#I've been feeling wrong lately

[angelicmonstersdiseasee]

Angelspo

#I've been feeling wrong lately #ana angels🪽 #c🌧️ #c🦋 #pro for me #thinsspi #thinspu #thinspø #th1nsp1ration #angel th1nsspi #4n4blr #4norexi4

[chromaherder]

Byler week day 4: Summer Love During which Mike vows to never do sports again after swallowing a good handful of salt water.

#byler #byler fanart #bylerweek2023 #i've been listening to a lot of Beach Boys lately so yeah #also I recently learned how to surf and let me tell you it's not easy #also been feeling very soft the past few days with all the amazing art and writing being posted #so you can have a little smooch as a treat #if you realize now mike has freckles like he rightfully should is bc 2 days later i realized i uploaded the wrong image lmao #fanart

[benetnvsch]

*squeakytoynoise*

#bungou stray dogs #kunikida doppo #bsd #SORRY FOR ALL OF THESE SHITPOST LATE IDK WHATS WRONG WITH ME #I've been in A Mood </3 #I've been in such a kunikida mood but have No inspiration/motivation lately #feel free to send me any drawing prompts ever please </3 #maybe ill draw him as a furryy later again that always does the trick /hj

[retrobr]

bruh

#i've been feeling so detached from my friend group lately because of this #while everyone discusses their interests with each other i just sit there. meh #and i literally have no one to eagerly talk about my other interests with #bruh what is wrong with me? #my art #art #idk may delete later

[gretagator]

Chcuk McGill.... save me

#better call saul #bcs #chuck mcgill #fanart #art #never doing this again. #i swear it looks better irl #i haven't been drawing a lot lately because i don't have time and also i've been busy trying to stay alive hihi #honestly wondering if i'll ever be able to function in society lolzsjh can't even say hi back to people because it makes me feel weird. #i feel most comfortable just staring silently. and then i'll complain about feeling lonely ughggd what's wrong with me #if complaining in tumblr tags was an occupation i would be rich....

[theshushdragonsleeps]

So I'm pretty bad at expressing myself through writing cuz I'm pretty shit at it, but I can't get out of my head the scene of Jaiden comforting and confronting Roier during Festa Junina. It's the fact that Jaiden, through her own grief and self isolation, grabs a hold of a drowning Roier. Looking at him and truly seeing him and accepting him at his lowest point. Loudly declaring that he deserves kindness and love and she is his partner and that she is here for him. 

And I believe she will not waver about her conviction and affection for him. And while she may need time and she may be hurt beyond comprehension, she will never actually leave him until the day she is no longer wanted. (Even then she will leave with kindness and understanding.) 

In fact, until the day when one or both are ready to come apart and become their own person again, I believe that together they will be holding each other up. Unwilling to let the other fall despite their own pain.

And just, I love their partnership so much. I know other people in this fandom have been upset that Jaiden or Roier haven't been there for each other enough since Bobby's death, but I need people to understand that both are the type to self isolate when upset. Like Roier might still be a part of the bigger group and acting dramatic around others while Jaiden is acting fine with her usual silliness and then completely disappearing, but both doing the same thing. Both are trying to make a “joke” about how much of a mess they have become after Bobby died without ever having to open up and talk to anybody about it. Both are giving a show as if to say “I wont let you see how much I’m actually hurting because if you actually saw me grieve without my mask of silliness, I will become a burden and you will leave me” 

And by god if I don't feel this to my very core which might be why I’m so obsessed over this. Cuz despite their own fear of being perceived and the feeling of becoming a burden or being looked down upon and used, they are still reaching out and offering others nothing but love.

Like if I remember correctly there was a time when someone (I can't remember who, sorry) asked Roier what he wanted and he said that he wanted someone to fully accepting him and give him a place to feel like he was being cared about, and to be the one on the receiving end of love rather than always being the one to reach out. And here is Jaiden with the sun rising behind her with arms wide open bathed in the new dawning warmth, only offering love and asking for nothing in return. 

Bobby may have been their sunset, but together through the love they have for each other they are creating their own sunrise. 

 And just, ahhhh, sorry I know all of this was overly long winded and badly written and I'm deeply embarrassed by the fact that I can't write better than this but I wanted to try out being a part of a voice in the void of a fandom for once and get a little bit of my love for these two out there.

