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mamapyjama · 1 year

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I’ve been rereading the current anime arc in the manga, and finally got to The Apology™️, and I wondered what words Katsuki used before translation.

Disclaimer: I’m sure others must have posted about this before but I couldn’t recall reading it myself. I do remember there was a lot of talk about the way he used “gomen” as the Japanese fandom were saying how cute and childlike it sounded, so I thought I’d see if there was anything else interesting there.

Oh, my sweet sweet baby boy…

So, just before he says ‘Sorry for everything’ (ima made gomen), he says:

言ってどうにかなるもんじゃねェけど

本音だ

出久

“Itte dōnika naru mon ja nē kedo… Honne da…Izuku”

Which in the English translation, gave us:

And “speak my truth” is lovely and all, but the word from the original that stuck out for me was ‘honne’.

I’m not sure how familiar most people are with honne–tatemae (I only know about it because I go way way too in-depth when researching for my fics lol), but it’s a concept that every Japanese person is deeply aware of, and underpins much of their society.

Here’s the Wikipedia intro:

Ohhh, that is some extra juicy context for Kacchan’s speech. Essentially, he is saying that everything up until now has been his tatemae, a public façade to protect his own position (strong, powerful hero etc), but that he can’t keep that up and he wants Izuku to see his honne, his true, private self.

Excuse me while I melt from the cuteness.

But WAIT! There’s more!

How much do you know about second-person pronouns in Japanese? (Nope, this isn’t about ‘kare’ again this time hehe).

You’ve probably noticed in the anime that Kacchan says “Temee” a lot, and you may have also noticed that it tends to get translated as cursing. So it actually just means ‘you,’ but like a really rude way of saying it, such that the only way of reflecting that in English is to replace ‘you’ with something like Bastard or Asshole.

Again, have an expert explain:

This and the below are from a very excellent article about second-person pronouns and how they are used for context and drama in anime specifically. I’d recommend reading it as the context is really interesting!

So although pronouns aren’t actually commonly used or necessary in much spoken Japanese, when they are used, it’s a deliberate way to tell you about the relationship dynamic between two characters.

But why, you may ask, am I talking about pronouns again?!

Because, dear friends, throughout the first half of his speech, Kacchan uses ‘temee’ as usual to describe his past with Izuku. I’ve highlighted it below, and pls also note the shaky speech bubble showing his nerves during the ‘honne’ section. 🥺

HOWEVER, straight after he says he wants Izuku to see his Honne, Katsuki switches pronouns from ‘Temee’ (v rude), to ‘Omae’ (very casual/familiar). Below is the page after the apology.

Considering we now know pronouns are not necessary to convey meaning, that’s a hell of a lot of omaes on one page!! Boy cannot get enough of saying it.

If you want more about the different pronouns, see below for a helpful table of common uses for both. And please indulge my shippy heart for highlighting the second usage (but, like ‘kare’, you never know)…

Katsuki is showing Izuku immediately and repeatedly that this is who he wants to be to him and how he wants the world to see them. His honne, his inner desire, is to be close to Izuku, to treat him as an equal.

He’s not just saying sorry, he’s showing that—at least from his perspective—things are going to be different from now on. But, like, also, that this was how he felt about him in private the whole time?! GAHHHH.

So there you go, the apology that was already a massive turning point in their story/relationship was actually even deeper and more beautiful than we all thought. Yet again, Japanese conveys nuance and intention far beyond what can be translated. 😭💕

#mha 322 #bkdk #bakudeku #deku #bakugou #mha #bnha #Japanese wins #kacchan loves deku #the apology #izuku #kacchan #pyj obsesses

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reasonsforhope · 9 months

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Your blog is a literal god send for me, I’ve been feeling so depressed, pessimistic, nihilistic and cynical at the state of the world right now and my fear of if I even have a future, but your blog is absolutely what I needed right now, so I can’t thank you enough. I’m just so happy to see someone who is hopeful and positive and not pessimistic, and it makes me legit want to cry tears of joy. How are you able to stay so positive and optimistic despite everything going on?

<3 <3 <3

As for how I stay optimistic and relatively positive? Lots of effort and hard work.

I'm not naturally an optimist. I spent most of my life (and certainly my adolescence lol) being pretty angry and cynical.

It's not that I never feel depressed or despairing about the state of the world. There's fucked up shit happening, indisputably, and hey, I'm trans, it's been a rough fucking year for that. But I guess I try to focus on the difference between passing moods and baseline worldview.

Some of the main ways I moved my baseline worldview to be optimistic and hopeful:

A lot of reading and looking at data and in-depth stories. The headlines never give you enough of the story - hell, most news articles don't these days, because they're so skewed toward negative news

Especially reading/looking at good news sites (I have a masterpost of good news sites here). There are good things happening everywhere that you never hear about. Mostly, you only ever hear about the good things when there's been a huge setback, which sucks!

I'm basically not on social media. Nothing except Tumblr, Facebook, and LinkedIn, and I only ever go on FB and linkedin briefly for business. It's fantastic, can't recommend ditching social media enough

I made sure I was doing something to help (aka I started this blog. I would also volunteer but my disabilities and a lot of logistics make that complicated)

My job involves reading a couple dozen self-help books a year lol, not gonna lie that def helps

Taking a long perspective of time. It often doesn't feel like it, but statistically, this really is the best time to be alive. (Here's a fantastic essay about many of the reasons why.) People really gloss over how much most of the past kinda fucking sucked to live in. 50% of all people used to die before their 15th birthday, for basically all of history until the past 200 years!! Imagine having to live with that. Imagine all of that pain and grief literally everywhere. I'm really happy about living in modern times, actually!

That last point is esp helpful to remember for me because I'm 100% for sure on the list of "people who would've died in childbirth" pre modern medicine (and my mom would've died having me, too). It was modern times or nothing lol

The vast majority of the world has spent the past 300 to 500 years being absolutely brutalized by white people and/or the West. There's still a lot of fallout to fix and colonialism to uproot, but I genuinely can't wait to see what people and nations will achieve with sustained self-rule and significantly fewer massive atrocities

Solarpunk and hopepunk stuff

I'm gonna make a whole post about this at some point but the fact that we eliminated scarcity in the past few decades actually changes the entire fucking game for the world (literally it's not a zero sum game anymore) and for the future. We're allowed a bit of a learning curve I think

I listen to the Rent soundtrack a lot and go "well you know what being trans right now sucks but being trans at the height of the aids crisis would've been way fucking worse" lol rip

Meds! Meds. Antidepressants and antianxiety meds unfortunately don't work for everyone (yet!), but also thank fuck for meds

Progress almost always happens in slow, tiny increments, with a lot of stops and starts and setbacks. You have to always remember that there are always people fighting somewhere, and if they're stopped, there will always be more people to pick up the fight in the future

#thesingingtennisball #ask #me #advice #hope #hope posting #hopeposting #not news #also tbh I highly recommend a basic understanding of statistics #and the ability to parse the basics of many academic papers #whenever I see a scary headline about some new study I check out the actual study and 90% of the time I end up going #“oh that's not that bad actually”#progress happens in tiny tiny i

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x-on-the-calendar-business · 10 months

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ryan ross iceberg (tier 2)

tier 1, tier 3, tier 4, tier 5, tier 6, tier 7, tier 8

the tip of the iceberg:

the young veins:

this is the band that ryan and jon started after they split from panic! it included a few other members, and often times ryan’s good friends z berg and alex greenwald (formerly of phantom planet), who will be mentioned more later on. they only released one album in 2010, called take a vacation! they played some live shows, but at the end of that same year, they went on an indefinite hiatus. HOWEVER, they made an official instagram account and have been active this year!! it’s likely because there will be vinyl repress (further supported by a comment jon left on their only post) but it’s super cool nonetheless [i].

this is a personal aside, but i honestly like this band more than anything panic! released post split, with the exception of new perspective and the calendar. like god this was such a good fucking band.

dottie, elwood, and hobo:

these were all ryan’s dogs.

hobo was the dog he got in 2006. however, when he and keltie (we will discuss her soon) broke up, she took her with her [ii].

dottie was a dog he got circa 2015.

elwood is the dog he got in 2017.

i’m not sure if ryan still has dottie and elwood since he has pretty much disappeared from the internet.

