#I want to die sooo fucking bad how do I stop feeling shitty for more than ten seconds at a time

[aftermathing]

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#One day I will meet someone who doesn't make me want to tear out my voicebox when I accidentally infodump!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I like finish my accidental little rant only to find out they aren't even looking at me #God it makes me want to spray blood from my eyes like a fucking thorny devil #When I was like seven I used to write like 'Silence' on my hand to remind myself to shut the fuck up and #stop making people hate me just by talking!!!! #I wish I could go back to being selectively mute bc I feel like going home and killing myself every time I talk for a little too long #Even when like I post art in a discord and someone posts over it or WORSE no one ever says anything after weeks #I just delete it bro fuck I would rather die than feel like people saw it and didn't care enough to say anything #WHY when there is a lull in conversation do I feel the fucking need to say some shit like 'hey guess what did you know that in star wars..' #Like a fucking toddler??????? What is wrong with me why do I ruin everything just by existing #I thought having a friend who is also autistic and understands being ignored and talked over would make things easier!!! #But no bc they also ignore me even if on accident and it hurts 100x more #I'm sure anyone reading this is like 'bro maybe you ARE the problem maybe you should just stop talking?' like YEAH!! CORRECT!!!!!! #I want to die sooo fucking bad how do I stop feeling shitty for more than ten seconds at a time #I am living for those tiny five second moments of feeling non shitty like when I see a red bird in a tree but bro. I cannot live like this.

[stainedglassthreads]

Not me vagueing about a shitty meta I saw... 

Sooo, yeah. Saw a post implying that it was Toriel’s fault for a) adopting a human, b) allowing said human to die, c) leaving Asgore d) ‘manipulating’ several humans into staying with her in her home and e) allowing those humans to stay in her home and thus letting them get killed. 

The last two points are a bit... well, we don’t have much info canonically about the six souls just in general, so I can’t say how long they stayed with her, how willingly they stayed, if they snuck out of fought her, etc. So I won’t spend too much time one that. But do you want her keeping those humans safe from the rest of the Underground or not, make up your mind... 

Anyways. I feel like, while sometimes I see Toriel criticism that’s fair, other times I see it, and I can’t help but think... Asgore was an adult too, y’know. 

If Asgore didn’t want to adopt Chara, he could’ve put his foot down and said ‘no’. But analysis shows Chara was probably his favorite child. They shared a hobby of gardening, he saw them as the ‘future of humans and monsters’, he kept their sweater and grew their favorite flowers. Having experienced the symptoms of buttercup poisoning firsthand and being the local botany expert, one could blame him for not recognizing Chara’s symptoms, or for not keeping the poisonous plants in his garden out of the kids’ reach. It’s made pretty explicit in his fight and in Neutral endings that Asgore really, really, REALLY didn’t want war: again, he could have put his foot down and said ‘No more souls. No more war. We’re trying a peaceful route again,’ he’s the fucking KING. 

Toriel is not Asgore’s caretaker. She’s not his therapist, nurse, conscience or mother. Asgore is a big boy who can make his own choices. He and Toriel just happened to make some really bad ones, while trying to do their ideas of ‘the right thing’ and while hurt by the same damn trauma. 

I... am actually not as pissed at this as I might have usually been, probably because I’ve already addressed why I think Toriel didn’t try stopping Asgore until the True Pacifist route and what Toriel meant by telling Asgore he could have crossed the Barrier with one soul. But yeah, I just wanted to get this one thing out of my system, that Asgore can make his own goddamn choices about right and wrong. Toriel didn’t force him to dirty his snowy-white toebeans with blood, if she chose to ‘abandon her people’ then he chose to ‘kill six innocents’. They were both undergoing emotionally turbulent events, they both chose to isolate themselves, they both lacked ‘voices of reason’, they were both trying to follow what they felt was ‘right’ at the expense of their mental health, they were both in very dark places for a very long time. 

They’re really more alike than different, and that’s the tragedy of it all. And the point is that it IS a tragedy, not that one was good and lovable and the other was evil and awful. 

#undertale #undertale salt #toriel #asgore #asgore dreemurr

[heretherebedork]

Love Mechanics Vee and Mark are sooo messy, but I love it sooooo much!!! I dunno know, I can't even explain why, but I feel so connected to Mark and I even can somewhat relate and understand Vee too. After Vegas/Pete, Vee/Mark is my second angsty couple this year (lol), who are just, outwardly so not-perfect for each other, but on a deeper emotional level are literal perfection together. Like they just make sense.

Vee gets a lot of hate and I do agree, that sometimes he is total wuss. But the thing with Vee is that he is NOT a selfish jerk, even though sometimes he acts like total jerk. Like when he knows he is wrong, he never shies away from accepting he is wrong. And he realises his own shitty actions pretty quick, too, and doesn't sit on it like a coward. I think he feels like he needs to people-please to the extent even if it doesn't bring him any joy. Even with Nuea he never picks a fight publicly or confronts in a way to hurt Nuea (one reason is of course, he doesn't wanna come out of the closet), but then again, he doesn't even hint or say anything hurtful or something that would break Nuea's heart, at all, even though Vee is sooo jealous. Never once does he try to push Nuea away or anything... And the same goes for Ploy. Vee hurts himself rather than hurt someone else. But the thing is he has emotions too and trying to please everyone, and always hide away his feelings is bound to leave himself and the person he loves the most absolutely heartbroken.

Mark on the other hand is fucking amazing. I love and relate, to how fiercely he loves, how steadfast he maintains boundaries, to even the complete shattering of himself he allows, whenever he fails achieve what he wants. From stopping to pursue Bar when Bar gets into a relationship seriously, to never allowing Nuea to cross a line, to telling off Vee, (whom he is in love with) clearly and bluntly. Mark is such complicated, affectionate, fireball of self destructive soul in a tiny, cute body. I can't help but root for him.

Vee needs Mark for strength for expressing his own needs and wishes to the world. Mark needs Vee for his support, for comfort, to be worshipped. Them together just works for me!!!

(Also War is such an amazing actor. His microexpressions are to die for. I don't want Mark to be hurt anymore, but damn War is such a beautiful crier. Like watching him cry is like watching art. Sad Mark= Devastation of my heart.)

They need each other but the problem is that how they need each other is also destroying themselves right now and that's the real beauty of the messy that we were brought by this show.

Because Love Mechanic sat down and showed up strength as weakness and kindness as pain and love as agony but also weakness as power and kindness as love and love as the great joy and the way that every part can be good and bad and every action can hurt and heal.

Vee is an amazing person in so many ways but his want to keep everyone happy at the detriment to his own happiness leaves him constantly hurting people and his fear of coming out is also keeping him trapped in this place where he keeps hurting Mark despite loving him and wanting to do nothing less... and yet he also can't let go of Ploy because he feels an obligation to protect her, just like he has an obligation to stay polite with Nuea and to originally talk to Mark and make sure he was both leaving Bar alone and okay.

And Mark is just fantastic. He's such a deeply emotional character who has boundaries but also feels every single one of those boundaries in his soul. He loves Vee but he won't let himself be subsumed to that love, he won't just give in to him and let him run roughshod over him no matter how much it hurts him.

They are opposite sides of the coin in that regard.

Honestly, I worry for both of them... but I worry much more for Vee.

Because Mark does have boundaries and he also had friends who know how serious he is, how hurt he can be, how low he can go, and they're all looking out for him and aware of his pain.

But Vee?

Vee's friends, for the most part, accept him at face value. And even when they don't, they don't take his pain as seriously because he does tend to give of himself to the point that he loses himself and he smiles and I think they've all mostly accepted him at face value and he's shockingly good at hiding pain because he wants to make everyone happy and doesn't worry about himself.

Mark will react big and he'll suffer but his friends know him and they'll be looking out for him and chasing him and calling him but Vee's friends... they'll worry but I don't know if they will see his pain the same way.

Mark may cry and we may ache for him but Vee drinks and I fear for him.

#love mechanics #love mechanics the series #vee x mark #thai bl #bl drama #thai drama #thaibl #thai series #bl series #veemark

[spacedhead]

homestuck reread #15 act 6 p6

this is funny . HE DID THOSE THINGS . he is so silly . he is the reason all of my faves just died gruesomely. i hope you die in a fire you fucking bitch

when you walkin

my son needs to be studied in a genetics lab . why would you ever say this to another human being

okay...... in dangerous territory of becoming a roxygen shipper... surely this will not happen to me

LOOK AT MY SON HE WILL LIVE UP TO HIS RESPONSIBILITY AND MASTER HIS POWERS

this is how i look in real life every day of the god damn week year month space time continue umm (thinkign of daeb stribur)

MY SON IS SUS HES VENTING SOMEBODY STOP HIM BEFORE HE KILLS US ALL

ive been converted to roxygen. sorry to all my fans. also this sequence um is the best and i love it even though the things that it is a reaction to were terrible and maybe the worst i love this part for some reason. it is like a break. like there is a plan in motion and things are getting fixed, but it also feels... quieter... the chiller if you will. maybe because i love john and roxy and they are the stars of this part

i wonder if he was saying things like gadzooks or shucky darn or ay chihuahua

ok i watched the vriska gram and it was awesome B) but look at THIS . wow they are getting along! awesome we love to see it

???

SO TRUE. i need to start saying this. or do i? no probably not .

awwwwww yeeaaaaaaaaa-

he is so funny

brother what are you saying... youre so corny lil bro... i cant believe i used to be like this when i was like 11 years old... SO CRINGE

yeah sometimes things are just really fucking gay. and is it a crime to point that out . like my friends? theyre all soooooooo gay its ridiculous. i think it makes them better

john egbert - subtle as a brick. i kinda love him for that though? like it is funny to me just how fucking oblivious he is to like EVERYTHING around him .

john being absolutely mind blown and own realizing he wants terezi so badly is so funny like LOL YOU WANT HER SOOO BAD AND KARKAT JUST CALLED YOU TF OUT LIL BRO

WHY DOES HE WANT TO FUCK HIS MOM

hes so over

god i love dave and arquius sprite. look at them . my sons. one of them is weird and sweaty

dave is so me (in my mind)

this is the funniest jake will ever be and the joke is on him and he said ONE word. great comedic timing buddy

i love this for karkat. defend your boyfriend!! i dont think vriska is necessarily trying to be mean here but i do like that karkat is willing to seriously defend his honor.

me every day . goodnight

this is really fucked up man

GOD.

okay reading this i dunno if i always thought this probably i did but ive returned to it again and definitively this time. this interaction between dave and dirk is the BEST interaction in the comic and adds so much more depth to both of them who were already GREAT characters. THIS interaction solidifies dave as my favorite character of all time. homestuck is many things but one of its major themes is just trying to become a better person. and i think dave personifies that theme so much. he has come so far and evolved so much as a person that looking back at his early interactions in the comic makes you think you are looking at a completely different character. sure he types the same and has a bit of the same mannerisms but it is so clear that he went from shitty bigoted teenager to a guy who actually cares about the things he says and does and a guy who is actually a good person. he even says in a previous interaction with roxy and rose that he has focused on being a half way decent guy so that when he makes a freudian slip (which he does ALL the time) it wont be anything insane of unforgiveable. i fucking love him and i am so glad this conversation with dirk exists

I MEAN LOOK AT THIS SHIT DUDE . PRE SBURB DAVE WAS A FUCKING ASSHOLE AND LOOK AT HOW FAR HE HAS COME . it seems so simple but it actually means a lot especially for someone having gone through all the shit he did and coming out the other side like this .

man so fuckin true

GAHHHHHH MAN THSI UFUCK

okay... so thats all the images i have for this one. i do think its a good place to end it though. this is def my favorite part of the whole comic. theres not much left! next post may be the last. just a few more conversations and little events to happen and then Collide. its gonna be great!!!

#joff hs reread #GOD DAMN YOU #things need to improve or so help me i will freak out #roxygen so cute

[deepdonutkid]

Can I ask for multiple character break downs?👀

Well if I can, then would you please do one for Ada and one for Tommy and one for John

But if only one has to be done, then you can choose any one of these.

Thanks! <3

Thanks for the ask! 💞

Ada Thorne nee Shelby

How I feel about this character

Just love for her! She is adorable, strong, fierce, absolutely amazing! Ada and Polly are the best developed female character on the show. Mainly, because Tommy can’t fuck them, so they can’t be reduced to his love interest, which is such a good thing, because I love strong women. Makes me weak in my knees.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Freddie Thorne, Ben Younger, Jessie Eden, because Ada is bi, she just gives off that vibe, u know.

Somehow I prefer to read stuff with a female reader for her, more than a male reader for her. Because it’s either Freddie x Ada for me or Ada x female reader.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Lizzie, Polly, Ada and Linda are an amazing combination! She and Tommy have an interesting dynamic as well! I would have loved to see more John and Ada interactions, because they have not such a big age gap inbetween, so I think they are close. Especially after Ada got her child and John got married with Esme. Oh, Ada and Esme would have sooo much fun together. Esme would be like the sister Ada never had.

My unpopular opinion about this character

I think her character changed a lot between season 1 and 2, because of Freddie’s death and also after she joined the business again. Sometimes when I make memes or the alignment charts, I have two icons for her, one from first season and one from third season, because I think she is one of the characters who changed the most through the series. First season Ada would do a lot of things different and more naive than third season Ada. Mainly, because she still believed in communism in season 1 and she somehow lost her faith after losing Freddie. Which is super understandable tho.

She acutally becomes wiser with age... unlike her brothers, who just do the same shit over and over again.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I wished Ben hadn’t died, because they kill her lovers even fast than Tommys. WTF, right?

On the other hand I wished Ada talked some sense into Jessie, to NOT SLEEP WITH TOMMY THE WHORE SHELBY! Because Ada knows her brother very well and I think she genuinely liked Jessie, or she liked her enough to save her from the pain of being Tommy’s toy or pleasure doll.

And I’m still bitter about the way they killed of Freddie... but more about that later...

Tommy Shelby

How I feel about this character

Relationship status: It’s complicated!

Yes, well, I ramble about Tommy’s shit a lot. I know! He is still an intersting character and it’s so tempting to think about his actions in certain situations, but if I would meet him as a person- I would hate him from the bottom of my heart! <3

He is such an asshole all the time and when I first watched the show, I forgave him a lot he did to his siblings, because I was caught up with his good looks and the presentation of him being the good guy who does bad things to survive. But I spend some time to think about his actions and I noticed, he is an awful human being... to Polly, to his siblings, to his lover and actually to everyone. He might think he does all those mean things to archive a bigger goal, but he is just a gambling addict who can’t stop taking risks he isn’t even prepared for.

Shitty things Tommy has done over time:

Forcing his brother to marry somebody, John didn’t even know at that time, to end a feud, Tommy had started himself and only when it was in his favour to end it, he used John as pawn, so he could archive his plan. HOW FUCKED UP WAS THAT? Nobody seems to talk about this. It was fucking awful! And the way he did it was horrible to! Tommy said nothing to John until the very last moment, when they were already surrounded by enemies, so John couldn’t said no. It also shows, that Tommy thinks he is above his siblings. Tommy thought John wasn’t capable of chosing a wife for himself, so Tommy did that for him too. Even when John didn’t ask for this at all!

Destroying Ada’s relationship with Freddie and chasing his best friend out of town, just because... TOMMY WAS AGAINGST HIS SISTER HAVING A RELATIONSHIP. and yet he proclaimes to listen to woman and to give them a fair change. Maybe just not for our dear Ada!

Destroying Arthur’s marriage, because he kept dragging Arthur into shit, he wasn’t mentally stable enough for. Putting thoughts of rejecting Linda into Arthur’s head, by talking bad about Linda and making jokes about her any given time.

Sleeping with Lizzie over and over again, even when he knew she loved him and when she tried to get over him by dating someone new, he made the order to burn down the pub of Angel, humilated his family, and have him killed later.

Sleeping with Jessie, so he could use her

Humiliate Polly, when she was at her lowest, after Rueben had left her

Drag Michael into the illegal business after Polly begged him not to

Dragging Finn into all this shit after John died, because John wasn’t avaiable anymore

Calling Grace a whore, when they first met

Paying Lizzie in his head, even after she stopped being a sex worker

Helping a fascist

I could go on for a while, but you see my point here!

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Nobody! I want to see him miserable and alone! Honestly I’m never going to read all these soft!Tommy fics or whatever, because they really don’t interest me. I don’t want to see him happy.

But go have fun people and write and read whatever you want!

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Tommy and Lizzie, because they have a sexual relationship, which is not based on romance and I love this sad and depressing dynamic between them. It’s so interesting to write and read about.

Tommy and Ada are great in the show. I love their talks and Ada actually points out when Tommy is acting like a douche again.

My unpopular opinion about this character

I have a lot... where should I start?

I get so annoyed, when I see Tommy shown as a twink, because the actor is just 1,70m... which is not small to me. I know a lot of men around that height and I think they are average and not small. Also a lot of men feel bad for not being tall enough, because everywhere in our society it’s normal to have a tall man and a small woman. And the way tall man or small man are sexualized in this alpha/omega thing or in a top/bottom dynamic is so... meh. It’s really uncomfortable to see how people try to push the patriarchal man-woman dynamic into same-sex relationships.

