#I’m having completely normal feelings :)

[cashweasel]

“Come back to me...”

#I’m completely Normal #don’t send help #so nervous about the reunion the feelings are going to get me again #would’ve finished it sooner if i didn’t have to put my pen down and scream every few minutes #tyril starfury #blades of light and shadow #playchoices #btw if anyone is asking #i was up til 6 am making this with one specific song on replay so #i think that says enough 💀 #i ​wanna know what happened to tyril during that time and how he felt but I’m not strong enough for this 😭😭😭💔💔 #my art

[kkpwnall]

steve “finger guns” harrington + eddie “middle fingers” munson

#that’s it that’s the tweet #has this been done before #is this anything #idk i both have and have not slept #finally flying home #well what’s home for the next 2 weeks #(not that i’m freaking out about that i feel completely normal about the whole thing why do you ask) #we very nearly have a new apartment #keep your fingers crossed just a little longer for me chums #kk rants #steddie #stranger things

[4ce-of-2pades]

(Leo speaking to Hephaestus:)

Leo: I used to think I was creative. I used to think I was smart. I used to take pride in the things I invented. But it’s just you, isn’t it? Everything I’m good at, everything I like about myself, it’s just your powers I inherited. If I wasn’t your son, I wouldn’t be able to do any of this. I wouldn’t be good at anything.

Leo: I thought that I had earned this. That I had learned when my mom taught me about machines, that I had built my abilities myself. But it’s all just shortcuts and fakery. It’s just god magic. It’s not real. It’s not mine.

#like it’s one thing if your power is water attack or turn into bees or something inhuman #but I imagine a lot of demigods have crises like this one #with powers that enhance qualities they already had so they’ll never know who they would have been without a god making them ‘better’ #like if Annabeth’s power is her intellegence? she can’t even take credit for her own mind (by this logic) #for a non-charmspeaking Aphrodite kid with a less unnatural level of making people like them? #when you can’t tell what is and isn’t magical affects then how do you know anyone would ever like you for your normal non-goddy self? #what about Hypnos kids who wish they didn’t constantly feel tired and could manage to Do more with their lives? #like imagine your special magic godly enhancement is Cannot Stay Awake and it’s a struggle to complete even simple tasks. thanks I guess. #there’s probably examples I’m not thinking of #but powers that enhance rather than add??? it’s like there’s parts of your identity that don’t belong to you #at least that’s how I would feel about it probably #percy jackson #heroes of olympus #leo valdez #hoo leo #pjo hephaestus

[thewingedwolf]

luther: the golden child

diego: the mastermind

allison: the peace keeper

klaus: the clown / mascot

five: the rebel / truth teller

ben: the lost child

viktor: the scapegoat

is this something i think this is something

#the umbrella academy #rani makes text posts no one will read #hargreeves siblings #ben being the lost child is kind of forced bc he’s dead but i find it interesting even then #bc ben was unique in the family for already hating being a superhero and his powers due to the horror of them. and however it is he died #it had to be horrific bc viktor doesn’t write about it in his book bc five doesn’t know what happened. and before he died ben’s unique self #awareness seems to have meant they all loved him in a normal way only for his death to poison those bonds completely #so through no decision of his own this very sullen and cranky child has to become a self sacrificing wallflower bc the only way he gets to #even exist is if he takes care of klaus and tries to sober him up. his big moment is sacrificing himself for his siblings! they can’t ever #escape the abuse that reginald heaped onto them!! even in death they’re playing roles reginald forced them into #and sparrow ben is clearly so used to being the manipulator so he’s thrown when his family dies and sloane refuses to be manipulated anymore #and he winds up kind of lost child esque accidentally *anyway* - ignored and repressing his feelings and unable to connect emotionally #also before anyone says diego is too stupid to be the mastermind google ‘the mastermind dysfunctional family role’ it doesn’t require you to #not be a himbo only to be willing to be cruel & as they all say in s1 diego never knows when to stop #pogo is an adult enabler. grace has a weird function bc the umbrella kids love her and diego is convinced she killed reginald bc of abuse #five seems similarly attached to her (makes sense given delores) but the others see her more as an enabler which is INTERESTING #i’m gonna stop rambling now

[werewolfoffeverswamp]

there’s something so alluring about the idea of living in a perpetual horror movie to me. like a time loop. specifically a paranormal one where you could never make it out alive. in the same sense of “heaven is a place where nothing really happens” (from the talking heads song Heaven), being trapped in a story where there’s only one ending and you suffer through whatever horrors are laid out for you (but they are laid out exactly as they are and always will be, and they are laid out for YOU) sounds like. morbidly peaceful. no need to worry what happens next, you already know. and you’ve done it a hundred times. of course you’re in pain but it’s intimately familiar and maybe you don’t even register your suffering anymore. and you’re not preoccupied by your performance in this dance anymore either— it feels like whatever you do, the same events occur, but you’re an actor in a story and you never had free will to begin with. anyways. it just sounds kind of nice 👍

