#Am I taking these too far? maybe

[broken-freedom]

Random HC of the day:

Eren is a big hyper when it comes to you. When you wear a dress and get your make up done and go to show him he'll scream: SLAYYYY MY QUEEEN!!, and pulls you to his lap so he can have his hands all around your body see you better. The angry voices coming from his headset tell you that they just lost the round because he got distracted, and you giggle in response when he pays them no attention.

He takes you shopping regularly to watch you try new outfits, and give him a show, his favorite of all these trips is sundresses shopping and lingerie shopping even when you can't put it on, his mind can picture it ;)

-NSFW under the cut-

TW: semi public oral (M → receiving)

WC: 0.9K

One day Eren took you to try on cocktail dresses in one of the fanciest boutiques in the city. Not that you needed a new one or that you have an event, he just wanted you to try on different dresses while he cheers with every dress you put on.

It was going smoothly, you put on a dress and come out of the fitting room to give Eren, who was sitting crossing his legs on a red velvet armchair slurping blue raspberry slushie, a show like you are a runway model. Until you come out wearing a skin tight black dress with a low cut neckline, you feel like your tits are spilling out of the dress.

Eren shot up dropping the now empty bottle of slushie somewhere on the floor with his jaw hanging low. He turns his head left and right frantically looking if anyone is around who can see you, before he gently tugged you back in the fitting room. "What are you d- ..." your word stopped half way in your throat when you felt Eren's lips press hard on yours, kissing you eagerly for a few moments before he breaks the kiss with a string of saliva connecting your tongue to his. You try to knock some sense into him reminding him that you are in a public place but he doesn't budge, slowly bringing your hand to make you aware of the tent in his pants. "Listen you can't look like this... this! this hot! hand expect me to do nothing, to feel nothing." His hands work to take your tits out of the dress, one hand squeezing and messaging one of them while his tongue darts out to lick tiny kitten licks on the nipple of the other one.

You try to hold back a moan but you fail miserably making Eren slap his hand over your mouth "shhh baby you gotta be quiet, unless you want to get caught?" You shake your head but when he dips one hand underneath the dress and grazing over the soaked material of your panties he chuckles and whispers in your ear "looks like you do want to get caught, naughty girl ..."

He licks your neck from the base of it up to your ear and bites on your ear shell "looking so sexy in this dress, kind of want to rip it off and bend you over right here" you tense up as he rubs his hard clothed cock on your thigh, but his kisses on your neck distract you and shift your attention to the hear pooling in your center.

You move to put some space between the two of you "we are in public Eren, there's only s thin curtain separating us from the outside world!" You say in a serious tone as you reach your hand behind his head and snatch the tie that was holding his hair up in a half bun. He watches you with a raised eyebrow as you tie your hair in a ponytail and hold his belt to support your body as you squat down to sit on your knees "let's make this quick shall we?"

You unbutton and unzip his jeans to free his cock waisting no time and start to twirl your tongue around his cock a few times before you take it inside your mouth, slowly but steadily taking in a little bit more with every time you lower your head down on him. "Goddamn baby slow down! You are going to make me cum embarrassingly fast like this!!" he tells you as he holds your head in place stopping you from taking his cock whole in your hot wet mouth again, but you work with what you have sucking his tip with a little more force. He growls loudly at the sensation, and pushes your head down at him "s- so close baby hold it in..." but the voice out side of the curtains scares you both and steals the color from your face. "excuse me sir! is everything okay in here??"

you try to push Eren away but he keeps your head still, nose buried at the hilt and you do everything in your power not to gag and rise suspicious. "Yes! I am just struggling with the zipper of her dress, but I got it don't worry." He impressively says with a steady tone as he looks down at you, eyes full of tears and mouth full of cock and he smirks at the scene. "Ok, let me know if you guys need anything" the employee tells him and he dismisses them with a quick thank you.

now that he has his full attention on you again, he whispers "is this ok?" as he thrusts slowly into your mouth and you only nod yes since your mouth is already occupied. "It won't be long I promise, just keep your head still for me, yea?" It takes him only a few thrusts until his hips stutter and before he can tell you that he is so close to prepare you he is shooting his load down your throat coating it white with his thick creamy cum. He slows down his thrusts to a stop and he quickly removes his cock from your mouth tucking it back inside of his jeans and bend to kiss your lips not caring that he can taste himself on them "Come on my queen, I am fucking you with this dress on later tonight" and he helps you get up and try to make yourself look presentable to the public eye.

