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soulfulazrael · 3 months

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Who am I and what I write. The tale of a weird as all Hell fanfic I put too much time into about an odd ship.

So... If anyone here cares I am a Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss fanfic writer (and I am 23/24 year old. Depressing isn't it?). Although I can't exactly call myself the biggest fan anymore. I do love the potential those series have and the ideas in them, but I am not a nut over the execution. In fact I say it is pretty bad in many respects and I think Viv and her writing team do not utilize the full potential of what they have on their hands.

What I want to do is well... Do something I would prefer this world they created to be. So I make several odd as hell Fics. Or at least one now. As you can see from the image about Stella and Moxxie (art btw is made by talented @Caffe1neW1tch on twitter). Now I know, I KNOW how she is in the show... I can explain my case. I do change her character quite significantly from what she is in canon show (as I do so with MANY other things). To something I would prefer her to be. Something while still deeply flawed being more dignified than what she is in Helluva Boss season 2 as I think the direction they took her character was severely disappointing. I can't say they retconned her, but I have to say they went overboard with the direction she was taken. Way too far into just pure Hate Sink. Something I would prefer if it wasn't done at all with a character tied to such a potentially interesting conflict.

Not to mention the direction Vivienne took the world of Hell and it's characters... I must say. I do not enjoy how easy it is to say who is good and bad in both of her shows and how similar Hell is to Earth. It honestly robs the setting of it's potential as it is perfect place to explore some deeply disturbing characters with interesting alien mindsets and their own unique conflicts as it is hard to grasp who are you supposed to root for in the end. But both Hazbin and Helluva greatly miss the mark on that front as every character is either without a shadow of a doubt a good guy (that at most cries, swears and likes to tell sex jokes because I guess that's enough to say character has depth these days) or are so cartoonishly evil and stupid they make Team Rocket look competent and make Micah from RDR2 and Erebus from 40k say "THAT'S NOT SUBTLE ENOUGH!". Not to mention how similar so many of her characters are and how limited their interactions are, the treatment of Heaven, the confusing character arcs... You know what. Issues with both Hazbin and Helluva are too many to count, too many for this post, but I also say they are not TERRIBLE shows, they are just shows that disappoint me at every step for the last few years.

And now I get to the crux of this elongated point. Again. I'm writing fics and one of them is Song for the Quiet Bird. A fic I say is best to read on a site AO3 (but it is also on Fanfic site if it's up to your speed) where I try to explore hell in more meaningful ways and make their culture more unique while telling a story of a very strange ship which is Stella and Moxxie. And do not worry, I am not going on any "Millie is dead" kind of cop out. I am into doing things in an easy way. And here is the link to it:

I also make another fic called Torments of Sinners and Imps which you may find on my profile as well which delves more into Angel and Moxxie, but that one for now is on a break. In a way Song is too, but I do hope I'll post a chapter for that one soon (personal issues and family issues).

Alright, if anyone is interested or sees this post I hope that you will enjoy my take on this series. Will post something more here? I dunno. Maybe? But anyway I just want more people to see it and maybe give their opinion on it which is what I always want to hear.

And I may post more things about what I do not enjoy in those shows and how I think they could be fixed. Talking about several things in both shows that irk me the wrong way.

Also given how deeply I go into the worldbuilding in my fics I may also post some stuff about how I made some things work there and things about culture of Hell I came up with and mythology there... Or maybe just talk about some philosophical mumbo jumbo that I sometimes think of. But whether or not I do it, especially consistently will be another story. If anyone sees this, thanks for sticking around. If anyone is interested in my works or opinions share your thoughts. If anyone hates my guts for the things I write about and my opinions of these series... Can't say I am surprised some people do hate those. You are free to share your discontent too. I welcome all voices. At least until they make my head hurt, then I just take a nap.

Anyway. I rambled for long enough. Again check out the fic if you are interested. Wont force you. If you do so leave a comment which is the most important thing for me when I write something. Hearing what people like and don't like. Have a good one and I hope you enjoy yourself. If not with my story then in your life whoever you are (as long as you are not a total POS).

#hazbin hotel critical #helluva boss critical #hazbin hotel #helluva boss #Ao3 #ao3 fanfic #vivziepop critical #vivziepop criticism #hazbin hotel criticism #helluva boss criticism #fanfic #I have no clue what the hell am I doing #stella #moxxie

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nono-bunny · 8 months

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why do people on tumble think everything is gay. like every time two characters of the same sex are close yall be like, they're in love they're soul mates. Wishful shipping?

Wow, this a pretty funny first ask to get! Hi!

So.... Couple of things here, I suppose!

First "people on Tumblr" is a funny label to use considering you are literally on here as well, and I'm guessing found my post about the "gay Barbie movie". Just... kind of a lack of awareness here lol

Secondly, I was talking about Barbie and the Diamond Castle, a movie that as a kid literally opened me up to the possibility of me not being straight- grew up in a queer family, btw, but that was the movie that made me go "women??? 👀" so when I am talking about that one I am quite literally talking from personal experience even before I was ever on Tumblr

Thirdly... Why the fuck do you care whether or not I see some relationships in Mattel's kid oriented Barbie movies as straight or gay or... literally anything? Tumblr is kinda all about shouting your thoughts into a void where like minded people are hanging out. If you happen to hear something you don't like, it's legit the easiest thing ever to just block and move on rather than come at someone anonymously in the asks... Unless you are literally just asking, in which case, the answer is already in the question, I suppose: "wishful shipping" for fun, because it doesn't hurt anyone and shouldn't be any of your business or concern you if you disagree with my takes (unless they make you uncomfortable for some reason...)