#^voice of a guy who would be fine if he was trapped in a time loop bc he puts so much value and emphasis into the mundane #cro talks #it’s late but i’ve been thinking about this for like a week now. am i insane or is this like. even mildly relatable #also to expand on that talking heads lyrics— it just makes me sad to think about. the idea of a perfect place being completely uneventful— #and just the same few experiences over and over again exactly the same? i mean like. true. tbh #sad not in the sense that i’d hate that if it happened to me but overcome with jealousy and desperation #this is where arguments of free will vs predetermination really get to me. i DO believe in free will. but is it so bad to wish for — #predetermination instead? take your hands off the wheel and do whatever you want. everything will happen as it always would have. #anyways #feeling normal about this. feeling regular #please let me know if this sounds crazy i’d like to know. not that i care i’m just curious #horror

[grooviestsadpapaya]

Literally I cannot possibly have anyone I know in real life find out about my comic or I will have two worlds collide and that would be bad,,, is this normal

#I need to know #does anyone else feel this #my New Year’s resolution for 2023 was to kill the part of me that cringes and come clean with this completely harmless fact about myself #it is almost 2024 and I have not done that #idk maybe it’s just the fact that If People Know I’m Cringe I’ll Be Ruined (tm) #but like they know I’m cringe!! Like you wouldn’t know at a glance #but talk to me for three seconds? you just think like #oh that bitch draws weird shit #I DONT EVEN THINK IT’S THAT WEIRD #IS IT WEIRD?? #A #AM I WEIRD #DO YOU THINK IM WEIRD? #I’m in my mental breakdown era #I need to dink my oiter #I think I’m normal #obviously not bc it’s my #Baby’s First Mental Break on Tumblr Dot Com #idk I’m sorry #this is dumb #I’ll be better tomorrow I think

[perhaps-mr-collins-has-a-cousin]

Hello praying people, I'm not doing well and would really appreciate your prayers right now <3

#long very boring and unnecessarily detailed tag monologue incoming‚ feel free to skip: #this is going to sound like a silly thing to be hitting rock bottom over #but i’m fairly certain i have a semi-rare skin condition known as sensitive skin syndrome #which is basically where skin gets progressively more sensitive #until it won’t tolerate the topical application of anything at all without getting irritated #usually it happens to people on the skin of their face and i have it there but i also specifically have it on my lips #(which apparently is extremely not normal; i found a dermatologist’s case study from like 2019 of one woman who had it on her lips #and according to this case study there were no other cases of people having it on their lips #in all the dermatological literature he had read) #i can’t follow the protocol which all the journal articles i’ve been able to find say is helpful for the rest of the face which is basicall #leave the area the heck alone for at least a year #because if i don’t apply anything to my lips for more than two or three days they will get so dry they crack and bleed #so it’s looking like one way or another i may be having to deal with dry burning irritated lips for the rest of my life #and i’m not dealing with the thought of that very well #i’ve already suffered so much anguish from extreme sensitivity on the rest of my face #and not being able to take proper care of the skin there #and this is just too much for me #i know God is allowing this for a reason but it’s filling me with so much frustration and panic and despair that i don’t know how to go on #but i must and i will #this isn’t a serious or a life-threatening condition but it’s looking like a pretty hopeless one and it’s hurting me badly #and i would appreciate prayers that it would just be healed or that i would know what to do #i think i will try going to my dermatologist but somehow i doubt she's even heard of sensitive skin syndrome #on a COMPLETELY unrelated note i'm just about to get my period and also for two days i've ''eaten'' nothing but vegetable smoothies #and those in pretty small amounts because they're disgusting #(do a detox my hormonal health doctor said) #(it'll be fun she said) #ok if you read this far you're so brave braver than any u.s. marine etc. #thanks for reading ily <3

[marimbles]

the agony of enjoying MULTIPLE THINGS AT ONCE. How do people do it….

