"I fucking said, 'you're acting as if somebody fucking died'. I'm a jackass, fuck." Jisung's voice was muffled by the thick fabric but audible enough for his maknae to hear him. Jeongin let out a groan, "my fucking God."

He scratched his head, "if your dramatic ass really feel that guilty, you could just be a normal person, which I doubt you are, and you know. Apologize." Jeongin suggested in a tone that stated the obvious.

Jisung's head shot up in excitement, his eyes wide. "Right! Apologizing existed! Dude, you're a genius!" Jisung grabbed Jeongin's shoulders and shook him vigorously. Jeongin gave him a double chin disgusted frown, pushing his friend's hands off of him.

"It's called thinking. You should try it sometime." he replied shortly. "Wait, but how am I suppose to do that?" Jisung asked with a pout. "I don't know man. That's your problem. Seriously, I came here to hang out and use your switch as if it were my own. Not act like Channie-hyung and become a dad, ew gross." Jeongin shivered in disgust at the thought.

"Don't you have your own switch, though?" Jisung's brows furrowed in confusion. "Well yeah, but you have more games." Jeongin shrugged with a grin. "Bruh, if you want my games so much just borrow some." Jisung shoved Jeongin who gave a small laugh.

"Really? Okay, then. Adios, my dude." Jeongin grabbed Jisung's switch and quickly exited his room before his friend could chase after him. "I didn't mean you could take my switch! JEONGIN. HEY-" Jisung shouted before he heard the door click shut.

Jisung bit his lip as he stood in front of your hotel room door with a bag of your favourite drink in hand and some onigiri and mochis in the other bag. Without wasting another second, he knocked on your door and patiently waited for you to open the door.

His foot tapping against the carpet floor as he heard small footsteps from the other side of the door. The door clicked open, revealing you in your pajamas looking all sleepy. You looked at him with a blank unamused expression, gazing at him from his small smile to the sole of his sneakers tapping impatiently on the carpet floor.

You closed the door as if he was just a person walking by, but he stuck his foot in to hault the door from closing. "Y/N-" Jisung started before he let out a small noise as he felt you push harder against the door. "Fuck off." you mumbled in a hoarse exhausted voice.

"Y/N, hear me out." Jisung tried to reason as he pushed the door back with his foot as hard as he can as you both fought against the door. "No, you and your donkey personality can just fuck off!" you exclaimed, putting your back into closing that damn door.

"I brought you your favorite drink, mochis and onigiris! What more do you want in order for you to hear me out for just two seconds?" Jisung exclaimed, feeling you hault your movements at the mention of your favorite foods.

"You what?" your head poked out of the doorway as you eyed him suspiciously, realizing that he was carrying a bag of your favourite foods in his hands. "Why?" you asked with a raise of your brow.

Jisung opened his mouth to say something but closed his mouth when he realised that he doesn't know what to say now that he finally grew some balls to apologize after sulking for thirty minutes in his room. 'Fuck,' he thought, 'I didn't fully think this through.'

"Well?" you raised your brow, gesturing him to continue with his words. "I... I heard bout your grandma and I just wanna say I'm sorry for being an inconsiderate asshole and I want to say my deepest condolences to you. Please accept these foods as a token of my apology so we can go back to being friends again." Jisung blabbered, avoiding eye contact as he shyly spoke, his ears turning red involuntarily.

Your eyebrows raised in surprise as he stretched out his hand to give you the bags. "You're here for that? And you consider me as your friend!?" you exclaimed, dumbfounded at the boy's actions infront of you.

Jisung's brows furrowed as he looked up at you with an offended look, "of course I consider you as a friend! You don't consider me as one?" he pouted, his hands going down as his expression saddened.

"Well, with your fucking attitude towards me I thought you had some sort of grudge against me as if my ancestor killed yours or something." you shrugged. "The ancestors thing might be a possibility. But you're funny when you get riled up. I never hated you, y/n. I felt like shit when I saw you cr-" he whined.

"Don't even say that word, I was being sentimental and emotional." you cut him off and cringed the embarrassing memory of crying dramatically in public. "Okay, sheesh. What Im saying is, I'm sorry for going too far with my antics and I want you to have this." he handed you the bags with a small smile.

You bit your lip as you accepted the bags in your hand and gave him a smile. "You're alright, Jisung." you nodded. "Does that mean you forgive me?" Jisung grinned, stepping closer to you as he practically towered over you.

"Dude, I forgave you three seconds ago. Go to sleep its like 11 PM, we have to shoot scenes first thing in the morning tomorrow." you chuckled, putting down the bags on the floor and gently pushed him, eliciting a laugh from him.

"Alright. Alright. Good night," Jisung giggled as he walked towards his door. "Goodnight to you too, Han. Thanks for the food by the way." you smiled, leaning so you could see him standing infront of his doorway, giving him a small wave before getting inside and closing your door.

