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illusionofhaze · 7 months

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I was late to college today and sat on the train but this boy with baggy jeans and a baggy shirt sat next to me (young perhaps, curly hair)

I was listening to music I recorded on voice recorder and was writing hobbies to think about 💭

He leaned back into his seat and looked at what I was writing then told me I should add poetry, I couldn’t hear him the first time so I took my headphones off and he repeated then told me that he did poetry.

I told him that I didn’t really do poetry but I like reading a few bits here and there

Then he said something really nice but I don’t really remember? Something like (but better)

“When you have so many different thoughts and emotions binge to say, you can put that in poetry and it makes you feel so much better”

I said that was nice then he pulled out his poetry book which was titled The Whispers, with an old painting for a book cover, I asked if I could read it and he started getting a bit shy and laughed saying that it’s a bit awkward for someone to read it, how would you feel if someone read your journal”, I kind of found it funny because I was so straightforward with asking.

He guessed that I was going to college and I asked where he was heading, “I skipped college today because I felt like wondering around, I have no idea where to”, I said that he should go on the northen line but he said that he likes the line he was on (hammersmith and city) so I told him that the northen line was my favourite because I like the places on it, kind of takes me near the Hill and Pergola Garden in Swiss Cottage.

He said he likes the line for Farringdon and Whitechapel

I only really remember Whitechapel because of monopoly so I didn’t say anything about it but I told him I never went to Farringdon before so he told me I should, ughh can’t remember what he said but it reminded him of maybe olden times? Like it looked like old cities, no idea.

The next stop was my stop, I would’ve happily asked if I could join him skipping college to go somewhere but I felt a little insecure and in a way I felt it was right to leave? Our interaction was already enough for the day but when given the opportunity for something more, I’ll definitely take it

For the longest time my bucket list has been to find a stranger to go on a journey with for a day??? Then I basically got the chance right in front of me, crazy. Honestly he could’ve said no but I would never known since I chose a different choice for the day 📝🚂

He also asked what my name was but I never asked back but I guess it felt okay not knowing his name

I got his instagram too (he asked first)

He said I was pretty too, then when I had to get off he quickly said he liked my style 💕

that was today, 28th of September

Wish I could write a little more entertaining but it’s just to keep record of what happened each day, can’t believe this is an online thing like why can’t I keep this to myself only?

I don’t have much motivation writing for just me though even if no one reads what I write, I prefer performing for something I’m not even sure of

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wilmonfc · 8 months

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July august September were chaotic months.

July started really good but things started going down hill after my birthday. Had a breakdown in class,parents were fighting more frequently, mom threatened to leave home and all those family drama.August also started off really good and things were going to back to normal but after my friends birthday things again started going down lol.I think it’s something with the birthdays.maybe I should stop celebrating. Anyways my close friend doesn’t want to talk to me.yeah i fuck up things.I always fuck up things.they probably think i am petty and manipulative ughh. Just few days before my exams,My grandfather passed away and that really hit my family.I was supposed to give my exams and people were expecting me to go.Someone actually said “isko koi ehsaas nhi ho raha hain kya hoya” bcus i didn’t cry.I am really trying to hold up my emotions bcus someone needs to be strong and everyone cant be crying. Anyways I went to my grandfather last rites and it was kinda traumatising.I couldn’t watch my grandfather Bcuz it was soo horrific. I did see a little bit.Garud puran is soo fucking scary.According to that we all are going to hell and it described hell as a really scary place.things were getting back to normal again but then I found out my another friend is harming herself.the last thing i want that I don’t want to loose her.She is a really nice person and deserves better.I came back home on a flight alone that was kinda fun but there was alot of turbulence and I felt like this is the end.People might say “ wow u are soo strong” but i am actually really weak pretending to be strong crying from inside and one day these emotions will come out.kal i have exams and ik i will fail

#dni

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getitinbusan · 4 years

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Destination: Jungkook

A super soft wedding fic from the Golden Closet Universe and the companion piece to September 1st

mood board & playlist

Happy 24th birthday to the love of my life 💜 I wish I could give you more than words you'll never see.

Nerves always took over your stomach during landing. That, coupled with the reason for the flight and you were an anxious mess.

The plane had begun its long slow descent, "You look kind of green are you okay?" Your best friend squeezed your hand.

"It's just...usually Guk does this thing...he sings to me and rubs my neck when we land."

She looked at you and shook her head, "Yeah, I'm not gonna do that."

You laughed, "I don't think you're taking your maid of honor duties very seriously."

"Ughh, I can't believe you're getting married before me." She sighed, "It's not fair, Yoongi and I are the ones who introduced you. It should be us."

You couldn't help the grin that formed on your lips. Sworn to secrecy, she had no idea you'd gone shopping with Yoongi, the ring had been in his pocket for weeks. "It'll be you soon babe, maybe this weekend will inspire him."

Checking the key card you stopped at 303. Why you couldn't stay in the same room together was beyond you.

The door was just about to click closed when his running footsteps echoed through the empty hallway. Strong arms wrapped around you and soft lips fell on yours. He did his trademark hum while he kissed you, his happy song for his happy place.

"I can't believe how much I've missed you."

Pulling him closer you inhaled him in. He was the scent of home that had been lacking for the last four days.

His smile got bigger until his dimples finally showed up, "It's late are you tired?" He tucked your hair behind your ear, "We've got a pretty big day tomorrow."

"Can I just enjoy you alone for a few minutes?"

"Is everything okay?" He sat on the edge of the bed and pulled you onto his lap.

Nuzzling into his neck you curled into him. "It's so stupid."

"Tell me," he rubbed circles on your back.

"I'm happy and I love you so much but I'm terrified and nervous and I haven't been able to talk to you about it because you've been here planning the perfect wedding for me ... and I'm selfish because I just wanted you to hold me and tell me it was all going to be okay."

He sighed in relief, "Of course it's going to be okay," he gently laid a kiss on top of your head. "Don't you know every fairy tale ends with and they lived happily ever after?"

You couldn't help but smile, Jungkook was such a hopeless romantic. "Why can't we stay in the same room tonight?"

Changing the mood he tickled you while pulling you back into the bed, "Because it's bad luck, and it would ruin the surprise."

"We live together, I've seen you naked a million times so unless you've been hiding something really well I don't think I'll be surprised."

Just being back in his arms draped you in a sense of calm. His loud heart beat accompanied by the rise and fall of his steady breath lulled you into a much needed sleep.

Your eyes crept open and looked at the clock, only 11:43. Laying your head back down you looked at Jungkook snoring peacefully. As much as you longed to keep him here until morning you knew he was superstitious. Leaning in to wake him with a kiss he smiled and pulled you back against his chest.

"Hey sleepy head."

He groaned under you as you poked him.

"You'd better get out of my room Jungkook, it's almost midnight."

Sitting up he rubbed his eyes and checked the time, "Shit."

He grabbed your hands in his and walked to the door.

"I guess I'll see you in a few hours?"

Wrapping your arms around him tightly you really didn't want to let him leave.

"Nothing to be nervous about. You've got a dress right?"

You nodded.

"Then all I need you to do is show up." He kissed your forehead and stepped into the hallway.

"Jungkook" he turned back, "I'll see you soon."

You were glad that from the moment your feet hit the floor there was a barrage of things to be done. Mimosa's with a massage, nails, hair, makeup. Jungkook had made sure you wanted for nothing.

You had no idea what to expect, you'd heard vague phone calls and caught small glimpses when he was planning but he'd really kept you in the dark.

Jungkook loved surprises and to his credit he was tremendously good at them. He wanted you to have a perfect stress free wedding giving you only two tasks,

1. find a dress

2. show up and say I do

The door swung open and your best friend stood grinning from ear to ear.

"I know I'm your maid of honor but I hate you so much right now," she pouted. "I don't know how anyone will ever top what Jungkook has done for you down there."

You laughed and it felt good to break the tension. "You specifically mean Yoongi topping it for you? Don't worry he already asked for my help."

Her jaw almost hit the floor.

"Shit, damnit, I didn't say that! Don't tell him you know, he'll kill me!"

Dancing around the room she squealed in happiness. "Would you be mad if I asked Jungkook to plan it?"

"Is it that good? Is he already down there, did you see him?"

She nodded, "Everything is amazing, and he's so happy and he looks so handsome"

You exhaled deeply, "I guess there's only one thing left to do."

She threw open the door, "Let's go get you married!"

Sunset in Jeju, there wasn't a more perfect time or place.

Wooden boards lay across the sand leading to the exact spot Jungkook had proposed. There, up the row of candles under the fairy light arch stood the man who would be your husband.

Nothing but him existed beyond that. All you could see was his handsome face and small nervous smile, his hands wringing together to keep from fidgeting and�� the reddening of his ears as you got closer.

Surrendering the bouquet you had to touch him, you needed his hands in yours. Steady and firm, together you grounded each other.

