#Holy shit I wrote an essay for this blog

[ghost-the-silly]

Ghost Intro, what

Hello!

Name: Ghost_Bean/Ghost

Age: Minor. I don't want any creepy people following or interacting w/ me, get out

Pronouns: They/them

Interests (In order of how much I focus on them): Murder Drones (current obsession, as you can probably tell...), Splatoon (not very educated on lore sadly...), Wings of Fire (wof discord servers), Nevermore (Webtoon), She-Ra, The Owl House, Steven Universe, Amphibia, KIPO

Uhh... There's probably more but whatever

Hobbies: Drawing traditional art, wondering if I'm doing the right thing on Tumblr, not getting enough sleep, reblogging Tumblr posts at 2 am, finding more Murder Drones blogs to follow, sleeping... Huh, ironic

What I Do: I reblog and like posts from my favorite blogs! I basically just lurk around, throwing love at people's art and posts. I hope that I can help people find cool blogs to follow :]

DNI: LGBTQ+ phobic, TERF, MAP, Zoo, etc, Proshipper. Don't be a bad person. That's all I fucking ask. Have common sense

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Fun facts/Trivia/Whatever you wanna call this:

- I'm in a lot of WoF Army servers, so feel free to ask me about them!

- I draw traditional art of wof ocs, but I'm also trying to figure out digital art! I also dream of being able to draw Drones one day, but anatomy is... a struggle 😭 (feel free to send me tips/guides btw!!!)

- My favorite MD characters and ships are: Doll, Cyn, Lizzy, and Yeva (top 4 char.) | Ships: Dizzy (Doll/Lizzy), RussianDuet (Yeva/Yeva's Husband ((does he have a name??)), Oilrose (J/V), Juzi (J/Uzi), and some others that I literally can't remember because brain no work

- I don't have any strong opinion or preference on ships when it comes to some characters like Uzi, V, J, N, etc as long as it's not problematic. I like seeing other people's ideas and headcanons, either about the characters or ships! I also like Butler N and Maid V, they would be so silly together fr

HOWEVER, I do NOT ship N/Cyn, I see them as siblings. Please, for the love of God..

- I may stop being active on Tumblr for a while at times, but don't worry, I'll be back eventually! [Update: Tumblr takes up ~69% of my screentime so... If I'm gone, assume I'm somewhere without wifi or just trying to save my battery]

- I swear. Just- I swear. I try to keep it to a minimum tho dw... Shit- (haha whoops). Ok but tbf MD has gotten me to say things like "Holy hell!" more often lol

- I like the color periwinkle!! I also like any color from teal to dark purple, and sage green on the side

- Uh... I also don't exactly know my way around Tumblr. Like... Can I reblog something without tags? Does it show if I accidentally un-liked then re-liked a post?? How does tagging work??? Just general stuff too, cause I mostly/only like and reblog cool things

- I'm an English speaker only :/ (but Google translate, my beloved <3)

- I use tone tags a lot! It helps me get my message across correctly, and I hope it helps others understand what I'm trying to say!/gen

- I say things like Dawg, Fr, On god, Silly, Goober, and other things like that quite often, so apologies if it gets annoying/gen

- My timezone is CST! 'Murica !!! 🔥🦅🇺🇲 (Get me out of here)

- Murder Drones is so cool, what, I can't see colors correctly anymore, help me (/pos, MD brings me joy)

- I don't do actual posts often so don't expect that much actual Ghost Content

- guh.

- I LOVE WOMEN THEY'RE SO PRETTY HOLDING HANDS WITH A GIRL WOULD FIX ME IM SUCH A GIRLKISSER (I've never kissed a girl)

- I love yuri. I need yuri. I wake up, yuri. I go to sleep, yuri. Always yuri. Robot yuri? Yes please. I wrote an essay on why I love Doomed/Toxic Yuri because yuri

- Other socials: ghost_bean on Discord, JustARandomGayPerson on toyhou.se

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That's it! Feel free to ask me anything (as long as it's not NSFW, political, hateful, etc), or let me know if I might've forgotten something! I'd love to answer any questions you might have, and I want to get to know Tumblr's silly and amazing community!

Have a great rest of your day/night, and may your favorite show get another season and an (actually good) movie

#introduction #ghost is losing their minds what #the tags #my newfound freedom and silliness #have a great day lol bye #how do i pin a post/j #ghost silliness

[cmdonovann]

quantum break appreciation month: a quick retrospective

so, first of all, wow, it was WAY more effort than i thought to just POST SOMETHING EVERY DAY. i put a lot of pressure on myself to only post The Good Stuff to this blog, and boy golly is my standard of "good stuff" higher than it ought to be! so this has been great practice for me in "finished is better than perfect."

second of all, i wanna put together a quick rundown of everything i did this month!

Announcement post

April 1st: My Bleeding Clock (My Immortal AU) fanfic for April Fool's Day

April 2nd: Playlist to go with My Bleeding Clock

April 3rd: Sketch of 2010!Beth

April 4th: Sketch of Jack and Beth

April 5th: Reblogged my old post about last year's anniversary zine, as well as a new little sketch to celebrate the 7th anniversary of the game's release

April 6th: Doodle of Beth in a skirt (with pockets!)

April 7th: I literally just posted a passage I like from the QB:ZS novel

April 8th: Started posting old art... completed set of the halo series here!

April 9th: More old art (Jack/Paul this time)

April 10th: More old art, LNEHH edition

April 11th: More old art, Will Joyce edition

April 12th: Some Jack/Paul art to celebrate me and my husband's anniversary :3c

April 13th: QUANTUM BREAK HOMESTUCK AU!!!

April 14th: Surprise! it's even more old Jack/Paul art!

April 15th: Wow! I can't believe it's more Jack/Paul art!

April 16th: Apparently I was busy this day because I just reblogged LNEHH, lol

April 17th: Quantum Break characters, but as Skyrim characters

April 18th: Some blinkie gifs I made using blinkies.cafe

April 19th: A sweater I made using the linocut stamps from last year's anniversary zine

April 20th: Another blinkie gif, hehe

April 21st: Meta post about color palettes and color usage in Quantum Break

April 22nd: A little QB divider I made for my fansite (WIP)

April 23rd: Some terrible glitter gifs, also for the WIP fansite

April 24th: Minecraft skins of a bunch of QB characters!

April 25th: I was also apparently busy this day, cuz all I did was make a stupid phone background for myself XD

April 26th: Took a swing at pixel art

April 27th: A promo for the Quantum Break Discord Server I run!

April 28th: Wrote another chapter of My Bleeding Clock...

April 29th: Art of Jack and Paul :3

April 30th: Started a new longfic: The Symmetry of Fear!

holy shit. that's a lot. i am retroactively impressed with my past self for doing all this, lmao. nice.

third of all! i wanna note that i started several projects this month that i have yet to finish. of course i'm not confining my quantum break posting to one month of the year (impossible) but i will take my time finishing the... uh... three fics and two meta essays i have unfinished, as well as the fansite i am working on. i want these to be GOOD, so i'm not going to rush them. i'm glad this month gave me to juice to finally get these projects started, though!

and lastly... why did i even do this project/event in the first place?

well... good question. i imagine i'm not the only one who has been Going Through It for a while now, and i just... really needed a big project to focus on for a while. and quantum break is like, one of the only things that i never get tired of thinking about, so... are you seeing my logic here?

all that said, i do genuinely want to work on putting more love out into the world. and i love quantum break! i want other people to love it too! (or at least, i want other people to look at my passion for it and be like "i dont go here but you keep doing your funky little thing my man," you know what i mean?)

so, big thanks to everyone who has encouraged me this month, whether it be in reblog tags, in the quantum break discord server, or elsewhere. also, big thanks to my husband, who i would not have married if not for our mutual obsession with quantum break, and who is always down to listen to me talk about my various theories and fic ideas. and finally, a big thanks to remedy, for making this dumb game that i love so so so much.