#part of me is like. ok is it actually the best move to just have separate sideblogs for every interest #cause I always feel weird and insecure abt being a multifandom blog. For some reason #I’m like aaa I’ll annoy people if I post things they’re not interested in! :( they’ll be disappointed in or frustrated in me! #and then the evil (read:normal) Kermit side of me is like girl it’s not that serious #you are not important enough for ppl to be worked up about your blogging habits lmao #if they’re annoyed they unfollow. swell. neato. #u can trust people to curate their own online experience. It’s not your job to post what they want you just do what you want. on ur own blog #do u follow #Sméagol me: yes ma’am #(I mentally switched to gollum instead of Kermit btw) #gollum me: it’s normal to like more than one thing. good even. and you will go through phases anyway #that’s life silly. You’ll have different moods at different times. and maybe completely different interests in the future #are you gonna make a new blog every time you enjoy something. #your interest are fluid but your identity is rooted in something beyond them. Right #you can just be a person who’s always changing but is also essentially the same. that’s humanity hun. do you understand #Sméagol me: yes #gollum: good #Sméagol: but also what if it’s hard to be friends with someone who has 3–4 interests #gollum: good grief

[desperatecheesecubes]

Thinking about how in The Hunger Games the management team was dressing and presenting Katniss and Peeta as a set from the start, even before Peeta told anyone he was in love with Katniss and that became then going strategy. It becomes clear throughout the series that all of them were or become active in the rebellion so it seems clear to me that the intention was just to be subversive. ‘Just the perfect touch of rebellion’ as Haymitch says.

And then of course it all helps them sell the love story.The prep teams would have probably mentioned how Katniss and Peeta reassured each other after the opening ceremonies, how Katniss kissed Peeta on the cheek. Any of the trainers could have spoken about how they were always together for all three days of instruction. There were almost certainly guards watching the two of them on the roof, talking to each other, Peeta giving Katniss his jacket when she’s cold. And there’s no way none of their classmates noticed the two of them watching each other in school through the years. Hell Peetas whole family probably knew about his crush, we know they all knew Katniss.

‘Peeta must have been playing that angle all along’ ‘mostly Peeta really, there’s no question he’s carrying this romance thing on his shoulders.’ Katniss just didn’t get to see all the interviews they did that were telling her side of the love story.

#mine #hunger games meta #the hunger games #literature #I feel like I’m making two seperate points here but fuck it this isn’t an essay they’re going in one single post #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #haymitch abernathy #anyway you can’t really tell but this is part of my ‘Effie was a rebel’ propaganda #I forgot about how Haymitch could have talked about how the both of them IMMEDIATELY started bragging about each other accomplishments #completely normal behavior for two people who don’t feel any particular way about each other and are definitely totally strangers #nailed it you guys!!!

[tariah23]

Noooo…… first it’s Yuuta and Shoko, now they’re yo-yoing back around to Megumi.

#no they’re bashing megumi even more than ever now…. sometimes some characters aren’t built for all of THIS AND ITS OKAY #he’s forever traumatized bro he just lost his sister in front of his eyes and his body was the one that killed her #same situation with Gojo who took care of his sister and he from when they was toddlers and up #megumi doesn’t want to live anymore and yuuji has already tried getting through to him he’s completely broken and even if he’s saved megumi #might not ever be the same #I feel like fans keep on forgetting that these are kids going through all of this stuff that even some of the hardest adults wouldn’t be #able to handle #they bash him but a lot of these same ppl forget what happened to getou and love him unconditionally #they’d say “’well other characters have lost a lot as well and they’re still trying!’ and I just have to #restate that again; simply not every character is built like some hard boiled shounen badass jjk is not the usual shounen that a lot of #fans still refuse to see tbh like it’s kind of built different 🗿 #it’s core genres are literally horror/psychological horror like no one if gonna be bouncing back like Naruto bro #and in Naruto’s case he never got to see anyone precious to him die in front of him #who knows what Naruto would’ve went through if sasuke was killed in front of him #but then again #Naruto was already a crazy ass #he vowed to kill sasuke and die with him so nvm #but megumi ISNT crazy like that that’s the difference ajsjsjsj #he’s always been one of the more rational characters amongst his peers #he’s so normal!!! everyone else is fucked up or got larger personalities than he does #maybe ppl are pissed off at the fact that megumi simply isn’t fighting back… it’s frustrating but he’s in pain bro #I don’t see him making it out alive at all either if I’m being real #Yuuji might be one of the only characters to survive at this rate I doubt Yuuta is even going to pull through after the techniques 5 min #are up either… #rambling #the point it…… as sad as it may sound all of the characters fighting so hard now are doing so because they simply have to #Sukuna is literally a calamity and these are the only characters left who will even stand any chance against such a great entity #they don’t have much of a choice man #Gojo tried to prepare his students for the future so that they’ll be strong enough to fight back anything together. not alone #Everyone is doing what they can now