Assuming you found me and that post through the Barbie tag or something, let me just tell you this: Barbie Roberts would be SO disappointed in you rn. There may not be any canon gay relationships in Barbie as of now (to my current knowledge at least), but with Barbie!vloggerverse being the current long running iteration and front runner, and from how I've seen the way she consistently advocates and gives a safe space to talk for a lot of marginalized communities... Barbie is 100% not someone who would ever tolerate coming to someone's asks and questioning them on an entire site's tendency to talk about queer shit when that site has a very heavy queer demographic in the first place, like... What the fuck?

I also personally don't even like??? Ship exclusively queer ships, which your ask does kinda seem to imply. Scroll just a bit on my blog, or heck, even look at my bio, and you can see I'm very into romance in general. I don't see it anywhere and everywhere, which seems to be a common sentiment when people don't like a ship, and some friendships are just that in my eyes as well: friendships. But some dynamics seem to lean into the romantic vibe more than the platonic one, and that's when shipping happens, regardless of the gender of the characters or whether that'd make it a gay ship or not.

That being said, my takes on the "gay Barbie movies" are not uncommon, here or elsewhere, because whether by accident or otherwise, they tend to be REALLY rife with queer undertones and metaphors, and people notice! Queer color coding, an indifference by the main characters to the "default" opposite gender love interests, popular queer ideals of living (fucking!! Cottagecore girlfriends cohabitating together in the middle of the woods!!!)... Maybe one or two would go unnoticed or ignored, but the movies I've talked about tend to somehow have all of these and more, so... Is it really that big of a surprise when people take notice? There are movies where I ship the Kens and the Barbies, just as there are movies where I ship the Barbies with the Barbies (or Raquels, or Teresas, or any other female Barbie characters) because it all depends on the way things are portrayed! I don't automatically go into a movie thinking "hmm I wonder which gay ship shall I invent out of thin air today!" because, evidently... I'm not the only one to see that at the very least the potential for these things is there!

I think I'm going to go rewatch Barbie in the Diamond Castle now. Because I enjoy it, and I ship the two main characters, and it's a great movie regardless of whether it's gay or not! It is gay though, and you'd be hard pressed to find anyone who disagrees with me on this on Tumblr.com

#barbie #barbie movies #lgbtq #barbie is literally a doll you use to play out your own stories shut the fuck up #my barbies were gay and straight and bi in equal measures why shouldn't the Barbie Cinematic Universe barbies reflect that

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smartass-gamer · 2 years

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So I made a post saying that I was on a quest to find Elden Ring and complete every ending, not in NG+. I Said I wanted to change the weapon in a way I see fitting to the character I have in mind for the route. @impromptugarrote here asked me this question and I Will make you all know what I had in mind

A couple of things before going on this:

1)I'm not exactly Great at the game lmao, the only way I enjoy the game Is with a big shield and heavy armor, same for every Souls game. As I said I Just change the weapon I use. Also I try to use a different kind of weapon everytime.

2) I don't know the lore as the back of my hands so there might be mistakes. However, do keep in mind that I do It as I'd like to roleplay this character, so don't come at my throat pls

Okay let's start.

Ranni's ending.

Let's start with Ranni's ending. Before I used the Final weapon, since it's kinda far, I would use another weapon because It Is found very close to the Witch we all love: the sword of night and flames

It can be found in the carian manor and Is related to the royal family, ergo, Is perfect for the beginning of the Lunar princess quest. Unfortunately, when I decided to make start this quest to reach every ending with fitting weapons this sword have already been nerfed, so I never expierienced It to its full potential unfortunately. Not important as it's not the REAL final weapon.

Is anyone even Surprised? Of course in this run the fitting weapon Is the Dark Moon Greatsword. It's literally both the Final prize if you complete Ranni's quest, AND it's the sword that the carian Princess gives to Her consort. So It's literally perfect, it's probably One of the few weapons on this list that fit THIS much.

Those Who live in Death's ending.

The ending I'm working on rn. Now y'all gonna Say WTF but once again, rp. Protecting those who live in death, people Who cannot defend eachother made me think about an honorable character and so the First thing I thought was Ghost of Tsushima as I am a big fan of that game. So I'm gonna use a Katana, more specifically

The Uchigatana. It's the One I have the most fun using which Is obviously important lmao. Later I might change It with the Hand of Malenia but I'm not sure. I also found out that it's the best Katana in the game according to some different sites so that's Cool too.

The Dung Eater Ending

From here on I still haven't done these endings so my opinion can change. In this case I'm in conflict to Say the least. I don't know if I want to pick a weapon that gives off the Scarlet Rott as a side effect or more Simply the Dung Eater's Greatsword. I do know that the Scarlet Rott and the Dung Eater's curse are two completely different things, but to keep It the vibe of a curse/sickness y'know? Idk I Just think It Fits lmao

These are the weapon btw

Flame of Frenzy

Probably the ending I look forward to the most and maybe the One I Will consider Canon by my point of view, depending on what Will actually happen. Same as before, only this time It makes much more sense

This Is Vyke's War spear One of the two weapons that give the madness effect (One being the magic Seal you get from finishing the blind Maiden quest) and I Just have to use this for obvious reasons.

Age of Order

Probably the ending the Fingers and the Greater Will truly desire. Idk. Anyway, for this One I think this weapon Is Just PERFECT.

