#And I’d do it at school and…

[jirai-kei-freak]

idk I just hate how mean everyone is, especially my generation :(

#Yeah yeah ik it has always been this way #And probably always will be #But damn people are just cold and hateful for no good goddamn reason #And social media certainly isn’t helping #I just feel so embarrassed when I’m out and I’m wearing anything that’s not general clothing #I’m always so afraid someone will take a pic or photo of me and post it on social media to laugh at me #And honestly it probably has already happened a few times #For example in middle school I didn’t have earbuds at the time (I refuse to use those devil airpods) #So I would have my music at the lowest volume possible and put it up at my ear to listen to it #Since 5th grade I’ve been a huge fan of Vocaloid and I’ve been listening to it non-stop for years #And I’d do it at school and… #Yeah you can probably guess how kids were #Wouldn’t be surprised if that got filmed/photographed #And I’ve been mocked/humiliated so many times for being autistic ugh #Vent #emma.txt

[larkspurglove]

It’s always struck me as weird that NPMD ends with homecoming and not prom, because as a non-American, isn’t prom the quintessential American high school end trope thing??

Because of this I looked up what the actual difference is and holy shit homecoming takes place at the end of the first semester of the school year????? (Correction: turns out it’s actually around September/October which is roughly the end of the FIRST TERM)

So you’re telling me that not only do Steph, Grace and Pete have to process their trauma but also deal with SCHOOL????? FOR ANOTHER HALF A YEAR??????? AS HIGH SCHOOL SENIORS?????

#at that point I’d be grateful grace ended the world #Pete has to survive school without his two best (and possibly only) friends #steph goes from mayor’s daughter to orphan #grace probably doubles down on her purity culture craziness but like to the point where she neglects school somewhat #I can’t imagine living through the events of a slasher film then having to do an odd 6 months of school #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #npmd spoilers #nerdy prudes must die spoilers #starkid #team starkid #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #lark rambles #rip I noticed all the paragraphs in this post started with ‘so’ #edited it slightly so I wouldn’t have to deal with that

[naturecalls111]

game day

#lawlu #monkey d luffy #trafalgar d water law #one piece #hs au #luffy asked him to watch his game in the bathroom of course #law: I mean sure I guess I don’t have anything better to do that’s the only reason I’m going because im like super bored and stuff otherwise #law: like I don’t even care about sports or school spirit lol im just so bored lol like I’d rather be writing my poetry but im so bored lol

[stuckinapril]

me stoically navigating my way through drama bc bigger things are ahead and it’s not my fault people are dumb

#kissed a guy at a kickback and thought we caught a vibe only to find out he just wants to fuck me. next #friend’s bf of 7 years drunkenly hit on me at the same kickback (I was not ok w this). they ended up beefing over me. he denied everything. #do I want to be involved in this? no. and so I simply ignore it and keep it pushing #and the guy I kissed is cancelled. like he is dead to me. so that’s also taken care of #it’s back to studying full-time for the mcat #going to the gym/taking walks daily #volunteering at the refugee center + clinic #getting published in orgo research papers #and trying to snag the opportunity to shadow doctors at a massive cancer research center. like I’d kill for it #december was such a mess but I’ve finally made peace w the fact that most of the stuff that happened I couldn’t prevent #but I’ve mourned it enough !! whatever drama comes out of it I’ll handle just fine #i literally want to be a multitasking academic weapon everyone is intimidated of this year #i am not letting something as puny as a dumb man (both of them btw) stop me. goodbye #also everyone involved is older than me (they’re both 23) but it all just feels like such high school behavior #this is not a euphoria episode like I’m literally just not entertaining any of this #had to get this off my chest. i feel better #p

[lookstairs]

I think one of the most realistic parts about Baby Reindeer (2024) is how much Donny downplays the abuse he faces

I know everyone wants to hate on him for being “stupid” and blame him for everything that happened because yes from an outsiders perspective he made questionable choices but isn’t that what HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE DO?

I know so many people who’ve “played nice” or tried to downplay abusive behavior. You try and tell yourself “It wasn’t that bad”, or that it was just some crazy experience that should be forgotten. It seems so much easier to stay silent and just try to move on.