eta: i misspelled elwood's name as elmwood in the iceberg image. sorry about that!

z berg:

this is one of ryan’s exes and his bestie. they dated around 2009/2010. they still hang out today and he’s made appearances at these events she does called proms. she gives us the majority of ryan content that we’ve gotten in the past few years.

he featured on one of her songs, “the bad list,” and she featured of the young veins cover of “nothing matters but you.” she will come up more in other entries as well, which is why i'm not going super in depth here.

throam:

whew.

this is a ryden fic – probably the most iconic after the milk fic – called the heart rate of a mouse, written by anna green. it was originally posted on livejournal, and it’s LONG, coming in at 3 volumes and over 500k words.

the plot summary is that in the 1970s, ryan is the lead singer/guitarist of a famous band called the followers, and brendon is a roadie on their tour. brendon is openly gay, and ryan and brendon start hooking up, even though ryan is “straight.” from there, the series becomes 3 volumes of angst and pining. of course, there’s so much more that happens, but i won’t say too much for the sake of spoilers.

despite it being a ryden fic, it’s incredibly well written (if you’re able to get past the explicit smut), so i do recommend reading it at least once in your life. i’m gonna keep it 100, i’ve read this series at least 10 times with a yearly reread and have physical copies of it.

anna also wrote some ficlets to go along with it, such as one from brendon’s pov and just some extra stuff that didn’t end up in the final cut. she also wrote a lot of other iconic fics (all of which i also recommend), like the black rose season, how a resurrection really feels, posing in a ballroom, miguel sanchez’s grand slam of love, amongst many, many others. sadly, she purged her entire livejournal account, so you would have to turn to internet archives to read anything other than throam [iii].

unfortunately, this fic also reached the icon status that the milk fic did so multiple people from the bandom sphere know about it and have acknowledged it. for example, keltie, ryan’s ex-girlfriend, has read it and mentioned it on twitter multiple times (embarrassing for her but whatever) [iv]. jon tweeted about it once [v]. also, i swear that vicky t from cobra starship mentioned it (i wanna say it was on instagram, but i could be wrong); however, i can’t find the comment she made anymore.

link to throam for those who are curious

jac and keltie:

these are two of ryan’s exes from the panic! days.

jac vanek was a scene queen in the early 2000s, and they dated from november 2005 until feburary 2006 [vi]. it was a pretty cringey teenage relationship that was overly (grossly) chronicled on livejournal, and if you’re interested to read more, there will be a link in a later tier.

an interesting tidbit is that while ryan was dating jac, brendon was dating another scene queen named audrey kitching, which will also come up later in this iceberg.

keltie knight (née colleen) and ryan started their relationship in august 2006 after meeting at the vmas, where panic! was performing and keltie was a backup dancer (she was a rockette). he was 19 and she was 24, which may not seem like a big deal, but it definitely played into some power dynamics in their relationship. for example, in keltie’s book, she says she often had pay ryan's bills for him. also in her book, she stated that he didn't take their relationship seriously, leading him to propose to her and asking her to move in (maybe he wasn't taking it as seriously as you because he was barely in his 20s keltie just a thought). they broke up in 2009 right before the split. we’ll touch on that again later. there is honestly so much more that i could say about this relationship/keltie, but some of it will be covered in this iceberg and the rest will be linked along with the jac info.

sun and moon:

another ryden entry. this refers to a theory about ryan and brendon about which one is considered the moon, and the other is the sun; it’s based on their personalities, like who embodies which more. polar opposites and all that. when ryden was still relevant, who is the moon vs who is the sun was a hotly debated topic (ryan is the moon, while brendon is the sun is the only correct answer).

this also loosely tied into some lyrics from panic and their solo music. for example, when the day met the night is often referenced in relation to this theory, although this song is definitely about keltie [vii]. also, in 2014 ryan wrote lonely moonlight, which also could refer back to this theory and kind of calls back to the lyrics in when the day met the night [viii]. however, this song is most likely about keltie too, if not another past relationship (not brendon).

dead end kids club:

this is a band/touring project that ryan was part of, including z berg, dan keyes, and the band palm springsteen. it was first announced in july, 2019. later that same year, they went on tour, hitting 8 cities for fall balls. this was referred to as the “1st annual” but….[ix]

in 2020, they released a song called lonesome town that featured a lot of videos from fans [x]. also that year, palm springsteen was accused of assault, which dekc posted a couple of statements about on twitter, here and here, stating that they had been removed from the project “a long time ago” [xi]. they pretty much disbanded after that and haven’t been active since october 2020.

livejournal:

iconic. livejournal (aka lj) was basically tumblr before tumblr existed. similarly, it could be used as a personal blog, a place to post rpf fic, an emo poetry hub, a photo album, etc. it’s on this iceberg because ryan was very prolific on livejournal, under the username i_amclandestine, and it’s essentially where panic! got its start. ryan made contact with pete wentz through lj, sending him the early demos, which lead to pete signing them and then cue domino effect to a taylor swift song.

anyway, ryan made many iconic posts on there, some of which will be addressed directly in this iceberg, but i will leave a link to an archive of his lj account for further viewing. he made his last post in june of 2006, but he deleted the account in july of that year after receiving a spam of hate. at the same time, brendon changed his (part_time_lovah) to friends only [xii].

along with the links to ryan’s old lj, i’m also going to link a youtube video by one of my favorite channels, the cozy representative, in which julian goes through ryan’s posts.

this is the web archive for ryan’s lj (does not include his last post):

this is a tumblr masterpost of all of his entries, including the last one missing from the above link:

and finally, julian’s video:

youtube

ryan and spencer childhood besties:

ryan and spencer became friends when they were around 5 or so years old, which was always the saddest part of the 2009 split to me. ryan and spencer were in the og band before panic!, which will be discussed later.

in 2016, spencer’s wife tweeted that ryan and spencer were still friends. however, ryan did not attend spencer’s wedding, which could have been for a number of reasons, one of which we will also discuss more heavily later on [xiii]. of course, there is no way for us to know whether ryan wasn’t invited or if he just decided not to go.

mcr makes me dance:

in 2004, ryan went to the chemicalromance livejournal community and posted, “hey im ryan im new i live in las vegas my chemical romance makes me dance” and history was made [xiv]. this became a "meme" amongst panic! fans, and they started bringing signs with that phrase written on them for ryan told in pics. this has continued even in recent times.

newsboy cap:

this is another iconic piece of ryan ross fashion. he wore it a lot in 2004-2006 cause he’s a little fruity. like seriously, this hat had him in the biggest chokehold.

now, we move onto some of the deeper stuff and into the waters.

tier 3

references:

[i] https://www.instagram.com/theyoungveinsmusic/

[ii] https://pathetic-at-the-disco.tumblr.com/post/171475122211/did-keltie-knight-ever-steal-ryans-dog-or

[iii] https://web.archive.org/web/20170606154418/http:/beggarsnotes.livejournal.com/

[iv] https://youngveins.tumblr.com/post/141384273691/keltie-has-read-throam-this-is-not-the-twitter

[v] https://twitter.com/iamjonwalker/status/958805938227433472

[vi] https://pathetic-at-the-disco.tumblr.com/post/170958104996/the-tragic-love-life-of-ryan-ross-part-2

[vii] https://genius.com/Panic-at-the-disco-when-the-day-met-the-night-lyrics

[viii] https://genius.com/Ryan-ross-lonely-moonlight-lyrics

[ix]https://www.instagram.com/thedeadendkidsclub/?hl=en

[x] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EzcWGQQiFDU

[xi] https://twitter.com/DeadEndKidsClub/status/1275849828459823105, https://twitter.com/DeadEndKidsClub/status/1283511345330049026

[xii] https://prettyoddfever.tumblr.com/post/629056560433446912/why-ryan-ross-deleted-his-livejournal-and-brendon

[xiii] https://pathetic-at-the-disco.tumblr.com/post/171901498176/so-i-saw-your-ryanspencer-post-and-i-was-just

[xiv] https://chemicalromance.livejournal.com/96360.html?page=1

#ryan ross #the young veins #panic! at the disco #jon walker #ryan ross iceberg #spencer smith #brendon urie #patd #ryan patd #panic at the disco #Youtube

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i-heart-hxh · 9 months

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Hey I’ve been thinking about this a little bit lately but I wanted to get your opinion on who you believe believe fell in love first, Killua or Gon. However, I’m going to go into a bit more depth with this ask then that because I actually don’t like how that question is formulated, I only start off that way because it’s how I see most people ask it.