"Y/N, People think our story started on a rain soaked camping trip. I don't believe that's true, that's just where it got good. Our story began in the stars, It's the only possible way to explain how much I already knew I loved you. I promise to fill your life with happiness, love, and blanket forts for as long as you'll let me. Y/N, I love you so much and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

"Jungkook, Not a day goes by that you don't make me fall in love with you a little more. Not a day that you don't make me laugh or that you make me feel loved, and from here on out there will not be a day that we'll be apart. I can't wait to see what our future holds, and I hope that 50 years from now our grown children will think we're crazy because we're still building forts in our living room. All that matters in my life is that I get to love you. Jungkook, you'll always be my iron man and I love you 3000." The tears started but he managed a laugh at your private joke.

You swept his tears away with a brush of your thumbs and he kissed you. Husband and wife.

Everyone was gone. The last goodbye was said and you made your way back to the reception area.

You stopped to watch him. He was sitting by himself, a smile on his face staring up into the sky. Your husband was so beautiful.

Walking towards him you caught his eye and his face lit up like all the stars in heaven. You held out your hand, "One more dance?"

He wrapped his arms around you and you swayed together under the night sky. Waves rolled in place of music and the moon shone a personal spotlight down on you.

"Today was perfect Jungkook"

"It's not over," he stopped to lay a sweet kiss on your lips before smiling and taking your hand.

Walking through the sand he led you to the seaside suite and slid the door open.

"This is the part where I'm supposed to pick you up and carry you inside."

You couldn't help but laugh, "Are you asking me or warning me?"

"Close your eyes"

"So warning me?"

"Please Y/N."

Sweeping you up he carried you into the room and set you down.

"Open!"

There in front of you the entire room was draped in white sheets and hanging lights. The bed sat inside the biggest fort you'd ever seen.

In complete awe you turned to look at him, tears in your eyes yet smiling from ear to ear. He knew he did good.

"Jungkook this is amazing!"

He was so excited to show off.

"And look," he pointed to the tray beside the fireplace. "We've got champagne and all the stuff to make S'mores."

He buzzed around the room pointing out all the little details.

"Jungkook, you forgot one thing."

His face fell as he tried to figure out what important thing he'd missed.

"What did I forget?"

Walking towards him your hands ran down his crisp shirt and undid his belt.

"The part where you're supposed to make love to your wife for the first time…"

Waking up to walls of white sunlight while wrapped naked against your husband's warm body you'd never felt more content. His dark hair was wild against the pillow and you couldn't help but stare and wonder how you were chosen to be the luckiest person alive.

Soft snores let you know he wasn't deep in his sleep and he easily woke when you kissed his swollen lips.

"Hey," he smiled, "what time is it?"

Pulling the sheets off it was exactly what you'd hoped to find. Despite the evening's satisfaction his cock stood firm, thick and ambitious.

"More?" he questioned with a smile.

You nodded while straddling his hips. "Sorry, I guess this is your life now."

He sat up to wrap his arms tightly around you as you took him in. Bare chests pressed together and the feeling of your hearts beating in unison.

He kissed his way up your neck, "And what a great life it's going to be."

#Jungkook #jungkook scenario #bts jungkook #bts #happy jk day #golden closet

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ranhaitanisgf · 3 years

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August 30th!! Ur lucky school for u starts so late. For me its August 18th😥

im new here by the way its nice to meet you 🙇🏾‍♀️🙇🏾‍♀️🙇🏾‍♀️

ughh no that sucks 😭 i usually go back to school septembers seventh but for some reason we're going back like a week early this year smhh

and nice to meet you too! we love new people interacting here!! <3333

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boxed-toast · 3 years

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Pyrite and Hairbands

A wlw short story, by me!

