#I WANT TO!!!

[inkskinned]

one of the things about the trends and the body image and all of it is that. you can't unsee it. and it doesn't matter that you know logically it's stupid and that logically any person who has a problem with your body can fuck off and die, but it's almost like gore. you flinch even knowing the blood onscreen is fake. you sense a pain that was invented. your body creates the phantom sensation - this thing should be avoided. so okay.

it's not that you won't wear the skinny jeans or the choker or whatever isn't "in style" anymore. and sometimes the demands are so buckwild that you can just ignore them, plain and simple.

but you do think twice sometimes. you do notice things about yourself you hadn't even considered. you notice the hip dips and the shape of your cheekbone and the skin over your eyes. it's been pointed out to you - so you notice. and sometimes it's like fuck you i look fucking amazing and sometimes it's like nobody even remembers that being a thing probably and sometimes - it's fucking devastating. like someone drew a bright red circle around each insecurity. on those days, you wonder - does anyone else see?

because the blame is on you either way. you have a terrible catch-22. if you want to fit in, it's on you to be sure that you look good, that your makeup isn't the "heinous" 2016 style (even if that's the style that flatters you), that your bodyfat settles in the appropriate landmap. and at the same time: it is also on you to ignore the programming. it is on you to get over your decades of social exposure to a trillion-dollar industry and just not care! about these things.

in the comments of course there are people who would advise you nothing with nuance. just ignore it! sure. nobody actually cares about these things. absolutely. this isn't how normal people look. of course not, you know that. you weren't born yesterday. you know about the photoshop and the pricetag and the brand manager.

but like. the media still exists. there are videos on how to manage your hip dips (your skeleton. you know it's your skeleton, and it doesn't matter, does it, because it has a name now, doesn't it?) and how to finally correctly wear the clean-girl-trend and how to have enough money to wear the latest "casual outfit". there are videos critiquing your entire generation for how you dress. how "cringe" it is to wear a certain style of necklace. an influencer says - let's be honest! nobody cares if you just have confidence!

but people do care. you've seen it. you know they care. you've been made fun of enough. it's not, like, a horrible sin to just want to fit in. it's not saying anything new to say i just don't want to be made fun of.

somewhere along here, you learn - your body is more like an accessory. not a home, not a sensation. it is an object like mom jeans or opera gloves. something to manipulate, not something to love.

#spilled ink #writeblr #any time ppl are like well the rules are made up so just stop caring! #im like :) god i wish that were me #I WANT TO!!! #i want you all to stop caring too!!! #but also i think... #in our secret hearts #we care #bc we WERE trained for years to care #and pretending it's as easy as ignoring it.... is really unfair

[oleredacted]

I’d like to join my local queer rugby team 😰

#midday thots #at work #because #I want to!!!

[sanguineerose]

what if i posted an update today

#I WANT TO!!! #but the next chapter isn't finished yet and it's ends with a cliffhanger

[twst-the-night-away]

In 2023 I hope to make progress on some of my Big Fandom Projects, or at least expand upon them more. I have so much stuff cooking in my brain and so little ... Make-Things-Happen Juice. :T

Introduce my Yuusona so I'll officially have an OC for each dorm

Fan event based on the Old Sage Diner

Fan event or story or SOME way of getting the Bontemps Festival out there

Fanschool (yes, it's still a thing I think about now and then)

Polish up Sparky, Roswell, & Nadya to get more info about them out there

Do a cosplay??? Maybe???

#can i do it??? #i want to!!! #honestly the diner fan event would be so much fun #but will i actually see it through ...

[day0walker]

Would you ever think of doing a Ghost/Reader similar to your König/Reader one?

Here's the thing lol

I absolutely would LOVE to write more Ghost/Reader, especially slow burn or long haul type stuff

The issue is that I am a disaster and I'm very shy and nervous every single day at all moments all the time LMAO

Which is to mean, I would be really nervous tackling what is essentially the biggest xReader that people like in the CoD community so far especially since there's soooo many REALLY talented writers who are doing it

I might suck it up and actually go for it because I mean......the self indulgence of it all is really appealing

#ask #anon #i want to!!! #imposter syndrome scares me

[sleepysnk]

i might order some tokyo revengers stickers and put them on my laptop 😁😁

#summer speaks #i want to!!! #but idk? #mainly cuz i don’t want to just fall out of it and have them there #BUT I WANT THEMMMM

[blueboxbeagle]

By LabradoriteKing on Pinterest

#Tutorials & References #Gemstones #Jewels #Art Reference #Writing Reference #Gemstones Reference #If the original marker wants me to take this down I will

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

#greek mythology #ares #athena #greek gods #dont get me wrong it aint athena slander but it sure is ares praise #on some level at least #man justly accused of bad things deserves some mid praise more at 11 #thank you romi for helping me with words though i duly noted you insisted on ares not being cautious rather than him not being careful #romi be like “i want him to care” and honestly good you should say it #also EPIC led to this and i just..... i want to draw some animatics man i just need infinite time now #my long lost love for greek myths just will never stop coming and they dont stop coming and they dont stop coming #i want some vulture design in here for ares but not sure about this one #kochei doodles

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[bookwyrminspiration]

god I would be UNSTOPPABLE if I was capable of consistently initiating tasks. just you wait. you'll be waiting a while but just you wait

#executive dysfunction #shitpost #every day I get stuck in waiting mode for SO LONG and SO MANY TIMES #that one time I tried adhd meds it fixed it but then I. was like no I am going to be scared and not continue taking it <3 #and also. I simply did not like the psychologist and did not want to have to go back #so. rawdogging the world <3 #man if I could start a task right now...then you'd see...then you'd all see....

[griancraft]

Listen to skyjacks also look at my cat

#I don’t want big booby death Vader as my top post #sorry #so look at my cat

[titleofpersonage-p01]

#palestine #free palestine #israel #israel is committing genocide #i understand both sides of the argument in the comments #but the fact that this can even be some what believable is concerning in itself #always remember that an “us vs them” narrative is dangerous #we cannot deny that innocent lives are being slaughtered #i just want this war to be over #but thats not something thats going to be easily done

[memendoemori]

Good morning everybody

#chatgpt #generative ai #get fucked get fucked get fucked I hope they win #I don't care about GRRM winning. I just want chatGPT to LOSE

[mayhemchicken-artblog]

in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

#art #artists on tumblr #bitches will say ''in what context are these colors pretty'' #and then post the delicate hues of sunlight filtering through the leaves of a forest in late springtime #edit: censored the other op bc some of yall are starting to scare me and i don't want them getting harassed #and as long as im here. stop telling me it's the shrek colors i know it's the shrek colors #everybody and their mother has already mentioned it's the shrek colors

[qrowpilled]

hate when you find a character whose so infuriatingly Your Type that its embarrassing like yeahg no one is gonna be surprised when i announce this is my new Guy Of The Month

#shush jesse #this post abt astarion #hes just so painfully on brand for me #i know so little about him though is the thing but i still feel insane #but i cant play the game and i dont want to watch anyone play it and i dont want spoilers #so like.....secondhand blorbo right now

[gayforcarstairsgirls]

#staff need to realise that one little change to layout ruins my day #and that when i snooze tumblr live i mean that i want it GONE #tumblr live