#qsmp #qsmp jaiden #qsmp roier #I've actually edited this down a lot and still feel like I'm not properly articulating myself #like there are things in here Im worried will come across wrong #or im miss remembering roier talk about how he wants someone to care about him #did i make that up?? #ahhhhhhhh #im so scared so im posting this late when no one else usally posts to minamize who sees this #also i understand my gramer and uses of commas and periods are wrong #Ive always been bad at writing and I feel guilty making other people read it #sorry

[winchestersheaven]

me: i’m gonna read Rodney McKay fics

fandom: we have lots of McShep

me: McShep is good, i like that ship

me: so, McShep fics with Rodney feels, please

fandom: sure thing, lots of Rodney feels here 😇

fandom: *bombards me with unexpected John feels*

me: hey, uh. why is my heart all fucked up?

#don't get me wrong i love it #but it is not what i signed up for x'D #i fell so gd hard for Rodney when i watched Atlantis and while i really enjoyed other characters too (John included) #Rodney was the one i just did not want to let go and the one i really wanted to read #so since McShep is a fairly big ship that i did like i figured it was easier to go there than to find Rodney heavy fics based on tags alone #and now here i am with a ton of John feels i wasn't planning on (and a brand new otp...) #Smowkie talks #McShep #John Sheppard #Rodney McKay #i'm planning a couple of McShep fic rec posts btw #(the fic that made me write this post included) #not sure when but they are coming. at least two of them #i've read a lot lately and i've actually mostly remember to save the faves so i can share them which feels very nice #i love fic rec posts but i've always been horribly bad at making them myself #but after that summer reading challenge i've gotten better at it and i'm hoping it can result in some future fic rec posts #well it will result in at least two for McShep xD

[felizusnavidad]

unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom

#time for a little rant because i feel like i need to get it off my chest rn #i feel so disconnected from this fandom lately #mostly because literally everything is about travis these days #like don't get me wrong i'm really happy that she's happy but #i just don't feel the need to talk about her relationship 24/7 like some of the swifties #and honestly it's all just too much #everything is about taylor and i'm not even excited anymore when i see new pictures of her #because it's just too much??? #i truly love her with all my heart and i always will but even i am tired and i've been a swiftie for literally half of my life #why do people have to discuss every single detail about her love life #and who cares if she's going to be at the game again #let her live maybe #i'm sorry but it's just so annoying lately #this fandom is being too fucking loud and i'm tired and it's not even fun anymore #remember when the eras tour started? amazing times #we were talking about it all the time and discussing every single detail of the tour and the songs and all #now it's all about her new relationship guys it's not... like... WHY. #it makes me so sad because it used to be different #ugh #i might get hate for that but i don't care i just really needed to say that #taylor swift #ts #talking shit for the hell of it*

[fabdante]

anyway, given twitters continued implosion, i figured now was a good a time as any to share this so that you can read an unlimited amount. i want the reboot fandom to have this thread i saw one time on there that i’ve kept for morale

#dmc reboot #dmc: devil may cry #reboot dante #this thread makes me happy sdfghjk #i've been keeping it in my drafts for like a hot minute but like #idk i've been thinking a lot lately about like how this game works so well for some people and not at all for others and like #i mean we know how i feel about it but like i don't think either side is necessarily wrong #taste is subjective i just would like if people were a bit...kinder?? but anyway #like idk this thread gets it sdfghjk #'dmc was a game that not everyone liked #but it liked itself' legit makes me tear up inside ngl

[amngtheflowers]

A small wip stack and a couple of doodles

#granblue fantasy #gbf #granblue #lucilius #lucio #ciofaa #fanart #wips #i've been in such an unhappy place with art lately... ;__; #confusion / discontent / feeling like i've been drawing even my favs wrong this whole time #wondering if that's the reason why ppl don't like my art that much i guess among other things

[skyward-floored]

What do you say to someone who leaves a comment on your fic and basically expects you to comment on theirs too

