#I dont want to be rude so im not going to say anything but saying this says enough i think

[thestarsarebrightertonight]

it could happen to you // lorenzo berkshire x fem reader

playlist : it could happen to you - laufey

summary : youve had a crush on lorenzo berkshire for years , always pining until one day he asks you to the yule ball.

ravenclaw reader , y/n used

"cho its getting dangerously close to the ball and i still dont have a date!" you whined.

"its two weeks until the ball , you have more than enough time! i know atleast 5 guys that would drop dead to go with you," cho replied with sympathy.

"oh yeah like who? funny they havent asked me yet if theyre so desperate!" you complained with sadness.

"lorenzo berkshire," cho said blanky , staring at something behind you.

you scoffed loudly , "in my dreams maybe!".

"no...no , lorenzo berkshire is coming towards us with flowers."

you jumped up at this , staring at her with pure shock not wanting to turn around ,"cho! cho please dont joke around about that!"

"im- im not!" she exclaimed finally turning back to you , "he is literally coming over to us-"

"y/n," you heard a deep but soft voice say right behind you making you freeze all movement.

you turned around slowly , seeing lorenzo stood there with some red tulips in his clenched fist , his other hand playing with his robe nervously , "l-...hi lorenzo"

"its enzo!" he said quickly before physically cringing at his own words , "i mean call me anything you want!".

"ah o-okay sorry," you said with a bright red blush.

he stared at you silently for a second before realising the tulips in his hands were not yet in yours , "oh these are for...you!"

your whole face lit up as you grabbed the tulips from him, hands brushing delicatley , making his fist clench by his side.

"thank you so much enzo, theyre beautiful!" you admired the flowers you held , forgetting your past nerves of the boy you like being in front of you.

he smiled at this , blushing obviously , "i was wondering if um.."

you nodded your head, waiting for him to continue.

"if you-" he began again only to be cut off.

"pretty flowers y/n , oh hey berkshire!" fred weasley , your other best friend , said happily from where he now sat next to you on the bench.

"hi..." lorenzos hopes quickly deflated as fred wrapped his arm around your shoulder.

"fred i was talking to enzo," you said softly , trying not to be rude.

"yeah sorry about that , also enzo? never heard you let anyone call you that before berkshire! anyways , i was just wondering, do you have a date to the ball yet? i dont and-"

"she does!" lorenzo quickly cut him off as you looked at him in suprise.

fred mirrored your expression , before laughing and smirking at lorenzo, "and who might that be?"

"me." lorenzo scoffed , his anger rising more and more by the second.

meanwhile you exchanged a shocked look with cho and gaped up at enzo , who was only staring down at fred.

"good for you man , nevermind then!" fred said with a smile before he got up, waving to you as he walked away, "see ya y/n!".

once fred left both you and lorenzo shifted into an uncomfortable silence before he brushed his hand through his hair in frustration , "merlin im so sorry i shouldnt have done that i just didnt want him to ask you-"

"lorenzo , i dont care." you said as he visibly calmed , "as long as we are actually going together i dont care at all."

he grinned back at you , "yeah thats what i intended to ask you before...he came over."

you laughed at his frustration towards fred , "i wouldve rather not gone at all than have to go with anyone that isnt you."

he bit back his smile and looked down at his hands before shifting back into eye contact , "do you want to go to hogsmeade with me this weekend?"

"id love to," you grinned at him before standing up and giving him a kiss on the cheek , "just know you cant get rid of me now!"

he mirrored your wide smile with a blush on his cheeks and an arm around your waist , "why would i ever want to get rid of you?"