You picked up the bags and lay them on your nightstand, checking to see what that ridiculous boy had bought you. Something inside caught your eye as you reached a hand down the bag and pulled out the object in sight.

You bit your lip, smiling as you saw a bouquet of lavender wrapped together with a small silk, some small carnations adding some colour to the bouquet. That boy really is something.

Jisung leaned back to see you pick up the bag he brought you before closing your hotel door. He sighed to himself, biting back a smile as he thought bout your reaction to his small gift inside.

He noticed how you kept looking in awe at the lavenders nearby, longing to pick one of them so he went down to the nearest bouquet shop and bought the most eye-catching lavender bouquet they had.

He chuckled to himself, wishing he could see your reaction when you see his gift as he fidget his hands around his pockets to pull out his key card to his room. He soon frowned when he doesn't feel his card anywhere in his pockets.

He pulled out his wallet to check if his card was there. Unfortunately, it wasn't there. He locked himself out. 'Fuck my life.' he thought before jogging down the hall to Jeongin's room where he knocked nervously.

Jeongin opened the door with his bed hair looking like an untamed mane as he squinted sleepily at his friend. "Hey Jeongin-" Jisung greeted nervously before Jeongin shut the door to his face.

"Asshole!" Jisung exclaimed in a soft voice but loud enough for the younger boy to hear him from the other side of the door. Jisung clicked his tongue as he pulled out his phone and dialed the only person he knew who could help him.

"Manager-nim! My favorite hyung! How are you?" he laughed as he walked towards his manager's room nervously. "You're gonna be laughing your eyes out when you hear me out. So. I got a little problem..."

I was so motivated to write with all the comments that wanted me to make more of Lavender Antics like Bruh I didnt think this would be so popular💞💞😳😭

#lavender antics #skz imagines #skz scenarios #skz jisung #skz #stray kids #stray kids imagine #stray kids smut #stray kids x reader #skz ff #stray kids fanfiction #stray kids fanfic #stray kids fic rec #stray kids fluff #han jisung imagines #han jisung

[shadowglens]

8, 23, 33 for a ship of ur choosing! (apologies im not much of a gamer so i don't know much on context)

that’s ok! i’ll do this for some of my new ships from choices: stories you play, casey/ethan and grace/drake!

8.do they hold grudges? is it hard for them to let go/forgive each other?

casey x ethan— kind of, because they are both as stubborn as an ox and will both sit stewing in frustration/anger/sadness about something for a while until one gives in and forces them to talk to each other. casey in particular is great at getting on ethan’s nerves, and it’s far too easy for him to slip back into the stern facade he uses around all the interns, but they’re working at it.

grace x drake— not really. they are both really open with one another, and will always talk through something straight away to resolve things. there’s enough grudges and backstabbing at court, they try to keep that kind of thing as far away from each other as possible.

23.who’s more jealous?

casey x ethan— neither are really prone to it, although casey does start to become very aware of the way others look at ethan and it does make her squirm a little. it isn’t until he admits he feels for her that the self consciousness subsides.

grace x drake— drake. he knows the way court works, and knew from the start that grace was their for liam and not him. he couldn’t help looking at grace though, beautiful confident brave grace, and that was when the hurt set in. once they start officially seeing each other, and after the reassurance that she loves him finally sets in, the jealousy fades.

33.who worries more?

casey x ethan— casey worries about him a lot, especially when things with naveen become particularly dire. she sees how hard ethan overworks himself, knows the pressure and expectation heaped on his shoulders is a heavy burden. she doesn’t like seeing him so tired and stressed and hopeless.

grace x drake— it’s mutual, although drake definitely worries more. he knows the position grace is in, knows that the crown and its associates have enemies, knows there’s a target on his wife’s back for being duchess. after everything that happens, it never quite goes away, but as long as he’s by her side he lets himself not worry so much.

#oc tag #stormslesbian #ch: casey valentine #casey x ethan #ch: grace williams #grace x drake #thanks liza!! #i love all these idiots so much ....

[just-some-sad-kiddo]

I arrived at school a bit late this morning, but I doubt the teacher noticed. She was a little more focused on the study guide review. I did poorly. I feel stupid. I was so proud of myself for turning in the study guide early when in reality, I didn’t even do a good job.  

In robotics, Cody mentioned that I had been very salty the past few weeks. (No shit, Cody.) I explained to him all that had been going on and he offered to message Taiga through TEAMS to get to the bottom of things. They did not take it well. Assuming I couldn’t see their messages, he made a couple of nasty remarks about me calling me and entitled bitch. Call me crazy but I swear I’ve been mentioning this whole time that the reason I’d been so conflicted about the situation was because I know I'm not entitled to love? It was all very distressing. I’ll give Cody some credit, he is capable of being mature when he really has to.  

