#I will let myself go with this fic like

[hedwig221b]

WIP Wednesday

I was tagged by @endwersed 💗 and @dear-massacre 💗 centuries ago but I swear I didn't have any wips at all though now I'm getting back into it

💜

Derek froze in place.

He felt cold and he felt hot. Breaths just wouldn’t come. He didn’t want to blink.

The omega looked stunning.

Ethereal and deific. How could someone be this beautiful? He looked like sex personified.

His slim toned body moved with natural grace, almost gliding on the floor. His fair skin was kissed with constellations of beauty marks that went down his cheeks and neck. He was dressed simply, yet even the grey sweatshirt hugged his narrow waist in such a sinful way that one couldn’t help but yearn to grab it; his long legs in black jeans would look so wonderful while spread.

His face, however, made all those works of art seem like child’s paintings. Oh, how they failed to capture the beauty. How dare they even attempt?

The omega’s chestnut hair was ruffled, his beautiful dark amber eyes red-rimmed but even more so beautiful. Upon seeing Derek, the omega opened his pretty mouth in a small gasp — and, fuck, his lips.

Fuck.

Fuck.

And then, as if Derek wasn’t stunned enough, a small grin bloomed across the omega’s mouth.

Quick as a fawn, he descended down the stairs and stopped a step or two above Derek, his eyes running all over his face.

“Hi,” he said.

“Hi,” Derek rasped.

For some reason, the omega blushed. He put the rucksack down on the floor, then lifted his right hand and daintily offered it to Derek with an almost shy smile.

No one moved.

“Stiles,” Deaton bit through his teeth.

The omega’s smile dwindled as he looked first at Deaton, then at the woman, and finally stopped his wide-eyed gaze at Derek who stood there like a fucking idiot.

“Isn’t this how they do in movies?” the omega asked, sounding genuinely confused.

“How do you know what they do in movies?” asked Deaton, and when the omega snapped his mouth shut, turned to the woman. “We shall search for the contraband tonight.”

The woman nodded.

With blush spreading down his face, the omega started to withdraw his hand.

It was then that Derek finally got his bearings.

Quickly, he caught the omega’s hand, causing him to jump, and pressed a light kiss to his knuckles.

Oh, what he would give to scent him.

“I don’t mind,” said Derek, then cleared his throat from the deepening lust.

#sterek #sterek fic #sterek fanfic #stiles x derek #derek x stiles #stiles stilinski #derek hale #eternal sterek #sterek wip #writing is weirdly hard... i dont like it #this scene though lived rent free in my head for so long #I will let myself go with this fic like #it's gonna be so self-indulgent #stiles just offering his hand bc the movies is all he knows about human interaction #omegas are kept away till they're of age #it's a disaster waiting to happen #derek is in lust here but wait until he gets to know stiles better #oh he's doomed

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[lunar-system]

Izzy Hands: The Moon.

Re-imagined from the traditional Ride-Waite-Smith tarot, this version of the Moon shows Izzy taking the shape of a lone Lover, longing for what he cannot reach.

Longer exploration of the card's symbolism under the cut.

Symbolism of the card

I initially meant this card to be specifically Izzy's, but he is once again unseparable from Ed. Though the moon itself is depicted as Ed, it is through Izzy that I interpret the journey of the card. Feel free to invent your own interpretation as well!

In the original version of the Moon we see a dog, a wolf, and a crayfish. Izzy takes the place of the wolf, marking him as wild and untameable. He is accompanied by a dog, symbolizing his loyalty. The crayfish has retreated, and we can see a monster lurking in the depths of the water, reminding us of the beasts that lie within.

Rachel Pollack (2011) writes: "The Moon signifies the dangerous time between the end of one world structure and the beginning of another. On the emotional level it can indicate the strange state when something powerful has ended and you find yourself thrown back on your instincts."

In the card Izzy already has his wooden leg. He his stepping into his role as the Unicorn, marking a shift in his loyalty and his place in the world. His reign as Blackbeard's first mate is ending, and a whole new world order is being imagined.

Ed is also seen in a new light. With his short beard, he is at the end of his captaincy, possibly even at the end of his piracy. He as the Moon is illuminated by the light of the Sun, personified by Stede in another card, The Sun.

Izzy bears witness to their combined light, unreachable to him on the ground. He teeters at the edge of the water illuminated by that very light, and is faced with a choice. Will he turn, follow the path and try to reach the unreachable? Or will he explore the unknown waters in front of him?

In tarot, water symbolizes emotions, intuition and subconscious. Pollack writes: "Here in the unknown territory our animal selves take over. We cannot suppress the wild emotions but only travel through them." The message of the Moon beckons Izzy to step into the water and face his emotions.