#quantum break #quantum break appreciation month #thanks yall for putting up with my qb posting seriously #i know thats not what most of yall are here for #but thanks for humoring me anyway! #i WILL make more people love this game so help me god

[potestessemagishomosexualitatis]

Uh whoops

I sent my SS ask to the wrong blog

Good thing I wrote it in Notes!!

Oh my word. Oh my word. OH MY WOOOORRRRDD

I had read a couple of your Sanders Sides fics before, but only remembered them as "that really good one about Loceit Sex Pollen" or "the super angsty but cool and creative Logan/Virgil fic” and didn't realize they were by the same author

I recently came across No Starting Over and finally realized that there was some GOLD here and went to check your page, shocked to come across fics that were old friends of mine!

A couple days ago I read all the way through Homeroom Angels and just sat on my bed repeating “what the fuck. Holy shit. That was so GOOD." over and over again for (I shit you not) about ten minutes.

Last night I read all the way through Dismantle The Gender Trinary (stayed up until 4:00 AM, oops) and GAHHHHH

I do not like soulmate fic. I do not like omegaverse fics. And SOMEHOW. You made me enjoy BOTH of them with your absolute god-tier writing!! (Your Loceit soulmate bullet fic literally made me kick my feet and giggle.)

Today I came across Offer Me His Lips and knew I had to say something to you, lack of AO3 account or no.

I have now made it my mission to read through all of your SS works, even the ones that seem as though they may not be my thing.

Genuinely, the way you write is sooooo... charming isn't strong enough. Enchanting. Bewitching. I've saved so many quotes from your fics in my note for favorite quotes already and I haven't even read through all of your stuff. Your writing just got into my skin (positive) and stayed there. It scratched so many little itches in my brain, even ones I didn't know were there. Your essays and AO3 stats are so thoughtful and insightful, answering questions to which I didn’t even know how badly I wanted answers.

I apologize if this was overwhelming in any way, but just... thank you so much for your writing. It's incredibly beautiful, unique, creative, and inspiring.

If it's okay, may I send the comments I would have put on the chapters of the fies (if I had an account) as asks on here? Totally understand if not!!!

Thank you for your time, I hope you have a really good day/night!!!!

-💟

Asadjhfsjdk this is so sweet! Thank you so much, this ask really made my day!!! 🥰🥰🥰

I would love to see your comments, and you're absolutely welcome to send them here! (Although I probably won't post replies to everything so I don't spam people's dashboards too much.) I had to turn off anon commenting on AO3 because some people who didn't like my stats work were spamming harassment, but I am always happy to hear what people have to say about my work.

#asks #to reread later

[hopeymchope]

Acknowledging my unexpected success/pondering my blogging future

Sometimes, instead of just posting about Danganronpa or anime in general, I veer off the unexpected path and post something totally unrelated. When I do this? It's mostly for myself; I never really expect to receive much of an audience.

Which is why the overwhelming success of my loooong post about the death of the Veronica Mars fandom has got me completely shocked. It might not be my most popular post ever yet, but it's escalating in exposure so quickly that I can easily picturing it getting there.

I'm grateful to so many fellow Tumblrinas (are we even still calling ourselves that) for their incredibly kind and enthusiastic responses to it. I've read EVERY SINGLE tag you've added, I've seen EVERY SINGLE reblog note, EVERY goddamn reply. And I'm just... gobsmacked. It's amazing to go to be a writer and finally, FINALLY feel like you wrote something a ton of people both READ and LIKED READING. Like, holy shit. Thank you so much. My day job should be so lucky! My fucking fanfics should be so lucky! lol

This, but with total sincerity.

I also feel a tad guilty, because that deep dive into the Murder of the Veronica Mars Fandom is so NON-INDICATIVE of my usual content on this blog. Which is why, in the wake of this massive response, I'm wondering if I should make a whole series of posts about fandom histories on here (tagging them as such), or maybe create a new side blog for those projects instead? Maybe make the side blog, then reblog such posts here as well? Or something?

...not sure whether any of that is a good idea right now. Posts of this type obviously take time, and they wouldn't be common in any arena, but investigating the history of fandoms I'm not even a part of is a casual hobby that I can get really passionate about at random intervals. So it'd be fun to go down this road again, and see if other people enjoy another such trip.

And maybe you/they wouldn't care! Maybe I just tapped into a hotbed of Burnt Marshmallows lurking on Tumblr. Maybe it doesn't matter what else I write such an essay about, because I need that established base to make people interested. But... I can't be sure until I try.

#navel gazing #veronica mars #fandom histories

[chiveburger]

I don’t think I’m a good writer or anything, nor am I obsessed about myself but sometimes I’ll stay up in the middle of the night reading my own blog posts and shit... they’re just compelling to me. maybe because I wrote it and I experienced whatever I wrote I find it interesting to go back and read some of my rants or reviews or misc posts and just be like “damn”. there are some posts I write which I felt like didn’t come from me because they’re actually really touching, but ultimately a lot of the posts I write obviously resonate with me because I wrote them. sometimes I’ll read things I’ve written about my family and cry or I’ll read my own drama essays and think “holy shit that was such a great point” and re-read it. I do think I’m one of my biggest fans, and I like the way I write and express myself. If I didn’t have this blog I would go mad talking to myself. 

#borger diary

[drunkengodsofslaughter]

Hey, this is mikes-pineapple-pizza (it's a sideblog so I can't send asks from it so I'm using anon). These have to be some the wildest takes I've seen:

"Lucas is classist because he says that Eddie looks like he hasn't showered in two weeks in Lucas on the Line"-- I don't even want to dignify that one with a response.

"Vickie is emotionally abusive to Robin in s4"-- I don't even know how the hell someone came to that conclusion, honestly. Still makes my brain hurt, tho.

"El is actually the bad guy because she 'took Dr. Brenner's side' in the fight against Henry"-- I have actually read this, and it actually made me want to scream.

"People only hate Billy because he represents the 'anger of the proletariat'"-- That one actually defies logic. The fact that someone thought of this idea then wrote an entire essay on it makes me fear for the future of humanity.

Yeah, those are my top four. This is just the tip of the iceberg, though, because there are a lot of insanely bad takes out there. I tried to go for the more absurd ones for this, rather than just the normal bad ones, though.

Omg hi! thanks for clarifying! And I didn’t realize that side blogs couldn’t send asks from it so that was new info so thanks. My reactions to each are going to be in the same number format for what you have it as.

1. Okay that is insanely weird and gross. Like god that’s so weird. I honestly don’t even know what to say to that take cuz it’s just so out of left field.

2. Okay this gets on my nerves. People complain about vickie not having enough screen time and yet they pull this out of their asses. Which also is so weird cuz I take this to mean that vickie was being emotionally abusive to Robin cuz she had a boyfriend and didn’t know about Robin’s crush. And was just living her own life. Like that’s not even in the ball park of being emotionally abusive to Robin. It’s just vickie living her life and somehow that’s being emotionally abusive like it makes no sense. Yep this take def makes my brain hurt too.