[leqclerc]

Listen, I’ll come around to it and understand it if it’s something that came from Xavi himself, if this is something he wanted, maybe something he needed for whatever personal reason. I’m just concerned because this is so sudden. I mean, he just flew out with the team to Miami and absolutely nothing seemed amiss. If he was on his way out (or switching roles I guess) Charles clearly didn’t know because he didn’t say anything about it over radio and I know he would’ve if he knew (as is customary for drivers who know they’re getting a new race engineer.) I’m heartbroken that they were “robbed” of this moment. It’s one thing knowing someone’s leaving and being able to prepare and idk having an appropriate sendoff. But we had nothing of that sort here. Even Ferrari’s official statement – just saying it’s an “organisational update” – feels cold and impersonal. I hope they’ll acknowledge him and maybe prepare some kind of sendoff post for him later on but I’m not holding my breath.

Whatever happened it must’ve happened in the past five days. Again I’m concerned and confused because it’s so sudden? And with Imola coming up, one of the home races for Ferrari, mid-season, the start of the European leg – with upgrades due as well – the timing arguably couldn’t be worse. I always said it takes time for driver/race engineer pairs to work out the intricacies of their relationship, to find what works for them. This smacks of the Bottas situation – and he ended up getting a penalty the first weekend he was with his new race engineer precisely because they weren’t in sync, there was room for confusion and miscommunication. I know it’s a bit different seeing as Bryan’s been part of Charles’s side of the garage for years – at least as long as Xavi has – but afaik he’s never been, like, an actual race engineer for a driver. And that’s obviously a whole challenge in itself and will undoubtedly take some time getting used to on both sides.

Again, if something justifies the urgency then okay, I get it. I sincerely hope everything’s okay on Xavi’s end.

But yeah. Disappointing, confusing, very weird.

#text #everything was fine… everything was normal… i’m completely blindsided by this. i thought we’d have stability in that regard #i know he’s not a big deal to most people - some are even happy after slandering him and making him into a meme for years #but idk. this is such a blow to me personally? #and again this on top of a bad day already like. it just feels like everything i’ve loved and cared about is falling away #i’m finding it hard to still be enthusiastic and motivated for things when this is how it ends #maybe i need a break from f1 and maybe this will be my final straw #eh:( #xavi marcos

[werebutch]

Omg it would be way easier if my bff just ignored me and changed the subject but instead I have to wait like a week for him to just say “that sucks wtf” to my rant 🤦

#AUUUGGHHHH like we’re always in a conversation and he will be ranting and then it’s my turn to rant.LMAOO and then he just goes completely #silent.. EVERY TIME I THINK ITLL BE DIFFERENT TOO 😭 we’ll #ok to be fair he’s more thorough when he does respond like he’s not dismissive. but like. why does it have to take so long. T_T #and then I just end up not telling him anything about my life so he has no idea what I’m doing what’s going on lol #then I get comfortable enough to tell him stuff and the same thing happens.. AUUUGHHHH BUDDY #this sucks so bad. it’s been like this for over a year too but especially since december #I guess it’s fine I’ll find more friends but I’ve known him since I was 11 so I’m allowed to be sad..ok.. #it kind of makes me feel like even more of a loser sometimes 💀 he’s very normal now. we have the same roots but he’s like.. well adjusted. #idk. so it kinda makes me insecure too which is sooooo stupid 🤦

[bioswear]

U/nairo8 translated the hexcodes of the remaining episodes of the anime and im losing my shit 👀👀👀

#BRANCH DIVERGENCE. SINGULARITIES. AHHHHHHH #nier #nier: automata #I’m having completely normal feelings :) #does mutation to Group B refer to the Reincarnation monster that Adam/Eve turned into??? 🤔🤔🤔 bc that was new #and it was unlocked through EXTREME despair #AND is the observation of religion a reference to the creation of Cult of the Watchers bc really… #I don’t think the Robo religion was talking about Christianity. who else do we know who died and became as a god (Furiae through the SoD)

[itspileofgoodthings]

like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.