The coded sword can be found in the Roundtable hold at Leyndell WHERE THE TWO FINGERS ARE, It scales only in Faith, only makes holy damages and those ruins should be holy words or something. It's literally perfect. Also since all levels Will be used on Faith (at least the ones to upgrade the damages) I Will be able to use some miracles too, Cool.

Pretty sure the only One left Is the normal ending where you fix the Ring and stuff. I do not have a Plan for It so I Will Just use whatever I feel like I think. Maybe I Will use a God-weapon. Idk. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk!

#elden ring ranni #elden ring #elden beast #dung eater #flame of frenzy #fromsoftware #dark souls #demon souls #ranni #lunar princess ranni #ranni the witch

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kabber · 2 years

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i havent told y'all about my personal beef with the Rolling Stone have i

So first thing's first, I'm a fursuit maker. I also make stuff like tails and paws, which i sell on Etsy. Earlier this year there was a general strike due to Etsy's constant raising of seller fees (which was never resolved btw, they're still ridiculous). I, along with a couple other furry artists, were interviewed by the Rolling Stone site, which has in the past made pretty respectful articles about the furry fandom

The resulting article was respectful, informative, and to the point. You can read it HERE! I'm mentioned by name in the first paragraph and I was very excited about that. The person who interviewed immediately let me know that she'd be interested in covering other furry topics if I'd be willing to give her the time of day. I was only semi-interested, but sure, why not.

She asks me about The Bad Guys, y'know, that furrybait movie everyone's been talking about. I was like "hm, haven't seen it myself but it looks cool! I do like that the main character is a suave older gentleman, instead of the little kid oriented characters common with Disney".

Another thing you need to know about me is that, despite the furry fandom's reputation, I am a fairly family friendly artist. Nothing against the adult artists and makers in the fandom, it's just not my scene, and I tend to have a younger audience for my stuff.

So you can imagine my horror when THIS article came out, calling me out by name for something I did not say. You'll notice my name is no longer in the article, because the moment I saw it (THREE DAYS AFTER IT CAME OUT) I immediately contacted the person who'd interviewed me and asked my name to be removed. You''ll also notice someone credited by the name "Seibert". Yep, that's me, with my name spelled wrong lol. They didn't remove that bit but that's not my name so who cares.

Things I said that were quoted:

“The fandom is going wild for it right now,” one digital artist and fursuit maker says of The Bad Guys. “I think what resonated in the fandom is the main character of Mr. Wolf. He’s a suave guy with a fun art style that really appealed to the artists in the fandom.”

Things I was quoted out of context and did NOT say:

The fact that Mr. Wolf is coded as an “older gentleman” — in short, a daddy type — further excited the fandom, says Seibert (see? couldn't even spell my name right).

Anyway I was equal parts angry and laughing. Like, this whole situation was so ridiculous but also I did NOT want my family friendly business associated with that article. Lesson learned, never talk to anyone about the furry fandom.

#kabber contributes to society #furry #the bad guys

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drizzileiscool · 4 months

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serious post here

is it weird that I'd consider my online friends to be more like a family than.. well, my actual family?

not saying any names because I'm actually kinda nervous about saying them, but if you're interested in knowing, please ask and I'll tell you if I'd consider you family (I've already told one person and he was happy about hearing it)

there's a person who I'm friends with on twitter who's been helping me alot with my mental state, and he's been extremely supportive and doing his absolute best to help. I'd actually consider him to be more of a father figure than my actual father. he's the person who I mentioned i already told btw, and he's also the person who got me into twewy, so that's a neat little fun fact!

another person who i feel like is more of a family member is a person who I've met earlier this month on twitter. I've only just met him, but he seems like a really nice person and I'd consider him to be a younger brother. and you all already know that my brothers in real life suck, but there's something about this person that just exudes younger brother energy.

going off twitter to talk about people from this site now, there's a person on here who I'd consider to be an older brother as well. he's a really good friend and.. uh... well I can't really talk more about him or I'll give away who it is because it's going to be extremely obvious. so yeah, someone on here feels like an older brother to me as well.

if anyone actually read this whole thing, thank you for listening to what I have to say.

#not drizzile #ooc

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milliee2badd · 9 months

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I'm Baccc Bitchesss...

Oh how I missed tumblr soooo much I see a lot has changed which sucks but still the community & amount of wonderful information/content your able to obtain on here is top tier so I don't think they'll ever get to completely ruin it for us here hoes/304s, plus you all should be use to having to be censored (if not better get use to it cause regular semgular ppl just hate to see us shine hoewell tho) anyways the lack of community I see on here for us here hoes/304s is crazy ridiculous I literally just went thru my following page of ppl I follow & literally deleted anyone that I see hasn't been active in the past 2 years or more & there was so many that was way longer then the 2 year mark. So with that observation noted I decided to commit myself to start posting content & becoming active on this here wonderful site if not every single day of the week then at least 5x a week but really pushing for more then that to get my following up. I've been wanting to start some type of mentor/helper blog for females that are just starting out or considering starting this type of work that particularly aren't interested in having a pimp or having to deal with any type of ism (pimps, escorting businesses, boyfriend pimp, etc.) when I first started doing this at unfortunately the very young age of 15 I had wished & longed for some type of FEMALE mentor or somewhere I could have personally had access to information on this lovely lifestyle instead of having to go thru all the many trials, tribulations, & so much wasted money dealing with the horrible ppl/situations (you will hear about all of those specific incidents in future posts) I had to go thru to learn everything I know now as a 31 (honestly!! which I'm never honest about btw especially to tricks/potential clients but it's important to mention here) still active hoe, 304, escort, lady of the night, webcam model, online girlfriend, & anything else some random man would love to pay me to be. So please come join this amazing family/community I am trying to create.