Tommy is a class traitor and a horrible husband.

Man, I could rant for hours, but I stop right here. Just remember, please don’t feel attacked, I don’t mean to attack you. Even if you write or draw... whatever with Tommy, I would never say something bad about this. Enjoy creating Tommy content, I will love to ignore it!

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

I was so disappointed when they killed Freddie, because those two could have had an interesting and compelling relationship. Freddie could have been a great frenemie. I put this here and on on Ada, because their marriage wouldn’t changed the plot as much as Freddies and Tommys friendship. Tommy would have been a way better person, if Freddie was around.

John Shelby

How I feel about this character

MY HUSBAND! I love him and he has never done anything wrong in his life.

Nah, John has many faults, but I still adore him as a character, because his faults are actually making the plot more interesting. I also read, that he and Tommy fight a lot, because John is more moral and has way more integrity than his older brother. It was just hinted in the show, but I love this side fact and I will base my whole characterisation this.

I love to write, draw and read stuff with him. He is my favorite character from Peaky blinders and my love will never die, even though he did.

Funny tho, when I first watched PB, I adored Tommy and was annoyed by John, but as I rewatched it I changed my mind about those two.

He had so much potential and I would spend all my money, which is not much, but the devotions counts, to see a spin-off with just John and his army of children.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

Esme, because they are sooo cute together!

My OFC, because I love writing them.

Any reader, because I’m a sucker for John.

My non-romantic OTP for this character

All kinds of interactions with other characters and John are great! My favorite is John and Ada to be honest. But here are other dynamics I adore as well:

John & Polly, (she would help him a lot with the kids)

John & Arthur (they come to the garrison to drink and play cards, they talk a lot about their problems, deep bond here)

John & Tommy (in my head they are always fighting)

John & Lizzie, because they have a great friendship, and they helped each other a lot. She spend time with the kids and he gave her financial support, so she would quit her job, which she didn’t do, because she feared being all alone again, and she has trust issues) (I’m actually writing a fic about these two)

John & his kids (I’m soft for dad!John)

John & Michael (especially in season three, because John seems to be jealous of Michael)

My unpopular opinion about this character

John is not completely stupid. Well, he is certainly not smart, but he works in the betting shop, and Arthur does not, or not really, because Arthur is bad at math... John at least knows his numbers. And also Tommy chose him to be the legal bookie over the others, so John must do a good job there. He just never got a degree or something similar like Michael. Which is also a reason, why John seems to be bitter about Michael joining the business. Michael was put in a higher position than he did.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

This one is obvious... John should have survived.

[the-acid-pear]

Tumblr refuses to let me reblog the post again, so this is the second part of me reading the second btg book! ☺️

Still Chapter 211

Son on son violence

Chapter 212

This dude pretty cute ngl

Shit, rip

AAWW HIGH 5 🥺🥺

It's almost like they are a regular father and son 😭🥺💔

Chapter 213

Look how thigh those shirts are hehehoho 🥴

OYXITSITDITDLTD

Ooooh there goes my man Jyaku ready to kick some ASS

🥺😭💞

Baki really just forgot his mom eh, thought you were getting stronger for HER smh

Oh Jyaku vs Retsu? Nvm Jyaku i can only hope Retsu is nice w you

I like how most are like, confused over who to cheer for lmao

I know he won't make it but I'm cheering for Jyaku btw i like him more <33

Chapter 214

Love that title, can't believe Jyaku is gonna ask Retsu out 😍 /j

He really is just honest Igari

I love that he apologizes

Chapter 215

OJFOYDITDISTOTDG

HIS FACEEE THIS FUCKING CLOWN 😭😭😭

THIS IS JUST SO FUCKING FUNNY

Chapter 216

Burgir

GHZJDUDDRHD THEY ARE SOOO MAD

That smile so cute...

Jyaku is a king

Love it when Retsu throws that pose, though y'all know why

HDGSSGSGF you are coming to Japan wether you like it or not 🔫

Chapter 217

Finally Jyaku got serious too

WITH HIS TOES 😭

King is just obsessed i luv him

HEHE HAIRY LEGS

It does seem like Jyaku is trynna confess his love jfnshdshdf

Chapter 218

I remember i almost laugh cry with my dad when we saw this

His damn beard... 💔

THE HAND OF THE TRAITOR

He has a good point

They be calling my man Jyaku a masochist noooo yfjdhdgs

Chapter 219

Okay seems kinda into it <:/

Old man? He doesn't look that old Baki :/

That was so smart 🥺

Chapter 220

Retsu calm down please you are gonna break his back

Oh my god Retsu, oh my god.

He did apologize at least

Chapter 221

Damn dude be a little more gentle with him

Oh, get was picking him up, okay

FR FR

🥺🥺🥺

FARHDHDYFTH THE KINGGG

Chapter 222

I love how everyone completed him (except Yujiro but not surprising), these warriors are such a good team

I want to eat an apple too now

That was fast

I got distracted watching a vsauce react video sorry

Okay I'm glad a comment actually mentioned Sik

Chapter 223

Had to take a uh idk 5 hour break bc lights went out :/

Feet be fuming lmao

Ohhh that's a cool analysis

Chapter 224

What a good punch

That "please",,,

Poor Li man, having to see his brother DIE /j

No, Viêt Long, i have not been hit by a truck before.

Chapter 225

It's so funny how Jyaku lost bc he fought a main charac and only those win

Sad day for the Chinese citizens

Mf got tits in his back

This is gonna be so goodddd

Chapter 226

Look at the size of his tits, the slut

INSTAGRAM INFLUENCER POSE WOOO

These two are cool fighters

Chapter 227

Old man showing skin

His smile is so fucked up lmao

Chapter 228

Baki what the FUCK are you wearing?

I just remembered when Hana did a flip, that was so good

Retsu babey 🥺

I love how confused Yujiro looks

Chapter 229

Hey, i recognize that name...

Kaku just too op

Yujiro you are gonna pop your testicles if you do that with your leg

Chapter 230

God that's such a good threat

Love Retsu's confusion

Damn bitch you saying we gotta keep up w this whore cuz you were too slow? Ffs Kaku 😢

I love when you can tell someone is still hanging around just quietly by seeing their response in a comment

Chapter 231

God this just feels so good, to see Yujiro actually scared 😍

YOOO THAT'S POG

Chapter 232

I wanna finish this book and start the next one grrr

This fight is so satisfying

That last bit is so cringe but whatever that's okay

Fight so controversial comments were deactivated

Chapter 233

Itagaki hincha de boquita el más grande? 😳 /j

Okay yeah it IS just rude

Hohoooo shit getting nice

Chapter 234

This asshole lmao

Yuji-chan really went "how many times do i have to teach you this lesson, old man?!"

Mfs be doing Jojo references in the comments lol

Chapter 235

GTFO WITH THAT LOGIC RETSU IM SORRY CHINA IS LOSING BUT GET LOSTTTT AJSGAJGS

Ffs Kaku you are doomed 😢💔

Yujiro so strong my mouse disconnected

Chapter 236

Abs in his back...

Crying and shaking that is NOT true

DON'T FEED HIS EGO, KAKU

LIONS CAN BE KILLED BY TIGERS TOO!!!!

I thought Yujiro was bleeding for a second there smh

Chapter 237

OKAY YEAH IT IS HIS BLOOD ITS COMING OUT OF HIS NOSE ITS NOT MUCH BUT HE BLED

THE HEAD APPLAUSE

HE'S SO UPSET LMAOOO

Yujiro surprised is good shit

GSJDUFTHSTD

KAKU YOU LEGEND LMAO

Kaku has boyboss energy

Chapter 239

This cover almost gives me a stroke

I love how they all just shat their pants

These minor Chinese characters were so good tbh, sadly i don't think they will ever return

Don't worry Retsu, we the viewers have seen a man revive before

King i don't think any of us understands

It really is

CAN MEN IN THIS FRANCHISE JUST OPEN BOTTLES REGULARLY?!

Oh my god i though Yujiro was sitting on the air for a second i almost cry 😭

Coca cola must have paid Itagaki /j

Chapter 240

Oh so the Kaioh part takes the name, not the surname

...is Yujiro wearing a floral shirt? 😭

I LOVE THAT ENDING SO MUCH 🥺😭

Jyaku has his eyes fixated on Retsu eh, proud of having him come to Japan lmao

Chapter 241

HORRIBLE fit Baki

CHILDHOOD SAGA PART 2? 😰

Jk though i do miss Yuri 🥺

Oh hey Jr

You gonna fuck his girl, bro?

Chapter 242

So straight forward lmao

I'm starting to appreciate Baki's feminist ass every day even more

AAAA GRANDPAAA 🥺🥺💞

This page didn't allow me to call two mfs virgins smh, 1984

Chapter 243

Grandpa they shrunk you

Chapter 244

Kings idc about this

Okay true but also he's 70 dude pls... Though idk if this guy will go thru worse than Jack lmao

Such a nice lad

Chapter 245

Baki being such a feminist icon is so meaningful considering how his parents were,,,

MY MAN IS BACKKK AND AS DAPPER AS EVER

Doppo he's called Ali Jr how are you surprised?

OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED HIS EYE PATCH HAS A PATTERN THAT'S SO COOL 🥺🥺😢💞

These men love throwing their glasses eh

Chapter 246

If only Igari and Toba had done this lol

OKAY THATS COOL I LIKE THAT

Me lo re devaluaron a mí pelado eh

HEHE OOOOH NICE 😳

Scenes that give me a boner

CHU...

Such a good callback...

Chapter 247

My man got serious, sweet

Doppo has been trying out his luck a bit too much like he's been betting with his life an uncomfortable lot like king do you need to talk? Are you okay? First asking Gouki to kill him now this like, is everything alright Doppo?

YEAH A BIT FUCKED UP TO THINK ABOUT

I love that blocking technique

OSHWOWHIWWH "gay ass Orochi, out of option so he touching dick" SHUT UPPP 😭😭💀

I really wish he got kicked in the nuts again see if he's still using his technique

Chapter 248

Poor guys thought he was bout to get murdered

A kiss? 😏 /j

When i saw this in the anime i actually thought Orochi was going to die, i was gonna get sooo angry

Chapter 249

What a way to cockblock em

Feminist icon

Jack is that the only sweater you own?

Chapter 250

I have been thinking of that scene of him eating the whole steak a lot

Jr like 🥺

Imagine being stupid enough to tease Jack like, i get he defeated two masters but they are NOTHING compared to this monster

Imagine jack just smoked some weed right there lmao

Jack needs to bite people more

Chapter 251

My shitty ass son gave me parkinson's

Jack that's not how human anatomy works what the fuck did Kureha do to your body spine?

Chapter 252

DAMN JR WHAT A FAT ASS

Looked like Jack was going for a handful

Those techniques must fuck your neck up so bad

Okay Jack you are going a bit far now don't cha think?

Chapter 253

You are tempting your luck sunny boy

Look at that, you pissed him off!

You cannot just know out jack hanma bro

HHH

This was so stupid yet, unironically, iconic

Chapter 254

Bruh i thought it said Pog 😭, ain't manslaughter poggers Mr Hanma?

OKAY THANKS JACK

Such a simp he downed that coffee cup

Grandpa put here cockblocking

Chapter 255

"no he didn't >:/"

These two masters are a pair of fucking idiots like understand this i love my grandpa and i love my man but mfs have to take the L for this one time sksgwjgshgw

Gouki bro my senses gonna shut down if you put your sucks against the dirt again OUGH sensory hell 😭

FOR FUCKING REAL JR

STOP ENABLING THE OLD MAN!! WKSGKSGSJSHDD for once I'm on Viêt's side 😭

Chapter 256

Hoho Gouki out here getting a panty shot 😳

Grandpa i love you but this was unnecessary

Chapter 257

Kozue should wear a Korn tshirt

GET HIS ASS KOZUE

OWHWLWGISGSJWG 😭😭 MF JUST STANDING THERE LIKE A FREAK I LOVE HIM BUT I HATE HIM SM!!!

Love how consistently round his hands are, king got no knuckles

HEY DONT CALL MY MAN A FREAK KOZUE

King hasn't changed his clothes ever since i see

His shoes look so nice...

OKAY OKAY HE HAS A POINT AT LEAST, HE AT LEAST ACCEPTED HE LOST BUT HE'S STILL BUTTHURT FROM IT SKSGAJGS BUT HE ADMITS IT!!

Doppo i love you but shut UPPP you lost get over it!! You are just going for the rematch bc you have the higher ground against a injured guy!!! Like Shibukawa didn't have time but you were already getting serious!! Hhhgrrrrrr doppo i love you but I'm going to bark

Hehe nvm he still hella fine... keep talking king 🥴

This was so mean of him sjsgwjwg

Chapter 258

Low-key starting to believe these two mfs plotted against Jr sjshsj

THAT FACE AKSGWJGS just 😐

If i didn't know you would get your ass handed in a plate i would be a lil mad he's planning on being that savage

He has been thru worse, sunny boy

Niceee

Tbh. I don't care anymore. Doppo is in the wrong, but GOD I'm a simp and i love seeing him fight 😍😍🥴

Yeah a comment mentioned it, we all were on Jr side until he threatened to kill Doppo Orochi like, even if not everyone here is as horny as me we all like an og fella

I also love how the prisoners really changed them all, the scars (both physical and mental) those 5 left will be remembered lol

#luly talks #btg #i ran out of space but that's good cuz im sleepy and have 3% of battery lol #i wanted to reach chapter 260 but this works #14 last episodes for tomorrow woo #baki liveblog

[fanfoolishness]

Live-blogging the Mandalorian, chapter 11: The Heiress commencing now!

It makes me feel warm and fuzzy to think of Din’s helmet forever being included at the start of a Star Wars thing now!

Poor Din and Grogu and Frog Lady. They are all so wiped out, poor things!

Din, so casually fatalistic. I feel like Grogu has developed a finely tuned sense of when to worry about what his Dad says and when it’s all hyperbole. Judging by Grogu’s reaction to their reentry, it’s clear he considers “if we don’t burn to a crisp” in the hyperbole category.

I love the AT-AT as a crane in the shipyard.

At least the seawater will wash away the spider webs?

This mechanic’s no Peli Motto, that’s for damn sure

Did they have to hide in the cockpit on the way to Nevarro too? I thought the hull had gotten a bit repaired

The Frog family reunited!!! <3

Koska being sooo mysterious, I love her

Okay, yeah, I definitely need to write a little story of Din and Grogu’s room at the inn!

I wonder now if Bo-Katan and the Nite Owls knew there was a ship of Mando-killing Quarrens but weren’t sure which ones, and when Din appeared they could finally avenge the other Mandalorians they had killed after tracking him to them. If that’s so, who were the other Mandalorians they had been looking for? Probably not the case at all though.

Koska’s jetpack kick off the barrels! You see what I mean about the jetpack meta? Creative! Forceful! Skilled! She’s the coolest jetpack user for sure.

Ship o haj, Mandalorians! Absolutely fucking slaps, amazing song

I will never not be over the panic Din must feel in this scene and the way he doesn’t stop panting for the entire interaction with Bo-Katan and her crew

Grogu: “so the helmet comes ALL the way off?”

I know all the cult/anti-cult theory discourse and not trusting Bo-Katan and such and I don’t think Din’s in a CULT per se as I do think there’s an awful lot he hasn’t been told! Was it on purpose to keep Mandalorians ignorant of their past? Or was it due to not having access to resources? I don’t knowwwwww

I keep wanting to write a fic about Din getting ill with aspiration pneumonia after the near-drowning. Maybe he starts feeling poorly after the meeting with Bo-Katan

Love the flex of Koska eating a whole octopus

Depart at first light... doesn’t leave a lot of time for Din to get pneumonia and get better haha... but oh well. Fanfic? Wait, pulmonary edema makes more sense...

I die a little bit of joy every time Din dad voices Grogu

Yaaaaas more Ship o haj!!

Koska using her jetpack again to drop a guy! I love herrrrr

I like how this Imperial officer has a bad tan

The squad: kicking ass. Din: also there, kinda

Just, you know, doing his thing

Again! This crew is used to always fighting openly together and as a unit! Whereas Din has to fight on his own ;_;

Yes I know Bo-Katan changed the terms of the deal and that ain’t cool but y’know what, I still like her

(Says my halfway through season 2 of the Clone Wars ass)

So many chants, This is the Way, Long live the Empire, May the Force be with you

Din: fuck this. Need to get to my foundling.

Also fic idea — Din got more than a little wounded on that suicide run. I mean, come on, did no one at least hit him in the neck?

Din: okay, first you used “This is the Way” sarcastically, and that sucked, but then you used it properly and lo, for I was heartened, and we are allies again.

Aw, Grogu did have fun playing with his new friend without eating him!

Din is so fucking bitter about his ship still being so shitty, I love it

The fact that Mon Calamari apparently sprout netting and ropes the way the ice spiders sprout webs is great

Grogu: “Dad, I knew you would save me!”