#you cannot engage with Taylor completely casually it doesn’t work #you won’t get to know her #you have to let her in. go on a sunset walk with your headphones in and open your heart to her and just HEAR her #and then once you know who she is you can go from there #but there absolutely is this level of refusing to get to know her #and I am truly (once again) not addressing people who have that door simply closed (my mom! my older sister!) #people whose opinions matter so much to me #but I am talking to the people who wrestle and want to love her but actually hate her and idk. I feel that it is something where—- #well it’s like people isn’t it. you have to get to know her without judgment #and without bias #you have to know her FROM her #(which does not involve Easter eggs OR celebrity headlines if you hate both of those things #and then if you don’t like her you do in fact have to leave without making that other people’s problem #especially Taylor’s! #I am thinking of this girlboss journalist who wrote a piece on Taylor the other day #that was LIVID with Taylor for sharing only positive reviews on her insta story #(as is not only Taylor’s right but literally normal behavior??????????) #and was practically foaming at the mouth about how Taylor’s level of power was getting scary #and it’s like. I’m so sorry for swearing but BITCH #a lot of the numbers are out of Taylor’s control and also NOT REAL. Taylor also DESERVES her success and is simply doing her job very well #and riding the waves of virality she knows how to create in ADDITION to that #also stop worshipping power and money!!!! the way you clearly do!!!!!!! #Taylor is not doing anything with it except her job!!!!!!!!!!!!! #she is also CLEARLY a human being who suffers #SEE HER AS SUCH #and end it THERE #INSANE #turning off reblogs for this one #because I have gotten carried away but wow

[instinctsxbad]

​this may not be very coherent bc I have a narsty cold but it’s something I don’t see talked about much— I’ve been thinking about how much I enjoy the fact that Peter Parker/Spider-Man is kind of creepy. Like. I love that he’s got that freaky “teleport when you’re not looking” ability spiders have, the creepy crawling, the fast and unpredictable movements, the eerie stillness, the hanging, the warning that they’re around with entangling traps or even just dissolving cobwebs that let you know they’re in the area. the kind of animalistic, unnatural, disturbing parts of being a spider that makes spiders, and spider-man, so cool

#spider-man #I got reminded abt this last night w that scene in the first Raimi spider-man movie where Peter is hiding #and everytime someone looks at where he was he’s crawled to another location so fucking quickly EXACTLY like how spiders do #when he crawls around super fast or slowly and it kind of evokes the same ‘oh jeez’ feeling when spiders do it #when he’s just hanging in a corner completely stone still and you know he’s getting ready #I’m sure villains and the like get a little freaked when they see his webs around the same way you’d be like ‘oh god that’s a big spider’ #when you see a new and big ass spider web in the basement #the way he’s got the ability now to just. crawl in such a creepy way #bc his tendons and such are just. mutated in a way now that he can just contort #I think spiders are cool (I have a slight phobia but I fight hard against it bc spiders are cool af) but they have the occupational hazard #of having very fast bug movements that just set off alarm bells in the human brain bc evolution #and I love that Peter has that now. sometimes it’s like it’s just the costume that gives him the spider like stuff #but he’s just Like that. it’s easy to feel like he’s just a normal human guy under there but he’s no longer that at least physically #that’s one of the reasons I absolutely love it when Peter does spider stuff in normal human clothes. it’s like a reminder

[grmpgm]

ok executive dysfunction is kind of ruining my life actually

#i have an incredibly time-consuming project i NEED to finish and i genuinely don’t know if i can #i’ve started which is good but i’m horrifically behind where i need to be and i’m just so overwhelmed #i technically have enough time to finish it i think? but it’s my final project so i literally cannot miss this deadline #my professor is really cool + likes me but it’s already been so long w/out me bringing it up #and wtf am i supposed to say? yeah. i WANTED to work on it. i just chose not to????? like wtf #it’s just so humiliating and i’m so behind i don’t know wtf i’m gonna do #it’s worse bc it’s an animation and it’s gg related and i really really wanted this to be good and i wanted things to be different this time #kind of funny bc i’m actually mid getting an adhd diagnosis rn but it’s just so fucking awful because i do this constantly #it fucking sucks so much i feel so helpless and i don’t know wtf is wrong with me. i’m so tired of letting everyone down constantly #it’s so bad rn i literally cannot do anything. it’s humiliating like WHY can’t i just be a functional normal person #it fucking SUCKS because i KNOW if i had any self control or work ethic whatsoever i could be really fucking successful but i don’t. #so i won’t be i guess. #and i KNOW it’s tied into a bunch of different stuff too but like gd i DO NOT care i just want to be functional #worst case scenario i have an A in the class so if i completely blow it i’ll at least pass? hopefully? #i might be able to talk my prof into an extended deadline but it’s so embarrassing bc i didn’t need one in the first place. #i have literally no excuses #it just makes me so upset because i just keep doing this over and over and i don’t know how to stop it or how to get better #and LOL sorry for posting this here i just feel weird talking to anyone personally about this (+ currently avoiding responding to messages!) #it’s just like. man if i can’t get a fucking grip i will literally waste my entire life. Oh Well! LOL