3. This take makes me want to scream too cuz holy fucking shit. El legit is just trying too survive and get Henry to calm down the best way she knows how- seeing kindness in people. Like she isn’t even taking brenner’s side which makes me think they didn’t watch the rest of anything where el tells brenner that he is the monster. And tells brenner to his face what a horrible person he was. She also just stands there and watches as he dies. Like there is no way that she can possibly be on brenner’s side.

4. I swear to god those people will bring up anything to make billy seem like a hero which it sucks sooo much. Also had to look up the last word of proletariat and god they will bring up anything to make it seem like billy is a saint. They constantly bring up ‘oh look he’s from a middle class or lower class’ as if that excuses his actions. Also little side rant here but Billy’s arcs barely had anything to do with the fact that he is from a lower class or working class. Is it part of his story? Sure. But it’s not a fundamental part. We don’t really see him do much work or get info that he is struggling with jobs. Unless you count season 3 but all the teens including Steve (who is rich) have jobs. And on top of that we’ve never once heard billy complain about being in a lower class structure. As far as we know in canon billy doesn’t really care or think about how he is in the class structure. I’m not saying that he doesn’t have problems or it doesn’t affect him. I’m just saying thag in canon billy doesn’t seem to care that much. Also if he wanted to be angry at the system he wouldn’t take it upon himself to hurt children because that wouldn’t be who he is angry at.

Thanks for sending this and yeah I can totally see how it’s just the tip of the iceberg. And thanks for choosing these ones cuz damn they seriously were more absurd.

[gale-in-space]

oooh, camellia for the ask game?

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

Ohhhh this one's gonna be sad kinda (mostly for me).

Holy SHIT this got long, throwing this under a cut. Read or ignore at your discretion.

I used to be pretty hyperactive and rambunctious as a kid. I loved being a tomboy, I loved wearing paint-stained button-downs, I loved to run, I loved pretending I was a dragon tamer and an astronaut and a warrior cat and a fairy, I loved riding horses (I only did it like once or twice but I loved it), I loved snakes and bugs and lizards and all sorts of creepy crawlies, etc, etc.

And then I got shy. Really shy. I never raised my hand in class and I got all panicky when I was called on. I didn't have friends really, because everyone thought I was weird (and they were right lol) and I dressed weird, too. I was bad at sports and I made bad jokes. I got picked on a lot, and when I told my teachers, they rolled their eyes and told me I needed a thicker skin. So I got shy. I would always bury my head in my hands on my desk and hoped everyone would leave me alone. This lasted through the end of elementary school and into middle school.

In middle school friends happened to me, but they didn't actually like to hang out with me. I got into anime (shudders) and started drawing. I wasn't very good at it but everyone started knowing me as "that weird girl that draws in class all the time." I also started writing a lot, and even got into a writing conference in the 5th grade (I panicked and didn't write anything the whole time). I also wrote my first essay on capitalism and climate change then (I'm sure it didn't make any sense at the time). I hated math and science. Like, really hated it. I also started calling myself stupid and talentless then and started believing it. I think these things are related somehow.

I got really into clarinet playing around this time, too. I fell deeply in love with it and my teachers were so proud of how good my tone was. I joined marching band and pit orchestra in high school and found my home in music. I just... I loved it so much. I felt safe playing my music. I felt like I could actually do things for once (and I got really arrogant about it too, always bossing around the clarinets that didn't get as good of a chair placement as me). I made first chair each year.

I still hadn't come out of my shell though, but I had started to get a reputation as being somewhat funny. I liked to act, even if I didn't go out for plays. I loved to write satirical essays and I fell in love with Jonathan Swift's "A Modest Proposal" at the age of 17. And I thought to myself, I want to be an English teacher and do some writing on the side. Because that was what I was good at.

Nope!

A friend had hooked me up with a Psychology class and I was like "whatever I guess I'll try it, I need credits anyways" and I. Instantly fell in love lmao. It just came so naturally to me. We're talking straight A's all the time, baby. I wrung my fingers about taking a college course in it my last semester of high school (I was convinced I was too stupid to get into College despite being an honor's student) and whaddaya know. I loved that, too. More A's. So I packed my bags on the English Teacher Front and went to college to be a therapist or some shit.

I hated my first year of college. I worked at a hot dog stand and came home smelling like ketchup and beef every night. I quit playing clarinet due to social anxiety and I made absolutely zero friends. Classes were easy until they weren't (Biology was the worst), and I hated myself and wanted to die. I did find some solace in fandom, however - I joined tumblr and became a Tolkien blog and started crafting my own sequel to the Lord of the Rings. That was literally the only reason I kept living at that point - for my weird characters and my extensive google docs about them. And for the Schmidt. What's a Schmidt, you ask? Why, it's coffee, half-and-half, and white chocolate and caramel syrup, all served at the local campus cafe. Delicious.

Anyways. I transferred to a lesbian all women's college and continued my education there. I was forced out of my shell kicking and screaming through courses on "social interaction" and it... actually worked, I'll be damned. I started participating in class more. I wasn't making friends, but I actually talked to people now. My grades shaped up a bit too (not that they were low before, I just happened to be putting a little more effort into my classes. I still wrote my experimental paper the day it was due though. I ace'd it against all odds. Procrastinator's bluff). Whatever. I became a tutor, study group leader, mentor, etc etc. I got an award for psychology and endeared myself to my professors. I graduated with high honors and fell in love with a trans man and decided I was also a trans man blah blah blah got a job at a medical school + hospital yada yada yada this paragraph needs to end already.

Okay. Three years later. I'm an entirely different person (literally). I like medicine now, despite being extremely squeamish (working on that bit). I like space again, despite having hidden that aspect about myself for all my life. Like I really love space. I can't ever be an astronaut sadly, but maybe one day I'll get to work for NASA or something. I'm trying not to get my hopes up though. Only the best of the best end up there.

What else... idk, I'm somehow more mentally ill than I ever was, but at the same time, more stable? I'm deeply in love with my two partners and have survived two hospitalizations. I'm trying to get off my cocktail of medications because it turns out psychiatric meds kiiiiinda don't work that well but it is what it is. Also I'm a witch now. Aaaaand I'm going back to school in the fall, for pre-med. Yeah.

Okay well that was. Way longer than it needed to be so. Yeah. Thanks for the ask :)

#asks #ailinu tag #i... am SO sorry this is so long #ridiculous. #anyways #tagging this as #rot's tragic backstory #this isn't even the half of it kajsdjkd i didn't even talk about the abuse #anywaysss

[vigilvntes]

when you mentioned you love the last of us I jumped!!! cause OH MY GOD, that series means so much to me I got a tattoo based around it (you can imagine what...okay it's ellie's tattoo from tlou2).

the relationship between joel and ellie is close to me, the atmosphere, story, EVERYTHING. like, wow. so glad you like it!

-❔

yes ugh i love it so much !!!!!!!

the last of us part 2 literally had me screaming shaking sobbing throwing up rolling around in my own tears like ,,, the santa barbara chapter. holy shit. i literally couldn't breathe because i just wanted both of my girls to be okaysjsjsnd

during lockdown in 2020 after tlou2 released i actually wrote an abby fanfic because i cant lie ,,, im obsessed with her. i love joel and abby idc idc. it's probably still up on my blog i don't think i ever deleted itsjsjs

but yes lrly i have written actual essays on those fucking games and i won't do anything with them but !!!!! i just had to bc i have so many feelings !!!!! like i wrote a whole 2000 word essay (yet i struggle to write 1000 for uni!!! slay!!!!) on the setting and how it changes and why it's so significant while ellie is on the way to the aquarium like im so unhinged about tlou helpmenjsnsj

and i've written SO MANY JOEL FANFICS that i WILL be dropping on here when the tv show releases 🤭

seriously if you wanna talk about tlou i'm soooo down!!!!!!