The reason I don’t really like the world choice for the question is that ‘fell in love’ implies consciousness awareness of feelings and the significance of them. I think that if we are dealing with CONSCIOUS feelings of love or just romantic feelings in general it will be a totally different answer from unconscious one’s.

So basically I’ll ask you both of those then. Who do you think unconsciously fell first and who consciously did? I see a lot of debate of this in the fandom but I think most people talk right past each other without clarifying this.

So yeah, I’m curious what you think.

Personally I’ve always been pretty convinced that Killua fell in love consciously first, I think the events and meaning of CAA support this pretty well, but I do believe that Gon probably did unconsciously develop romantic feelings first. However, I don’t think there’s really any indication that I’ve seen (and I’m fairly sure I would have by now if it exists) in the text or subtext that Gon recognizes what those feelings are. In fact, Togashi makes it very clear on many occasions throughout the series that Gon has very little grasp of understanding when it comes to romance, relationships, intimacy or anything of the sort while Killua very clearly does (I won’t elaborate further on this here but there are many examples I could show you if you’d like more details).

While most people point how Gon repeatedly asserts strong feelings towards Killua I believe that Togashi is rather showing us how Gon feels these strong emotions without fully understanding them or why, and that if we was consciously aware of romantic feelings he’d be very unlikely to hold them back.

And of course, I feel that it’s heavily implied that Gon’s next arc/development will be him realizing how much Killua means to him (something more important), especially since Killua already has his own gay realization arc and was left heartbroken.

Anyway that’s just my thoughts on the subject, I’m curious what you think!

Thank you so much for sending me an ask again, I'm always glad to talk HxH more with you!

Here are two previous posts I made on this topic, one on when I think they fell in love with each other and another on how I think about Gon's feelings specifically. Of course, I'm happy to elaborate more because I'm always happy to talk more about these two!

I totally agree with you, and I think my posts I linked above can essentially be boiled down to what you're saying--that Gon started falling for Killua first (fairly early on even, I'd argue), but he doesn't currently understand what the feelings are or what they mean exactly. Meanwhile, Killua fell unconsciously a little later, but he starts understanding the meaning of the feelings he's having earlier because he's more aware of the larger context of romance, and he's also more of a contemplative/introspective type. In Chimera Ant Arc especially, it seems like he is aware (to some degree or another) of the nature of his feelings for Gon.

I've talked quite a bit about canon reasons for why I see their feelings being this way, but here's a bit more of my personal feelings on how I think it develops for them.

Gon likes and admires Killua right away, and thinks he's cool and amazing even when he's doing things that would scare most people. I think the beginnings of a crush on Killua develop early on, sometime during the Hunter Exam before Gon goes on his do-or-die mission to rescue Killua from his family. Gon has grown up with very little exposure to other kids his age, so it makes sense that, even if his feelings do go beyond what's "normal" for friendship, it's difficult for him to separate that out or know what the limits are. If his feelings for Killua are intense, it's because they're best friends, of course! Because of his lack of anything to compare it to, it's easy for him to just assume it falls into these normal categories, especially with his straightforward personality. Gon isn't completely unaware--he's smart, and I think there are likely moments where he notices his feelings towards Killua and recognizes that they're different than the feelings he has towards other friends, but it's easy for him to brush it aside or not get all the way to a conclusion because he doesn't have all the puzzle pieces together yet.

I agree that the way he declares his feelings is a good indicator of the strength of his feelings, though--and this is something Togashi emphasizes time and time again. Also the degree to which he trusts and relies on Killua is important. As friendly and sometimes trusting as Gon can be with his other friends and people he meets, his bond with Killua is clearly different to him--it's a partnership where they mutually support each other, and I don't think he would be comfortable with that degree of reliance with anyone who isn't Killua. Gon is often trying to prove himself and prove his usefulness to others to soothe his self esteem issues, so I think allowing Killua to be useful to him instead (i.e. Greed Island dodgeball match) is a form of vulnerability to Gon.

He's also just so proud of Killua and grateful that he's in his life.

I agree that I think Gon's next arc is going to be realizing the significance of and finding his way back to Killua, and I also agree that once he's aware of these feelings he probably won't hold them back, especially if he thinks Killua is ready to hear them.

For Killua, of course he hasn't lived a normal life with normal friendships either, but because his parents are married and he's lived with siblings of various ages (including whatever media his family exposes him to, etc.), he has more awareness of romance/relationships/intimacy like you were saying, and like I've also said before. He's also been out in the world more and presumably observed and learned more about society, even if it was within the context of training and/or assassinations.

With Killua, my headcanon is that he has an inkling of what these feelings are for a long time with his more in-depth knowledge and the fact that he's so reflective and analytical, but I think he spends a lot of time denying what they are to himself (even though he Knows) and resisting them because it's scary and awkward to him. I think it's something he grapples with, tries to keep under control, sometimes manages to push down for a little while, and then in the end the feelings always get the better of him and he keeps having to come to grips with his lack of control over them. He's ultimately just consumed by them, unfortunately with terrible timing in Chimera Ant Arc.

I actually think Gon might have some idea that Killua's feelings for him are really deep and that it somehow goes beyond the normal friendship (even best friendship) category even if he doesn't entirely know what that means or fully recognize the meaning of those same feelings in himself; and I think Killua might be aware of these feelings and what they mean to some degree, but have the (mistaken) impression caused by his own self esteem/circumstances/the fact that Gon is kind of an enigma that his specifically romantic feelings are definitely one-sided/something that can't be reciprocated and he just has to suffer with them alone. Both of them have issues with their own self-esteem that I think might prevent them from decoding the situation fully as things are.

Anyway, I definitely agree with you that Killua fell consciously and with awareness first, and Gon fell first unconsciously and without the awareness to fully understand what's going on. Thanks again for your thoughtful ask and patiently waiting for me to get back to you as always!

#hxh #hunter x hunter #killugon #gonkillu #gon #killua #meta #my posts #asks #tjlnn22

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aliceindaisychains999 · 1 month

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Hiii ✨️ Your reply from my post got me really curious about headcanons for my self ship and I feel like I really need a kick back into posting all my drafted f/o posts...

Primis Dempsey is the absolute love of my life, and I was wondering what sort of hcs you had? I also want to come up with a new ship name, but I'm stumped thus far heh..

Sending big hugs 🩷✨️

- 🌾

Angel, I’ve got just the thing! I’m glad you’re back and I’m sending big hugs and lots of love to you💖💖💖

But FIRST!

A short little name brain storm

Guns and Roses

Bowie-Winged Butterflies (bowie knife btw, not the 80s singer)

Poppies and Primroses

Gun-Slinging Sweethearts

I hope these few can help, even if it helps the brainstorm have a clearer idea of what feels right.

Headcanons for you and Primis Tank:

Ohhh my GOSH. Every time Tank looks at you, it’s like a sense of pure wonder completely mesmerizes him. Smitten is an understatement

As a marine, his training and combat experience shook him down to experience constant hyper vigilance. Just your very presence helps him feel grounded again.

You have such an ethereal beauty to you! Not just in the way you naturally glow, but the way you dress yourself is just so gorgeous and so classy! You have him like moth to a flame. Tank can’t help but kiss you from head to toe every chance he gets

You’re that special someone who’s graced him with gift of tenderness that he’s secretly starved for. For that, he’s eternally grateful. He expresses this most through quality time and physical affection the most

I feel like he would give you one of these cheesy Valentine’s just to make you smile

“Yeah, I know it’s dorky. But it made you smile!”

You might be a badass belle of your own, but Tank’s still going to feel the need to protect you. If anyone bothers you, he’s immediately up to bat against anyone and anything. Hell, he’d threaten to punch the dirt if you stepped on a rock. The man is incredibly devoted to helping you

Dempsey has a lot of depth to him. Only you ever had the chance to really know that. The battles he’s willing to fight for you extend past outside conflicts. You are never too much. You are worth more than every star in the galaxy.

“Remember when I said we’d fight side to side, back to back? I meant that from the bottom of my heart. We’re a team. And I’m willing to do whatever the hell it takes to keep you safe. You’re the woman I want to love ‘till the day I die. No matter what happens, I promise to protect you.”