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"Mommmm Ali hit me," Heather shrieks. "Alicia how many times do I have to tell you, don't hit your little sister," Heather glares at me. Blood drips from my arm. Heather stabbed me with a pen. I didn't even hit her back this time, but it's pointless to argue. I just try to put pressure on my arm where she stabbed me. When we get home I run to the bathroom and grab a bandage Then, I just hide in my room hoping she'll just leave me alone. I feel like my body never fully heals from the damage she does. I've always got scabs and bruises.

~~~~ School is incredibly boring. we learned everything we're doing two years ago and then again last year, but at least it's easy. At lunch Claire and Alex sit with me. Sometimes it feels like they're the only people in the world who pay attention to me. "Can I have that?" Claire points to one of the hair ties on my wrist. I pull it off and hand it to her. She stuffs into the huge black bag she always has with her. She pulls out a shiny little gold cube and hands it to me. "What's this?" "It's Pyrite. Miners used to find it and think they found gold. Sometimes it's called fool's gold." "Well it looks like gold to me," I put the Pyrite in my pocket. Alex hasn't said a word. She's just eating her sandwich in silence. "Dude, Alex, something up?" "It's all stupid." "What's stupid?" "Ughh, it's Mr. Pithers." "What did he do this time?" "Those two guys who sit next to me in his class decided to throw things at him while he wasn't looking. I think they were trying to get him in the back of the head, but he turned around and got hit in the nose with one of those little oranges." "What's wrong with that?" Claire asks. "It was my little orange. I didn't even see that they'd taken it, but of course he didn't believe me." "Ugh, that sucks. Did he say what he was going to do?" "He said after my other infractions that he'd have to think about it." "Shit, are you going to be okay?" "I dunno, the guy already hates my guts." Alex says staring at the ground. "It'll probably just be extra homework or something, that's what he did last year when I replaced all his dry erase markers with ones that didn't work," Claire never seems phased by anything. ~~~~ We walk to Claire's house after school. Her parents work late, so we have the place to ourselves. I like being here. Claire's cats are cute. Alex sits of the couch next to me. I like how she's pressed up against me. We're both doing homework. Claire sits on the floor across from us, a cat sits in her lap. Claire's reading something. After a few hours my mom calls and says she wants me home. The walk home is long and the rest of the night is filled with endless dull chores. ~~~~ "We're all going shopping for new clothes for your sister." Dad says. "I would really like to _not_ do that" "Alicia you are coming with us. Get in the car." Nothing in the world sounds less appealing than shopping with dad and Heather, but did isn't going to take no for an answer. I grab my DS and get in the car. Minutes pass, it takes forever to drive to the mall. I don't know how a town with nothing to do manages to have this much traffic. Where is everyone even going? "Dad, can I have a turn playing games now?" Oh god, here we go. "What? No, this is my DS. Did you bring yours?" "Daaaadddd" Heather kicks me in the leg and I yelp. "Dad she just kicked me." I say in a momentary lapse of judgement. "Alicia I swear to _God_ stop making problems and give your little sister a turn." Dad pounds the steering wheel with each word. "Ugh, fine whatever" She tries to scratch me as I hand her the DS. I just stare out the window for the rest of the drive. The store is fairly empty. The florescent lights make squiggly patterns on the tile floor. Heather tugs at my shirt. I turn to look at her. She lobs my DS at the ground with as much force as she can muster. It lets out an echoey crack as it hits the floor. "Oh my gosh, Heather are you okay?" Dad rushes in. Why does he fall for this every time? Is he really this stupid? "I'm sorry, I dropped it." Heather smiles up at him. I rush to my poor DS. There's a crack across the touch screen. I hold down the power button....and....nothing. It's dead. That DS was my birthday present last year. In the background dad is still reassuring Heather that everything is fine. The rest of the trip is just a blur of heather screaming and trying on clothes. She doesn't attack me again though. So, I guess that's something. ~~~~ At lunch the next day, Alex and Claire are in our usual spot. Alex is writing something on a little notepad. "Velociraptor, easy. I eat my prey while it's still alive" Claire has this look in her eyes. "Yess, I win again!" Alex responds, "Oh, oh oh Ali your next." "What am I next for?" I ask "It's a game. I have a list of questions, and I write down how I think you'll answer. And then I ask you the questions for real and we compare the results. It's shows like how much I know about you." "Learn anything interesting about Claire?" "Well I don't know, but I got 12 of 15 so I must know her pretty well." Alex says. "I need to work on being more mysterious." Claire makes a face at Alex, but I can tell she's having fun. "Okay, Ali. Let's do you. Gimme, a sec to fill these out." Alex starts scribbling on her little notepad. Claire takes a grape from my lunch and replaces it with a slice of orange. "Okay, ready!" Alex looks up from her notepad. "We'll start with the easy ones. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?" "Chocolate" "Favorite color?" "Purple. Was that what you had?" "Yeah, but these are just the easy ones." Alex says "Okay, well ask me a hard one then." "Okay, okay, According to the infinite wisdom of Ali, what is the greatest song ever written?" Alex has that spark in her eyes. I just want to stare at her, but she's too much and I look away. "Oh that is a hard one, umm When September Ends" "Aw, miss" Alex scribbles something on her paper. "She's a sucker for the sad ones." Claire says between bites of sandwich. "What was your guess, Alex?" I ask "Well I wasn't totally sure, but I had Mr Brightside" "It's a close second." Two boys walk up behind Alex. "Heyy Alex, It's goin down tomorrow, you better be..." "Fuck off, Kyle." Alex glares at one of the boys. "Hey, I'm just trying to warn you is all." He responds. "Fuck _off_, Kyle." Alex repeats. Kyle shakes his head and the two boys walk off. The bell rings. I scarf down the rest of my lunch, and we head to our afternoon classes. ~~~~ At dinner, mom keeps going on and on about how talented Heather is. She's doing gymnastics or something. After dinner I have to clean the house. Heather can't help because she's "too tired" from practice. Mom finally runs out of things to have me do, and I manage to hide in my room. ~~~~ It looks like Alex is late again today. We have social studies together, 1st period. I keep waiting for her to walk through the door, but she never does. Between classes, I decide to wait by her locker hoping to catch her before the next one. Her lock is gone. I open the locker and peer in. The empty locker shocks me a little, did they move her locker? Did something happen with Mr. Pithers? I can't stop thinking about Alex for the rest of the morning. Claire and I sit opposite each other in the cafeteria. "Have you seen Alex?" I ask. "I don't know for certain, but from what I heard a bunch of boys were found with drugs, they told everyone they got them from Alex, and so Alex got sent to juvi." Part of me heard Claire, and that part of me knows what's happening, but I just can't accept it. I can't believe it. Claire takes a bite out of her sandwich and it takes an eternity. I keep feeling Alex next to me and then seeing that she's not there. Some part of my brain is playing her laugh on repeat, and it cuts just a little bit each time. "We have to help her. We have to do something." I hear myself say. "We can do something." Claire says, her voice doesn't show it, but I can tell she's really upset. "Do you mean like, telling people it wasn't her?" "No, I mean making a trade," Claire's voice is steady, but I can tell she's forcing it, "Someone else for Alex." "You mean like, tell the cops it was someone else? Why would they believe us?" "I'm not talking about convincing the cops, or anyone else for that matter. I'm talking about a simple trade." I nod in response, but I have no idea what she means. "Who do you know that you wouldn't miss?" The bell rings. ~~~~ After 4th period, I rush over to Claire's locker. I have to push passed masses of 8th graders. I feel like everyone is staring at me. "Busted" Someone half sings at me. I don't see who it is. Claire is rummaging through something in her locker, but I can't quite make out what it is. "Claire, you said we could make a trade. What did you mean?" I ask. She looks up, "Bring someone to me after school today. We can exchange their life for Alex. So let me ask you again, is there anyone you wouldn't miss?" I'd ask more questions, but I don't have time. I have to push my way back through the 8th graders, and I probably only have about half a minute to do it. "Yes," I say to Claire, "there is" ~~~~ The moment the bell rings, I rush out towards the Elementary school. Heather is outside waiting for mom. I tell her she has to walk home with me today. She rolls her eyes, but she follows. Around the corner Claire is waiting for us. "Do you still want to do this, Ali?" Claire asks. I nod, I still don't really know what I'm agreeing to but it doesn't seem like a good idea to ask while Heather is right next to me. "Then follow me," Claire says, she turns We walk out past the football field, into a forest. I don't think I've ever actually been back here before. "This isn't the way home!" Heather shouts. "It's a shortcut," Claire responds. "Ugh why are you here." The pine trees and short, just a few feet taller than we are. They're young and dense. The path between them is windy and narrow. The ground is bright green pine needles caked in red clay. I keep expecting Heather to run off, or scream at us, but she doesn't. She just follows. Pine needles brush up against my arms. I feel like the forest is squeezing us in more and more as we go. Claire marches forward. Eventually we come to a clearing. The trees form a perfect circle around us. I can't even make out the path we came from. Heather is uncharacteristically quiet. "Hold her," Claire grabbing Heather and turning her back to me. I comply. Claire takes a knife from the pocket of her hoodie. Before I even have time to react, she flicks the blade out,and gashes Heather across the chin. Heather starts shrieking. A splatter of blood hits the ground and the earth beneath us shifts. I'm thrown off balance, but my muscles contract and I dig my fingernails into Heather's shoulders. Claire is shouting something but I can't understand the words. The trees are moving now. Swaying back and forth. My ears are ringing from Heather’s wailing. She kicks my shins, but I don't feel it. The ground beneath heather opens up to reveal a mass of writhing roots. Claire utters a single ear splitting syllable. The roots rush up and wrap themselves around Heather and wrench her from my grasp. Her skin turns white and she goes