#I just can't handle it anymore

[amlovelies]

so today’s a day where I am feeling frustrated with the fact that I really have no idea of what I can actually realistically get done. like I used to do so much. and that’s what caused some really extreme burnout and just like I can’t come up with reasonable expectations for myself anymore. i always feel like I should be doing so much more, that I should be exceptional should be perfect and then I can’t live up to that standard so I get frustrated and just do nothing at all. and I wish I could self moderate better but I just can’t and it’s the most frustrating thing. like why is it always one extreme or the other???

#I'm frusted #like I used to be so accomplished #and now I can't do shit #and I get overwhelmed so easy and just like shut down #and I know my coping mechanisms are just like nonexistent at this point #just why does it take so much of my energy to just get up each morning #like it takes everything I have just to go to work #and I'm left over with nothing for myself #and even on my days off I feel like I'm just recovering #and I'm also aware my job is not actually that hard #I just can't handle it anymore #it's not that the job changed so much as I've changed #I can't break myself the way I used to #there's things I want to do #I want to be a different type of person #and instead I'm just this pathetic lump of shit #ignore me #sky speaks

[starflungwaddledee]

some rather strong first impressions were made.

required reading for the magical "voice" headcanon and another for starstruck's signature in particular. asked by @trainerbob23 !

#did i need to do a 9 page comic for this... well who knows. i had this scene in mind for a long time and wanted to do it justice! #important moment for both of them. you can see starstruck just generating the bandee shaped mental illness in real time. #and bandee resolving to be her point of contact with waddle dees if the others can't handle it #he is after all; the strongest and the bravest and the best of them. #“what is this signature like” it's like meeting something that has a human face but you can tell it is Not Human. think: uncanny valley #it also took her quite some time to pick up her own voice. she could not speak (popstarian) on her own for a while #she does not mimic anymore though if she can help it because it tends to weird others out and she wants to avoid that!! #it's not like a fun or enjoyable impersonation; it's like a perfect recording on a device. #also i guess this is *finally* the reveal of the 'hospital' mentioned previously that folks noticed and also like... her name 😂 #anyway.... thank you to everyone who voted for starstruck in that poll and has encouraged this insane self indulgence... wow. #never thought i'd get to draw stuff like this and have others look forward to it. i really hope you'll enjoy this!!! #my art #my comics #starstruck dee #bandana waddle dee

[chaikajpeg]

spy x family ch86 fanart under the cut!!

spy x family brainrot has been unreal for the past month

upd: this drawing is mediocre but it got a lot of attention because the chapter was just released and everyone was emotional. which is just another proof that the amount of likes depends on the timing and emotional state of the target audience, rather than the quality of the drawing. (not trying to be self-depreciating here, just stating facts)

#my art #just a quick sketch hehe! (the sketch took her 3 hours) #i got so detached from the artists' community that i don't know how long drawings are supposed to take anymore #also i reached the point when i don't want to draw in anime style anymore but can't handle semi-realism yet #the struggle is real... #but had i drawn this a few weeks ago it would've turned out way worse so i'll accept this as a success #spy x family #sxf #spy x family manga #sxf manga #spy x family spoilers #sxf spoilers #spy x family manga spoilers #sxf manga spoilers #spy x family chapter 86 #sxf chapter 86 #twiyor

[ingravinoveritas]

Following up on this excellent post from @nightgoodomens, it really is astonishing to see so many people in the GO fandom misunderstanding the characters/personalities of Aziraphale and Crowley. While I by no means am against people having head canons or differing interpretations, it has become frustrating to see people pushing their ideas about Aziraphale and Crowley onto others and declaring them to be official canon, leaving no room for any kind of discussion.

One of the things spoken about in the above linked post is the denigrating of Crowley, which seems to be a near constant in the fandom at this point, particularly in relation to the "apology dance" scene. (Which, to be fair, is chock full of soft!Dom Aziraphale vibes--thank you, Michael Sheen.) What seems to keep getting missed is that the entire apology dance routine is something that Aziraphale and Crowley do to each other. There is just as much of a possibility that Crowley sat there with a similarly smug look on his face and let out a guttural, snakey "Very nice" when Aziraphale did the dance in the years he listed off, because they play this game together.

Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship is one of equals, and I think this is also something people seem to not understand well. It seems as though a lot of fans who project themselves onto Crowley want to be taken care of, and so they want to believe the same of Crowley, and that the reason he wants to be taken care of is because he is broken. But someone doesn't have to be broken to want someone to take care of them. Sometimes the people who are a shambles on the outside can be dominant, just as sometimes the most buttoned up, put together people can also be submissive. And sometimes the people who look in control on the outside can feel not at all that way on the inside.