Some songs for your ship: You I Need by Amorphis, Doe Eyes by Sophie Woodhouse, and No Other Love by Jo Stafford

He’s very easy going whether you want to go somewhere or stay curled up together at home. Fun dates include (but are not limited to 😉): picnic dates, walking along the beach shoreline, a trip to the shooting range, aquarium visits, shopping together, and so much more.

In his top left pocket is his mother’s blueberry pie recipe to remember her by. I can see you both working together in the kitchen to make it together! Kneading the dough, teaching him what to do, having him slow dance with you while waiting for it to bake. It’s one of his most cherished memories.

Tank lets you steal his leather jacket to wear often. In a modern AU where he’s a drill sergeant, he makes sure you help keep it safe while he’s off to work.

When you two snuggle in at night, you get to rest safe in the marine’s embrace. He softly strokes your hair while you rest your head on his chest, softly conversing until one of you fall asleep first.

Tank daydreams with you about what it’d be like running away to a cottage home. Coming home to that sweet smiling face of yours every day, tending to the garden, escaping the bustle of the world. One of these days, he’s gonna make that dream a reality for you both.

#my writing #IM SO SORRY IF I GOT TOO LENGTHY #I got stuck in a mode of ‘oh these guys are such a power couple lets do some more’#i’m only stopping myself because of the wall of text I’ve unleashed #i do hope it helps though!💝

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stardustdiiving · 8 months

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I would read your zhongxiao codependent yuri Like, I do generally picture them as a vaguely father/son dynamic BUT THAT IS NOT CANON. It's just as much fun to view them through a romantic interpretation! Idk why people can't view the same characters in different kinds of relationships without being weird about it.

Anyway I love your vision and would love to hear more about it lakdjs

THANK U SO MUCH Im not sure if I’m gonna write zx in the future since I’ve tended to be shy about posting my stuff relating to them for over a yr now, but I did post this fic with them last year while trying to get a hold on how to write them (mind the tags it’s pure angst omg). I was too shy to tag it as ship since it didn’t feel shippy enough, which is kind of funny to me in hindsight bc I reread it and am like. Man I think only a zx shipper would write this NUFNVJVJV

Post got kind of lot Im gonna go on a tangent about them under the cut

Honestly my theory for why ppl r very set on the father/son interpretation is everyone’s immediate thought on to how to make the power imbalance between them seem less uncomfortable is to apply a parental interpretation to it. Which is fine ofc, I get it, but the way ppl push it as canon a lot kind of grates on me a little bc they’re usually incredibly passive aggressive and pushy even if u clearly designate ur post as ship OTL

Also not really a fan of the characterizations either since ppl tend to treat Xiao like a moody teenager Zhongli has to reel in (this is hilariously reminiscent of the post I made about how ppl handle scaramouche and nahida a bit ago haha). And idk I just feel kind of polarized about the headcanon overall bc I associate it with people being really uncomfortable and frustrating about zx

I just like how there’s sort of an imbalance to them, some zxs like them being more fluffy and functional but I sort of like it where it’s not like, entirely dysfunctional but I’m prioritizing a specific kind of character study over romance. This tends to be how a lot of my ships go ngl I just sometimes enjoy the intensity/intimacy of romantic feelings thrown into the mix if it makes it interesting but I’m not often interested in a lot of my ships following more standard romance plots(?) I guess? Unless it’s specific ones. Which sounds clinical when I put it like that but this is just bc I am very aromantic NHFBVJVJ

When I say codependency in zhongxiao honestly it’s sort of a theoretical(?) codependency—not sure how to word it? I think Xiao would be really fucked up if he didn’t have Zhongli in his life suddenly but I don’t think his relationship with getting attached to people invokes what people would majorly think of when they think of codependency in a ship I suppose. It’s moreso I just feel Xiao could be at his worst with dehumanizing himself in comparison to other people with Zhongli, because said mental state is driven by how he feels about debt, service, and duty which are very closely tied with devotion and how he would feel about someone he considers his god and leader, as well as someone who saved him

It’s fun this is paired with Zhongli who generally knows how to work with Xiao kind of understands the self destructive depth Xiao’s loyalty/devotion comes with. Also fun they have been around each other for a very long time and Xiao as one of the adepti is familiar with the past I think Zhongli appreciates having around. They work but it’s also a case where Zhongli is in such a position of power over Xiao its kind of very delicate situation that’s hard for both of them to navigate. Which is fun to explore. I esp love contrasting it with other Xiao pairings (actually i think i still have that xiaoven fic up on my ao3 where I tried to convey a specific interpretation of them in a similar exploration vein too)

I totally get why people wouldn’t like it (I feel a lot of my opinions on xiao ships just clash with a lot of fandom consensus so bad all the time And it’s just bc I’m like this I’m not even trying to be contrarian or anything. HELDINCJD) but I just tend to handle shipping in a specific way. It’s not I don’t enjoy fluffy or lighthearted zl and xiao stuff I actually enjoy it a lot I just like there being layers. This makes it feel more impactful when I think about how Zhongli looks out for Xiao in canon or how Xiao gets like textually flustered talking to him (lantern rite 2023 was so tailored to my tastes it’s not even funny)

#the yuri part is more of an inside joke w my friends bc this is how we all talk but I did once compare zx to my sapphic awakening pairing #which is rose & Pearl from steven universe and it is truly my favorite thing to pitch to people verbally bc It kind of sounds #incomprehensible but also I’m totally onto something….no one understands….#Pearl and xiao r literally both spear wielding birds who’s arc revolves around being ok w being a person who lives for themselves ://#and they r eternally grateful to their war general leader . no one gets it. it torments me personally bc #I loved Pearl SU when I was 11 and now I enjoy xiao a lot and it’s like…we’ll these r very different characters but also I think I have not #changes. JUDJDKXJD #it’s 3am I woke up in a haze to answer this…I need to go to bed smh #fern.txt #zhongxiao #Edit: I woke up and finished writing this post and I a #am so tired #asks

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hongism · 2 years

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update;

tldr: all i’ll be writing on this blog moving forward is mists of celeste. if that’s all you want to know about the status of both me and this blog, then you can stop reading here! i won’t be offended or bothered if that’s all you want to know!

however if you’re interested in a more in-depth explanation as to why i came to this decision then you’re welcome to keep reading to understand where i’m at.

why am i doing this?

there are multiple layers to why i’m taking this step. first off this is not a goodbye, as much as i’m sure many people are expecting that with how often i’ve been absent from this blog this year alone. one, i made a promise to myself when i very first started this blog almost 4 years ago that i would deactivate once i reached a certain milestone. since then, i’ve chosen not to deactivate and i think i will always leave this blog up as an archive even when the day comes where i will not be here or be posting anything here. i also have hopes and goals to finish mists of celeste and i think i will hit that milestone before i finish the story (maybe not anymore but, that’s beside the point).

two, with being so close to such a significant milestone, i think there are certain expectations i have regarding my fics and the success of those fics. frankly, almost 90% of my following came from when i started writing for a.tz/s.kz, not b.ts. so it isn’t a disconnect in what people followed me for because i haven’t been writing for b.ts for several years by now. but even so, my fics still don’t do well. the reblogs mostly come from me, the feedback mostly comes from people who read from me regularly or mutuals, and the ratio of likes to reblogs is a never-ending issue that is never going to change. i’m grateful for anyone who stops to read and leave feedback on my works, and i am especially grateful to anyone who stops to read and leave feedback on my works that are not mists of celeste. and now with tumblr mucking up the tag system and preventing my works from being shown in the tags even when i do everything recommended, my works are going out to an even smaller audience that is not even 1% of my follower count. even with atinyblr being slow these days, i see other writers doing well and getting 500-1000+ notes with apparent ease compared to what i see on my own works.

the shift in interest in the community has also affected me a lot. people are less likely to read a 10k+ fic that has plot mixed in with smut compared to a 1-2k pwp smut fic, which is fine. but that isn’t what i enjoy writing. and i understand that over time, i have lost the audience i used to have when it comes to writing that stuff. even for moc, barely anyone on the taglist i run with every update reads the updates. it’s an upsetting reality for me as the writer because i see my follower count go up and up yet my interaction and notes go down and down. which is primarily why i don’t like being here anymore to be frank. i have my friends from here but i talk to them off tumblr so i don’t feel a need or a compulsion to be here to talk to friends. i know that whatever i post won’t be received the way i wish for it to be received. and i now have this lingering fear that anytime i post anything at all tumblr will decide it shouldn’t show in tags at all.