#everyone be quiet liz is speaking

[analyzingadventure]

I’ve wanted to write about this for ages and Psi has kind of made relevant so

I always thought it was weird if we saw a Digimon die and then come back as the exact same species of Digimon.

(This isn’t specific to any series though I do use Adventure a lot in this discussion. May also contain spoilers for Psi)

Now admitedly there aren’t too many examples of this in the franchise (Patamon and Leomon being one of the few notable ones), but that is mainly because deaths are fairly rare, and even deaths we do see, it’s even rarer to see them come back (even when we know the mechanics of the world should make it totally possible)*. But nonetheless, it always felt weird to me when it did happen (or when us fans assume the Digimon would come back as the same species)

To properly explain why it feels weird to me, I first need to ramble about Digimon as “persons” and evolution as a whole

The thing that makes people who they are, are their memories. It’s their life experiences and their feelings of those experiences. It’s not where you’re born, the community you live in or the culture you’re raised in- of course these do affect who you are, but all they do is influence your life experiences and feelings about everything. They are incredbly imporant, and they play a factor in making you “you”, but those things aren’t “you”; “you” are your memories.    And an imporant note here, is that who you are changes as you grow older, as you gain more experiences, feelings and memories. That’s why the “10yo you” is different from the “20yo you” or "40yo you” (etc), and why you will continue to change, even if it was ever so slightly, as you get older. Hell, the “you” who started reading this essay minutes ago is already a different person from the “you” who is reading this sentence right now. “You” are everchanging, ever-evolving.

So what makes a Digimon “them”? Or, more specifically, what makes each Digimon the species they are?    Yes, this is a deeply related question for me, because we humans (I swear I’m not a robot) do express “who we are” outside, through our actions, our interests and how we appear to others, though not just what clothes we wear but also stuff like how we do our hair, tattoos, bodymods etc, not to mention things people don’t have control over from eye color, race, bodytype, height, all the way to disablities.

So if we as humans express so much (and so little) of “who we are” through how we appear, how would Digimon do it? How do Digimon express who they are?

It always just made sense to me if that was through evolution. That just as a Digimon experiences things, their evolutions will reflect the person they are, their feelings, memories, who they want to be.

Honestly this is one of the main reasons why I’ve always hated strict, Pokémon-like evolution lines (not even trees, just lines!!) in Digimon, the idea that these non-physical, A.I. data monsters can only appear a certain way through their lifespans based on whatever they were born as is just depressing to me. And while one might argue “it’s just how they are”, that rule only exists if you specifically go out of your way to write it in, otherwise there’s no reason for it to exist, but I’m getting super sidetracked ranting right now

Like just as an example of the kind of freedom I like to think Digimon could and should have, I want you to picture in your mind an Agumon.

Just a regular ol’ Agumon, living in the Digital World, minding their own business. This Agumon starts travelling for fun, enjoying seeing the world and whatever. During this time they realize they’re not really built for travelling and while their stamina increases as they go on and they get better at hiking, they still kind of wish they were more “built” for this type of activity so that they could enjoy their life more- And eventually they evolve into a Centarmon! Now they can move faster (etc) and enjoy their travelling life more, and they do just that! Life is great!     Until one day they come across the ocean, a beautiful, vast “world” of its own, but one... they can’t explore, at least not any longer than they can hold their breath. They still spend their time exploring what they can, near the beaches etc, until one day their wish to explore the ocean is fulfilled and they evolve into a MegaSeadramon! And now they have great access to the oceans!

Like this example is very extreme, but you get what I mean, with the idea that the evolutions reflect the type of person the Digimon is, what they enjoy and who they want to be. It’s the ever-evolving reflection of their heart that I love

**(Sidenote at the bottom)

And this is why I think it'd make sense if Digimon came back as a different species entirely.

Because while death may have reset their evolution stages back to zero, if the Digimon retains all their memories from their previous life, all their experiences, hopes, wishes and dreams, all of their feelings... Then why would all the growth the Digimon had gone through in their previous life be reset? Shouldn’t their new life continue their previous growth and take different forms to reflect any new paths the mon might take in this life?

Just to use the Agumon from above as an example, if this mon died after spending quite some time as a MegaSeadramon, loving being a sea serpent and living in the ocean, wouldn’t it make sense they came back as a Sangomon instead of an Agumon (and yeah I think the Baby forms could be different too, depending on what they were but I’m skipping these)? Now of course, if they were happy living in the ocean and just totally content there, it’d make total sense if they then evolved to Seadramon and finally back to MegaSeadramon, I’m not saying they can’t come back to where they started at. What I do think is that it’d be weird if this mon went through the same Agumon -> Centarmon -> MegaSeadramon lifespan all over again if they wanted to be a sea-dweller from the get-go.     And of course, as I alluded earlier; what if this Digimon, while living in the ocean as a Sangomon during their second life actually felt like they had seen what the ocean had to offer? What if they started hoping they could explore the skies? What if that wish helped them evolve to Airdramon instead, and they never go back to being a MegaSeadramon?    This is what I mean when I say the second life would be a continuation of their life and their growth, it shouldn’t reset those things.

Now of course, from a simple writing point of view, it’d be confusing if a Digimon we were previously familiar with died and came back as a totally different Digimon, and even more confusing for kids. It’s easier to keep it simple and leave the Digimon the same species as they were in their previous lives

Additionally, most of these characters that we’ve seen die have always been minor characters with limited to non-existant histories; characters like Leomon, Whamon, Scumon+Chuumon, Piccolomon etc, while they’re all really well characterized with distinct personalities, they don’t have histories, backstories, they’re not deep characters. And making this many minor characters with deep backstories for a kids show would be really hard to pull off when you have deadlines to meet and no budget. So showing “the growth” these Digimon have gone through is not really do-able, not with these characters at least.

The Digimon with the most potential here would be Orgamon (the best developed minor character in Adventure) but he never died, Nanomon for sure, and possibly Wizarmon (esp. since his data could be like mildly busted, due to not being a Digimon originally and then dying in the Human World; if anything I think it’d be fun if Wizarmon could “come back” but as a Bakemon or something)

And as far as Patamon goes in Adventure, I do think with him it’s fine he came back in the same Digimon forms.    Like my previous examples with “the Agumon”, this would be like natural evolution that happens over long, looong periods of time, years upon years no doubt, as the Digimon grows as a person. But the partner Digimon, they don’t really have the time to grow naturally, their evolutions aren’t really reflections of their growth. Rather, their evolutions are just powered up versions of who they are, with some reflection from their human partners. So with these partner Digimon (especially the Adventure-type “soul fragment” Digimon, less so with other series like especially Xros Wars), the evolutions being super linear does make sense and work just fine. And as an extention of that, these Digimon dying and coming back in the same species works out, like with Patamon in Adventure

Psi however, makes things a lot more interesting, because in Psi, the partner Digimon have backstories of their own.

Now for the most part, since the partners had lost their memories of their time fighting Mille as the Warriors, their growth being totally reset and them going through the same steps all over again does kinda make sense, it’s maybe a lil dull but that’s probably just my bias from being overly familiar with these characters.

But then there’s Patamon and Tailmon, two Digimon who retain their memories from their previous lives and the growth they’ve gone through. That growth, was own their own, from their own lives without any influence from any humans. But now, they have human partners, who influence them and their growth. And Psi has seemingly kind of spoiled the endgame for us, at least to some capacity?