#this was a bit ago but I've been thinking about it lately again for some reason #probably because they replied to the comment that I left on their fic (...that I kinda didn't want to leave because I felt pressured to) #like it wasn't mean spirited or ANYTHING like that #but it did feel... weird? #like 'hey I'm commenting on YOUR fic see? now go comment on mine.' #I don't know if it was supposed to be like that #it probably wasn't #I'm probably overthinking it #but still... #yeah. #it just rubbed me the wrong way #rambles from the floor #delete later

[bunnihearted]

i thinkk that a huge part of why im so deeply unhappy is bc im a girl who is supposed to and needs to have a girl bestie - my other half. ever since i was a kid i've always had a girl friend who was my other half and who i talked to and hung out with every single day. now when i dont have that, and when it's also been 6 years since my last friendship like that, i feel profoundly lost and alone. i need another woman close to me who i love and can anchor myself in. who is my compass, my stars, my solid ground. lacking the love, support, comfort, loyalty and security of a strong and forceful love and friendship with another woman, i feel incomplete and lonely and unhappy. like something fundamentally important to the essence of my being is missing. and it completely messes with me on every level of my life.

#u can blab on abt 'u need to feel complete withing urself' blah blah fkn blah #idc and i think you're wrong bc every person is different #we and our brains work in different way #ways* #regardless if you wanna sit there and say uhhh this is wrong! this is bad! this is unhealthy! #yeah blah blah it doesnt matter what you say or think. things just are the wY they are #and i dont give a single flying fuck if i 'should' learn how to cope blab blahhhhh #i WANT and NEED a female friend like this in my life #and as long as i dont have one i am incomplete. even if some ppl wanna whine abt how toxic that is #i am not complete by myself and can only be completed with a woman who im bffs with #it's like somewhere between besties and lovers. bc even if theres some sort of homoerotic energy #i dont want nor need it to be romantical love bc thats not strong enough and idk #idk i cant explain but it's just that very highly specific friendship women can have w eo #im made for that. i need that. #i've been thinking abt my past life and friends a lot lately #and i just realized this today #there has been gaps before but most of my life i've had a close girl bestie like this #last time was 6yrs ago after high school #and since then it's been so bad. im deeply unhappy without that bond in my life

[chromaherder]

who you looking at, Mike?

#wips #byler #(wrong answers only) #i've been feeling soft lately and haven't drawn in a while so #Feeling good about this one so far #fanart

[mintleflower]

HE'S FINALLY HERE

#rogier #sorcerer rogier #elden ring rogier #elden ring #soulsborne #fromsoft #elden ring manga #i can't believe he's finally here i've been waiting for this for the last 2 months #it feels so wrong #kind of like a fucked up crossover #it feels like he's not supposed to be here #he's just like me fr #I can't wait to see D amen #a little late posting this #i was horrified and left paralyzed

[hissterical-nyaan]

They ask why I'm always stuck on my phone, scrolling for hours and hours reading squiggly text on my phone

But they don't know it's what keeps me alive.... imagining myself in all this pain but in this phone I have people to comfort or mourn me. It gives me a glimpse of what could be....what I lost....what was never meant to be mine in this world to begin with

#my bookmarks are filled with memories of dark nights eating me alive #I'm just being dramatic cause mom is threatening to take my phone away and I'm just so tired #there has been too much screaming around me lately #never thought I'll miss the quiet of my bare room back in hostel #I've been doing it all wrong again #idk why I'm even posting this I feel like a pathetic bitch 😇 #yknow I'm mad that I can't think of kms anymore without feeling guilty #this never used to happen before #why do people fucking love me

[suchscary]

I was breaking out of my old skin, choking upon release I'm in no state to judge you Scratching itches best left alone, chasing memories I used to own I can't wait 'til this is over tonight

#my art #kz #katana zero #headhunter #if only you knew how much I struggled with the colors in this one #it's such a relief that they turned out great at the end #/ #with that said I'm now on a break from posting art online because I've been too obsessed with likes and shares lately #don't get me wrong I'm forever thankful for the feedback I get but still. posting online feeds into my internet addiction too much #so I'll refrain from posting anything until I feel less bothered by pointless numbers #you're seeing this post only because my queue still had art posts in it and I didn't bother to convert them back to drafts #but this is the last art post for now #don't unfollow me pls I'll be back later