However, there are also dangers in the murky waters of the subconscious. Pollack continues: "The Moon card calls forth powerful dreams, visions, and the power of the feminine." In tarot water is a feminine element. Izzy, a beacon of masculinity, has in the past confused the feminine with the monstrous. He is now dared to invite the feminine within him to the surface. His posture already mirrors that of the feminine lover from the Lovers-card. It also calls back to the Fool, to someone at the beginning of their self-discovery.

Tl;dr: Izzy, the Fool and the Lover, is on a journey from one world to another. Will he follow the path and try to reach the unreachable, or will he find the courage to plunge into unknown waters?

A comparison between the original Rider-Waite-Smith card from 1909 and the re-imagined version

Izzy's pose mirrors the feminine Lover

Sources

Image source: Pamela Colman Smith, 1909, republished as Tarot of A. E. Waite, 2016, AGM-Urania, Germany

Text source: Rachel Pollack, A Journey of 78 Steps, 2011, as cited in the booklet for instruction and guidance of Tarot of A. E. Waite, 2016, AGM-Urania, Germany

#there is even more symbolism in the lighthouses that are topped with the domes from the Tower but it's so much already #it's about the journey between life and death #ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #edizzy #steddyhands #blackhands #i'm tagging this as ships cause i ship them all and i made this with shipperly intentions #even if it's not like explicitly shipping content #ed teach #edward teach #blackbeard #gosh i went to some deep waters with this myself #i mean there is so much to interpret here #is izzy shooting for the moon with ed? has he lifted ed high on the pedestal himself? #what does it mean that the water is lit by moonlight? #to me this is the point in fics where izzy does not yet know how he would fit in the steddyhands triangle and doesn't see it possible #and maybe it won't be unless he accepts some things and allows himself to feel #but it can also be read that he needs to let ed go #in either case water is discovery and acceptance #i am planning to make ed the star and stede the sun as well! #my fanart

[ratcandy]

3 straight hours of drawing and editing through a horrid migraine for a whole THIRTY SECONDS of self-indulgence beyond your wildest dreams. we call this being extremely normal

song is Bernadette by IAMX

#this is for NO ONE but MYSELF!!!! THIS IS FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!! #'clam is this still that moth guy from the cult game' YES IT IS. #YOU WILL JUST HAVE TO TRUST ME ON THAT. #the context ? FUCK you/j /j /j /j #the context will be out whenever this damn fic will be finished. which if I keep getting distracted to do shit like this instead. #well who knows when that will be #i am scheduling this post to go up in the morning but let it be known i finished making it at 3am. and i'm typing this post at 3am. #i'm normal ? yeah. incredibly #clamart #cotl monch #cult of the lamb #yeah sure fuck it I'll put the tags on here even if it'll be severely out of context #i'll be one of 10 whole things in the monch tag it's fine #monch

[kissatoru]

hellooo have this sneak peak while i lament over how fucking long this fic is turning out to be

#god this fic has me in a chokehold #i feel like i'm cheating on armin with how much of my writerussy is going into this #(armin bbg i swear i'll get your oneshots done too<3) #but i couldn't help myself #i discovered a concept and not only ran with it i did the whole fucking marathon and then some #like dear lord let me rest but also i will not know peace until i finish this #sub eren #eren x reader #eren smut #( ★ ) blah blah blah.

[winchestersheaven]

me: i’m gonna read Rodney McKay fics

fandom: we have lots of McShep

me: McShep is good, i like that ship

me: so, McShep fics with Rodney feels, please

fandom: sure thing, lots of Rodney feels here 😇

fandom: *bombards me with unexpected John feels*

me: hey, uh. why is my heart all fucked up?

#don't get me wrong i love it #but it is not what i signed up for x'D #i fell so gd hard for Rodney when i watched Atlantis and while i really enjoyed other characters too (John included) #Rodney was the one i just did not want to let go and the one i really wanted to read #so since McShep is a fairly big ship that i did like i figured it was easier to go there than to find Rodney heavy fics based on tags alone #and now here i am with a ton of John feels i wasn't planning on (and a brand new otp...) #Smowkie talks #McShep #John Sheppard #Rodney McKay #i'm planning a couple of McShep fic rec posts btw #(the fic that made me write this post included) #not sure when but they are coming. at least two of them #i've read a lot lately and i've actually mostly remember to save the faves so i can share them which feels very nice #i love fic rec posts but i've always been horribly bad at making them myself #but after that summer reading challenge i've gotten better at it and i'm hoping it can result in some future fic rec posts #well it will result in at least two for McShep xD

[goingxmissing]

what’s your favourite thing about your favourite driver?

