#I KNOW I SOUND WEIRD BUT LISTEN

[ad-1812]

they look so good with their traumatic moments😍🥰

#soviper #sova x viper #valorant #even here they r slaying like daaamn #idk but seeing them in pain is beautiful #I KNOW I SOUND WEIRD BUT LISTEN #it's like turning points in their stories the awawkening moment or smth #already have so many scenarios with them sharing their experience and comforting each other #BUT OFC AFTER MORE SUFFERING YKNOW HAHAH #i'm crazy and cringe pls don't mind me

[inkskinned]

i keep thinking about hobbies and how i often spill over myself to pick up new ones. i have adhd, i end up trying something for like a month and then just getting far enough in it that i move on, satisfied.

and that should be fine; but it's never fine.

i am a pretty decent artist; but i can't just make art for my dnd campaign, i should be selling dnd maps and character designs and scene setting pieces. i can't just make my friends matching earrings, i need to get an etsy and ship them internationally and take bulk orders. i make pretty good props and decorations and use them to throw my friends parties - but i should be running a party planning business and start taking paying clients and networking and putting my skills to actual use.

for some reason, i never figured out the specifics of pottery. it was a fun class and i enjoyed myself - and still, i'm embarrassed, years later, that i put in all that useless effort. everything i make has to be stunning. stellar. i should have applied myself more. maybe i'm too lazy. maybe i'm broken and selfish and needy. actually creative people would have kept going; they would be bettering themselves at every possible opportunity.

we find ourselves in this trap, even accidentally: we need to commodify our time, because it is a commodity. if we spend our efforts and our time not earning, isn't that the same thing as burning free money? and god forbid you ever take up a hobby that ends up being more expensive than you thought. you sit in your car and you look at the receipt and in your head you hear a conversation that isn't even happening - your mom or your friend or your partner all saying oh great. not this shit again. it's always something with you, and it never actually means anything.

i have realized this horrible thing, recently - i'll get excited to start a project, pick up a new hobby. and then i just... stop myself. i start thinking about the amount of time it will take, and how it'll look in my monthly budget. what if i can't even produce a good enough final product. sure, it's exciting to think about how i could make my friend her own custom dice. but i'm just polluting the earth if i don't get it right. better not bother. better not try.

restless, i get caught in the negative space. the feeling that oh god, i want to create. and that horrible sense - yeah, but i don't have the time to just put to waste.

#hobbies #writeblr #what stage of weirdness to write about hobbies on my hobby writing blog #although i know OBJECTIVELY i am a creative person #i often forget to label myself that bc i don't feel im an ARTISTIC person bc i don't do anything like that professionally #writing doesn't even feel like a hobby i think that surprises nobody for me to be like #it would be easier for me to stop . like. breathing. #which feels cheesy and trite but listen im running late for a meeting and all i really want to say is like #i couldn't even consider writing my hobby bc it makes my skin crawl bc it makes it sound like it's not important to me #bc we really devalue hobbies. like entirely. #it HAS to be a job. it must #also idk if this is clear but i personally get stuck in this space where i CANT create bc i am putting so much pressure on myself #to make it RIGHT #and im like ... idk i only have an hour #so probably shouldnt get involved in this thing

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

arctic monkeys with MTV, 2011 (x)

#listen i know i sound deeply weird but this haircut on alex accentuates his nose in a way that is simply delightful to me #also i'm loving the cool shades/fidgety hands contrast #however #matt’s ‘there are a lot of banjos going around these days’ is simply my favourite thing to come out of this interview #i feel like i need to make a compilation of all the wonderful things matt comes out with in interviews #he's an actual gift #the colour palette in this is also inexplicably pleasing to me #anyway #that's quite enough procrastinating via the means of giffing am interviews #arctic monkeys #sias era #matt helders #alex turner #lulu posts #my gifs

[asurrogateblog]

just because you two are the blue ones to your red counterparts does not mean you're the normal ones

#david's weirdness about roger and paul's weirdness about john are very VERY different. but its in the same font #this is why david is 'denial' in the five stages of grief #i just re-listened to the divison bell again and im still like...dude. come on we all know what this is about #-paul's songs- on the other hand are funny because #i'll listen to one that sounds Suspicious but i'll be like 'okay yes i hear it but i'm probably reading into things too much' #but then ill read an article about the song later and it'll be like 'john lennon was convinced this song was secretly about him' #like oh alright then. #pink floyd #the beatles #david gilmour #paul mccartney

[nerves-nebula]

one of my favorite parts of playing wizard101 is (and i mean this in an entirely lighthearted way and with all the affection in my heart) trying to figure out if one of the worlds is racist or not. its like a little game for me. im tallying up points and weighing them against the fact that i dont really know enough about the cultures in question to figure it out.

