#I’m broke what can I say ;)

[elvenfaur]

If you like trigun fanart, consider perusing my wares!

#I’m a broke bitch with medical bills what can I say #aren’t we all #trigun #nicholas d. wolfwood #trigun fanart #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #vashwood

[autism-alley]

hi originally posted this at the end of a long thread of back and forth, here’s the og post if you want full context but i feel like this needs to be its own post especially bc i keep seeing this argument being made—the argument that the kids (in this case it was annabeth) SHOULD just know the monsters are monsters and who they are and how to defeat them before ever encountering them, that it’s a problem if they don’t.

the problem is not if 12 year olds should recognize a trap when they see one, even if they’re smart 12 year olds, and if that’s realistic. that is entirely beside the point.

the problem is rick riordan wrote a book series whose formula is bringing myths to the modern age and he’s not sticking true to that in the show—percy jackson and the olympians’ Shtick is taking these classic, ancient threats and giving them a new face. these traps work because these kids are not walking into a cave marked with Get Out and getting ambushed by monsters—the monsters are disguised as harmless mortal human beings, in harmless mortal human being places (for the most part) and i think we—and more importantly, the show—are all forgetting the mist, the magic involved here. it’s not just that medusa is a “creepy lady with her eyes covered” it’s that there is ancient magic at work here, magic that, like the systems of abuse pjo exists to criticize, has been evolving and continuing its malevolence for millennia. it’s formulaic, that’s the point. it’s the same trap you’ve learned about all your childhood, the same trap a thousand children before you learned all their childhoods, and still, it works. you fall into the trap. because that’s how generational abuse works. it’s a trap. it isn’t enough to learn monsters exist, what they look like from a second hand story that originated thousands of years ago. if you want to escape alive, you have to adapt as quickly as they do, recognize their face, and ultimately, beyond any individual trap, the game itself has to change. real, generational change.

so. the problem is rick riordan wrote a series with a formula for action that perfectly captures the overarching, systemic conflicts he was commentating on, and then threw that formula out in the show because it was “unrealistic”. i don’t give a damn about realism when it works to the detriment of the story. this is a story about generational abuse, yes, but it’s told through ‘a tale as old as time’ and that’s why it works so fucking well. and when it comes to basic storytelling, if your characters know the threat before they even walk in and you do practically nothing to then make up for the stakes you have removed, that’s a flaw. now you’ve lost the entertainment value for your audience, on top of also lessening your themes.

something else that is so. honestly soul-crushing as a writer and a creative, is that to me this is reflective of the way we are now afraid to tell earnest stories. stories where we care not for listening to the people who want to pick apart fictional, mythical, fantasy stories for not being “realistic” instead of aligning with our target audience who acknowledges reality is not what makes a story. think of your favorite movie, show, book, comic, what have you—has the reason for your favoritism ever been because it is the most reasonable, the most grounded, the most practical out of any you’ve seen? or is it because of the emotion? the way it speaks to you, to your life and the person you are? the journey it takes you on? is the percy jackson and the olympians book series so good because it’s inherently realistic?

the secret to storytelling is, very simply, focus on your story. everything else is secondary. if it’s written well, it doesn’t matter to me that the characters walk into a trap that, to the audience, is obviously a trap. because i can understand how the characters don’t know it, and how the story falls apart if the narrative just tells the characters it’s a trap from the jump. that’s what dramatic irony is—first used in greek tragedies! this is literally a tale as old as time in every sense except for the end—where it’s happy. and it’s not earned if we don’t first see, over and over, the status quo as a tragic trap.

it’s not about if annabeth (or the other kids) is “smart enough” to not walk into a trap, or about if she’s just too prideful to not walk into what she knows is a trap (or any reason that could apply to the other characters), it’s that annabeth, at the end of the day, is a character. she is a storytelling tool for the messages of the narrative. that doesn’t make her any lesser. in fact ignoring it reduces her, because it reduces what she represents. it’s about how rick riordan, or whoever else at disney, has fumbled the storytelling bag so ridiculously hard that they can’t take the simple, effective formula outlined from start to finish (by good ol 2009 rick himself) and adapt it to the screen without answering the most unimportant, derailing, anti-story questions.