Another odd detail that he mentioned was that apparently Taiga had asked him for nude photos and Cody sent them. I hope Cody is lying about this for a number of reasons. For one, that could put him in serious danger.  

On top of that, they’ve been together for only two weeks and they’re exchanging nudes? Taiga wouldn’t even kiss me. I think it’s because I’m trans. Taiga doesn’t want to date a trans boy, they want to date a real boy.

But I’m not here to make this about me. The main concern is Cody’s safety and how Taiga put him at risk when he asked for that photo. That’s something that is incredibly hard to forgive.  

I messaged Taiga during math and informed them that I knew what they had been saying about me over group text.

[9:26 AM] Cipher

We dont need Truck to middleman for us, if you have an issue than talk to me.  

[10:19 AM] Taiga

I don't have an issue I'm just confused and frustrated.

[10:37 AM] Cipher

Umm... you literally called me a bitch like two hours ago

[10:37 AM] Cipher

I was sitting right next to cody  

[10:38 AM] Cipher

and entitled  

[10:40 AM] Taiga

sorry im pissed

[10:43 AM] Taiga

i say irrational shit when im pissed, im really sorry

[10:48 AM] Cipher

No, youre not

[10:48 AM] Cipher

If you were sorry then none of this would have happened

[10:49 AM] Cipher

Stop saying youre sorry when you arent

[10:56 AM] Taiga

What do you mean "it never would've happened"

[10:56 AM] Taiga

I genuinely don't understand that

[11:05 AM] Cipher

You continue to say youŕe sorry for everything but you never change

[11:05 AM] Cipher

Your apologies mean nothing to me

[11:07 AM] Taiga

Fine, it can be that way

[11:08 AM] Taiga

I valued you as I friend, I apologize for not changing since I don't know how

[11:08 AM] Cipher

No, Im not finishyo

[11:08 AM] Taiga

Alright, continue

[11:08 AM] Cipher

You dont get to walk away from this because I am sick of having to be the bigger person all the time

[11:08 AM] Cipher

Anyway I dont have time right now, im in math

[11:08 AM] Cipher

We can discuss this as a later time.

[11:11 AM] Taiga

I would like to say, I don't know how to be the bigger person. I don't understand how. I was never taught how to take that role in this kind of situation.  

[11:11 AM] Taiga

But yes, we can discuss this later

The bit I mentioned about how he never changes goes back to last year. He had been being bitchy to everyone to the point where nobody was speaking to him except for me. He would meet me after all of my classes and make me tell him what the others were saying about him. He snapped all the time for no reason and expected us to forgive him because apparently, he had anger issues. It’s been nearly a year since then so I figured he’d grown and changed. I was clearly mistaken.

I am sick of Taiga blaming all of his behavior on the way he was raised. Being raised poorly or having certain mental disorders does not warrant shitty behavior. Guess what, Taiga? I was also raised by a shitty dad and I also have shitty disorders. I can’t keep justifying this and I can’t keep letting everything go.

Their group chat shutdown shortly after. We were informed that the school knew that we’d been messaging each other during class time. Lucky for me, I had never taken part in their bullshit.  

~~

We had a sub in math class today. I admired her attempt to relate to all of us with memes and silly voices but it was legitimately painful to listen to her.

~~

This week was Kindness Week at school. We were to nominate a student of our choice and write a few short sentences as to why.

~~

The lunch was absolutely appalling. I swear the next time they server me chicken that’s colder than my ice water, I’m calling Child Protective Services. You could literally squeeze water out of the chicken. They gave us a muffin that was both raw and soggy. I would rather have eaten grass.

~~

I found a way to listen to music during 8th period. I just lean into my headphones discretely and the teacher never notices a thing. I’m a genius. I listened to The Black Parade which will take up about one class period.

#easybreezy

[kayvsworld]

Could u convince be not to hate Steve 'Hypocrite' Rogers? I'm really trying not to hate him but whnever I think about anything to do with him I just get even angrier at him. MCU Steve is a repentless fuck up and I wanna know what u have to say about him? U don't seem like u hate him and u also love Tony so I figure u probably see stuff I'm not seeing and I wanna know what ;u; (mostly so I can stomach stony fics to widen my range of reading material) :p

steve rogers is a stubborn emotionally-constipated asshole. i also love him very very much. here are some post-cacw thoughts on why i still love him:

flawed characters are good, and the only reason we expect Perfection from This Particular Human Character is bc other people (and…the narrative….) put him on a pedestal. I can’t be mad at him for doing what he thought was the right thing, because as a fan of tony stark, i know that sometimes things that seem like a good idea at the time are maybe actually not always that great