You hand Eren the dress as you quickly change back to your clothes and you hear him at the cashier telling the employee that he wants this dress and paying for it "she slayed the dress, you should stop selling it no one can look better in it." ...

#Eren's HC of the day #Eren Jaeger #Eren X You #Am I taking these too far? maybe #am i going to stop? no

[ash-and-starlight]

modern au and esen’s honkers are haunting the instagram feed

#id in alt text #yea this was inspired by That watermelon smashing vid #if u don’t know what i’m talking about you’re living a more peaceful life than i am #at first I was like hm maybe this is a bit too ooc for ouyang #then I remembered the 'doEs GeNerAL Xu pLAY thE FLuTE???' and I was like nah ok it checks out #no filter & accidentally revealing how much of a gayass he is is how he rolls #also rip Ma she's just trying to hang out with her boygf and that hideous Pest that Wretched Thang that useless twink #just manifests wherever zhu is and ruins the mood #she deserves to hatecrime him as much as possible #also I don't think esen is 100% aware he's posting blatant thirst traps. his insta is mostly pics of his horses and his beautiful eagle #then one vid of him doing mounted archery that breaks the internet for 3 weeks #rinse and repeat #also yeah wang's special skill is starting shit in the comments section #he would absolutely thrive in the toxic waste that is social media fights #ty for reading this far. more unhinged takes at 5 #esen-temur #zhu yuanzhang #ma xiuying #general ouyang #the radiant emperor #she who became the sun #he who drowned the world #my art

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[laniemae]

Could John start hurting himself in trial 3?

TW FOR SELF HARM

So I’ve got a lot of theories for trial 3 and stuff but this is the one I want to talk about first since it was the one that stuck out to me most yet I haven’t seen people talking about the possibility

I actually wrote about this theory quite a while ago which I’ll just link to but I definitely do think it’s very likely but hasn’t been discussed much.

For a brief summary of the post I made it’s a theory on how John may have self harming desires but doesn’t physically hurt himself as he’s afraid of hurting Mikoto. Basically it’s how the reason why Mikoto’s clothes are so tattered is because John has been ripping them apart in another way to harm himself but not physically hurt Mikoto. Heck, there’s very clearly bite marks on the clothes so I highly doubt it was from the fight with Kotoko. And as well as just ripping his clothing it probably explained the breakdowns John is said to have at night especially in that one minigram where Es heard on it and there was a lot of crashing sounds and stuff breaking, even ripping sounds which definitely matches with what I was saying. So John does all of this in a method to self harm as a stress reliever but not physically harm Mikoto.

So here’s the trial 3 theory. As of recently Mikoto has stopped denying John’s existence as everything he’s seen in heard it’s just too much for him to deny anymore. And instead of that he’s began to hate John so much and blame him for every bad thing that’s happened, even going as far to blame him for what happened to Mahiru even though it was very clearly Kotoko’s fault. And with John, he loves Mikoto. Dedicates his entire existence to him and despite all the constant trauma and suffering he’s endured the only thing that keeps him going is the possibility that Mikoto will love him and praise him for saving him.

“Hey now, I saved you, right? So why in the hell are you crying?

Cling to me, hoist me up as your "savior", stand up and sing out your gratitude, that'd be good.”

Judging by these lyrics, it seems John is somewhat aware that Mikoto is denying his help but still wants to believe it. Even Neoplasm he says how Mikoto’s entrusting him with his heart, which can either be he doesn’t fully know about the hatred or is denying it. But what I’m really worried about is how much Mikoto loathes John in trial 3 and what he could do.