We know in their previous lives Patamon and Tailmon were a Seraphimon and an Ofanimon, but based on the new key visual/poster, it seems Psi wants to use Goddramon and Holydramon as their final evolutions instead! And honestly, even if these evolutions didn’t come as a result of all the stuff I’ve rambled about in this post, it’ll still work for me for those reasons.

Additionally, while we know Patamon was only temporarily taking the form of Pegasmon because he lost his power and was literally unable to evolve to Angemon, for previously mentioned reasons if they had kept the Pegasmon evolution for the rest of the series it still would’ve worked for me, as it could’ve been seen as Pegasmon being a reflection of Takeru’s childlike innocence influencing Patamon’s evolutions

But yeah. I can’t remember if I had like a bottom line when I started writing this but it sure as hell is gone from my mind now, point is, I kinda wish Digimon’s evolution was seen slightly differently and written slightly differently, and explored more, especially through the Digimon who had previously died (who I would also like to see come back when the rules of the universe allow it instead of just ignoring the fact that they should be alive and well). And generally speaking I wish Digimon were written with more depth. Thank you for reading this incoherent mess

*Sidenote; arguably I think this could’ve applied to tri. as well, the Digimon who had their memories wiped completely could’ve totally evolved into different Digimon and maybe even should’ve

**Sidenote, this wouldn’t mean there’s NO limitations to what species a Digimon could evolve into; for example, just because you want to be a super powerful heroic Digimon like Omegamon it doesn’t mean you CAN evolve into Omegamon; if being valiant and heroic at heart were requirements to evolve to Omegamon, then unless you’re truly valiant and heroic at heart then you probably wouldn’t be able to evolve to Omegamon, if anything you might end up as Omekamon instead. Similarly if a certain species have other specific requirements, be it like Jogress requirements or Digimentals etc, then unless those requirements were met the evolution wouldn’t be possible     So what I’m getting at is that limitations/requirements could totally still exist (depending on the rules of the specific setting), but being “the right species” to go from A to B wouldn’t and shouldn’t be one, at least not in my heart, but I digress

#Analysis #Analyzation #Holy shit I wrote an essay for this blog #This is like the first one I've written here for YEARS

[silvermoon424]

Why does a Sailor Moon 'fan' blog write paragraphs on how Deep and Mature PMMM is for telling girls to throw their lives away and being written by and for men, yet all you post about Sailor Moon is screenshots?

Holy fucking shit. Did I seriously just get yet another person accusing me of being a fake Sailor Moon fan? Really? Why the actual fuck would I lie about being a Sailor Moon fan for 13 years and run a blog devoted to it for 10?

And for your information anon, I have written countless words analyzing Sailor Moon over the years. I wrote a fucking essay and did a presentation for my gender studies class about it. It’s about how Sailor Moon is a feminist and empowering work. Literally all you have to do is look through my analysis tag and you’ll see my other works about Sailor Moon, too. Maybe before you throw this accusatory bullshit into my inbox you should do five minutes of research.

Also, who’s worse: someone who enjoys a show, or someone who constantly harasses someone for enjoying said show? Because PMMM haters love to take the high ground but not as much as they love going in the PMMM tag and sending anon hate to fans of the series.

Fuck off. I am so beyond tired of people hating on me because I happen to enjoy a show y’all disapprove of.

#seriously just fuck off #if I get called a fake Sailor Moon fan one more time I'm going to scream #anon hate #Anonymous #Ask

[a-lonely-tatertot]

i was looking up your blog so i could talk to you but i forgot to type your url and instead just wrote "tater's" like i was trying to write the tag i use for you hfbdjhb

anywayssss i finally got my essay in and i watched the adam project! how are you doing? ily <3

Ahkshskssk yes my blog is just Tater’s

YooooooO that’s awesome and the adam project is so cool holy shit- I’m doin pretty good I am in pain because I have college today and I am Tired ilyt <3

#tater and covi commit enbies and felonies

[explorer-of-art]

Void Child (even though their body is the age of a teenager, they’re a few years old), (she/they) who is based off my main blog’s former URL, is an embodiment of what I wish I was but I can’t be from being a person free of anxiety, horrible memory and attention-span, a productive member of society, and by appearance too. They have the same skills as I do (art, writing) but at a different level, and know other skills (cooking, sewing, etc.) too. Void Child was created from negativity that built up in me when I experienced bullying and at some point had thoughts of suicide (that I got over and didn’t attempt anyway) in the late years of elementary school.

They aren’t necessarily dark but they also have traits that I wish for too. They’re manipulative, cunning, ambitious, actually brave to try new things and leave the house, I can’t believe they don’t go through executive functioning, and holy shit everything that happens is good luck and shit. Unlike the dark personas, they aren’t some sort of antagonist. They act more like an older sibling figure. And the fact about them being free of anxiety and stress is false. They feel stress over how they appear as a role model and believe they can’t make mistakes or else they aren’t what I aspire to be. Even though I know that making mistakes is okay, I self-loathe the second I make a mistake. They also don’t want to feel pressure to do what they normally do and want to be themselves without any worries of being perfect. Despite what I created them to be, they aren’t resentful but we have yet to communicate to each other about what’s on our minds and that’s a problem for obvious reasons.

The background is one of their rooms for them to lie down and relax, or just scream shit into the void even though it looks more like space than a void.

@boyinthehat

#antisona #my art #anti challenge #void child #shes the mascot of this blog now #fuck it #i drew too many galaxies in this thing holy fuck #i did draw something like an antisona #but they were just embodiments of various aspects about me #some are despair and death with grief or depression and art and anime plus video game shit #I WROTE A FUCKING ESSAY ON MY ANTISONA HOLY FUCK #THANKS FOR INSPIRING THIS BTW #EVEN THOUGH I COULD BE SPENDING AL THIS TIME ON MY FUCKING SUMMER HOMEWORK #FUCK MY LIFE

[sadman-morgan]

soak up the sunshine

pairing: arthur morgan x neutral!reader

category: Modern day AU

summary:  After working your strenuous jobs during the weekdays, the weekend was the best way to unwind with your husband. Sunday mornings like this were always your favorite.

word count: 1.3k

warnings: none, other than kissing a sleepy Arthur.

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A nearby clock ticked to 6 am as the early morning sun shined through the curtains. After working your strenuous jobs during the weekdays, the weekend was the best way to unwind with your husband. Sunday mornings like this were always your favorite. 

You were a writer and never failed to find beauty in anything your senses could detect. Writing was your passion. You were always bursting at the seams with new vivid and creative ideas. Hearing you gush about your writing was music to your husband’s ears. It didn’t matter if it was a novel, poem, academic essay, or blog post. Arthur held any words you wrote down near and dear to his heart. 

Your husband was an auto mechanic. Sometimes you wondered if he loved cars more than he loved you, but he would laugh and debate otherwise. He always had an appreciation for the roars of the engine, and the sweet stench of gasoline. Arthur and his car were one and the same. Other than you, there was nothing this man loved more than driving and working on cars. He put nothing less than blood, sweat, and tears into his hard labor. Cars were his passion since he was a boy, seeing so much life burst from him because of his hobbies would forever keep your soul warm. 

He worked hard during the long days, but you felt oh-so spoiled whenever the tall, grubby stains and aromas of motor oil and sweat returned to your doorstep every night. Arthur couldn't resist keeping his hands off of you before he even came through the door. You were always greeted with a deep, greasy kiss when he returned home from work. He would hold you tightly in his arms to the point where the smell of motor oil was permanently ingrained in your clothes. His bodily scent of sweat and motor oil was a place you loved to call home. 

