#IM NOT GONNA RANT ABT IT TOO MUCH I PROMISE ;__; SORRY

[potatobugz]

come here son i am going to infect you with my inosuke + kanao sibling agenda

(do not tag as ship)

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny #kny spoilers #demon slayer spoilers #inosuke hashibira #kanao tsuyuri #ignoring aoi amd inosuke forever. i do not see it. sorry. it is bad. it annoys me #im not annoyed at aoi im annoyed that they paired two characters who barely ever interact ever togwther #and didnt give aoi any character or agency. shes just “inosukes wife” now. #its not good! there ks no foundation for their dynamic at all!!! #IM NOT GONNA RANT ABT IT TOO MUCH I PROMISE ;__; SORRY #i did finish the manga and i think its going to hold a very special place in my heart #i will cry. i dont cry too easily when reading stuff but when this gets animated i guarantee u i will sob #anyways. back to what i was actually going to talk about #KANAO AND INOSUKE SIBLING MOMENCE FORWVER!!! ATTACK!!! IM MOSTLY THINKING 2 RHE SCENE WHERE THE FIGHT DOUMA #i think thats his name right? douma? #NOTHING BRINGS TO CHARACTERS TOGETHER LIKE SHARED TRAUMA!!!!!!!!(joke) #*two #i imagine in my mind they would grieve together. they both have something in common. their loved one was killed by the same demon #not only that; but i just love their dynamic #and of course that chaoter cover where inosuke is still grieving over his mother and kanao silently supports him as they walk out #You ever remember how theyre all children. theyre just children. theyre kids. theyre not even 18 yet. you ever think about that

[fyodorloveclub]

Okay hello again i just remembered i made this concept :((

Osamu with a a ghost reader he meets at the cemetery Odasaku's at.

Like one day there just happens to be a new grave and poof, suddenly this ghost wont leave him alone. Like they will CLING onto dazai, even if their body is like really fucking cold and uncomfortable. And dazai, kinda enjoys.

Like cmon we know much dazai has a hard time connecting with people emotional hecantreallydoitoften..

So like imagine ghost!reader sitting on his lap while they rant about whatever topic they have a slight interest in, and they're like talking as if Oda is there with him and like,"people are so reckless i hate how some people just release bunnies and chicks they buy as "gifts" for easter into the wild, its just irresponsible, right Oda?" And theyd be nodding and continuing, and jt just warms Dazais heart.

I imagine ghost!reader to be very optimistic qnd childesh to make the pain of spending all of eternity as a being cursed to roam death.

But one day they just break, and Dazai'a there to catch them.

Dazai comforts them and does whatever they can to help ghost!reader feel a lottle better.

Also it can he totally platonic too??? Or a little like dazai sort kf feels like a guardian to them..? Okay sorry the daddy issues cane out.

I love how my irl coping mechanism is hyperindependence and as soon as bsd men come im like "mmm princess treatment give"

Anway, i really need a hug from the zaza 😔

🪴

this is so cute and unique i love this concept 🥺🥺🥺 the sitting on his lap while they talk to oda im gonna cry fkjdskdjkdsl dazai trying to join in the coversation that he can obvi only hear one side of and reader just rolling their eyes and laughing with oda because dazai "just doesn't get it." i like to imagine dazai comes by and tells reader all these stories from the agency and just his general life bc they basically just live vicariously through him and they love to hear and remember what it's like to be alive. he'll also tell them all about what oda was like in the past and lots of memories they share, and reader being like "oh yeah oda already told me that one. he said you'd end up lying abt that" or something dflkkjdfkjl they're sooo clingy to him even tho like you said it's probably cold and an uncomfortable feeling for dazai and he would wear extra layers but reader has complained they don't feel as close to him that way, and they really miss human contact. and dazai is too endeared to say no to them, so he just holds them and kisses their cheek. i think this would be really cute as a platonic thing 🥺 it probably starts out at first as just a way for him to have a connection with oda, but he starts forming a genuine individual connection with reader. dazai is a pretty nihilistic/pessimistic guy so he probably would have a weird approach of comforting them, but it works well. he'll joke about how he's jealous of them for being dead, and promises that he'll make sure he's buried next to the two of them so they'll be together even in his death. and who knows maybe it does turn into something a little romantic, but idk how that would work askdjjfdk storytime: my lover is a ghost

#voices in my head #🪴 demon #sorry it took me a bit to get to this 🥺 #{ musings; dazai }

[writemywaytoyourheart]

hiiii i found your blog and saw that you’re talking abt tae’s current situation i wanna say thank you for your kind words as i’m feeling overwhelmed too abt the news. i always seek comfort by reading his fics whenever i’m feeling down but now when im sad abt this i cant read his fics bcs he’s the reason why im sad. i know it’s weird and cringed but how do i overcome this huaaaaa :(

(sorry for ranting and sorry if this post made you uncomfortable you can just ignore it if you feel so!)

Hey bean, first of all this did not make me uncomfortable in the slightest, and you have no reason to apologize for your feelings.

Lots of people are feeling this way and have been made time and time again to feel ashamed for it. I think that's wrong. None of you deserve to be ridiculed and made to stuff your feelings down deep so that you don't get targeted.

I'm sorry you've all felt so alone during this. I promise you that you are not alone.

ARMY, let's do better.

These are our friends, basically our family at times. Why do we have to shun them just to make ourselves look "better"? How disappointed do you think BTS would be in some of us to find out how some of their beloved fans were treated for having feelings?

I for one don't think they'd be all too proud.

Nonnie, it is totally normal for you to be avoiding fics about him right now. Like I said in earlier posts, the love is very much real and along with that comes the very real heartbreak, even if some people can't understand it.

Things that used to make you happy are now a direct trigger.

As for overcoming it, there are things that work for some people and things that don't work at all for others. Do what feels right to you, okay?

You can face it head on and bulldoze your way through it, that's how some people heal and feel better.

Or you can find other things that make you happy. It seems like a distraction that won't help in the long run but if this way works for you it isn't that. It's simply filling your life with so many things that bring you joy that you will eventually realize there's more to life than you thought, and it won't hurt as much anymore.

The first step is acknowledging it, which you have done, and I'm so proud of you for that.

Right now, it probably feels like it'll never stop hurting. That you'll never be able to come back from this.

I'm not gonna tell you that you can or cannot.

That's up to you, bean.

This is your story.

You make the rules.

You are the main character in your life, no one can take that from you.

So.

What does that character we love so much do?

Does the book end here, or do we get to see another chapter?

Will our MC give up, or will they break only to become so so much more beautiful?

A character with no struggles is hardly one we can connect with. We root for them because they are broken, and yet we love them and fully believe that they will pick themselves back up and keep going. It's okay to stay down there for a while, it's okay to sit there and cry. We'll all be crying there with you.

But I truly hope the story does not end there.

I for one would love to turn the page and keep reading.