silent as the breath is expelled from her lungs. The roots crush and tear at Heather's body like a giant mouth. Bits of flesh and bone snap and rip apart until there's nothing left. The ground shakes and in a wave the earth rushes in to cover the roots. I'm knocked off my feat and I feel my back hit the ground with a thud. Everything goes quiet. The trees are still. Claire stands over me. "It's time to go," She says. The path back to the school feels much shorter than before. The spacing between the trees is comfortable. By the time we get back to the school the sun has already started to set. I half walk, half jog home. ~~~~ It's dark by the time I get home. I figure mom must have realized that Heather is missing by now. I don't think anyone saw me pick her up, but the thought still gnaws at me. I swallow hard and open the front door. To my surprise, dad is just sitting watching the TV. "Hey honey." He says. "Hey, dad" I respond nervously. "There's some food on the counter for you." He continues. What the fuck is going on. I am actually really hungry. I eat the food at the table. Cautiously, I walk down the hall to my room. I push the door open. All my stuff is gone, it's gone. Desks line the room, mom sits at one of them typing on her computer. She spins around to face me. "You were out late." she says, totally calmly. "Claire and I were doing homework together." I respond reflexively. Suddenly the pieces fall together. We didn't just kill heather. We erased her. "Did you want something?" Mom asks. "I just came to say hi. " I say. "Hi, Alicia." she says, "Hey can you put these in the dishwasher for me?" Mom hands me a plate. I walk down the hall to what used to be Heather's room. I take a deep breath and open the door. All my stuff is here. My DS sits on the bed. I press the power button and the screen comes to life. I distract myself with Pokemon until it's 1am and I pass out. ~~~~ Alex is standing beside her locker when I get to school. I run up to her and hug her. I feel a weight lift off my shoulders as her arms wrap around me. She's really back, she's real. I kiss Alex on the cheek. I know I should feel bad about what we did. I should be afraid of Claire. I should probably be afraid of myself. I just killed, no I just erased Heather, my own flesh and blood. But Alex kisses me back, and I'm happy.

#writeblr #short story #slice of life #gay #horror #wlw

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youdreamincolour · 3 years

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i just need to vent

i honestly dont know if i was being stupid or if i was being led on by the guy i liked

i don't want to come across incel-y (bc i don't think that bc i was nice to him i deserve something in return) but im just so angry at this whole situation. the way he spoke to me and the things we talked about dont just seem like 2 people who were just friends. we'd talk about what we wanted out of relationships and like really sexual stuff too. also he constantly complimented me, calling me stunning and gorgeous when I posted a selfie, and he seemed very appreciative when I said he looked good and how I liked seeing his face bc I missed him. he also mentioned that red heads were just his type, how me liking metal made me the perfect woman, and shit like that. how the fuck did he think that came across? sending me music and videos because they made him think about me. sending me flirty memes. like what the hell I am supposed to think? we’d stay up late on discord calls and just talk about everything and nothing, it just felt easy.

we really opened up to each other, and he made me feel safe. like we talked about our mental health and our past traumas. he gave me this kind of security and comfort that ive never had with anyone else.

i feel like i just ignored every red flag. like he said that all his ex’s were psychos and other shit that didnt really sit right with me. but i just ignored it all because i really liked him.

and the other major problem is that my friend also told him she likes him and he likes her back. I've know her since the start of uni, so like 6 years, and I've never known her to be interested in anyone, like she said she was aromantic before, so has he played her too to get what he wants? like the 2 of us are pretty inexperienced when it comes to relationships, so was he taking advantage of that? I just don't know. like I don't want her to get hurt, idk if he told her what I said but I feel like I can't say anything to her bc I'll come across as a bitter bitch who got turned down. ugh. I just don't want to see her get hurt. I care about her too much to hurt her, but I don't want him to hurt her either.

another thing i dont get is that he would openly flirt with me in front of her too. like the 3 of us were playing red dead online last week, we were fucking about and playing with the lassos, and he made a comment about how he’d like to be tied up by me. and at another point we were hunting, so we were crouched and my characters arse was in his face, and he commented on it, and i said “you love it though”, and said “definitely”. like how am i supposed to take that?

also back in september our friend group went camping (this was when lock down restrictions were lifted so we werent breaking any rules) the two of us ended up having a tickle fight (which got pretty intense and i felt like it would have gone further if the others werent there.) And then afterwards when the 2 of us were out of energy we just lay there curled up in each other just talking about absolute shit bc everyone else had fallen asleep. When we settled down to sleep we were still curled in each other. He also made a comment about the noises i made while being tickled, that he was going to store it away for future reference. like what the fuck is that meant to mean if he wasnt interested??????????

i just feel so stupid, did he take me for an idiot or was i just seeing shit that wasnt there?

sorry this is a fucking essay but i needed to get this out. and i just wish i could speak to someone about but obviously i cant talk to my friend about it bc i dont want to hurt her. and i cant speak to our other friend about bc we only became good friends after we went on a date together. and i dont want to put this on him bc it doesnt seem fair ughh.

fuck me jfc

#sorry for venting but i needed this #theres only so much of this i can talk to my mum about without it being super awkward #fuck having feelings #i hate it

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quentinxdelancret · 4 years

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Discord Text Thread || Quentin & Dorian

Discord thread featuring: Quentin and Dorian

When: September 26th-27th

Mentions: Jaycee

Description:Quentin texts Dorian after their date and then asks if it’s okay to sleep over. He texts him again the next day and things get a little more personal. {sleep over thread to follow}

Trigger Warning: drug mentions and light dirty talk.

Quentin. I bet you can’t guess what’s been on my mind all day....

DORIAN What’s been on your mind all day, handsome?

Quentin. You!

DORIAN Awww.

Quentin. You doing alright today, darlin? Not missing me too bad are ya?

DORIAN Yeah, I’m doing okay. I am missing you though. How are you?

Quentin. That’s good. Not that you’re missing me, but that you’re good. I’ve been pretty good myself, can’t complain. Definitely missing you too though.

DORIAN it’s good to know the feeling is mutual. what have you been up to today?

Quentin. It is isn’t it? I haven’t been up to too much. Working on my next cover and leveling out. How about you?

DORIAN Ooh, what’s the plan for the next cover? I’ve just been chilling today tbh. Having a lazy day.

Quentin. Well, since you’ve been on my mind nonstop, I was thinking something sweet. It seemed relevant. oh yeah? Want some company?

DORIAN Yeah? Like what? Yes please.

Quentin. Hmm, I’d tell you but I don’t wanna ruin the element of surprise. ahhh, thank god!

DORIAN So cute.

Quentin. Yes, yes you are.

DORIAN Nooo, you.

Quentin. Me? Naaah. It’s totally you babe.

DORIAN I refuse to accept that. it’s you.

Quentin. Ughh, fine. But only if I get to kiss you again. Fair?

DORIAN You can kiss me as much as you want.

Quentin. Oh yeah?

DORIAN Yeah.

Quentin. Ooooh, I hope I don’t make you regret that lol how are you so perfect?

DORIAN I doubt you will. I’m not.

Quentin. Seriously, I’m gonna smother you if you keep being so hard on yourself. New rule, you can only be hard on me

DORIAN I’m sorry. When you’ve been through as much awful shit as I have, it’s difficult not to be hard on yourself.

Quentin. I understand, I promise I do. But, you’re so fuckin amazing, baby. You should know that, and I’m gonna make sure you realize it every time I’m around.

DORIAN You’re gonna make me melt. You can’t be that sexy, speak French, and be nice to me. I’m gonna fall head over heels.

Quentin. I could say the exact same thing about you. Except the French part.. but I could teach you the basics. like French kissing

DORIAN I think I already know quite a bit about that.

Quentin. Yep, yeah you definitely do. You kiss like a pro.

DORIAN Heh. Thanks babe. You’re a pretty damn good kisser yourself.

Quentin. I’m glad you think so. Cause my lips are gonna be all over you every chance I get

DORIAN All over me?

Quentin. Uhm... yes?

DORIAN You hesitated.

Quentin. ha, hardly. Just don’t wanna get punished before I get started.

DORIAN You totally did hesitate. Why would you be punished?

Quentin. Oh, darlin. You can trust when I say there would definitely be no hesitation. Idk, haha. You’re the one who likes to be in control.

DORIAN Okay, good to know. You’d have to give me a reason to punish you and so far I have not seen one.

Quentin. That’s good. I’m not sure how extent these punishments get. But, I’m not ready to find out just yet either.

DORIAN Heh.

Quentin. Something about the way you say that always seems so naughty. I like it!

DORIAN Good.

Quentin. soooo... can I stay the night?

DORIAN Oh... yes. I’d like that.

Quentin. you hesitated.

DORIAN Only because I wasn’t expecting you to ask me that.

Quentin. No? I’m pretty addicted to you.

DORIAN oh are you?

Quentin. I am, It’s terrible. I can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t do anything without wanting to be with you.

DORIAN I have that much of an effect on you already?

Quentin. Is that bad? That’s totally bad isn’t it?

DORIAN No. it’s sweet and flattering.

Quentin. Are you gonna break my heart Dorian Taylor?

DORIAN No! I don’t have any intention to at least. Are you gonna break mine?

Quentin. Hmm, depends on whether you break mine first.

DORIAN 😒

Quentin. Don’t make that face. I don’t want to break your heart. I just wanna love you

DORIAN oh you just wanna love me huh? & I can make that face if I want to.

Quentin. that’s what I said. fine be mean lol

DORIAN Cutie. I’m not mean.

Quentin. you’re right, you’re not.

DORIAN I can be if I’m pushed to the point where I feel like someone deserves it. But not for no reason.

Quentin. I feel that. Me too.

DORIAN Mhm.

Quentin. you don’t believe me? Haha

DORIAN No, I believe you. I just didn’t know how else to respond lol.