issue: banking on the fact that your rich genius teammate and his team of lawyers will still get you and your friend out of a bad situation After you let him know that the friend in question murdered his parents a week before christmas and that you’ve lived in his house and looked him in the eye while Knowing Abt This for several goddamn years is uh. a v scary situation and potentially a bad plan for 19 reasons. prioritize the people you know are ride or die & cut ur losses

some people are emotionally constipated assholes who do their best and fail miserably,,,,To Cope™

ok but seriously have you ever had 6.3 billion Terrible Things happen to you in rapid succession, and then One More Thing comes along (to take away the only remaining thing in your life you can control and the only semblance of normalcy you have left) and you just. dig your heels in automatically and go “absolutely fucking not”

like i will personally bet you 5 canadian dollars that steve has been crossing his arms and glaring at the tv for months like “listen what else do they want us to do. we’re helping. we’re the good guys. they Have To See That we’re good people and we’re doing our best and we saved the world Come On if we just wait…maybe…….it will…..Be Fine without us having to do anything? maybe?” 

he’s been fighting to keep People™ safe for a While and it’s Apparently still not enough and he is probably tired and bitter and frustrated. also, last time he was working for/with a third party they turned out to be nazis and while i get that that 100% isn’t the same as a UN Panel (noT THE SAME, STEVEN) at some point you have to take a quote out of context, plant urself like a stubborn asshole tree, and say “actually no fuck you please just let me do the only thing that is giving my life meaning right now in a way that doesn’t make me feel trapped and afraid for myself and my team”

peggy (steve’s last connection to his life before waking up in the future) had just died, and bucky (steve’s surprise Actual last connection to his life before waking up in the future) has been having a Hell Time and is being targeted. sometimes when you find out your best friend has been brainwashed and tortured for 70 years, your bullshit meter maxes out and you (steve rogers, “fight me” personified) want to give the finger to anyone who wants to do absolutely else to that person. yes, getting him help was an option (the other option being some kind of prison?) but also, it still would have been someone else making that choice for bucky, and at some point yelling “can you please just leave him alone” with ur fists becomes a default reaction

as someone who regularly avoids things when i should really deal with them, i 100% believe that there is a large part of steve that genuinely thought he was protecting tony. sure, he was protecting himself and bucky, too, and he admits that openly, but i can buy that steve had been sitting on the couch for months listening to tony talk about Processing His Grief Through Technology and screaming internally like “would it truly and genuinely make it easier on this guy to know that his parents were brutally murdered by my friend and i’ve known abt it for 2 years when he’s still this messed up over it already oh my god”

the problems i have with a lot of steve’s choices really just come down to the film not giving him room to put up a legit argument. a lot of it was banking on me assuming that captain america & the team were correct bc they’re cap & the team in a captain america movie? if they had given steve a speech instead of a shitty letter, i’m sure i would have initially understood his side a lot better

some people are emotionally constipated assholes who do their best and fail miserably,,,,To Cope™ Part 2: The Letter

steve is not great at feelings. steve is not great at processing and expressing his feelings in a healthy way. steve is an all-or-nothing prickly bitch (see: every film he’s been in) and taking these excellent canon facts into account, i do actually genuinely believe that this dude forced himself to sit down while in hiding to write 12 different drafts of this letter by hand in cursive and eventually ended up with the monstrosity tony received

he can’t apologize for the accords situation, because he doesn’t think he’s wrong, so he can only apologize for hurting tony. “i’m not sorry for what i did but i’m sorry that it hurt you” is a shitty thing to read and say but i guess at least,,,he,,,was honest? steven why didn’t you get a friend to proofread this letter

by saying that the avengers are more tony’s family than his, he probably thinks he’s acknowledging that tony cares about them and was doing what he thought was best. im personally for my own sanity choosing to believe that.

“i’ve never really fit in” aka “okay i definitely didn’t talk enough about where i was coming from at all for the past few…..years….and this was the only draft that included my ‘i’ve been lowkey struggling’ admission and didn’t sound vaguely pathetic or directly mention my friend who involuntarily murdered your parents” 

this entire thing is actually imo a fairly decent “listen i know things are really messy right now and i hurt you and we’re both still upset, but here’s some effort on my part. if you ever need anything, here’s how you can contact me & i promise i will still drop everything to come help you with what you need” gesture considering the situation & time frame

anyway, steve for sure messed up with his approach to this and put a lot of people in danger, but as someone who is a fan of tony stark i have to take The Context into consideration and also understand that sometimes people do questionable things even while having the best intentions. it was a really rough situation and i think mr evans did a great job of showing steve emotionally shutting down and struggling for the past few films? i can see where he was coming from from an emotional standpoint, & bc of these and 130 other reach-y reasons including me just enjoying him as a person, i forgive him. it’s 2:30am this is so long oh my god

#kayvswords #L O N G P O S T #long post #holy shit i'm sorry i just have a lot of feelings abt steve??? #seibir