ILY 🥰

-chip

#asks #anon #kim taehyung #kim jennie #taennie

[kunikame]

rant & slight idolish7 spoilers warning !!!!!

i verbally cannot describe how much comfort i7 brings me, genuinely. no matter how many times i watch it i just dont get bored of it, instead i notice new details and see new meanings behind certain words, scenes and actions. i love the characters so much ... theyre just so ... so adorable and relatable, you cant avoid them growing on you. the songs too !!!! the songs and characters make me so so happy, i adore them !

sogo and his violent impulses 😭 its always the quiet and composed people i swear. him collapsing from stress is very relatable. i admire his reasoning for doing music, i wish i had the same resolve HAHAHA except i vant even bring myself to tinker with my piano anymore :,)

tamaki and his childishness. it might be annoying to some, and he is very hard to deal with for sogo, but i think its endearing. hes self aware about being a bit on the dumber side but still tries his best .. i just wanna give him a hug and headpats and i hope he and aya get to be together again soon :( let the siblings be happy fr ...

yamato and his sincere want for the others to be happy and successful. what started out as a revenge mission became genuine affection toward the other 6 and i think thats amazing. he just gradually took on the role of the older brother/tired dad without even realizing and now hes stuck with them doing his best to ensure their happiness because he genuinely loves them :(

nagi and his comedic relief and wise moments ! i think nagi is reduced to simply comedic relief by most as he is just a silly pretty boy 80% of the time but hes actually very smart and theres so much we still dont know about him !! i sure hope we get some insights to him soon. and haruki aswell !!! i need to know more abt their friendship and the songs and everything !!

iori and his cute traits. he may be the youngest but he acts like the most mature (after yamato and sogo ofc) and his sincere want to ensure the success of i7 is admirable if im being honest. i adore his less composed moments though! makes me realize even picture perfect people have their quirks :) i love his friendly banters with riku and how he likes cute things and stationary and how he takes care of riku and mitsuki and and i love iori a normal amount i promise

riku and his sincerity. whatever hes feeling, you can just tell. hes so easy to take care of and while he might be insecure, hes really what holds them all together. he just shines as their center and hes so precious and his energy just makes you all warm n fuzzy and his smile just radiates joy and . i wish i could keep him in my pockets and carry him around.

mitsuki and the way i relate to him. the insecurities and being swallowed by them, running away from my problems and being the 2nd choice or not even a choice at all, not feeling good enough and just being average at everything i do, always being outshined and everything. hes so effortlessly funny and precious and i love his energy and his pretty smile and the way hes just so .. sunshine. yknow? i kin him can you tell

i could talk about i7 for ages but this is tumblr and not a fic so nobody will read it anyway HAHAHA i feel like im writing a diary entry or something. i could go on and on about how happy this show makes me even if i cry because of those specific mezzo n mitsuki insecure arcs but im gonna keep it short for this post haha

sorry i nerded out on the tl! if you read this i hope i piqued your interest in i7 (if i didnt still thank you for reading!) and if you didnt i hopr you have a great day after scrolling /gen

maybe one day when someone asks me abt i7 irl ill go on a longer rant and my eyes will sparkle and ill wave my hands around animatedly while talking about the show but then ill realize im rambling and im probably annoying and theyre not really interested but theyll be looking at me and asking me why i stopped talking except that wont happen bc fics arent real and i genuinely am annoying to most people HAHAHAHA !!!!!!!!!!

#! natsume stfu #i just wish one day someone would like me enough to listen to me rambling without thinking/making me feel like im annoying #maybe even fall in love w me #but that wont happen haha #vanitas kinnie moment ig.

[mrkis]

no cause im gonna be real with you right now. honestly, maintaining relationships are so hard for me. friendships and romantic. i do have some friends, but it's not often that we hang out and they have other friends too and it feels pretty lonely. but if we do hang out, i'm always the one initiating it first. and sometimes, i get too comfortable with them which leaves an awkward impression on me and we just dont talk that much anymore. for romantic, i've had crushes but it's doesnt rlly work out. im just scared to commit a relationship. i always overthink about their true intentions and what they want from me. they seem a nice person but i always think the negative of them on what will happen to our relationship. so i just shut myself out and end it. i kno thats a shit move but honestly idk how to talk to them. my parents never rlly talked about romance so idk how to be in them. i always need constant reassurance if they still like me or cling onto them afraid that they'll leave. eventually they do and it leaves me hopeless. im scared to even socialize to ppl or be out there in the world so i just seclude myself in my room everyday. its just me and the internet. i enjoy the internet alot. but my mom sometimes tells to go outside bc i look pale and thin but honestly im too scared to go out and see or talk to people. idk im just afraid of failure in society :/

anyways sorry for big paragraph, shouldve left it on reddit

this kinda hit me hard. i'm in a similar boat and i feel bad because i wanna help you and give you advice but my mind really just went blank :/ it's tricky but all i can say is that it will get better. it will get easier. i promise you. it just takes time <3

and nooo don't apologise for the big paragraph. you're always welcome to come to me and rant abt things, big paragraph or not <3

[hematomes]

so you're my poor little meow meow?! my pathetic little man? my good little boy? aww you're such a sweetheart <33

i-im making you question your sexuality🥺hehe im blushing thank u👉🏽👈🏽 (>is so evil about it)

but naos my hair SUCKS the colour has faded completely and i wanna dye it so baaaaddd but last time i went to the hairdresser i explained my hair plans for summer & she was like ".... yeah.... maybe. maybe Don't dye your hair in the meantime. if you wanna have enough hair to do That." so I've been thinking of dyeing it anyway but actually june is so close now & blue would be a bitch to remove, box dyes are a no-no, and any semi-permanent dye that isn't blue lasts for like 1,5 weeks max. so im just gonna suffer

jdjd sorry for the hair rant CONGRATS ON YOUR DILUC! bitch boy finally decided to come to you this is a pretty big deal naos you've been pss pssing him for a year!! i actually got ayaka last week i love her seiyuu so much<33 only thing is i was saving for kazuha but that trailer got me (curse you hoyoverse marketing ploys) i just hope he decides to be good to me. he's literally my lockscreen cmon kazuha

ooh hope you have fun on tuesday! and good luck on that exam! what subject is it?

my alcohol resistance is a fluid thing i think. it depends on things such as the weather, the humidity, the direction of the wind & how insane I've been feeling lately (a lot).

thanks!!! (for the grade) not to switch our roles but i could do with a congratulatory head pat rn:( people need to tell me im doing a good job more often im starved!!!!!!

anyway. im manifesting productivity today for the both of us.