Quentin. Ah, haha okay. I’m really not that mean ever. Maybe a little cold but not really mean.

DORIAN Good to know, baby.

Quentin. I don’t think I’d ever be cold with you though. You’re a too sweet.

DORIAN You’re my bad boy with a soft spot for only me huh?

Quentin. haha you think I’m a bad boy? I definitely have a soft spot for only you though.

DORIAN you told me you were.

Quentin. Oh hahaha Maybe I’m a little bad

DORIAN

😅

Quentin. 🙈

DORIAN you’re so cuuuute.

Quentin. I’m something. Hahah

DORIAN You’re sexy and charming.

Quentin. Oh, wow. Smooth.

DORIAN Heh.

[ THE NEXT DAY SEPTEMBER 27TH ]

Quentin. I swear people think I’m crazy. All I do is smile idiotically at my phone lol

DORIAN You’re so adorable. What do you have going on today? I was sad when you had to leave.

Quentin. I did have an interview. But it’s over now, and I’m just laying on my couch talking to you.

DORIAN an interview?

Quentin. Yeah, KJ 104.3 The buzzz

DORIAN Oohhh interesting.

Quentin. Yeah, it was alright. But they always give me shit for starting out as a cliche cover band and continuing to do covers.

DORIAN Fuck them then.

Quentin. Yeah, fuck em all! Doesn’t help my brother, aka my drummer is on holiday. So I was solo

DORIAN I miss you.

Quentin. aww babe. I miss you too, very much! do you wanna see me?

DORIAN 🙈 😘 Yes.

Quentin. I can come back over.

DORIAN Do you want to?

Quentin. Yes, I do.

DORIAN Okay great.. I didn’t wanna pressure you into doing something you didn’t feel like doing.

Quentin. I always wanna see you

DORIAN Yeah? Glad it’s not just me.

Quentin. Oh yeah, definitely not just you darlin.

DORIAN You are soooo hot.

Quentin. you keep making my blush. you’re hot. So scorching baby

DORIAN Awww, I bet you look so cute when you blush. Thank you babe.

Quentin. I think we have a real issue here

DORIAN What’s that?

Quentin. I don’t know how I’m ever gonna keep my hands off of you

DORIAN I’d say you don’t have to but there are some places where you have to keep your hands to yourself lol.

Quentin. some places?

DORIAN Yeah there are some public places where we could get in trouble for being too handsy.

Quentin. oh haha. I thought you meant on your body

DORIAN omg lol. No.

Quentin. ha, good to know.

DORIAN 🤣

Quentin. could you imagine? You can touch me every where. Just not there

DORIAN Lol. I’m sure there are people like that, I’m just not one of them.

Quentin. yeah, no Christian Grey here thanks

DORIAN Lmaooo.

Quentin. Although, I did use to have an use with somethiiiing ha I’ll keep that to myself for now though

DORIAN you used to have what now?

Quentin. nothing lmao

DORIAN it just seemed like you made a typo lol.

Quentin. maybe I did

DORIAN I’m just confused

Quentin. No I definitely did lmao just go with it lmao

DORIAN I can’t I need to know what you were trying to say.

Quentin. lmao God I was just trying to say, I used to have an issue with a certain something. But not anymore

DORIAN Hmm. I probably wouldn’t have understood what you meant anyway, since I refuse to read the books or see those movies.

Quentin. You refuse? I wasn’t actually referring to the movie though lol. Just myself in general.

DORIAN Yeah. I’ve read a couple excerpts online and have read a bunch of think pieces about how it’s not a positive representation of the BDSM community. oh okay. Thought you were referencing the books or movies.

Quentin. Nah, I’ve seen the movies and they kinda suck. But the books, just wow. I don’t care about any of those though. Just you and me

DORIAN The writing that I did read from the first book was... very poor. But idk, maybe it improved throughout the series who knows. How romantic. Are you almost here?

Quentin. Yeah, it’s not very good at all. I am, just stopped for some rolling papers. Do you smoke?

DORIAN Nah, haven’t smoked in years lol. I don’t mind if you do though.

Quentin. That’s awesome! I applaud you. It’s a nasty habit, but I wasn’t actually talking about cigarettes lol

DORIAN I know what you’re talking about lol.

Quentin. well okay then

DORIAN at least I’m pretty sure I do.

Quentin. Hahaha. I was just talking the magical grass.

DORIAN okay so I was right lol.

Quentin. I don’t really smoke anything else besides cigarettes which is gross

DORIAN people smoke a lot of things nowadays.

Quentin. Like opiummm that shits whack ha

DORIAN yeahhh... y i k e s.

Quentin. I did that once when I was like 19z suddenly I was 20 and I didn’t remember shit lmao -z maybe I don’t need any more weed lmao

DORIAN oh shit lol. I’ve never done any hard drugs, I’m proud to say.

Quentin. Really? You just don’t want to... or?

DORIAN Don’t want to.

Quentin. That’s cool. I wish I had your will power

DORIAN I’ve always been really strong minded.

Quentin. that’s good though. Where do you stand on other people doing them?

DORIAN Um. I can’t tell people how to live their lives but I don’t want them to do it around me and I can only hope that they’re being as safe as possible. It would actually really trigger me if it was done around me.

Quentin. Oh, okay.

DORIAN Yeah..

Quentin. So, around you like... on them around you or actually doing it around you?

DORIAN Doing it around me. But also if it’s on them around me in a place where we could get in trouble if someone found it, that’d obviously be a problem too because I’m not tryna catch a charge.

Quentin. Right, makes sense. I guess this would be a good time to tell you, I have a bit of an addiction.

DORIAN I figured there was a reason you had so many questions about it.

Quentin. Well, yeah. I really like you. I don’t wanna mess this up.

DORIAN I really like you too.

Quentin. I’m a little scared to say any more about it. Not gonna lie.

DORIAN Be honest with me, baby. I told you from the jump that I needed that from you. The fact that you even care about how it makes me feel says a lot about how you feel about me.

Quentin. I just don’t wanna lose this, Whatever this is. You’re kinda intimidating ya know? But I don’t really have anything to hide. I do like to feel good though. Everyday. Fuck, I just ruined this didn’t I?

DORIAN No.

Quentin. Are you sure?

DORIAN Yeah. I’m just a little thrown off. And wondering what exactly it is that you do but also wondering if I’m better off not knowing.

Quentin. I mean, I’m pretty sure you’ve seen glimpses of me throwing around shrooms in the general chat. But that’s not my main addiction. I’m kinda bias and don’t really think it’s that bad of a drug. But again, I take it a lot, and half the time you can’t even tell I’m on anything

DORIAN I very rarely go in the group chat so no I haven’t.

Quentin. Oh. Well shit. I really don’t do shrooms a lot though.

DORIAN it is what it is, Quentin. Thanks for being honest.

Quentin. Look, I’m not like, I’m not trying to make light of any of this. But, I could totally go without doing shrooms. That’s not the issue, it’s the molly. It’s why Jaycee and I split up. but since you’ve known me, have I been like a fucked up mess?

DORIAN Molly? I’ve never heard of anybody being addicted to that. As far as I knew, that was a really recreational drug. And I also didn’t know you’d been with Jaycee. Oop lol. No you haven’t.

Quentin. Yeah, it usually is I guess. It’s just like I said, I like to feel good. Idk, it’s not a good thing to be addicted to or admitting. I’m sorry. ha, yeah. We were. And I’m glad I haven’t. that counts for something right?

DORIAN Do you have any intention on slowing down or? Not for me of course but for you. Because like I said I’m not gonna tell you how to live your life, I just want you to be safe. But if you’re acknowledging that you have a problem, then that gives me the impression there’s something you wanna fix.

Quentin. I didn’t really, no. I guess maybe it I found something that replaced that high. I don’t know. I know I have a problem, but knowing it isn’t as easy as fixing it. I’m sorry Dorian.

DORIAN It’s s okay. You don’t need to be sorry.

Quentin. Should I not come over now?

DORIAN Babe. No. I still want you to come over.

Quentin. You sure?

DORIAN You keep asking me and I won’t be. 😛

Quentin. Ah, crap. Okay lol

DORIAN I appreciate that you care so much though.

Quentin. I really do. I really like you, and how I feel when I’m with you. I just, don’t wanna mess that up.

DORIAN That’s so sweet, baby.

Quentin. you’re sweet.

DORIAN Oh yeah? Do you want a taste?

Quentin. Soooo badly.

DORIAN How badly baby?

Quentin. So bad it hurts. But like, in the best possible way.

DORIAN Then hurry up and get your sexy ass over here.

Quentin. yessir.

DORIAN 😏

Quentin. God damn you’re fire.

DORIAN Aw shucks. Making me blush.

Quentin. ha, and I’m only getting started.

DORIAN I can’t wait to kiss you.

Quentin. Good, cause I’m never gonna stop.

#text #texts.#chats:dorian #chats:discord #ft.dorian #ft.jaycee #tw:drug mention

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Stray kids Zombie Apocalypse au: How the reader meets the boys

English is in bold

It was mid September, 2024 when you found them.

Seungmin was replacing Hyunjin on an emergency supply trip in the next town over with Changbin

They walked into what one would assume to be a grocery store

They were loud and frantic, looking for their required items; both practically shouting to eachother as they looked through separate aisles

Until Seungmin stopped replying

When Changbin noticed and went to check on him, he was greeted with an awful sight

Your knife on Seungmin's neck

Changbin slowly reached for his bat but before he could touch it, a different knife flew past his head

He watched as you whispered something in the younger boy's ear and turned your eyes back to him

"Hyung," Seungmin said, voice barely above a whisper, "Don't freak out but she says to quietly walk over here. Now."

Changbin didn't move from his spot, debating on whether he could take her in a fight alone if she did kill Seungmin

After 5 seconds, the girl whispered in Seungmin's ear again

"Don't try to fight back.. please."

Changbin slowly walked over to the two of them and once he was about 3 feet away, the girl whispered into Seungmin's ear once more

"Hyung, drop the bat. She said she won't hurt us."

Changbin fake laughed, "Yeah, not hurt us my ass. She has a knife to your neck."

"Just do what she said."

Changbin grabbed his bat, raised it up horizontally so she could see it, and dropped it.

The girl turned her head the the left and watched as a zombie shuffled down the aisle right next to them

She removed the knife from Seungmin's throat and started pulling him quickly down the aisle with Changbin following close behind

As they were sneaking around the zombie, Changbin was able to get a good look at the girl.

She wore a thick, military style jumpsuit with a black top underneath. The pants of her knee and the toe of her boots were covered in thin sheet of metal that looked very worn out. Around her waist was a gun holder with one in it, a fanny pack like pouch, and two knife holders.

Her left shoulder had a U.S. flag embroidered into it

The girl took them to the front left corner of the store and placed a finger over her mouth.

"Stay here. Make no noise."

The girl makes he way down the middle of the store and grabs a can off the shelf next to her. She examines the can then shrugs her shoulders.