You don’t wanna start problems

You don’t wanna be mean

You don’t wanna be the bad guy

#they blame him for not just telling her to fuck off every chance #I’ve seen people say he shouldn’t have kept giving her free drinks #or even he should’ve never given her tea #AS IF SHOWING BASIC KINDNESS WAS THE PROBLEM #people forget that he was still a victim #Donny’s character admits that he messed up in his interactions with Martha but people need to stop and think about the situation #the fear the anxiety everything that comes with being stalked #I know I’ve dealt with creepy guys at work or at school and I didn’t say anything #and so many other people have had the same experiences #it’s easy to say oh I’d do this or I’d do that #when it’s not happening to you it’s easy to assume you’d be better and smarter than them #baby reindeer

[miodiodavinci]

i found one of my old middle school sketch books while cleaning up today and saw there was A Good Deal of ghost trick art in it, so i decided to spend some time paying tribute to the ghost detective that fundamentally changed my brain chemistry in 2011 w

old ghost trick art under the cut—minor spoilers in the dialogue whoops👇

#miodoodledavinci #ghost trick #for having not drawn traditionally since high school i think this turned out pretty neat w #i missed drawing this guy and it feels good to finally have his proportions Mostly right w #i suppose this would be more impressive if i’d gone through with full hatch shading #but i have better things to do than regret my life choices SFKSHKSGJDG #OH i should probably also tag this with #sissel #sissel ghost trick #thats his full name #anyway if you haven’t played ghost trick and you’re not sensitive to flashing #🫵👁👁 this is your sign

[apollos-boyfriend]

i’m bored in class give me prompts to design crumb boxes after

#icarus speaks #like if i were to describe her latest box #i’d give the prompt of sleepy #gimme those #i want to practice design so TECHNICSLLY i’m doing stuff that’ll help me in school

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

#death note #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #meronia #bright colors #eyestrain #been having fun w colors recently :3 #these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards #like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh #i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind #this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done #with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool #with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really #help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes #me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk #anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you

[tranquilitybasehotelcasino]

i have an addiction to characters that aren’t actually related having sibling relationships with each other something about it is so healing

#grimsley voice ‘so proud of my little sister caitlin for getting into college #personally if i could explode people’s heads with my mind i wouldn’t bother with school i’d just do murder for hire’

[pebblezone]

The Hellsing Organization Goes To Brazil!!

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #alucard hellsing #pip bernadotte #seras victoria #a #animations #vids #personally being Michigan shaped isn’t horrible like it’s worse than being Ohio shaped but 100% better than being Massachusetts shaped #though I haven’t lived in ma maybe I’d be more willingly be Massachusetts shaped if I lived there #had a silly little school ceremony thing today that had me decked out like Steve blues clues #it was long but they had this baritone doing the national anthem and his voice was absolutely gorgeous #they never have lower voices doing solos it was so epic #need to make more stuff with alucard and seras I don’t milk their dynamic enough #actually that goes for a lot of things but then also sertegra 🧍‍♂️ #need to do an in depth hellsing smiling friends overlap situation #mr boss integra same character in the most horrific yet fantastic way #I mean fuck it frowning fiends iscariot

[hashipebbles]

They are like two silly little cats,,,

#transformers #maccadams #mtmte #transformers idw #more than meets the eye #brainstorm #first aid #I have a lot of vague ideas and am trying to come up with a ships name possibilities #like man if I could write…I may try? but like no promises that I’d share because HDHDHDHDD #I haven’t written anything non school related longer than a paragraph in ages #but between these two and the overwatch ideas mayhaps I will try #hashi do art #brainstorm x first aid #I have a vauge outline of how these two would get together #OKAY BACK TO DOODLING

[naturecalls111]

I think I love Sanji so extra much because he’d acknowledge my ‘girl-ness’ in a way that I feel like has not ever been acknowledged in a way I wanted it to be wails

The chivalry intended not with hopeful reciprocation but with admiration. WAILS.