LMAO i can if u want but you're gonna have to share, love

abdjz listen my knowledge in straight/wavy/etc hair is abysmal, but it still looks pretty imo. take care of it for the summer tho <3

he did!! and he was so good abt it. came on soft pity, on the standard banner, like the goodest little boy. immediately rewarded him w the wolf gravestone (sorry xinyan, if i manage to get another one ill give it to u i promise). kinda regret ascending hu tao to lv.90 & crowning her skill like 2 days ago tho, she made me broke in both exp books and mora

AND CONGRATS ON AYAKA she's so good... her jp voice aaa <3 kazuha should come in 2.8, if all goes well you'll be fine dw

it's an essay on foreign literature, im not exactly confident bc im the worst with essays but hopefully it won't be too bad. heard the professor might only use our 2 best grades for the total tho, so maybe ill be fine even if i fuck this one up

im headpatting you rn, you really did great and worked hard <3 im proud of you little soup

hoping the manifesting works zvwjs i don't rly have a choice anyway bc i don't want to speedrun it tmrw so!! but good luck sweets

#♡.— soup #long post

[unsurebisexualcore]

hi im the anon that lost my best friend a little while ago. i mean she didnt die but we grew apart. i was doing okay after my last ask. your words actually helped a lot so thank you for that. i mean it get sad when i see things that remind me of her but its whatever because i havent really seen her or talked to her since the sleepover. i got extra sad today because my sister is hanging out with her today and i didnt know about the plans until my sister told me why she wasnt riding the bus home with me. i really dont want to blame my sister because she didnt actually do anything wrong. to be honest neither did my best friend. she just got sick of me i guess. i would say that i dont blame her but this time i really do. i didnt do anything wrong and i refuse to change myself again for someone who doesnt like me for me. i did that too many times as a child and now that im finally happy with who i am i will never force myself to be someone else ever again. at this point i really shouldnt be upset because she made her choice but i am just so frustrated and sad i can barely take it. ive had issues for as long as i can remember with feeling invisible and that im not good enough and that i could never ever be someones favorite person and i truly believed that for so long. i still kind of do honestly. im really trying to be better about it and my other friends are trying to make me believe that i am loveable and also worthy of it. its working, very slowly, but still. today was a setback. wow that turned into a monster sized rant sorry about that

dude I am so incredibly happy to hear back from you, and literally u have no idea how massively wide im smiling rn reading this. setbacks are rough in any recovery journey, i know ive had my fair share, and it genuinely makes me feel really proud to see people like us not lose hope in situations like these because really at the end of the day there is so, so much more to life than just this one person, even when sometimes it doest feel that way. and you are completely right, if she doesn't like you for being you anymore, you owe her NOTHING in changing who you are for her bc at the end of the day you are more important to you than she is, and thats GOOD. and im rlly proud of you for sticking by that i really really am :)

so i promise okay, if some random teenage girl on the internet cares abt u bc i sure as hell do, u are abso-fucking-lutely worthy of love and care and being seen because you're YOU and that is literally the only thing that you have ever owed this world, ever.

so just promise ur not gonna forget that, no matter how many setbacks come ur way or how many times she wiggles her way back into your life, promise ur not gonna stop being u, okie? cuz ur like, cool af, and i would be rlly sad if someone else was the reason why that ever changed

#love you nonny <3 #and srsly liek ik i said this in the other post (or at least i hope i did) but keep me updated #my dms are always open if u wanna rant #as is my ask box if u wanna stay anonymous bc i completely get that #btw for the next 24 hours u are my favorite person now #so hah ur wrong u are someones favorite person >:) #askies

[b1mbodoll]

gabi gabi gabi hi 🐾🐾🐾 i missed u today! m so sorry abt that last ask i sent you T_T i was feeling a little sad and it was late so it was a bit dramatic on my part but i really mean every word i said! i really find comfort in interacting with you and on your blog just in general <3 it makes me so glad to have found you! m so bad at being an anon bcs im usually so busy so i always try to make time to come here and check on you !!!!! so as another check in how are your today? i hope you're feeling all happy n cozy atm! how was your day??? i seriously would love to hear abt it (i find it a sense of affection listening to the people i love talk abt how they are so if its too much at times lmk baby <333) anyways gonna go read that hanbin ask from a while ago after this but i saw a lil glimpse of it and please don't apologize for it being late 💌 again writing isn't an obligation and i already am happy u spared your time to reply to little ol me! i double heart u! be back in a min 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍

love 🎀 anonie!

hihi my cutie pie!!!!!! dont ever apologize for ranting to me >:( im here for u seriously!!!!!!! ur not a bad anon at all i promise my baby :( ill always look forward to ur messages when you decide to send them! dont feel obligated to but i love talkin to u as well! i am v comfy rn im cuddling with my cat n watchin a movie :3 thank u for asking n dont apologize for the question sweetheart i luv luv luv talkin to ya!!!! i hope u enjoy the hanbin ask ^^ love u sweetpea

#my sweetest love i adore u #♡.signed. sealed. delivered. #♡.sweetheart: 🎀

[romanocheese]

Im probably gonna stay on anonymous for a while because I'm still getting a little anxiety sending people asks but hello again its me

I just like checking in on you everyday to give you a serotonin boost (if these asks have that affect I don't think they do) also because you're probably my favorite ao3 author if not pretty up there in my favorites

That being said across all of your knifetrick fics I have had at least 40 visits so far and it's rapidly growing help

Sorry that these asks seem like a mess a usually have a few things that come to mind I want to share but we aren't really having a conversation so I kinda have to put it out all at the same time and I don't know how to like... format it I guess but yeah

(Also I kinda do these too so if you ever want to rant about something I can listen. I will sit here and read paragraphs upon paragraphs about whatever you tell me about even if I have no fucking clue what it is or understand it. I will ask you to clarify things and listen to you and let you rant for as long as you want. I think it's really cool when people rant abt what they like and who knows I might ask you where to watch or read whatever you're talking about. Like hermit craft and the 3 lives smp. I literally have no fucking clue what goes on there but if you want to tell me about your favorite character or about how someone in the lore died I will listen then try to cheer you up with stupid shit like going "hey have you seen Jack in the box ads?". If that doesnt cheer you up I'll try drawing the little guys for you. I will draw them with their favorite food or doing their favorite thing for you and show you. This is supposed to be that kind of aggressive support that people do to hype up their favorite guys ever but I don't think they have a tone tag for that so yeah)

-Chris

hi chris! im cool with you just hanging out on anon for as long as you want, no pressure my friend. you're always a joy to see in the ol inbox, whether it's tumblr or ao3. it's rather late for me atm and i have to get up for work in the mornjng so there's not much opportunity to ramble, although i did get a copy of dante's inferno at barnes & noble today and i'm excited to read it. your offer to be an infodump target shall not go unused, i promise! it might be double life, it might be classic lit, it might be dress history, who knows! i am a man of many tastes. for now though i am off to bed for some good good sleep and i wish you a wonderful restful sleep whenever you next sleep as well <33

#i got an ask! #chris from ao3

[lovely-keii]

Lev Liking the Nekoma Manager

Meeting the Team:

so you were a first year

you were pretty focused on your studies 

but you needed a club

inuoka happened to be your seatmate in english

he needed a little help

bc wow i hc him like that dont @ me

he started to approach you more

one day, you decided to rant to him

“i hate that i need a club”

“you need a club??”

“uh yeah,,ANYWAYS its annoying bc-”

this mf practically dragged u to the gym 😭

“im sorry y/n but plese do it as a favor”

bitch?? you don’t owe him anything but ok

“i’ll buy you <you favorite food>”

“fuckin deal”

so when you stepped into the gym

btw inuoka told coach nekomata beforehand

dont worry u aint interrupting anything

ok so when u stepped in the gym

yamamoto screamed

HE LITERALLY 156 HERTZ TEEN GIRL SCREECHED

this man has never seen a lady in his life  😌✌

when lev saw u

plssss

he short circuited

his brain just went bzzzzz  💀

mans just fully stopped responding

so being the queen u r

u introduced urself

“hey, i’m y/n. i’m training to be the manager.”

pls u just killed lev

he was like

“oH SHIT IM GONNA SEE HER EVERY TRAINING HAHA FUCK.”