and three, people are still dragging up things that happened in the past that i have tried so hard to move away from and want nothing to do with anymore. and belatedly, as much as i changed my url at the time, i realize that i won’t ever be able to fully distance myself from being involved in that in the past as long as i am calypso, hongism. i really hate that because i’ve had to come to terms with a lot of the bad things i suffered here on this website and in my real life relationships that were public here on tumblr, but i will always be known for my association with those things in a negative light.

what about your other series?

i won’t be writing them anymore! i appreciate all the love and affection given to them but frankly after blood masquerade i came to the realization that even if there are a lot of people interested in an idea, they aren’t all going to be interested in the final product. the ratio of votes to even likes on the fic itself was so grossly skewed that i found myself both baffled and discouraged to even continue writing it. aka; why am i putting so much heart and soul into something and not seeing an outcome that is balanced or fair? it wasn’t even an insignificant difference but rather something close to a 50+ difference in notes and votes.

will you ever change your mind?

maybe? maybe not? probably not. at some point in the distant future i might find myself wanting to go back to ideas that i had, like the wooyoung and san series i had planned for october this year but right now i have such a dismal and bad relationship with this blog in general that i don’t even want to think about posting anything here.

and one more note regarding moc:

i think i’m done writing interims. there has always been a disconnect in the readers of the main chapters versus readers of the interims, and i’ve always known that would be the case, but it is greatly disheartening as the writer to see such a divide on the work that i put my heart and soul into. so for now moving forward i just want to do main chapters and nothing else unless i feel so in love with an idea that i just have to put it out there.

overall i understand that this post as a whole is very moody and emotional and negative but i hope you all understand that this has been something i’ve been struggling with for the better part of a year here on this blog. i feel a disconnect and i feel no way to grab the ropes and tie myself back here the way i used to be here. even looking at other writers who have come up into the scene on atinyblr, i feel very lacking as a writer and i also feel a disconnect from them because i’m a writer who has been around here since 2020. it’s dumb to say that i feel ostracized in any sort of way but i do feel a bit distant, and i understand that in my attempts to curate a corner for myself on the internet, i created a very specific niche for myself in mists of celeste. i have always said that that is my magnum opus, and i still believe that to be the case. and at risk of sounding horribly arrogant, i feel i’ve isolated myself on an island that is mists of celeste and any time i try to broaden my horizons to do something outside of moc, it’s destined to fail. so for the sake of my mental well-being i need to step back and dedicate hongism to mists of celeste so that i can curb any expectations i might have had about other projects i wanted to do.

so no, it’s not a goodbye, just a note that i’m slowing down and that the only thing i’ll be presenting to you all here on hongism moving forward is mists of celeste. it’s something that’s said a lot but it’s not something that i admitted myself until recently, but having come back multiple times this year with this mentality of ‘if i just push myself through this then it’ll be fine’, i now realize that if i don’t care for myself then how can i expect anyone else to care about me either? and i think i need to do this to care for myself and have a better mentality about my presence here.

#caly chats #as far as asks go #im trying my best to reach a mental space where i feel okay enough to #be calypso here

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dramarising-replacement · 2 months

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Free art threads.

Made a couple of these in the past, and I'm actually considering just.. not doing them on this site anymore? I actually think I'd be better off doing free art for people on Toyhou.se instead.

Cue the rant.

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So I'm sure some of y'all are familiar with the "Creative Corner" in the forums, yeah? You can share random art you've made, ask people how much they'd pay for your art, that sort of thing. Then, you got the free art threads. They can be titled things like "Drawing ur dragons :33" and "bored, draw humans. bye." and you'll also see the same couple users posting in those threads, but I'm not here to name-drop lol.

The ones who I have a problem with are the ones who don't read anything. Like, at all. You could spend thirty minutes crafting a decent looking thread, filled with information (but not TOO much, just enough to answer most people's questions) and highlight the "rules" part of your thread that has specific steps to follow for free art. Wanna know what the majority of the commentors on your thread are gonna do?

"[Insert dragon image] Pls draw :)" or "[Link to a page with over 60+ dragons] choose whatever one you want.]" and that's about it. There won't be any mention of any steps you wanted them to follow, (The steps are usually very simple, too. As in, let the artist know the bare minimum idea of what you want. I'm talking about expressions here. That's literally all they'd have to do to get some scrumptious free art.) and that feels kinda invalidating, y'know?

I'm not asking the commentors to describe a whole scene for me, I'm just asking them to give me ONE LITTLE IDEA (again, an expression or maybe if they want a bust) and I'll do the rest for them, free of charge. The art that they'd be getting isn't some random disaster of a sketch, nono, it's fully-colored and shaded. It also doesn't look like something that a 5 year old drew. (No shade to people who draw like that, I was stuck like that for years.) Bro, just do a MINIMAL amount of reading and I'll draw your dragon that has an absurd amount of apparel to tje point where it hurts my eyes.

..It doesn't just stop there, either. I've also seen these people never reply to artists who have given them an absolute masterpiece of a drawing, for free. Bro. You serious? I get that some people are inactive, which I'm not bothered by. But the ones who aren't? ...Ehh, I just think you could at least thank the artist before returning to the void with your free art.

The moral of the story is; Do the bare minimum and read what matters in a post, and thank the artists who draw your dragons for free. Especially the ones who could've easily charged you 1kg+ for the work they've done.

If you're socially awkward, then cool. I get that. If you can't afford to pay artists with fictional pixel money, then go ahead and visit the free art threads. I'm not trying to gate-keep them, I literally make these threads. I just don't enjoy having people put zero effort in their requests and then never acknowledge the fact that I drew their dragon for them. Just my thoughts, everyone views things differently and that's okay!

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Btw, I mentioned Toyhou.se because I've posted on both before, and while there are SOME similarities in the users' behavior, there's also some notable differences, too.

Common flight rising free art thread comment: [doesnt read text and adds dragon image] thanks if you draw.

Common Toyhou.se free art thread comment: [links a character, goes into a VERY in-depth explanation about how said character acts, very passionate too. Usually reads rules, too.] Thanks if you draw. (gotta stay consistent lol)

Obviously there are some differences in the sites which affect how the users act, I get that. One's a literal dragon collecting game and the other one's focused on writing and drawing characters, it's expected that one would read more than the other.

...But again, free art. Not paid, but free. Someone takes time out of their day to draw your dragon. Just give them a simple "thanks" and go on your merry way. That's all you gotta do. Lets them know their effort was appreciated, and shows that you're a nice person. Win-win.

Please man, just read. Did I mention that these threads usually have a maximum of 100 words? I don't usually type this much. But damn, this just irritated me so much.

Well, that's the end of this rant. Like I said, a few people are obviously going to disagree with some/maybe everything I've said, and that's life. This was a disorganized rant, and that's all it's going to be.

#Forums

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Ok so my insane posts two nights ago were about this. THE BIG ALKAKUREI FINALE EVENT. As you can hear here it made me feel dizzy. I’m so so excited because the premise of having them swap leaders means soooooo much potential for interactions I’m so thrilled. If the name is a reference to the movie that makes it so transgender to be honest I’m sure Matrix is a word that existed before The Matrix though. The expressions here are so good I feel crazy. The leader-swap is SUCH a good premise. The outfits… aaah… so good.

The matching Amagi 5☆ of my dreams… I knew they’d be the 5☆, but I didn’t expect them to match!!!!! (＞_＜。) I feel crazy. Something about the art direction for all of these cards is also just very very good.

Ai-chan is one of the 5☆ which I was hoping for i’m sooo excited. I wonder what exactly she means, by “why did you have to change like that?” After all, they are narrative foils and have so much substance in the main story, especially with how Aira essentially served as his saviour in a sense; reminded him what truly matters. She is like if Rinne were untainted, if he had been saved before it was too late, if his love for idols remained pure. It could be something silly though, but for videos like these the quotes don’t match the CGS, & the CG IS SO SILLY. She wants Hiro-kun back so badly. I understand why she would be against the unit leader swap literally calling herself an anti but I am excited to see what will come from it.