On this calm morning, you rose early to write, and let him sleep in. After sitting down to write a couple of lines, the bedroom door creaked open as a sleepy Arthur stumbled out with a deep yawn. 

As he stumbled outside the bedroom door, you had a moment to admire him. You couldn’t choose your favorite sleepy Arthur trait if your life depended on it. There were too many to choose from: the scruffy bed head, the tired smile, the worn-out sweatshirt and sweatpants, or his gorgeous voice. When your eyes greeted him, he smiled as he walked to stand behind your chair, wrapping his arms around you as he lovingly kissed your head, and played with your hair.

 “mornin’ sunshine” he mumbled. 

You turned around and quickly greeted him on the lips while tracing his jawline with your hand. 

“Good morning sleepyhead,” you said as you pulled away from his handsome face.

“How did her royal highness sleep?” You teased.

“Pretty good...considering I had a gorgeous partner in my arms all night,” he said with a grin. 

“Stop, you’re making me blush!” You said as you gently whacked him on the arm. 

“Mission accomplished.” He teased back. 

He pulled out the chair across from you and sat down. As you struggled to continue to write, Arthur rested his chin in hand as his eyes gazed up and down in admiration, wondering what he did to end up with such a loving partner like you. Nearly everything about you was perfect to him. The way your hair would blow in the wind, the way he could lose himself in your eyes, and especially your smile. Holy shit, your smile caused Arthur’s heart to pound out of his chest, and him to melt into the floor. You made him feel so warm, he swore he could explode. 

Arthur scratched the back of his neck and yawned. 

“I’m hungry. do you want anything, love?”

You nodded “Yeah, I can cook if you w-.”

Arthur shook his head. “no can do. You just sit there and look beautiful as always, I wanna cook for you.”

“Hmm~ go ahead,” you said with a yawn.

Arthur stumbled into the kitchen and turned on the stove. After gathering ingredients, a pan, and a few utensils, the man was off to work. 

Now was your turn for chin in hand admiration. 

As he began to cook, the sunlight gleamed through the curtains and bounced off his hair and face. The sunlight revealed a special glow in his eyes and highlighted each freckle on his face.

He looked so handsome when he was perfectly at ease. As he cooked, he happily hummed and whistled various songs he picked up from his friends. He looked adorable in his baggy sweatpants and sweater while sunlight gleamed against his freckled skin, and his light scruffy hair. 

The happy whistling continued for a moment until the stove was shut off. Shortly after, the coffee maker was turned on, getting ready to brew more caffeine than both of you should ever consume in one sitting.

With coffee brewed, and breakfast prepared, Arthur returned to the table and placed a delicious looking plate of french toast in front of you, along with an oversized cup of coffee. 

You both ate quietly, taking your time to soak up the sunshine, and each other’s sleepy company. Sometimes you would take turns making goofy faces at each other. You would catch Arthur gazing a bit too intently at you from time to time. When you playfully called him out, he would protest that “it’s not his fault that you’re so gorgeous”. 

When you both finished, you took the plates and silverware and left them in the kitchen sink to be cleaned later. 

After stocking the sink with dirty dishes, You poured another two cups of coffee and returned to Arthur’s new position on the couch. 

You placed the cups down on the coffee table and curled against Arthur’s torso as his strong arm wrapped around you. 

You both silently laid still for a moment. With heartbeats in unison, you felt a mutual calm. A rare time in your lives when everything fell perfectly into place, nothing could hurt either of you in a tender moment like this.

You rested your head in his shoulder as he carefully ran his hand through your hair. 

“Let me get a look at ya” he sleepily said.

You slid off his shoulder and changed your position to be in front of him, practically straddling him. Once you got comfortable, he raised his fingers to trace your jawline, motioning your face to look him in the eyes.

He exhaled softly as he continued to trace your jawline. “God, you’re so...fuckin stunning,” he said. 

You smiled in his hand, which pushed him to compliment you further.

“You’re gorgeous when you smile, y’know that right angel?”

You raised your hands to play with his hair, which made his face turn a mild pink. Then slowly leaned into him, and locked your lips together. 

Without breaking the sleepy kiss, he pulled you closer to his chest. You slid a hand under his clothes and slowly dragged your fingertips across his lower abs, to which he exhaled in approval. 

You pulled away from his lips as you began to leave kisses on his jawline, followed by his neck. 

You pulled away from his neck and grazed your fingertips across the tender skin, admiring the red spots where loving bruises were soon to form.

 “You really love me, huh?” He said.

You nodded and quickly kissed his cheek. 

“You and only you, handsome.” You said with a giggle.

You leaned back into his chest as he wrapped you in a tight squeeze. 

“I’m so lucky to have you...so..so lucky” He sleepily cooed into your ear.

You nearly fell back asleep in his arms as the sound of your slowing heartbeats were the only things audible. 

“Ugh. I’m exhausted” He said with a yawn. 

You rose from his chest and nodded. “I wanna…go back to sleep. Too sleepy to function” you responded. 

As the sun continued to shine, you returned to burrow deep into his chest as he wrapped his strong arms back around you.

Then you both fell back asleep in each other’s arms on this calm Sunday morning with the coffee cups on the table, completely untouched.

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an: I hope you guys enjoyed. If you have any fic requests, feel free to leave em in my inbox!

#arthur morgan #arthur morgan imagines #arthur morgan imagine #arthur morgan x reader #arthur morgan x female reader #arthur morgan x male reader #arthur morgan x gender neutral reader #red dead redemption #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan one shot #red dead redemption 2 fanfic #red dead 2 x reader #rdr #rdr2 #john marston #charles smith #dutch van der linde #van der linde gang #fluff #my writing

[agustdiv1ne]

thank you + milestone!!

damn, never thought we'd get here, did we?

in all honesty, it's been a pretty shit year. march 'til now has felt like the same month on repeat with tiny tweaks to make it all so much worse. but i'm not here to complain about the worst parts of this year, i'm here to celebrate the best ones.

this was the year that i finally started writing, that i was finally spurred to open a google doc and just type away until a tiny work of fiction stared back at me. my first one was 1k words, a rant to get all of my emotions off of my chest with an idol as my muse. it felt...great, though it also felt a bit odd writing after being an avid reader for years. i always did prefer essays to creative writing, but this year definitely changed that perspective.

i wrote that first blurb along with another fic in late july, and in early august, i asked my friends if i should post them. om august 3rd, i changed this blog from a fic rec to a fic writing blog just like that. i regret none of it.

it's been nearly five months since i revamped this blog and i couldn't be more grateful for the support i have gotten from all of you, whether it be a kind comment, a like, a reblog, all of it. i never thought anyone would like my content, but i've been proven severely wrong by this community. from my irls that are on here, to my lovely mutuals and followers, to those i've talked to a lil bit on this hellsite, to the writers whose fics i absolutely adore, to those who have left a like or a comment on one of my fics, i want to say thank you from the very bottom of my heart ♡

have a happy and healthy new year! i love and appreciate every single one of you!!