***btw please please utilize the "ask me anything" suggestion thingy with questions of course and or suggestions on what exactly you would like me to create content about specifically please it would help me so much!!

Remember My Loveies..

SAFE TRAPPING SUPER STACKING!!! See y'all on tomorrow's post going to do my makeup see a trick or two preferably more if possible then research something to talk about on tomorrow's update!! Until then babes 🙃

#304life #hgo #sugarbaby #trapping #rhgo #304 #stompdown

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k-s-morgan · 3 years

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This doesn't really have anything to do with your fics, but right now I'm questioning my sexuality, and I think I might be aro, but I'm not sure. I've never had a crush before, and I've never had any feelings towards anyone other than platonic and familial love. Could you maybe help me confirm it, because I've never met someone whose ace or aro in real life, and I just feel very confused. BTW, your fics are amazing, I love 'Those Gentle Slopes That Lead To Hell. Thanks a lot. 😄

I'm sorry, I didn't see your ask when it arrived! I usually try to address sexuality-related questions right away.

Of course, you're the only one who can confirm this for yourself, but yes, it definitely sounds like you might be aromantic! I had the exact same situation. I never had a crush on anyone; the one time I was interested in someone was because I felt flattered that the most popular and handsome boy around chose me. I was about 12 and it felt really exciting to me, but even then, I knew that something was wrong. He tried to make me jealous by talking about another girl he was dating and I was just sitting there, thinking, "Hmm, I couldn't care less. Why is that?" My friends told me they don't get how I can be so indifferent about it, but it just didn't matter to me. Later, I realized that I simply liked his attention, not him in particular.

Another funny story: when I was 4, some of my friends in the kindergarten developed crushes on different boys. I decided that I was going to develop one on my neighbour - my explanation was that when I grow up, I'll marry him so that I could stay next to my Mom in the same neighbourhood. I thought growing up = marriage = moving to your husband's place, so that was my plan. Surprisingly calculating and non-romantic even at that age :D

The biggest advice I can give from personal experience is that you should try to avoid obsessing over fitting yourself into a box. You might identify as aro now, but then you might meet someone and realize you're demi or gray-romantic or whatever. Just go with what you feel is comfortable right now. Sometimes I had moments when I felt compelled to try finding a partner, so I went to speed dating, spent time on dating sites, and I only ended up frustrated because it just felt boring to me. I physically couldn't imagine myself in love, the whole picture felt unnatural. I was relieved when I found a way to classify myself because it removed the occasional pressure I felt, but I was the only one creating it. So honestly, just let it flow how it does: identify as aro if this feels right to you; don't worry about it changing/not changing - your happiness with yourself is a priority here.

#personal #aromantism #aro

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hiimsociallyawkward · 3 years

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a servant of two masters

hi friends welcome back to me aimlessly ranting about merlin. up today we have 4.06 and this episode. wow. literally just the title gives me everything i need and i'm absolutley here for the chaos that will ensue. hi bestie @lady-ofmagic-andstars

i love them in their capes

i want a cloak

dude the 'oh it's not gonna happen' and then it happens trope is so dumb but i laugh every time

notice how the knights ripped off their capes

dude people are falling off of horses and out

MERLIN

ok ok but how is he injured. ik this is rated for kids but i really dk how badly merlin is injured. it looks like just his shoulder but he shouldn't be almost dying like his yk?

:,) arthru making jokes

ok but i love arthur taking care of merlin

alskdjflsadk them trying to make jokes to make each other feel better :,)

stop arthur. stop telling the truth merlin's not dying here 😭

bestie vibes only deadass

HAHA

a s s

side note, the site i get my screenshots from- this picture has 61 views while others average maybe like 10-15?? perverts HAHA just kidding

sok i'm actually really curious as to what merlin's injury is

alsdjf;lasdfjsaldfjsaldf merlin making the rocks fall

idk if it's jut the angling but i felt like the enemies were way too close for merlin to create an entire rock barrier. i don't have any screen shot evidence but so you're just going to have to take my word for it

ok but like who even are these men. they were working for morgana trying to capture arthur?

and what's morgana going to do once she has arthur? kill him and take his place on the throne? remember how well that turned out last time she tried that? no one wanted her. idk idk morgana is just confusing as to what she wants

pls die agravaine

haha strangely fond of the boy? there's nothing strange about it

ok i laughed but i also felt bad when morgana splashed merlin awake and flailed around like a fish

dude merlin is so snarky here and i'm HERE for it

ok i like the knights being competent. thank you thank you

and now they're riding back into camelot with their capes on? you're telling me they traced back their steps to find their capes, dusted them off to make sure that they weren't too dirty and didn't have any leaves or branches still sticking to it before riding back to camelot? iconic

poor gaius. ok he's the worst but he does think of merlin as his son and this makes me sad

ok i have a dumb question. do you think merlin understands whenever other magic users are casting spells? ok i feel like this is a dumb question now. but like, is magic a language? are all incantations in a different language, so when other person who knows magic is watching you- they know what you're trying to do and such? i feel like "of course they'd know" but i'm basing that assumption on hp where everyone knows that alohomora is alohomora and where everyone knows that lumos is lumos. but what about here? does merlin know what she's incanting? can he slightly understand it even if he's never seen/done it before? is magic a language like latin, and even if you aren't completely fluent, you and parse together things and make an assumptions?

arthur is just so sad here

i just, i have to have these here

yes bby figure out that we have a traitor

gaius is not slick in the slightest. yes. look at the traitor king

wow morgana being able to bond with the snake? i wonder how

ok question, does the fomorroh have some sort of loyalty to whoever calls them?

