#I get that you wanted to enjoy yourself

[louve-garoue]

Sometimes I feel like my mom and sis really don't know just how much I take upon myself for them and they are definitely not good at returning the favor

#I know it probably happen the other way around too #But SIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGHHHHHHHHH #Yes yes I ruined you're fun but I was trying to not have a meltdown back then do you mind ? #vent in the tags btw #Also it's not like I asked that big of a favor seriously #“Oh it's your fault for not bringing your headphones” #First headphones are not miracle worker especially with how loud everything was #And I'm sure you would have the same reaction if I asked you to quiet the music instead of changing it #Second I never needed them before ?? They help but it never got to the point of them being a need ??? #Like I have no idea where the idea that it had came from #You may be deluding yourself here tbh #Stop trying to say that my sis and I are both responsible Mom #There was no way I could have predicted this would get this bad #Also even if headphones would have made the situation bearable enough for me #To just go 'oh yeah no need to make a fuss let's just endure this' #I WOULD HAVE STILL BEEN FUCKING MISERABLE #I get that you wanted to enjoy yourself #But I would have liked to enjoy myself too you know instead of swallowing in my frustrations #Actually fuck this shit I'm realizing that I've letting other have their way #without voicing my dislike of them so much #That people are starting to not only step over boundaries #But also get upset when I finally tell them that they need to stop #And of course this lead to a whole bunch of misunderstanding #Because I made them think there was no problem in the first place #FUCK #I need to speak up more #But I know it's going to be hard #Because well there is a reason I rather shut myself up before #Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurg I hate it here #*Heavy Sigh*

[humblefryingpan]

Sometimes I forget how angry people get about ships that aren't harmful 😅

Tim Drake is canonly bi and he has a boyfriend. People ship him with his ex girlfriend. Both of those ships are completely fine, I think timbern is cute and I don't ship timsteph but I get they were together a while and people like them.

That being said I made a poll to see which Tim ship is most popular (I enjoy seeing what people think yk, it's entertaining) and Steph was one of the options but so was Bernard and someone rebloged it saying if timsteph didn't win it would be misogyny?

Neither of them are winning btw lol, connor is which is its own weirdly controversial thing

The thing is-

Timsteph isn't a bad ship. They were together a while, they were cute. Lots of people grew up with timsteph and like them.

Timbern isn't a bad ship. Just because Tim's dating a guy now doesn't mean he hates Steph or anything, he just moved on (and so did Steph!) and he's bisexual, he isn't just suddenly gay. They're cute too, and it's nice to see representation.

Timkon also isn't a bad ship. They're close friends which is the base to a good relationship, if they got together it'd also be good.

You know what is a bad ship? Tim and Jason. Or Damian, or Dick, or Bruce. And yet I see more people mad about shipping Tim with his boyfriend or his ex girlfriend or his best friend than I see people mad about shipping him with his siblings and his dad.

#I genuinely didn't mean for this to be so long but there isn't really anything i can cut out so enjoy ig #bi tim drake #dc comics #ship wars are just annoying at this point #let him kiss a boy #get over yourself #sorry for the rant #timbern #tim drake #stephanie brown #bernard dowd #connor kent #ship what you want #but pls not batcest #a bunch of other stuff that im leaving out so that my fyp isn't flooded with it #batfamily #red robin #jason todd #bruce wayne #dick grayson #damian wayne #anti batcest

[momomallowart]

Imagine if you will... Ray with a tongue piercing ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ 💭

A more "messy" version under the cut bc I wanted to practice tears and stuff.. 👀

#Ok I may have put way more effort into this than I should've but I literally couodnt stop thinking about this #I used this as an excuse to practice rendering so technically its productive (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) #I really enjoy drawing tears and idk what that says about me as a person #I just love the idea that hes just talkin away and suddenly you see a little glint in his mouth and oh my god is that what i think it is? #and hes such a bottom that he would just let you open and pkay with his mouth to see for yourself #he's just my lil sopping wet meow meow I can't help but put him thru situations #I think often about his different sides clashing and being very gap moe #like Ray with a tongue piercing? please someone hold me back bc I'm going AT HIM #I want EVERY version of this man I cannot even explain how deeply the brain rot goes #the day I stop thinking about Saeran Choi is the day I drop dead actually #I wont fill the tags with any more salacious comments about how sl\/tty this man is but just know the thoughts are plentiful #anyways enjoy the food #more art to come as I'm getting back into my artistic groove lately #my art #mystic messenger #mysme #saeran choi #mysme saeran #mysme ray #mystic messenger unknown #unknown mysme #ray mystic messenger #mystic messenger fanart #mystic messenger mc #mysme mc

