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kingstealer · 1 month

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aabria going, "as aimee who maybe wants to have a friend sit by you soon" is going to haunt me for the next two weeks. i can already tell.

#critical role #critical role campaign 3 #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #what does that MEAN. who else do they have sitting in the back room pretending they don't exist. who now has to come back later #WHAT IF ITS ZERXUS #(guy who only knows one fictional character voice)#my points to back this up are: 1. apparently we're doing a betrayer god thing so probably would be a betrayer god pc showing up #2. he's the only other champion of a betrayer god pc we know. there could ofc be a new one but i'm insane like that #would it probably actually be a spider queen person? oh yeah probably. but WHAT IF #of all the episodes for me to pick up cr again (god i hope not i need to have a sleep schedule) after having watched calamity recently #i was so ready to go to bed like an hour later than usual and then aabria said 'you maybe want someone with you on your side of the table?'#and i live watching this yt stream now. or rather. in 2 weeks #thanks for coming to my ted talk. i am the conspiracy board meme

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mishkakagehishka · 4 months

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"We're old moms, we can't wait to stop breastfeeding so we can get [very excited, shrill even] botooooox!!!"

We are never making it out of the patriarchy.

#every time i open instagram i see videos promoting botox for the moment you turn 20 and face lifts and plastic surgery #and skincare regimens that are not care at all but just fifty products to torture your skin (and spend money!!)#the ties between the patriarchy and capitalism that support one another are terrifying.#but not even that . i feel like i'm going insane #how did we in this day and age normalise so much of this shit #what happened to feminism... why am i seeing a man who works as a plastic surgeon #talking about ''when a client walks in and i know EXACTLY what she needs to change so i am able to get her to #sign up for four more procedures asides from the one she came here for ^_^'' i'm going to kill you.#beat you with rocks. do you guys know botox is a bacteria? do you guys know about botulism?#you throw away a can of food because it's slightly dented so you don't die from botulism #but you inject it straight into your forehead because someone told you signs you #lived a long life full of expressing your emotions guilt-free was what made you ugly #the way i see influencers who will call themselves feminists talk about those wrinkle-free straws... don't sleep on your side #don't breathe wrong don't crease your eyebrows don't smile don't cry don't drink from straws #you're all fucking insane. and wrinkles are caused by your skin losing elasticity. you will STILL have wrinkles #if you live long enough that is (<- can you see why it's a blessing?)

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that-was-anticlimactic · 1 month

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one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

#and that you’re a terrible writer and that no one cares aaaaaaand imposter syndrome kicks in and you just feel like crap #bc all your friends have been wriying recejtky so why can’t you??? cause they’re bETTER THAN YOU #lol idk why my head is so bad today #the feelings of inferiority and emptiness and idk worthlessness are strong and i hate it but i can’t stop it #i just wanna write!!! and like what i write!!!#but i Can’t and i haven’t liked anything i’ve written in Months and ugh i hate not being able to d something i wanna do #oh and now i’m crying??? why the frick am i cRYING litetally why is typing this making me Worse #sorry guys needed to rant #the inadequacy was strong today #something something students keep telling me how much they dislike me or how i’m whiny for asking them to be respectful and like #i Know i shouldn’t compare myself to my friends but gosh it’s hard when they’re all like. so much better than me.#and i don’t have a lot of time to be on tumblr bc of work so i just feel like i’m watching everything from afar and it’s no one’s fault but #my brain’s like no one is Doing anything it’s just my brain being dumb and i can’t stand it and I want to stop feeling empty and like i’m #missing a part of myself and like the words i write don’t matter gOD why can’t i just feel happy with where i am and not care what the kids #who hate me say or realize that no one cares that i’m not on much like i’m still Here and trying to interact it’s not like everyone hates me #for being busy or for liking side characters more than the main characters and just—#sorry #that felt good actually #idk what came over me #imma just. imma shower. then maybe delete my tags #sorry if anyone got this far aT ALL grace is either asleep or trying to sleep so i don’t wanna bother them since they slept poorly last nigh #okay done now for real sorry delete tags later sorry if you saw this and how freaking messed up ky freaking brain is

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justewil · 19 days

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i should steal another pl character's name ...