"..Yeet."

The zombie shuffled towards the sound the can of beans produced and looked up to see the girl across the store.

Said girl tightened her grip on the knife and ran down the aisle, dropping down and sliding once she got close enough

She slid through the zombie's legs and once behind it, stood and jabbed the knife into the back of its neck.

A sigh of relief could be heard from her as she removed the blade from the permanently dead body.

She began checking all the aisle and once done called out to the two men.

"The coast is clear."

Changbin was the first to move from his spot and run towards where he had dropped his bat.

Seungmin, however, stood still as he watched the girl return to where she left them, hands covered in the blood of the zombie

"Thank you, I think."

The girl rolled her shoulder and continued walking towards him.

"The Guardian Angels, huh?" She said, pointing to the patch on his jacket, "How long have y'all been out here?"

Seungmin had to think about it, briefly placing his hand over the patch, then trailing his hand down his arm.

"Uhh, I think a little over two years now. What abo-"

"That's a stupid question. Take a good look at her. She's in the military. She's probably been out here for a good year and a half at most," Changbin huffed from behind her.

"Wow," the girl chuckled, "Right on the money. I'm Corporal L/N but that title means nothing out here soo you can just call me Y/N."

Changbin walked over to where Seungmin was standing and stuck out his hand.

"I'm Changbin and he's Seungmin. I'd say it's nice to meet you but you did have a knife to his neck."

"A Corporal? Woah.." Seungmin's Mouth in an O shape, "Wait, do you know how to treat bullet wounds?"

Y/N, taken back by the question, just nodded her head

Seungmin turned towards Changbin, "Hyung, we should take her back to camp. She could help Minho-hyung."

"Minho?" She looked in between the two of them, "Who's that?"

"He's our medic," Changbin, who looks like he just figured out the meaning of life, pointed at her, "And you could help save his life. Can you come with us?"

Y/N stood there thinking for a second, "Okay. I have 3 questions. Where is the wound? How long ago did he get shot? Is he conscious?"

Changbin answered, "In his right leg, about 3 hours ago, and no. He passed out soon after getting shot. We've stopped his bleeding but he was the only one who knew what to do next."

"Okay, we gotta leave now. We'll have to stop at my base first though. I need to grab something important."

Changbin nodded his head and the two of them started to leave the store before Y/N stopped them

"Wait, I also need to grab the proper supplies for the job," she turned and started walking towards the medicine section of the store, "And I'm assuming you two didn't come in here for nothing."

"Oh,, right. Actually we came here to get some stuff to help him," Seungmin chuckled.

After Y/N grabbed everything that she needed, the three of them headed to her base.

Her place was in an abandoned apartment building just down the road so it didn't take long

When she came back down from her makeshift home, all she had was a backpack with a lock connected the two zippers on the main pouch of the bag

Changbin questioned her about it to which she replied with "It's really none of your business, is it?"

He dropped it and soon they were heading to where the boys' camp was

After a good hour, they began approaching what Seungmin called 'Jisung's last defense'

The two boys guided Y/N around all the traps and homemade explosions Jisung had laid

Half way through the explosion zone, an arrow flew past Y/N's head and a faint "Ughh, Seungmin-hyung is a much better shot with this than I am." could be heard

Seungmin looked towards where the arrow came from, "Jeongin! It's okay, she's here to help Minho-hyung!"

Queue an "oh shit." from Jeongin.

Changbin turned and grabbed the arrow that was fired and continued walking towards a campsite, hidden in the bushes.

Following him, Y/N took a look at her new surroundings.

3 other boys could be seen on the ground around a fire pit, 1 other, who Y/N assumed to be Jeongin, was up in a tree, and another was standing outside of a tent-like structure.

Jeongin jumped out of the tree he was positioned in and ran to Seungmin, "Is she really here to help?"

Y/N answered for him, "Of course. Where's the injured?"

The guy by the tent called out to her, gesturing into the tent.

Y/N made her way into the tent to be greeted with 2 boys next to each other; one laying on a bed of leaves and one running his hand through the other's hair

She placed the bag of medical supplies next to the unconscious boy and began to inspect his wound

The other boy watched as she removed the dirty bandage from the first one's leg, grabbing her wrist when the unconscious boy showed discomfort.

"Jisung, let her go. She's just trying to help. No matter what, it's gonna hurt him. You should know that."

Y/N turned to see two boys; the boy who was standing outside the tent and another with freckles lacing his face

Freckle boy walked over to Jisung and grabbed his arm, "Come on, let's give her some space."

The one who stood by the door moved and kneeled down next to Y/N.

"Can I help with anything?"

Y/N nodded her head an pulled so rubbing alcohol out of her bag, "Hold him down."

After she was done with his leg, Y/N stood up and exited the tent

Once she did, she saw Jisung, surrounded by 4 other guys, crying outside of another tent

She approached the crowd cleared her throat

All 5 boys looked up at her

"Umm, I removed the bullet and closed the wound. Luckily, the bullet didn't hit anything too important. It'll take a while but he'll be able to walk again once it completely heals."

The 4 surrounding Jisung sighed with relief while Jisung just cried harder

One of the boys stood up, "I really can't thank you enough. It means a lot to us." He smiled and stuck his hand out, "The name's Woojin."

She took his hand and shook it, "Y/N."

Woojin turned and started pointing to different boys

"The boy crying is Jisung but I think you already knew that," Woojin gave her an awkward toothy grin before continuing, "The one next to him with the freckles and deep voice is Felix, the boy who shot the arrow at you earlier is Jeongin, and the one with the mole under his eye is Hyunjin."

Y/N waved at the boys and did that white person smile (you know the one i'm talking about)

"Who's the one in the tent with Minho?"

"That's chan," Changbin said from behind her, "Simply put, he's our leader."

Jeongin got up from Jisung's side and walked over to Y/N

"So, tell us about yourself."

I know this has a sudden end but it'll make sense as the story goes on.

#stray kids #stray kids reactions #skz #stray kids imagines #bang chan #woojin #minho #changbin #hyunjin #jisung #felix #seungmin #jeongin

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awesomeq1225 · 5 years

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6/24/19

Narrative Draft

The Daughter of Eden

“It’s alive, it’s alive” the performer exclaimed as he pulled the lever to activate the monster. Monster starts thumping around and breaking all the equipment with its large filthy hands. All the actors run away and the simulation ends when a burst of distant laughter grows near. “Heh lowlives, you think that is life? Or fantasy? Oh, how I wish I could see their faces when they see this.” a woman in half button up lab coat and remarks as she turns to look at a covered up preservation tank. She flicks her half lite e-cigarette and signs as she shuts off her study. As she drifts off a cool calm gust blows through an open window, which causes the drape to flutter. It reveals the rim of an empty tank with a titanium plaque: “Aptrova “Eve” Curie N0.XXX-07”.

“Lachia? Lachia?” A Portal calls from the far side of the room.

“Ughh what? What is so urgent that I miss sleep and at 3:00 am no less” The woman says as she drags herself out of her stasis vat.

“Eve she… she's missing” her assistant calls out worryingly.

“What? No, you’ve got… “ She remarks as she pulls the drape.

“Oh no, just when I thought this version was full proof” She collapses and screams in pain with one hand slipping from the tank. All of her memories flood in as she starts to destroy her work leading up to this point. Her assistant tries to cheer her up by showing her all the accomplishments of her work but nothing would suffice.

First holo video: September 23, 2023; Yorkshire Café___ A news Anchor with images of a potato with the headline “The new face of God” was broadcasted iridescently over the cityscape. While the people collectively roll their eyes and scoff, a much younger Lachia admires it in glee. Next to her is Claudia who almost spits out her tea with googly eyes. “What are you? Afraid? this is my calling! Its what leads to man's accomplishments to galactic recognition.”

“But, BUT Lacy you know their right and what this leads to?...”

“Sure, sure autonomy but we are their creator we.. you know what you're too cynical”

“Cynical? Cynical‽ have you not heard of AI, terminator, ex machina, Her?”

“Oh those, those are just fiction like they ever..” A robot rolls over to pick up their trays.

“Thank you,” Lachia says with a nervous laugh; Claudia sighs and pets her head as she hums “Caged bird”.

Meanwhile back at the lab, “ Cathy oh Cathy come back, I feel like a kid again; you were right all along.” Lachia mutters as she watches the memories go into the trash. She stops for a moment “Maybe I should just give up, or at least take a ‘holiday’” she sighs and drags herself outside and towards her old county. “Huh?“ she exclaims sometime later in front of the café “It’s still here? ‘No matter how far away from home is always near’” A tear drift down as she swipes to next video in her holotablet.

November 2nd, 2023 Charleston, NY-

Frantic typing could be heard from a dimly lit room on the far east side of the tristate area. “ Whatcha doing?” Claudia asked as she lends over Lachia’s shoulder.

“Oh, just signing up for labs. What about this one?” Lachia points to a webpage with a forest background ‘Eden: a new beginning”’

“Lacy, aren't you forgetting something?” '

'What?” “Nevermind, you know it requires you to have experience right?”

“ What? Is assisting not enough... You don't think i can do it do you?

“ No, I'm just being realistic” Claudia flicks to her own choice

“ Synthetica: a critical take on playing God” Lachia scoffs

“What's that another psych lab?”

“So what if it is at least I can foreseeably achieve my future…” “OUT OUT.”

“fine.” Claudia leaves and Lachia breaks her necklace in anger.

Lachia holds out the broken necklace as she goes to the center of the city. She passes by digital posters of Apotrova each more disfigured than the next.

“ No this doesn’t add up she couldn’t have been gone for this long” Suddenly, her necklace beings to ring

“ wait April? April? Aptrova?” Lachia calls out as the signal leads her to the tallest building in the city.

“ isn't this Central park tower? If so it's all barren. Of all places, why would she be her?” Lachia mutters as she moves on to the next video.

August 2025