For Mayoi & Rinne too, with their seemingly matching CGS & discussion of the Amagi village. Which, since HiMERU is on a bus, it would be exciting if they go to their hometown, but I am afraid of how they will handle it if that is the case—their track record has been… not good. Not egregious, but bad. So I am nervous, since people say this. I hope there will be no micro aggressions from the cast for 0 reason, sad as it is to have to say. It is realistic ignorance, but it doesn’t hold value at all, and there are real people with ainu blood who play the game. To anyone, really, it is uncomfortable to experience. The story itself is already rather anti-indigenous in it’s messages of them being backwards & something to escape from. But… I won’t be a pessimist because of it. They could be normal. In fact, it could even be sweet...

There is so much potential for growth… it’s so brilliant. I’m excited, I am keeping my hopes up for this event. Despite the value of !! Era being lesser at times for preexisting units, & the fact they could have done better for the new units it brought to the table in the last 4 years, I’ve found everything so interesting nonetheless… the main story, the side pieces to go with it, obbligato, it is good. Speaking of obbligato; as I had said on twitter, “I’m actually really glad there seems to be no Kaname action because I would much rather it have been in a different big event or Crazy:B specific event to give him the focus he deserves & make it hurt more since there’s already so many characters to give focus to in alkakurei.” Some may not agree with this, but I love Kaname, and I am crazy. So I want it to be done right, for this reason, even if others would take any sliver they can get. I simply do not agree.

I am still very happy with HiMERU’s 5☆. In love with it. Unfortunately he looks very cute, like a beautiful woman of some sort, with a cute tiny little blue sticker on his laptop that looks just like Kanamy…?! One may say Kohaku gave it to him. But he has eyed cute things in the past, in a store. His expression in the bloomed is very beautiful… it looks very authentic, not like the role of HiMERU he plays, but something more real from the depths of his soul. The Tojou within him, something unnamed yet real.

I really love this Tatsumi card because he’s like we’ll resolve everything like we always do while looking so very frazzled. Distressed. I love when handsome young men are distressed. Things are happening to him, and he still sits so politely, so lady-like. It is wonderful. Tatsumimi.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen Kohaku smile so wide. It’s so Mamaful, isn’t it? And who he is talking to is most definitely Hiiro, someone he had no connection to other than through his friends. It’s exciting.

AND THEN THE MV DROPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING THIS & I SQUEALED. NIKI & TATSUMI DUET. AMAGI HUG IN REALTIME. Aichan exuding her adorableness onstage like no other. The kohaku aichan highfive. The part with the lanterns and the shutting off of the artificial lighting, their stage illuminated with the love of their fans, the sweat dripping down their faces, the emotions in the songs! It’s amazing. It really killed me. I was not disappointed for a second. Mayoi, HiMERU, everyone else, were very cute. Aaahuuhhh…

#ʚɞ #espost

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Six and ‘Kindness will be your undoing’

I saw a nifty little theory by @queen0fm0nsterz that is mainly about the meaning of the term ‘deep-six’ but at the end it mentions the possible meaning behind the Little Lost Things achievement description "Kindness will be your undoing": https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/queen0fm0nsterz/651175746947235840?source=share and I want to expand on the meaning behind that phrase for Six.

I’ve seen someone say that the phrase could be talking about Runaway Kid since he kindly offers Six a sausage but he gets eaten instead, it could be referring to him but I’m confident that it’s more aimed towards Six. Since it’s with Six that you get the achievement with that description and it requires Six to do something to get the achievement, not Runaway Kid, so I’m 100% sure that the achievement description is talking about Six, not Runaway Kid.

I first made this post as a comment on Reddit that ask why Six hugs Nomes, and here I’ve copy and pasted it below:

From what I think, the Nomes may remind Six of the two friends she's lost: RCG and Mono. The Nomes remind her of RCG because there are plenty of them in the Nest which is the same place where she lost RCG. And they remind her of Mono because of the Nome hat he can wear. And perhaps she hugs the Nomes as a way to grieve for Mono and RCG.

And for the description of the Little Lost Things achievement "Kindness will be your undoing", she tried to save RCG, she tried to be kind, but it ended up being for nothing since RCG dies anyway and it caused Six to develop Survivor's Guilt.

And then with Mono she risked her own life several times to help him (and Mono doing the same for Six of course) and he got her kidnapped by the Thin Man who took her to a place that tortured and distorted her (as evidence by the part where Mono tries to pull her out of a TV, she doesn't want to be in the Signal Tower and is clearly in distress), but when Mono later finds her distorted in the Signal Tower she shares her music box with him after he calls to her a couple of times. Mono's actions, intentional or not, ended up getting her into this state where she's been tortured and her body (and possibly mind too) has been distorted, but despite that she still tries to share her music box with him, another act of kindness. I've gone a bit more in-depth of how many volumes this simple gesture speaks on how much Six did care about Mono in my best explanation on why she drops him later, but despite what Mono's actions ended up doing to her she still tried to show him kindness, which also makes the notion that she never cared about him and was only using him much more bizarre. And well... we know what Mono ended up doing with the music box (not saying that Six dropping him is okay before people start claiming that)

Two acts of kindness from Six that she got punished for, and she possibly hugs the Nomes as to grieve for the two friends she's lost and tried to be kind to. And the act of hugging the Nomes itself is yet another act of kindness from Six. Note that you only get the achievement when you eat Nome RK after hugging the 12 other Nomes, not when you hug all 12 of them itself, you must then eat Nome RK to get the achievement, I'll get back on this shortly. The LN Twitter had already said "But when you know what the sausages are made of in The Maw, you can understand the choice." when someone mentioned that scene. So the reason why Six eats the Nome instead of the sausage is because she knows that the sausage was made of children.

I'm not saying that her eating the Nome was right but if you've just managed to escape from being cooked and eaten alive and extremely painful hunger hits you and your only choices are: starve to death, eat something that is pretty much a critter to you (yes we know that the Nomes were kids too, but Six doesn't know that) or knowingly commit cannibalism by eating something that could've been you had you been caught earlier, then what will you do? Six was in a lose-lose-lose situation.

Remember how I mentioned that you only get the achievement when you eat the Nome after hugging the 12 previous ones? Six hugged 12 critters that possibly remind her of her lost friends whom she tried to be kind to as well, only for her kindness to be punished in one way or another, and was just put in yet another situation where her kindness ended up backfiring because she just ate a critter (12 of which she hugged earlier) because she thought it was the least bad option of 3 bad options in that scenario. Six is punished for being kind yet again. And I think the description of the Little Lost Things achievement is her reminding herself of a harsh lesson she had to learn the hard way: Kindness will be your undoing.

Six didn't have to do these acts of kindness - she wanted to - only for it to end up hurting her. And this just adds to the tragedy of Six's story, which I’ve gone into more detail here (and included a link to a song which I think is perfect for that subject).

Thanks for reading if you've read all of this.

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Nathan made mistakes, yes. But, you seem to constantly have to point them down to try to detract from the fact that Haley cheated. They got back together, they got past it. But own up to the fact that your fave cheated, and that Nathan may have flirted but he never cheated. I can love them both. You don't have to tear him down nonstop.

Honestly, I’m not sure where this is coming from other than as a response to the couple posts I made today. I’m not sure what good answering you will do but I guess I will anyway. I do encourage people who disagree with me to talk to me too. I like seeing peoples different points of view. Haley critics often bring up Chris as a way to deflect from Nathan’s mistakes or anyone who criticizes him. That one mistake she made in season three as a 16-year-old does not mean that Nathan has reign to hurt her over multiple seasons without complaint from fans.

If you pay attention to my blog, you will know that I talk about Nathan’s mistakes because they’re not talked about much anywhere else. I also talk about them because if you know who the creator of the show is, so many of his gross ideologies come through in the character of Nathan. Why shouldn’t these issues be talked about? Why aren’t they talked about more? He is a raved about character who rarely gets any critical feedback. At best, it’s one critical comment for five defenses in response. Besides what I have posted, when is the last time you saw someone pointing out Nathan’s wrongdoing on the show? He makes decisions that negatively impact Haley almost every season and they go unremarked on by most people. His wrongdoings also aren’t really acknowledged on the show. Haley worked her way back to Nathan in season three over multiple episodes. The character herself also got less screen time and almost no solo storylines after the tour. That discrepancy doesn’t upset you?