But this nuanced thinking seems to increasingly be difficult for many GO fans, particularly those who spend a great deal of time on social media, a place where people are either blindly praised or denigrated and torn down, and where such behavior greatly reinforces that binary, black-and-white mindset. We so badly want the world to be clear-cut--good vs. evil, heroes vs. bad guys--but very often that just isn't how things work. And it is exactly what Terry and Neil were trying to speak against in the GO book (and subsequently, the TV show).

The other thing that I think influences a lot of fans' perceptions about Aziraphale and Crowley is their chosen corporations (i.e., Crowley being thin and Aziraphale being plump). There is an automatic assumption that thin somehow equals more vulnerable, and for all of the emphasis that is placed on Aziraphale and Crowley being genderfluid/nonbinary/not subscribing to traditional gender roles, it's Crowley who seems to be viewed as more androgynous/femme, and is therefore looked at as inherently vulnerable. Meanwhile Aziraphale is thicker and viewed as more masculine, and therefore he is somehow inherently not vulnerable. Yet if the body types were reversed, it seems highly likely that fans' attitudes toward them would be much different.

(It also saddens me that this seems to mirror the fans' treatment of Michael and David, where Michael serves as a target for the fans' venom and is seen as less desirable/more threatening because he presents more traditionally masculine, while David is not targeted or attacked and is seen as more desirable/less threatening because he presents much more androgynously. Consequently, many fans find it easy not to sympathize with Michael, and when you can readily disregard someone's feelings, it becomes easier to see them as "less." In the case of Aziraphale and Michael, it leaves no room for either one to be vulnerable and is unfair to both of them.)

What I have always taken away from Good Omens--and from Michael and David's portrayal of Aziraphale and Crowley and how deeply they both understand these characters--is that Crowley doesn't need to be a perfect angel for Aziraphale to like him. He just needs to be a little bit of a good person. And Aziraphale doesn't need to be a perfect demon for Crowley to like him--he just needs to be enough of a bastard to be worth knowing. Neither one has to fully subscribe to the other's outlook or point of view to listen to what they have to say.

Aziraphale and Crowley meet in the middle. In the place that becomes their side, and where they take care of each other, fight with each other, and love each other. And that's more than most of us could ever ask or hope for...

#good omens #aziraphale #crowley #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #ineffable husbands #i think this is also why so many fans can't handle honest criticism of GT and AL #in their minds either someone is completely good or completely terrible #there's no middle ground to just see someone as they are #i swear to God people have no sense of nuance anymore #i've had it officially.gif #also Michael yelling about Aziraphale being a bottom in 2019 was more galaxy brained than any of us even knew #PhD level of understanding of the assignment #bless his bisexual Welsh chaos #fandom woes #thoughts #discourse

[lockandkeycake]

Whenever Leo's got dating woes he goes to Will, and by extension, Nico. You'd think he'd ask Piper, but they've been a bit awkward after Jason died. Reyna isn't really a help either, though she tries. Hazel and Frank are a no-go too because that whole situation is still weird. Leo is still scared of Percy so absolutely not going to ask him. Which leaves Will and Nico, much to Nico's chagrin.

#leo valdez #nico di angelo #will solace #solangelo #it's multiple years of 'Calypso and i broke up - nvm we're back on' #'i think I'm bi wait no I'm definitely straight no wait maybe I'm gay no I'm not but maybe or maybe-' #and Nico just can't handle it anymore

[probablyethan]

By mere chance I listened to "family business" today so when Gerry introduced himself I was very happy for him! (Even though I don't think he will be able to keep on with that happiness in tmagp)

#tmagp #tmagp fanart #tma #gerry keay #gerald keay #So can we just call tma gerry “Gerald” and tmagp gerry “gerry”? #loved the episodes but i won't be able to handle the 10'th if its like the last two #tma fanart #Still i can't imagine him as that goth guy anymore!!! #really cant figure out how to draw him

[freckleslikestars]

Vala being Vala in Stargate SG-1 9.01 Avalon pt. 1

#vala mal doran #claudia black #stargate #stargate sg1 #sg1 gifs #vala mal doran gifs #stargate gifs #my gifs #claudia black gifs #she's so... #I honestly don't know why I chose pink for her ccs other than pink cuffs and pink jammies #vala gives me pink vibes okay #truly a babygirl #do i make more of these? I want to do a part 2 #and maybe do her best lines from prometheus unbound #tbf i might just do a vala best lines set #these sets of favourite lines from specific episodes have been a really nice reprieve from editing the scully in every episode set #cause oh my god that one is killing me and my laptop #photoshop just can't handle it anymore #there's nothing i hate more than a bold faced lie is one of my favourite lines #cause coming from anyone else it might be mildly funny but from vala its fucking hysterical #also her smile when she says 'lets make babies'? so fucking cute