#harry potter x reader #harry potter #lorenzo berkshire #lorenzo berkshire x reader #lorenzo bershire x you #lorenzo #enzo berkshire #slytherin #slytherin boys x reader #ravenclaw #hp fanfic #x reader #hp #hp fandom #theodore nott #draco malfoy #hogwarts houses #hogwarts #yule ball #fanfic #fluff #laufey #it could happen to you #the stars are brighter tonight masterlist

[dadrockconfessions]

#confession #confessions #I dont want to be rude so im not going to say anything but saying this says enough i think #also this really doesnt fit the blog at all be a little more theme related next time #''nothing really matters''

[koipalm]

jon and martin WEDDING! ^_^ as promised

#it really feels nice to keep promises about art.... ah.... #anyways this was supposed to be like. a few hours at most #my bad. #my art #tma #the archivist #jonathan sims #jon sims #martin blackwood #i dont think i did too bad for my first martin drawing.... i cant say im still satisfied with my designs of them though #anyways sorry this is so sketchy. i know i said it was going to be the case on this blog but still this one definitely has some more flaws. #the magnus archives #FIANLLY.... IM DONE WITH IT. I CAN WORK ON SOMETHING ELSE NOW #for some reason my brain just. REALLY wanted me to finish this one before starting anything else #edited the caption so it did not seem so rude.... my bad

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[nocylipcowa]

honestly, i don't mind tourists but the next time an english speaking guy comes to my station and asks me 'how are you' i want them to explode on the spot

like i know a proper answer is 'im fine, thank you' but also fuck you fuck you for forcing me to tell you how great im feeling because im not. please die <3

#for some reason i kept writing hoe instead of how. hoe indeed #another interesting case was an english speaking guy who just ignored my hello and just went for cześć. no dude you are not cute #i havent drunk vodka with you and im not going to #i also love when people just dont say anything no hello etc so i assume they are english but no that was just a rude pole but kind enough #to say thanks in our mothertongue <3 riiight #and dont remind me about people choosing teacups jesus fucking christ #i want to beat them all with a stick #txt

[kn11ves]

emotional support group for autistics who got called condescending and rude as kids just for responding to things directly and still not knowing how they were being mean

#what did i do #i got constantly told by my mother and step father (and his family) that i always talked like i knew better than they did or that i was #just as mature. i was just fuckjng talking what the hell did you want me to do #why do you feel attacked when a 10 year old speaks to you as an adult????? literally what #i dont know on that note sometimes its just like i dont even feel like ive aged at all #sure i have a giant explosion of time in my head just Gone from my memory because i was getting abused but like i dont feel like ive aged #or really matured ive felt like ive alwats felt #i cant relate when epople are like me when i feel all my ages or i wish i could go back to being x age or being x age everything felt so #different..like no it didnt. or im missing something? #i have never in my life felt like anything has changed. ive always been this old. there is no ''inner child'' and ive never had childhood #innocence or a nostalgia or childhood to go back to. i have no idea what any of you are talking about ever👍 #ugh jst rmemebred skmething that happened with my white step dad's mother #we visited her house and she literally fucking didnt let me go (not physically) until i replied to her with Correct Granmar. what was i #doing? i was reaponding to her by saying ''yeah'' and she kept repeating ''yes'' like telling me to say yes instead of yeah and i didnt #Fucking Get It because guess what you old white cracker i barely fucking speak english and you are just saying things in an aggressive tone #like thats gonna make me get it. and i Didnt i just kept replying yrah to her yes's and then she got tired of it and we left out the door #and theeeeen i got yelled at in the car by being called disrespectful and rude by my parents. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO????????? #those crackers never liked me LOL i literally know they didnt #ugh i rmemeber this one time my step dads father was like trying to show me some dumb boxing or karate or something punching move and he #told my mother that i was good at it because he felt i had a lot of aggression and then NY MOTHER YELLED AT ME IN THE CAR FOR IT?????? #oh fucking wonder why te kid being abused mighthave aggression but she didnt Know (apart from what She was doing to me) like why would it #be my fucking fault if he thought i had aggression in me HOW IS THAT MY FAULT WHAT DIDBI DO I WAS JUST TRYING TO DO THE MOVE BECAUSE WELL #I WAS TRYING TO GET ALONG BECAUSE THATS WHAT THEY WANTED ME TO DO #she was like do you know how much that embarassed me and WHAT THE HELL HE SAID IT I DIDNT I WAS LIKE #8??? OR SOMETHING???? I DONT FUCKING KNOW!!! I DIDNT KNOW WOMAN WHAT DID YOU WANT FROM ME #mothers when they mother👍

[orcelito]

I got 7 reactions to the post I made on this app 8 whole days ago (when most ppl in my area got 2 or 3 at the most). & Several messages I haven't responded to. Tbh I haven't bothered since that first day, bc I got what I wanted out of it (decided to try a hookup and accomplished it 3 days after deciding it), and...