The way he uses emojis like he's a Mum on Facebook. Or just a millennial. It appeals to me on a deep and embarrassing level 🤷‍♀️

#his chill. his determination. the way he won't let anyone fuck him over. #that thing he said about pressing the radio button being a CHOICE #most importantly what you need to know is that this is Oscar's emoji: 😅 #venerat fic forever in my heart x #won't go into the ridiculous things like how well spoken his is and his tendency to blush and his fast growing fingernails #the way he can be the standing man emoji -> zendaya laugh at the smallest thing #going to stop before I embarrass myself 😌 #op81 #asks

[deiaiko]

#20.4 Icebreaking

Viole finished his meal slowly. He would be lying if he said he wasn't sad that Hyung left him to mope in his room instead of letting him help. And maybe he was also a little jealous of Mr. Agni for being Hyung's first priority.

But no, he shouldn't be selfish. He believed that Hyung knew what was best for him, and if he decided that he'd rather be by Mr. Agni's side then…he'd respect that. Viole sighed, bringing his empty plate to the kitchen sink.

Mr. Gyetang followed and stopped him when he opened the tap to wash it.  "Ah, Viole. Let me do it, you can just sit on the couch." Gyetang nudged him away to the direction of the living room. "Or uhm, should I call you Bam? I heard it's what Grace called you, cluck."

Viole considered it for a moment. If it was any months or year before, he would not like to be called Viole, since it felt like shackles that kept him away from his friends. However, the name 'Bam' also felt like it no longer belonged to him, after all of his wrongdoings. It wasn’t until Grace came back for him that the name 'Jyu Viole Grace' finally became more bearable, since Viole felt closer to his Hyung with their same surname. "Both are fine," he decided to say instead.

Gyetang hummed, "I think I will stick with Viole, cluck."

Viole nodded and walked to the living room. Mr. Gyetang joined him not long after, handed him some snacks and one of the game controllers. The screen in front of him displayed 'Quant Quant Racing 4' while the speaker played a cheery song.

Mr. Gyetang sat next to him and set the game to multiplayer. "I know it's not my place to pry, but I wonder what happened to them last night. I have never seen Grace that upset before, cluck."

Viole decided to remain silent. Mr. Gyetang was a good guy, but he'd rather not be the one to break the news. To be fair, he also didn't know what exactly happened either, other than what Ms. Hwaryun told him. At least it's a relief to know that Hyung wasn't usually like that.

The somber mood was soon forgotten the moment they started playing. It was hard not to get addicted, Viole realized. He kept tilting the controller even after being told that it wouldn't affect the way his vehicle turned. 

Viole didn't realize he got more vocal about his thoughts until Mr. Gyetang pointed out when the rounds' were over. Viole was flustered, since he had been trained to repress his emotions ever since he was turned into Viole. But he realized now that he really missed having a comfortable conversation with someone, and had forgotten how liberating it was to be able to express himself.

They played a few more rounds, and even though Viole still hadn't managed to beat Mr. Gyetang, he was really happy to have a chance to play. Next time he'd beat him for sure.

Mr. Gyetang glanced at the clock and stood up, "I should start to prepare lunch, cluck. You can continue to play if you want, Viole."

Viole decided to follow Mr. Gyetang to the kitchen and offer his help. Because as much fun as the game had been, he easily figured it wouldn't be as much fun if he were to play by himself.

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#ornithology geeks don't look too close. I am bothered myself but this is the best I can make him do #I like to have viole's eyes only be seen when he's around people he trusts/close with #here's to let viole be the little boy he is 🥺😔✊ let him play games and have fun #gosh i can't wait to have S&S into the mix #but that's still a looooong way to go :“) be patient us #tower of god #tog #two sides of the same coin fic #my fic #my art #bam #baam #25th baam #25th bam #the 25th baam #the 25th bam #jue viole grace #gyetang

[lillyanne4writes]

Sometimes i think i left my jjk phase. Then i remember that Gojo is the most powerful force in his universe, but instead of exploiting that for his own gain or just sitting back and spouting wisdom at others, he actively leverages his position to challenge the status quo and make the world safer for kids, which is so incredibly rare in fiction. And i go insane about this series all over again.