“I CANT DO RECIEVES PLS SHE’LL HATE ME”

“OH MY GOSH IS MY HAIR OKAY, WHERE IS ALISA WHEN U NEED HER.”

he was pale asf

mans was dying

Managing the Team

okay so its a bit better

yamamoto practically worships the ground u step on 

✨respectfully✨

lev learned how to keep his shit together

but istg his brain is like

“hdgdhdghdg y/n y/N Y/N Y/N”

help this man pls

u treated the team amazingly

even kenma warmed up to you

u would make sure that the team got enough rest

and that inuoka got the food that he promised 🙃💅

and when ppl would gossip abt them

queen pls

u ✨eradicated✨ them

one day, u were walking w lev to the gym

and ur heart was doing backflips

ma’am, u developed a crush on him i-

“oh my god, did you see the grey haired guy in the vb team”

“he’s so fucking stupid and weird.”

your head went ✨zoom✨ 

“excuse me, what did you say? mind repeating that? okay, no. look at me, both you bitches. i don’t know what you guys are doing here, but the team has actual work to do. so if you don’t mind, you two rats can scamper off to the basketball team and do whatever shit your half braincell can actually do, because it seems that decent human morals are too much of a stretch for you idiots.”

ma’am pop off ig

and you grabbed lev’s hand and dragged him away.

u were internally screaming bc

OH MY GOD U WERE HOLDING HIS HAND

yeah he was thinking the same

at this point everyone in the team knew u liked him

it was just a matter of how to confess

#haikyuu #haikyuu hcs #haikyuu hc #haikyuu!! #haikyuu manager #nekoma #nekoma manager #lev #lev haiba #lev x reader #lev x reader fluff #lev haiba x reader #lev haiba x reader fluff

[sukirichi]

hi suki! wanted to tell you this bc i have no one else to talk about it with ><

( you can answer this when the English chapter releases! i was able to read it because my friend bought the WSJ issue)

I was trying to udnerstand Naoy's character, so I was reding everything from CH138-151 again. I'm kinda sad at how people just calls Naoya a Toji fanboy (though true LMAO) and not realizing how Toji really influenced his persona. Like the admiration Naoya held for Toji is so deeply engraved in him that he, who was called a genius sorcerer as a child, looks up to a man who was called a failure. Toji is probably the only man in the clan that he respected, that's why toji's level of strength became his "picture" to follow. And I think a lot of who Naoya has become is because the Zen'ins literally groomed the decency out of him. Still, though groomed to be everything he is, he himself chose not to change anything about it.

(wait but also?? little naoya looks cute like he would guide old ladies on the ped xing so what the fuck happened after that)

I guess one major reason why he does not respect anyone else in the clan (besides his superiority complex) is because of the Zen'in's concept of what is marked as strong. Like, the way they see and treated him as if he's the best sorcerer in the making, yet failing to see Toji's powers and rejecting him fully. It's something similar to Mai when she said "Maki has talent that I don't. And the clan rejected that; that talent that I lacked", except Naoya is raised to be a confident (arrogant?) child, thus he takes it as a challenge instead and works to achieve it.

So, when Maki reached the level of Toji, I think his reaction wasn't simply stemmed on his "fanboy" antics, but his desperation of being part of that level of strength. I think he's more irritated in the fact that Maki, someone who he does not see anywhere near as strong as he is (though he does say Maki is strong in chapter 138), reached a level of strength that he hasn't; that he is trying hard to achieve. It's also the same with having your favorite superhero getting defeated. And Naoya's in denial that there is someone else who could be the same as Toji.

I like how he's an antagonist that was not build under the foundation of a sob backstory (though it was a v small sneak peak of his background and was mainly centered with his admiration for toji, plus I think people forget that Naoya is an antagonist), how he acknowledges that he has not reached that level of strength. Of course, I'm angsty about his misogynistic ideals. I get that he's from a very traditionalist clan so... yeah. I mean, no child is born evil. Children learn from those around them (I've seen many people say he's trash since he was a kid when he said that "i wonder what miserable face he has", but like he's a kid, he doesn't know what he's saying AHSJFJWJQ8QR he was either taught that or he just learned it from others. Funnily enough, he does say toji has a pretty face now LMAO). Maybe it stems from something else, maybe it didn't.

I'm not saying him trying to kill Megumi is forgotten (Though, the Jujutsu Society is a place where teens get executed for the simple fact that they are too strong, so im not surprised. Just like Noritoshi said, age does not matter in Jujutsu Society). I see now why he was really pissed about Megumi being the head, since Naoya has been promised the position since he was young, only to loose of a 15 year old who is the son of the man he admires :')) However, still, none of it excuses the shit he did. He still has a shitty personality, but it's nice to know a bit of a background.

Anyway, that's all for now. My English is bad so that might be all over the place •`,`• That's just my take on it so I could be wrong or maybe seeing him wrong since we still don't know much abt him. I'm always scared to talk about naoya because the last time i did (on twt) i got a backlash of hate (ppl really do get hate just from admiring someone's characterization). Your blog is like a safe haven for naoya stans, so i thank you for that hehe.

Have a nice day suki!! kisses~

(also this is a PSPSPSPS to a naoya childhood friends au fic pls 👁👁)

bestie omg I am so sorry, I found this deep in my inbox and I am *shakes* and yes yes let’s talk about naoya, I would be more than glad to and I’m sorry I didn’t see this any sooner!! more rants and simping under the cut

I'm kinda sad at how people just calls Naoya a Toji fanboy (though true LMAO) and not realizing how Toji really influenced his persona. Like the admiration Naoya held for Toji is so deeply engraved in him that he, who was called a genius sorcerer as a child, looks up to a man who was called a failure. Toji is probably the only man in the clan that he respected, that's why toji's level of strength became his "picture" to follow. And I think a lot of who Naoya has become is because the Zen'ins literally groomed the decency out of him. Still, though groomed to be everything he is, he himself chose not to change anything about it.

omg for this…I’m actually like…like I love the detail that naoya admires toji? as we can see from the panel of little naoya, it’s like people have already planted in his head that no cursed energy = loser, yet he ended up admiring him and I am,,,my heart is just soft! exactly! just think of naoya born as a genius sorcerer yet his admiration for toji, who is painted as the clan’s failure, helped shape him into who he is! idk but I just really love the fact that naoya, who is like born with the pressure and role of being clan leader, somewhat strays from tradition and ends up finding strength into toji and even strives to follow him or “stand by him” someday. for me, it just shows that perhaps naoya isn’t really half as bad as he should be in an honest sense, meaning that he’s evil or morally corrupt because he was born that way or because he chose to be that way. I do agree that perhaps he is the way he is now because he’s groomed to be like that, but of course, I’m not going to disregard the fact that somewhere along the way, Naoya could’ve matured to choose himself to not embody the misogynistic tradition of the zen’in clan.