#one of the ppl who reblogged the og post said whatever happened to suspension of disbelief and i could have kissed them on the mouth #yes exactly #this new age of audiences who praise ‘realism’ over good storytelling i hate u #‘content over cinema’ i hate u. #i’m not even a screenwriter but any writer can tell you #we’re talking foundations of the craft here #and the worst part is rick already succeeded in the books #if it ain’t broke don’t fix it #where along this path did he lose sight of everything he set out to say? #anyways this is its own post now go forth and do with it what u will #pjo #percy jackson #pjo show crit #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv show #annabeth chase #ris raves

[stinkybrowndogs]

Okey dokey I made a redbubble for myself..

I’m taking breed request on my Instagram and tik tok, I’ll update as I go :)

#my art #weight pull #apbt #ibizan hound #sighthound #border collie #Rottweiler #poodle #I’m doing a doodle defense squad sticker #bc I’m on the side of capitalism here #I’m broke what can I say ;)

[puppyeared]

Hero of winds

#Grays been emulating windwaker on his pc and I’ve been watching time to time. Reminds me of playing it the first time years ago #I really like the graphics on the hd version with the colouring and everything.. and everything is cartoony #Although it also gives me a fear of the ocean because of its sheer size. Literally miles of water as far as the eye can see #Also had a fear of sailing at night because no music would play and the sharks and seahats would pick on me so I would pass #The controller to my brother. But apparently you can just ignore them and keep sailing and they won’t be able to hit you 🗿 #ALSO THE MAIN THEME IS STILL A BANGER TK THIS DAY I love the theme songs for wind waker and skyward sword #Need to find a way to emulate skyward sword. Maybe twilight princess toobevause our disk broke before we got a chance to finish #I do have phantom hourglass and spirit tracks on my R4 and I started a file for spirit tracks when I play on the bus ^^ #Love looking at ppls fanart for toon link Zelda games HE JUST A LITTLE GUYYYY #they knew what they were doing when they made him. I love himb #My art #myart #doodles #the legend of zelda #tloz #the wind waker #hero of winds #toon link #I’m going to put a huge kick me sign saying this but I do like the old red nose tumblr art style.. maybe nostalgia because I used to see #Old Zelda comics and stuff with the old red nose art style but genuinely I think it’s cute

[comixandco]

my favourite part of season 5 is still the reveal that Gabriel and Tomoe thought Adrien and Kagami made the perfect pair and wanted them to be together because it completely flips their relationship

Kagami and Adrien sneaking around and finding the slightest gaps in their schedule and giving their bodyguards/parents the slip to spend time together and feeling so clever that they’ve gotten away with it their parents don’t suspect a thing

only to smashcut to Gabriel and Tomoe doing an evil pound it because their ship is canon

#miraculous ladybug #ml s5 #gabriel agreste #tomoe tsurugi #adrien agreste #kagami tsurugi #it’s the illusion of free choice™ #it was a very clever plan tbf like if they told them to date it would be awkward and forced. but put them in the same room together and see #what happens… let them think it was all their idea… boom success! #then the next step is saying ‘yes i only just found out you’ve been dating kagami and i have decided to give you my permission to date her- #what do you mean you broke up a month ago and your dating the baker girl who made a hat for me one time?’ #on the flipside though it probably wouldn’t have worked out in the long run bc kagami likes the thrill of a secret forbidden romance like #that’s partially what drove her to felix imo so if tomoe said one day ‘it’s come to my attention you’re dating the agreste boy. i approve o #of this match and have organised a date for you two on friday.’ you Know kagami would immediately go #‘oh no.. okay um so now i’m kind of feeling that everything about him that was attractive to me before isn’t really there anymore…’ #also on the flipside like looking at it on a more deeper/serious level like it just goes to show how much control tomoe and gabriel have o #er their kids to the point that they would be willing to manipulate them into a relationship and then when #the two of them tried and realised it wasn’t working. instead of admitting they don’t know their children as well as they think they do #or acknowledging that their children are actual people who have their own feelings that don’t always match their parents #or coming to terms that their children aren’t extensions of their legacy and will that they can puppet however they want #instead they say ‘okay we tried the hands off way now we’ll just have to force them’

[brookheimer]

watchmojo announcer voice The Top Three Most Emotionally Devastating Moments In “Connor’s Wedding” For Casey Romanfuckingroy Brookheimer

1. rome realizing he didn’t tell logan he loved him and frantically trying to get tom to put him to logan’s ear again even though they already said he was dead….. i noticed he didn’t say it earlier on so when he brought it up it just destroyed me esp the way culkin played it… also all just a little too close to home for me. honestly as a bitch with ocd who had to spend three months working on “radical acceptance” with a therapist after a tragic event bc i still refused to think nothing could be done, bc it still felt too surreal and wrong and impossible for it to be true…. well. roman this entire episode hit a lil too close to home for me fr

