#I can’t type what she said somewhat recently because I alresdy cried about it yesterday

[hazlelnoot]

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#been really struggling lately because idk I guess now that I’m in therapy #I’m thinking extra about all the things that have made me this specific fucked up #and it really just boils down to feeling unwanted #I wasn’t supposed to be born my grandma told my mom to abort me #I spent my entire childhood hearing my mom say that she’s not parent material but I insisted on being born #like putting the responsibility on me even tho it was her choice??? #and then they idk just didn’t take care of me good #like I had to have my teeth taken out at 17 because they were literally rotting out of my head and like coming out in chunks into #my food while I was eating #and when I finally got to the emergency dentist I had to pay for it #and I’m broke but I don’t want this job I just started I’m so scared #but we need money #I just feel like I can’t do it anymore I just want someone to take care of me #I want my life to mean something to someone #I can’t type what she said somewhat recently because I alresdy cried about it yesterday #but idk I just feel like dog shit and I can’t reach out to any of my friends because they’re all busy rn #but it’s been really really bad lately I won’t lie I don’t feel like I can keep going anymore