This could just be me, but my interpretation of it is that Naoya seems more like the perfect product or embodiment of how the clan shaped him to be, blinded him with false morals and the patriarchy presiding into them. Rather than Naoya being just “a misogynistic arrogant man” in my perspective and my opinion, I see him more into the bigger picture of his toxic upbringing to begin with. Like, no child is born evil unless there’s like a predetermined curse deciding their fate for them, so its partly the Zen’in clan’s fault he’s that way. But Gege showing that Naoya admiring someone the Zen’in clan disregarded, it shows that he is capable of being himself without the clause of his clan enforcing things to him once again, like the whole “he’s gonna be the future clan leader” thing, though that is still heavily embedded within him.

(wait but also?? little naoya looks cute like he would guide old ladies on the ped xing so what the fuck happened after that)

OMGGGG PLEASE THAT’S SO CUTE, HE LOOKED SO INNOCENT AND ADORABLE BUT EVEN AS A CHILD HE WAS ALREADY CALLING PEOPLE A LOSER LIKE EYE

I guess one major reason why he does not respect anyone else in the clan (besides his superiority complex) is because of the Zen'in's concept of what is marked as strong. Like, the way they see and treated him as if he's the best sorcerer in the making, yet failing to see Toji's powers and rejecting him fully. It's something similar to Mai when she said "Maki has talent that I don't. And the clan rejected that; that talent that I lacked",except Naoya is raised to be a confident (arrogant?) child, thus he takes it as a challenge instead and works to achieve it.

Anon, is it just me or like…was his superiority complex also enforced on him by the Zen’in clan as well? Again this could just be me going all psychologist mode on Naoya but the nature of superiority complex is quite interesting, you know! As a psych student, I perfectly understand that superiority complex either stems from several things like a) wanting to live up to one’s or others expectations, b) masking it with a deep stem of insecurity, or c) it’s a coping mechanism. See, I could go on and on about but then I’d have to link all my past studies lmao so let’s just put it on layman’s terms that my interpretation of Naoya’s superiority complex is once again, influenced by the clan. Imagine being a kid born into a clan where people remind you again and again that you’re the future leader, that you would be the one to guide them or protect them or discuss the clan’s future and status once you grow, and you’re quite groomed for it.

For such pressure to be put on a child’s shoulders, it kind of strips off his youth and instead of him enjoying his youth, I can imagine that it took a toll on little Naoya, and the reason he grew his superiority complex is his way to cope and reach the standards and expectations that is given to him. Of course, he’s a kid, he might start to wonder, “Can I even do all of that?” but seeing as the Zen’in clan highly measures strength and growth based on abilities, cursed energy, and overall just to conform into the image they’ve held for years, it’s quite obvious that Naoya can’t exactly voice out his worries over this, so instead, he masks it with a superiority complex that absolutely boosts him to a higher level, thus giving him the confidence he needed to carry out his tasks and the reassurance that, “Yes, I am worthy and I will be the clan leader.” As for your theory that he takes it as a challenge, I can see where you’re coming from! I think Naoya is the type of person who definitely likes to challenge himself, but one of the reasons I love his character so much is because he’s not completely a brainless “head on straight to war” type of person too.

He knows his limits and knows which side he should be in, as showed when Yuuta came and mans surrendered easily. Idk why but to me, Naoya, who is such an arrogant confident man who has high trust in abilities, but at the same time can admit when someone is stronger than him (like him admiring Toji and Gojo) just makes him more human and a little more beautifully flawed. Like, he’s not perfect and he’s most definitely an irritating character, but the way he was written is just *chef’s kiss*

So, when Maki reached the level of Toji, I think his reaction wasn't simply stemmed on his "fanboy" antics, but his desperation of being part of that level of strength. I think he's more irritated in the fact that Maki, someone who he does not see anywhere near as strong as he is (though he does say Maki is strong in chapter 138), reached a level of strength that he hasn't; that he is trying hard to achieve. It's also the same with having your favorite superhero getting defeated. And Naoya's in denial that there is someone else who could be the same as Toji.

Yes, ah I really do love this theory that he’s more irritated because in his mind, he’s like, “I’m a genius sorcerer! I was meant to be clan leader! This is my rightful spot to be a strong one, so how come Maki, who is a woman, with no zero cursed energy has reached the level of the person I looked up most to?” again, Naoya didn’t say that and those are just my opinions and brainrot so don’t come at me for it uwu, but yeah I do think that he’s very aggravated that he didn’t react that level first. Because I guess you could say, he’s probably alluding that Maki reaching Toji’s strength = them being equals, and ofc Naoya wanted to be the one standing beside them. It probably hit his superiority complex that he wasn’t the one in Maki’s spot especially when he tried so hard to achieve it, and considering the gifts he was given (same cursed technique as his dad and him having cursed energy) it threw him off.

Yeah, Naoya is most likely in denial and becomes aggressive over it, although I don’t really mean physically aggressive because Naoya is actually quite calm and ‘composed.’ If ever he did go on a rampage, he does it in such a suave, calculated manner with this silent confidence that he will win. It kind of makes you root for him because he even fools the audience (by audience I mean ME) that he’s going to OWN that fight but whoop, he got his ass kicked. Plus ten points for confidence and a bonus thousand points for being sexy though!!! Yeah, omg he’s probably in disbelief that a woman of all people could be like the person he admired most.

I like how he's an antagonist that was not build under the foundation of a sob backstory (though it was a v small sneak peak of his background and was mainly centered with his admiration for toji, plus I think people forget that Naoya is an antagonist), how he acknowledges that he has not reached that level of strength. Of course, I'm angsty about his misogynistic ideals. I get that he's from a very traditionalist clan so... yeah. I mean, no child is born evil. Children learn from those around them (I've seen many people say he's trash since he was a kid when he said that "i wonder what miserable face he has", but like he's a kid, he doesn't know what he's saying AHSJFJWJQ8QR he was either taught that or he just learned it from others. Funnily enough, he does say toji has a pretty face now LMAO). Maybe it stems from something else, maybe it didn't.

OMG YESSSS ANON YES YES YES *slams down simping button angrily* That’s what I like about him too! Even though Naoya is cocky and wayyyy too arrogant for his own good, I also like that he acknowledges he’s not quite in a level he wants to be in yet. And hah, his backstory, it wasn’t totally sob because it’s obvious he was much too doted on, but I still hate how they made him like that. True, if he’s still carrying the same misogynistic ideals as he is now in an age where he has the mental capacity to improve and be different, then the belief has become more of a choice than something engraved into him, which I am really disappointed and not really into because of course, he’d be much better if he wasn’t like that in the first place. LOLOLOLOL yes yes he’s a kid, it sure as hell doesn’t excuse the way he is now but like just think !!

if a kid was spouting out such mean words and CLEARLY no one is correcting him, who really is the problem here? A child has a harder time deciphering what is right and wrong by himself without proper guidance. And he didn’t have proper guidance, they really just let him be like that and it’s because the clan!! sucks !! ass !! YEAH he probably called toji with a miserable face because he hasn’t seen him before but after seeing the iconic dilf, Naoya gone be like, “anyways, I lied, moving on—”

I'm not saying him trying to kill Megumi is forgotten (Though, the Jujutsu Society isa place where teens get executed for the simple fact that they are too strong, so im not surprised. Just like Noritoshi said, age does not matter in Jujutsu Society). I see now why he was really pissed about Megumi being the head, since Naoya has been promised the position since he was young, only to loose of a 15 year old who is the son of the man he admires :')) However, still, none of it excuses the shit he did. He still has a shitty personality, but it's nice to know a bit of a background.

yeah no of course, no worries! even as a hardcore naoya stan, I can admit this dude is TERRIBLE for so many reasons! yeah I mean that could be pretty irritating because he was born for it, raised to be clan leader, groomed and expected he’d have that role, but nah someone else took his throne. yeah I’m with you on that, naoya has a shitty personality and I would totally smack him if he was real because he makes my eyes roll to the back of my head, but knowing his background and theorizing (read: me going all psychologist mode because he’s the only character I ever cared about to apply my studies into) his character is quite fun. I wish we had more scenes with Naoya though, I really hoped he’d play a bigger role but he just…died, I guess, though I’m starting to believe that maybe he really isn’t dead! Gege did him dirty omg I’ll cry again if it’s really GENUINELY confirmed my baby is gone.