The Razor Crest: literally falls apart

Good times! It’ll be nice to see Greef and Cara and the Mythrol next time! The Nevarro crew <3

#the mandalorian #chapter 11 the heiress #the mandalorian meta #din djarin #bo katan kryze #the nite owls

[vtmb2s]

I had this from an ask meme from like 2 months ago or so and deleted the og post, I dunno why -_-  anyway it was in my google docs so I’m reposting it

🔥

How did they first meet? What was their first impression of each other?

You know… fun Zion Canyon trip!! (credit for this one goes to Dany cause I don’t have good ideas but the whole ordeal would actually happen pre-game, because that’s when the courier would most likely sign up for a caravan I think) 

Audrey thought Follows-Chalk was just messing with her when he said who they were gonna meet, no way this guy is still alive. Needless to say she hates him, she’s heard enough horrendous things about him in her NCR days to form her opinion. He didn’t like her much either aaaghhh how can you see through my fake atonement thing where I’m basically doing the same as before. (she doesn’t really see through it initially, she’s just too stubborn to buy the whole redemption arc thing from the beginning and ends up realizing that she just happened to be right). Understanding why she doesn’t trust him but also resenting that. 

Who felt romantic feelings first?

fjjhdsjhd he does probably, vaguely. She has a much harder time accepting it considering his background and all that, so that came later.

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

YEAH! Both actually, enemies to vaguely friends to lovers and all that but like I said, Audrey has a much harder time coming to terms with this, she feels a little stupid about it because she knows what this guy has done!!! ( and he knows that, hence why he’s pushing it all down in favor of his stupid little revenge thing) He’s so weird and just looks like a mummy, what is there to like objectively. But she does. What thematic parallels do to a mfer 😔

Who initiated the relationship?

She did… Canyon visit nr 2, she technically fucking hates it there but for some reason she wants to go back (well. you know why), perhaps just a little vacation. And well there was clearly something there so why act on it. The most embarrassing moment of her life but it’s worth it I suppose. 

Who said “I love you” first?

Also her… Sorry queen you have to do all the work

Who gets jealous easily?

I think him but not in a way where he’d say anything, he’s just like 😐 but you can’t see it because. bandages. And Audrey has no competition lol so. 

Who is more protective?

Also him, she gets into more stupid shit and isn’t as crazy. 

Who remembers the little things?

She does :)

Who uses the cheesier pickup lines?

God neither. They’re too weird for pickup lines. If anything Audrey would list a few bad ones she overheard on the strip as a joke.

What does a first date look like for them?

They don’t go on dates lmao. What is there to do in a canyon, they’d just go to some random place where there are no other people and talk about whatever.

What do they like to do together?

Just mundane things, doing random shit while one is talking about whatever. A lot of times it’s just Audrey chatting about something funny or weird that happened to her on her travels while she puts on one of her favorite holotapes and does something, her stories are more light-hearted after all :/

Other than that… nothing too insane, they’re too weird to have proper hobbies. Her making him read his stupid mormon bible out loud so she can hear his sexy grandpa voice 😍

Do they like PDA?

No -_- maybe hand holding when no one’s looking, if anything. 

What are their big spoon / little spoon arrangements?

God he’s probably gonna die if she tries to spoon.

Does one like the cuddle more than the other?

She does but it’s not really possible sometimes. Leans against him until he's like aha. okay that’s enough :/

Who hogs the blankets?

Audrey does. She never sleeps much when she’s travelling so when she finally does get a proper night’s rest it’s limbs thrown around. Taking the entire blanket for herself. Sleeping for 20 years.

Do either of them like to cook?

I can’t imagine either, she just does it out of necessity. She can’t cook though, it’s blamco mac and cheese every mf day.

If they get married, who proposes first?

Godddd realistically he would at least think about it but they don’t get married lol. The mental image of it makes me cringe too much.

What kind of wedding do they have?

:/

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together? Does anyone object to their relationship? 

NO LMAOOOOO no one wanted them to get together and pretty much everyone would object to it if they knew. She probably doesn’t tell her family but if they knew they’d be against it, for obvious reasons. She doesn’t tell her friends either except Callisto lol, who thinks it’s epic somehow. Great Khan past and all that, not that she agrees with the legion in any way but 🤷‍♀️

Do they have any kids?

Maybe they do… maybe not. Who knows, I don’t control them.

(I made up two but Idek if they exist. a son named Ben and a daughter, Rachel. they’re weird and that’s all you need to know)

Do they have any pets?

I was gonna say no but she still has Rex who she forgot to return to the King 💔

DIANA/KING

How did they first meet? What was their first impression of each other?

In the followers' camp, not long after she moved to Freeside :) iirc the King tells a story about how he went to the Followers Camp to seek help regarding Rex and ended up yelling at them and even knocking out a few doctors.. something similar, one of his guys got their ass beat and the King got impatient and asked why tf this is taking so long. And Diana told him to sit his ass down and wait, which resulted in an argument 🙄 As for the first impression. Diana thought he was just your typical annoying man, maybe sexy and in a cooler suit than the guys on the strip, but annoying nonetheless. And the King thought she was being rude and had a big mouth. But again, kind of in a sexy way.

Who felt romantic feelings first?

THE KING… pretty quickly actually. A few months after the argument they had at the old mormon fort. For Diana on the hand it took a little bit longer :/

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Hm not really, but like I said Diana didn’t really fall that fast for him. She met him shortly after she left the Gomorrah (she was a dancer, not a prostitute but that doesn’t mean she hasn’t seen and experienced some shit) so she’s not really thinking about men and pretty much ignores him flirting with her (also he stops once he finds out about her past lol). She figures she likes him because they do have the same principles and something about being good people in a shitty world and all that so there’s a lot of admiration there, also their shared love for music and stuff. Elvis things. But she’s trying to heal from the shit she witnessed at the strip so no thanks!! Until… until...

Who initiated the relationship?

Well… technically him, he was the first one to flirt with her probably but she never really paid any attention to it. The actual relationship though.. her.

Who said “I love you” first?

Diana but I think he would have said it too… she was just faster 😌

Who gets jealous easily?

Both do. She’s sexy so nasty old men will flirt with her while she’s doing her job but the King doesn’t have to know that because he would be MAD. Diana on the hand will act like she’s mad at him when random people are being a little too friendly with him -_-

Who is more protective?

HE IS… that one text post about saying “that’s my wife” and punching someone. Yeah.

Who remembers the little things?

He does :) Little things she likes, her favorite song or stupid little things she finds funny… sigh

Who uses the cheesier pickup lines?

THE KING but unironically. Some Elvis shit, telling her she got him “all shook up” or something and she’s into it!!!

What does a first date look like for them?

He wouldn’t say this counts (she would) but technically that one time she was doing some random music thing with her freeside kids for fun and he showed up to talk to her and Diana was like. Hey wait, why don’t you stay and sing something for these kids :-) it was stupid but fun I guess and they hung out after, her saying how impressed she was because her kids were having a good time and so was she :)

What do they like to do together?

Like on the (unofficial) first date, doing random performances together. I guess he can sing (I think?? all Elvis impersonators can sing in my mind) and she’s a dancer so.. fun!! Other than that, watching random Kings member #58 perform on their little stage, going to ugly Freeside Casinos and leaving immediately after they lose 3 caps, just fun things!! Also he likes to listen to her talking about random stuff she read in her magazines. 

Do they like PDA?

Fuck yeah… Diana constantly having her legs in his lap whenever possible, him having his arm around her shoulders or on her waist all the time. Physical contact but in a cool way. 

What are their big spoon / little spoon arrangements?

They wouldn’t spoon I think but she’d sleep on his arm :) wakes up and it’s numb but that’s okay

Does one like the cuddle more than the other?

Like I said. constant physical contact (but in a cool way) but actual cuddling WOULD be a thing in private.

Who hogs the blankets?

Diana -_-

Do either of them like to cook?

l can’t imagine him being able to cook but she can. Yes I do the cooking yes I do the cleaning. 

If they get married, who proposes first?

There’s no real proposal probably, It would just come up in a conversation and they’d decide to have one of these quick Las Vegas weddings.

What kind of wedding do they have?

Again. One of these quick Las Vegas weddings… people get married by the King but who marries HIM 😔 (probably one of the other kings). It’s not much but it fits them, I don’t think huge wasteland weddings are much of a thing anyway (or weddings in general) sooo...

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together? Does anyone object to their relationship? 

No one objected, except maybe annoying ass Pacer for literally no reason and some random followers :/ As for Pippa and Isabel (Diana’s besties), they didn’t meet before she started dating the king so they obviously weren’t rooting for them to get together but they wouldn’t object to it either, I think. Isabel certainly doesn’t, she likes the King and thinks they fit. Idk what Pippa thinks she’s not my oc, but I don’t think she’d object to it either.

Do they have any kids?

NO lmao. No biological ones at least, Diana has her Freeside orphans though that she takes care of (kinda), they’re basically her kids. She even refers to them as such :-)

Do they have any pets?

Heh… Rex :-)

GEORGIE/C*RVO

How did they first meet? What was their first impression of each other?

In the distillery district 😳 On the first mission, Georgie prob caught him sneaking around her clinic (by accident) and was like. WTF get out with your creepy mask… wait ACTUALLY since you’re good at sneaking can you get me [random thing for her medical research that she has tried to get her hands on for ages] and i can give you a discount on health potions and free leeches 😏 NPC behavior… 

Georgie thought the mask looked fucked up and he seemed mysterious but well. She meets strange people every day so 🤷‍♀️ Also she thinks it’s kind of sexy. He thought she was a bit strange, but ig he liked her. She’s funny. 

Who felt romantic feelings first?

GEORGIE. relatively quickly actually, she really likes him early on but she doesn’t really say anything with Jess’ death being so recent :/ He does… later on, about two or three years after dh1, probably when she’s on official business in dunwall tower (YES underqualified royal physician Georgie is a thing now 💕) and she remarks a random cut he has on his cheek & turns his face to get a closer look and he’s like 😳😳😳😳 why do I like that she just did that. Love Wins.

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Her kind of, again with the whole Jessamine thing because it was so recent and she’s like aaagh i'm not gonna hit on a guy in mourning so she tries to ignore it 😐 

Who initiated the relationship?

GOD technically Georgie, she didn’t say anything of course because she’s too weird but she does kiss him first... and makes him leave right after :/

Who said “I love you” first?

He does… Georgie would NEVER say it first and doesn’t say it right back immediately but. He knows she’s weird about things so it’s okay.

Who gets jealous easily?

Her. That is a thing. 

Who is more protective?

Both :-) 

Who remembers the little things?

Also both but mostly him. Remembering the weird little things she offhandedly mentioned she likes. Or her little plague research things. 

Who uses the cheesier pickup lines?

Both but they’d just whisper them to each other for funsies when they’re somewhere. In public.

What does a first date look like for them?

They wouldn’t have a proper official first date but it’d likely be some random event they’d both be at when she’s the royal physician (I don’t think she’d get invited to anything but well. Maybe the Boyles run out of crazy things to do at their parties and invite her) Or taking a walk at Dunwall’s somewhat nicer-looking docks. Something boring. 

What do they like to do together?

Also boring things. They’re old, nothing too crazy. Chatting about random stuff whenever she’s over at Dunwall tower, taking walks in the gardens together and watching ships or something, talking shit about aristocrats that they find annoying or just about weird hobbies, maybe she can bring him along to meet her friends (who he already knows) to look at rats in alleyways but he eats them idk. Summons a whole swarm of rats but they end up trying to kill them 

Do they like PDA?

NO. I don’t think she’d be too much into the whole ~aristocrat life~ after becoming the royal physician and just does business-related things but neither would want people talking about this. Semi-secret relationship for no reason and they’re both more private sooo

What are their big spoon / little spoon arrangements?

She’s the little spoon.. likes being held :)

Who hogs the blankets?

He does -_-

Do either of them like to cook?

No lol

Did any of their friends or family want them to get together? Does anyone object to their relationship? 

I think the only person really knowing of this is Marzanna (AGAIN. by dany… Georgie is also besties with Slackjaw… the Rat Smackers. but she wouldn’t tell him about this lol), who would probably not object to it?? but I don’t think anyone else would be rooting for them. I guess Emily likes her as her cool doctor but NO WAY that’s gonna be her stepmom :/

Do they have any kids?

No :/

Do they have any pets?

Georgie has a cat. Not together though, Pluto is hers.

#hee hee

[alexhandersenx]

There’s No One To Save Me.

Modern! Ivar x Reader. Chapter 2

Hi everyone! How are you? I hope you’re all doing amazing! Okay, sooo here it is. You know at first I wasn’t really sure about keep going with this, but some of you wanted to read a bit more (thank you so so much to everyone who just took some time to write a feedback, I really appreciate it!) so here it’s the second chapter. I’m not sure about it but I’m happy with the result. Anyway, I still think this is not much my thing, but I really enjoyed doing it, so I hope, at least you enjoy reading it as well.

I’m sorry as well for taking so long to write this second chapter, this month it's been a mess and I'm not very inspired, but from next month I hope to be able to do it more often and with better quality!

Any kind of feedback is welcomed, and I’ll be so thankful for it, and obviously it can help me to continue the story and improve my shitty writing!

In case you haven't read the first chapter and you feel like it here you can find it!

Chapter 1 

Last thing and I’ll shut my mouth, the beautiful moodboard down here that I’m using for all chapters was made by this lovely girl right here @flowers-in-your-hayr​ and thanks to her work I got inspired to write this so THANK YOU SO MUCH SWEETIE!💗

Words: 2,2k

WARNINGS: (I’m awful at warnings, so sorry if there’s some missing you can tell me if you want to!): This story is my first try writing (biggest warning), mention of death, cursing, drug dealing, a bit of angst, English is not my first language, some shit going on without consent, (probably more things)

Your body began to be aware of your surroundings again. You tried to open your eyes, but a twinge in your head caused you to close them involuntarily. Slowly you opened them again and realized that you were sitting on the floor. When you tried to move your hands to push a lock of hair away from your face, there was a sudden metallic sound, "Perfect, tied up with your own handcuffs," you thought. You felt the place you were chained to and realized that it was a pole.

How could this happen? You've been working on the case for so long.  Your sixth sense began to get that feeling of failure in the last few days. You knew for sure that something was going to happen, and it wouldn't be to your liking. Maybe it was all your fault, maybe your attitude had dragged you there, maybe you deserved it. Your mind brought back those reassuring words from Heahmund, where were they now? You needed them again, where was Heahmund, and your colleagues? You only hoped they weren't dead.

Someone delicately removing that lock of hair from your face, erased your thoughts. You looked up and found yourself with two light blue eyes that belonged to the eldest of the brothers. Short dark blond hair, with some platinum highlights, and all messy, giving him a seductive look... What the fuck (Y/N)? - you thought. Not long ago, he almost killed you by choking you.

He reminded you a lot of someone, at that moment you remembered the man in the painting, he looked like him. Could it be his father? You had no idea, but there had to be some kinship between them because the resemblance in their features could not be pure coincidence.

     -      “How are you feeling?” - asked the boy, in a firm voice, but unable to avoid some concern.

     -     “Come on, brother, let's stop with the formalities," said Ivar cynically, crawling up to his brother and positioning himself in front of you -  “Start spilling everything you know about these people out of your little mouth”

You were silent, not knowing what to say. Those people? What people? The police? They were all there, waiting for your answer. The four brothers looking at you from different angles. Also, with them was the man from the warehouse. He was very tall and thin, with a slightly unsettling look.

     -     “What the fuck is wrong with you, are you deaf? Or didn't your mother teach you that when someone asks you, you have to answer?”- he said in a mocking tone, raising his voice.

The moment you heard your mother mentioned, the rage took hold of you. You couldn't stop yourself, and you snapped:

    -      “My mother did teach me how to answer, but it seems yours couldn't teach you how to walk”

And then you witnessed the moment in slow motion, you saw how his face from being raised with pride was falling slowly, his eyes bluer than ever, were piercing you. One second later, he was on top of you with a blade at your neck, staring straight into yours, clenching his mouth and breathing heavily because of the fast and sharp movement he had made in order to reach you crawling.

     -     “Ivar! Easy, kid, she' s just doing it to deflect the conversation. Don't do something you might regret later," said the only man whose identity you didn't know.

You saw how little by little the anger grew; he pulled the blade away from your neck and held it in his fist. He raised the arm on which he was holding it above your head, and with a quick, powerful movement he pulled it down.

      -     “No, Ivar!” - said the man and Ubbe in unison, which was all that was heard in the room.

      -  “Floki, I should cut out his tongue, don't you think? So that she learns who she has to threaten," he said hatefully as he unlocked the knife from the post where he had sunk it, a few inches from your head.

With the other hand he grabbed your face, squeezing your cheeks tightly, causing your mouth to open involuntarily. His glance passed from your eyes to your mouth and looked at you again. This time he caressed your face with his knife, came to your ear and whispered:

       -   “I don't usually spare lives, even pretty faces like yours. I hope you're good for something, don't waste my time again”. - he said, pressing the blade gently, as several drops of blood began to trickle down your face.