✨kill arthur pendragon✨

ok that snake going in his neck is actually scary

pretty castle counter: 5

btw this is actually my zoom background sometimes. it depends from call to call but it changes between this pretty castle and peeta mellark

G E O R G E

ok i've seen all the tumblr posts but it doesn't get less funny. the 'merlin's missing and we can't find him so we're going to replace him with another manservent dressed EXACTLY like merlin so arthur feels better' makes me chuckle every time

i would like to have that for breakfast

i like the loyalty arthur thank you. i love the loyalty pls. i love that they're friends. like, i love the romance but i love just people being friends too

ok this whole scene. arthur wanting to look for merlin because he has to at least try, gwen just wanting arthur to be careful and to come back to her, gwaine being buds. i love all the friendships in this and just yes thank you

ok ok ok ok ok ok ok ok i'm not at the hug scene yet but i know it's coming and i'm beyond excited

ok this sound track is so cute.

saldkfj;asldkfjasldkfsd

matching icons for you and your best friends

deadass if someone wants to change their tumblr icons so we can match hmu bc i'm 100% down with that

another pretty castle scene

SASSY MERLIN PLS

ok ik this is dumb to comment on because i feel like it's not tremendously hard to execute but i love the differences that colin made in regular merlin and fomorroh merlin. it's the best

they say it later in the episode but i find it hilarious how bad of an assassin merlin is

dude pls you're pouring poison in front of EVERYONE else?

BOG MAN. ok guys i'm calling you guys bog mans now.

ASLDJFALSDFJS THE JEALOUSY SCENE

i am cringey but laughing at the same time you don't understand why am i this childish

ok but arthur is being so sweet right here. i feel like he's not trying to be showy in front of gwen, i feel like he wants merlin to rest and that's so sweet. he's so patient right here and i love him

i miss the gwen and merlin friendship actually

dude merlin is roasting gaius so hard today

leon geeking out over weapons is so cute. omg he's such a tiny nerd i love him

laskjflasdfj THIS SCENE. this makes up for the stew jokes that i may or may not still be mad about

i love that the knights LITERALLY turn a blind eye it's actually hilarious

LOOK AT MERLIN BEING COMPETENT?? HE'S SO SMART WITH THE ARROW RIGGING THING

it's literally treason leon pls and you're laughing you're the best 😭😭

i wish we had a pervical back story arc

ok i think it's dumb that i laughed when merlin ducked but i stand by that

ok why do i feel bad for arthur a little. he's talking abt some semi-deep stuff. not deep deep but like, he's trying to ask for advice from his friend, his close advisor. he would've never talked to merlin like this is season 1-2 but here he is, talking about trust. and MERLIN is trying to MURDER HIM. yes. i admit it's a little funny when i'm just watching merlin trip over things and such, but when i listen to arthur talking i feel slightly sad

literallly. merlin's passed out on the floor and arthur doesn't even think anything is wrong

gwen's face when she knocked merlin out is so cute

oop. why is arthur standing in agravaine's door way like an absolute robot

cyes arthur. figure him out

i hate agravaine. i just want arthur to be happy. he's only trusting agravaine because agravaine is family.

stfu agravaine 'you're all that's left of my dear sister' SHUT THE FRONT DOOR

ok there's a repeat of the castle from earlier but i'll spare you

pls this bath scene is so awkward. tt not being able to trust anyone anymore and we're laughing at merlin but arthur's talking so sad and deep

pls this bath scene is so awkward. that's all the notes i have

again, i miss gwen and merlin

merlin is MONCHING on those berries. i'm craving berries now

ok but like. yk that pouch that gaius is using to make the forromoh dormant? what if merlin tucked it in his neckerchief as a precaution. i'm just saying.

aslfkjasdaskdjf the tavern

yall why did merlin have to stop his horse to drink the potion

i want the knights to have a cool band name or smth yk what i mean?

i like that merlin is still a little in the camelot red. it's not the same shade but yk what i mean

HAHA LEON AND PERCIVAL BEING PUSHED TOGETHER. I JUST KEPT ON SCREAMING SUBTEXT SUBTEXT

damn morgana wants RESUKTS. i dont blame her

the frist interaction with merlin and morgana in the hut is so awkward. pls.idek how to comment on it

deadass morgana's dress is so pretty.

magic fight! magic fight!

stfu 'rightfully mine' pls

hehe there's a leaf in his hair

ok i feel like i should've commented more on the magic fight but idk bro

so ik that colin was in this whole episode but it really only just now feels like merlin is here and i think that's fun

arthur is the cutest. i'm loving this dynamic you have no idea. i live live live live LIVE off banter. pls

guys i'm sad apparently i can only put 10 pics in a post but pls enjoy this one pic of arthur right here 😭

ok idk abt you but i'd love to hear jokes abt brass

agaragvaine pls die already

YOU'RE SUCH A PERV LITERALLY

AWAY

NOW

dude that last scene was actually really pretty and i'm sad that i can't attach it now

anyways thanks for reading my long ass rambles. but i'll be back next week to the secret sharer i'll catch you on the flip side

#merlin #merlin bbc #colin morgan #emrys #morgana pendragon #king arthur #bradley james #gwen pendragon #angel coulby #morgana #katie mcgrath #gwaine #percival #elyan #leon #gaius

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kakakakashi · 4 years

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Just recently started reading your blog, and i'm really happy to see how respectful and mindful you are of the fact that this is 18+ content. Tumblr can be a dark and downright gross place sometimes, so it's really refreshing to know that people on here do care about keeping these types of posts in the right hands. Love your writing btw, ty for the place to be shamelessly thirsty lmao

Thank you for following, friend. It means a lot, and thank you for your kind words. I like to consider myself a tumblr ancient. I have been on this hell site for almost a decade. I saw the Mishapocalypse, I remember original tumblr blue, I know why the reblog button exists, I remember when asks were the only way to communicate, and I remember the first time this garbage fire got sold.