[pictureday2005]

i dont need therapy or medication i need it to be 2007. i need it to be my full time job to learn and explore and be curious about the world around me again

#crayon on envelope #i cant do any of that shit when i gotta have a job #i really miss when all i had to do was go to school #like i didnt realize how good i had it at the time #go in for like six hours and still have time and sunlight to do what i wanted when i got home #weekends off where all your friends Also have it off so you can organize hanging out #the whole summer to yourself #honestly i feel like id be doing so much better psychologically if i could have summer vacation again lol #bc at least then i was working towards something #just gotta get through the year so i can enjoy my summer #now its like. why am i even doing all of this #why is my only goal to suffer till i get a paycheck #and i dont even get to keep most of it #pointless luv litchrally pointless

[pizzaqueen]

Steve seems like a power tool kind of guy but honestly, so does Eddie! He’s like ‘let’s get a chainsaw!’ with a little too much enthusiasm for Steve’s liking (especially because they live in an apartment 😜)

#Steddie #Steve x eddie #Steddie headcanons #I might be projecting the qualities of someone I know who reminds me of Eddie onto him juuuust a little bit lol #but he really does seem like he’d enjoy them haha #and also sharp things! #pizzaqueentxt #i have more thoughts on this but I’m tired lol #eventually they live somewhere with like trees in the yard and one has to be cut down and Eddie’s so excited #but he and Steve fight over who gets to do it 🤣 #(not the whole tree because you should so not cut down a whole tree yourself although tbh I can see these dumbasses thinking they can handle #it on their own lol Steve might be a little more cautious though and caught between wanting to use the chainsaw and not wanting to destroy #the house or you know himself haha) #anyway this is stupid I’m sorry #i just don’t have any fic to post and I feel bad #plus I wanted to share this silly little thought

[no-psi-nan]

My takes are bad because.... I use the source material??

#If you don't enjoy the Saiki canon then maybe you should reconsider following a Saiki fanblog 🙏 #Notes to nopsi #Here's a free tip: if you want Saiki stuff without my opinions then just block my blog and get in the Saiki tags yourself lol #I don't have an exclusive pass to the tag search feature. you can do it too!

[babygirltangerine]

ppl are so negative... its crazy to me to be like "shut the fuck up about x character" in a fandom of like twelve people

#i get the frustration but like. #im sorry you hate other people's fun #its easy to block tags #and if you want to see people talking about other characters but you yourself arent even active in the tag... idk! #be the change you want to see in the world #like the rest of us. in this dry ass fandom #im sorry but shaming people for creating things they enjoy won't make them want to create things you enjoy for you #bullet train

[skitskatdacat63]

I don't know how I'd ever convey this in art but. Thinking very deeply about how in boy king au, a very crucial part of characterization is that Seb is a wolf in sheep(or lamb more specifically)'s clothing and Fernando is a sheep in wolf's clothing.

Seb is very unassuming, very delicate, seemingly very vulnerable and malleable. But, deep down, he can be very ruthless. It's in the the way he hesitantly declares war, with a spark in his eye and a suppressed smirk. In the way he challenges someone to a card game or a horse race, proclaiming that he's not great, but winning every round and prancing around the room and mentioning it ad infinitum. The way he's able to instantly turn the tide in a debate in one fell swoop. By showing all his cards constantly and letting himself be vulnerable, he's making himself invulnerable. No one would ever consider him to be able to make big moves, so he wins every single time, because no one even thinks to expect it from him.

Fernando on the other hand, is constantly committed to having a looming presence and harsh reputation, but deep down, he's soft. He knows what happens to people when they're vulnerable, and he's not going to let himself be taken advantage of. The way he keeps a brave face when being informed of the marriage proposal, but goes back to his room and cries. The way he proclaims that he was always going to be the rightful ruler of Spain, but confides to Flavio that he never thought there was any real chance of it ever happening. The way he takes himself so seriously in public, but inside feels so giddy whenever he can make someone laugh. Everything to him always feels unstable and ready to crumble at any moment, and he's not willing to contribute to that by letting himself relax.