I have said it before and I’ll say it again for you, but Haley going on tour and all the ways she did it wrong are talked about in depth anywhere where people are still discussing one tree hill. She gets hate for that decision all the time. If there was already an equal amount of criticism for Nathan, I wouldn’t be talking about it as much.

I just put out my opinions on this blog and you don’t have to agree with what I say or even read it. Also have I said anything about Nathan that wasn’t true? The recent remarks I made about Nathan and Taylor for example. Maybe it bothers you that I’m talking about it at all, but my commentary is all based on his actions and the fact that the show hardly acknowledges them and the fandom even less. Nathan, as a character gets so much exploration and depth on the show that it’s particularly messed up imo that what he puts Haley through gets overlooked in the narrative and by fans. I’ve said this multiple times. I could make post after post about Lucas, but there’s no need because the Internet has that covered. There is a lot of criticism for Lucas out there nowadays actually and I wonder if that bothers you as much as criticism on Nathan does.

I also encourage people who have different opinions to talk to me too. But I’ve made a handful of posts over the last several months, if even that, so my “constant” talk on Nathan is really more intermittent.

Adding this on bc come on people. You must come from the Sophia Bush world of cheating, where only technicalities count. Nathan was not faithful to Haley in season five. He still betrayed her. And unlike Haley, he didn’t just have this one storyline that dabbled in betrayal and dishonesty.

#oth #one tree hill #nathan x haley #nathan scott #to be fair I have made a lot of posts in the past and I don’t expect anyone to read them all #I know people love Nathan and I don’t want to be mean because I really do love some good discourse #but come on lol

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twilight-amber · 11 months

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So, I’ve spent the past few weeks doing basically nothing but playing Tears of the Kingdom... and I’ve gotta talk about it a little. This is your warning that I will probably be posting about spoilers going forward, so do be careful if you’re trying to avoid that!

I have a lot of thoughts about this game and somewhat mixed feelings, but on the whole I think it’s a very impressive game. Some more specific thoughts below the cut:

One thing that’s made me very happy so far: WE HAVE CHEESE NOW.

No, but seriously, I think the recipe system in BotW was a whole lot of fun and I’m so glad they expanded on it in TotK with new ingredients and recipes, plus there’s that new recipe system that records them for you! I’m this close to making a list of all the new recipes I can get my hands on, and I’m probably actually going to make a post for that soon.

One thing that made me mad: okay if I’m being honest there’s a lot of things. But starting at my most petty, WHY did they nerf the Rito bows?? They’re supposed to be the archers, so if anything their bows should be more powerful! The bows wouldn’t even decay because they’re not made of metal so what is the justification here?? I want my base-20-damage Falcon Bow back!

(With that being said, I’m so glad they let us have replica Champion weapons from the getgo while giving the original weapons to NPCs who don’t have to worry about weapon durability - it’s a great way to ensure that I (and many others, I’m sure) will actually use them.)

One thing that made me sad: Dinraal’s new path doesn’t go through Tanagar Canyon.

This one’s partly personal, because Dinraal was the first dragon I ever saw as I was first crossing through the canyon in my initial playthrough of BotW, so I’ve always personally associated her with that area. But there’s also the fact that if I’m remembering correctly, it’s mentioned during the Champion’s Ballad that Dinraal has followed that path by Rito Village for so long that she’s considered a guardian spirit of the village, not to mention the fact that she’s a part of the trials that were created for the Rito Champion an entire 10,000 years ago, suggesting that she has inhabited that region for a very, very long time. And now she just... doesn’t??

This is just one of many changes in this game that felt just slightly disrespectful to the lore established in BotW, but it’s the only one I haven’t seen anyone else make note of yet, so here I am.

(Plus, her new path feels... a bit boring compared to the other two? Naydra and Farosh each do a proper loop through a section of Hyrule, but Dinraal just covers the same arc on land and then in the Depths. Now this is mostly outweighed by the fact that you can ride the dragons now and I’m absolutely ecstatic about that, but it was a little bit of a letdown realising she was just going back the way she came once she got out of the Depths...)

Still, with that being said...

One thing that filled me with glee: you can ride on the dragons! I’ve spent a ridiculous amount of time just hanging out with them since I heard about this, and I’m probably going to spend a whole lot more time doing it in the future, too. It’s so much fun.

#tears of the kingdom spoilers #totk spoilers #mooostly minor gameplay spoilers because I don't want to go too deep on my first post in literal months #but I am aware of most of the game plot up to and including the ending #there's... a lot going on in this game

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axvwriter · 6 months

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hello again

i saw your tags asking about what more you can do for palestine and i saw this slideshow on tiktok

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8BgH6S4/

it doesnt really have donation palces listed on the slides. i'm not 100% sure but it seems like humanitarian aid is trickier because so much can't really be let into without the israeli government allowing it. and what they have allowed is dangerously little for how much the people need. but by all means continue looking into more sources.

i've seen some posts about getting e-sims/sim cards from other countries for the people's phones in the event they lose internet or cell towers again, they'll still be able to communicate and share more information with the rest of the world

Thank you for the link! I actually noticed the tiktok account is basically a link to a site called Amaliah.com which actually has links and more in-depth information that just what the slideshow shows.

I'm looking at these three site pages for what individuals can possibly do. There's boycotting here. Resource and Activism Guide which is the more in-depth info I mentioned above; it lists protests in locations from all over the world. While it's most likely past those dates, I figure that means at the least that if you're in any of those parts of the world, that you can look into those protests to see if they're still ongoing and have ways to join. Then this here shows ways to Post Support.

Below the read more line will be what I've gathered from looking into a few things that I wanted to look into a few days ago and have now gotten around to doing so.

I somewhat listened to Joe Biden’s speech regarding the “Israel-Hamas conflict”. He made some remarks about god/religion, maybe that was to show support for Judaism? The way he painted it, Hamas is a terrorist group that attacked Israel. He also states that Hamas does not represent the Palestinian people. Biden says that he has asked that the Israeli government allow aid to go to Gaza civilians and to allow them to cross the border into Egypt while not allowing the same to Hamas. Then says he’s demanded that the Israeli government allow Redcross see their hostages to provide aid to them. The president also shares that America has sent $100 mil in humanitarian aid to Gaza and the West Bank.

Joe Biden also shared an anecdote that I felt is a bit odd but interesting. Apparently at a time when he was still a senator, he had met with an Israeli prime minister. The prime minister had told him not to worry and that they have a secret weapon. That they have nowhere else to go. That comment along with Joe’s comment about Israel being a place of safety for Jewish people. With what I’ve heard of what’s been done to Palestinian people by the Israeli military/government, it does seem like the idea is to try to paint the image that Israel is defending itself and that Judaism is under attack.

So this gives me the impression that the American government is on the side of Israel, but doesn’t fully support bombing Gaza. That the American government believes this to be a response to an attack, that everything is just a fight against Hamas. Though I’m hearing things suggesting that the Israeli government is using that as a cover-up/excuse for attacking Palestinians.

CNN’s article shared no witnesses or anything type of proof of Hamas beheading children. Yet I’ve seen a video of a witness sharing how he saw an Israeli military soldier burning a man and his son alive back in 1948. I’ve even seen an article stating how in America there are people attacking Jewish people as if they somehow have anything to do directly with what Israel is doing? Which may be a sad byproduct of how much the Israeli government is also viewed as a representation of Judaism? Or at least with them trying to give this idea that Judaism is under attack and that this is a self-defense of religion?

I would like to state that religious people don’t always perfectly follow their religious teachings. Also a government attacking a group of people does not reflect the religion that said government may say they follow. One of the ten commandments, which I’m guessing that most christian religions follow, is to “love thy neighbor”. Which would mean to accept and embrace them, not eradicate someone who’s not exactly the same as you. Apologies, that does sound a bit preachy, but I just want to point out that I’m pretty sure christianity is about peace. Also from my understanding, a religion counting as a christianity religion is if it believes in one God along with Jesus Christ. (I say along as I do know that some religions believe them to be the same person while others believe them to be separate beings.)