As I said earlier John dedicates his existence to Mikoto and I couldn’t explain how John may feel after he would realise his hatred for Mikoto  aside from his entire existence being denied. I already discussed this in another theory but for John to so deeply love Mikoto and dedicates everything to protecting him and only holding on with the possibility of approval and being told he did a good job, only to be met with unimaginable hatred from the person who he idealises as someone who could never hate anyone must be devastating on so many levels for John and… you can tell where I’m getting at here.

So what would happen next? Could perhaps John feel so betrayed by Mikoto that he could go to actually physically hurting himself out of conflicting feelings around Mikoto? Loving him like that but feeling so betrayed and hurt that he just tries not to care about Mikoto any more and harms himself out of both previously established coping mechanisms and spite?

It’s hard to tell here, as John is one of those characters who it’s very hard to predict what would happen next so who knows what he might do. I just believe this may be the most likely based off things that have been implied and established.

And just to address a potential elephant in the room is I highly doubt John would disappear in trial 3. That’s not how it works, and just because Mikoto may not be Guilty any more doesn’t mean he would be relieved from all stress so John definitely would still have his purpose. And I think it’s most likely why John claimed that he would disappear was that he believed Es hated him and wanted him gone, so he claimed that he would disappear if Mikoto were to be voted Innocent as a way to sway Es to that verdict. And there are lines such as “I’ll play dead even if I’m alive right?” And “can’t get rid of me now” that definitely imply that he will stay or perhaps pretend to go dormant which perhaps would be interesting as we’ve seen him masking as Mikoto in the minigrams before so it would be interesting if he does that in trial 3 perhaps. And side note even though this is kinda cheating theory wise but it would be stupid to remove John from the story like that so uhhh.

#milgram #mikoto kayano #John kayano #john milgram #tw sh #tw self destruction #I just wanna say I’m sorry for bringing up such a dark subject matter like this in a theory sense #It’s just when writing about the darker themes in milgram I always get scared I’ll offend someone by how I talk about it so sorry #But trial 3 is certainly gonna be crazy #This theory is one I’ve had for a while and thus easier to write but I’ve got a lot planned #Like it definitely seems like how in trial 2 kotoko was the main antagonist/one causing conflict and it definitely seems #That in trial 3 amane will fufill that role #Which I mean I am uhh really exited about that because Amane’s my favorite and I love character who fuck up everything #But from everything we’ve seen the whole thing with fuuta and Shidou she’s going to be the one starting the whole chain of events #And there’s definitely a lot of theories on people who could suffer or be injured because of everything #Definitely Haruka but that would be from himself #But from the amane thing potentially Shidou if she or fuuta attacks him #Maybe mahiru if Shidou can’t treat her if she’s injured which could be really bad I’m actually very worried for her #And fuuta if he goes too far deep into the ideology and actually takes off his eyepatch but that’s kinda hard to predict #And as I said it’s definitely likely that mikoto would be hurt but at the hands of “himself” rather #And with kotoko I have absolutely no clue how she would react to the guilty verdict but that unpredictably makes it more exiting #I’ll have to talk about kotoko and the others in a separate theory because it’s so complicated but aughahhan hiatus brain no #And kinda off topic with the mood that I’ve kinda set with this post #But looking and analysing the lyrics of meme and double for this post #I found it pretty funny how John is actually really affectionate when referring to mikoto #Like of course the “snuggle together and say good night” lyric which is funny because how that does not fit John normally but does make sen #And in double he uses words such as basically “welcoming home” mikoto and in those freeze frames whispers of good morning #Which one again is really funny as edgy boy misanthrope John has said almost uwu fanfiction stuff canonically #But it totally makes sense to his character which makes it all the more funnier but kinda fucked up as from what I’ve said in the post #Why am I talking about something funny like this? Maybe I’m just too worried about talking about dark subject matters I’m sorry

[burinazar]

Oh, wait, wait, ok, I can tell tumblr my news now.