I think thats why it's very difficult for them to get along at first, because they have completely different approaches to how they carry themselves and make their way through life. Seb is confused at Fernando because he feels that he's very bland and overly serious at first, but truthfully he's not really seeing the actual Fernando. And Fernando finds Seb to be naive and easily taken advantage of, but that's because he's never seen Seb at his most cruel. Seb really loves when he eventually gets to see Fernando being vulnerable, and Fernando really admires and respects Seb when he sees him being serious. I think it just takes a while for them to show the other their full and complete selves, even the parts they can sometimes be ashamed of. There's this very compelling dichotomy in Seb laying out all his cards, but still being very difficult to read, and Fernando keeping his cards to his chest, but his intentions often being easily seen through.

#meanwhile everyone else: what is this weird fucked up mating ritual they are participating in #though i think its very interesting how their motivations differ #seb wants to lull people into a false sense of security(and also really just likes to be his complete unadulterated self) #and fernando is guarding himself because he doesn't want to get hurt #and i think seb convinces Fernando that its okay to be openly soft and yourself :) not eveyrone is out to get you #and fernando teaches seb hey maybe dont invite this obvious assassin to your chambers????? #i think seb also has insecurites but Fernando's are just more easy to explain bcs hes in a much more difficult situation #at the end of the day both of them are putting on facades in some way #(i think seb likes to be himself but also does feel really hurt when people dont think he has the capacity or ability to rule effectively) #(he likes to be kind and playful and doesnt want to obscure that part of himself. but hes aware it can hurt his image unfortunately) #also lol the way i characterize fernando is very historically accurate btw #bcs the spanish court tradition was basically to be above it all and be a lofty unobtainable figure if that makes sense #yknow having just this insane level of confidence and infallible image of yourself as the ruler #the guy seb is based on really bought into that idea but i dont think it really suits seb so yeah #seb I think is very much a unique figure that others have a lot of trouble reading him and his intentions. which is great! #AAAAAHHH MAN FELT REALLY GOOD TO WRITE ALL THAT OUT !!!!!!!!! #i love writing their characterization so fucking much you dont understand #its nice to put it in words like this bcs yknow i dont rly enjoy actual writing. but this i enjoy greatly #hope this is compelling to more than just me hahaha #boy king au #catie.rambling.txt #vettonso

[shibaraki]

it is easy to get stuck on numbers and engagement and what trope / rating gets more attention or kudos than another but ultimately you should write for the audience you want. it’s far more rewarding that way

#like when I would force myself to write fem reader when I first started doing insert fic lol #yeah the smut did numbers but I was so uncomfortable and was not vibing well with my audience bc I felt inauthentic #having started from scratch post-pandemic when the interest was ‘dying out’ I understand how a new blog might feel like they need to get #their foot in the door by pandering to a wider audience like that #but writing what you enjoy or find interesting will always bring you the audience you crave #even it is it smaller than others #sorry 2 ramble #there’s a lot of ‘write for yourself’ around which: I agree with !!!!! but I also wanted to say this. I suppose they go hand in hand

[mister13eyond]

talking to a friend about getting back into art and i think the #1 most important piece of art advice i could ever get or give is just "figure out what is FUN to you"

like i think there is sooooo much emphasis on how to build SKILL in art but a lot of it really treats art like a job or like video game grinding, like it's this thankless job that you have to work at in order to reach a Threshold and i know it's not EASY to make yourself have fun but like

imo a solid 70% of the reason i create art is because the Act of Drawing is fun to me. it's fun problem-solving and planning and putting down lines and playing with colors and tools. it's fun to depict little scenes in my head or to create outfits or to find ways to fill the canvas. never forget that creating can be fun. sometimes it's hard and sometimes you have to battle through your own blockades to get there but the ultimate goal should always be to ENJOY it, to find what you enjoy doing and then do it forever. improvement will follow enjoyment.