It does seem that Hamas attacked some homes in Israel, which then led to Israel bombing Gaza. I can understand the upset and anger as it appears to be random civilian homes that were attacked. Yet as my younger brother basically said, “It’s like eye for an eye, but instead of taking an eye, they’re taking half of the body for an eye.” (Not a perfect quote as my memory isn’t that great, but basically what he said when I was discussing what I’ve learned with him.) It’s upsetting that civilians were attacked, but it feels almost forgettable with what the Israeli government is doing now. It also seems that the attack was overexaggerated to make it seem that they have some justification in what they’re doing.

Currently it seems that there’s talk about displacing Palestinians into Egypt. Egypt has condemned Israel’s attack on the Jabalia refugee camp and is allowing apparently only specific Palestinians that were severely wounded to enter for treatment? Though I don’t know what Israel’s excuse is for taking air raids out on the West Bank. Maybe they could claim that the West Bank is supporting Gaza and that somehow justifies attacking it. This is absurd. It seems like somewhat slowly other countries are starting to realize how messed up this situation is, but I fear that a whole lot more death is going to occur before there is powerful and meaningful international interference.

#ask #free palestine #palestinian genocide #links #free gaza #gaza genocide

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tariah23 · 7 months

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Honestly thanks to you now I know more about fate and naruto than I ever hoped to or than I ever needed to but it is an educational experience! (Also why are new fate characters just...recolored versions of old ones are they like shiny pokemon)

Ahhhhhhhhhh it makes me happy that you read what I have to say about fate stuff (I used to talk more about it/ make more in depth posts/threads but orz…!!! Especially on twitter (long ass threads omg. I stopped because I felt like no one would read them because they were only their for porn anyway *sobbing* but I want to get back to doing so since I do love fate and I miss talking about it on their too.) but I am content with sharing my opinions about how I feel about it and certain characters from time to time.

Fate as a franchise might seem a bit overwhelming to even jump into because of how MUCH content there is of it but trust that when I say that once you actually give any of the works a chance, you’ll really be able to understand just why so many people love it with all their hearts. Even works created by type moon that aren’t fate related. (Which fate had been drawn from anyway!)

The fun thing about fate is that majority of the individual works typically stand on their own. So it isn’t that much of a big deal to simply jump into most fate works as someone who isn’t all that familiar with anything that has to do with it! (Some might require you to at least be knowledgeable of certain characters from older works but even when that is the case, it’s really not that all of a big deal since you’ll be experiencing the characters differently for the most part, and there has been quite a few times where a character who’d previously appeared in one fate work, had made an appearance in another but there might be slight changes regarding their character (possibly because of the influences of others, their past experiences, memories, if they have any, and so on) while still retaining all of the same charm that made fans remember why they loved them so much in the first place. It’s so… ahhhh… (Gilgamesh is a great example of this. He’s an easily lovable character, though, this might heavily depend on what work that you are first introduced to where he’s in it.)

Also, I’m not quite sure what fate characters that you could be talking about ToT (maybe the recent new characters that have either made their debut in the BRAND NEW HIT TYPE MOON GAME, FATE/SAMURAI REMNANT, NOW IN STORES ACROSS THE WHOLE WIDE and is playable on multiple platforms-

Akakakakak (I’m still at the beginning of the game ahhh!!! I love all of the character designs so much and can’t wait to meet them all for myself 🥹!!!) But since I’ve been sharing posts featuring them recently, I’ll just assume that you’re referring to FSR related content!

And NO! They are not recolored, shinny Pokémon sksks. (Funny that you mentioned this since type moon hired the artist who designed all of the Pokemon trainers (I’m guessing but I’m not all that familiar with Pokémon stuff, only as a normie basically), and I now see the recent vocaloid collab, has designed two servants for FGO in the past. Well, technically three…)

Some FGO and FSN characters make appearances in the new game (idk how critical their roles are yet since like I’ve previously stated, I’m still at the very beginning of the game and have been avoiding spoilers. But fate has always been known for splurging and hiring tons and tons of artists to design the artwork for the servants. This goes the same for the multiple spinoff manga as well since most of the fate manga are drawn by different artists with varying styles. (Fate/Type Redline, Fate/Strange Fake, Fate/Grand Order: Epic of Remnant - Shimousa for example, are all manga drawn by completely different artists! The mangaka for the Shimousa manga is also the character designer for the Fate/Samurai Remnant game as well! Love her style so much! I also would HIGHLY recommend checking out all of these as someone who might be even a little bit interested in fate as a beginner sjsjs. They’re all stand alone so there is no need to worry about being confused and lost!!!)

It’s just nice to see artists with such varying styles breathe life into the characters. And like, you will just look at them and go “even though the artists approach might’ve been completely different, overall, it is STILL the same character and I still love them the same even though they might look a little different ^^.” So if you’re familiar with characters like Cu Chulainn, and Gilgamesh in passing, especially, since they do appear in the new game and are two of the oldest fate characters to be present in it, then you’ll get what I mean. All stand alone!

As for Naruto… *looks away* I’ve been a Naruto fan since it first hit the US back in like what, 2005…. Lord……. I feel like it’s beyond nostalgia for me at this point no matter how ridiculous it may sound asjaja. It’s like, not the best thing ever like, AT ALL, BUT, Kishimoto’s stupid ass was definitely feeling himself when he wrote both Naruto and Sasuke’s individual characters. He then went on to eventually throw the both of them into the trash bin when Boruto was doo dooed out into the world but that is for another day. He really did put his whole soul into N and S while shitting all over the paper when it came to writing majority of the rest of the cast and story if I’m being honest 🗿!!! All YOU have to know is that Sasuke was CORRECT and that both he and Naruto deserved so much better. They deserved better childhoods - they deserved to enjoy their youth and not spend the majority of their youth suffering because of the pain and trauma that they’d been forced to experience and endure. And They deserved someone who would love and not hurt them. I’m so glad that they found each other because oh my god…

#sorry anon this was a lot ToT…..#tkf replies #Anonymous #if you ever decide to check out any fate works send me some asks to tell me your feelings about them I’m so nosey lol

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akocomyk · 1 year

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That's it!

The people whom I based the stories I posted these past few weeks are in the images above. Seven of them are not there though and two people who are present are actually not included—I’m not pertaining the two professors on the far left who were from different schools. Pondering upon these thoughts now made me wish that I did make stories about the other two as well—maybe the 21 year old me couldn’t find a way to squeeze them in.

If you have no I idea what I'm talking about since you've only just seen this post, please read the series Souls of the Gateway Kingdom—a.k.a. The Game of 13 Characters—here in my blog. I recommend that you scroll down and start reading with the post “A foreword” then read the characters’ stories in order and finish with “At the end…”.

If you’re one of the very few people who read original version, you have may have noticed a lot of differences—aside from the full color illustrations, of course. I thought it would be better to add more dimension to the characters that lacked depth and removed some parts that would probably be harmful for some people. Some of the new stuff were also based on real events back then. To give more impact to these additions, I had to change the order of posting as well. I also added a new character that would serve as a concluding note—that was the only illustration that I drew from scratch this year, everything else were the exact original line arts.

Original artworks made for the game.

Reg won that game nine years ago (almost exactly since the winner was announced on May 25). And then a few months later, she succeeded me as the Editor-in-Chief of the school paper—just as I wanted. And it’s funny that during the editorial board screening, when I was on the judging panel and we were asking the would-be members who they think deserved to be my successor, they were all saying her name and they had good reasons for it. And in the back of my mind, all I could think of was maybe their thoughts were influenced by my freakin’ game.

Going back the images above… Those were the people that made my college life more memorable, more enjoyable, and definitely more dramatic—you can tell by the stories I’ve created. I miss it sometimes—I’m not only referring to the people but also the work and the friendship we had.

Perhaps these are just a thing in my past—that surely made a huge influence to the person I am now—but if the opportunity rises for me to somehow come back, I might welcome it with open arms. Who knows?

P. S. My friend Annie saw the God of Chaos character illustration and thought it was really good—a beautiful chaos, she said—and that my improvement as an artist is very evident in that drawing. So, she urged me to make another series, like a sequel or something that would have a similar art style. And… I’m actually planning on doing another series like this, or something like the Letters to the Cosmos, and I still haven’t scrapped that idea yet. I can’t tell much right now.

#my life #the gateway #throwback #souls of tg kingdom

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