I was accepted into the JET Program and will be moving to Japan for one year starting in late summer to teach English. : )

I don't know how many other applicants have ever had either of my specific application 'angles'. I think they were both pretty weird, but also very, very me, and I'm pleasantly surprised that they seemed to have worked, going off both by the acceptance and the very positive and warm reactions I got during the interview I had. These were:

Science/scicomm/museum background + implying mutual interest in and love of like insects and sea life could be an avenue of intercultural connection and exchange

India and Japan have always struck me as weirdly similar in ways nobody seems to discuss, especially in both being simultaneously hurtling into modernity and deeply traditional/conservative in many ways and places

So. Is this a silly idea considering most people in this program are fresh college grads, and people my age are expected to maybe be getting more settled rather than hopping continents? Is this a scary idea, considering I'll have to uproot all my shit and go exist in a foreign country whose language I really don't know beyond miniscule smatterings? I mean, hmm, yes on both counts, but I'm very excited. On count one, I'd only get older in the future and demonstrably *don't* already have a settled life and career here to disrupt (lol), and on count two...guys, I'm so so tired of letting fear and inertia make my life decisions.

Time to pack up and store most of my shit and end my lease and. Yeah. Also I haven't actually been to India in five years and will probably try to visit my relatives there in the coming months since idk if i'd had an opportunity for a prolonged visit in the future during the one year (at least) in jp. I'll also be probably selling, trading, or giving away a lot more of my hobby shit (that was sort of an ongoing project already but since I'll be unable to use most of it for a year plus it's another reason to do so), so uh, if you've ever wished I would sell any of my dolls now might be time to commit BJD Hobby Taboo and ask me lol. And, obviously, I'll be studying more Japanese, because mine is incredibly へたくそ at the moment. So much to do. But I'm really excited. And thank you to all of y'all that have been encouraging to me about anything related to this matter <3

#i don't know where they'll put me but i asked for ibaraki prefecture #during my research i became really endeared by the idea of The Prefecture Everyone Thinks is Ugly and Boring lol #seems like a good combo of 'not too far from urban things + cost of living + genuinely there ARE nice natural and cultural things there' #they could put me anywhere though lol #already one of my fandom friends from there wants to meet up ;; im so flattered #im obviously not going there to do doll and fandom bullshit but that stuff will be a nice bonus in off time #i have very little idea on what to expect specifically re japanese attitudes to south asian people and am interested to find out #and maybe be a bunch of kids' first exposure to both americans and south asians and like immigrants as a concept : 3 #keeping my expectations tempered though. It Could Suck #but it'll suck in a novel way and truly i thrive on novelty even though often i take the easy and familiar path to try to protect myself #just. aaAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa scary but exciting im so excited

[scrimblyscrorblo]

I originally wanted to have Hanako do a cute giggle and I made her menacing, a bit ooc for her but alas

#Ito Hanako #KNY Hanako #KNY OCs #demon slayer oc #my ocs #my oc art #my oc stuff #Hanako Ito #I put far too much detail into the kimono #I very clearly gave up TT #I’m going to come back to it but maybe not for a while #despite less art I’ve been taking care of myself more #so plus side! #I am gonna do more though lol I feel invited #anywho #she was gonna be all giggly and cute or maybe it was supposed to be hot #ended up menacing #pov you insulted her wife #I imagine they’re very protective of eachother #also idk what bc colour I made her eyes last time #green I think #but I think the blue here looks nice #fits her colour scheme better and green looks nice w Yuri #digital arwork #digital illustration #digital art #don’t stare too hardly at the kimono you will see how plainly I just gave up

[starfall-calamity]

You so right mr jash I am losing my shit omg

Also also also Jash himself drew the hand on the cover!!!

#bro can draw hands better than me what tf #bro can music & draw he got both skills #asdgshsjs im still so so happy about this upload like oh my god #like i liked the og Push & Compelled by Hindsight & i rlly liked the new covers too #Mayday was still my favorite so far tho & I knew that if Don't Take it Personally were to happen it would be at least tied or close to it #but DUDE this version is so fucking good god #the verse/bridge change toward the end #and then the louder more screamy chorus at the end #ough #i am trying to be so normal at 4am #i cant wait until this is on Spotify im going to go insane #also as for my idea for the last song #i think its going to be a more recent original like Mayday #if anything it'll have refs & motifs to the other PHs & maybe his other stuff #no idea but hyped either way #moss rants #chonny jash

[featherlouise]

Been thinking about this song w/ petrigrof recently and realised something

They both think they’re the moon

They’re so hopelessly devoted to one another that they’re orbiting around each other, they’ve each tied their self worth and identities to the other to the point that they genuinely cannot fathom living a life without the other.

