The funniest thing about All For The Game was figuring out who the love interest was because I swear to everything holy to me that I did mental gymnastics on the olympics level.
Because at first I thought it was Kevin. My first argument was "Oh yeah, people dig the tall, dark and traumatized Male Lead shit nowadays". And Kevin and Neil knew each other as kids? AND got traumatized TOGETHER? I was convinced it was going to be some dramatic ass reveal and some bonding afterwards or something because this was love interest material right here ( which I now know to be because Neil, Andrew and Kevin were intially supposed to end up in a poly relationship ).
Then Neil revealed that he did not swing and I was like "Cool, my dude is on the aromantic or asexual spectrum or even both, I respect that because who even needs a relationship anyway, he'll just stay hot, rich and single".
On the other hand I suspected Andrew and Kevin to have a thing for each other because they had the certain energy around them which even Neil noticed.
But??? I'm an overthinker. I overthink a lot and I analyze shit and I'm good at it and there was NO WAY there was nothing going between Andrew and Neil because I noticed the fucking build up from the get go. Their scenes together increased? Truth for a truth? Their moments on the roof? Neil asking and Andrew doing everything he asks? Neil putting Andrews hands under his shirt and Andrew letting Neil touch him? Neil going to the Ravens for Andrew? My alarms were blaring and my brain was working overtime and I figured out pretty soon that the both of them were endgame. At this point it wasn't even a question of 'if' but 'when'.
Yeah, suffice to say that Andrew, the man, the myth, the legend, still managed to come in like a wrecking ball and utterly annihilate all of my expectations with the iconic "That doesn't mean I wouldn't blow you" line. I remember I was on the phone with my sister and I fucking screeched because I expected it to happen just not at that moment.
... It was definitely an experience.
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i finished both the one piece manga and anime, but after watching opla, started the anime all over again. 1084 episodes x 22 min = 23848 min = ...
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME
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continuing the outline for thralls, and holy shit does it get intense, emotionally. I don't think I ever got teary-eyed while outlining, but I very much did here (and because of romance??? what is going on???), and... Like, I think that besides two subplots that are still pretty vague in my head right now, it is starting to look very strong, but. I'm still very much on the fence about whether this is a story worth telling, especially now, and especially by me.
don't get me wrong, I think it's a good story. but I'm not sure that's good enough of a reason to bring it to screens.
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i saw what you reblogged about chinese characters and. i almost cried. how did you pass. are you okay. do you need an ambulance.
I. I HAD SUFFERED SO MUCH. to be honest i'm not one of the best students in my class when it comes to chinese, mostly bc i skipped some classes, usually bc of health problems WE DO NOT TALK ABOUT HOW I SKIPPED ONE CLASS TO GO AND WATCH MAHIRU'S MV and uh. y e a h i had to do more assignments than other students so that i could get more grades and all of that.
idk if i've mentioned this before but our chinese prof actually wanted to have like. summer classes with us, like, not officially, but you know, she was just afraid of us forgetting everything because of the summer break and was like "so yeah, if anyone wants to go somewhere and just sit there and continue learning chinese, we can do that" AND I REFUSED. honestly, i love this prof a lot and she's very funny and her classes are interesting, but. please. i need a break. also that one classmate who annoys me the most you know the one btw she actually started acting even worse i just didn't tell you anything was the first one to agree to have those summer classes and she even continues to ask us if anyone will go with her AND NO!! LEAVE US ALONE!! (also sorry can i rant for a bit. so like our prof told us that we can pick any place, since those classes are not official and we don't have to actually go to uni, so this girl ORGANIZED LITERALLY EVERYTHING WITHOUT ASKING US and went "okay that's it we're going to the cat cafe i work at. that's where we'll have those classes. that's it." and when one of my classmates was like ".. but what if someone is allergic to cats" she just. stood there. istg if i hear her say something like "oh i just act like that because i have a hyperfixation and my hyperfixation is cats <3" LIKE?? STILL?? PLEASE THINK ABOUT OTHERS TOO???)
and also. my family keeps saying that it's okay i'm just a freshman (well not anymore but still) it's normal that i'm kinda bad at chinese but also. i spent like six or seven years learning japanese and i still don't know it that well so ;w; i just wish they would stop saying things like "oh you're so good at languages and all that stuff" like. i'm not even that good at english. come on. and also we actually had one class with our seniors AND THEY WERE JUST AS BAD AS US. i even was like "b-but i thought that if we spend more time learning, we'll get better-" and one of those students was like "WE THOUGHT SO TOO GIRL 😭" i will never forget how one of those seniors was like "hey btw i think i'm getting better at chinese" and our prof was like "really? :) can you write this character for me then" and he did it while looking so confident and i thought what he wrote looked really pretty and then the prof was like "please go back to your seat before i kill you right where you stand :D"
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thinking about agency + mikey and a different take on the final arc/ending. this may be controversial and i absolutely welcome discussion + disagreement here! in fact i kind of crave it. please.
honestly mikey is such a tragic character in part because he has like. no agency in his life, or at least very little. like he has no control. all because he's been cursed for something that wasn't even his fault whatsoever, he's basically destined to lose control at some point, and there's nothing he can do to save himself, not without relying on someone else to end the curse.
it's got to be so frustrating. he's never making choices in the series with full knowledge of what the future will bring. and in the end, when he's told about his fate in the futures takemichi returned from, he finally makes his own decision for once! he's finally able to achieve something, even if it's through sacrificing himself - he's able to protect his friends and achieve a happy future for them. it's not something he wanted for himself, but he wants it more than he wants them to suffer.
but in the end, that decision is snatched away from him. takemichi goes back in time and everyone is suddenly in danger again - and his decision has been completely ignored. draken dies as a result - and in the end, takemichi does too. of course, in the end, they DO manage to save everyone, and takemichi's decision was the right one, but...
on the one hand, should mikey be allowed to sacrifice himself for everyone? takemichi and the series itself would say no, because no-one should be forced to take on everything alone. mikey is wrong in his assumption that he has to bear everything by himself, it's unhealthy, and sometimes, when you care about someone, you can't just respect all their decisions and let them do whatever they want.
on the other hand, wasn't it still his choice to make? mikey never gets the chance throughout the series to choose a future for himself, and ultimately he plays no part in saving the people he cares about or himself. takemichi chooses to place everyone's lives in danger (and i'm not personally blaming him for this at all mind you) against mikey's wishes, and people actually do die as a result! if it weren't for the (entirely unexplained) miracle at the end of the series, they would've stayed dead, too.
idk where i'm going with this. i just can't help but feel that mikey's own powerlessness is extremely tragic. even then, i'm inclined to want to believe in the series message - that no-one should be forced to take everything on all alone. but is it okay to ignore mikey's own agency in getting him to change his mind?? it's just really interesting to me. does this make any sense at all or am i just saying words at this point idk i'm tired
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