Anyway, that's all for now. My English is bad so that might be all over the place •`,`• That's just my take on it so I could be wrong or maybe seeing him wrong since we still don't know much abt him. I'm always scared to talk about naoya because the last time i did (on twt) i got a backlash of hate (ppl really do get hate just from admiring someone's characterization). Your blog is like a safe haven for naoya stans, so i thank you for that hehe.

ah no worries about your English, I didn’t really notice anything wrong with it tbh! And I understand, these are all just our opinions/theories/perspectives, we could be wrong or not, we don’t really know because we’re not Gege (⋟﹏⋞) NOOOO PEOPLE HATED YOU ON THAT? ISTG I’VE NEVER SEEN A FANDOM CANCEL SOMEONE AS MUCH AS JJK FANDOM CANCELS NAOYA AND NAOYA STANS LIKE – he’s just a fictional character omg, cancelling naoya is understandable because I would too but attacking his fans? or generally anyone who talks about him in a neutral or not in a way that goes, “yeah I would punch this mfer” is just?? doesn’t make sense to me bestie, people really choose to do that with their time yikes.

AND AWWW THANK YOU YES I PROTECT ALL MY FELLOW NAOYA STANS HERE, I respect who people simp for because if it’s what you enjoy and as long as you’re not hurting anybody, then it really doesn’t matter and it’s not a big deal! and you’re always welcome here uwu. have an even nicer day bestie and I’m sorry I didn’t see this sooner AAAA I really loved talking about this tho HEHEHEH I’m not actually too much of a JJK theorist since I’m not smart enough to pay attention or infer from all the details but NAOYA HMMMMM also childhood friends fic? hmu let’s hear it!! also ahh hmm idk but i get really happy whenever people talk to me freely about naoya bcos even tho i have been a naoya simp for like three months, it was not until recently that people came to me about him and i have just been simping alone (bcos people MADDDD) spsppsps okay rant over thank you anon i love you kith kith <3

#asks with naoya's trophy wife #jjk: manga spoilers #tw: misogyny

[fatedfuturist]

sorry I keep promising to write and then like... not writing. usually I don't do that. idk why, but the second I finished all my classes and whatnot, my muse just kinda puttered out. most days I want to write, I just don't have the muse or the kind of certain motivation to, and it's driving me nuts. if I'm not working on freelancing for this startup, I'm playing video games (particularly witcher 3 atm and now I'm getting into WoW....) or drawing because they don't require me to form coherent and decent-looking sentences and words. sorry if people have been hoping to plot or write with me, I'm kinda just all over the place rn from a tired and weird headspace to being physically blegh. any time I do spend writing I just queue existing drafts or memes and not spend too much time perusing the dash. I've been selectively talking to a few people actively on discord for ooc/plotting but that's just abt it. maybe it's burnout. I counted all my grades today. 36 classes, 1 B, 6 B+, the rest have been A/A+. I spent so much time harping over getting good grades and now it's like... adrenaline crash or smthn from working so hard for 4 consistent years to have academic achievements/success. btwn professor union strikes to the pandemic, I've had a wild 4 years of post-secondary and now I'm gonna be graduating in the most unsatisfactory kinda way ever. I'm excited to see where my life goes but it's also kinda daunting and aaaanssjssjajak iM JUST RANTING i am sorry anyway thank you to those who remain patient with me I'm trying my best

#ooc. #tw: negativity #kind of? not really? #anyway i just has like 4 shite dreams abt being stuck back in high school of all things and im going insane

[rithmeres]

long rant abt sh.ades of m.agic under the cut sorry

i’m 150 pages into the last book and honestly.............. this trilogy not that good lmao. maybe some my complaints will be resolved by the end of the series but seeing how things have gone so far i really doubt it. the premise and worldbuilding were so promising and i really like the whole concept of the four londons, i like kell’s character design and coat, and i like the way blood is used for magic but that’s where the good stuff ends. it’s a shame that the plot and cast can’t hold up to the core concept. lila is SO annoying and the way that the only major female character in these books has a hUGE ‘im not like other girls’ complex and actively derides other women and anything feminine and it’s presented as girl power is so bad and cringe. she walks around doing whatever illegal or self-entitled things she wants with no regard for the consequences and she never faces any consequences, from the law or from the narrative or from the people who care about her. her relationship with kell is weird too like they met and barely interacted before she kissed him and they suddenly start acting like their whole world revolves around the other. she’s sooooooooo mary-sue gifted like kell has trained his whole life to do magic so of course he’s amazing but lila has two (2) lessons with some annoying pirate and suddenly she can go toe to toe with kell and do insanely difficult magic without even knowing what she’s doing. it’s bad writing brent.

i do like kell though, even if he is a little boring, and i like the tight bond he has with his brother. i think kell is the only person with any common sense in this book and he’s a breath of fresh air. but DO NOT GET ME STARTED on the blatant favoritism the king and queen show for their biological son. the way they treat kell as inferior leaves such a bad taste in my mouth like it’s bad enough that you would have a blatant favorite but on top of it kell saved rhy’s life three different times and they can’t even say thank you or acknowledge his sacrifice?? they’re so cold to him and for what. kell basically died to save his brother and the parents respond by essentially grounding their adult son and it’s gross. and then rhy is every pretty flirty privileged boy stereotype rolled into one and he grates on my nerves and what’s really bad is that he has the EXACT same personality as his love interest which makes reading these books SUPER WEIRD because the two of them look physically similar and have become literally interchangeable in my mind. adding alucard (i hate that name so much omfg) to the cast was just adding a second rhy to the mix and he seems to have very little bearing on the plot. would it kill authors to not make every bisexual character a flirts-with-anything-that-moves stereotype. you should be ashamed of yourself.

also literally nothing of importance happened in the second book until the very end and there was actually no point to that entire tournament and most of the stuff could have been cut. holland is the only mf in this city i respect and the only one with nuance and a compelling character. i feel so bad for him bc he just cannot catch a break and everyone hates him so much even though he was being controlled against his will, and the other characters know this but they still abuse him. and there r a bunch of unexplained issues with the magic system (like how did athos dane summon a big snake???) and the power scaling (or maybe it’s just all thrown off because of lila’s supernatural gifting).