#nnstuff #rambling #wizard101 #im in zafaria right now and while i dont know much about africa and its various cultures countries and accents #its kind of weird listening to voice acting that sounds like an off version of my dads accent #for what its worth i doubt my dad would care #but i also kind of wonder if we had a better relationship i would feel comfortable asking him for his opinion

[friendlifyre]

loving jingrenheng is so wild you have to watch the fans of each individual pairing wanting to rip each other apart and being super aggressive over how their pair is better and you cant even disagree with most of their arguments because every relationship within really is that compelling you just dont see why you couldnt enjoy all of those dynamics at the same time

#jingrenheng #at least on twitter anyway #i know ship wars arent new and i probably sound like someone whos experiencing ~fandom~ for the first time but #listen theres smth so much more bizarrely surreal #about watching people who literally love the exact same thing you do. rip into something else you love just the same #in 'defense' of the former #its such a weird paradox to witness fjsdhdfs and so alienating in a way #anyway. jingrenheng enjoyers get behind me #hsr

[spookyscarysnails]

Father Garcia's secret identity

Other silly faith edits

#finally the truth behind his weird walk! #yes i know my videos keep getting more and more nonsensical #now to listen to ten hours of crab rave #am i the only one who thinks the song is kind of soulful #faith the unholy trinity #song is obviously crab rave #and the sound of zoidberg wooping #father garcia #what is father garcia's first name?? #maybe father is his first name #please my father was garcia call me father #father father #okay sorry #faith the game #faithedits

[c00kietin]

An oc I've been thinking about a lot recently, she's a singer who purely yells and screams :]

#if I could draw guitars she'd be holding one kadksgdskgdkshdkd #turned out reminding me of hazbin hotel. Which was not my intention. But oh well. #I just like. picturing her screaming her lungs off. to loud songs I like listening to. #I was in a yelling mood today :] (not in a bad way) #I sound weird anyways- #my art #my oc #oc art #art #just realised she doesn't have a name...if you have a suggestion let me know :D

[spock-smokes-weed]

Thinking about my AU again cus 🫶

So in the lore, Zoro’s labor is incredibly chaotic from Sanji being out of town and the three remaining straw hats having to act as stand-in birth partners. Well his labor is also very slow going. Like hours pass and he’s not making any progress. So Zoro being Zoro the longer it takes the more his patience is wearing thin, and towards the end he fully doesn’t want anyone but Sanji to see him anymore. He’s in a shit ton of pain, has been for hours, and is ready to rip Luffy’s head off is he keeps trying to cheer him up with Yo-Yo tricks. Zoro doesn’t do vulnerability, so it’s a struggle for him to be in so much pain and not know how to cope with it.

Sanji being the more emotionally intelligent one of the two, decides to ask all of the straw hats to go home for the rest of the night. He’s very grateful for the support they’ve given (he’s super grateful he gets sappy about it) but he can take the rest of it from here and they should go get som sleep. The straw hats are like “yes we agree” but instead of going home they crash in the hospital parking lot in Luffy’s van.

In my mental timeline of the labor, zoro realizes he’s in labor around like 9am-ish. Like he knows something is up when he wakes up. And because he’s incredibly stubborn he doesn’t alert the straw hats until like 12am because he doesn’t want to admit that’s he’s scared, or that he was wrong with insisting that sanji leave on his trip.

They get to the hospital 30 min later. Sanji shows up around 4pm. The straw hats get booted from the room around 10pm, and the baby is finally born at 3 am the next morning.

After some well deserved rest, around 7am Sanji comes running out into the parking lot, yanking open the door of the van yelling “IM A FATHER!!!!” excited and mushy crying ensues.

#one piece #one piece sound au #roronoa zoro #vinsmoke sanji #zosan #the straw hats #a/b/o #omegaverse #mpreg #listen I’m a sucker for labor drama #that’s a weird sentence to say but if you’re a connoisseur of the sit com or soap opera you know what I’m talking about #labor is one of the most vulnerable things a human being can go through and I find that so compelling #and I think about zoro being so angry over how much pain he’s in and sanji being there to be his rock #and trying to help protect his dignity from their friends #cus he’s knows zoro doesn’t want luffy in the others to see him red faced screaming #and knows zoro’s lashing out cus he’s rather die then be seen like this

[spaciebabie]

count how often i make a post about missing choir here's post number whatever. i miss choir

#spacie spoinks #im gonna do it next semester . but i miss it. so bad brah #i need 2 sing or ill die #also hearing donna lynne champlin sing makes me less insecure of my voice cuz shes also operatically inclined #and her voice does the same thing mine does where her vibrato is very strong and she sounds fucking AWESOME #maybe i....sound awesome too..... #such a fucking. skilled musician . im listening ta her sing face your fears from cxg #and . when the final note came i was like. is she gonna be able 2 hit it. b/c usually thats a very hard note 2 hit #head on w/out your voice cracking since it sits. in a weird place between headvoice and chest. aND THEN SHE HIT IT??? #CRAZY EPIC STYLE????? #LIKE THE SUPPORT ??? AND THEN SHE LIFTED HER SOFT PALLET I HEARD IT BRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I WAS LIKE :JAWDROP: #NOBODY KNOWS WHAT THE FUCK IM TALKING ABOUTTTTT SOBS #CHOIR PEOPLE/PEOPLE WHO LOVE TALKING ABOUT VOCAL PERFORMANCE FOLLOW ME SO I CAN SCREAM WITH YOU #sigh #anyways