We've still been texting. Sometimes about things that aren't exactly typical of what you'd think for a hookup (emotionally intimate, I guess?). Today we got on the topic of hiking and I mentioned my fav state park & she said she was planning to go there over spring break and said she'd love to bring me with her... which That is a level of accepting me in her life that I think is not typical of just a one-off hookup kinda thing.

So like... idk if we r skirting around the possibility of a relationship?? Or if we r setting up to be friends with benefits?? Would it be exclusive??? Open??? Assuming there's any kind of relationship at all??????

Idk. It feels like there's Something there. I don't know what she wants out of it. I kinda don't even know what I want out of it. But it'd feel a little weird to pursue smth else when we're in this nebulous area... it wouldn't be cheating bc it's not like we're dating, but I'd also hate it if we Did end up dating (exclusively) and then I'd have to give up someone else........

Idk. I wasn't expecting to hit it off with someone like this. I'm still pretty burnt out on serious romance, so I don't want to just jump right into a new thing. I just know that I like talking with her and I'll probably want to sleep with her again. Beyond that...

I dont know. It's all so confusing.

#speculation nation #i think im bigtime failing at the whole Casual aspect of it 😂 #but i cant help being so alluring.... the girls Love a sweet nerd with a mysterious hidden darkness..... #might be why i have so many reactions too. i am for serious my post has over twice as many reactions as anyone else #idk. i have options. for now im just leaving them open. #it's only been a week now since we started chatting. still way too early to decide anything. #i will simply play it by ear. see where things take me. #we have. we have a spotify playlist. for sharing our favorite songs together. we are sharing music. #i feel like im going insane. this cant be the normal Just Casual kinda thing can it??? #not when shes said at multiple points that im 'the coolest person ever' or that im really kind #oh god am i turning into one of those useless lesbian tropes???? #'help this girl keeps saying im really cool and that she wants to go hiking with me and we are sharing music together #and also we had sex. do you think she likes me?' #fbkdfkshfkshdjd it sounds so FUNNY laid out like that. but the sex rly is just incidental and all ykno? #i dont know how many hookups shes actually had. i dont know how special i am to her #emotionally Or sexually. and i feel like asking would be rude. #so i am simply waiting it out. seeing where it goes. and being pleasantly surprised anytime it goes well. #the thing with the hiking today made me all 😳😳😳😳 bc it spoke of a desire to have me in her life several months from now #it's only been a week. it's only been a week. i have no idea what im doing.

[genekies]

screaming in the club

time for another vent in tags

#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO #i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe #n one of them said they never saw it i said “but you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdym” and their fiance was just rude to me and i th #ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a #utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai #ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell #like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc #then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no #food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it #harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now. #the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats #fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS. #all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY #SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf #the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther #es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much. #i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the #bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and #no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh #it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression #i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat. #im so close to snapping on them at this point #i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT #everything has gone to shit #vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.

[bogos-bint3d]

Oooooooo you wanna find me great incredible Undyne centric content that I haven't seen before and will be consumed by ooooooooooo