He walked away from you, and reached the chair on which Hvitserk was leaning, and with surprising agility and strength he climbed up and sat down.  Both looked at each other and Hvitserk nodded, passing the crutch to him and he stood up with it

       -  “Get up!” - He ordered you

You did it, with a little difficulty because you were handcuffed but without hesitation, after the little scene you were no longer able to play with his patience.

       -  “Take off her blouse" he said to Ubbe, who looked at him with open eyes.

       -    “Ivar... I don't think”.

       -    “Do it! It's not like it's the first time you've done it, brother” - said Ivar holding back his smile

Ubbe approached slowly, you stare at the ground. When he came to stand in front of you, you looked at each other. He stood for a few seconds waiting for some kind of approval from you. You could only blink, closing your eyes for a moment, to tell him to go on, you had no choice. Although you covered it up quite well with your hard countenance, he noticed your shame, and to make it easier he simply held your gaze all the time. He finished unbuttoning it and turned to face his brother, covering you in front of all those eyes.

       -  “Now what, Ivar?” - He asked slightly irritated

       -  “Get out of the way" Ivar said.

       -     “No” - Ubbe said firmly

       -  “Brother, get out of the way – he said, pointing out every single word.

       -  “Ivar, I don't play by anyone's rules, least of all my little brother's. What you're doing is pathetic and childish... undressing her to shame her, for all the gods Ivar, not like you were in high school!” - Ubbe said as Ivar clenched his mouth and passed by his side, bumping his arm against his brother's and reaching out to you.

He stood in front of you, looked up and down, and nodded to Hvitserk to come closer. Ubbe frowned without understanding. When Hvitserk reached his side, he approached you and examined you as his younger brother had done before, but with a naughty face.

        -  “In the centre” - said Ivar and you understood what was happening

Hvitserk took the microphone you had hidden in your bra in the centre where the two cups were joined. He passed it to Ivar, and he showed it to Ubbe.

        -  “Pathetic and childish, Ubbe”. - he said tired of his brother's replies, while making Ubbe feel bad about the scene he had made him imagine.

He took the small device and threw it to the floor and stepped on it, then left the room. Gradually they all came out behind him, not before Hvitserk winked at you and you sneered in displeasure. Ubbe stood there looking at them until they all came out. He approached you again and buttoned up your shirt, but this time he could not help but notice the tattoo on your rib, the date of your father's death. He stared at it for a few seconds, but then understood how uncomfortable the moment was and ended up quickly buttoning your shirt. He looked at you slightly blushing and with apologetic eyes. Without saying anything, he turned and disappeared.

Ivar left the room, as fast as his agility allowed him, his look said it all, or he came out of it, or he threw a couple of knives, one at you and one at his brother. What was Ubbe playing? To be your protective man now? Y were a vital source of information to get what they had been planning for a long time.

But besides that, Ivar had something in his head, this clash with you had left him thinking about many things, which were impossible to understand an that annoyed him even more. Amongst all of them, in his mind he was hovering over that moment when he decided not to stab you. At first, he was going to do it, he had no doubt, but he saw how you didn't hesitate, you didn't take your eyes off his blue eyes full of rage and something inside him made him turn the knife away. You were different, you weren't afraid, you didn't care about dying, what kind of person isn't afraid to die... Someone like him... maybe, after all, you weren't so different.

He arrived at the great hall. It was a giant room where there was an oval table made of mahogany wood. Around it were black leather office chairs, all equidistant and one of them was occupied. Ivar entered and without looking up he said:

       -  “Harald” - Greeting the only person in the room

Ivar sat on one at the end, leading the table. He waited for his brothers to settle into their places, he put both forearms on the table, interlacing his fingers, he raised his head and looked at everyone one by one, the last one to look was his older brother:

       -  “Anything to say Ubbe?” - he said in a tense and somewhat ironic voice as he tilted his head slightly to the side and opened his eyes wider.

       - “What do you want me to say, Ivar?” Was it necessary to make a big deal out of it in front of everyone? Was it necessary to make her feel this uncomfortable to get some shit out of her?

       -  “SHUT UP brother!” - shouted Ivar interrupting – “May I remind you that she's handcuffed for something, or have you forgotten the purpose?”

At that moment, the door opened, and everyone was silent, Aslaug closed the door after entering and took one of the empty seats and looked at them with a naive face:

        -  “Go on” - she said, waving her hands.

        -  “Ivar, I will never forget to avenge our father, that's for sure, and don't even think about insinuating it again” - said Ubbe losing his patience.

        -   “I'm glad to hear that, brother, I hope it's true" said Ivar sharply.

        -    “Come on, little brother, don't take it out on Ubbe because the cop put you in your place," Sigurd said in a mocking way.

Floki who was right next to him gave him a slap on the back of the head and then said:

       -    “Next time you're going to talk to the cop and see what clever words come out of your mouth Snake in the eye," said Floki with a characteristic laugh.

       -  “Can you all stop being little kids and explain to me what's going on here?” - said Aslaug in confusion.

       -   “We managed to catch a cop in the last assault, with some information, we can avenge dad”. - Hvitserk said

       -    “You know that since your father died, all I tried to do was protect you, I don't share your decision, but I respect it. The only thing I asked you was not to lose your temper during this mission, not to lose the values that I found so hard to instill in you. - Aslaug said in a calm voice. - Floki, I left you in charge, and I hold you responsible for any consequences. Do not harm that girl. - Aslaug sentenced

Majestically she got up from her chair, went to a bottle rack and poured some wine into a glass.

       -   We didn't say it was a gir... oh, of course, you and your dreams, mother - said Sigurd turning his eyes.

       -   I think I'm done here, I should get back to my stuff - she said slightly nervous

Ivar looked at her and squinted, he knew there was something else behind it, but he let his mother go, he would have time for that later. Again, he focused on what was happening at the table.

       -   “Well Harald, what do you propose? You're an expert at this, you're good with cops, weren't you going to help us? Go ahead! Besides, don't forget my mother's original request” - he said with an ironic smile that lasted only a few seconds on his face.

      -    “Ivar… maybe I could”

      -   “No, forget it. You're not talking to her. We'll be the only ones to have contact with the cop, sorry. Next idea!” - he said effusively

      -    “Well, maybe you should start from the beginning and ask her in a humane way and not by insulting her and pressing her with a knife at her neck” – said Ubbe and everyone looked at him

Ivar clenched his fists and his teeth, marking his jaw, bent his head down and lifted it with impetus and with a fake smile he said:

     -     Good! We'll try it nice and easy.

Tags: @maggiescarborough​ @youbloodymadgenius​ @a-mess-of-fandoms​ 

#vikings fic #ivar the boneless #ivar x reader #ivar the boneless x reader #ivar fic #ivar the boneless fic #modern ivar fic #modern ivar #ivar lothbrok #ivar lothbrok x reader

[lyrazehedgieboiii]

Sonic catches Amy reading / writing sonadow fan fiction?

LMAO YES, THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING THIS ONE, I WANTED TO DO THIS SOOOOO BAD. ALSO SORRY THIS WAS LATE.

Sonic was over at Amy’s house, enjoying some cookies and tea, because goddamnit, her double chocolate-chip cookies were to die for.

  “Thanks for inviting me over, Ames. These cookies are sooo good!” Sonic moaned in delight. Amy giggled.

   “You’re welcome, Sonic. I made some for Tails, but the poor little guy was up all night working on an invention, so I put some cookies on the counter for him, and wrote a note, so he knows I made them.” Amy said, as she put the tray down on the coffee table. “Anyways, I’m going to change, you can turn on the T.V. Okay?” Sonic nodded. She went to her room, and Sonic watched as her sway her hips. He got a little excited, but controlled it. He turned his head back and turned on the T.V. Please be Comedy Chimp, please be Comedy Chimp-

And it’s a drama. Wait no. It’s a play. It’s Hamilton. Wait, wasn’t it supposed to be on Disney Plus on July 3rd? Oh welp, might as well watch this. Sonic remembered the time he and the gang found Amy’s script, and they acted to it. He looked in the drawer that it was originally in, only to find a book labeled ‘Sonadow.’ Curious to what it was, he opened it, and skimmed to a random chapter. It said ‘Pregnancy Test.’ He started reading until he realized that Shadow and himself were the protagonists of the story. Shadow was the pregnant one. This book was in Amy’s house. In. Her. Drawer.

   “Okay I’m back-” Amy stopped in her tracks when she saw Sonic holding the book. She immediately thought of excuses and stories to why she had that book. She wrote it, but was glad that she hadn’t written her name down in the book, otherwise it would get very weird between them. “That’s n-not mine...” Sonic appeared quite flustered.

    “Then who does it belong to?” Sonic asked, his eyes twitching in what seemed to be anger.

    “...Would you believe me if I said it belonged to Lyra?” Amy replied, hoping Sonic would actually fall for that.

   “Makes sense, I guess. I mean, I thought she shipped...well...us?” Sonic blushed deeper while saying.

   “S-she has many ships, so don’t expect her to have just one...” She knew that Lyra had OCD’s when even thinking about Sonadow, but it was the only reasonable excuse she had, she didn’t want it to become awkward between them.

  “O-Oh...y-you haven’t read this, have you?” He asked her.

  “I saw the title and understood immediately...” She said cautiously. She knew Sonic very well, but at a time like this, she was very confused as to what his reaction would be.

  “That girl is going to publicly humiliate me one day.” Sonic nervously chuckled. Amy repeated his actions, not sure of what to do now.

  “I-I’ll give it back to her later, why don’t you just eat the cookies and pretend you never saw that?” Amy said in a rushed expression. Sonic noticed and decided not to think too much of it.

  “...Okay...” He hesitated before saying.

- TIME SKIP!!!! -

Amy was sitting in her room, doing something on her laptop that had her complete focus, Sonic observed. He made some sounds on purpose to see how Amy would react, but she didn’t even seem to notice.

   “What is she doing? She’s never this distracted.” Sonic thought out loud, only to hear Amy giggle while typing something in. She looked like she was about to swoon. She started cracking up, and put the laptop on the edge of the bed, which was on the other side, and she got on her back and tried to take deep breaths. Sonic snuck in through her windows, which have no glass and are covered by tapestries. He started reading whatever she was typing and saw Shadow’s name.

  “Ah~ I just love Sonadow~ It has a better chance of being canon than SonAmy will ever have.” She said, completely unaware of the second person in her room. Sonic got up and cleared his throat. Amy’s eyes immediately widened, her eyesight never leaving the ceiling. “IS SOMETHING LYRA WOULD SAY HEHEHEHEH...” Amy nervously continued saying, before taking the computer.

   “Then how come you were writing it?” Sonic asked in a disapproving tone.

    “Uh...Lyra was asking me to edit it, so I was helping?” Sonic still looked unconvinced. he yanked the laptop out of her hands.

   “Why the fuck do you think that SonAmy has a less chance of being canon compared to Sonadow?” He questioned, waving the laptop in the air.

   “Well, you would never like me, and you’re always arguing with Shadow and you just seem like you enjoy his company more than when you’re with me.” Amy replied sadly, her ears drooping.

  “Ames, I enjoy your company! I just tease him that he’s slow, that’s all. No romantic feelings for him. Just rivalry and friendship!” Sonic exclaimed. Amy giggled.

 “But wouldn’t you like to be more with him?” Amy asked, scooting closer.

  “Eww, no. He’s too emo. I prefer girls.” Sonic said, dropping the laptop on the bed, and putting his hands behind his head.

   “Yeah, I know. I see how you always flirt with them...” Amy responded with a melancholy tone. Sonic noticed this and got an idea.

   “Welp, I gotta go...run, and stuff like that.” And with that, Sonic zips off to who-knows-where. Amy quickly grabs her laptop and clicks the publish button.

- MEANWHILE WITH SONIKKU -

Sonic went to Lyra’s house to get something, and he went back to his hut in less than two seconds.

  “Okay, Sonamy. What are lemons...” Sonic zoned out, wondering what on Mobius citrus had to do with Sonic and Amy. Sonic wasn’t a huge fan of having anything with lemons in it, and he knew that Amy doesn’t really make sour or bitter foods. He clicked on what said Sonamy boom lemons, and saw that there were a lot of chapters. He went to the first one, and started reading. “Oh. OH. OHHHHH MY CHAOS, HOLY SHIT! THAT’S A LEMON?! AND WHY THE FUCK IS MY DICK ONLY FOUR INCHES IN THIS STORY?! IT’S MORE THAN THAT-” Sonic stopped himself when he realized that he was upset over his member size and not the fact that Amy was taking control of him in this story.

   “I need something...AH! Here! This is perfect.” Sonic smirked at his idea, and then ran to Amy’s house to bring his idea to action.

  “Sonic?” Amy answered the door, and her face was showing shock. Sonic walked towards her, until she was leaning against the back of her couch.

  “My beautiful Ames, my gorgeous Rose, how would you like to go on a date with me?

   “I-I-I-I...what?” Amy asked flustered at the sudden and definitely unexpected question.

   “Did I stutter? If anything, you were the one stuttering. I know, I’d be stuttering too, if I were to ask me out on a date~” Sonic repeated himself, adding a witty comment in that.

  “Are you Sonic?” Amy cautiously questioned, hoping this wasn’t another prank by Morpho.

  “I am, Amy. Sonic the Hedgehog, Fastest Thing Alive.” Sonic proudly stated. Amy giggled.

  “So you are. Why are you asking me out on a date? Is this to prove that you’re not into Shadow?”

  “No. I’m asking you out because I want to, and you better say ‘yes’ or I’m just going to nag you until you do.”

  “Okay, okay. Yes. I’ll go on a date with you, but what’s up with your sudden flirtiness? You never act like this, let alone with me.” Amy inquired. That made Sonic smirk.

   “Why not? I have to be your dream hedgehog, otherwise you’d ship Silver with Shadow.” Sonic responded. Amy shook. Sonic got worried by her weird uncharacteristic actions. “Amy! Why are you shaking? Are you okay?” He saw that her eyes were glossed with tears. “Amy! Are you crying?” He honestly didn’t know what to do, hug her? That’s what Amy does whenever someone’s crying. He wrapped his arms around her, genuine worry crawling over his features. Amy flinched as soon as his hands touched her, and she backed away after taking in everything.

-----------STOP HERE------------------- There are two endings for this story. Right under this is the humorous one, and below that is the one for hopeless romantics.

      “Okay Sonic, game’s over. What do you want?” Amy asked after attempting to ignore the weird twitch and tingles in her body.

     “Whatever do you mean, Amelia?” Sonic responded in a dreamy tone. Amy rolled her eyes and put her hands on her hips.

    “Do you even like me? You only flirt with every other girl, apparently not me...unless you’re trying to get or prove something...” Amy hesitatingly tells him, puzzled as to why he was acting charming to her. Sonic’s cheeks and ears turned a deep shade of red.

   “...Maybe, but I only flirt for a reason-”

   “Don’t give me that shitty excuse, Sonic the Hedgehog. You’re a terrible liar, and I don’t want to hear it.” Amy sassed out, which wasn’t surprising to Sonic, because ever since they all moved to Hedgehog Village, her attitude changed, as so her habits.

   “But it’s not...I actually like you! And if I have to chase you for the rest of my life to prove it, so be it! I’ll run everywhere just to look for you! I want you~!” Sonic whispered in her ear, after giving it a nip and kiss.

   “Please don’t. I don’t want our reputations tarnished because you decide to run after me like some kind of weirdo. Honestly, I should’ve written that you were the pregnant one,” (anyone noticed the fanfiction reference? :D) Amy stated bluntly. Sonic took two steps towards her. He leaned his face in her’s.

  “Say that again, Pinky.” Sonic warned as her arms went around his neck. He heard a ‘POOF,’ and sweatdropped.

   “What did you call me, Blue Boy?” She queried. Sonic started to sweat and blushed once again at the sudden closeness. His confidence then returned out of nowhere.

   “I called you, Pinky. What’s the matter? Don’t like it?”  Sonic smugly replied. Amy glared at him.

   “It’s not that, it’s just that I’m getting turned on by the second~.” Amy lustfully said, biting her bottom lip. Sonic widened her eyes.

  “W-WHAT?!” Sonic shrieked out, not knowing whether to pounce or to run away.

   “Why are you acting all jumpy? You literally just bit my ear in a seducing tone!” Amy yelled out at him, her sexy act forgotten. Sonic looked heavily disturbed at Amy’s choice of words.

   “Seducing?!” Sonic squeaked. Amy was trying her best not to swoon at how adorable she found that squeak to be.

    “Yes! Don’t you want me?!” Amy hollered, her own cheeks burning up.

    “Okay, fine! Yes! Now can we get to the part where we say how we feel and kiss?” Sonic uttered out.

     “I love you!” Amy exclaimed. You shouldn’t be shocked by her boldness, as she’s been like that all her life.

    “I-I l-lo-love you too!” He responded. There was practically steam coming out of their ears by the amount of blushing that was happening.