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

Medical log, stardate 18935.15. Once more have I seen the tailor go out in his lizard fashion—

#least funny way to make this joke BUT. look how much thought I put into that stardate! #Star Trek: Deep Space 9 #it would be so much easier to listen to the new audiodrama podcast of drac daily instead of reading but unfortunately #our dear solicitor will forever sound exactly like our dear doctor to me now because somehow it has become Hot Reptile Summer in my brain #and everything is melting together like changeling soup. and this is BEFORE the gomens s2 premiere. christ. #Dracula: How dare you touch him!! This man belongs to me!! I too can love!!! #me reading All That: omg just like in all my favorite ''Garak saves Julian from other Cardassians'' fanfics :3 #god I love how as far as I know there's literally nothing in canon to support any of our weird kinky #''claiming a mate by leaving a bite mark scar on their neck'' or any of that other fanon stuff for Cardassians #it's not like with the Klingon dicks or Vulcan pon farr. anybody could make up absolutely anything about Cardassians #and every single writer I've ever read has chosen shit like mating bites scent marking egg laying #and of course. glowing blue WAP with a built in strap. I fucking love you Deep Space 9 fandom there will never be another like you!!!!!! #Starky's Original Posts #Dracula Daily #COMPUTER. ERASE LOG.

[stargazer0001]

"Wow!! Star finally posted art!!! I bet its gonna be rainworld :3"

WRONG old oc art.

Its ghost cat AKA Buddy. The human you see there is J.J. No lore reveal bc I forgot the lore I had but it had somethin to do with a cult sacrifices murder and demons. So. Theres that.

#oufh Buddy my beloved my wonderful son #you can make him into any shape u want they can literally be a liquid #also its voice is 100 percent sounds something like the fucking eeaaooo song because. Hes just. Quirky like that #also when surprised Buddy does kinda go all funky. But he can also do it at will if he just wants to be silly #I also imagine if music is loud enough he also goes all quirky. Like you know when you listen to music #and theres that weird little wiggly line in the middle? Yeah it does that #also his pronouns are he/they/it in no particular order #also bitch is LOUD they will ramble about anything and everything all of the time #poor J.J. Having to deal with this funny little fellow wherever they go..... btw J.J is NB and their pronouns are they/them <3 #oc: [Buddy] #oc: [ghost cat] #oc: [J.J] #cw eyestrain #cw bright colors

[heart-forge]

I think if I could make a total dream game I'd make a VR romance experience.

#talkForge #and hear me out I think I could do it #both because I know how to make VR games but that's not the issue the issue is that all the VR romance experiences are like n/s/fw #so you get that uncanny valley models and weird animations but listen. forget all that. throw it away. #in walkabout golf labyrinth dlc when you unlock night mode you can go through the course and collect clues from the goblin king to unlock a #unique putter? and you end up kind of acting out both the act of having already finished the course and the movie itself. #and I think. with the right sounds/images/textures. #this could happen #unfortunately I'd need to be a millionaire first because I don't do 3D modelling :(

[suburbanbonfire]

thank you to @longliveyamo for tag-whispering a rec for Hot Girls Hockey podcast, I am now working my way through their backlog and it is EXACTLY the kind of zero fact checking, long unrelated tangents, all good vibes hockey content i crave

#AND i get to learn more about a team i dont pay much attention to #things i like: Knowing #tell me about your team!!!!! give me weird little reasons to care!!! #im looking for any and all excuse to let this hyperfixation consume me ourobouos style #over and over and over #also back to my other beloved hockey pod You Cant Do That #PLEASE listen to their latest ep #i laughed out loud at work learning the caps new goalie's nickname is just a primal mouth sound now #ch-CHUH #amazing and endlessly stupid #rambles

[boyjoan]

i need to Talk to you about my Sandwich

#hello. welcome to tags #today i had a wholemeal wrap #and i filled it with turkey #and mango #and hot sauce #and listen #i know it sounds bizarre #but it was so bloody tasty #OH AND BREAKFAST. PORRIDGE!!! #with set honey and a banana and a pear i love you fruit #i love you food that sustains me and supports me and fuels my playing cricket with small children #porridge is kind of a weird texture but the flavour is soo good #idk if ill ever eat it again. on account of the texture #but it was a win bc it sustained me #im rambling #time to wrap up #thank you for coming to breakfast!! i love you i want us both to eat well <3 #partridge family breakfast!!