#guy who said he was goinh to sleep: hey #its. idk. i Cannot have luke as a namr too that wouod get confusing #for me .at least #wpuld be funny though ... luke and des guy named both luke and des ....#maybe that isnt that funny. is 4am #idk thoguh. i have a history of only/mostly choosing 3 letter names?? for some reason??#not intentionslly it just. happejs ???? i fear i wkuld break that patterb .....#is anyone reading this .hi 🫵#uhhhhh anyway i dont Know . also i get really nervous about names and worrying if they Fit me or not #like .far too nervous for something as silly as that . for som3 reason .i dont even know if my Current names fit me ????? AUAUUUGH #and i would be afraid that .idk if i would even take another name but if i did i would be worried that peoole would be like “haha woaw th #thsts stupid that doesnt fit him at all“ and Not Twll me !!!!!@ I think about that a lot #what the fuck was i supposed to be tlakimg about here #🤝 shaking your hand if you read all of that .i sure didnt !!!#how do people choose what names to use ..... how do people know that they fit them .....#fuckinguhhhh .send me character sto steal names from ????#i domt think thsts a good idea . is it ?? idk . i dont know what fits me i donr know :(#guy who has no perception of himself #is that the right word ..... huh #guy who needs to sleep !!!!!! what am i doing !!!!!!#talks #<- yeah tjis can. stay i suppose???

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fafrogke · 4 months

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JASGGKJGSDFJH

#if i don't survive this one i want you to know i tried #i dont know who this guy is im ussing him for reference #i changed from drawing 3 times this one is the one i swear #more than one year obsessed with him and still don't know what shoes he wears #like i know he would wear anything for us its whatever but i still care #now i am struggling with choosing warm colors bc it tastes better for my eyes #vs cold colors bc it would go with the atmosphere of the piece #wyuyaaaggggfg its more fun to do warm colors to me anyways #now that im looking at this it looks kind of silly?????#idk if everybody that draws comes o a point where they regret their life choices and everything that has gone wrong in the past but #its happening tome now i think im oging to sleep #the movie i was watching with my friends left me a little sad i think its the mood i need tostop thinkinh good nihtg #silly squeaking time #i wrote these tags while drawing this day they have hours of difference its funny i was happy when i started now im aasfdasdjhassdka #ist cold #IM HATNGIT UGUYGHH #i shou.dl shut up forever

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hazmatazz · 6 months

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realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me

#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again #or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. .#so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude #i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me #(<- guy who's been friends with it for years)#like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that #like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr #and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf #this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend #so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow #i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise #i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3 #godddddd #🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always

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itslookingback · 7 months

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:/

#my experience so far with uni has kind of been:#my mind shouting ''am i doing enough. is this normal. i should be doing more. i should be more extroverted''#but unfortunately i am not more extroverted #guy who never did anything social on weekends before uni now realising that this might have been a bad idea #i don't want myself to become so isolated from other people #but i genuinely don't know what to do #i don't drink. i don't like going out in the evenings (unless there's a quiz). the other queer people i know are more extroverted than me.#i'm sure they're lovely everything just feels intimidating #it just feels like everything is happening a little bit wrong #did the people who said uni is meant to be the best years consider that i am just a bit too autistic for this statement to be true to me #i'm tired of feeling trapped tbh #it's so stupid. i know that the worst that can happen is having an awkward time #i knew i was going to have a worse time at uni than other people but augh.#i KNOW i'm bad at making friends and being in friend groups. i know. i'm just tired #it's not looking good for me when i'm not in uni anymore i'm not gonna lie. if i'm struggling a lot now #teehee #anyway. i should sleep. i'm tired and need to get up early #it's just the second month. it's ok. i'm sure other people are feeling like this as well #mumbles

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very-uncorrect · 6 days

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I'm gonna die one day oh my god holy shit fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck there's no afterlife oh holy shit fuck help oh my god no no no no no