2. three way tie between “what? no, no, no, i can’t have that” + shiv blubbering and sobbing as she hands roman the phone + shiv’s voice when she said “why didn’t you come and get me? i was… i was right out there.” literally there was a solid period of five straight minutes where i was just weeping about shiv. sarah snook you are insane. so like while rome’s hit the most bc of my own life/experiences/etc on top of everything else, snook’s crying was so affecting that honestly she could’ve been reciting the dictionary or something and i still would’ve sobbed. that said maybe it was that hard to watch bc the specific cadence she spoke in and her voice and body language felt a little like looking into a mirror… like my response to grief is very much roman’s but my physical reaction is very much shiv’s so.., they destroyed me yeah

3. shiv and roman arguing about whether logan was dead or not, with shiv weeping and struggling to get the words out and roman screaming with his voice breaking that they don’t know if he’s dead yet so just “fucking STOP” ….. not even gonna talk ab this one. don’t need to. ruined me

#can you tell i’m a shiv and roman girl…. #i mean they were all fucking incredible. shoutout to ken realizing rome didn’t say i love u and saying ‘we love you dad’ that broke me too #same with the way alan ruck said ‘what happened?’ once they got into the private room #ugh #christ #why did i just rewatch the episode why did i do that to myself #succession #succession spoilers #connor’s wedding

[milflewis]

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#in a strange place today and i need to put this somewhere. i do not have a journal yet. this is it #my grandad was diagnosed with dementia years ago and the grandad i have now is often unrecognisable from the one i grew up with #and while this like isn’t fun and it is strange for him to look at me and not know me more times than he does. it has also been kind of l #lovely? #bc he thinks my granny is still alive so whenever i get to go see him i get to pretend she is too. and she is for a minute. and tho i am #glad she went before him. it is nice to say oh i’m popping in to see her after this grandad and talk about her like she’s hasn’t been gone #since i’ve been ten. my dad has spoken more to him in the last five years than he has his whole life #he was not an easy man. he was loud and friendly and hard working and funny and scary but not easy. in ways he is even #harder now. in others he is easier. #he is more of a child. this is what dementia can do to a brain. we are learning things about his childhood that no one alive has ever spoken #about. that no one knew. my dad doesn’t love him more now but he understands him better #my grandad taught me how to drive a tractor and how to fish through my dad and he has not recognised me in over a year and he #hasn’t walked since he broke his pelvis seven years ago and his muscles are nearly all gone. he is a fraction of the size he used to be. his #personality and body took up my childhood like adults on the screen in cartoons. he hasn’t dressed himself in a decade. he told one of the #nurses that after dinner he wanted ice cream plain like herself and nearly peed when she laughed and told him to fuck off #he is in there. he is himself. i know him. but he isn’t. he doesn’t know me but he allows me to tell him how to ppl he knows are doing. he #still somehow trusts me. we talk a lot about my granny and how she stayed up watching tv again last night so she’s tired today. don’t stay #long when you call in to see her? #whenever we would journey to see him and my granny and get in v late he’d ask us if we wanted apple tart and my granny would say michael. #not ur kids. u can’t parent them. he didn’t know my name yesterday but he asked me if i wanted apple tart #i hope he dies soon. for all that i will miss this. miss my dad having this. he would not want to live like this. it wouldntbe living to him

[crowrelli]

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#vent tw #death mention tw #okay I need to post this bc I’m. going to explode into a million shattered parts if I don’t #my grandmother on my moms side who lived with us my whole teen years. who I helped care for. passed last night before I could go visit her #and instead of IDK FUCKING CALLING ME TO TELL ME my estranged idiot sister just texts me basically ‘Oop she died 🤪’ #what the actual fuck #I deserve to hear from our mom? I deserve to hear like the rest of the fucking family? #my cousin did it right and said ‘call your mom’ but you just fucking take it on yourself?? how inconsiderate and conceited to take that away #how little do you see of me to not show basic fucking compassion?? #I will never not hold this with me every time I think of my grandmothers passing #I’m a fucking adult. I’ve lived on my own for 3 god damn years. and yet you can’t extend me the BASIC FUCKING RESPECT of letting me find out #the RIGHT WAY #I broke my no contact out of respect for my grandma. I promised to walk into a house I was fucking prisoner in half my life. #I looked past my pain and my trauma out of basic fucking human decency and she couldn’t wait a few hours to let the news reach me properly #and before I can even say my goodbyes she’s gone and this is how you tell me?? #she KNEW I was in contact with our mom again #she KNEW #I lived with grandma I HELPED TAKE CARE OF HER #I picked her off the floor when she fell I made her food when she was hungry I READ HER BOOKS WHEN HER HANDS SHOOKTOO BAD #I knew they were monsters but are you fucking kidding me?? this is so so low I’m in fucking shock #I thank my partner and their family every fucking day for teaching me what real love is #because after you live your whole life trying to love people who are only playing roles for the sake of appearance you can never go back to #the cold lifeless greyscale power plays they call unconditional love #god I just #I’m just so fucking tired