In my years, I have seen a lot. I miss the days when reblogs were more common than likes. I miss the days where everyone screamed in the tags about fics they liked. I miss the days when people actually read the faq pages before asking. I miss the days where people actually read the warnings and notes authors leave on posts. I miss the days where people actually read descriptions and links and things that are there to provide readers with information instead of lazily ignoring them and sending an ask that’s answered on the ask page itself. I miss when readers respected their writers more. I miss when desktop was more popular than the godawful mobile app. I remember when messages came out, and you didn’t have to send your favorite author 5 asks to talk to them about their writing. I miss those interactions sometimes, though.

I wish tumblr was still 18+. I think it was the biggest mistake ever to make it “more family friendly”. I knew it wouldn’t work. It hasn’t. Now, it just makes it harder for content creators, especially adult content creators. As a creator, it’s my responsibility to regulate who consumes my content. I can get in trouble if I don’t. Back when I first started, we didn’t have to. The site was for adults, and it was just unspoken that if you weren’t 18, you didn’t interact with 18+ blogs. It was just... a thing from what I saw. It was basic respect for the person on the other side of the screen, I guess.

As time went on, I gradually saw an increase of people disrespecting that, and now with tumblr being stupid, it’s worse than ever. I try to keep track of who follows me, but it’s hard. Past blogs of mine were easier with no more than 250 followers, but this is difficult with almost 700 in about a month. I really am happy you guys seem to be respectful of the rule, though. It’s to protect you and me. I haven’t found anyone I’ve had to block yet, whereas I’ve had to block 50+ people on one blog before. Just please realize that there’s a reason I have it in my description.

Don’t follow me or interact with me if you’re underage. You will be blocked. This is not exclusively referring to my smut. This also means my fluff and angst. There’s a reason why I refer to it as NSFW vs. 18+. There is a difference. They are NOT synonymous. This whole blog is 18+. Just wait until you’re 18 for both your sake and mine. If not, you won’t be able to consume my content even when you are 18. Just... don’t be an asshole. It’s not hard.

Going off of that, it’s just basic human decency to like... just make sure people know what content is out there, so they can decide if they want to consume it or not? Like... if you don’t like something, you shouldn’t be forced to look at it? I know I don’t want to. Like, I hate those ASPCA commercials. They make me cry, so I change the channel whenever they come on. I don’t want to be forced to watch that. It’s the same concept. Some people don’t want to see my stuff. That’s cool. They don’t have to look at it. It’s just stupid writing about characters that aren’t even real. I just want people to be safe, be respectful, and be responsible. I try to do that, and I expect all of you to do the same.

However, you guys are lovely. You don’t force me to be serious very often on here, and it just makes everything more fun for everyone. I get to shamelessly thirst and swoon and scream like the dumbass I am instead of wasting my time policing my followers. It’s fun to let loose sometimes in a responsible way, and I want that to be what this blog is about. I lost my shame long ago, so you’re always welcome here, fam.

My writing’s boring and stupid. I promise I can actually write quality prose when needed, but this is all just a super self indulgent stream of consciousness. It’s literally just me screaming about Naruto and wishing I lived in that universe and dated all the characters.

By the way, I really appreciate this. I’ve been feeling very frustrated about a few things recently, especially with my hand gradually working up to its previous workload. This just made me feel like “hey, at least I’m doing something right.” I really am grateful you took the time to send this. It made me feel a lot better. I feel seen and respected as a person and a wannabe writer.

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akajustmerry · 7 years

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as a white passing poc do you find it hard to refer to yourself as a poc? cause i'm white/aboriginal and i feel bad kind of referring to myself as a poc cause i can pass as white you know, especially considering i'm so far disconnected from any aboriginal culture and haven't really experienced any racial discrimination..

i understand where ur coming from. i’m aboriginal/lebanese and relatively fairskinned/white passing. i never used to think about it tbh until last year i developed a phobia of the sun and did everything humanly possible not to expose my skin to sunlight (ocd is a bitch btw) as a result my usually sorta tanned complexion was not so much anymore and people around me started callin me “just a white girl” and it was weird realising that my culture and ethnicity became invisible to others when i stayed out of the sun

i struggled with it and my phobia in general for the next while. obsessive googling about race/skin etc. didn’t really help and neither did this hellsite (everything can be very subjective/polarised on this site when it comes to nuanced issues). i was confused cos i thought maybe i was only considered a ‘poc’ when i had a tan so i stopped saying i was and it caused me A LOT of anxiety especially when my own therapist said that i shouldn’t “lie about my herritage for attention”

