#AGH I just I am so so mad rn

[iwanttobepersephone]

Rant about Harry Potter and JK Rowling, stick with me here

Ok, so, I hate JK Rowling. I feel like that's a given, right? Like, she's a transphobic homophobic bigot who hides behind feminism and routinely denies massive parts of the holocaust, and I despise her in ways that I don't think words can even express. I can't stand her, but y'know what I also can't stand?

When someone implies that my mother, who is one of the most supportive people I know, and a massive part of the founding, organization, and actions of a local group made specifically to fight Moms for Liberty and school boards in our area trying to harm trans and queer people, is transphobic because she likes Harry Potter

Wanna know why my mom likes Harry Potter? Because when she discovered the series at 12 years old, she quite literally lived in a cupboard under the stairs and was in an abusive household. The magic of the wizarding world or whatever was her escape, it's the reason she's still alive, and by extension, the reason I was ever alive.

But, sometimes, not even often, when I try to express even the most minimal amount of appreciation of that, someone says to me "but isn't JK Rowling transphobic? Why would you support someone like that? Are you transphobic?"

Which pisses me off beyond belief, as one might imagine

In this situation, "separate the art from the artist" isn't exactly a good phrase to use, given the fact that the goblins or whatever run the bank are Jewish stereotypes and the house elves generally being happy to work under their masters being a straight rip from the whole happy slave myth, and those are very very important things to recognize and understand, among others

I feel like it's a lot closer to "separate the hundreds if not thousands of lives she's helped from the hundreds if not thousands of lives she's ruined", or even better, understand that the good she's indirectly done for people makes all the bad that much more horrid

My mother is the closest thing to a hero in this entire world and I will not stand to hear one more person accuse her of being transphobic purely because she thinks fondly of a book series that saved her life. I will not stand for people saying she's just as bad as a holocaust denier because she owns every book in the series. I will not stand for anyone going entirely against their point of not judging a group as if it's monolithic by saying all Harry Potter fans are bad people, including my mother. And, once again, it's not often at all that this happens, but it happens and I'm pissed about it and needed to rant

Anyways rant over JK Rowling sucks don't believe a single thing she says and don't support her unless you wanna support someone actively trying to make the existence of queer people illegal

#jk rowling #harry potter #screw jkr #screw jk rowling #rants #yeah so I saw one too many “if you like Harry Potter please kill yourself posts” (literal direct f+cking quote from one) and wrote this #like #in what world would saying stuff like that ever be ok #what kind of bubble do you live in where you think that's an actual productive thing to say #like have you never interacted with anyone who has slightly problematic opinions or behaviors in a positive manner.... ever?????? #do you just live in an echo chamber of people who agree with every thought you have to a T???? #difference in opinion and civil disagreements are the things that human understanding and kindness are built on #and saying things like “if you like Harty Potter you should kys” just says that you don't know how to handle that #that's not a good thing #and I know that more than a couple mutuals/followers of mine reblog similar things a lot and I don't wanna give the wrong message #JK Rowling is a horrid horrid person and nothing else could ever be argued #but my for you page is filled to the brim with posts like the ones I've referenced and I'm so mad I feel like crying #angry #angry rant #serious #AGH I just I am so so mad rn #I hate being this mad like outwardly and stuff but like #c'mon guys basic human f+cking understanding and decency can we try and learn that before telling people to kill themselves please

[its-short-for-jackalope]

arghh. I was Trying A New Thing and i was getting irritated with it because it was finicky as hell and I kinda wanted to quit but I kept going. y'know, for the sake of commitment and perseverance and all that jazz.

my expectation was that finishing what I was working on would bring relief and satisfaction because hey, I was patient and controlled and bam I have made some Things now, that's always great, right?

but the reality is that I have made some Things I don't even want to look at (promptly tucking them away where I can't see them) and now I am just sitting here simmering in frustration that has not let up even a little bit. 🙂🙂🙂🙂

#i am SO frustrated and irritable right now and i hate it #i cant tell exactly what the issue is either #is it like the whole activity that i didnt enjoy or is it because i dont quite have the right tools that would make it easier #or was i already in a funky mood and i wouldve gotten irritable no matter what??? #hate it hate this AGH i wanna tear off my flesh rn maybe then id finally cool down #worst part is now i dont wanna fuckin do anything else im just MAD #tempted to do a different crafty thing but i know ill just get pissed off at whatever i try next because i already am! #and i dont know how to turn it off!!! fuck!!! #unfortunately venting in the tags doesnt seem to be helping so i guess ill quit that #jack jabbers #adhd #vent post

[aleksa-sims]

Simselfstory

CW: Pregnancy, addiction

The one hour he gave me was over, but the doors were still open. Should I stay-… or should I go?