GOD I’m so ill about this couple

They’re SO UNHEALTHY, they’re the PRIME example of “sometimes love isn’t enough”

And they DO love each other, SO much, to the point that they’re hurting each other

It’s like, they don’t realise they’re each other’s suns, so they keep burning the other by accident

#am I going too far with this metaphor?? maybe #do I care?? NO #THIS SONG IS PERFECT FOR THEM OKAY #feather speaks #adventure time #fionna and cake #petrigrof #simon petrikov #betty grof #ice king #magic betty #at #at simon #at betty #golbetty #take a shot every time I say other #Spotify

[clumsycapitolunicorn]

it's been nearly 6 months since the ted lasso finale and im still pretty much:

#ted lasso #messing with us tedbecca shippers and giving rebecca some rando...ruining a canon ship...trying to girl boss a character- #-who you didn't even let have her own work plot when it was time... #making two men who had a beautiful relationship growth fight last minute over said girlboss and making them grossly misogynistic #leaving one of your characters in an ab*s*ve relationship was an awful woman and all the mentioned ab*s*ve moments were- #-just for sh*ts and giggles #ohhh and also making it mandatory to forgive even the sh*tty people when it's ok not to #taking your lead away from a place he was most stable and maybe or maybe not having him get back with his ex who told him he was too much.. #-got with their therapist (and you never dig deep into that mess) and maybe cheated... #yes to be with his son but there were options for him to stay in london and bring his kid and ex so they could both parent or show a- #representation of these kind of situations and maybe have henry living with each parent 6 months each and getting the best of both worlds #also your boss is more rich than she started and was providing for you your kid and ex #instead we get ted only deciding to leave after his mother told him his kid missed him (as if that isn't obvious) such a weak way to go- #-about it and tbh ted leaving his kid far away to go to london instead of like half an hour way is kind of stupid all round really #they wanted a mary poppins situation except mary poppins made some roots of her own and had connections so it didn'twork #yeah i am still...feeling a lot

[x-adoringvoid-x]

Apparently that's called the 'irresistible force paradox'

#oc f/o #f/o art #fictional other #self shipping #self insert #oc #original character #they're patient with me #also I finally draw Hadri with a different form! #I want to do more with their shape shifting but I haven't made much that turns out well #small vent in tags upcoming if you don't want to read #Feeling bad about posting but I shouldn't just give up #In some way social media isn't for me because I take things too personally #but if I'm going to meet people I have some common ground with I don't know where else I'd look #common ground with something that means something to me #I want to meet people that don't suck to talk to #And actively have things they want to talk to me about that we're both interested in #Tired of being just ears. #I'm talking about my family here not anyone on the site btw #I just wish there were people who wanted to talk in the same way I want to talk #same level of energy I guess #Sorry to vent in silly drawings but it is what it is #Fun fact if you read this far...Hadri would like Evangelion #I don't know why that came to mind today but it makes total sense #They're a deity-like person so religion is interesting and they'd be drawn in by the drama #I honestly don't know how they'd examine media since their setting is basically medieval so Hadri's never really watched anything #Maybe a play? #I'd be nice to know what Hadri would think of things I like #But my tastes are very colorful... watched Ind/go Park for example and have it stuck in my head now #Popp/ playtime and Ind/go Park seem to both be going for fnaf Portal and I am feeling something

[justewil]

i should steal another pl character's name ...