though i'm painfully bad at writing letters and getting all sappy, i wanted to write them anyways hahaha let's goooo

to @hwaddict:

my irl best friend!! my partner in crime!!!! i love you sm carly, and there are not enough words in this world for me to describe the extent of my love. you have been there for me during my lowest moments, you've seen me cry, and i don't cry in front of many ppl. i trust you with my life and i'm so glad that we became friends back in middle school bc you are one reasons that spur me to keep going. i can't wait to see where life takes us and know that while i might not always be able to be there physically (especially with college right around the corner), i will always be there for you in any way i can be. again i love you and i can't wait to conquer next year with you ♡♡

to @hopejanaee:

hope!! hobi!!! one of my irls! though we just became friends earlier this year, it feels like we've been friends for ages. it's crazy how close we grew so quickly but i am so grateful to have you in my life. you never fail to make me laugh whenever we're together and you're so chaotic but in such a good way hahaha. you were the one who got me into writing with your own wonderful fics so thank yoi for that. i'm so happy that we became friends because you're so kind and caring and ahhhhhh i love u sm ♡

to @oikawasmilkbread:

we talked for like 0.2 seconds but you are so kind and hella cool!! it was nice having random conversations with you and i'm so glad you randomly dmed me bc i am shy and i have 0 idea how to start conversations with anyone lmao. i always smile when i see you in my notifs! i hope you have a happy new year!!! ♡

to @luthenia:

i know you're on hiatus but seeing you in my notifs always excites me hahaha. we never talk but you are so supportive of everyone in this community and i just wanted to shout you out for that! your memes are top tier LMAO and i can't wait for when you come back, happy new year ♡

to @starsforten:

we also talked for approximately 1 second but it was so fun talking to you about astrology stuff (virgo sun libra rising gang hahahaha) and those teuta matoshi dresses! you are so nice and easy to talk to and i hope your new year is happy and fruitful! ♡

i recommend every single one of these blogs for their amazing content!! i added some of my favorite fics as i'm a whore for great writing hahaaaa

@kinktae

waterloo — a masterpiece! taehyung is so bitter at the beginning and it's adorable seeing how y/n breaks his tough shell. loved this from beginning to the end ♡

hot rod — the 50s slang, the dynamic between hoseok and y/n...*chef's kiss*

@untaemedqueen

welcome to seoul land — werewolf!namjoon really got me going, 100/10 would recommend

graceful gods — this is one of my all-time favorites, greek god!jungkook has my brain going brrrr

@shadowsremedy + @therealmintedmango

support system — adorable!! this is a hybrid!yoongi fic i really enjoy, and the series isn't over yet! check it out~

@bratkook

tear you apart — demon!taehyung...holy shit. i was speechless

@tatertotthethot

the doms next door — THIS SERIES OMG, i've read each part at least five times already. taekook got me acting UP

scream (posted to @yandere-society) — a really cool take on the movie scream with jungkook, yandere fics don't always appeal to me but this one absolutely did

@ateezmakemeweep

broken — the immense ache i felt in my chest while reading this, but i loved both parts with a burning passion. san is so sweet in this :')

@atinybrew

dirty free for all — the ULTIMATE demon!san fic. the writing is absolutely immaculate and this is the first fic that had me blushing down my mf ARMS

rice milk lattes and bryophytes roads — another san fic admittedly because i'm whipped for san lol. anyways, this was cute and hot at the same time and best friend!yunho made my double biasing ass that much happier

@seacottons

pan — an adorable peter pan!hongjoong fic, it had my heart going achhfhsjfjsjf

sir kiss me — circus au with san holy hell i loved every twist and turn of this

@actuallythatwaspromise

bad romance — one of my favorite yunho fics ever, punk rock!yunho x nerd!reader has my entire heart

aurora garden center and desire ink — florist!mingi had me uwuing for the entire fic, this was adorable and i loved it sm

@yeonjuncore

every single fic on this blog is an absolute masterpiece, i swear

the devil's little angel — THIS IS ONE OF MY ULTIMATE FAVORITES, demon!yeonjun had me screaming and it was just so fun to read and i loved every single second of it so much that i've read it nearly ten times now. so go read it, you won't regret it!

the boy with the horns — another of my ultimate favorites (i told you, their writing is just that amazing), woodland fey!soobin just had me going so soft :(( i literally sobbed at one point, that's how invested i was

bleeding heart — the tension between vampire!yeonjun and vampire slayer!reader had me screeching

curtain call — i have a sad crush vampire!soobin

i love you, always — this felt so..bittersweet? taehyun loves y/n so much, i lowkey cried while reading this

@angelfic

the art of (mis)communication — i am a whore for both reconciliation and yeonjun, 100000/10 pls read this i beg of you

@angelictaehyun

growing pains — ahhh once again a yeonjun fic, my chest hurt a lil bit at some points but it was so sweet!!

@neovisioned

bed of spiderwebs — spiderman!mark has my heart screeching, i loved every second of it ♡

eddie ate dynamite — johnny suh coming for my throat yet again

cupid victorious — cupid!jaehyun :'))) definitely one of my favorites!!

@domjaehyun

quarantine chronicles — ok if you haven't read this or the part two yet then you're missing out big time!! the tension, the buildup, every single part of this fic was just *chef's kiss* but multiply thay by a million

all these years — every single moment of this felt so nostalgic and the ending was so sweet :')

@caiuscassiuss

muse — i keep going back to this one constantly, the angst in this phenomenal and i love artist!taeyong sm here

@neoct-zen

loverboy — HOT, AMAZING, I SCREAMED. the blurbs that accompany this are also top-tier i recommend reading each and every one!!

@moondustis

pink + white — i'm so soft for mark i stg, this was the cutest thing ever

@loviejaehyun

can't avoid this feeling — hockey player!mark is the best thing ever

all tied up — i just- screamed as i read this bc professor!jaehyun is too hot goodbye

@hopejanaee

incapable — this is one of the best yoongi fics i've ever read ngl, it's not completed quite yet but the parts that have been posted are top tier!!

breathless — THIS. I LOVED THIS. yuta is just so hfjshhfhshfnsn and i love this sm

@hwaddict

melting point — big boy mingiiii, 100/10 would recommend

@okayau

house next to mine — frat boy!yeonjun rly got me going, cute and hot at the same time ahhhhbfnsnnf

youth — ADORABLE, yeonjun's confession is peak i love it here

run away — how many yeonjun fics can i fit in this post? (answer: a lot) definitely one of my favorite harry potter aus!! it was awesome seeing how their relationship changed throughout the years and perhaps i teared up a little at the end :'))

@starrychannies

baby steps — ONE OF ALL-TIME MY FAVORITE FICS ON THIS SITE, every single part is so well-written and ahhhhhfhdhhf chan makes me feel some type of way

my stupid — another yeonjun fic! angsty but v cute at the end :')

@baekhvuns

this youth of craziness — 40k words of pure gold, this fic is absolutely one of my favorite san fics ever!!

replacement — prince!ten makes my brain go brrrr, i love how the y/n just speaks her mind here

@masterninjacow

untitled project — i saw soulmate au with mark and i knew would already love it, and i did! pizza boy!mark at that, amazing and i adored it

more amazing blogs!!: @galaxteez, @poutybinz, @lustjoong, @bloominghigh

these are just a few of the fics and blogs i found this year, find more on my fic rec blog @agustdiv1ne-recs!! (my thumbs are starting to hurt i'm so sorry bfjshfhsh)

wrapping up each month since august since that's when i actually started posting LMAO

☆ august

03: good enough — chan

03: bloodsucker — seonghwa

04: cutie — san

09: veloxrotaphobia — mingi

19: want — changbin

21: numb — yunho

100 follower special — i reached 100 followers towards the end of august, my first ever milestone :') also my first ever time taking requests, 'twas very fun ♡

☆ september

03: on camera — jungkook

☆ october

27: oh, worm? — namjoon

31: demon days — san

☆ november

10: a letter to my love — xiaojun

23: bad for u — jaehyun

27: home sweet home — yeonjun

☆ december

christmas bash 2020 — my brain went hey what if you did this- and i listened so here's 17 holiday fics hahahaa (not all of them are out yet but i'm working on it!!)

things i plan to release in 2021!!