#i say this because you genuinely cannot understand just how insane over her i am that i have legitimately seen almost all the interesting- #-content about her #i am not fucking kidding #if its on like the first 3 pages of anywhere ive searched for her ever. i have seen it. tumblr youtube ao3 google i HAVE SEEN!!!!!!! #ok well not as much with ao3. simply because im always searching for something specific on there. so like. there probably will be some- #-really good things on there i havent seen yet #but still. i have very high standards if there is anything I don't like ill spontaneously combust #and im legitimately like 94% i know literally every single thing about her mentioned in the game. so you wont be able to surprise me with- #-anything there either. but also you never really know so #i mean yeah just feel free to talk to me about her at any time. I wont be able to start the conversation. because like i just cant #but if you mention something interesting enough in the first sentence ill probably be able to keep the conversation going for a good while #sorry i probably sound really rude and snobbish rn cause im all like ''ugh i already know everything im so smart'“ #''whatever show me will be beneath me'' BUT I SWEAR THAT IS NOT HOW IM TRYING TO COME OFF #IM REALLY REALLY SORRY I JUST GENUINELY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO GET ACROSS HOW I N E E D IT TO BE SOMETHING NEW AND SOMETHING THAT ILL REALLY- #REALLY WANT TO SEE #IM SO SO SORRY I HATE THAT I SOUND SO RUDE HERE I JUST. like guys i just really want to see something new‚ something thatll make me happy. #sigh #okokok. #all good guys #uhm. yeah. maybe if you find something maybe tell me but also idk because what if i already know about it then dont know what to say. i just #i j . i dont even know man #ok im done #undyne

[thunderboltage]

unpopular opinion (apparently): i love all of the attention and love my writing gets and could never really be bothered much that it only gets likes or that people comment what they wanna?

#i do wanna point out that i get it - its always to have people reblog your stuff cause it definitely helps with visibility and such #but i cannot find it within myself to tell people DONT BOTHER because they dont?? #im blessed to even get 1 like on the silly stuff i put out there lol #i just find it so rude and a good way to dissuade people from wanting to engage at all #im doing better when it comes to commenting - whether here or ao3 - but sometimes likes/kudos are kinda just themost convenient atm #until i can find that one post addressing this i just felt the need to say it here - but i def wanna reblog it over yonder as well #its just like...man..yeah validation is nice but do you for YOU #i personally enjoy constructive criticism so yes please tell me how to improve but i also enjoy knowing you simply liked what you read <3 #something something algorithm something something empty accounts - cant really do anything about them and they dont bother me lol #i just felt the need to vent a lil bit about this - i get what people are saying but whoa it comes across very rude and mean #and now i dont want to even interact with you lol because you came across waaaay to strongly about something that wasn't that deep #anyways i should go to bed its 6 am #ami sez

[pinkseas]

wanting to ask someone why they're so comfortable speaking over me vs knowing damn well that i am still not the slightest bit assertive and actively stop talking and interrupt myself if i think that someone else wants to give their own thoughts

#not about anybody here and not about anything recent btw #i was just thinking abt it again #its just. frustrating #its SO rare that i WONT want people to give input if/when im talking about something #but this was one of those times where i was REALLY passionate and REALLY into it #and they were just. so comfortable ignoring what i was saying and my entire point and purpose #to contribute what they wanted to say and hear what they wanted to hear and then stop paying attention altogether #actively interrupting me and derailing evem though they didnt actually care about any of what i was saying #being more firm/assertive about it and standing my ground wouldve made me feel awful and like i was being rude #but letting it happen made me feel. very small. #i know which one is better for me i just really need to work towards getting in the habit of it #i dont want to go the rest of my life like this #alyalyoxenfree

[viovio]

ohhhh ok i get my problem now. i don't cry often at anything because I'm so emotional i can't talk honestly how i really feel around people i trust and what they deserve like my siblings and that's why I don't talk back to my parents when they treat them like shit because they never listen to me and tell me how I'd like if i took care of the house myself. and if i speak this out loud i get the overwhelming urge to cry

