#I'm taking care of myself

[gladumfdoodles]

hi lovelies, sorry for missing the past two days of daily doodles, life has gotten wild lately. I won't go into the details, but let's just say I'm very ready to finish up the princess bride au so that I can relax on the ao3 posting side of things

we've got (hopefully) two chapters left after today's, and then I am taking a long break from writing to recharge for the next fic, and also to finish up all my college applications, since i got rejected from my number 1

expect for the dailies to start back up again today!! and if you'd like to help out, my ask box is open to prompts, send characters, pairings, outfits, places, and anything else you can think of! genuinely, they really help when I don't have any ideas, so I appreciate them very much :]

see you all in this afternoon's chapter of as you wish, and also with a doodle <3

#gladumf rambles #gladumf's daily doodle #my writing #just keeping y'all informed #this week has been ROUGH #began with getting rejected from my dream school and ended with half the family getting sick #and there is a whole lot in between #did you know there's a thing in america called the FAFSA #and filling it out is a nightmare #anyway #don't worry about me #I'm taking care of myself #but I'm also stubborn and this fic needs to be finished

[not-poignant]

Schedule change:

Hi folks! Looks like I'll be putting up Underline the Black about 8 hours early tomorrow (around 9-10am GMT+ 8 on Thursday).

This is because of family emergency reasons still, and visiting a 'could die at any moment' parent in the hospital tomorrow afternoon. There might be some schedule hiccups in the interim. To the best of my ability, I will put up chapters earlier, rather than later, and all of June has been written (and most of July), so we're good.

I know most of you will say 'don't worry about that' because you're all the best, but I really care about y'all and these stories and these characters, so I'll be doing my best :) Besides, sharing these stories helps me too, so y'know. <333

#housekeeping #underline the black #just going to set the alarms in my phone now so i wake up early enough #because frankly i have been getting up at like 11-12 in the morning lately #i'm taking care of myself #and i'm in touch with my therapist/s #i don't need to take a break (i might later though who knows) #just blease be patient with the schedule <33333

[justpked]

PK, Please take care of yourself. Also bread does taste good.

I've upgraded(?) to eating potatoes now.

#ask response #pk talks #or is it a downgrade #i have a lot of potatoes #i miss the bread #no more bread #*cries* #I'm taking care of myself #maybe #errr #what are nutrients

[sasukimimochi]

i've been so good about dishes lately im happy with this haha ✨

i did the dishes before they got gross this time :D i mean i didn't notice a couple dishes in my room but i can get those later they're not wet or gross.

i also cleaned my desk somewhat in the process, lint rolled it a little (cuz my cats are shedding a lot rn cuz spring)

still covered in markers but that will soon not be an issue anymore as soon as i finish this merxian drawing haha

which i've been chipping away at; i have the method for the hair pretty much down its just tedious.

#sasu speaks #pats self on back #depression can go fuck itself #i'm taking care of myself

[sailor-aviator]

take care of yourself first, you dont need to apologize for not updating :)

Thank you, Nonny 🥺💛 Needed to hear that this morning.

#answered #anonymous #hey nonny nonny #i'm taking care of myself #but i'm working on the chapter today

[senamarais]

6.09 the revengers Blair Waldorf looks part 1,

like or reblog if you save please <3        

#blair waldorf #blair waldorf outfits #blair waldorf looks #Leighton Meester #gossip girl #gossip girl aesthetic #gossip girl fashion #Aesthetic #fashion #gossip girl couple #chuck x blair #blair x chuck #chuck bass #ed westwick #chair #HEYY #so so so so so so sorry for not posting #mental health is kicking my ass #i'm trying my best to feel better everyday #i'm taking care of myself #i do things and talk with people that i love #and i realized that i'm getting better and better #reallly sorry that this is a slow and long process but like i said i'm doing the best i can #love you guys so much #your support is what brings me joy <3

[leaveherwildliketheflowers]

Tw: pregnancy, SI, self harm

Events of today:

Saw baby's heartbeat ❤️

Cried when I got home from overwhelming feelings of fear and joy.

Started spiraling into depression, hopelessness and fear by lunchtime.

Called the Suicide Prevention line after work because I was home alone and making plans to hurt myself.

Also reached out to a maternal mental health hotline.

Cried some more about how awful I feel for being so emotionally unstable and distraught when today was such a happy day.

Got stood up by my therapist, who never really admitted that she never told me she needed to move our session time, only to have her cancel our pushed back session.

Cried more because I'm sad and scared and frustrated and feel guilty that all of those emotions are outweighing the joy I feel about the baby news today.