[godofidea]

I'm so normal about Him

#Trigun #Trigun Stampede #vash the stampede #hand farts #this took me 3 goddamn hours and made my chronic arm pain so much worse but I HAD TO I LOVE HIM!! #I literally haven't been able to hold a pen for more than 5-10min w/o significant pain for like... 5+ years now. I can't draw anymore reall #this is the first full drawing I've done in well over a year at least #but I've had this picture in my head for weeks and finally had to get it out!! shitty arms be damned!! #sorry for the inaccuracies for his prosthetic arm and bracelet thing. i simply couldn't handle adding more details if I wanted to finish it #all of the hearts are freehanded btw! i just like doing space fillers #this has been a post #i couldn't figure out how to do his crossed fingers in this simpler style either so feel free to stone me or w/e #tristamp

[a-local-idiots-shitpost]

I think the worst (best) thing Twst could have ever made is making Malleus just a little Lizard dude, like what do you mean the once silly looking little guy is destroying everything he can so his dad doesn't leave him??? you think I can take him serious??? the little guy who still throws a tantrum like he's an egg??? you want me to take this man serious???

#twst spoilers #spoilers #maybe spoilers #local shouldn't be allowed to think #like what do you mean I should take Malleus serious as a threat #like I know he's lashing out because nobody bothered to teach him emotional maturatiy #and is terrified on being all alone again because his Dad will leave him and his only friend that doesn't have anything to do with his #family or Briar valley leaves him #and he's scared of being alone again and nothing more than a glorified trophy #but like they also showed him as a silly little baby and I can't take him serious anymore because now all I can think about is him just #acting like a child #and I should stop because funny just goes back into sad territory because Malleus was never taught how to properly handle his feelings

[dancefloors]

trying not to get irked by swiftie media illiteracy. I've retired! I'm out of the game!! but some of you are very stupid

#Like naur offense my eye twitches sometimes. #this time it was that post going 'omg how did she go from I'm a mirrorball shining for you to feeling like a pathological ppl pleaser' #like what are u talking about sis. that song is inherently about people pleasing and always has been. #what do u think 'I'll show u every version of urself'/'you are not like the regulars'/'still on that tightrope' meant #and don't get me started on the interpretations of invisible string post-joever #talking abt 'omg she was just making up connections how is a teal shirt related to grass' #LOIKE THAT'S THE POINTTTTTGAHENEJAHENRKSHDBEKXJSB #it's not actually about a fated love it's about being so caught up that you create the mysticism #the magic is there because I BELIEVE it is. the ordinary things are wondrous and fateful bc i CHOOSE to see it that way. #almost as if 'we can leave the Christmas lights up til January' was a song. #that one enrages me I can't lie. swifties are too dense to handle folklore I'm confiscating it u can't play with it anymore.

[write-it-motherfuckers]

I almost forgot to update you all, sorry Darlings, it's been a very long day.

Thankfully I do have some good news! Both Bug and Bunny are doing surprisingly well, though they are both noticeably anxious still. They will be on some medication for a few weeks that I have to give them at set intervals, and I will have to take them back in for a check up a couple of times too, but other than that, they are both doing shockingly well all things considered.

The vet staff was even kind enough to give them both a bath and help remove some of the mats I was unable to remove myself, as well as handle the injuries to their paws and mouths from the neglect they dealt with in their former home.

It took a while to get them to come out of their new carrier, but once they did, they pretty much went into hiding immediately. I was eventually able to lure them out with a promise of treats and an old documentary about birds so that I could give them more meds, and thankfully they both stayed in view long enough for me to get a photo of the two of them watching it together to share with you all! (Please forgive the mess, they think they're smaller than they are, so playtime clearly results in a lot more chaos than I was really prepared for.)

(Bug is the chonkiest boy, holy shit. Him Round.)

Once again, I'm incredibly grateful for the support and understanding from all of you, it really does mean a lot to me. I don't know if I'll be able to jump right back into posting just yet, but I will do my best to get back to it again soon.