then i found out i wasn’t alone

nicole richie, halsey, alexa chung, wentworth miller, audrey plaza, vanessa hudgens, rashida jones, gigi hadid, rami malek, melissa fumero are just a few of fellow mixed white passing people in the media who have spoken out about similar mixed white passing struggles also youtubers @claudiaboleyn and @marinashutup talk about passing for white on their channels, but most importantly they do not identify as white

it took me a long time to figure this out. the reason im telling you all this is because i don’t want u to agonise over it the way i did so here goes:

u are never gonna be able to control how others see u and thats tru about anything. don’t concern urself with it when u can’t change it

passing for white is not the same as being white. white passing is conditional at best

passing for white can feel like a double edge sword at times but at the end of the day we have privleges that our non-white passing poc friends and family don’t have. it’s not something to be afraid of. it is something u can use to help ur own people and others and thats awesome

ur experience as a white passing poc is still completely different from someone who is white

just looking white doesn’t erase your ethnicity, or ur experiences

enjoy your culture, its okay. u might look white but u have as much right as anyone else in your culture to enjoy and celebrate it. remember white people can’t do this cos they are white

think of it like this: there are loads of poc mixed with white who are not white passing, struggle with similar issues but are not considered any less of either of their identities (see: amandla stenberg, hunter page lochard, tracee ellis ross, zendaya, zayn, riz ahmed, rosario dawson, barack obama)

u were raised in a completely different way to white people and so u see the world differently to them and i’ve found that most of the time other poc kno this from the way u act even if u haven’t experienced discrimination because discrimination is in no way the only thing that identifies u as a poc and u should always try and remember this when u doubt who u r

i hope this helps!! im always here for u if u need it xox

#white passing poc #mixed problems #white passing privilege #weareallmixedup #mixed tag #anon #asks #merry answers

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thecrimsonkat-blog · 7 years

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I'm a FUCKING WREAK at the moment...

Ok, so here's the story: My mothers boyfriend (Shannon) has a medium large family, he has no kids himself so his nieces and nephews he treats like his own kids. One in particular is named Angus (the one the story mainly revolves around). And I cant actually write how I feel about him.... wait..... yes I can..... ok, so; my heart pounds harder with each passing minute he's in the room. I feel my mind become clouded and I become clumsy at the mention of his name. I feel like I would protect him from harm if any came to him, he has a slight amger issue but when he gets mad, all i want to do is hug him tightly and remind him to relax, to sum it up, I'M INVESTED. Bonus to add to my grief, he also in hetero amd has a girlfriend. So here comes the issue, my family was having a house warming party and all, and I mean ALL the family was invited, so stuff happened and now its time for people to go, turns out one of my little cousins was staying the night and I was really not in the mood to deal with him. So his family was saying goodbye when I offered to lend him some clothes if he wanted to stay the night, he was offered to stay a night many times before but he turned it down because he was busy or something else got in the way. Do remember, I am FUCKING INVESTED in this guy. I put all the pursuaion I could feel into the question and hoped for the best outcome. And he said yes. BOY WAS I FUCKING HIGH, I FEEL LIKE I COULD'VE DONE A BACKFLIP, SOAR TO THE MOON OR EVEN KISS HIM ON THE SPOT. But I didnt. So me, angus and my brat of a cousin were in the games room playing my consoles, when I decided it was late enough and everyone should go to bed. My cousin took FUCKING 3 HOURS BEFORE HE WENT TO BED. Me and Angus stayed up till 1am trying to get him to sleep, and when we did we went back in the games room amd got ready for bed. I'm not sure about anyone else, but when its really late, I get really personal. So I'm chillin on the two seater with my body pilllow and blanket, unable to get to sleep and he's chillin on the bed diagonal from me, trying to sleep. Neither of us could btw. Here is where it gets good, so we both are tired as fuck, its 1am and he begins asking me questions about my homosexuality. How I realised I was gay, amd stuff like that. Then out of the blue, he asks who my crush is. By this time I was sure he could hear my heart, It was beating so hard against my chest I was sure It would shatter. I wanted to tell him so badly but also didnt, because I have a giant heart and didnt want to ruin our friendship. Amd because I hesitated for so long, he decided to ask me question about who I was crushing on. So, i thought why not, if he figures it out on his own then so be it. He begins asking questions like height, hair colour, age, and eye colour. He then says he has it figured ot out to between 3 people. He says their names and i deny them all. I could feel his confusion or what I thought was confusion. He then asks me more question, like what I would do for that person. For those who dont like MA 15+ stuff, then stop reading. So to sample the questions, mainly because I cant remember all of then because I was sleep deprived, he asked: "If the peraon were to come up to you, and ask if you would have sex with him, would you?" "What would you do if they asked you to do it to them?" "If they asked you to suck their dick, would you?" "What would you do if that person liked you back?" "What would you do if that person didn't have a girlfriend?" So the questions continued for a literal hour, until he says this, "I think I know who it is" Just and add on, earlier that day, him and his uncle, Shannon, were having a conversation about his sexuality and he said exactly this... "If I was gay, I would be hooked up with this fella, *points directly at me and wraps an arm around my neck*" my heart was like FUCKING ON CRACK it was spasing out. So he proceeds to ask me to play hangman, and because its 2:30am by that time, and I was way to lazy to find a pen and paper, we just used my phone, bur it was slightly modified: QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM -------------------------------- This is what the screen looked like, he would type the letters that were in the name below the line and erase the letters that were not. So he goes through the list of letters and not very far in he makes and unusual sound, and thats when I realised he actually knew. He even writes his own name down amd asks me to type 'yes or no' beside it, the screen looked like this when I got my phone back: QWERTYUIOPASDFGHJKLZXCVBNM -------------------------------- A N G U S So, seeing a perfect moment, I be really sarcastic and say "Im not sure your spelling it right, I think you may be missing a few letters" as I proceed to write yes next to it. MEANWHILE MY HEART IS DOING LITERAL BURNOUTS IN MY CHEAT WHILE ON FIRE AT MARTIGRA. I was so fucking high from it, i even began slurring my words from my clouded mind. I hand back the phone and he was so sincerly confused, then he saw what i wrote then it hit him, and i said as it did. He hamds me back my phone and he goes silent for a few seconds, the proceeds to question further about what i would do to him, or as he put it 'the person' if the asked for something. And the one that hurts the most was "would you have sex with them if they asked, even though they had a girlfriend, and if the asked you to keep it a secret, would you?" My mind was fucking running like crazy, I was likeing the way the direction of conversation was going, i was keen to get in his pants. I answered then he goes silent. What felt like twenty minutes later did he speak again. And he changed to conversation about what he did last time a gay guy hit on him, the guy apparently touched him on the arse Angus didn't like it so he turned round and grabbed the guy by the throat and pinned him agains the wall and threatened to really hurt him if he did it again. WHAT THE FUCK DUDE, YOU LITERALLY BEGAN LEADING ME TO YOUR BED THEN TOSSED ME INTO THE GUTTER INSTEAD. I FELT MY HEART CRACK, AND IT FUCKING HURT, I WAS A LITTLE MAD AND DECIDED TO GET HIM BACK LATER FOR DOING THAT TO ME. BUT HE LITERALLY CRUSHED MY HOPES OF US ACTUALLY GETTING TOGETHER, I HAD TO BITE MY LIPS TO STOP MYSELF FROM CRYING. I was so torn up. He toyed with my feelings and I let him, now i feel like he dumped me, without really having dated me. It fucking hurts, and think back to that night, it fuckin hurts. And now, i know it will probably emotionally scar me for the rest of my life. But what makes it worse, about a week earlier I had lost one of my friends that I became invested in, Dom, because he split with his girlfriend, which I think I had already explained earlier, if not here's a recap. She dumped him, she was my friend and knew i like him, he was my friend that i had a crush on, but I would never tell because it would shatter my friendship I had with him. She dumped him and told him I had a crush on him, he reacted badly amd stop talking to me bevause he felt uncomfortable talking to me, even through gaming sites and suck alike. So I was feeling a little abandoned. Now it was like being abandoned again, i flet myself slip away from Angus. So when he slept, i got revenge. Not gonna go into detail about that tho. So thats my life atm, im already wreaked in the head, so this can probably just go on the pile and break me some more...