it feels to me like schwab was just like ‘uhhhhhhh what do people like these days ... people like boys with mysterious backstories so i’m uhhhhhhhh literally never gonna explain how my main character got his powers or where he came from. people like uhhhhhhhhhh strong female characters so my one and only female character of importance is gonna hate everything about being a woman. people like diversity so im gonna give them uhhhhhhhhh two horny bisexual poc men who are nigh indistinguishable from each other’ and hoped the story would write itself

#for a moment i thought maybe im just getting old and jaded and ive outgrown ya but then i remembered THIS IS ADULT FICTION #this is shelved alongside gaiman and pratchett and sanderson and le guin so like. step it up miss schwab #i really liked vicious #like A LOT #vengeful didnt do it for me tho #so i had hoped that i would like schwab's more recent stuff even if i didnt like vengeful #but nah #i should go read some stiefvater next because her prose and characters are incredible incredible INCREDIBLE #some of schwab's stuff reads kinda fic-ish #and not the tightly wrought fics that blow your socks off #it's like...... common phrases and conventions that i p much only see in amateur online spaces when describing characters or writing romance #i don't really know how to explain it i need to just go to bed

[honeykami]

May i request a class 1a bnha matchup? (i am so so sorry if this is doing to much. it’s my first time writing one of these-) i’m an aries, a minor, 5’6, she/her, an esfp, and bisexual (no preference). i am african american, with 4c dark brown curls that hang when wet. i switch between contacts and my glasses. eyeliner and small hoop earrings are my go to, since i feel insanely confident when i have it on. i love making friends and even if people don’t like me- i try to warm them up 😔👊🏾.

my love language is music, such as making playlists but mainly touch. also- i am touch starved so that’s that hshsjsks- daddy issues also 🧍🏾‍♀️. i am very loud, incredibly talkative, i swear (a lot), competive, impulsive, and i would like to think that i am incredibly funny (i happen to be a noya kinnie.) i enjoy keeping the same energy in my friendships and relationships. i am casually flirty but i know when to tone it down. with eyeliner, i have been told that i have a natural resting bitch face, i promise i am not that bad, i just don’t like putting up with people’s bs.

i’m definitely a big romantic and my ideal first dates would take place at skating rink, an arcade, an amusement park (i could go on and on-) i have been told that i have the perfect mix of street smarts and book smarts. if one small thing goes wrong, it can (and will) drastically change my mood for the entire day (bokuto kin- ahhh.)

i play volleyball and have a slim build but feel insecure abt my stomach. to usually hide those insecurities, i overcompensate with my ego gshsjsk- but at the same time, i go through periods where i absolutely love myself (oikawa kinnie also.) i love musical theatre and indie horror games. the umbrella academy, camp camp, and my hero academia are some of my favorite shows. for the most part- i really just go with the flow and vibe of other people (like i said- matching energy is important to me.) same goes for my clothing aesthetic and my music taste- when it comes to music, it ranges from boy bands to songs based on indie horror games to different time periods then musical theatre, back to the songs i cry to, the yarichin b club theme song, my favorite artists and then back to boy bands. (truly sorry that this is so long- you obviously don’t have to do it if it’s too long but thank you anyways-🧎🏾‍♀️🤲🏾) - @1-800-s1mping

i match you with....

the stun gun hero: chargebolt also known as denki kaminari (have you heard the audio of him saying his name? i’m denKI KAmiNARI i just laugh at it all the time)

this due is the definition of confidence but in the: i am absolutely not afraid of the repercussions of my actions

but that’s not always bad cause he’s your hype man!!

and have you see this boy? he literally became friends with bakugou by annoying him (i’m not calling you annoying!! i’m saying that y’all are definitely the couple that will have people become your friends even if they didn’t expect too!)

he will literally listen to all of your playlists!!! his music style is just as wack as his room is

ok ok so i feel like people would compare you two a lot when you are def different bc: you can’t handle bs and he’ll handle it and even tease the person bakugou

did i hear arcade, skating rink, and theme park? he would’ve just taken you without even knowing you like that stuff because he thinks it’s just a fantastic first date idea

he’ll try to turn your mood around when it’s sour but if he can’t he’ll just let you rant about it even if he didn’t understand a single thing you said

teach him volleyball pls this boy needs some form of exercise if he isn’t gonna go to a gym

also have you seen like official art of this boy in casual clothes? he has a pretty decent style thankfully so he won’t look like a hot mess when y’all leave

y’all 100% flirt with eachother a lot and sometimes people find it funny and other times people bakugou will tell scream at you to get a room

🍯: omg you sound dope as hell also why are you so tall!! im so short bruh i’m 5’2 also i wish i had your hair but i can barely manage my own curls it also isn’t too long!! long ones sometimes make me think that i’m having a convo with y’all!!

#bnha #boku no hero academia #mha #my hero academia #bnha matchup #bnha matchups #mha matchup #mha matchups #🍊 #submission #hive.matchup

[rantsbymiriam]

Welcome bitches

My blog is back!!! No wait - my REAL blog is back. It's been so long. How i've missed blogging like the good old days. The time before PICTURES & captions took over. I still love pictures, but pictures can be faked. Blogs...well blogs can be faked too but it takes a lot more work to be fake. In this blog, it's gonna be so real, your mama sakit mata baca. 

I know I already have a blog (www.miriamomar.com) but that blog is only to talk about work and life related stuff that's super serious and super boring.  LETS BE REAL. I ain't gonna be swearing and dissing life crap in between posts about serious work stuff. ONE MUST SEPARATE THE TWO! My blogs are truly a reflection of my psyche. And these 2 blogs will show you two very different sides of me that I have (finally) come to terms with. 

On one side, I have this ~high achieving, give talks at conference, scholarship, academic, lecturer, WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE, do the right thing goody two shoes~  side of myself. I call it my "Hermione" side. Which is really a big part of who I am. I can be extremely serious, philosophical and analytical "pseudo intellectual" bla bla bla. Basically, I have this complex about needing to KNOW EVERYTHING or else I would feel insecure and "unsafe". I also have an insatiable curiosity to understand the workings of the world and the true essence of being. Not many can follow my type of conversations. I know this because people start to yawn. My main hobby is to devour books and go around annoying people about what I read and telling them what to do (its true, i must stop I know im sorry everyone)

HOWEVER - this is not that blog. And this is not that side of myself that I would like to share to the world.. This space is for me to talk about THAT OTHER SIDE OF ME. The side that grew up in the depths of the longkangs in Kajang and Bangi. The side that got suspended in school multiple times because I asik dating dengan my boyfriend (now I realize it's just my "co-dependency" lol)  the side that tergolek in front of Zouk every Friday night (trauma symptoms lol) the side that your mama don't like and I have to cover-cover so your mama can still let you be friends with me!!! It's OK, don't worry, I won't be a bad influence this time around if I can help it. LOL

Well now, I have obviously mellowed out a lot. Like a LOT A LOT. I don't do crazy shit anymore. I have come to a place in my life that I have accepted my past and all the stuff I used to do (kak long kawasan etc etc) More on that bit later.