i think especially with all the debate about ML image generation it's more important than ever to embrace FUN. if you're only focused on the end result it's so easy to get in your own head- to think about what doesn't look good or what skills you don't have yet or to compare yourself to other artists. but photography didn't kill the art of drawing and AI won't either because, simply put, there will always be people who want to do the physical act of making art because it's fun to do! using paints and markers, splashing colors around, doing shitty pen doodles, using the symmetry tool in your art program to do abstract mandalas that are just squiggles formed into patterns. do art like you're 5 and you've been handed markers to pass the time. do art like you're bored in class and you're keeping your brain entertained by drawing stick figure comics in the margins. do art like an absent thing, do art because it satisfies your brain. the goal is not to make something beautiful and perfect, the goal is to make something because your hands need to make and your body needs to make.

#i know and love so many people who have intense anxiety about their ability to create art and who are so hard on themselves about the result #and i think that's a REALLY easy thing to feel because creating is also vulnerable & physically difficult and there is SOOOO much to master #but i think for me the people who churn out 300 colored pencil front facing hands behind their backs oc doodles on lined notebook paper- #are the ones with the right idea. they're the ones i aspire to be like #i'm not saying i never struggle either bc tbh #as someone with depression and adhd there are times where the Act of Having Fun is simply not possible #sometimes i CAN'T enjoy things because my ability to feel joy is locked behind a barrier of my mental illness #so i don't think it's an Easy thing to do by far and I don't think you can just Magically Make Yourself Happy And Having Fun #but i DO think that experimenting in a low-stakes low-pressure manner until you find something that clicks in your brain helps #doing things for the sake of doing them is the only way to figure out which ones WILL be fun to you #not all of them will. some things will feel like a slog #but i think you have to look for the passion before you're able to face the slog #if you jump right into the parts that are Hard and Challenge Your Limits it's easy to spin your wheels and get stuck #but if you focus on the super small stakes and the things that are thoughtless and focused more on Sensation- #the sensory experience of mixing paint or the scratch of pencil on paper or the smooth way a specific pen makes lines- #then you can lose yourself in the physical aspect of it FIRST #and then once you've started really ENJOYING those sensations you can start learning new ways to use them #because now you have the drive to want to do more #now you have the desire to find new ways to apply this thing you like doing #long post #even longer tags #art #drawing #artists #art advice

[code-dy]

Don’t cry, Thorin. Frosting melts when you don’t let the cake cool before putting it on

#the hobbit #thorin oakenshield #bilbo baggins #bagginshield #thilbo #my headcannon is that thorin has golden child syndrome #he gets very frustrated #when things dont go as planned #esp during the exile #imagine being a kid and youre suddenly king and everyone has eyes on you #everything you do has to be no less than perfect because you have all these people counting on you #i cant imagine the pressure and how hard he mustve been to himself #do you think that was why he was such an ass during the start of the hobbit? #he doesnt want to get attached to the burglar who would likely die in the end #why make yourself vulnerable to such hurt #weeh this was supposed to be about cake #and how i wanted to learn a more serious art style to express better angst #but keeps on going back to silliness #head cannon is also that they both taught each other to be less concerned about what people think and just enjoy themselves #my art #thorin slso has that durin puppy eyes he just dont use it as much #cake fail #angst fail

[crescentfool]

guys. isn't being alive so cool. there are. so many swag people in my life. some of them don't even know i exist but i know that they exist and they're doing cool shit and i look at them with fondness that's enough for me.

the people who do know that i exist are also wonderful and i cherish them so much beyond human comprehension its unreal to me that in another lifetime i wouldn't know such splendid souls but they are here with me now and i think that's all that matters.

and there's so many cool little creatures and animals and plants and whatnot and even if i don't know shit about them i think its so cool that somewhere out there these things spark whimsy and joy and breathe life into people that their brain is like a cozy little library of encyclopedia knowledge.

the way in which life can take us on so many fun journeys and paths even if it may not look like anything to us in the moment i think it's so fucking neat to be able to walk this path and that even in hardship there will be good for us eventually and stories to tell for getting through these things.

guys i love being alive im so happy i love life and i'm so glad that i can feel a depth of emotions because it means i can be grateful for so many cool things like this.

i hope you all have something to love in life too you are so epic and swag for reading this and i think you will absolutely be able to skyrocket out of the universe to do the thing you want to do. keep on keeping on fellow humans!!!