    “Let’s kiss!” Before Sonic could respond, Amy pounced on him and tackled his lips. They both felt fireworks soar through their body, shivering at the new sensation that they gave each other.

   “Give me a strip show, baby~” Sonic inaudibly murmured in her ear.

   “Only if you use protection.”

   “What’s the fun in that?!”

HOPELESS ROMANTIC ending----------

   “I-I’m sorry.” She breathed out in a troubled voice. She slammed the door shut, and ran to her room sobbing. Sonic was confused. What did he do wrong? He knocked on the door, before remembering that this was Amy Rose. She never opened the door when she was upset, she just wants to be alone.

  ‘Well, not today!’ Sonic thought, as he broke down Amy’s door. He was going to have hell to pay, but it would be worth it. He went to her bedroom door and heard her crying. He did the same thing that he had did with Amy’s front door, and saw her face-first on the bed. He tip-toed towards her, and crawled on top of her. She looked so fragile in this state, that he just wanted to hug her sadness away.

  “Ames, if you’re ready to talk, why are you crying?” Sonic gently raised her chin up and asked.

  “Haven’t you wondered why I even like Sonadow fanfiction?” Amy asked her love interest. Sonic thought for a moment, and realized that not even he knew why she liked it. It was probably the most random thing she’d be into, and the ship itself was very random.

  “Never really thought about it during the thirty minutes in which everything happened. It actually makes me think about it now.” Sonic told her. She wrapped her arms around his torso, which caused Sonic to stiffen. After a few moments, he began to rock her side-to-side to calm her down.

  “I thought you’d never love me, so I tried to keep my mind out of reality...” She said, sniffling in between. “At first, I started reading fanfiction. I saw SonAmy fanfiction, and it broke my heart seeing it. I read Sonadow, and it still hurt, but I just couldn’t get enough of it, next thing I know, I’m writing a popular story on Fanfiction platforms and the compliments and comments I get makes me feel happy. Even though it injures my heart too much...” Amy sobbed. Sonic lowered his eyelids.

  “Amy, if it’s giving you a heart-ache, then why do you still do any of that?” Sonic queried. Amy gave an emotionless chuckle.

  “People say that I make them happy writing the fanfiction. They smile, and I’m happy that I make them happy. Even if it pains me to do it.” Amy smiled. (Lmao don’t worry, it doesn’t happen to me) Sonic couldn’t tell whether it was because she was happy genuinely, or her clouded, closed mind was telling her that she was happy. She clearly wouldn’t be happy if it gives her pain.

  “Then stop it. It hurts you, so you should stop. You’re basically telling yourself to feel the pain.” Sonic told her while stroking her quills gently. He kissed her forehead and continued. “Start connecting with your friends and soon-to-be-boyfriend, please.” Sonic said, trying to keep a straight face as he felt her jolt up.

  “When you say soon-to-be-boyfriend, do you mean, you?” Amy asked, trying her hardest not to wag her tail in excitement.

   “Who else? Plus, don’t hide your tail, I wanna see it~.” Sonic lustfully whispers in her ear. She took her hands off her of her tail, letting it sway in happiness. Sonic, being a perverted, hormonal 19 year old, got an idea.

...

...

...

  “SONIC! WHAT THE FUCK-” Amy squealed as Sonic actually had the nerve to pull her tail.

   “I wanna see more~”

   “You wanna see more?” She mused. She raised up her dress a little more...

    “YOU’RE GONNA HAVE TO MARRY ME IF YOU WANT TO TOUCH ME!” Amy exclaimed, taking Sonic off guard.

   “I JUST BECAME YOUR BOYFRIEND! ONE STEP AT A TIME, AMES!” Sonic yelled back.

   “SO?! IF YOU WANT THIS BODY, THEN YOU’LL HAVE TO VOW TO IT!” Amy continued. Sonic made a face.

   “WELL I LOVE YOU, MY BEAUTIFUL ROSE!” Sonic unexpected shouted.

   “ISN’T SCREAM THERAPY WONDERFUL?! IT MAKES YOU REVEAL YOUR THOUGHTS MUCH EASIER THAN JUST SAYING THEM! ALSO, I LOVE YOU TOO, YOU LITTLE SHIT!” Amy screamed.

   “WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?!”

   “ONLY IF YOU BE MY BOYFRIEND!”

    “GOOD!”

    “FANTASTIC!”

And they all lived happily ever after, (Eggman is in his lair fangirling with me) THE END.

#sonamy #sonamy boom #sonamy fanfics #sonamy fanfiction #sonamy stuff #fanfiction #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #lyra ze hedgie boiii #amy #amy rose #my god yes #amy is caught reading sonadow fanfiction #yes #YAS HONEY #for loafuwua #sonamy spicy~ #sonamy spicy #spicy sonamy

[phcking-detective]

🖤

“Reckless. Idiotic. Insubordinate.” RK900′s LED flickers red until he finally spits out, “Stupid!”

Gavin has other shit to deal with. Like staying conscious and also ignoring how, up to thirty seconds ago, he thought he was going to bleed to death alone in this shitty alley--without even catching the fucking perp who fucking shot him.

Fuck.

“If you had waited for me to arrive as your backup, I would have--” 

Blah blah blah. Of course his partner would have caught the perp, because he’s sooo much better than him.

And he is. Nines really is better than him in every way: as a detective, as a partner, hell even as a person, and he’s still just a machine! God. At least a minute ago he could have just had his existential crisis and died about it, but now he has to live with the knowledge all he wanted in his presumably-dying moments was--

Wait.

“Ss’this real?” Gavin slurs, weakly slapping at Nines.

Or, trying to. His depth perception isn’t so good right now. Probably because he’s been shot. Like, a lot. Good luck with that tourniquet, buddy, for the shit all that will do.

“Yes, detective,” RK900 snaps back, actually sounding annoyed enough to be real. “You really did chase after an armed suspect without backup and get shot multiple times in an alleyway.”

If this was just a dying fantasy, wouldn’t he imagine Nines being all sappy and nice to him? Gavin tries to picture that.

Nahhhh. He’d go out fantasizing about his mean ass bitch of a partner verbally stepping on him like always.

“Not real,” he insists.

“Yes, real.”

“Nuh uh.”

“I am only entertaining this asinine argument so that you will stay conscious.”

“You--your ass,” Gavin retorts.

RK900 displays the one single facial expression he’s managed to master without a social module and rolls his eyes. Too bad he isn’t real. The real Nines wouldn’t have let the perp get away.

“Nuhh. Not ... real.”

“Are you dissociating?” Nines asks. “Are you traumatized? Detective? Detective, ARE YOU TRAUMATIZED?”

This is like a super shitty sitcom. One of those buddy cop shows, where everyone laughs at the android without a social module who doesn’t realize that yelling directly in Gavin’s face is pretty fucking traumatizing all by itself you big blue-eyed bitch.

“Real-Nines, woulda--” Gavin stops to cough. “Wuhh. Woulda. Caught him.”

“Stop speaking, detective. You are aggravating your--”

“Not real!”

“So I should have let you die?!” Nines shouts with the most emotion Gavin’s ever heard from him. “Fuck that. Fuck you. You are my partner, and I would not let some irrelevant red wall prevent me from saving your--saving--your st-stupid fucking life!”

Oh. His LED is still red. Has been? The whole time, red. Machine-RK900 would’ve given like, one red swirl, maybe two. Assessing the situation. He wouldn’t be stuck on it. He wouldn’t stay in this shitty gross alleyway keeping pressure on gunshot wound to his stomach while the perp got away.

He wouldn’t cry.

Gavin kisses him. Sort of. He can’t really sit up much on his own, and Nines is so much fucking taller than him, that it’s more like he just slobbers on the android’s chin, except then Nines actually kisses him back holy fuck but he is so, so bad at it. It feels like the dipshit is just headbutting his lips against Gavin’s lips and that’s what he thinks kissing is, so he’s definitely got to stay alive to show this genius moron how to actually get some.

“My very first emotion,” Nines says when he pulls back. “Is how goddamn furious I am with you. So shut up and stay still until the ambulance arrives.”

“Yessssir,” Gavin mumbles. “Kiss more?”

Nines blushes, a feature Gavin didn’t even know he had. “Only if you survive. Detective.”

He says the title in that special way only he can, which sounds exactly like “you fucking moron.”

Gavin lays in his arms, waiting for the ambulance, and wonders if he’ll say “boyfriend” the same way.

#reed900 #gavin reed #dbh #pxrfected #thank you!!

[monst]

T’is the season (Day 1)

Day 1! “It’s the most wonderful time of the year”

Starting off December with an exciting character! I’m not sure why he’s not more popular :( He’s so extra I love it! ^.^

Inasa Yoarashi!

You were going to kill him if he didn’t shut up. You didn’t care if all his fans came at you with pitchforks and torches but if Isana ‘sung’ that phrase one more time-

“IT’S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!” He yelled…..

If you looked close enough you were sure people could see your skin bubbling from how your blood seethed. If looks could kill the pro-hero would have dropped dead right where he stood. 

“(Name)! It’s wonderful isn’t it?!” He suddenly stopped walking to look at you with a broad smile.

“Oh, yeah great.” You grumbled with a roll of your eyes. 

Your eyes widened as you tried to maintain your balance when his heavy hand came crashing onto your back in a dangerously friendly manner. You grit your teeth in anger as you managed to catch yourself before you fell. That would have been embarrassing… 

“No need to be so down (HeroName)! It’s a time for cheer! Bonding! And, Santa!!” You once again shot the hero a nasty look opting to not say anything since a couple had just past you both. “The holiday’s are just so amazing! So full of color and passion!”

“Oh totally.” You sassed. “The fights for on sale presents are full of sooo much passion.”

“Are you feeling okay?” He asked his voice at a surprisingly lower tone. 

“Dandy! Full of holiday cheer!” You cheered sarcastically brushing past the man in favor of continuing patrol in order to quickly finish so you could just go home. 

Inasa frowned as you grew further away from him. Why were you so bitter about the holidays? 

“Hey! Wait up!” He quickly caught up with you slinging an arm around your shoulder. “What’s got ya’ down in the dumps?!”

“Isn’t it obvious.” You sulked. 

“Err you hate Christmas?!” He guessed

“No you dolt.” You grumbled shoving him off. 

“Then why won’t you cheer with me IT’S THE-

“Shut the fuck up!” You yelled hotly stopping the man from repeating the phrase. “It’s not the most wonderfull fucking time of the damn year! So just shut up about it.”

Inasa’s dark eyes widened at your harsh words. You had wiped at your own eyes to stop the onslaught of tears threatening to fall. Your shouting had garnered an audience and, you could see people pulling out their phones. Without waiting for your consent Inasa’s arms came up, one under your knees and the other supporting your back as he took to the sky. The screech that left your lips was almost comical had it not been for the death grip you had on Inasa’s neck. 

“Put me down!!!!” You yelled at him your pupils contracted in fear. 

“I can’t exactly do that (Name) you’d fall and die.” He shouted over the wind. 

The wind pro hero had literally shot straight up like a carnival ride. You both were going up so fast that you felt your heart drop when gravity started to pull you down. Luckily Inasa was more than proficient with his quirk and landed atop of one of the many buildings. He gave you a million watt smile while you scowled and jumped to your shaky legs. 

“So, away from all the camera’s and people why are you upset.” He asked. “You know you can tell me anything right?”

You tried to hold onto your anger you really did but, Inasa didn’t deserve the burnt of your cigar. And, as you looked at his kind eyes and recalled how he had saved you face you broke down. Ugly sobs raking your body as your hands tried in vain to clear the onslaught of tears. As one of your closest friends and someone past formalities Inasa wasted no time in wrapping his large arms around your frame allowing you to cry as long as you needed.

“I-I’m so-sorry Yaorashi!” You bawled fingers digging into his coat. “I’m sorry f-for taking th-things out on you. I-it’s not your fault.”

“Shh.” He soothed in his rare quiet tone. “It’s okay-”

“It’s not okay Rashi!! I’m a shit hero! Who makes a crappy amount of cash! A-and because of that I’m g-gonna miss seeing my family o-on Christmas!.” You vented. 

“O-oh.” The gears finally shifted in his head and he honestly felt bad. It’s true that you weren’t a very popular hero and your income as a hero was directly proportional to your popularity. So all this time.. All this time you’ve been struggling to make ends meet so much so that you couldn’t even afford to travel to visit your family. No wonder you didn’t think of it as a wonderful time. He began to wonder. Were you shrouded in debt? Were you even eating well? Was he a bad friend for not noticing it sooner?

“S-sorry Yaorashi….I.. I didn’t mean to drop this all on you.” You sighed your sniffling subsiding. “I’m an adult and I need to take responsibility I-I can’t just take out my frustrations on you.”

“I-It’s fine.” He mumbled. 

“No it’s not, You don’t have to take my shit!” You smiled punching his arm lightly “But, I’m really glad you do. If there is something wonderful about all this it’s you Rashi.”

Inasa felt his face heat up at the sudden compliment a bashful smile taking shelter on his lips. He gave you a grin and ruffled your hair a bit. “You know (Name). Who needs money when you’ve got passion and wind!” He cheered brightly. 

“W-what?” You blanked looking up at him.

“What do you mean what? What kind of hero no! What kind of friend am I if I can’t give you a lift to your folks for the holidays?!” He beamed his hands on his hips.

“Y-Yaorashi.” You said breathlessly. “Y-you don’t have- ah! Wait no don’t do that! Jeez I thought you were done with this!!”

Your own face heated up as the pro-hero bowed before you his head having slammed into the ground. “I insist (Name)! If you can be happy for this Christmas than that means santa has granted me my present early!”

“You can be serious?!” You gawked. 

“More than ever! Allow me to be your reindeer (Name) I promise we will get to your home safely! I also want to know where you grew up and who your parents are so forgive my selfishness!”

“Y-your insane Inasa!” You laughed tears streaming down your face.

“So do you accept!” he yelled excitedly. 

“Y-yes.” You nodded. 

“No those aren’t the words! The words are WE’RE GOING TO MAKE THIS THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR (NAME) SAY IT WITH ME!!!!” He shouted.

And together you yelled at the top of your lungs:

“It’s the most wonderful time of the year.”

You both were truly going to make people hate that phrase.

🔥 👶 🎶 🌟 ❄️ 🔔 ⛄️ 👼 🦌 🍪 🥛 🎅 🤶 🧝‍ 🎁 ⛪ 🕯 👪 ✝️ 🎄 🍷 🍴

This was my first time writing for Inasa ^.^ it was really weird.... Anywho thank you for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day!! Come back tomorrow for day two? Todoroki Shoto (Reading Christmas books to kids at the library) Pls ignore my shitty banner......

#bnha #bnha christmas #bnha ficmas #bnha fluff #yoarashi inasa #inasa x reader #inasa yoarashi x reader #mha imagines #mha x reader #bnha x reader #Amari's TDS

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How ShinKami became canon

“You like Kaminari?” Izuku said looking at his friend. “Yeah it sounds weird but ever since we started to hang out, I kinda maybe sort of caught feelings?” Shinsou sounded so unsure of himself. Izuku smiled brightly. “We have to get you guys together!” Izuku was practically bouncing where he sat. “NO!” Izuku frowned. “Why not?” He asked. “He doesn’t feel the same way. I would rather avoid the heartbreak thank you very much.” Shinsou folded his arms. “Sooo if I were to find out if he liked you back...?” Shinsou was quiet for a few minutes. “...Fine.” He winced at the loud cheer. “BUT, you have to have it 100% confirmed.” “Deal! If it’s true then you have to let me help you get with Kaminari!” Shinsou nodded. “Deal.” The two shook hands. This would be interesting.

 “EH YOU LIKE THAT INSOMANIC!?” Katsuki wasn’t sure what he was expecting to hear, when the Pikachu had asked to talk to him privately. He saw how nervous he was, and Katsuki regretted his outburst seeing the light in the Pikachu’s eyes fade. “S-sorry! I shouldn’t have said anything...I’ll just go.” Kaminari was hurt by the outburst he thought it meant Katsuki didn’t agree with him liking another guy.

“Wait fuck! I’m sorry. I just wasn’t expecting that. I think it’s cool or whatever that you felt comfortable coming to me.” Katsuki knew how it felt coming out. Even if he hadn’t outwardly said he was gay. “Oh...” “Ill fucking help you or whatever.  Just don’t fucking call me in the middle of the night with your gay panic shit. I like my sleep. Do it in a closet alone like the rest of us.” A bad attempt at humour. “HOLY SHIT I KNEW IT! YOU’RE GAY! OMG KIRISHIMA OWES ME SOME MONEYYYYY!!!!” “DONT YOU FUCKING DARE TELL SHITTY HAIR PIKACHU, OR ELSE YOU WONT LIVE TO HAVE YOUR FIRST DATE!!!” Kaminari nodded. “Noted. So who do you gay panic for?” Kaminari was going to find out. “Piss off. Not happening.” He smirked as Kaminari pouted. “So what’s the game plan?” Kaminari had to admit he was shocked that the angry blonde was willing to be his wingman.