#guy who said he was goinh to sleep: hey #its. idk. i Cannot have luke as a namr too that wouod get confusing #for me .at least #wpuld be funny though ... luke and des guy named both luke and des .... #maybe that isnt that funny. is 4am #idk thoguh. i have a history of only/mostly choosing 3 letter names?? for some reason?? #not intentionslly it just. happejs ???? i fear i wkuld break that patterb ..... #is anyone reading this .hi 🫵 #uhhhhh anyway i dont Know . also i get really nervous about names and worrying if they Fit me or not #like .far too nervous for something as silly as that . for som3 reason .i dont even know if my Current names fit me ????? AUAUUUGH #and i would be afraid that .idk if i would even take another name but if i did i would be worried that peoole would be like “haha woaw th #thsts stupid that doesnt fit him at all“ and Not Twll me !!!!!@ I think about that a lot #what the fuck was i supposed to be tlakimg about here #🤝 shaking your hand if you read all of that .i sure didnt !!! #how do people choose what names to use ..... how do people know that they fit them ..... #fuckinguhhhh .send me character sto steal names from ???? #i domt think thsts a good idea . is it ?? idk . i dont know what fits me i donr know :( #guy who has no perception of himself #is that the right word ..... huh #guy who needs to sleep !!!!!! what am i doing !!!!!! #talks #<- yeah tjis can. stay i suppose???

[infinitelystrangemachinex]

Mel for the unhinged character bingo!

yessss YEEEESSSSSSSSS

#ask me #so Mel is in the unenviable position of being a very strong character whose rights I support and whose wrongs I also fully support #BUT the way she's treated broadly in the fandom is so pervasive and so consistent and so frustrating to me that #I am in full -must protect my blorbo- mode with her at all times #-Mel's story is over so the only thing left for her to do is die- #-if Mel dies then J can get together with V and they will appreciate her for her sacrifice bc she died a hero who rejected Ambessa- #enough! enough I say! #what about proving to ambessa that she can take the throne for herself? what about the angst of defying her mother and her home country #and opposing those in Piltover who DO want war and want to raze the undercity #what about the magic that she's heavily foreshadowed to have and how it's different from hextech #and how it directly opposes but also parallels what is happening to Viktor #what about her -friends- abroad and the plot Mel was cooking through all of season 1 that has not been revealed yet #there's so much potential for her to have to confront the fact that J was slowly becoming a monster through season 1 #and that she can't ignore the undercity forever #also what if whoever Ambessa says killed her brother comes after Mel too! #it is very frustrating to see Mel get dismissed as dead or evil or irredeemable or whatever when she is consistently #the most interesting person in the room in every single scene she's in and the character who shows the most conviction and change #so yeah i will take a bullet for her she is my blorbo I will despise any character who hurts her #and I would cradle her in my arms if she gave me a chance - which she would never! - but a girl can dream #however I also enjoy leaning into the idea that Mel is perceived as being a devil from the outside - Mel leans into it too when it serves #but it's in direct opposition to her ironclad values and the personality that she keeps hidden a layer down #I genuinely think that Mel will have a happy ending - or at least as happy an ending that an Arcane character can get lol #like I fully believe she will take the throne (Piltover) in the end but I can only guess at this point what that will cost her #I love putting Mel in situations but mainly to play with both how creative she can get and also how fucking far she will go to win #which is ANOTHER thing we know is probably true about Mel but has not been put on display yet #also Mel has already done a great job at separating what she wants for herself as a person from just being Ambessa's daughter #but Mel still deserves to get plenty of great therapy for that situation because OH GOD THAT CHILDHOOD FLASHBACK #also Kino is dead? maybe dead?? at least Mel fully believes he's dead so she needs therapy and hugs for that too #I am super normal about her can you tell

[nerdgirlnarrates]

Found out I matched on Monday (🥳), but now waiting till Friday to find out where is KILLING me. The match has felt like this distant, looming horror for so long, and it's finally become real, and it's actually happy, and now I'm desperate to know where I'm going.