#ive never told anyone this but like lol i get that i can be unbearable to be around #when it comes down to it im rude at any inconvenience and i yell at my ate or kuya if they ask me whats wrong because again i hate #telling people that #i do need therapy btw. literally after my grandma wony speak to me i finally told my sister her physical symptoms of a clogged ear #isnt her being an attention seeking brat lije she says and she knows that but fuck #i couldnt just sit there while my oarents tell her that. its important that we know we're not alone #i wanna be able to clean everyday and buy shit on my own like idk responsibly because i want it to be just me ate and kuya #no parents. no grandma i know this now #its also not enough that i know my problems as a person i need to make the effort to change #fucking. but when my mom tells me im selfish. that im rude. it for the fucking wrong reasons #its when i do anything that says i know i dont deserve this. its always that #but yknow to them its always be grateful we dont beat you and emotionally berate you so much #its not a fucking reach for me to say you emotionally abused me and its definitely #not me making shit up YOU ABUSE MY KUYA EVERYDAY YOU FUCKING JACKASSES YOURE KILLING ATE BECAUSE YOU TELL HER HER PROBLEM #IS BEING FAT AND PUT HER ON THIS FUCKED DIET AND NOW YOU WONDER WHY HER HAIRS FALLING OUT AND WHY HER TONGUES DRY #AND WHY HER EARS FEEL CLOGGED and you look at me with my hair similarly falling out because i miss meals a lot #and donf make a damn connection. my moms own childhood full of abuse aside i cant fucking stand this #id say go ahead and kill yourself slowly just dont bring us into it but i cant be that shitty #i dont wanna be fucking responsible for my mom and grandmas problems. my ate doesnt wanna. my brother doesnt wanna #vent tw #abuse tw

[perenlop]

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#can my mom like. please not jump to conclusions and be all weird about me #so bit of context for earlier post is that i was eating breakfast and i just woke up and my mom walked in and greeted my happily #and i just gave like a casual ''hey'' bc my mouth was full and she was like ''LOL wtf thats so rude! lets try again. hey!'' #and i said hey again but tried to make it sound more chipper but failed bc im tired and she just groaned and walked into the other room #and we're supposed to go to the river today but shes trying to make plans to go today and tomorrow bc my aunt is coming today #and aunt has a tendency to try and keep people around for very late despite previousplans and my mom always goes with it #so she wants a day with just us. issue is i have to go into college tomorrow to do a meeting and i wanted to study #which. btw i told my mom abt earlier in the week saying id ask to attend virtually but she shut it down and INSISTED i go in person #and whatever plans we have dont matter so i should just go ahead and dedicate the day to schoolwork #so i remind my mom of this and suddenly shes like ''wtf. ur staying the whole day? cant you go for just the meeting and leave?'' #which i didnt want to do bc the meeting is less time than the drive and she literally told me to stay the entire day #so i remind her and she gets frustrated and mad telling me i ''shouldnt limit myself and i should decide to go either today or tomorrow'' #but probably should just study today bc ''well youre clearly in a bad mood for how u greeted me today so maybe you shouldnt come'' #and basically ''come when youre in a better fucking mood tomorrow'' and like. well i WASNT in a bad mood i was just tired #but damn ok now i fucking am bc now youre getting mad at me for plans YOU fucking suggested i do #when i had a completely different plan at first that u tried to make out to be ridiculous #fucking hate it when she does this she also did it on vacation where she got snappy and passive aggressive and rude to me #bc she THOUGHT i was in a bad mood at the park when i wasnt. i just hadnt woken up all the day and wasnt talking #but instead of asking abt it or anything like that she got pissed and basically treated me like shit the whole day #and then when i confronted her she was just like ''ok we BOTH messed up i GUESS can we put it behind us'' #it makes it hard to talk to her when theres an actual problem bc i try to communicate and she just takes it as a personal attack #so now i dont want to go out today just bc my moms being shitty and accusing me of not liking her sister (which ngl i really dont) #and yeah i dont want to stay out late when i did want to get at least one reading done today #but i had everything prepared and now i have full obligations to tomorrow bc she insisted i go ahead #and now shes acting like i did that to spite her #its so exhausting. probably gonna take like separate cars tho tbh so can leave even i f they get sucked in #and use the work as an excuse #echoed voice

[abluescarfonwaston]

I would like to be sad a little more.