#seriously though #'were you unfairly sentenced to death? lemme just bully the government into letting you live' #'oh you're going to be sold to your awful family? i got you kid i'll raise you myself' #what a guy #other mentor characters could never #if i'm wrong about that 'incredibly rare in fiction' statement then please tell me where i can find another character like that i need recs #maybe all anime mentors are like that and i just don't watch enough anime idk #anyway this is why i randomly posted a jjk fic yesterday #gojo satoru #blorbo from my shows #jjk #jujutsu kaisen

[mothinflamesdoodles]

Pulse Sans: The Frankenstein Font

Fanart for @specialmindz

#pulse sans #sans au #sans #undertale au #doodle #art #illustration #fanart #artists on tumblr #digital art #undertale #nutshell fonts are like Pokémon yep #Fonttale #fonttale au #found fonttale after digging up some of the old fics on ao3 #while not advertised as crack things get whacky really quickly #probably got one of the most interesting out there takes on world building for an au #also features prominently my second most favorite tag on ao3 graphic depictions of violence bc oh boy it’s packing with it #I know he doesn’t have infinite hp but for the sake of simplicity let’s just pretend ….I’ll see myself out now #he’s got the neat healing/reviving the dead thing going plus regeneration and super high hp #the blood is mostly cosmetic i think

[queerdiazs]

snippet sunday

hi friends, i'm gonna share something i've shared before because i LIKE it a lot + buck being a demanding bossy bottom is sooo good (but pls dw eddie gets his turn at being a sloppy silly bottom too and he's SO hot for it)

anyway this is nsfw

“Buck, baby. I want to ask you something.”  Buck nods wildly, knocking his nose against Eddie’s in his fervor. “Fuck and talk at the same time.” He reaches down and grabs hold of Eddie’s ass with both hands, squeezing and pinching as he lifts his hips up to fuck himself on Eddie’s cock. “C’mon, Eds. Be a—a good boy for me. Fuck me—fuck me please.”  Bubbles of static electricity swarm Eddie, springing from each point of contact between them and ricocheting to every untouched inch of his body. He drops down heavily, blanketing Buck’s body with his own, and fucks hard and sloppy and eager. Buck muffles a hiccuped moan against the scruff of Eddie’s cheek, breathy and pitched high. Eddie grins, mollified.   “Like that, baby?”  “Yeah,” Buck grunts, panting against Eddie’s cheek. He wraps his legs around Eddie’s waist, kicking him closer and deeper with his heels, and meets Eddie’s thrusts with little ones of his own. “Yeah, fuck, like that. Just like that.”  Eddie finds Buck’s lips, eating the mewls that fall from Buck’s mouth. It’s little sobs of too-good, too-sharp pleasure; a staccato of breaths that get stuck in his chest on each withdraw and shoved out on every thrust forward. Eddie’s so deep inside Buck—he can feel himself, right up in Buck’s guts, beneath the muscle and fat of Buck’s tummy where his prick’s at, twitching from friction and sensation.  “Buck,” he says, smearing Buck’s name all along Buck’s cheek and throat and chin. They’re so wet, so sweaty, that Buck can’t get a good grip on his back to scratch his nails in without slipping. “Buck, baby. Marry me. Please marry me.”  Beneath him, Buck’s body jolts. “Goddamn, Eddie,” Buck swears, but it kind of feels like a benediction, a prayer sweeter than any he’s every heard. Buck cradles his cheeks in both hands and sucks on his tongue, loud and free in his pleasure. He laughs like sunshine. “No.” 

i was tagged by @hippolotamus, @try-set-me-on-fire, @callaplums, @thewolvesof1998, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @exhuastedpigeon, @honestlydarkprincess, @jesuisici33, @wikiangela, and @daffi-990 mwaH MWAH

and i'm tagging @watchyourbuck, @eddiediaztho, @fortheloveofbuddie, @callmenewbie, and whoever else wants to share consider yourself tagged 🫶🏼

#i will BE BACK IN A FEW TO GUSH OVER EVERYBODY'S SNIPPETS OKAY I JUST HAVE TO SHOWER FIRST AND GET MYSELF TOGETHER #okay thank u #and now onto the good stuff #this is the 5+1(+1) fic where eddie asks buck to marry him and buck says no until eddie asks bobby #and can i just say the way he asks bobby... makes me want to eat glass but anyway #this lil fic is kind of on the back burner until i finish hoa eddie WHICH IS COMING ALONG NICELY? i think chap 3 will be finished by the en #of this upcoming week thank god #i'm so sick of eddie being a dumb bitch #he keeps calling people dickheads like he's not the king of dickheads #convinced the reason i keep having acid reflux is because of his stupid ass #what do you MEAN you've got 44r234234 things to tell buck and you don't let him know? #what the fuck is even going on anymore? #ANYWAY the 5+1(+1) is really sweet and ooey gooey 1000/10 i think all of u are gonna like it a lil #tag games

[chrollohearttags]

yk, I’d be waaay more inclined to believe this whole ‘I’m sick of x, y and z trope w black writers/readers’ IF y’all didn’t make it contingent upon what and who was popular. I’m starting to think y’all only care when it’s a fandom or set of characters you don’t like. Or like anymore rather lmao.