#lizzy speaks #i needed to get this out somewhere #today on lizz exists i am feeding my brain nutrients #i have been neglecting to give my brain positive messaging so i put myself in a rut on an accident :c #i hope everyone can be compassionate to themselves! you are so cool. tell yourself nice things u deserve it #there is so much joy in being niceys not only to others but to urself #i think being alive is so beautiful sometimes i feel so strongly about things it makes me want to cry from how wonderful life is #do i need to post this? no. but i want to. this is a moment of lizz brain to be preserved methinks #and it makes me very happy when other people can enjoy being alive. i sincerely hope the people around me and the ones that i may not be- #able to see in this instant can be happy too. happies for everyone!!!

[martilyongabo]

EO3 (partial) lineup - November-December 2022

Peak MAbo is collaborating with your best friend for a(n admittedly unfair) final project (for web development!!!! an elective!!!), saying you would post it, forgetting about it for a year, posting it on Artstation and forgetting about it again.

As always, AC drew the lineart, and I colored. Designs were more of a collaborative effort between the two of us!

Probably should have shared this when the HD collection came out... anyway it's here now!

Some design ramblings under the cut :0! There's a lot i wanna share especially given that we recently did a soft rewrite that departed from the guild system entirely ^^" and EO3's cast was actually one of the first that we had, surprisingly!

Micah is quite clearly alt gladiator 3, but in an entirely different profession. instead of going into the labyrinth, he works in what i imagine would be an analogue to the forge in Tharsis (aka helping people make things busted af). It probably works best for his character, since he was always a gizmo freak even in his first iteration! geomagnetic (or submagnetic, ugh) gizmo is AC's idea!

Micah's brother, Eva, is a very loose spin on zodiac 3, but with a wayyyy lighter colour palette. Admittedly, i did steal a little bit of the spiritmaster's coat from bravely default, but AC managed to spin it back to resembling the original coat that the class had. Eva works as an astronomer, hence the little telescope he always has on him.

Next up we have Eva's protégé, Miri (who was imported from AC's stories)! Theoretically, Miri would be a second zodiac, and, after watching some EO3 speedruns, would probably be really strong in the earlygame when working with Eva in an actual playthrough. AC's design heavily borrows from Patho II's Grace, hence the coat + dress combo.

Following Miri in this lineup would be Noa, her admittedly very lazy but clingy sibling. I think it's apparently here that we didn't have much time to filter what a believable design would be in an EO setting, given that Noa's clothes were translated directly from our designs of them in school attire. It's actually funny how for we diverged from their original portrait (buccaneer 3) to the point that she is literally unrecognizable. Truly a pipeline from good sea boy to j-horror twist character.

Last in the OC section would be Masaru, who recently found work for the Senatus. Admittedly he does have another example of "incongruent time period" clothing (the jacket), though it's a lot more reworkable than Noa. We also made his design a lot less poofy and rugged compared to the original, and I mixed the base and alt color palettes as well to make him less, well, glaringly red. Probably one of the funnier things is that his clothing palette made him blend in more with the likes of Kujura, but given that they work for the same place, it'll probably work out fine.

Now we go onto NPCs, and who better to start than with Flowdia! Admittedly, her art was one of the last ones that we did, hence why her design looks relatively plain (sorry lola). Probably one of the things I would like to add would be more ornate patterns, perhaps of butterflies to tie her closer to Gutrune!

Before we get to the Princess, we gotta get through her bodyguard first! >:0 I honestly don't like Kujura because I answered honestly in his first question, and he said that I was prideful, but AC likes him so he looks really good here. He isn't as rendered here as he is in his portrait, since he was also one of the last characters we made, and I didn't really get to notice that he doesn't have as much value contrast in his clothing as Masaru does. Probably something to think about next time I color him >:0

Next up we have Gutrune!! We decided to make her look more jellyfish-like, while still keeping it a bit uncanny and unsettling. We tried to give her a more traditionally Filipiniana look (mostly on the Maria Clara gown), but we haven't yet made a poncho design that mixes well with butterfly sleeves without looking cluttered. As such, she has a more nightdress-y look here. AC drew in a few tentacles, and I couldn't help but make them look squishy.