“Homework.” The small objection from the Pikachu made Katsuki glare, but it was also hilarious. “Then I’ll be nice to that shitty Deku and see if I can find out anything. We go from there alright?” Kaminari nodded. “Alright thank you Bakubro!” “Don’t fucking call me that Pikachu.” He glared at the boy. “Pika pika bitch.” Katsuki had to snort at that. “Is that your new slogan? If so it’s fucking genius! Guess you do have a brain after all!” “Thank you!” Kaminari knew Bakugo was being cruel with that comment. Well he hoped he wasn’t.

“Homework.” “Ugggggggghhhhhh.”

~Few hours later~

 “I have some intel!” Izuku said practically jumping his boyfriend. “What the fuck? Izuku calm down!” “But its importantttttttttt.” The boy pouted. “Yeah so are my bones! I’m not like you. I prefer to not have broken bones.” “Rude!” Katsuki raised an eyebrow.

“Right. What’s the intel?” “Shinsou likes Kaminari!” Katsuki looked at his boyfriend. “Huh, that was easier than I thought. Well then that’s good.” Izuku looked at him confused. “Pikachu likes him back.” “I KNEW IT! HAH NOW SHINSOU HAS TO LET ME HELP HIM SET HIM AND KAMINARI UP!!!” Katsuki just sighed. This was going to take some effort. “Well first off stop fucking screaming. We don’t know if the two want this out yet. Second off guess we’re fucking wingmen. So we have to work together in public.” He watched his boyfriends smile get wide. “That doesn’t mean we can make out everywhere. Are you fucking forgetting the whole Mic-sensei situation?” “Pfft it was fine.” Katsuki face palmed. “He can’t look either of us in the eye, and everytime Aizawa sees us he has to refrain from bursting into laughter! He congratulated us on managing to traumatize his husband!” “You have to admit it’s kinda funny. I mean we managed to traumatize a pro hero cause we made out.” Katsuki just groaned. He loved his boyfriend but sometimes he was an idiot.

“I am trying so hard to not smack you across the head right now. I love you but baby you are a fucking idiot.” “Awe Kaachan I love you to.” Was Izuku doing this to get a rile out of his boyfriend? Yes, yes he was. The screech from Katsuki was so worth it. “I’m killing you. That it.” Izuku screamed before running off.

 ~A day later~

 “I’m surprised you didn’t die.” Shinsou said looking at his friend. “I may or may not have bargained with him.” Izuku smiled innocently. The two had house arrest. Dadzawa just about murdered the two. “You also got house arrest. Aizawa was scary.” “Oh yeah its cause he went all Dadzawa on us.” Izuku shrugged. “Dadzawa?” “Yeah he’s the class dad. Also don’t act like you don’t call him that. I see how close you guys are!” Izuku smirked.

“Shut up...” Shinsou grumbled. Izuku just laughed. “In other news Kaachan is gonna be a wingman with me!” “Wait so that means...?” Izuku nodded excitedly. “Fine I guess you can go all wingman...Hold on you and blasty are going to work together?” Shinsou looked at his friend like he was crazy.

“Yup! Kaachan even suggested it.” “I get that you like him but are you sure this is a good idea? I mean you two don’t have the best relationship.” Izuku frowned. “I know...But this might help!” Izuku hated lying to his friend, especially since he knew he was the only other friend he had that supported him. “What’s the plan?” “Plan for what?” The two jumped seeing Aizawa standing behind them. “Aizawa-sensei! What are you doing here?” Izuku asked nervously. “WE have that meeting. Let’s go Midoriya. You can tell me your little plan on the way.” Izuku nodded. “I'll see you later Shinsou!” He left with Aizawa.

“Kaachan and I are gonna set up Kaminari and Shinsou!” “Another loud blonde? Really? What did I say about loud blondes?” Aizawa looked at his student. “Don’t fall for loud blondes.” Izuku grumbled. “And what did you two do?” “We fell for a loud blonde.” Izuku folded his arms pouting. “So what is your plan?” Aizawa said once the two got to his office. “Kaachan thinks we should lock them in a room together and make them confess.” “Of course he did, and what do you think?” Aizawa asked. “Training?” Aizawa just face palmed. “How did you and Bakugo get together?” “Kaachan randomly kissed me one day and we’ve been together ever since!” Aizawa was pretty sure that was a lie.

“Are you lying?” “Yeah...I don’t want to talk about it just yet. It’s not the greatest story ever.” Aizawa frowned but made a mental note about it. “How did you and Mic-sensei get together?” “I actually confessed to him our last year at UA. Told him I liked him, he felt the same way and now we are married about apparently have two more kids. Well if you exclude the rest of the class.” Izuku looked confused. “Mic thinks that I am dadzawa, and that I’ve practically adopted you and Shinsou. Since we have already managed to adopt Eri.” “I have a dad!? Omg Shinsou and I are brothers!” Izuku looked so excited and happy; Aizawa didn’t have the heart to tell him off. Plus he had to admit he was kinda glad to hear that. ‘Hah take that All Might. Izuku thinks I’m his dad!’ Aizawa felt smug right now and he was going to rub it into the retired heroes face later on.

 ~A couple weeks later~

“This isn’t fucking working. Every time we try something, one of the fucking extras manages to screw it up!” Katsuki was done with this shit. Being a wingman was hard work. Plus it didn’t help that his boyfriend was acting weird. Izuku just kissed his boyfriends head. “I think this plan will work for sure!” Izuku smiled happily. He had a plan.

Honestly he had to thank Aizawa for the help.  ‘Tell Shinsou to confess one day while they train or study together. Stop over thinking it.’ He had told Izuku. So he did.

Shinsou was nervous. What if Kaminari decided he didn’t feel the same anymore? Or what he just generally didn’t like him? And was only saying that he felt the same way? “Shinsou? Are you okay?” Kaminari looked at the boy concerned. Shinsou was pulled out of his thoughts.

“Huh? Oh yeah, I’m sorry Kaminari.” Shinsou smiled a little. “It’s fine! You just looked distracted. Can I help with anything?” It was now or never. “I need to tell you something.” Shinsou looked at him. Kaminari was now feeling nervous. “What is it?” “I like you. Like really like you.” Shinsou said.

It was silent for a few minutes. It felt like eternity for Shinsou. This was the part he gets rejected. “Oh thank fuck! I was worried you didn’t. Bakubro can only be so helpful.” Kaminari said smiling. “Wait what?” Now Shinsou was confused. Did this mean Izuku was right? “I like you as well!” “I owe Midoriya money. Fuck!” Was all Shinsou said.

The doubt had crept in fairly quickly when the plans hadn’t been working. So he and Midoriya made a bet. If Kaminari felt the same way he would owe Midoriya $20. If Midoriya was wrong, well Shinsou got $20. “What?” Now it was Kaminaris turn to be confused. “We made a bet, that you felt the same way. I owe him $20.” Shinsou grumbled. Kaminari laughed.

“That’s so adorable. A little weird. Hey can I kiss you?” Kaminari said. “I thought you would never ask.” The two leaned in before their lips met, in a sweet kiss, which quickly turned into a make out session before the boys broke away. “Whoa...” Shinsou said breathless. Kaminari was silent. Shinsou looked at his now boyfriend? “Kaminari?” He asked concerned now.

Kaminari looked at him. Shinsou had to laugh. “I guess you enjoyed it to?” He said realizing he must have short circuited without him realizing.

Shinsou decided now would be the perfect time to take his idiot boyfriend to go pay Midoriya. Plus he wanted to see his reaction to how he managed to make his boyfriend go stupid.

He knocked on Midoriyas door. “I’m coming In Midoriya!” he called out before entering the room. “HOLY FUCK!” Shinsou said his eyes wide. Izuku and Katsuki quickly broke away.

“Heeeey Shinsou.” Izuku said smiling nervously. “So this is why you two got along so well these past two weeks.” Shinsou smirked. “Heh yeah.” “Wanna tell me how long this has been on for?” If Shinsou was being honest he felt like an idiot for not realizing it sooner. “Second to last year of middle school, but please don’t tell anyone!” Izuku said. “Your secret is safe with me Midoriya. Same with Kaminari.” He dragged the boy inside. “Why is he stupid?” Bakugo asked. “We made out.” Was all Shinsou said while smirking. “Nice!” Bakugo said. “So that means...? You two are finally dating!!!!! My plan worked!!!! Dadzawa was right!” Izuku said excitedly.

“Wait Dadzawa is involved?” Bakugo said confused. “Yup! He gave me the advice to not over think the plan in getting them together.” “Wait he’s okay with this? He kept telling me not to go out with a loud blonde.” Shinsou was confused. “That’s dadzawa for you. His only rule is not to date/fall for loud blondes. We failed.” Izuku smiled innocently. Shinsou laughed a little, before paying Midoriya. “You two had a bet? That’s cheating!” Bakugo said glaring at his boyfriend. “Bet? Who’s betting? I want in?” Kaminari was back from idiot land. “You went stupid from a simple make out session? Get on our level Pikabitch.” Bakugo said smirking. Kaminari gasped.

“I might be confused but I am offended!” Kaminari said. “Wait...Omg you gay panic over Midobro!?” “Shut up Pikabitch!” Katsuki glared at the other blonde. “First off aww you gay panic over me? We really are perfect for each other, second off I didn’t cheat Kaachan also congrats you two! Kaminari you should run though. I’m pretty sure Dadzawa is gonna kill you when he finds out. Which will be any moment now!” Izuku said innocently. Kaminari didn’t even question the boy; instead he took off running “IM TO YOUNG AND PRETTY TO DIE!” The three left in the room just laughed. “I should go save my boyfriend. Thanks for your help!” “Don’t make out in empty hallways!” Bakugo warned him.

Shinsou was about to question it before deciding he didn’t want to know. “Double date this Friday?” Izuku offered. “Sure! See you then!” Shinsou said before running off to go save his boyfriend. “We did good.” Katsuki said once the two were alone. “We are the best wingmen ever. We should make our service.” Izuku said smiling. “If the hero duo thing fails then we will.” Katsuki just smiled. “Cuddles?” Izuku asked. “Sure.” He said and the two cuddled, while Shinsou and Kaminari ran away from the overprotective Dadzawa. Who was secretly happy for the two, but was also over protective over his kid. SHINKAMI IS CANON IN MY AU! I love Shinkami heh. Anyways hope you enjoyed this installement :3 Also Dadzawa is hella canon. Hes got three kids at this point.

#bakudeku #bkdk #bakudeku secret dating au #shinkami #dadzawa #i could write some cool tags #but ill leave that on ao3 #my tagging is actually shit

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Untitled John Fic | John Marston x F!Reader | Angst

I couldn’t think of a title so... Get it? Like the Goose game. Lol.

Sooo I misread this ask as specifically asking for fem reader which is how I have written the fic. I apologise if you were wanting GN or M!Reader. But I do state in my rules if you don’t ask for a specific gender I will probably write F!Reader as it’s what I am most confident in as a female.

I would also LOVE to write an Arthur fic along the same vein but need to wait for inspiration to hit. Feel free to send me sad Arthur headcanons you wouldn’t mind me using as a prompt to get the juices flowing.

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Warnings: Mentions of suicide/suicidal thoughts | Tags: ANGST, Hurt/Comfort

Relationships: John Marston x F!Reader, (past) John Marston x Abigail Roberts | NO CHEATING

Word Count: 4608  

Summery: John is struggling with juggling a new relationship and his commitment to Abigail as ex-husband/co-parent to Jack. Reader comforts him when he’s down.

Disclaimer: I fucking LOVE Abigail!!! Don’t @ me about her characterization in this fic! John/Abi is my OTP. I am fully aware they are BOTH at fault for their shitty relationship early game and I try so hard to never write her as purely “the bad guy”. I make sure to always try and give her solid reasoning behind her shitty actions. However, this fic is from John and his new gf’s POV so obviously Abigail is going to be the antagonist.

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It had been a hard few months. Tensions were high in the Gang and as a relatively new member you were finding it hard to hide that fact that you felt uncomfortable and out of place.

Most of your awkward feelings came from the seemingly unanimous contempt that had been placed upon you by a large number of gang members. A strong dislike so thinly veiled that it hung in the air like a bad smell. It felt absolutely suffocating, intolerable at times.

But you couldn’t walk away now. Not after what you had done to cause this cloud of abhorrence that seemed to follow your every move. You’d made a commitment and you planned to stick it out until the heat died down.

If it did die down… You worried more than you cared to admit that you had made a name for yourself. That your time here would always be miserable.

You sat by yourself on a log near the fire. Having risen earlier than usual to try and avoid the bustle of the morning. Gang members arguing over who got the first cup of coffee and whining at the taste of left-over stew for breakfast.

Most people were still asleep. The sun had only just begun to peak its head over the mountains across the distant valley. You were enjoying your moment of silence, a second to yourself to catch your breath after a horrible night of restless sleep.

As if the universe itself was against you, an almighty shriek ripped through the camp, a sudden wind, unrelated to the noise jostled tent flaps and wiped your hair around your face. If you didn’t know better, you would have sworn the breeze was a shockwave from the force of Abigail’s wrath.

You exhaled slowly, turning to look in the direction of the disturbance but still trying to be discreet lest anyone was watching.

Abigail was berating John. Absolutely tearing shreds off him as he stared at her blankly like a startled deer. He had been on his way to the fire, empty coffee cup in hand when she had caught up with him. Her mannerisms telling anyone that was watching that she was finally at the end of her tether.

You pursed your lips, turning back to the fire quickly and trying to pretend you hadn’t heard. Couldn’t still hear, the screaming and cursing.

You couldn’t blame her. It was your fault she was so high strung lately.

You listened as John tried to defend himself meekly. His arguments palling in comparison to her accusations. She had every right to be as upset with him as she was. But you felt perhaps this discussion could have happened in private instead of airing your dirty laundry for the Gang to witness.

It had been a good 6 months now since they had broken up. Amicably at first with the intensions of working things out after a trial separation. John had needed space from her constant nagging and Abigail felt she needed time away from here ‘second child.’

They kept their separation to themselves. But due to the nature of their volatile relationship it wasn’t such a secret. Abigail and Jack moved out of John’s tent and Jack had spent days crying on his bedroll. Heartbroken over his parents splitting up.

This caused frequent quarrels. Abigail arguing that John didn’t care and wasn’t doing anything to try and console the boy that everything would be fine. John arguing right back that there was nothing he could do. Why give him hope for something that may never happen?

The fact that Abigail refused to leave him in peace after their separation just pushed him further away. Even if her arguments were valid and with good intension. John felt caged. Breaking up didn’t make her stop. He couldn’t catch a break. He felt trapped with the only option being to run again.

You bit at your bottom lip, taking a sip of your coffee to seem nonchalant as more and more gang members began to rise from their tents to see what all the commotion is about. A few were looking directly at you. Their eyes squinted and full of loathing. But most were looking at Abigail and John. Watching as she paced in front of him, ranting and raving about his lack of care.

It seemed she’d had a rough night. With Jack falling ill she’s not slept a wink. Between comforting him and cleaning him up after he’s been sick, she was awake the entire night. Resentment at John’s blissfully unaware state growing by the minute as he slept right through a few tents over.

He was arguing that he didn’t know. She should have told him he was sick. Asked for help and he would have been there. Abigail was screaming back that asking him for help has never done her any good in the past so  why should she start now?

John was flailing, you could see it plainly as you chanced another glance around. She was too damn angry to hear anything he had to say. You felt for her. You really did. That was, until she noticed you.

She turned on you with the fury of 3 angry bulls.  She screamed your name, pointing. All eyes were on you as she shouted.

“And you! You don’t help a damn thing you homewrecker!”

Your jaw droped, unable to speak as you blinked in disbelief. She’d not spoken a word to you in months. Of course now was the time she chose to hash it all out.

“Hey!” John interjected, grabbing Abigail by the arm and spinning her back in his direction. “You leave her out of this!” He warned, eyes stern as she reeled around, hand clapping hard against the side of his face and making him falter. He let go of her, staring with wounded eyes as she took a step back. Realising what she’d just done and clearing her throat.

She opened her mouth to apologise. Her own disbelief greater than that of anybody watching. It had been a reflex. Muscle memory from her days as a prostitute. She hadn’t meant to hurt him.

John turned away, standing there for a second longer before walking away in the direction of the horses.

You watched in stunned silence as she let him go. Even the birds seemingly invested in the situation as an awry stillness descended on the whole area. The only sound the crunching of John’s boots as he stomped towards Old Boy.

He mounted up and left. Forgoing a saddle or any other tack. Hands holding tight on to Old Boy’s mane as he dug his heels into the horse’s ribs and directed him away from camp.

It took a few minutes and Abigail retreating to her lean-to to check on Jack before anyone dared to make a move. Gang members slowly exiting their respective tents and going about their business quietly. None of them bold enough to mention what had just happened for fear of Abigail over-hearing.

You stood slowly, knowing people were going to be looking in your direction regardless. They knew where you were going. What your plan was. There was no point in sitting around any longer in an attempt to try and hide it.