#nc111 talks #like growing up the whole concept of ‘being one of the boys’ was so stupid to me #mostly because I had so many guy friends and I was not appreciative of their treatment of me at all #there were definitely times where I wanted to tell them like. hm. I wish you would respect my girlhood a bit more #I love being a woman. I really do #my girlhood is something I keep very close to me. I was very jealous of other girls in my school who exuded that type of femininity #speaking purely from personal experience - just to make that clear #but I like being and being associated with traits that are quite literally stereotypically aligned with Girl-ness #so hard to explain!! but at its core I just love chivalry though lol #one of my friends was like ugh no I’d never want a guy to hold a door open for me just because I’m a girl #‘I’d want them to hold it open because it’s just a kind thing to do’ #and like. yes. core sentiment I totally agree with #but also I Do want to be acknowledged as a girl I spent all of my childhood and teen years having my Girl-ness barely recognised and #it sucked seing the disparity in the treatment #but it also sucked seeing the intent with which these guys treated women chivalrously #which is why Sanji appeals to me. his chivalry is not ill intended or manipulative. ever. and it acknowledges womanhood all the same #OK RAMBLINGGGG #lost the plot. point is I love Sanji because I see him do his little dance while giving Robin a dessert she never had to ask for and I sigh #WISH THAT WERE ME. #edit: none of this matters mostly because I don’t care to date men #but I suppose it’s like. even in my friendships with other girls I feel like there was an inherent establishment that ok so I act as the Guy #And She acts as the girl #when we go out their arms would wrap around mine #and mine never wrapped around theirs. does that make sense #hold their hand as they walked down the stairs in heels. helped them out of cars. you get the image #SANJI WOULD HOLD MY HAND OUT OF A CAR EVERY TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love him #I’d never have to ask! ah. love chivalry.

[writhe]

i feel like it’s kinda dumb but i’ve ALWAYS been weird about touch even when i want it…there’s always been some aspect of exchanging touch casually / familiarly that has never really “clicked” for me. like, i remember being young and seeing people/friends casually lean on or touch each other’s arms or pull each other close and it always felt like a language i couldn’t speak or learn. i think a lot of this had to do with being a closeted / kinda repressed kid / teen but it felt & sometimes feels frustrating. i felt very monstrous for a long time. i think there are years that have passed in my life where the time spent touching or being touched could be condensed into a handful of hours, if not less. much less the case now because i’ve got to a point where i’ll crawl around on franklin for fun & i get friends to roughhouse sometime. anyway, this problem exists to a much lesser extent today but i still notice & feel it but last night during a song a bar friend who i’ve known for, hell, five years peered over my shoulder and we leaned our heads against each other and sang and it, like, did something to me. also hugs are easy but i got kind of a long one from a new friend!

anyway, i am maybe not entirely made of spikes and fire

#exception to this was in middle school we’d punch each other playfully and it kinda became the only way i would do this and #i still do this #it catches people off guard sometimes and i’ve had people be like “ow? hello?’’ #i’ve gotten good at doing it Way Less hahaha #the first time i did it to someone outside of my middle school friend group someone got kinda upset with me i felt bad #exception in adult life is mosh pits lol #omg wait i remember a couple years ago when i was getting my first covid shot my housemate held my hand and it was such a massively #impactful way to be cared for bc i’d come to feel like my body was an uncrossable barrier (outside of like. sex really) #anyway #i am happy and excited this morning! it’s been a hard week i’m happy to feel this way today #and i’m thankful for yesterday and the way it played out

[stuckinapril]

I’m happy for the little life I built for myself

#there’s a lot of ways to go #i am nowhere NEAR the dream life I really want to attain #or the dream person I want to be #but high school me #hell even freshman in college me #would GAWK at the life I have so deliberately made happen. #the solid network of friends I have #the confidence I’m slowly but surely growing into #the discipline I’m harvesting bit by bit. i do not claim perfection but I am 100% improving #I’m just happy idk! i don’t compare myself at all now bc I know I’m on the right track #especially compared to where I was like 5 years ago. such a different mind state from now #and no one can take that away from me #there’s a lot more to go. a lot more. but I thought I’d pause and be intentionally grateful for what has been accomplished #bc it actually puts things into perspective to look at the past rather than just look to the present. it creates contentment #i get so caught up being hard on myself for not accomplishing certain things yet #that I forget I pulled myself out of such a deep rut by the skin of my teeth #and that’s important to keep in mind even as you progress to your goals #anyway <333 happy content in my own lane etc etc #p