I feel very alone. Hubs wants me to be happy and keeps trying to dismiss how frustrated and upset I am by saying how great today was. And today WAS great. Amazing actually. I saw my baby and she was healthy and growing and had a strong little heartbeat. But I'm also scared. And sad. And I don't know how I am going to make it through the next 8 months. And I would rather die now than lose this baby. But I can't control the outcome. I feel trapped and alone and lost and scared and like the world is crashing down on me. And I shouldn't feel that way because my baby is alive and the ultrasound went as well as I could have hoped. I should be so happy that none of the other stuff matters. So how am I even thinking of hurting myself when it would hurt her? What kind of shit mother am I?

I promise this is my last rant for the day. I'm even tired of hearing myself talk. I need to just go to bed.

#personal #emotional rant #tw: pregnancy #tw: self harm #tw: SI #I'm safe #I'm taking care of myself #I'm just a wreck emotionally and I don't have a reliable outlet at the moment

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

#Sir Crocodile #Monkey D Dragon #Emporio Ivankov #Dragodile #Crocodad #My art #One Piece #We're not gonna talk about the work I should be doing rn I have Severe Procrastinitis and I'm doing my best okay #Alternative version where it was both Crocodile and Garp beating Dragon's ass before Iva-chan joined in but that was too much effort lmao #I'm a believer in Dragon being a Wind Logia so don't worry guys he is 100% taking this beating intentionally #He knows what he did and he's dealing with the concequences of his actions. With grace. #You know I realize Iva-chan should be two whole meters taller than Crocodile but we're just gonna ignore that #Look Iva-chan taking Crocodile's side and being like ''Crocoboy is right you fucked up bad Dragon'' brings me joy #And for real I've been wanting to draw this for months. But never did because I had other shit to do. Which I still do #But. You know. Sometimes you need to draw a shitpost. It's ✨ self-care ✨ #And appearently One Piece shitpost comics have become the thing I draw for myself on occassion

[prinsomnia]

astrologer’s mirror🪞✨🌕

#illustration #aesthetic #plants #magical #stars #astrology #nature #fantasy #digital art #art ph #art fart #prinsomnia #portfolio #made this to tide out a really bad depressive episode last week. really missing drawing for myself on the daily :'') #i'm feeling better now btw!! sending you virtual hugs and warmth your way <3 <3 <3 #take care and have a lovely week ahead!

[spindlewoed]

Look, listen. The smoker on the balcony is obsessed with beauty and the fine arts while Cindy the skull is a contemporary artist all about activism and I need them to interact so badly because they would have THEE most heated art debate of the century. Cindy would eat him alive but that's not the point their back and forth would be legendary you don't even know. Lesbian on gay man violence.

#disco elysium #smoker on the balcony #cindy the skull #also if I can allow myself a bit of indulgence. they both have some issues with the concept of home #cindy with her emphaty check and the smoker with the whole being an immigrant. I could elaborate if anyone cares #THIS close to writing fic except I'm not confident with my prose so if anyone out there wants to take this concept and run #please you have my blessing

[bixels]

quick update on art moving forward:

i'm gonna be switching back and forth between doing more original work/non-mlp content and gg20s art from now on. things may go slower, but that's part of me trying to take care of myself vs. the past couple of months which has been "i need to finish and post at least 2 gg20s artworks every week or i'll die." i still need to finish that utena juri illustration, and i have a neat character design exercise i wanna do on designing 90s high fantasy anime characters.

for full transparency, here are some things i have lined up for gg20s (on my end at least, tulli's still going strong): character designs for nyc characters (coco pommel, coloratura, suri polomare), the disney opening sequence video, more rarijack (obviously), including that one-shot fanfiction, and a daring do comic.

ty guys.

#personal #delete later #the past half year has been great but i need to adjust things to take better care of myself #because i've also been extremely tired all the time #today because i'm taking a break from twitter and don't have pressure to keep making art to post i decided not to draw #and it was nice

[priceofreedom]

#Elmyra approving of Zack makes me so happy 😭 FF7 Rebirth 20 / ?