Please stay safe Darling ones, and try to be kind to yourselves 🖤

#mod speaks #bug and bunny #long post #that unicorn is one of their favourite toys right now by the way. They like the way it crinkles and sparkles #I don't have any before pictures that I can actually share with any of you but these babies have improved in leaps and bounds compared to #before. They honestly look like completely different cats. at least to myself and the vet techs. Head vet was an actual angel #I can't talk about what's happening with the creep in anymore detail unfortunately as it has now turned into a slightly more serious legal #matter. but just know that things are slowly pointing in the right direction. #thank you again for being so kind and patient Darlings. I really couldn't have handled it if you weren't all so understanding

[tj-crochets]

Hey y'all, weird question time again! I'm pretty sure I know the answer to this one, but asking anyway: If you are having severe muscle cramps/knots/tension all over your body and go to a doctor/urgent care/hospital for them, assuming the doctor believes it's something that needs treatment, the only things they can give you are anti-inflammatories, pain relief, muscle relaxers, or like an IV to rehydrate you if it turns out to be caused by dehydration, right? I know those are three very broad categories of treatment, I'm not asking for specifics within those categories, just if there are options outside of them (I am allergic to NSAIDs, already on corticosteroids for unrelated reasons, probably shouldn't have muscle relaxers or stronger pain meds for "my blood pressure looks for any excuse to crash" reasons, and am staying on top of hydration and electrolytes, but this round of muscle cramps is bad, even for me)

#the person behind the yarn #injury mention #sort of???? it could just be that I Electrolyte Very Wrong #I think this is because I slept on my stomach (which I never do) and my muscles rebelled #and my body Does Not Handle That Well #but it could be because I stopped taking B12 a few days ago #but my B12 levels are very high! I shouldn't be getting muscle issues from stopping taking it #because I have enough B12! #I really want to be massaging the muscles #but I have learned from the last time this happened #and I can't massage my neck anymore because I am approaching the point where it's been overmassaged #to the point where touching the muscle makes it spasm badly #so. avoiding that this time #but you know that feeling in your face when you clench your jaw really hard and your muscles are very tense because of it? #like actively clenching your jaw muscle feeling #the left side of my face feels like that when I am not doing anything right now #unpleasant! to be avoided! #not even to speak of the smooth muscle cramps! avoid those too if you can

[black-and-yellow]

OJ2 my beloved/hated

#how do they expect me to fight against Midnight when Mic rolls up to the arena saying 'you've looked after me so much Midnight' #I can't make him fight her cmonnn they're buddies look at them #When the Mic DLC came out it destroyed my entire game and I couldn't save anymore and I had to start over #my Switch could NOT handle him #but I don't play the Switch version anymore cause paying for online is stinky #I have matched with one person today and I lost tragically #why is it way more embarrassing to lose as Mic than as any other character #to the Nomu who beat me to a pulp a minute ago I am sorry I didn't mean to disconnect it was my wifi i promise i didnt rage quit i promise #I play on English for the sweet dialogue between the trio but this comes with a catch which is that I am forced to listen #to mic say the most cringe lines you could imagine when he attacks #does anyone still play OJ2 besides that Nomu who just eviscerated me. does anyone want to fight. i'll let you be aizawa

[startingfires]

i need a sapphic contemporary that is not about teenagers. please send me recs

#consuming media about teenagers now just makes me feel bad about myself #also i can't handle high school drama anymore lmao #ramblings of a rafaela

[cerise-on-top]

Hiiii how are you doing love bug? I wanted to request something where farah notices spouse readers anxiety is high while there out at a celebration party thingy after a successful mission and helps them calm down

(Sorry if this is badly explained it’s my first time requesting something + I have adhd🫶🏻🫶🏻)

Hello! Don't worry, I got you! I hope this is what you wanted! I don't particularly know how to calm someone down, I can't even calm myself down usually, so I just swallow it all down until it goes away ^^;

Farah Senses Reader’s Anxiety

She would likely sense your anxiety as soon as she looked at you. Your eyes were wider open than usual, you’ve gone quiet, giving the occasional nod and smile and that’s it. Something was up, Farah knew you well enough by then to be able to tell. Yes, she may have been a highly coveted person at parties like these, but she could always make time for you, even while she was in the middle of a conversation with someone. As soon as you don’t seem to be doing well, don’t seem to be having fun anymore, she’ll take you somewhere quieter so she can talk to you and maybe help you calm down a bit.