You moved towards your horse. Taking your time to saddle up and make sure he/she was ready for the ride before mounting up and spurring them into a trot along the path out of camp.

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You didn’t have to ride long. Knowing in your heart where John would be you had ridden towards that area, following along the fresh hoof-prints in the loose red dirt.

You turned off the beaten path, your horse whinnying in annoyance at having to walk through the brush. You petted them on the neck, promising a treat for following your direction. You know they couldn’t understand you but smiled non-the-less as they seemed to calm at the idea.

You could have left them hitched to a tree near the main road. But you ran the risk of another gang member noticing them and walking through the forest to find you.

You spotted John and Old Boy up ahead. The large Hungarian Half-bred munching happily on some greenery about 10 metres from the edge of a large cliff overlooking the valley below. John was sitting near the edge. Face in his hands as he contemplated his life thus far, oblivious to your approach.

You hitched Y/HN next to Old Boy and called out softly to alert John to your presence. He jumped slightly. Looking over his shoulder briefly before wiping at his face and letting his hands fall to his lap.

You sat down beside him, placing a familiar hand on his upper back and rubbing small, comforting circles as he glared at the ground in front of him. A large, angry mark flaring up on his cheek where Abigail had hit him.

It had been about 4 months since you’d officially started dating. Four months of absolute hell if you were being honest. But when you were alone like this, in your special spot away from camp, it was absolute bliss.

This specific situation wasn’t ideal. But you had been yearning for some alone time away from prying eyes.

Eyes that seemed to never stop watching. It was taking its toll on you. Making you regret things you shouldn’t be regretting. Questioning things, you didn’t want to be questioning.

Like was he worth it?

John seemed to follow your train of thought. Side-eying you silently as he rubbed at his cheek.

“You can go.” He said weakly. “If you want.” A long exhale following his words as he licked his lips and fell silent once more.

“I just got here.” You laughed, hand falling from its place on his back. You placed it on his thigh, squeezing reassuringly and watching as his jaw tensed. Seemingly gritting his teeth.

“No... I know.” He said softly, struggling to find the words. “I mean… You can leave. If you want to.” He paused, finally turning to look at you and realising his point had not been made. “The Gang.” He clarified. Making your brows shoot upwards in surprise.

He turned back to his hands in his lap and closed his eyes for a moment. You suspected he was waiting for your confirmation on the subject but it didn’t come.

You had been enjoying your time in the Gang up until recently. Having worked hard every day for a week to pull a con on two men you’d met in the saloon nearby. It turned out those men were actually trying to con you as well. When the truth was realised you had all had a good laugh. Dutch and Arthur inviting you to join them for a drink and upon realising you currently didn’t have a stable home, the Gang.

Everything was fantastic for a few months. You felt at home almost instantly. You made new friends, new family. You were welcomed with open arms and you had never felt so secure in your lifetime.

When you’d met John, the chemistry had been instantaneous on your part. Finding him attractive, friendly and useful to boot. You had caught him staring more than once and were relatively sure he returned your feelings. But something was off about the way he acted towards you. He had been skittish. Dancing around your attraction to him and outright avoiding any chance you’d had to be alone. It wasn’t until you’d cornered him after a night of drinking that he finally admitted he did feel something for you as well.

He was very guilty about his admission. Explaining that he was supposed to be trying to work on things with Abigail. He was struggling hard with the feeling that he knew deep down their relationship was a dead-end. Every time they were supposed to try and talk it out it ended in a fight. Abigail becoming increasingly impatient that he wasn’t ready to recommit himself to her.

He had word-vomited his darkest thoughts to you that night. Slurring about how he wanted to run away again and saw no way out. His attraction to you was the straw that broke the camels back. The last nail in the coffin of his resolve to fix things with his wife. He hadn’t meant for it to happen. But that didn’t mean he could ignore it.

He wanted to tell Abigail it was over for good. He wasn’t interested in fixing things and he felt they parented better separately anyway. She was always going on about Jack. What about Jack? How will this affect Jack? He was scared to tell her it wouldn’t. To seem callous towards his son and his feelings. He felt he was a better Father without her hanging over his shoulder.

Somewhere in the middle of his rant he had begun to cry. Head heavy with the drink, he hadn’t been able to stop his usual stoic core from breaking. Mortified by the turn of events he’d tried to pretend as if nothing had happened. As if he hadn’t just spent half an hour rambling his sorrows to a relative stranger.

He shut himself down. Locking away his feelings and refusing to acknowledge them even after you’d both bitten the bullet and started to date a few weeks later.

He’d had to tell Abigail first. Before he could in good conscience being seeing you in earnest. He had been too afraid before your drunken talk. Terrified of ending things and risking everything he had for the sake of your rejection. But after the conformation he had been looking for, he’d found a renewed sense of courage. Letting Abigail know he was done with their romantic relationship but that didn’t mean he was walking away from Jack.

To say she hadn’t taken it well was an understatement. You had learnt swear words that day that you hadn’t previously known the existence of. She had been absolutely furious at your betrayal. Having gotten along fine before that. She’d never expected that you would pounce on her husband.

You’d both argued that had they been an item you would never had made your feelings known. But as John was for all intents and purposes, single, you felt it was alright to proposition him.

You understood where she was coming from. She had been blindsided by your interest in him. Having had it set in her mind that they would work things out and become that happy family she had always dreamed she’d have.

For the most part, the gang agreed with your argument. Tiptoeing around Abigail and letting you know that you didn’t do anything wrong. It wasn’t until rumour started to spread about the night you confessed your feelings that things started to take a turn. It spread like wildfire and although you were both pretty confident of its origin, you couldn’t prove it anymore than you could prove you hadn’t slept together that night.

The general consensus of ‘You’ve done no wrong’ quickly changed to ‘How could you do that?’ after rumour spread that you had slept together before John had officially ended things with Abigail.

Looking back, you feared you had worsened the situation by buying into it. Telling people that even if it were true, they were still separated; had led people to believe it was true. You regretted it, more for John’s sake than your own. You thought of these people as your family. But these people were his family and had been for over half his life. The damage done by the entire situation was breaking him. You could see it in the way he looked at you. Hear it in the way he spoke.

You hated to admit it. But this morning part of you was worried you would find Old Boy hitched on the edge of the cliff and John’s mangled body at the bottom.

You looked at him now, your own teeth clenched as you tried to find the words to let him know you weren’t going anywhere. That he hadn’t risked all for nothing. You would stay and you would listen. You would wear the criticism and backhanded comments with an air of pride as long as you were making him happy.

“I ain’t goin’ nowhere.” You whispered, shuffling closer so your sides were touching.

John jumped at the initial contact, head snapping back to look at where you’d bumped against him before he seemed to relax, turning his gaze back to the ground.

“I understand if you want to, deep down.” He mumbled, not really moving his lips as he spoke. “You wouldn’t be the only one.”

You winced at that, hand on his thigh squeezing once more as you leaned in to kiss the mark on his cheek. He jolted away out of reflex before settling himself down and letting his forehead rest on your own cheek.

“Why don’t you tell me what you’re feelin’?” You asked quietly, hand coming up to run through his long hair and massage his scalp. He moaned against you softly, shuddering at the feeling.

“Not feelin’ anything.” He said against your shoulder, eyes staring blankly at the stitching on your collar.

Your lips tightened, eyes flicking towards him as you removed your hand from his head and waited. It took a few seconds before he realised you were done. Sitting back to look at you sadly as you raised your brows in question.

“What?” He asked, looking away. You could tell he wanted you to drop it. To just pretend it hadn’t happened and move on like you’d done that first night.

“What was all that about?” You asked, gesturing back in the direction of camp, his eyes rolling at your question.

“Just drop it will ya?” He asked, annoyance in his tone as he stared out over the valley. The sun now having fully risen above the mountain was tingling their skin with warmth as it worked to rise enough to shade them under the trees above.

You stayed silent, feeling the mood shift. His demeanour hadn’t changed but something was different. You didn’t want to push him too hard, lest he fling himself over the cliff in front of your eyes.

“It’s just…” He started, crossing his arms and huffing indignantly. “It’s… dumb.” He said weakly, trailing off from his train of thought.

You watched on sadly. Brows furrowed as he sniffed audibly. Shoulders shuddering momentarily before he managed to compose himself enough to stop them.

His eyes were squinting in the morning sun. Face scrunched into a scowl as he blinked back his emotions.

He obviously wanted to talk. Not sure how to go about it or if he would be judged for what he was going to say. Perhaps he stopped himself because he felt you would be offended by his statement.

“I’m sure it’s not.” You probed. Deciding that if he truly wanted you to drop it, he wouldn’t have spoken.

“I’m just…” He paused, questioning if he really had the emotional stability he would need to talk about his feelings without breaking down. He swallowed, taking a calming breath before continuing. “I’m really trying.” He said simply, voice cracking on the last word as his face crumpled and he brought his hands up to cover it.

You made a sound of acknowledgement, wrapping an arm around his shoulder and squeezing his opposite arm tightly.

He let you, too busy in his own mind to push you away. He admonished himself harshly for thinking he could vent a little bit without opening the gates entirely. It had been such a long time since he’d cried, properly cried and not just let a few tears slip when he was heavy on the drink. He’d been holding in years of unpleasant feelings and lately he’d been struggling. Feeling particularly vulnerable at inopportune times and taking playful jabs way too seriously.

He choked on his words of apology. Mumbling nonsense into his palms as he finally began to let it all out.

“I… I been tryin’ so…” He paused, stumbling over his wording. “So… hard.” He stuttered, shaking uncontrollably under the weight of his own words.

You shushed him lightly, hand squeezing soothingly as you gently pulled him towards you. He let himself fall, head resting on your chest as he huffed quietly, his breathing uneven.

Once he was resting his weight against you, you moved your hand to his back. Running the pads of your fingers lightly up and down his spine and encouraging him to breath in the same slow pattern. He obliged, slowly but surely calming as his breathing began to return to normal. His leaking eyes burning as he struggled to stop the flow of tears he regretted letting go of.

“I don’t… I don…” He stammered, cutting himself off. He already felt so damn weak. Nerves grating on the feeling of helplessness.

You shook your head, other hand coming up to run through his hair once more and then down against his unmarred cheek. You pressed lightly, encouraging him to look at you. He reluctantly did so, red rimmed eyes sheepishly averting as he caught your look of sympathy.

You could tell he was on the verge of shutting down. Composing himself and bottling it all back up until the next time, whenever that may be. All of the thoughts and feelings would come back twice as hard. Knocking against him when he least expects it and finally pushing him off the precipice he had so delicately been balancing on since long before you met him.

Since Jack was born.

“It’s okay.” You cooed, holding him tighter in an effort to make him feel safe. “You can tell me anythin’, you know that.” You whispered gently, the feeling of him slowly coming undone almost physical as his dam-wall broke apart in your arms.

He stuttered uncontrollably, breath hitching almost constantly as he tried his hardest to tell you how he was feeling. Words broken and slurred as he let you in on his darkest thoughts. His deepest fears.

“I been tryin’ so… so hard with Jack.” He cried against your breast. Pressing himself closer to you as if he could hide from your judgement. “She… she told me… I…” He stammered, cutting himself off as deep, wracking sobs overtook his ability to speak.

You shushed him lightly. Making sure to let him know it wasn’t his words you were trying to stop. You wanted to hear it all. Wanted him to let it out and get it in the open so you could calm his tears and all his insecurities.

He was mortified, you could tell by the way he kept trying to hide his face. Wiping at it irately as if being annoyed with his tears would stop them.

You supposed you would be embarrassed too if the situations were reversed. Your relationship was relatively new, even if it had already felt like a lifetime. He was scared of your judgement. Afraid you were going to leave once you’d seen what a wimp he really was.

You reassured him once more that you weren’t leaving. Making it clear you were staying put without his prompting. Hoping it felt more genuine that way.

He seemed to calm down a little after you spoke. Sobs turning to uneven breaths as you resumed running your hand up and down his back at a slow pace.

He followed your movements, long soothing breaths making him weary after his emotional collapse.

“She told me… I weren’t tryin’ hard enough with Jack.” He said finally, nearly getting through the entire sentence without a hitch. His arms wrapped around your waist loosened, falling slack as he took a deep breath and pushed himself to sit up.

You took in his dishevelled appearance, feeling a pang to your heart at the sight of him. Your hand came up automatically to brush his hair behind his ear as he turned to look at you with the saddest eyes you’d ever seen.

“She said I ruined his life breakin’ up his parents. Said he’d never be happy again.” He elaborated, barely above a whisper. You smiled sympathetically, hands cupping his cheeks as you leaned into brush your lips against his. He let you, not closing his eyes as you kissed him. Wanting to see as well as feel you.

“You know that ain’t true.” You said against his lips, thumbs swiping under his eyes to wipe away some of the wetness. He paused, nodding hesitantly as if he didn’t really believe it but felt he had to agree for your sake.

“She hurt my feelings.” He admitted quietly. Voice so small you weren’t sure you had actually heard it. He looked away, pulling his face from your grip and you knew then that he had said what you thought. “I been tryin’ so hard.” He repeated for the third time. Driving home how much she had hurt him with her words and making your heart ache. You felt for him. You knew too well the pain of truly trying your hardest only to be shot down and slapped with a punishment for not putting in any effort.

“I know. I’ve seen you.” You stated as a conformation, smiling fondly to yourself at the memory him playing swords with Jack earlier in the week.

“I don’t know how to fix it.” He said simply, hands ringing together unconsciously as he worried his lip between his teeth. You frowned, taking his hands in yours and turning to face him fully.

“You don’t need to.” You stated firmly. “Jack is happy. Ain’t you heard the phrase don’t fix what’s not broke?”

John’s lips twitched at your wording. It was one of the things he loved about you. Your subtle wording that changed a common phrase ever so slightly to your own version.

“I meant… with Abigail.” He shifted uncomfortably at the admission. Your hands letting go of his as you looked at him in surprise. He grabbed at your hands frantically. Scrambling to correct himself and clarify. “Not… romantically.” He pressed. “Just… in general.”

You breathed a small sigh of relief. Closing your eyes for a second before focusing on his statement.

“You don’t have to hon.” You said softly. “You’ve been tryin’. I’ve seen you. It’s up to her to make things civil.”

John furrowed his brows. That didn’t seem quite right. He was sure it was his responsibility. She had made that clear from the start.

“I ended it. I hurt her.” He said blatantly, his tone questioning. “I have to make things right.”

You sighed, squeezing his hands tightly as you replied.

“There will be no right as long as you’re with me.”

John looked at you for a long moment. Eyes flicking between yours as he waited for more.

You watched as the realisation hit him. His red rimmed eyes beginning to water as he tensed his jaw once more. He stared at you, hurt plain as day across his face as he assessed your meaning.

“Can you live with that?” He asked, voice thick with emotion.

You took a moment to reflect. Really think about what you were going to say before you responded. To make sure you really meant it.

“Yes.” You smiled. “You’re worth it.” You said, taking his face in your hands once more and pressing your forehead against his.

You felt his cheeks rise. Teeth bumping against your lips as he attempted to kiss you through his smile.

“So are you.” He whispered.