I tried to call N., he didn't answer.... Shit, N.! Don't you care about me???... But why do I even wonder? I knew why he ignored me. We agreed on this! And well, that's N.! That's how he is. No matter what happens, he never deviates from the course. So even if I call him 100 times, he won’t pick up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😩

Before I go back to the current events, I quickly explain what Nico and I have discussed.

N. knew, as long as I haven’t cleared everything up with Daniel, D. would haunt my mind forever. So he wanted me to go to him and talk to him. And Nico and I weren’t together at the time, so he told me to do what I want with Daniel! 7 days, he said. After that, he wants an answer from me! No sooner or later! After my time with D.'s over, he'll talk to me! I didn’t agree with the 7 days, I thought I could settle this matter with Daniel within 24 hours. But well, Daniel’s answers to my questions have changed everything. So decided to stay! 7 days!

As you can see above, I just did my laundry. I had no comfy underwear here in Daniel’s and my apartment. While I was busy filling our washer, I noticed Daniel’s pills on the counter next to his things. At the same time, it rang at our door, but I didn’t care...

Shit, that’s the good stuff! The pills I was hooked on in the past... I’d love to get high. Right now, more than ever....

What the fuck did I do!???????? 😨 I’m pregnant, damn it!! What's wrong with me?.... 🤮🤮 Agh, I was damn lucky. I didn’t swallow the pill, I just had it in my mouth and I spit it out. 

Meanwhile, I heard Daniel talking to someone on our doorstep.

Daniel: I’m not interested in this job. Sorry, you got me wrong. But be honest, is that really why you came by, to offer me a job? Or is this about Alex?

Girl: No, I’m here for you. Besides, I know Alex doesn’t live here and I don't care tbh. The other day we were here, he told me.

Daniel: It’s none of my business anyway. However, I don’t need any help or a job. You're wasting your time. I'm pretty busy rn so...

How could I have done that? How could I forget I was pregnant?...... I was still standing in our tiny......... toilet-room (?). The window was open. I could hear Daniel & that girl talking about a job. Does he know I’m eavesdropping on them? Is that why he’s in such a hurry to get rid of her?... Agh, I'm such a mess.🤦‍♀️ Why am I even thinking about that girl? I want to get a divorce!! I should rather think about what I just did!!! I’m not even 24 hours here and all I care & think about is that damn drug and............ Daniel. 😖 

Daniel (to me): You know what’s about to happen. Last chance! If you don’t go, you’ll be locked up here with me tonight.

Girl: Um, I better get going. See you. 😬

Me: I just wanted to go over, to the bathroom. Who-... was that? 😳

Daniel: Weren’t you going to the bathroom? 🤨

Me: What- 😶‍🌫️😳

Daniel: Coincidentally, I want to take a shower, now! 🤷‍♂️ But we can do it together, I don’t mind.

Daniel: Come closer..... It’s been a long time.

Me: You're playing me. 😳😔

Daniel: Why do you think so? You want me too, that's why you stayed. I mean, you literally lured me into the bathroom. And you look hot, you got me horny. 😏

Me: No, I wasn’t trying to seduce you. I only wear... this, bcs I have nothing else here.

Daniel: I don’t care! We’re married and I wanna fuck you, babe.

Me: Btw, when did you get the divorce papers? 🤨

Daniel: Um..... 5 weeks ago?

Me: Exactly!.... What were you waiting for, Daniel? Why didn’t you call me, once you got better? Admit it, you’ve been thinking about breaking up with me, too. Alex told you what I said to him. And that girl earlier... Idk who she is, but I have heard it all! She's been here once.

Daniel: Yes! I was thinking about signing your fucking divorce petition. I was mad at you! Anyway, go up and wait for me. There’s still a lot we need to clear up. But this here, we'll definitely keep up tonight.

Me: Well, let's see.