[heroesriseandfall]

Obviously the whole ‘little Tim Drake is left all alone with only a housekeeper Mrs Mac who just comes briefly a few days a week” thing is often just for people who want that specific angst, not canon accuracy…

But I feel like a lot of people simply do not know that not only did Mrs Mac not work for the Drakes until Tim was already a 14 year old Robin, but she was a live-in maid. She lived at Drake Manor. Far from only popping in every few days, she was at Drake Manor almost 24/7 and Tim had to sneak past her to go on patrol sometimes.

Mrs Mac literally does not seem to have a place to live in the US other than where she is meant to stay in Drake Manor, because her husband lives in Kilkenny, Ireland and that’s where she goes back to when they had to fire her.

When Tim’s dad is gone she’s home with Tim making him meals and cleaning. When the Drakes briefly move across the country she moves with them because she lives with them. From what we see in comics Tim is rarely intentionally left home alone and when he is, not only is he already a teenager but also his dad is very conscientious of Tim being home alone.

(This does not, however, mean that Tim does not sneak away from supervision. He does that constantly. Case in point: when Bruce was looking for a kidnapped Jack Drake and Tim got away from Mrs Mac by claiming he was going on vacation with Ives when he was actually sleeping in his dad’s penthouse to do Robin stuff in the city.)

#tim drake #batfam #for his childhood pre comics it’s hard to extrapolate bc by the time we see Jack’s parenting he’s decided to ‘be a better parent.’ #but we know Tim was sent to boarding school & his parents do seem concerned so I’d be surprised if he was *intentionally* left alone a lot #(however by the time tim was 13 he was either very good at sneaking away OR they started letting him have more leeway recently) #(because on his school break 13 yr old tim goes to nyc by himself to find Dick & during robin training he spends breaks at Wayne Manor) #(he was still in boarding school until his mom died though! Bruce was the one to put him in public school instead of boarding school!) #heroesriseandfall #canon vs fanon #mrs mac #jack drake

[ask-annamary]

If you were a jellyfish what kind would you be?

Personally I'd like to be a moon jelly

You may ask, “Mary, why do you favor these two out of the entire subphylum of Medusozoa?” and my answer is shrimple:

They amuse me. To think some animal out in the open sea could bare such a striking resemblance to a common breakfast food. Don’t you find that amazing? These things don’t even know what breakfast is, let alone food. Like many other cnidarians, these jellyfish feed upon any plankton that is caught in their tentacles. It is sustenance, yes, but it’s hardly food… unless you view the ocean as one massive broth or some other silly nonsense like that.

Do you know how jellyfish even catch their own food? One would imagine anything to slip right off of those tentacles. No claws, no hooks, no suckers of any sorts, no. They’re like cooked noodles at a glance. The truth lies deeper (haha) once you look in a microscope. Members of the phylum Cnidaria such as sea anemones, jellyfish, and coral (yes, those are animals!) are animals characterized by the presence of cnidocytes. They are specialized cells that shoot out microscopic barns into whatever brushes up against the animal. That is why you may feel a stinging sensation, some more potent than others. Luckily for us many cnidarians evolved to consume much smaller creatures and not us. If you were to touch a sea anemone right now it would feel less like pins and needles in your flesh and much more like a shrimple handshake. And tape. It would feel like tape. Those are all the tiny barbs shooting into your skin. This is speaking form experience.

I’m busy nowadays, often distracted by other work. For once I had some free time to sketch out this answer for you. I am no artist, though. If you’re looking for one of those, perhaps a Con Artist in the same department as I may be of interest.

#deep diver #toontown #toonblr #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #prob art #surprise #I have a journal to doodle in at times and I’ve been contemplating on doing some asks on paper #especially those pertaining to animals #think of them as Mary’s own notes #though I’m at school and I’m rushed for time. I couldn’t go deeper as I’d like in the sketches but in text yes