Truth be told, Farah won’t particularly know what to do with you. Sure, she gets anxious at times as well, she leads an entire force, after all, but she usually calms herself down by taking a deep breath and sweeping all those negative thoughts under the rug. While it would be ridiculous to assume the same thing would work for you, she tries anyway. She may be good at building connections with other people, but she doesn’t particularly know how to calm someone down from severe anxiety. However, she will take your hands gently in hers, if you allow it, and will talk to you in the most tender tone you’ve ever heard from her. Her voice is audible still, but quieter than usual and she requests that you try to tune out everything else and only listen to her. While she won’t know what to say, she tries, talking about anything that comes to mind. The small lizard she saw on her way to the party, how she once was able to pet a bunny when she was small. Nice things that would take your mind off of the party. You will be leaving it soon enough, naturally, but before then, you need to calm down first.

If her distracting you doesn’t help, then she’ll try to breathe with you, gently asking you to breathe in, hold your breath for a few seconds, before breathing out again. This will be repeated a few times. If that doesn’t work either, then she will try the 54321 method. Granted, she doesn’t exactly know how it works and will mess it up. But who knows, maybe that will get you to laugh. Farah asks you to tell her what you’re seeing, hearing, feeling and so on and tries to crack jokes here and there to maybe get you to smile. Her attempt at distracting you from your anxiety still hasn’t ceased. Talks you through it all. However, if that doesn’t help either, then she’ll ask you what the source of your anxiety may be. If it’s the party then you’ll be going home immediately. Or, at the very least, get away from it as far as you can. If it’s something else then she’ll still try to help you somehow, reassuring you that she’ll do whatever she can to assist you. If it’s alright with you, then, after the party, you’ll go stargazing together. The vastness of the universe has always helped her calm down, and maybe she can tell you some stories she’s heard about the different constellations as well. Either way, she’ll be taking care of you as well as she can during the evening, until you calm down. And then you’ll be cuddling the night away, if you’re calm enough to want to be touched. Farah will hold you to her chest, hum a little lullaby and run her fingers through your hair.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I don't really have to say much today either #except I probably have to get surgery soon enough to which I say boo #I'll have to go on sick leave again soon and I really don't wanna but it can't be helped #but that has time until after I've gotten my driver's license #Farah is a real sweetheart. she tries her hardest even if she doesn't know whether or not she will succeed #you're one of the most important people in her life so naturally she'll do what she can to make sure you're doing well #if a hug is what usually helps you then she will hug you don't worry. but anxious people don't always like that so I didn't write it #again Farah just distracts herself whenever she gets anxious. although she doesn't get as anxious anymore as she used #her anxiety used to be far worse when she was a kid but she's got it handled these days

[puppyocto]

The symbolism of poppies and abusive fh

Do you guys ever think about the symbolism of poppies in Jimmy and Scott's relationship cause I do. Too much I read a book about poppies so I could understand it better. By the way you have to already believe in abusive flower husbands for this we're going straight into it. Ok now poppies are red and this, this could be so simple. Red is the colour of love and is Jimmy's favourite colour so that's all it is right? Well red also symbolises rage and anger. And it's such a sharp colour. Unlike Scott, Scott is subtle in ways red is not. So in many ways Scott is fighting against the colour red, it is all the things he is not and directly calls out his flaws. We see this in Scott's colour palette, Scott is blue directly contrasting red. Now Jimmy shares a lot of traits with the colour red, Jimmy like the colour is sharp and aggressive, and while we love that about him Scott does not. We see the same arguments Scott's colour palette has with the colour red in Jimmy and Scott's relationship. Scott spends a lot of the relationship removing any "red elements" from Jimmy's personality, breaking him down to a calmer, but more disengaged person. So the fact that the flower Jimmy gives Scott is red shows the ways he will give up himself. And I think in many ways the red poppy is a demonstration of who Jimmy should've been. But poppies only trait isn't being red, they are also symbols of farming. Yet within this they are an agricultural weed. So all I can imagine here is Jimmy planting poppies in their farm as a sweet gesture about their future success and Scott telling him off about how they will hinder the crops growing. And is Scott wrong? No. But he doesn't even attempt to understand Jimmy's gesture or where Jimmy is coming from. And finally Poppies produce opium, which I think links to the ways Jimmy unhealthily copes with being placed in an abusive relationship. Linking to his internalisation of Scott's behaviour rather than leaving Scott or understanding that he is in the wrong. The death symbolism of the opium poppy also links to the innate danger Jimmy is in not just within the life series as a whole but while he is around Scott.

#There's also the war symbolism but that's pretty simple. #They get in a war later #Also like poppies are fragile and you're fragile on your red life #Anyway this book was so good it's called Poppy by Andrew Lack #Great book #flower divorcees #Oh also by the way if you're curious guys people know miss poppies in farmland so it's just like how we miss the actual Jimmy #I can't handle this anymore who did this to Jimmy and why #tw abuse