To be EXTREMELY honest, my life is not that interesting anymore. This is my first year of business as a full time artist, running Project MIRRO and part-time lecturing. I've been grinding and making ends meet like a robot. I haven't been out and about having a life since I got back from London in late 2017. I hardly get to see my friends or go out and lepak. I haven't dated at all. In fact,  I haven't met a new person of the opposite sex who isn't a business acquaintance or gay since 2017. And it's one more month to 2020. I'm not getting any younger either. Im 31 turning 32. and I totally don't have a life, let alone a LOVE LIFE. Oh My God 2.0. (Its okay I have more to say about this part it's not the end of the world)

Today I am supposed to work on a new collection release for Project MIRRO. I will do it right after I write this blog I PROMISE. It's just that, sometimes I have no more fuel to burn to run my life. Working alone in isolation, it gets to you sometimes. As an introvert, ITS GREAT, but it also has its downfall. MOTIVATION. This shit can't appear out of thin air ok. Bukan boleh beli online add to cart "Motivation" I'm literally that girl that has not seen the world and people in over 2 days. This could go up to 2 weeks. I'm just super comfortable on my own in my own world. I love it, I really do. TAPI, I know it's not good for me. I believe if im out and about, mixing and talking with people, I will probably get more income for my business. I know it. I dont know why I don't do it (malas sebenarnya) 

I have to say though, I have a pretty comfy studio..I dont feel the need to go out. I am very much comfortable in this space for me to create and be myself. But I also know that perhaps its not the best time for me to be in isolation at such an early phase of my new "art career" whatever that means. Whatever im going through now reminds me of how I was at my first job back in 2012. I am starting all over again, learning all over again with this new life path. Its hard, uncomfortable, and super consuming. And im doing it, LEGIT, all alone. Mana tak rasa cam kepala nak meletup. Obviously kepala I dah meletup a few times. Then I realized its because I don't have a new outlet to release stress. I used to paint to release stress but now it's my job. I need something ELSE. 

I've been playing music again, writing songs again (im NOT gonna show it to anyone I would probably die of embarrassment)So it seems like, sejak dua menjak ni, I feel the need to EXPRESS. To write again. To "communicate" without leaving my nest. This is the next best thing la for me since I am such a pemalas to mandi and pakai baju. I've been in the same kaftan for 2 days. WOOOTT. This is the best thing abt working from home. NOBODY CARES WHAT U WEAR!! But don't worry I totally mandi and gosok gigi for you aunties gasping and gossiping about this anak dara tak senonoh. Ishhhh.

Anyway, whatsup people? How are you guys? How is life?????!! I just realized back then when I wrote in this blog (with the same name), I had READERS. I just never really read the comments or participated in my "community" of readers. I should've. I will try do better this time and get conversations going. Reply and all that. PARTICIPATE. 

Ok its already 1.15pm now and I really need to get back to work. I have lots to rant about later malam sikit bila dah sunyi sepi and lonely lolol. Thanks for reading. Goodbye for now.

[cafecinnamon8]

I really like your hb oc and his backstory!! I hope you decide to share even more info about him! (Like honestly just go off and rant about everything and anything about him, if you want, I love hearing people talk about their ocs!!!) But, i'd love to hear more about his relationship with his sister and how he behaved in St. Pigeonations!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!im really happy!!!!;;;;;;;www;;;;;;; aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAA

I…love when ppl ask abt…ocs….even if i dont make them A Lot…and abandon them after like a week….thank u omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

diivng in headfirst uMM…first of all him and his sister!! maki really liked drawing and the two of them would draw and color thngs together…if maki. lived past 7, she would love art a lot and get her ass into art school ok im sad… maki rlly loved her brother and vice versa, they would play pretend with each other, build forts, get into trouble, etc.

this is really long so ill put it under a read more!

i also told this to my friend and!! maki is really brave, specifically she is totally okay with thunderstorms and even likes them, but haru is really scared of them, so she’s like “its ok haru!! ill protect you from the storm!!! dont worry!!!” and they build another protection fort + double protection because of makis stuffed animals!!!! and every time haru gets ;_; because of the thunder she’s like “the thunder is screaming because its scared of us!!”

theyre just. ok theyre rlly close…more specific details there is also a little store next to their house that they go to all the time to spend their allowance and buy dumb little trinkets!!! when maki was home sick before her Death, haru promised to get her something when he came home that day,,,,,and she was really excited and couldn’t wait for him to come home…. and then. dies. oops

i don’t know yet what that Thing was exactly but…maybe it was a new set of hair pins…eyes emoji because haru didnt wear pins as a child that was maki, and now he doeshehHEHEH im dying

…ok his behavior at st pigeonations tho!! originally he was supposed to be >:3 basically, but that changed after. All That SHIT

i think it’s a given thing that he’s pretty withdrawn - years of brainwashing n Mental Torture probably do a doozy on ur brain after all - yet I don’t think he’s necessarily intimidating?? he seems kinda strange, he stares at others for too long especially if they interest him, and following that he probably also follows people for the same reason and then walks away when he loses interest. and also hes withdrawn because dude cant even talk

i also put him in anghels class, 2-2 i think? also, since his. basic skills kinda deteriorated in 5-6 years, he probably also isn’t the best when it comes to school? so, that leads to me bringing up the headmaster was in on operation hurtful in bbl right?? and he was also probably aware of harus Role at the school, and his grades aren’t accurate (like, his true grade should’ve been like. a 23, but he gets a much higher grade).

im sorry that might be confusing and im also all over the place bc i l ove him so much!!!!! the only grade that’s accurate for him is gym class though

 i didnt mention this, and this is kinda fucked up but..hawk party..haru being Successfully Brainwashed would probably lead to a bunch of brainwashed human-hating soldiers - including child soldiers

with THAT out there, he’s probably being drugged and trained excessively to be physically strong in that case. so basically, he’s terrible academically, but he can Run, Jump, Pick Things Up, bc of all that. so he’s very good in gym

...ok i kind of sidetracked for his behavior, again he’s very withdrawn and seems eccentric. im...sorry for putting ocs with canon characters because i know ppl see that as cringy but,,, like i said before in the story post, he is a part of the infirmary staff and shuu supervises him (”supervises” is a loose term, like i also said there are cameras everywhere to watch him). my friend and i discussed that, on a hypothetical haru route, instead of hiyoko finding Anghel’s ID on the floor, she sees haru disposing of it because shuu told him to

god this is getting so long but omg...i need to finish Eventually so ill just. talk about another scenario 

for context, hypothetically after BBL - which i still dont know his. again. hypothetical role there completely - he gets his collar removed and gets Help to reverse everything the hawk party did. yes its gonna take a long ass time. but hes my child i do what i want, he needs his happy ending (bc all the hypothetical routes and bbl scenario = sadness. spoiler alert he kills hiyoko in his route)

his absolute zero self...i want to draw it soon. there’s two versions, and idek the class yet but, as his first class, he’s a puppet being controlled by hands that float above him, and is connected by strings and the strings force him to fight the enemies, but his second class is him as the puppet master, and he controls his own abilities this time

hes...gonna get healthy ok...idc if it takes years hes my child and hes gonna b ok and at least slowly start speaking again aaHHHHHHH

im sorry this is so long i love him...this isnt even..ALL of it eyt sdfidsihosdff

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