A virtual letter lands on the balcony of the house one summer evening. Lachia picks it up and gasps “no way, I proved her wrong ?! sure it took two years but I knew I could count on it.” In the honor of her getting to the facility her family went to Central park tower. Lachia stood there in awe and wished that one day she could be working in that building. As they rode in the glass elevator she marveled more and more in how small the city looked under her. Meanwhile unbenounced to Lachia, Claudia was standing at the door of the elevator in fear not only to heights but also of how some it made her feel. At the 39th floor, Lachia went to the gift shop and got a snow globe to encapsle how much power she felt.

“ Dr? Dr?” the assistant calls out while looking over at the snow globe.

“She's been gone all morning and i'm worried that her work has gotten to her. I better call Claudia.”

The assistant calls Claudia by patching it through the snowglobe. The snowglobe works like a satellite and can work as a hub contact center. As Claudia’s phone rings, Lachia keeping climbing up the tower leading to the top floor. Claudia answers the phone and runs toward the rim of the town with her necklace tracker. “Only two more videos to go but cant i delete them”.

A tank can be seen on the far edge of Lachia’s lab with the label of EVE. “hmm i should be close to at least make a child but” Inside the tankis blob that barely has any resemble of any animal never to mention a human.

“How? We've mapped the genome of the human and all i did was done a bit of my hair for stem cells.” “What i am I missing?” she exclaims while going through tons of books and sites. Her assistant dust and clean the area in order to make sure there are no particles that has interfered with the experiment. “Think of what makes animals different from bacteria other than their complection.”suggests her assistant.

“Wait I've been focusing too much on the small building blocks not what they create together”

“yeah like tissues, system organs wait a heart”

“what do you mean?” “ in addition to structures they also make it possible to have feelings”

“That's it I’ve relayed too much biology that I haven’t realised what makes us unique. But Claudia is the only one I know who studies this stuff” she sighs as she glances at the tank.

“Oh how stupid I was back then to think that biology was a stand alone and most powerful of the sciences” Lachia shakes her head as she looks down form the top of the building mulling over her choices. She signs as she looks at the last memory and tries to delete it, but then she sees something at the corner of her eye, a light purple and black bow. She takes the bow as she moves to the last video.

2040

“One last touch” Lachia puts the bow on the latest verizon of EVE -XXXX07 and opens the clapsue. “Success” Eve starts to walk around the lab as Lachia and her assistants creates tests to make sure that she's fool proof.

“Movement check, organs check, simple problem solving check,emotions check, language” the assistants muttered as she performs each task with flying colors year after year. “Speak eve” commands Lachia.

*muffed robotic noises* “h___i” “hmm that's strange I made sure that none of the parts are robotic especially the vocal cords” She says as she tries to find out what's wrong. Eves vocal cords can be seen under an advanced x-ray machine and along with the other components of speech. The team zooms in to see blobs around those areas but aren’t sure why the voice is robotic.

The last year : “ahh” Eve swallows a microsurgeon pill and as it works the assistants double check. After a few minutes the pustules decrease and they prepare to test speech again. “Say your name”

“ev_Apotrova”

“ wait what? You named your self?” Apotrova nods.

“Let her play outside i'm going to think over some things” As Aptrova goes outside Lachia puts on Leaving while she silently cries.

Lachia looks over the city as she feels for the tracker in the ribbon. “Where ever she is hopefully she doesn't go over the gate or I could be in for some real trouble.” Meanwhile Claudia peeks through the gate and hears a distant screams. She rushes inside the gate calls out Aptrova as Lachia is on the absolute edge of the skyscraper.

Lost in waste lands Aptrova is horrified at what she sees: tons of decaying tanks stacked haphazardly in cold barren ground. This ground goes as far down as the eye can see without a sign of civilization. Aprtova shivers as she thinks back to all the warnings Lachia gave her about this place. How it is constantly dry but right at the back of the lab with a rundown and uneven fence surrounding the perimeter. Although there is no civilization there are ruined houses littered throughout the area. And sploses of slime and gunge can be seen everywhere. However Aptrova couldn't help herself from wondering if these stories were true, so at the dead of night of her eighth birthday she fled. Unbenounced to everyone, the fence at that sector which was usually highly secured was broken. Which made her journey seen easier than she ever thought. However as she traveled deeper and deeper the cloud fade away to reveal on the stars of the night. At the deepest point stood a house unlike any other, it was complete and full of life. Aptrova was relieved to see this, she went in unexpectedly of what's to come. As she went to prepare to stay for the night a distant squelch could be heard from the corner of the room.

When she opened the fridge all she could see was slime with a putrid smell that almost made her gag. As she closes the fridge she started to realize that she wasn’t alone as slime kept popping up wherever she searched. She knew that she wasn’t the first to escape and just as she thought of this a distant voice can be heard.

“Help squelch help squelch ” Aptrova starts to run but she goes near to the voice and sees a slime made up of many faces and bodies. It is sloshing around and it seemed to be building something. She looked up and there was a leak in the house

“oh my who would do such a thing?, sure it's not the most applying or most intelligent but its still alive.” she thought.Then it came to her, all the memories of abuse by the city folk whenever Lachia brought her there. They would laugh throw food and tease her but Lachia would always take the blows. Horrified she runs straight for the closest exit from the house which is just outside of Synthetica. As she leaves a teared up sign hanging in the wind read “Home of Eve” which matched the empty tanks left in the dump.

Aptrova arrives at the end of the path in a hot sweat and healthy breathing while looking back every few seconds. She tries to find a place to hide and soon realizes how viverant her surroundings. Lush forest and gleaming lakes and abundant with wildlife with some rusted manmade objects.

“Oh my where am I this is so beautiful, I could just live here” she thought as she went towards the lake humming Sandbox.

Some time after, a high pitched scream can be heard from the forest as Claudia enter the forest. As she ran closer and closer to the river it picks up and there were alligators biting at Aptrova. “Give me your hand” she called out as she drags Aptrova out of the water and towards the gate. Aptrova shuts down and doses off as they arrive at the door of Synthetica. Claudia lays April down when the sirens went off as news flashes of a woman scaling the tallest building in the city.

“Oh my word LACY?! What have I done?” Claudia rushes on to her hover bike and speeds off the tower.

Meanwhile her assistants try their best to fix Aptrova as silently as they can. Most of her skin is gnawed away to reveal a carbon fiber skeleton and some body parts but most of her organs and appendages seem intact. The pleasant humming of the tools fade as Claudia draw near.

At the center of the city, Lachia stood at the spock of the skyscraper looking down at the last to memories of her holotablet. “Hope im not..” Claudia thought worryingly as she looks up while the crowd collectively call for help. Lachia dives headfirst down the building straight on to the mattress between a sea of people with motor bikes with uniforms. As she lands Claudia rides up and tries to calm her down signing Caged bird. As the crowd starts to disparce,

“ Claudia? Oh how I’ve missed you” Lachia embraces her hard as they both teared up at the foot of the mattress.

A few weeks later, Lachia and Claudia meet up in Yorkshire cafe and Claudia has a surprise for her. “How about now?” April whispered.

“Yes come in we have a little something for you too.”Claudia whispers look over at her at the corner of her eye. As April walks in Lachia lights up and all of her assistants go fanfare.

“We are reopening the Cafe and I want you to live as a normal girl and not an experiment.” The scientists say with glee and the three of them go on a tour of it. Pointing out all the items that Lachia kept to make it encapsulate there legacy.

“Thank you thank you… but I have two questions: How does Claudia know me and may I leave?”. As Aprotrova blurt out those words Lachia slienty nods and stands up to go behind the counter. She pulls out a secret stash of letters which were all sent to Claudia. As Aptrova leaves the woman open up shop and customers flocking in while they smile in pure bliss.

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It's true!! I think a lot of us will really love what you write. I can just feel it through your writing that you love what you make. Your stories are my stress reliever. Med school is hard lmao.

Anyway do not worry for sub!bbh, I have read all of your works here and part 3 and part 6 of paraphilia was something else. Your vision of sub!bbh is really good. It reminds me of the fake audios of bbh moaning ahhhh.

And BDLM!! wow I rly can't wait, it has been months and I just can't wait to NOT trust anything in the story hahaha. Keep doing what you do Cat. Don't forget to take rests. Stretch those pretty fingers of yours.

Also, are you buying the teolaegi merch. Cause I have no idea how to buy through the site lol I know this isn't related to your blog. I'm just curious hehe. That's it.

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Helloo my delicious 🍔 anon!!! Thank you so much for that! I'm so happy to know my stories are your safe haven! Med school is mega hard! So hang in there! You'll get throught it you're smart and amazing kee pushing i believe in you <3

I do put A LOT of myself in the things i publish so you have no idea how encouraging and sweet it sounds to get an ask like yours. Thank you for making me smile!

Oooof don't talk to me about these moaning audios!!!!! ughh i love them so fucking much and listenned to them an unhealthy number of times! (not me having all the baekkhyun audios saved on multiple devices just so i know i don't lose them or can listen to them at any given time) (no i dont have a problem) (yes i do pls help)

BDLM is starting to really stress me out because it's been so long and im soooo scared of the reponses it will have plus its still far from over. i'm kinda not seeing the end of it at this point BUT!!! I'm planning on working on it today i hope!

