'Yeah so Rose and Blaze Empress present as like feminine and uh fucking- Ocean Overload presents as male. Like masculine. Enderking is just a fucking bitch. He's an absolute bitch. Uh, he's like a spoilt king bitch. *laughs* Spoilt king bitch, that's his official title.'- Philza, 24/4/24
Trying my qphilza design, he has wings but I still need to practice drawing them (they are so hard for me to draw, as you can see)
I think that philza would be one of those characters that always has his eyes close, Idk something in his voice when he talks softly I picture him like that (but then he screams... XDDDD) and he also has a mouth like a "v".
(I feel intimidated posting a philza drawing because every other fanart of him is really good)
Phil: [Laughs] Someone asking like, a really serious like, interesting lore question and it's just like fcking drowned out by Pedro. Holy sht, sorry.
Phil: [Reading the resub message] "I'm behind on QSMP, so this might be answered already, but is your character a crow avian, got wings from wife as a wedding gift, got wings from saving the End, or is he an overworld variant elytrian?"
Phil: You'll have to wait and find out. There's a video- there's a video that's com- that's going to be starting to be worked on shortly. [The gifted subs song starts again] My god. PEDRO—
[NOTE: Phil has repeatedly mentioned, and recently confirmed, he's commissioning an artist to create an animatic for his character's backstory / lore!]
Thinking about how he tries, again and again, to be strong. Tries to refuse to be bothered by the fact that the person he's looking at wears his husband's face but isn't his husband. Tries to be willing and ready to fight him despite knowing it'd be his husband's body he's hurting. Tries to keep his composure in front of Chayanne and Tallulah just like their Papa Phil does. Tries not to let himself be overwhelmed by the fact that in order to get his husband back, he has to beat a GOD.
But every time he gets ready, every time he steels himself, every time he's braced for a fight and prepared to hurt Phil's body for the sake of saving him, something happens that knocks down his resolve instantly and sends him spiraling all over again, restarting the process of grief.
And every time that "something"— The moments Phil breaks through in a moment of clarity, the moments he can't shake seeing his husband's hands being the ones doing harm to him and their friends, the sight of Phil's body struggling so badly with housing a god it shouldn't be harboring —knocks him back down, he gets angrier. Angrier at himself for being so easy to crack. Angrier that as soon as he's prepared to do what he has to to save Phil, something else breaks his heart. Angrier that he's a grim fucking reaper, arguably the strongest person on the island because of it, yet he can't do shit when it matters most.
And then FINALLY, when things finally reach a head, he just SNAPS. But the worst has to happen before he does.
I am so unbelievably excited to write far enough into the fic for people to actually see what I mean by this. I am SO happy with how I've planned Missa's character in AMFMN.