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#ts4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #rl story #cw addiction #myrlgameplay #cw pregnancy

[wannab-urs]

8, 23, 25

8. Specific Scene that has stuck with you

There are a few. First of all from your fic A Fond Farewell, the scene where she overdoses and just the whole way it's described AGH I think about it often. There's a moment in Gin's (@atinylittlepain) fic June where Joel is in the hospital or whatever it is and June is mad and I think about that scene all the time bc I think it's a pivotal moment for her. There's more, of course, but I'll cut myself off.

23. An unfinished/updating fic that is totally worth the wait

oh boy okay. @oonajaeadira's Losing My Religion, @whatsnewalycat's Psychomanteum, @foli-vora's Run to You, @atinylittlepain's Deliver Me From Nowhere, God I'm reading about 40 unfinished series rn I can't list them all but yeah.

25. A fun writer quirk you've noticed (Specific word(s) they repeat, detailed setting description, a lot of adjectives, trope they write really well, etc.)

How am I supposed to pick just a few of these. Ang, you write angst so well, it's like you have a direct line to breaking my heart. @toxicanonymity has some of my favorite darkfic ever. @beskarandblasters had a phase where she said "pitch a tent in his pants" a lot and I truly loved it, @idolatrybarbie has a habit of making beloved characters just a bit hateable and I love that. @theywhowriteandknowthings always has these insanely good series ideas that come from a random ass one shot. I really, seriously could say something about every single writer I read frequently.

Thanks for asking bb

Fanfic ask game

#ask games #i spent so long on this lmao

[b1mbodoll]

AAAAAAA OMG DO I HAVE A LONG ASS ASK FOR YOU. MY DATE/NOT DATE HAS JUST CONCLUDED....

So a little back story - I worked with this guy this past summer and like the first time we met I alr liked him. Like he was exactly my type. Like 100%. But I'm super shy (never dated anyone, never kissed anyone, never held hands with anyone) so I never really did anything obvious that I liked him bc I was nervous. We kind of flirted (maybe) a lot near the end of the summer. We texted a lot a lot but he ended up moving up to college for his apartment earlier than expected so we never got to see eachother after our last days of work. There was lots of drama on my end surrounding that trust. Like mental anguish bc I fumbled the bag hard.

Anyways. We start school respectively (I go to school in NY and him in TX) and we don't talk that often, just snap like everyday. But as the semester goes on we reply to each other's stories and have short, friendly convos more frequently. Flashforward to like, a week ago or something. I reply to his insta story and we start talking. He finds out that I'm going home for Thanksgiving and he is to so he asks me to hang out. This is odd bc we weren't close enough as friends for me to think that he would ask to see me.

Anyways again, I'm skipping details bc otherwise I'll never finish this lmao - the date/not date was like everything else we do. Vaguely romantic but could also be friendly. He picked me, we ate dinner and then went ice skating together. He walked up to my door to get me, held open doors for me, and opened the car door to walk me back to my house after we got back. But like - no moves were made. No attempts to hold my hand or kiss me. AT ALL. But like he also complimented my butterfly hair lips like sir 😭😭 idk what you want from me.

But now I'm feeling kind of tired of 6-7 months of not knowing where we stand with eachother. So I texted him afterwards saying "Thank you so much for tonight, I loved seeing you again! Although, I did want to know if it was a date or if it really was intended as just a hangout, bc it did seem like it sometimes? Either way, I'd love to meet up with you again if we're both in town!" He then liked bith of the thank you messages and replied, we definitely should. But then he replied to the daye/not date ask with - I don't know. I'll have to think about it. He then said something about it being more than he anticipated but still good, so idk if that means that it wasn't intended as a date but became one and he enjoyed it or if he meant it as a date but I fumbled the bag (I give just as many mixed signals bc I'm an anxious coward lmao) but it still ended up okay.

HOWEVER, I AM A GENIUS, LIKE RIZZ MASTER 1000. I accidentally left something in his car so tmmr morning he's gonna drive back to drop it off (It's like an hour round trip for him). And tomorrow is the day I will stop being a bitch. I'm gonna tell him that I'm interested but that I also do genuinely enjoy him as a person so like, however he intends to meet up with ne in the future I'll be okay with that.