#final fantasy vii #ffgraphics #elmyra gainsborough #zack fair #gamingedit #ff7 remake #ff7 rebirth #ff7 #elmyra #ff7 rebirth spoilers #rebirth spoilers #creaciones #i always thought she'd come to love him if only they had the chance to meet #glad to see it's exactly what happened :') #if zerith reunited she'd be so happy for them 🥺 #knowing aerith would have the best boyfriend ever by her side #someone who would always take care of her no matter what #someone who would do the impossible just to make her happy #and he's good with kids too. like 🥰 #zack already calls aerith's home HIS home i'm gonna go crazy #sorry for the fangirling but akhssjd if part 3 doesn't have them reunite and live together i'm gonna riot #the three of them deserve happiness!!! #and also i want zack to contact his parents so bad :( they deserve to see their son again #i'm making myself sad. i'm gonna stop now lol

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, gentle recognition for the people who are taking care of themselves in "not aesthetically-pleasing" ways. To the people who have to do things they don't want to because they know they would suffer more if they didn't, to the people who have to brush their teeth with their fingers, to the people who have to use washcloths to bathe, to the people who need to punch pillows or scream into them to express their intense emotions, to anybody ashamed about the way they need to live and take care of themselves.

You are doing the very best you can with the hand you've been dealt. It's not easy, it's not pretty, but it sure as fuck takes so much to do these things. You are doing what is best for yourself, and I, for one, think you deserve to be proud of that. Self-care isn't easy. It isn't pretty, often, but it's something you shouldn't be ashamed of or hide away because it's deemed "grotesque" or "not really self-care (because self-care is pretty and non-threatening to 'normal peoples' senses)"

#mental health #mental health support #self care #like when i was still in school i would end up forcing myself to go because i knew i would feel worse if i hadn't... #...and i don't think people get how difficult that is. it isn't like you choose to be difficult when you struggle #and feeling ashamed about doing these things only makes the situation worse for them (the person struggling) #something i've just been thinking about #i hate this idea that self-care *only* looks like the 'healthy' person's treat days... #...like lighting candles around your bathtub and putting rose petals in the water... #...because that isn't the only aspect to taking care of yourself. sometimes it looks like forcing yourself to bathe and grieving... #...and using rough washcloths because you can't stand the feeling of your own skin and you can't stand how dirty you feel... #...and obviously i'm not saying that mentally ill people doing self-care is the only way it looks... #...but that it really doesn't help us when self-care is almost made into a 'non-threatening' activity that is pleasant and nice-looking #and of course the examples i used in this post were examples and aren't the end-all-be-all

[scificrows]

Okay, my brain refuses to think about anything other than Murderbot, so I looked at every use of the word "friend[s]" in TMBD and... created some pie charts. Normal human activities.

Some Thoughts™ I had while putting this together (under the cut):

In All Systems Red, Murderbot notes that the PresAux crew are all close friends (twice! and goes on to explain their internal relationships which I think is very cute). This is pretty much the only use of 'friends' in ASR, except for when Murderbot says that SecUnits can't be friends with each other.

It seems that this may be one of the first times Murderbot has ever really been around a group of friends before? Murderbot notes that this is not the norm for its contracts and admits that the fact that they are all friends and the way they interact with each other make it actually enjoy that contract (before!!!! the hostile attack, so it already enjoys this contract before they start seeing it as a person etc ghghhhh). [Inference: Friendship seems enjoyable.]

The first character that calls Murderbot its friend is ART in Artificial Condition. Murderbot immediately refutes this (and then goes on to call ART its friend to its clients for the rest of the book). [Inference: Maybe ART is Murderbot's friend. And maybe that is... agreeable]

Rogue Protocol has more than twice as many instances of the word 'friend' as any of the other novellas. Why? Miki. Friendship and its implications for non-humans are a central theme because Miki is friends with everyone. Murderbot initially scoffs at the notion that Miki and Miki's humans are friends. At the end of the book, after witnessing how desperately Don Abene tried to stop Miki from trying to save them, and her grief after its death, Murderbot has to admit that she had in fact been Miki's friend. [Inference: Humans can be friends with bots and can sincerely care about them]

In Exit Strategy, Murderbot tentatively uses the word "friends" for its humans for the first time (several times actually). It questions whether it can actually call them its friends or not and later realizes that it had been afraid what admitting that the humans are its friends would do to it. At the end of the book, Mensah tells Murderbot the PresAux crew are its friends, which is the first time a human has directly said that to it (at least on-page). [Inference: Humans can and want to be Murderbot's friends]

In Network Effect, Murderbot seems to be more habituated to the word 'friend', confidently calling ART and Ratthi its friends, like it is no longer just trying the concept on unsure if it fits. There are many instances in which other characters refer to MB as ART's friend or the other way around and Murderbot's humans refer to Murderbot as their friend several times. Generally, there seems to be less hesitancy, because yes, all of them are Murderbot's friends, why wouldn't they be. [Inference: SecUnits can have friends. This SecUnit has friends. They care about it a lot.]