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rivkahstudies · 6 years

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hey this is the previous anon! i'm grateful for that long response. im actually been treating my depression successfully for the past year, and im a lot better! it's just that every once in a while i get low, which i usually get through! it's just i feel like everythings piling up yknow?? family issues, depression, school, and i've been insanely paranoid as of late. its just that i've been doing ""Cheer Up"" things but thats not what i need. but idk what i need?? thanks for responding though

i think i need like an irl friend to talk to? i have one or two friends , and i’m fine with that, but when i get super stressed like this it’s hard. my closest friend isn’t as great as dealing w her depression, and usually we like talk ab her issues. its just that whenever im going thru something we talk about her stuff instead, and i always just feel bad saying “oh yeah that sucks but anyways i have problems too” and its just? its kinda tiring just being a soundboard (1/?) (prev anon btw)

its just disheartening when u feel down and its like u dont have anyone to talk too. i want to talk but she also kinda opens w her problems and we spend the whole time trying to cheer her up. like im not accusing her of being a bad friend or whatever i just wished she like let me talk every once in a while. i recognize shes generally in a much worse place than me but i just wish sometimes she asked how i was? but idk whenever i’m feeling shitty she is too (she is more often than not) (2/?)

she talks first so we spend our whole time together talking ab her bad day and i havent even gotten to talk to anybody about anything thats been. i know i should talk to her about it but its never the right time. shes rarely stable enough to talk about other people problems and when she is i dont want to ruin her mood and im just so tired of not being able to actually physically talk to someone. typing or writing or talking to my dog isnt the same as talking to a friend y know?? (¾)

(4/4) but anyway thank you so much for reading!! you don’t have to post all these its just once i started typing i couldn’t stop. hopefully things will be better soon.

If you don’t like that I posted them then I can take them down at your request! but you’re on anon so your identity is safe.

I definitely get all the “I don’t need ‘cheer up’ things.” Little short-term things aren’t meant to bandage long-term issues long-term. They’re just quick ways to alleviate symptoms. And you gotta find for yourself what coping methods help you long-term. For me, getting back into nature and expressing daily gratitude helps, with a healthy amount of relying on my friends and family. Which seems to be what you’re seeking!

Sometimes friendships can be a little one-sided. I would try talking to your friend and expressing your need to express yourself too! But definitely trying to reach out/extend current friendships/find new ones. Reevaluate yourself and the people around you and take as much time as you need to decide who you can trust. Real life friends are always better than online because you have that real contact and speech and reliance, and social media can sometimes become an escape and an addiction and you don’t want that. You want to rekindle your enjoyment in the physical world.

In the meantime, though, if you need to vent again, whether publicly or privately, message or ask box, I am here. And you might want to try something like 7cupsoftea, where you talk to other people like you or professionals via text about your issues. The Dawn Room and its associated sites are also very good. Good luck, nonnie, I believe in you!

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