#I absolutely understand why we have to wait so I'm not actually advocating for them to change it #but I'm so eager now to find out where I matched #it just felt so far away for so long #but I for sure am going somewhere on my list! #like holy shit I'm actually gonna be an internist! #I'm starting relatively soon! #the next chapter of my life is going to take shape in a real and concrete way! #and I can start making plans around it! #and by plans I of course mean getting on zillow #anyway this is the most excitement I've ever felt about the match #I won't announce exactly where I'm going #far too doxxable #but I might include the region #maybe not though #I'm realizing that having talked about my undergrad and current med school state on here narrows down who I am quite a bit actually #so I might not share the region just for an additional layer of anonymity #medicine #medblr #med school #med student #my content #my text posts

[b4kuch1n]

dip pen ink comm second round for in order R. Burry, @sega-bass-kissing, and Solaris

#bakuspecial #commission art #and thats round 2 concluded! #once again sorry it took a Lot longer than round 1 lol #its just. sometimes there are things up here #which is why (mentioning this again in an actually relevant post lol) I'm gonna leave my next week off from this! #round 3 will open sometimes AFTER this sunday. my rest of the week will be for other business I gotta take care of #tbh what I'm doing with ink here is kind of the equivalent of like. picking up someone's dog and running off #nobody knows whats going on or is gonna happen. but I am doing it nonetheless #now tho. maybe I should nap for a bit more. itd help #thank you again to folks who've bought a slot thus far! hope everyone's enjoying whatever the hells Im doing dskjfhdsjfh #I sure am uh. figuring it out. it is fun but then I'm the one with the dog in my arms #have a good night! maybe u should have an animal of choice in ur arms too. would recommend

[familyofpaladins]

You've heard of [person/character/show/story/media/art] living rent free in your head right?

Now get ready for: that, but each is a little bird in the nest of you mind, some birds are there for a long time and some just a little while, as they come and go and theres some you feed more than others And it's not until you realize that suddenly "theres less birds here" "where'd the other babies go?" That the bird you started to feed a couple days ago is Cuckoo bird

#(Metaphor for when you have a new special interest that suddenly takes over your brain- #that you cant even focus on other things that used to live rent free in you brain because it's all [CUCKOO] now) #Sometimes theres multiple birds that get along okay (I can focus on each without distracting from the others) #with maybe a favorite of the bunch #but I switch between them fine #And often there will be a new bird that visits for a bit before flying away #And other times a new bird just comes in all of a sudden and takes over #But most of the time. I think it's just a new bird to visit for a little while #and then suddenly it's the only one in the nest #Where my other babies go? Whyd you push them out?? Yet I dont stop feeding the cuckoo. I cant. I have to feed the baby #Anyway. Tmnt is a cuckoo but there is now another cuckoo in the nest and they're fighting #We'll see if the new one manages to push tmnt out or if tmnt will regain the upper hand #The 'new' cuckoo has actually been here before. But it had been well over 4 years since it was the leader of the nest #And almost a year and half since it visited . (So it's been building strength since and came back with a vengeance lol) #I'm taking the metaphor too far #I'll shut up now #Midnight rambling #It is 2:30 am #living rent free in my head

[notmoreflippingelves]

If any of the krisnix fans following me are already DCU fans, I would be very, very curious to pick some of your brains and mine your existing comics knowledge (as my own is very new and somewhat lacking) about a krisnix-centric, Batman-inspired AU.

#ace attorney #krisnix #kristoph gavin #phoenix wright #krisnix batman au #the kris in my head is mainly a blend of jean-paul valley and jason todd with a bit of harvey dent in there #phoenix is mainly dick grayson (altho he's flamebird rather than nightwing) specifically have to reluctantly take up the bat-mantle #cause kris while well-intentioned is not suited to it #the main plot i am imagining is a combo of knightfall and battle for the cowl #despite not yet having read bftc #(it's on my very long tbr list) #so far apollo is tim and trucy has elements of cassandra cain and zatanna as well as dick's role in the court of owls plot #maybe some stephanie too? idk i haven't read much of her either; just the little bits in knightfall and cataclysm #but this is complicated by the fact that i still need to read court of owls too and more of all 3 ladies #and plz don't come at me we with 'why krisnix? a n@rumitsu batman au would be so much better' / b/c #1. i disagree ; 2. i'm sure it's already been done and 3. not everything in this fandom has to be about them