[redhotarsenic]

I dunno I’m trying very hard to not be a sad shithead online but it’s getting increasingly difficult

#it’s like I have this really vicious creature in me that wants to tear down everything it sees and drag it to hell #that’s how sad and stressed out I am #there is also the Nothingness that is the most prevalent #you know the first time I heard a stranger actually say to my face that they believed in me I almost broke down then and there? #was around the time I was first starting at my first job #had to fuckin excuse myself to the bathroom as soon as I had the chance so I could fuckin collect myself #even then I was Fucked Up the rest of the day #first time in a long time that I actually felt like a real life person to any degree #and now that’s withered and gone and I’ve returned to blissful nonexistence #at least the torment will be over eventually though. looking forward to that day. I’m so tired #feel like I’ve lived a hundred years. can’t believe there’s more Existence I have to slog through. #I’ll try to do what good I can while I twiddle my damn thumbs and wait for the timer to tick down though. #personal

[hazlelnoot]

…

#been really struggling lately because idk I guess now that I’m in therapy #I’m thinking extra about all the things that have made me this specific fucked up #and it really just boils down to feeling unwanted #I wasn’t supposed to be born my grandma told my mom to abort me #I spent my entire childhood hearing my mom say that she’s not parent material but I insisted on being born #like putting the responsibility on me even tho it was her choice??? #and then they idk just didn’t take care of me good #like I had to have my teeth taken out at 17 because they were literally rotting out of my head and like coming out in chunks into #my food while I was eating #and when I finally got to the emergency dentist I had to pay for it #and I’m broke but I don’t want this job I just started I’m so scared #but we need money #I just feel like I can’t do it anymore I just want someone to take care of me #I want my life to mean something to someone #I can’t type what she said somewhat recently because I alresdy cried about it yesterday #but idk I just feel like dog shit and I can’t reach out to any of my friends because they’re all busy rn #but it’s been really really bad lately I won’t lie I don’t feel like I can keep going anymore

[eternal-moss]

My hand slipped and then suddenly I drew Dream SMP (technically also osmp) fanart after not having done for literal years. Diluc’s there too

#I can draw on paper too 😎 #Can’t have same face syndrome when you’re severely inconsistent #Still annoyed at my shitty immune system being shitty but it’s okay. I learned a lot of information so I’d say it’s worth it #also today I broke the 2 chapter curse in my ao3 and posted chapter 3 of Collision…. 6 months late #what can I say I’m inconsistent #moss does traditional art 🖌 #Dream smp fanart #Tommyinnit #Osmp Niki #Philza #Tubbo #My art #Dream smp #dsmp #c!Tommy #c!Philza #c!Tubbo #c!Nikki #O!Nikki #dsmp fanart #Philza fanart #Nihachu #Nihachu fanart

[kaeyaphile]

all thoughts, head full of ✨aventurine✨

+ a bunch of rambling/life updates in the tags, oops

#kayleigh.txt #y’all i seriously cannot stop thinking about this lil’ pixelated man 🫠 #i officially have everything to fully level and max him and his lightcone and his traces 👏🏻 #only e0s1 of course; i’m broke af 😅 #hopefully for his rerun i can get some eidolons but alas not this time unfortunately 💔 #he’s literally on the same level as kaeya in my heart; favorite hsr character for sure #(jing yuan has been demoted to my second favorite now because i am a silly goose) #i honestly never thought i’d be so adoring of hoyoverse characters but... here we are 🤷🏼‍♀️ #actual legitimate feelings for real people??? ❎ #actual legitimate feelings for fictional characters??? ✅ #aNYWAYS the brainrot is really bad y’all and i apologize that my entire personality has been taken over by this man 🤡 #i wish that i had an income right now so that i could commission some self–indulgent selfship art but alas 😩 #once my irl bestie’s wedding and honeymoon is over on may 10th i will be going back to looking for a job 👌🏻 #i’ve applied to probably 50+ jobs throughout the past few months and have heard absolutely nothing back 💀 #i have given up for now; i have to get my mental health and autoimmune diseases under control first tbqh #i have a psychiatrist appointment on the 16th which i am terrified regarding but hopefully it goes well 🥲🤞🏻 #and i am going to start a new injectable medication for my autoimmune diseases asap #i have to deep clean my house and revamp my reptile enclosures before i commit to a job as well ugh #i have to actually get my shit tf together before i start legitimately looking for a job again is what i’m saying 😂