#Hey im not looking for advice right now and its very much rubbing me the wrong way #i just. i worked on that fic for months. and i get that you cant write for others and i like it so whats it matter #but 23k. 23k and the only person who thought it was worth a comment was my friend #and i get that im being a whiner and and ass and snapping at someone who's offering advice in good faith is rude #but i just want to be saf about it #thats probably more than 40 hours of my life #if you spent fourty hours on a cake and you and a friend were the only one who enjoyed it you'd probably think you should have been doing #literally anything else with your time #and i dont want advice on what i should have done or what i should do next or how i need to not write for others- #I KNOW OKAY #i just want to be sad about it #ive had plenty of posts and fics flop and it sucks. we regroup and move on #but God Damnit cant i be upset and mourn the time spent (spent not wasted) when its more than six months of work #thats not even worth a fucking <3 #yada you dont owe writers your comments or time Look i get it. #... its not even porn. at least then you know why no one says a word. it just sucked. #i just wanted to commiserate with my friends for a few minutes and now i cant even do that because i snapped at well meaning advice #instead of just saying right off the bat #*big inhale* okay. times up time to go do something productive #because i cant change it and laying here wont change where im at #back to it. #i got my clothes ironed ill make my bed and lie in it i think

[crimsongrimoire]

kaeluc prompt: they are f buddies, but then kaeya notices little changes about diluc like how he's less grumpy while tending in the tavern or that one time he saw diluc buying a ring. so kaeya calls off their arrangement and- 👀👀

ive sat on this for a few hours so ive had time to collect my thoughts and not have a bitch fit on the internet first thing in the morning bc I was cranky about waking up (and also work) so:

-please be mindful when interacting with strangers who make content you enjoy. we aren't like... wish fulfillment factories.

-please also remember im a person with a life on the other side of the screen, one who is very tired at that

-please be mindful that This Is Work, possibly more than you realize, and generally speaking yall get more out of it than I do. I enjoy writing this stuff and I love love love that yall enjoy the end results, but please remember most of what I gain from this is making other people happy, and it takes a lot of time and energy, especially lately

-i have other requests that have been sitting on for months, if I get to this it likely will not be in a timely manner, unfortunately my brain just kinda gets around to things when it wants to, which is frustrating bur it is what it is

-i honestly haven't really even been able to write my own ideas all that well for like. coming up on six months now, hence no new actual whole fics

-and please be mindful that if we haven't like. Spoken. before. as far as I can tell, at least. I would prefer people don't immediately approach and a) act overly familiar and b) make demands of me. I'm aware that this was very likely unintentional, but it's kinda how this came across, and I don't really want to open this avenue for people to do so when it's not behavior I really enjoy

I like this concept but I will say right now the number of ideas I could have for it would be limited, because unfortunately my brain just kinda Decides what it does and doesn't want to do when it comes to hobbies and such. don't love it, wish it was different, but thems the breaks I suppose

this is not at all to say don't send me ideas ever. it's more.. I would prefer you didn't approach me about it in such a demanding way, when I'm not obligated at all to do it. sorry if that sounds rude but it's the truth

im not mad or anything, however I would appreciate more.. uh. consideration, I guess

#id forgotten the part in my bio about requests/prompts was there ngl #im taking it out which again doesn't mean you can't come to me with ideas #but it means like. don't expect me to flesh this out soon or possibly ever #bc idk I can't particularly promise anything #less so than usual #and that annoys me. not because people are sharing ideas #because I generally enjoy that #but because I feel like I'm being asked to deliver and rn I just can't for some reason #which is... soooo irritating honestly. bc it's most certainly not for lack of wanting. #however my brain is just struggling rn and I'm not fully sure why #and there's not a ton I can do but endure it #there might have been more I meant to say #I can't remember it's just kinda Left my brain #funny that I've had to self advocate on both here and main in like less than 12 hrs but #i dont... want people to get overly comfortable just going Do This For Me #when I am not inherently obligated to expend my time and energy on it #again don't wanna sound rude or anything but #this IS the fact of the matter #cawing #at age 6 i was born without a face #also what are you from tiktok? we can say fuck here #i hope for your sake you arent a minor here lmao