Conclusion: The Murderbot Diaries tell the story of a construct that does not seem to consider the possibility of friendship for itself and is fine with that - until it accidentally starts caring a little too much and suddenly more and more people annex it as a friend (ew) to the point where it can no longer deny that this is happening and has to begrudgingly admit that yes, it has friends now and maybe that is actually not a bad thing.

#the murderbot diaries #murderbot #𓄿 #hi i'm READY to write a thesis about murderbot i am having way too much fun with this #i created a pretty excel spreadsheet and everything #i don't know why i did this but now i can look at them while i think about this more! so i figured i'd share them haha #i didn't count uses of 'friendly' but special shoutout to when MB is all alone in its cold cubicle missing 20% of its body mass #and starts putting on a show because 'the friendly noise would keep it company' 😭😭 #i feel sick thinking about murderbot all alone on its own not knowing what its like to have friends watching media for 'the friendly noise' #also YES okay i wanted to make a point about miki there but i just #couldn't bring myself to talk about that more so... yeah #also uhhh this data is very subjective #i didn't count particularly ironic uses of 'friend' and generally did not count every instance of friend and sometimes it was a hard call #also i probably shouldn't have counted the times murderbot refered to drones or secsystems as its friends (often after hacking them) #but murderbot does seem to care about them and shows kindness and respect and sometimes points out that a system is friendly #so while i don't think MB means “friend” in the same way referring to them as when it refers to ART for instance #i still think its CUTE and also kinda funny how many times that happened so i decided to keep those!!! #but yeah take my data with a grain of salt lol

[beep-beep-robin]

steve doesn’t let anyone see when he‘s in pain. his parents never picked up on him being ill unless it was pretty severe, and even then they used to make him feel like a burden because of it. so he just doesn‘t show it nowadays.

when he starts to hang out with eddie more, it‘s not him that picks up on it when steve‘s not feeling good, but wayne. raising a boy all by yourself makes you pick up on those kind of things.

he sees how steve will sometimes squint when it‘s too bright in the room, sees how he flinches when there‘s a sudden loud noise. how he slightly relaxes when eddie absentmindedly runs his fingers through steve‘s hair (wayne doesn‘t like poking around in eddie‘s love life. but the fact that that thought crosses his mind when he‘s watching them says something. if he asked eddie about it he‘d probably say they‘re just very touchy friends).

so he talks to eddie about it when steve‘s not around. tells him that he thinks there’s something going on with steve. what eddie can look out for, and that he should talk to steve about it.

steve‘s first instinct when eddie brings it up to him is to laugh and play it off. he doesn‘t want to burden eddie with his own bullshit that he can deal with himself.

but eddie keeps pushing until steve admits that yeah, he gets headaches really often. that normal painkillers only help a bit, that light hurts his eyes, that they make the ringing in his ear even worse (eddie makes a mental note to bring that one up again later) and that he can barely concentrate whenever they come on. that he finds it hard to concentrate anyways, most of the time.

it‘s probably because of all the times he got hit in the head, he tells eddie.

he says that he doesn't want to be alone when he has the headaches, because that just makes him feel even worse. that's another reason why he never told anyone. (he also tells him about the russians, finally. eddie gives steve a hug afterwards, and steve almost cries into his shoulder. but he holds it back. eddie can hear his breath hitch.)

from that day on they have an agreement that steve has to tell him whenever he doesn‘t feel good. or that he at least won’t hide it. eddie goes over to steve's place when he knows it's one of those days, or he invites steve to his trailer. he turns off the lights when steve needs it to be dark, keeps explaining things to him when he doesn‘t understand them the first time, tries to be as quiet as possible.

he also keeps running his fingers through his hair, but it's more intentional now. he can tell that it helps steve relax, turns it into more of a massage. when steve slips off into sleep, after a while of him protesting that eddie really didn't need to do this, he lets his fingers roam a bit more. over his eyebrows, down the sides of his nose, over his cheekbones. unknowingly taking care of him in a way that no one ever really had before. steve sighs in his sleep.

#oh my god i'm so sad why did i make myself so sad #this is so dramatic #but listen i need steve to be taken care of. i need it #wayne best uncle #them secretly yearning for each other but too afraid to do anything about it #so it gets expressed in very friendly touches and eddie taking care of steve when he's not okay #and steve taking care of eddie as well #vanessas headcanons #vanessas writing #original post #steddie #steve x eddie #eddie munson #steve harrington #wayne munson #stranger things 4 #stranger things #steddie headcanon #hoh steve harrington #steveddie #eddie x steve

[theragamuffininitiative]

I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.

#ragamusings #anyone else? #had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders #had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???) #and i watched horrific news unfold #and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated #i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day #anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble #but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul #but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically #and who would take care of my cats