#tw death #sorry I'm having bad thoughts at night again #BUT HOLY FUCK I'M GONNA DIE ONE DAY I'M SO FUCKING SCARED BECAUSE THERE'LL BE NOTHING #IT'S FUCKING INEVITABLE FUCK #ahh im having a panic attack again god damnit #tw caps #if i had a different personality i would probably be seeking religion as a way to stop these damn panic attacks #but i don't have any faith in me at all #my brain is too science/logical focussed to believe in a god/gods #so I'll just have to deal with it ig #until it actually happens #or go to therapy at some point #if i can afford it #but god do i need it #this is my punishment for writing another chapter of a&tsp instead of sleeping #it's 00:43 rn #my cat's on me #I've got family guy the video game speedrun on tv #but i am mortal #I've been dealing with this for 3 years now ntw #since i was 14 #i remember i had a panic attack when watching squid game because #watching them drop like flies like that really got to me fsr #ig the msot comforting thing about it is that it'll literally happen to everyone ever #so no matter what happens I'm not alone in any way shape or form #sorry if it sounds morbid and maybe selfish that I'm comforting myself using the knowledge of the inevitable deaths of other people #but we are all equal in death ig #like that one quote #who said that

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dbphantom · 9 days

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you know if you guys voted for stretch armstrong i probably would have shut up a lot sooner tonight

#so really this is all your fault /lh /j #i love thinking about h2o tho so im happy #VERY FUCKING TIRED THO WISH I COULD SLEEP #i think my brain is kicking into overdrive after being filled with cotton the past 3 days which. hey im glad ur back bud #CAN YOU SHUT UP NOW I NEED REST #i was just thinking because im probably not posting that essay i will summarize here (i saw #that privating it made it lose like 4 recently edited paragraphs and i don't want to type all that out again my memory isn't good enough)#it just boiled down to the pods basically making a self fulfilling prophecy by orphaning their sons and making them increasingly #desperate for connections to other people like them which is why i think erik behaves the way he does esp when ondina is around #like i am not excusing his actions in the slightest dont get me wrong here he really fucked up BUT #his last conversation with ondina before he goes to the chamber kind of sold that idea to me #how he scoffs at her saying rita says it's dangerous because she's 'old school' and of COURSE old school mermaids think all mermen are evil #and then starts adding on how he wants to do this for HER and get her home back for her by controlling it #like a bit of an add-on at the end to try and convince her #i think what he really wants is to be hailed as a hero. you know. validation and acceptance from the ppl who originally abandoned him #the OGs who made him feel like an outsider. the ppl who ripped everything away from him just bc of the way he was born (which is prob why #when he's trying to convince zac to help him he keeps bringing up their ancestors bc that's what unifies them)#i don't think he's an evil dude per se i think he thought stealing the trident stone from rita's grotto would be small peanuts in the past #once he finally got the pod to come home bc he genuinely (mistakenly) believed he COULD control the power of the chamber #i also think that's why the camera keeps focusing on his face when he's watching the others panic over #zac's sacrifice and i think he is feeling jealousy bc they are paying attention to him and not Erik #like that's not the face of someone who deeply regrets what they just did. my guy is just sitting there like 'that should be me rn'#i think that is why he also sounds so desperate to make things right with ondina afterwards. iirc he's just like 'wait no we can start ove #RIGHT?' and she's like 'uhhhh... no??????' (valid). my dude is lonely as fuck and he finally found a group of ppl like him and he messed up #big time just trying to get their attention and affection bc he couldn't just be normal abt it he had to go big or go home #like i kind of feel bad for him in a way #but i feel bad for everyone #i felt bad for denman the other day! that's how bad this is getting!!#i mean come on imagine making the scientific discovery of a LIFETIME only for all that shit to happen in a row #especially after you get your comeback. they just go right back to fucking you over again