☆ sunflower — jimin

☆ cross — yeonjun

☆ landslide — seonghwa

☆ nice save — san

☆ red — hyunjin

☆ a secret series (that will be revealed once i plan everything) — ateez

☆ 4 unrelated secret fics oOoOoo — will i reveal them? you'll just have to wait and see ;)

there will definitely be more posted! these are the ones that are going to be my priority at first, but my imagination is always churning so expect a lot more :)) check out all of non-secret wips here!

i hit 500 followers a couple days ago! i nearly screamed when i saw that LMAO. thank you so much for liking my content because i work hella hard on it :') sometimes i feel like i don't deserve y'all really, but @hwaddict will yell at me if i say that so ig i take it back hfhshhdhg

a post for celebrating this milestone will come as soon as i finish up the rest of my christmas fics!! sorry that i'm so slow :( (hint: my requests will be open, so look out for it!)

so yeah!! that's it, sorry for the painfully long post (i'm sorry to my thumbs for typing this whole thing out </3). thank you to everyone who read this far!! i hope everyone has a happy and healthy new year, and in the words of txt's cover, fuck 2020. may 2021 be a much better year for all of us!!!

much love,

ashlee ♡

#i'm sorry if i missed anyone :(( #j know i love and appreciate u a lot #it's j my thumbs are literally cramping up as i type this :( #2021 celebration! #happy new year y'all #lmk if any of links are wrong bc i will fix them asap

[violexides]

I totally get what you mean about the DreamSMP tags not making a clear distinction between character and creator. Like, all of the character and ship tags have "Video Blogging RPF" in parentheses which means they're talking about the actual content creators, even though I'm sure some of them just mean the characters. But, the tags for the characters are basically nonexistent, which could be very dangerous. I mean, look no further than the garbage fire that was Eddsworld. That distinction NEEDS to be made for everyone involved, especially since some of the content creators are minors.

I swear if I ever get around to writing DreamSMP fics I'm gonna make my own tags for it and write an essay in the notes about the important of distinction in tags. I don't want an Eddsworld 2

yes!!! 

i think that at this point, dreamSMP should... be its own tag? because trying to traverse through fics with dreamSMP characters is fairly difficult because, due to the tagging which i’ll get to in a second, you can’t exactly eyeball which one is about the real people and which one is about the characters too well? there’s virtue in the fact that sometimes there are tags that will clue you into it being about the roleplay, but, a lot of it is sort of just. muddled. and there’s no way to exactly avoid that because there’s not going to be a tag in video blogging RPF that warns you that it’s... video blogging RPF, so. 

and with the tags as you mentioned, it’s kind of highly distressing because, since it’s in the RPF section, the streamers’ names consist of as much... detail... as possible. meaning that sometimes, their full fucking name is listed. this includes tubbo, a minor. this does not include another minor, ranboo, who just has it listed as ranboo, which makes me wonder why they can’t ALL just be their streamer names. like. putting a whole ass name of a fucking 17 year old as a tag is a lot.

add the fact that you sort of have to main tag because, since it’s fucking video blogging RPF, there’s very little way that if you don’t include popular tags, anyone will find it. the only way i can find dreamSMP fics amidst, like, all of that chaos, is by looking up the character tags. so it’s an issue.

it just. mm. it upsets me because fanfiction about the dreamSMP is so obviously not about the content creators because minecraft doesn’t have that verisimilitude that would cause confusion, fucking all of the characters are goddamn hybrids that carry these totems that mean they never die, like, it’s not exactly realistic and there isn’t a strong tie to the content creators when you write about fucking wars going on. but then throw that into video blogging RPF and other fanfictions that whump the literal people that you keep accidentally reading because the characters and the streamers share the common factor of using their name so all the synopses look vague, and you just. have an issue.

i don’t take a lot of fault in ao3′s tagging generally speaking-- ao3 has fucking GODTIER tagging and only a few times have i looked at something and gone “why is this phrased that way”-- but considering how many people have to tag dreamsmp as “Video Blogging RPF” “Minecraft (Video Game)” and “dreamsmp - Fandom”, i just wish we could have a collective tag for it. it would spare a lot of people from having to put those heavy disclaimers you mentioned, and it would make it a thousand times easier to traverse whatever the literal fuck it is at the moment. and then, they can just have another set of tags, or alter the current one, where it’s just “Ranboo” “Philza” “Technoblade” instead of fucking. “Phil [Last Name] | Philza (Video Blogging RPF)” or whatever the fuck it is right now.

i wrote a lot and idk if i covered everything but i woke up, saw this, and immediately got to typing, so.

edit: already forgot to mention something. especially since in dreamsmp there are like canotically married/divorced/adopted characters and shit, having THAT distinction even more is important. like, two minors have gotten canotically platonically married in the dreamSMP so you kind of have, like. gestures. a bit of a potential issue when it’s thrown into video blogging rpf. 

second edit: also, AUs for dreamSMP get kind of dicey, but that’s less of a whole tagging thing and more just food for thought.

third edit: just opened up another fic and holy shit are we going to unpack the fact that fucking BBH doesn’t even HAVE it as just his name-- it’s his full fucking name, there’s a separate tag that says that he’s BBH, so you have to tag his full name fucking twice to include him??? his full name??? like???

final thing i promise: okay actually i want to take back some things i said-- there is a way to tag the main relationships (for platonic and romantic) without including their full names though i think it defaults to that. this probably qualifies as a long post now so i am going to tag it as such.

#ask #sun talks dreamsmp #this is one of many reasons that i am procrastinating posting a dreamsmp fic #and there's so many moral conundrums with dreamsmp because like #it ISN'T about the real people but you still have to consider that and like #from an outsiders first glance it probably looks like people are #writing a shit ton of fanfic where two seventeen year olds get married or smth #and it's like. holds head in hands. goddammit Why. #long post

[accio-strawbz]

academia is ridiculously unaccessible

i am so so so sick of writing essays. like sure whatever use your fancy paragraph structures and ban contractions idc but ! holy shit! if you want people other than university students and scholars to read your findings, present it goddamn differently!

academic writing is fine. its good. sometimes i read articles and cry bc what the fuck. theyre so complicated and damn these nerds just really need Grammarly (tm). like you can get the same point across in one sentence instead of THIRTY.

[side note every time i reference using my uni's system i die a little inside bc there's no fucking comma between the authors name and the year. wtf is that about]

but if you want people to actually read and understand and appreicate your work, you gotta present it in different ways. like not everyone wants to, or CAN, sit down and read your hundred page document about a very specific type of crime for exactly two sentences of useful information.

present. your. work. in. varying. ways.

imagine how much more people would trust scientists and researchers if they just presented their findings in more accessible ways? im talking speeches, artwork, memes, fuckin instagram infographics, a youtube video, comics, blog posts, etc.

i recently wrote a blog post for an assignment and it was so so so freeing. probably the best assignment ive done all year and guess why? bc i used images and exclamation marks and brackets with a little 'fun fact' in them. i referenced a hobby i have that was relevant! and i got my point across, and i analysed and evaluated what i meant to, and it was both fun to write and to read. i used dramatic italics ffs!!!!!!

honestly fuck academia use language however you want nothing is real and i am so tired of writing tihs godforsaken essay

#is this bc i have a 2000 word essay due in three hours? maybe #writing #academia #academic #academic disciplines #essay #essay writing #university #exams #finals #student #studying #stuyblr #student life