#bc somebody can go and write plug Gojo or getuo rn and it’ll blow up #but y’all hate eren and connie fics all of a sudden #cherry chats 🍒 #it was a different tune a year ago but what do EYE know 🌚 #lemme hush befire I talk myself into another break #discourse #rants #black writers #black writblr #idk y’all have this same convo every two wks but it’s only for certain ppl #I see toxic g*jo fics all the time and not an eye blinked #but bc y’all all of a sudden don’t like aot for whatever reason #they’re so toxic to black women #please shut the fuck up omg :( #like just say you only wanna see what’s popular and go #but let’s nawt bash other black ppl for what they wanna write #your experiences are not universal #okay back into hiding I go

[queenbananya]

I FINISHED IT.

Cactus Bloom (51427 words) by Queenbananya Chapters: 11/11 Fandom: Buddy Daddies (Anime) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kurusu Kazuki/Suwa Rei, Kurusu Kazuki & Suwa Rei & Unasaka Miri Characters: Kurusu Kazuki, Suwa Rei, Kugi Kyuutarou, Unasaka Miri Additional Tags: Pre-Canon, catching up to end of canon, Getting Together, Bathing/Washing, Healing, in the form of caring for Rei, Haircuts, ace spec Rei, POV Kurusu Kazuki, Fluff, Dancing, Slow Dancing, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Light Angst, Non-Consensual Drug Use, on a random person/small scene, Literal Sleeping Together, Canon-Typical Violence, Slow Burn, Mild Sexual Content, Canon Compliant Summary:

Kazuki fell first. He also fell harder.

Or, KazuRei throughout the years.

#buddy daddies #kazurei #qb's fic tag #ahh today has been so stressful #I'd been looking forward to sitting down to update this fic but no #had to deal with work bs #then gas leaks at home #and now I have no hot water and it's freezing outside #and I'm paranoid feeling like I still smell gas #when it's just cat litter #please let it be cat litter #I'm going to treat myself to a 1000 calorie ice cream when all this is resolved #anyway I'm really happy with this chapter #I had some plans for a post-canon sequel back when I'd just started writing this but unlikely to happen at this point

[ohbo-ohno]

i made the horrendous mistake of watching the start of an old rdr2 playthrough while taking a break from writing and it was possibly the worst decision i've ever made

#my mind is torn between western au and hockey au bc i can't stop thinking about sid crosby and nate mackinnon at the asg #(neither are what im writing for my exchange) #there are so many fics i want to read... but if i let myself pick them up before finishing this fic i will be proving my lack of selfcontro #ceil's ko-fi fic AND new chapter of the price fic????? i want them so BAD but i like actually just cannot let myself #i have good asks in my inbox but i canNOT let myself answer them #it took me soooo long to figure out what to do with this fic AND i have two abandoned drafts from when i first got my exchange person #so i've been stuck here for like. ever. with no progress made!!!! #((that's not true i've actually made a good amount of progress on this final draft but let me complain)) #i am Not going to have time to edit as much as i usually like to btw so like. if it's a little rough around the edges NOBODY say smth #not that anyone would?? i've never gotten a bitchy “constructive criticism” comment but im terrified of them lmfao #welcome back to: venting in the tags #y'all im distractible and stressed

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[novantinuum]

Anyways, I declare this era as Steven Universe Fixation 2: More Fun, Less Bullshit

#the fandom is more peaceful finally #there's less people being noisy with takes i disagree with #my fics are going to get less traffic thus less chances of rude commenters #i am Not majorly active in any SU servers #i do Not have to deal with my ex friends #instead this is a happy and joyous time for creativity #like legit... i got seven pieces of art done in the past two weeks #and i've written over 5K words since the beginning of the year #it's been so nice to reconnect with old stories #and to start dreaming up new one-shots #i just feel like sometimes i need to grit my teeth and go 'it WILL be different this time' #bc there's nothing i'd hate more than to drag myself into the same patterns and let the same things bother me again #so nope! #we're going to be Better than that #we're going to block when things mildly annoy me #we're going to stop looking at youtube comments #we're going to stop looking through the tags #we're going to focus on creativity instead of comparing to others #so speaketh jen #jen rambles