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barredandromeda · 3 months

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imsoo normal about guys byw

#sprry this is the start of my downfall im actually going to theow up and vomit and die #fronting daily actually sucks!and i have no restraint on my curiiusity and i have to figure shit out and i literally want to die #cause like i found out shit i didnt want to and its entirely my fault too bro i cant even be upset cause i went looking for it ughhh #i should be allowed to die afterschool so i dont have to feel anything else tbh thatd be a pleasure great thing whwatever #this is genuinelky the repeat of my downfall again literally september all over again and its just march jesus fucking fhrist bro need todi #the nervous system is so dumb what is ooottfvgvsh or whagevr i hate that dumbass acronym i hate healrhcare #serenity save me 🙏 save me serenity 🙏 come home #everyone keeps sayng that but qith donald trump #anyway back to me i need to scream and not just to serenity cause i feel bad🤭 no emojis are tood enougu anymore bro im going to kms #killing myself so fucking hard like a vampire driving a stake through his heart sort of shit ykwim like a siren drowning ro sokething poeti #save me sid 🙏 sid save me actually hed laugh at me for hthis lowkey which is soo deserved cause real bro why am i breaking down at midnight #on a dchool day too bro again and again i dont want to go to mf schooll and be obsessed w k. hes fine but i genuinely cant do my work #lowkey would iet be weird to talk to my ex ab my relationship with him cause like yea i miss him ykwim and i need closure but i got a crush #cause like on one hand its like i was the one who brokenup ykwim like even if the circumstances werewei4d whatever its like why would i hav #the right to even bring it up and i alr crushed on a new guy and like ignoring the uguult i do like him ughh broni want to kms #i love love i just dont love lvoe for myself cause ugh bro i hare one guy idc ab his crushes but he made me hear ab them lke idc idek him #sorry u had a bad experience w bi girls like idk what u want me to say ??? surprise me too ??? tff ugh i hate love girls #i need a gf but the thoigjt of liking a girl genuinely deeply scares me to my core cause i like girls but ppl dont like that i do ykwim #all mu friends are fucking gay bro idek why im so worried ab liking girls like who is there to disappoint but myself and my entire family #noo pressure qt all being oldest and queerest like ok yeah its midnight happy new years. i need this blanket tobsuffocste me #sleep wrappedup alr like a borito burito i dek and its not enoughh i need a soul crushing embrafe to sleep #ok im done i got post vent clarity i need to sleep #post #erics tag #delete later #serenity needs this as a ref in the morning #i beed my mom to cry to but j cant tell her any of this id rather be eaten alive by bugsbro and if i just cry to her without a reason #shell fs go througj my phone and fimd out why anyway so wjats the pointtt my god i tqlk too much and vent too much #gota flair forbthe dramatics ivguess mb

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petorahs · 4 months

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the first few art pieces for a new interest are always the loneliest, in my experience

#aishi.txt #i cant sleep despite drinking calming tea and my fav playlist being put on so forgive any emoness but #its a bit alienating... why does art have to be one of the loneliest hobbies ever #like i want people to care as much as i do but i also get it if they dont #i cant fault ppl for not seeing the vision as i do... which is why my art is there #but im just one guy who has many ideas and not enough hands and energy to draw all of them #draw them all and... make it match my view also?? i have to reconcile my current skill with my lack of time and energy with my perfectionism #a bit of a recipe for disaster... i will say #and even after all that effort... some people will still not see it or get it and the ones that probably do #will need time to warm up to me!!#and my art... ough.. idk.....#do i use art as a medium to bridge my social anxiety or what... why does this lowkey bother me #anyway. this happens every time i change fandom #persona art was the loneliest period... pokemon feels a bit alienating too idk #my conclusion always is to stop interacting altogether #just dump my art pieces and go #but thats never worked out for me as well... i always long for interaction and i always be yapping #its just!! a bit tiring i guess #having to continuously work on stuff to... feel connected? what am i saying #like yea i know it takes time. i just wish it didnt have to feel so lonely too during the waiting period #makes me not want to move on from one interest to the next #makes me worried the friends ive made for one fandom will think ive abandoned them for a new thing but its the opposite.#im scared to leave things ive built up.. connections ive already made #i would love nothing more for them to come with me (its not like theyre going anywhere) i just dont know #how to make them feel connected to a new interest i have? wtf am i on about #its like i based my self worth on what art i can provide to others lol 😂 thats silly #i think i'll just think of this as my real life friendships and leave it at that #but yeah. i still feel incredibly lonely and alienated when making art for a new thing. even old things feel incredibly. sad to me #art as a hobby is incredibly lonely. its frustrating for someone like me #an extroverted person with an introvert's hobby. disaster.

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toastsnaffler · 6 months

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my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/