Last but not least is Olympia! We wanted to align her appearance more with her background, hence her altered design :0 Having rips of the artbook easily accesible online also helped us flesh out her hair in particular, since we didn't want to just transplant Gutrune's hairstyle onto her.

And that's all of them!!! I'm honestly hoping to draw more EO characters, though Seyfried's design scares me (honestly the reason why I couldn't make a Reversed Emperor comic).

Currently, I've made a lot of progress on the EO4 game, and I'm excited to draw up the three N-turned-PCs + Xiuan >:'0!!! I don't think I can ever get as cool as Morika tho. If you've come this far and aren't into EO, please check out their blog!! Their art is stunning and has come a really long way :")

#etrian odyssey #etrian odyssey 3 #etrian odyssey iii #idylls of the abyssal forest #gawang abo #colorist #noa minjin #miranda minjin #gutrune #olympia #kujura #flowdia #micah abdelghani #eva abdelghani #I'LL GIVE THEM SURNAMES WHEN I NEED TO #honestly why i never got to finalize work on the CR x RGU series is not just because I wanted to animate it #but also because i had to give the students surnames #like ye they're ~10 characters but surnames don't come easy to me >:'000 #and i'm super particular with names so :AAA: #issa trap i'd rather sidestep entirely #also if you follow me for CR... hi i'm sorry but i reverted back to my oldest brainrot to cope with thesis + the new game updates #NOT TO SAY THE NEW UPDATES ARE BAD #but i realized i cared more about crafting a story than following along the trail of another :") #i still want to work on the CR stories and animate them and put them up! #it's just that i need time to recoup i guess #community is also really buck wild. I don't think i ever got over the whiplash of them saying “we will not play *ends up excited anyway*” #it's ok if u enjoy it naman but the speed in which they get stoked for updates was like “:”D? i thought we were protesting. what y'all doin #i'm sorry if u read thru all these tags and saw me processing my trauma with the cr fandom #i'm doing a lot better now!!! please have a good day as well and take care of yourself! #EDIT 04.27.2024 THEY ALL HAVE SURNAMES. HURRAH!

[rpfisfine]

got blocked by a long long time mutual for very very mildly talking shit abt the new taylor swift album but to be perfectly frank i do not feel bad or guilty abt it in the slightest

#i didn't even reblog one of the major posts shitting on it and criticizing it what the hell.....i just said the lyrics sucked #and made a “tortured ogres department” joke. like come on #i think if you genuinely legitimately actually enjoy this album there might be sth slightly wrong with you #like why would you not want to listen to something at least slightly better. just like 1% better. why do you not love yourself #mp #its fine i was on the verge of unfollowing anyway bc having my dash clogged with untagged ts posts was getting a bit unbearable

[sinha-ri]

when you love and understand ppl having trans hc for characters but its always the skinny twink shipped with the male MC that's hc as trans out of a giant cast of characters

#like ik many ppl identify with em but like.. #branch out a lil!! why do you limit yourself to ONLY them?? #see this happen in a lot of fandoms and whlie i enjoy seeing em #at some point it just gets a lil wild that theyre the only character ppl have hc as trans #like yall..why is it never the MC or buff guy or himbo #have all the trans hc you want but i just wish yall had a lil more variety

[itsalwaysforyou]

one day i will write my fic idea where jal are kind of weird towards each other after the cotillion drama has died down. and they end up having a very convoluted conversation about why mal didn’t tell jay she wanted to go back to the isle…….

#jays like you KNOW i would’ve come with you. and mal’s like that’s exactly why i didn’t say anything #bc you’re so happy here. with the roar team & all the cheerleaders want you. and you’re enjoying yourself #and jays like yeah im faking a lot of it! that’s what i do! i lie! i cheat! i play pretend! #and they are both so mad at each other for not understanding that the other has been Suffering #but they haven’t clocked on bc they themselves have been too busy Suffering #and in my head this takes place on the balcony (me and jal balcony motif) at belles castle? i think? #wherever mal watches the sea for uma with binoculars in d3 #and it’s pouring with rain & jays trying to get mal to go inside #and then he turns to go back inside after their convo & doesnt check if mal’s following him or not #gah. i wish my brain would let me write this i’ve had the idea for SO LONG #jal