Thank you so luch for cheering for me it means a lot! without interections exactly like this one with you i would have logged off forever back in september. so thank you for keeping my passion alive <3

I'm not buying the merch... i will def buy anything exo does regarding music like solo/sub unit and group albums, concert dvd and live albums or even photobooks but i'm not huge fan of small gadgets like plushies or like keychains or something :/ so i didn't even look into it and tbh i'm buying a house right now and im saving up to buy some furniture so i dont sit on the floor when i move in haha

Sorry i hope you find a way to figure it out also... if you do get it do you think you can come by again and drop a photo in my asks ? >///< i'd love to see it i think the plushies are so so cute!

Thank you so much for chatting with meeeee i can never say this enough but this is the lifeblood of this blog! Thank you so much to you! You're my juicy and beautiful 🍔 anon.

#🍔 anon #you're so cute i wanna eat you <3

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Crush stories, huh? I'll tell about this girl I fancied a year ago.

It was summer 2020 and I met her on a dating app. After much talk and teasing, we decided to meet in Chueca. In there, we talked a bit and she took me to a well-hidden LGBTQ+ library where we bought a book– I bought Virginia Woolf's Una Habitacion Propia and she bought some book which name I do not remember. Then, we went to a 100 Montaditos and talked and bonded and started to have "if we dated" talks until we ran out of food and drinks lol. Btw, she was totally fine by my complex relationship with sex and alcohol aversion!

Then, September came and we couldn't meet up, but in November she took me to a museum and after that, we went to Dunkin and then to a vegan restaurant where I bought her a sweet and we talked until we noticed it was dark. On the way back we promised to see each other again but she never messaged me again lmao.

And about this girl i'm starting to talk, we should've met up yesterday but the bank chooses their moments 🙃 but we're talking about going somewhere else when I'm recovered from COVID vaccine and the bank affair I won't say in here 🥴

Hope this cheers you up about my pathetic love life lol

ok wow I love everything about these date stories. the first girl sounded so amazing especially for taking you to a bookstore and then to a 100 montaditos asjfebjfb maybe that’s just me but I LOVE 100 Montaditos a lot their tortilla montadito is mwah Also it’s so cool that she was so understanding about your life philosophies, from personal experience people can be extremely weirded out by the fact that I don’t drink at parties (or very little), so it’s definitely so sweet that she’d understand! 💜 but ughh I hate how it ended, why’d she never message you back? giving her the benefit of the doubt maybe she was ~busy~ (happens a lot to me, I just. forget to reply) but it’s been almost a year now, and it seemed like you had such great times! did you ever try to contact her?

and I feel you for that second girl, timing is a pain the ass (especially in a global pandemic, Love In The Times of Cholera is 0/10 as one great writer would have said). and don’t get me started on bank problems because asfbhjfb I had my fair share of those this summer and I thought I was going to set the office ON FIRE out of frustration. but I really hope you can get your magical romantic getaway with that girl once you’re well! it’s what you deserve 💜

and your love life is absolutely not pathetic! if it makes you feel better mine is infinitely sadder than that, trust me 😭

#noe 💋

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avengers-athstetic · 3 years

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Hi, this is my first post and i came up with this on a walk in the woods and i hooe you guys like it

AGENT BARNES AND THE MISSION TO FIND HIM

Peter×reader

Female!Y/N

Blurb:your dad bucky barnes went missing after the battle against thanos. After a month everyone belived he was dead but you didnt so you desided to set off with your best friend by your side to go find him. You start off in the woods he used to always take you to and you would pkay in the snow when you where younger. You knew there was more the forset then the furthest he woukd take you......

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"Y/N hes dead your dad is dead theres nothing you can do" steve stated. "No hes not i know hes out there hes somewhere out there i just feel it in my bones." You replied. "Well anyways im going to bed i ant deal with this shit anymore."

"Night Y/N" clint call out. "Night clint."

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Y/N sighs. "Nat,tony..... i wish you where here i wish you could understand the shit they put me through. If my dad is up there with you say hi for me tell him i love him." You start crying. "Night guys sleep well".

You lay in your bed looking at your stary ceiling. You soon fall asleep with tears running down your red flushed cheeks.

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You wake up to steve on the end of your bed with a cup of coffee and some tost. "You awake finaly, eat up kid you have school in a few hours and peters downstairs ready when you are by the way." You groan. "Already time to get up wow last night when by fast." You sit up. "Well ill be down once im ready then."

You put on this-

"Morning peter ready to go" you mummble whilst eating a slice of toast and grabbing your bag. "Ready then ever Y/N" he softly says. "Bye guys!!" You both shout whilst heading out the door.

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"How was school then Y/N ". "It was ok how about you peter." You softly reply. "Boring to be honest, ill race you to the door" he says when you both reach the gates to the compund. "Oh no you didnt pete."

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"How was school kids" bruce asked "boring" you and peter say in sync. "Im goign upnto my room come get me when foods ready" peter nods at you.

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You slump on you bed and pull out your phone and see you have 3 text messages from your best friend katlin .

Hay, wanna hangout tonight.

Y/N, hellooo you there.

Come on just read my messages do you wanna hangout or not ughh.

"Ugh did she really have to text me that meany times"

You reply with...

Hay,sorry cant hang out tonight but could you meet me at the woods on friday evening if thats ok i wanna talk to you about something. Xx

You get an instant reply.

Took you long enough to reply, but yha sure ill meet you there want me to bring anything?

No need to bring anything and sorry i didnt reply i havent checked my phone all day xx

You switch your phone off for the night and head downstairs.

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"Is food ready yet im starving!" You complain."oh yha i was about to come and get you its on the table." Clint replied. You and peter eat dinner at the sma etime and both head up to your room.

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"Wanna watch a movie?"peter suggests. "Sure dont see the harm in why not, what movie?" You ask. "How about harry potter?"

"Omg yes i love thoes movies we could watch one every night if you want and make out way through the franchise slowly?" You suggest. "Sure." You both lay in your bed and watch the harry potter and the philosopher's stone.

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You wake up and find peter cuddled up to you. You smile. "Your such a peaceful sleeper pete". You get up and get dressed .

You put on this-

You pair it with rose gold strapped heels and do ypur make up. You head downstairs.

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"You look nice where you going?" Clint asks. "One of my friends moms wedding" you explain. Steve walks in."wow uh...you look..." he stummbles on his words."thank you steve now could you tell peter im out when he wakes up he will most likely ask where I am." You leave and get in your car. "Ugh i need to change my shoes.." you switch to some blcak flats and drive to the wedding venue and change your shoes back.

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"IM BACK GUYS!!" You shout up the stairs. "Oh hay hiw was the wedding?" Peter askes." It was ok pritty boring thought i didnt want to stay for the after party and i have home work anyways." You reply with a tired tone to your voice. "Skip homework Y/N please ypu sound really tired, ill help you do it once you have had a little nap,deal." You sigh. "Fine....de...al"

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You wake up and relise your still in your dress. You get up and head downstairs to see peter,thor,clint,wanda,bruce and steve all watching 'the adventures of tony stark'. "So your watching it without me wow!" You siad with an anoyed but sarcstic tone. "Oh hay sleepy head, yha sorry." Peter says softly. "Why on earth are you whereing that???" Thor asks. "I went to a wedding earlier and i must have fallen asleep in it" you say with a qustioning tone. "Go change Y/N you look super uncomftabe, thennyoucan come and watch this with us." Steve says. "Ill go chnage but i cant watch this with you beacuse i said ill go have lunch with my best friend, sorry" you say whilst turning to run upstairs.

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You get out to your car and check in the rucksacks,tents and camping stuff is still in the trunk of you car and they are. "Oh phew." Katlin calls you. You pick up. "Where the hell are you!!" She hufs. "Im almost there im like ten fifteen minutes away gosh. I gotta go imcoming up to a gas station i need to fill up my tank ill talk to you in a sec" you hang up. You fill up your tank and head back on the road. "Ok so ill talk to her and just say your coming with me to find my dad we can just say you where going around the world, yha thanks good right" you sigh. You soon pull up and park in a spot and call katlin to come and sit in the car."ok katlin i need your help, coukd you possible come with me to find my dad i dont wanna go alone, and we can just tell steve and your parents that im taking you around the world. Please" you sit in silence for a few minutes. "I-fine ill come, when are we doing this." You look surprised."wow..i uhh didnt think you would ,well how about we start tomorw.deal" she thinks about for a second. "Deal.. ill pack my suitcase tonight and ill call you what time are we leaving." She sighs. "We can keave at 10 pm sharp. Meet here and then we can walk for a bit and find a good place to set up camp."

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"Im back guys. Oh and katlin is going to take me around the world starting tomorw is that ok?" You look at steve."its fine just as long as you two stay save ok." You dain a big bright smile on your face and run upnto him and hug him "ohh thank you thank you so much, we will hopefully be bcak by september,im gonna go pack"

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Make sure to stay tuned for part 2 guys

#steve rogers #tom holland #peter parker #wanda maximoff #chris evens #bucky barnes #sebastian stan #elisabeth olsen #mcu fanfiction #marvel

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