 End

~~~

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[jenhrding]

dead to me season 2; a review

hello, i need to write about this because i woke up at 4am to watch season two and i have soooo many feelings that i need to vent even if nobody really cares

this is gonna be long so i divided it by episode and i'm doing a summary at the end if you don't feel like reading the entire thing

if you follow me on twitter you may have seen a lot of my comments on the season, as i needed to tweet about it while i watched it, but this is more of an organized type of thing

A LOT OF SPOILERS AHEAD

> i'm a die hard judy/jen shipper so if you liked michelle this might not be for you, i'm sorry

EPISODE 1

okay, the season picks up on the morning after ted's death and that was something i really appreciated. i usually hate when tv shows skip things and only mention what happened, not showing us how it happened

judy and henry's relationship warms my heart. they have a really strong bond and i'm glad we got to see more of them together throughout the episodes.

but, as we can't have everything, it hurt me a lot to see the way jen was treating judy. i love them both equally and because of that i can clearly see their mistakes without being biased, or at least i hope i can. i get that she was hurt with everything that judy did, and i loathed steve deeply, but still, the guy was his ex-fiancee, and she loved him to death even if he was a toxic piece of crap. the way jen said she was just there to pick up stuff and then told her she burned everything without even looking at her made me so sad for judy, and her dropping judy off saying they would never talk again was very cold, but that i would've seen coming from jen.

i was constantly feeling bad for judy because she didn't have time to mourn steve or abe and there she was, broke and without a place to stay. and let's just say, abe was an angel in her life even after he died. props to him for treating her like she deserved to be treated.

the thing with michelle started and it seemed a bit forced to me, like they just wanted to shove judy to someone else so we would stop asking for jen & judy being together.

and then jen called judy and i just KNEW that was happening, that scene really made me happy and it felt like they were taking a step forward in their relationship. jen worries about judy so much, even if she's not the best at showing it.

"like an excuse to see me again." "did it work?"

EPISODE 2

steve's twin thing was 100% so they wouldn't have to kick james out. it was very predictable and unnecessary. i guess it added a bit to the plot but his presence really annoyed me. but, i need to say, james did a nice job because ben didn't have any of steve's traits (i know that's what actors are supposed to do but i felt like he needed a compliment).

diana was irritating me from the beginning, and i'm glad i got to like her more by the end of everything.

i didn't get the deal with nick. i know breakups are hard but he looked depressed af. maybe it had to do with his history, everything with his friend and him losing his job and stuff. but i'm not really interested in that so it didn't bother me.

and may i just add? the scene with judy and the bird, she truly is a princess, i can't with her. also, i liked the subtle hint when jen told ben not to climb on the freezer because it was too low, and we would come to find out later that steve's body was in that freezer.

episode two had a lot of fun moments and it was a lighter one, maybe to prepare us for the chaos that was coming next.

"you look beautiful. i wish you would love yourself more."

EPISODE 3

judy hugging the freezer got me ????? i know she's an espiritual person but was she really acting like steve was feeling anything? i was confused, honesly, but i don't blame her "she will never do anything wrong :)"

the rats scene was funny but i hated how long they took to solve the freezer thing and just showed jen going there and crying sooo many times it kinda got tiring.

jen was being so nice to judy, touching her and hugging her and i had my hopes up for a little bit (only to get played again but i'll talk about that later).

the scene with michelle was cute, kinda necessary for judy to realize things about her grief, but sincerely speaking she just makes me very bored.

the breakdown scene in the garage was GREAT, linda and christina did an amazing job and i want to give them all of the awards.

"just wanted to tell you that i forgive you."

EPISODE 4

this episode had so much potential to be gay lmao, i could actually picture jen trying to comfort judy and end up kissing her and then they would've been together and all, but liz really doesn't want to give us what we want.

the scene at the bar was one of the best scenes in this season. they finally TALKED about their feelings. about how they still cared about both of the men who hurt them even if they were still mad at them for being shitty guys, and that was so important, love really does weird things to us.

and the dancing scene was EVERYTHING!!!! plus, they slept in the same bed even though there were two beds in the room, so...

judy hugging henry because of his bird = my heart cried they really are mother and son

jen telling judy that she could say goodbye and LINDA's SINGING!!!!!!!! a big yes for me

"will you be my person?" "yes, i will be your person."

EPISODE 5

hated this one. jen telling judy she needed space was hurtful, specially because judy was planning a day to make her feel better.

i just really hated this one. jen and ben is a NO, and judy with michelle was bothering me.

the highlight of it, for me, was when jen called judy to help her with charlie because, well, he is his mom too.

plus: the car burning scene was hot.

EPISODE 6

judy and jen talking to charlie like his moms was sooo nice i liked that scene a lot.

the voicemails steve left judy were disgusting. i hate that guy so much and i'm glad he's dead (sorry) and not able to hurt her anymore. we only want happy and safe judy here.

jen was jealous when judy mentioned her "new friend" you can't change my mind on this one.

i actually thought judy and michelle were gonna kiss in the car, but i appreciated that liz dragged it a little bit more.

i loved most of the arcade scenes, specially the ones with their family. i liked how they portrayed jen's relationship with the boys getting good again but didn't drag it on for too long, i think it was quite nice the way they did it.

and no, i'm not here for judy and michelle even though linda looks very hot while kissing another woman.

EPISODE 7

um, judy and michelle slept together and i was not happy. in fact, i made a lot of tweets complaining about it and twitter actually put me on limit for a few minutes. her saying "i love you" felt so forced and fake, i don't know, maybe it's cause i just don't like them together.

i was really appreciating scenes with jen and charlie, even if i don't like him very much. it felt good to see their relationship developing and getting better again because i do love a mother-son plot.

"of all the lesbians in lagoona" (jen included if i may add). this scene really showed a trust between them that i missed, jen telling judy she couldn't see michelle anymore and even though judy was upset she agreed with it because she knows jen only wants what's best for her.

it really hurt me to see that girl pregnant, because i know how much judy wanted a baby and for her to have five miscarriages and have to see that other woman pregnant with steve's baby must've hit her hard.

hated jen and ben together. honestly, it felt so weird to have jen kiss the guy who looks so much like the guy she killed, so, i did not like that.

judy's speech to diana was really important. it really showed more of who she is, really, a person who just tries all the time to do everything right and keeps fucking it up (like myself, i'd say), and i liked that scene a lot, specially when she goes to pick up the plastic bags hahaha.

EPISODE 8

this one showed a bit of why we should've been prepared for episode nine.

jen and judy's first scene was really good. they started it fighting but the ending was so lovely and just showed us how much they love each other and the things they'd give up for the other one to be happy.

i really hated how michelle treated judy on this episode. judy didn't have to tell her anything right away, they were together for five seconds. (or maybe i'm overreacting because i love judy way too much and hate seeing her being mistreated).

the end of this episode showed a lot of phone calls that made me confused and it had a few cliffhangers that i found to be a bit unnecessary. the show is interesting enough and i think liz overdid the cliffhangers a bit in this season, but it wasn't something that deeply bothered me.

EPISODE 9

i have a lot to say about this one so just take a deep breath before i vent lmao.

jen and ben fucked. which i thought was unnecessary and out of character for her. i really didn't see jen sleeping with a guy who has the same face as the guy she killed, and the scene where she looks at ben and remembers steve's dead body was so weird.

plus, i wish they would've gotten deeper into jen's mastectomy story. the only mention to it in this season was when she was in the bathroom, and she couldn't even bring herself to look in the mirror. it was unlike her to sleep with some stranger after that, since she's so ashamed of it, and it made me sad that the first person to see her naked after surgery (besides ted) wasn't judy, who she actually trusts. i didn't need jen to talk about it, because i know her character doesn't like to talk feelings, but the scene where she was alone could've been longer and showed a bit more of her story.

they showed so much of judy's background in the last two episodes and i loved it! i like how they were slowly revealing why her character acts the way she does. we knew she didn't like to be alone, but now we know that it's because she was alone most of her life, and because of that she clings to anyone who shows a bit of interest in her. therefore, why she didn't like nick that much and still tried to make things work out with him, and when steve showed her a little bit more of compassion, she went back to him. and now it's michelle, who she started seeing right after jen told her she needed space. judy is codependent, and i liked to understand her relationship with her mother so i could understand her relationship with others.

jen's scene at city hall was so important and powerful. first, i was afraid she might embarrass herself but she was incredible. the way she called andrew out not even scared if all the white men sitting there wouldn't believe a woman's harassment story, the way she talked about ted and ugh everything was great.

then, things started to go downhill. jen's relationship with the boys started declining again and it broke my heart (but i liked how henry asked for judy because he was sad and wanted to see her). and this anticipated what i elected (as if i have any room to say anything) to be the best scene of the show.

the garage scene. i have so many feelings towards it but at the same time i don't know how to express them.

first, judy said she was going to take the blame for charlie and that right there is what a mom would do (and finally they talked about judy's s*icide attempt). besides that, judy said that jen had a family and she couldn't lose that family, and then we realize how much it hurt her when her mom said she didn't have a family of her own (even though, in season one, jen said she was a part of their family).

linda and christina were brilliant in this bit. linda's expressions send me every time, and personally, i love it when she curses because it shows a side of her character that only comes out when she's really nervous and stressed, since she's always trying to see the good in everything. the way she raised her voice and said a lot of "fucks" really brought a different tone to the scene that we hadn't seen during the season.

jen had a lot of breakdowns during this season. but none of those were as exceptional as this one. ted fucked up her mind badly, and steve saying all those things triggered her to do what she did. imagine being married to a person for eighteen years and finding out, after his death, that he was cheating on you for a year and a half, that really must mess up with your self esteem and how you see yourself. jen is constantly thinking that everyone that she loves hates her and she ends up hating herself (as judy said "i wish you would love yourself more."). she is an extraordinary character and there's so much i still need to know about her.

now, here's something that bothered me. this scene was great, but i think jen was a bit out of character when she said "that's because you love anyone who just gives you a morsel of fucking attention, even if it's abusive. it's like you get off on it or something". honestly, the jen i know and have grown to love would never blame a woman for being abused, even if she was out of her mind for being upset. she saw how judy was mistreated by steve and she always knew he was toxic, but she would never say that to judy, as if she had any guilt on it.

this scene was so raw and chaotic but it was breathtaking, in a good way. judy's "i'm not like you" and their fight in front of the house, also judy's screams, everything was on point.

and then, jen got to see something we've been noticing for the past season and this one as well. when judy's stressed or hurt, she starts self-harming. it was never brought up before but it's something to watch out for. how many times did she curse at herself and hit herself in front of mirrors? and in the car she starts hitting herself really strongly when she's asking jen to stop. now, i don't know which part of her history this has to do with but i'd really like for them to get more into this, as it seems like a great storyline.

jen watching judy sleep and putting her hair behind her ear was so gay pure and i loved this scene so much.

EPISODE 10

what jen did for her family was beautiful, even if it didn't start that well. now, about her letter to judy, i sobbed so much reading that one.

this episode said a lot about diana's humanity. her and jen's talk about their mothers showed another side of her that i really liked. and i'm a sucker for motherhood storylines, so i cried a lot during that scene.

i liked this episode a lot too. loved to see charlie so worried about his mother for once in his life, and how well judy handles things as a mother.

now this is where i get mad. the scene where jen and judy are talking outside was the perfect setting for them to confess feelings. michelle felt like something that judy needed to replace steve, so it wouldn't last anyway (me hoping that she's not showing up on season 3), and because she had that experience, now she could love jen in a healthier way, in a way that maybe she couldn't before. there were so many 'i love you's and so many hugs and touches and no kiss and i was sad.

i loved the way jen said that judy needed to learn how to say no (and also, can she please stop saying sorry all the time? she's always making herself sad to make others happy-- i can't stop seeing myself in her). and it was genius how they used this thing to make her say no to her mom, who only wanted to see her to get out of prison, it showed her strenght.

the way they picked up jen's grief for her mom was really nice, i'd also like to learn more about that in the future. we could really understand where her anger comes from and why she despises herself so much.

and, baby, let me tell you, judy hale is a GENIUS. the money inside the paintings? i never saw that coming and i was so happy watching that scene! specially when she showed jen and they held hands. :(

charlie found the letters and he's finally getting to know what actually happened to his father (i'm guessing), and i wanna see his reaction. and i'm so here for their vacation! "talk to me like lovers do!" she really just keeps playing with my heart. (and jen calling judy "judes" was really cute.)

the last scene was something. them talking about the sign and then ben hitting them because he was drunk? i wasn't expecting that. and, as i said before, liz likes a good cliffhanger, but this one didn't seem that harsh. if she wanted to, she could've just left us in the dark about whether jen was alive or not, but she didn't, and i appreciated that.

i still don't know if this leaves room for another big storyline, maybe this should be something to be solved in the first two episodes of season three so they could jump into something more exciting, i don't know.

"i love you more than wine. thank you for loving me and our boys."

OVERALL THOUGHTS

i liked this season a lot. it felt a lot different from season one, the settings, the air. it was a bit more chaotic, i must say, and i do think they could've maybe chilled for a little bit and left the high point of stress being only on episodes 9 and 10. literally, everything was happening, all the time, and the only time they had to breathe was when they went dancing that night.

there was a shift in my feelings, for sure. last season i picked up on a lot of judy's mistakes and things she did that bothered me. this season, i did that more with jen, but i still love them so much istg i'd die for them (not to sound dramatic or anything lmao). it's just that last season i identified a lot more with jen's anger and behaviors, and in this one a saw a lot of myself in judy, and that might've prevented me from criticizing them as much in their respective moments.

i love this show to death, and i'm just waiting for award nominations that i'm sure will come. let's just hope that, this year, they also acknowledge linda's brilliant acting and even give both of them some awards.

this is me, (im)patiently waiting for a season 3 confirmation and i'm sure i'm just gonna rewatch everything for the next year like i did with season one.

i needed to talk about this season, and twitter doesn't give me enough space to do that, but this is not something i usually do. if you read all of this, you're brave, and i'm thankful for your attention.

now, can liz please make judy and jen girlfriends?

#dead to me #judy hale #jen harding #spoilers #linda cardellini #christina applegate #netflix #netflix show

[leviackercanon]

Whelp i love your STORY-CANON hihi!! And dw about your english

Owww hahaha the word story-canon has been adopted  (I swear, I always need to make a little story hahaha), I’m glad, and I’m so grateful for your support ♡♡♡♡!! (´；ω；`)

Headcanon : Levi x SO cuddling on a rainy day

Levi was working on some reports and paperwork when you burst in his office

To be honest he was so used to you entering like that, so he didn’t even look up to see who it was. He was familiar with your footsteps and the nice fragrance that was always around you

Because yeeeep he might not was talkative, but he was sooo observant and would memorize details that he loved about you

Levi it’s raining...

And ?

He would reply with his eyes still on his documents (believe me HE HATED SOOOO MUCH DOING PAPERWORK, he wanted some action, he had the feeling that his body would melt if he kept staying like this on his chair... And you know what was the worst ? TINY HANDWRITING on some reports that would make him frown and tch, he would try so hard to not pay a special visit to the cadet who wrote that shit (╯°□°）╯)

So you understood that he was not only busy with that ton of work but he was upset too... But maybe your suggestion would help him to relax after all, that’s why you didn’t give up ha ! (*´・ｖ・)

And you know what couple do on a rainy day ? They cuddle because it’s so depressing to do anything else when it rains ~

He would finally look up at you a tad annoyed (not because of you hun, because he just found an another report with a fucking tiny handwriting)

Do you know what is really depressing S/O ? This shit. I’m busy, let’s do that later. Why people can’t just write like actual people ?! Huh ? They think I’m a fucking rabbit with a super sight ?!

Trying to hide your laugh was you, aaaaah LEVI himself didn’t know he was funny. But you didn’t want to upset him more so you would just reply : cuddling will help you relax and you will be more efficient later. So... come on please ♡

The thing was, Levi wasn’t familiar with ‘cuddling’, before dating you, he didn’t receive a lot of affection (apart from his mom), and he didn’t have time to date when his job was to save the cadet’s asses in expedition. When his worries were trying to bring everyone back alive, he REALLY didn’t have time to do stuff like that

But when he met you, he finally discovered that this whole time, something was missing in his heart ; giving and receiving affection.

Something that would make him a real human being, because even the loneliest man would need someone to reflect his humanity at the end

Though... Sometimes he would just feel bad cuddling and spending time with you because he would remember his dead comrades in the field : he knew he had a real problem with just chilling because his nervosity would pop up (ptsd?), he wasn’t just used to this

But the fact that you accepted all his fears and reassured him that he needed some happiness too sometimes and that was okay, helped him a lot to cope with his nervosity and he would try his best to respond to your love even though he was busy (even the Humanity’s strongest soldier needed a break!)

and guess what ? He was the best cuddler ever, but just like being funny, he wasn’t even aware of that o(≧∇≦o)

And that’s precisely why.... he sighed a last time looking at his shitty reports and finally stood up to show that you won (he would look away tho haha)

In all honesty, he needed your warmth, he needed to feel you close against him too, and if you didn’t interrupt his work, he would have probably gone crazy (you were the ONLY ONE that could interrumpt his work by the way, if it was someone else, he would have snapped badly just like the thirty old grumpy nervous man he was)

He was definitly the bigger spoon, he knew you very well just like he knew that you loved being the little spoon, because you would feel super safe in his big muscular arms *O*

Cuddling on a rainy day in the couch with Levi, was sooooo comforting, you were LIVING for these moments ♡(.◜ω◝.)♡

Also it was the moment when he would let you kiss all his face ; that was your cute guilty sin, kissing softly his nose, his lips, his cheeks, his front, his ears... Before his dominant side would get the upper hand hahaha (he would devour your little and innocent kiss by kissing you deeply, it was the kind of kiss that would make you blush hard and feel all your bordy warming up.... and DAMN, that MAN was HOT)

But most of the time, you would just stay in each other’s arms, you nuzzling his neck or cheek and him stroking your beautiful hair and looking at you (with his beautiful blue-grey eyes)

And these moments of absolute peace were priceless when you were both so busy with the war against whoever

Do you think we will live in peace one day ?

That was your question, the rain always made you a bit morose, glum... And Levi noticed that (he was observant, no lies!), your question was hiding your secret fear : that you and him would live and die in the wartime, just like Levi, you had your own fears

And uuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggh *^* Levi would hug you harder and kiss your hair before reassuring you on this : S/O, I can’t promise you anything, I hate making fake promises but let me tell you that I won’t stop until we have peace. Too many soldiers gave their life for that. That’s my job to accomplish what they couldn’t do. And I will. Got it ?

You believed his words... Because if there was one man in the world that could do that, it was him. You trusted his determination, you trusted him with all your heart.

And your trust was all he needed.

that’s how the most rainy day would be the warmest in Levi’s arms, chest against chest, enjoying each other’s presence in a peaceful atmostphere ♡♡♡

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