[quietwingsinthesky]

even has killed people—though perhaps that depends on your definition of people—and it’s not. how do i put it. it’s never cool, you know? it’s never a moment where this puts them in control of a situation, where they can show off some skill in putting someone down. because even is not, generally, very powerful, and they do not know how to do this.

it just gets messy.

which is one of those terrible reasons why they… well, they don’t like the master, but they have to like that she can do it easy, quick, clean. she can give even the ability to, as well, when she wants. if for no other reason than it means that they won’t have to scrub it raw off their skin later, they appreciate that.

#but if left to their own devices? #what im saying i think is: the doctor 🤝 even: has killed someone with a rock #and of course i say whatever your definition of people is because you’d have to ask if you count daleks as people #i’m honestly not sure if even does. they might have pre-getting launched into a pocket dimension war. they really might have. #very expansive definition of people on account of them not really feeling like they should count as one anyway so therefore if they do. lots #of things must. including the murder trash cans. they’re flesh on the inside aren’t they? they speak they think they hate. #but i think they stop. because it’s better not to. it’s easier. and guiltless too. not like a dalek stops to xonsider your personhood. #but to be very very clear. even has also killed just. guys. #actually i have in my notes here that the tone-setting moment of this whole. arc? #is that it really starts with a jailbreak. predicated on lackluster security for one of the prisoners because they are *just* a human. #and the other is. well. and there’s a war that won’t end that there’s no escape from now to worry about. #but the tone-setting part yeah. is that this really starts with even befriending someone like them through the bars. time lords need #janitors too you know? someone has to clean up around the cells. and they let even out for a minute because of that friendship. #as you can imagine. even is not going back in the cell once they’re out of it. no matter what they promised. and their ‘friend’ is going to #alert someone. and. #you need to understand most of all from this first point. that even doesn’t know that regeneration isn’t A) an inherent trait of gallfrey #rather than a granted one and B) infallible. that’s the cslculation they make. that whatever damage they do won’t matter because they’ll #come back from the dead. ………they do not. #it’s reslly a ‘congratulations! you broke free of the narrative constraints (and safeties) of standing near the doctor! murder is now #unlocked! good luck!’ moment akdhfkshdkfj #anyway. <3 makes their life worse on purpose <3 #dw oc

[akkivee]

and so here we are again with another bad decision lol

#this is vee speaking #me: *getting on twitter to check out anime expo news* 😃😃😃 #twitter: shills can read 6k posts a day but y’all other folk only get 600 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 #me: HUH #A READING LIMIT LMAO?????? I HAVE NEVER SEEN SUCH TOMFOOLERY FROM SOCMED SITES BFFR #i saw it was temporary but how long is temporary lol?????? #well!!!!! thankfully i’m starting my kuukou week stuff next month so i probably won’t be focusing too much on twitter anyway #but man what a horrible choice just say the site’s broke dude it’d be far less embarrassing

[goldensunset]

post-abyssal ruins trip got me like

#BROOOOO the billionaire item maniac in undella town… #incomprehensible how much he will buy all this treasure for. #just last night i was lamenting how buying like 10 revives is a financial disaster for me #and now it’s like. pocket change!!! #let’s not talk about the ethical implications of passing all these priceless ancient treasures off to a rich guy to make a quick buck #as opposed to turning them in to a museum #i’m broke what can i say. also i’m the hero of unova i can do what i want #goldie plays pokémon black

[lelianaslefthand]

someone made a viral tiktok with my pre-vampire astarion post saying everyone who says his hair wasn’t white before is wrong… why am i in it like??? 😭

#literally don’t care about their reasoning bc i know i’m right #‘other vampires have different colored hair!!’ okay what does that have to do with me? #stress can turn hair white and saying he’s been stressed for the past like 200 years is an understatement 😭 #obsessed with how my post must’ve been the straw that broke the camel’s back #.txt