So yeah. Story time over 🫶🫶🫶🫶 Sorry that it's actually so long but I remember how excited you were so I wanted to let you know how it went 💗💗💗💗

IM ON MY KNEES RN STOP u r so cute and agh!!!!!! i will be needing an update with whatever happens pretty please, honey 🤲

im so ☹️☹️☹️ u guys went ice skating ☹️ that’s so so so so fucking cute!!!!!! that actually is so cute my heart cant take it ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১ but no moves being mad.. 🤬 yeah i need to have a stern talking to with this man!!! what r ur intentions with my little angel, you HEATHEN!!! hehe no but srsly dont be anxious sweetheart! i know its hard n way easier said than done, but you seem so wonderful and im sure he thinks that as well! im so glad you had a good time <3

rizz master 1000 has me crying omg ur too silly 😭 but him driving AN HOUR TO GIVE U UR THINGS STOP IT my little heart is so warm :( im proud of u for messaging him and asking for clarification about what the lil hangout was! n pls u r anything BUT a bitch!!!!! ur perfect and i hope things work out well with him!

dont apologize for he length! i love anything romance so inwas looking forward to this update!!!! wishing u the best of luck with him <3 mwah

#♡.signed. sealed. delivered. #♡.sweethearts #fullsun9890

[harmonictechnicality]

HARMONY! HARMONY!!!! I ran out of tags trying to describe how much I loved this last update to Memory Logs I am having an out of body experience rn I didn’t even get to describe my favorite part!! THE WAY!!! YOU DESCRIBE THE FEELING OF BRAND NEW FINALLY REALIZED AND REQUITED LOVE!!!!! AAAAAAA literally how do you see and write on the human experience so clearly, you are some kind of wizard, *you’ve got mail voice* ms. 152 insights into my soul… “you thought I was mocking you??” vs actually teasing him about the !!!below deck!!! club (which lmao the existence of) but Steve just being so hyped that Eddie’s into him that it all comes out in this wash of bubbly feelings (“dear god stop this madness”), and “wants to stock up on chapstick and water so they can make out all night” OK SO I SWOONED, SHOW ME SOMEONE WHO WOULDNT, Steve giVeS EDdIE hiS RIIINNNNGGGG, “IT WOULD BE A PLEASURE TO RESTART WITH YOU”, the FOREHEAD KISS!!!! I don’t know how you do this, but if I ever lost my memory, rereading all of your fics again for the first time would be such a pleasure. Rereading them after a week is a pleasure. Rereading them right after finishing reading to note down every favorite line is a pleasure!! You get my drift haha… anyway thank you for being such a queen and sharing your incredible writing with us for free. I am wishing you many dark chocolate pudding cups, and much fan art to delight you, and a very generous rest for your wrists on the other side of all this typing, and a very marvelous week 💕💕

OMG your tags were giving my LIFEEE how rude that they would ever cut you off like that! I need to speak to the internet manager asap!! 😂😂

HAHA the wizard line is *extra* perfect because Steve would *also* blame such sorcery on a wizard (he definitely called Vecna a wizard that is obsessed with clocks and I will never let that go lol).

There hassss to be unreleased footage in the ST vault of all the divorced moms and Eddie just waiting for Steve to turn around and scoop in the back ice cream counters, like PLEASE tell me the footage exists and I didn't just make it up 😭

AGH the ring and forehead kiss goodbye are maybe my favorite parts ❣️❣️ like Steve knows there's nothing else he can do but give a little piece of himself and then hope that there's magic-memory powers in his expert kissing abilities - it's very naive and endearing and heartbreaking all at once and I just want to give him the biggest hug for trying so hard.

Sweet deerling, that is SO incredibly kind omgggg my tender heart cannot take such kindness!! If someone ever made fan art for this I would *weep,* even if they just thought about it, I'd still be teary! I don't have dark chocolate pudding but I dooooo have dark chocolate raisins, which is definitely a win. I'm sending you all the good vibes for the rest of the week/weekend ✨✨ Thank you so much for always being so supportive of the little stories I write.

Have a spectacular day!! Watch all the Meg Ryan films your heart desires!! ❤️🥰❤️

#harmony asks 🪄

[aphemorpha]

im off my meds rn so im gonna be incoherent but the entire dash is talking abt religion and i have no self control so im gonna clown on myself real quick

i always find it so funny when religious people just kinda ignore historical frameworks for their religion. feel free to whack me if im being accidentally antisemitic but from what i recall the original framing of "there shall be no god above me" was in the working of patron deities and foreign influence. it was less about "hur hur i am the one true god" and more "fuck them other dudes we gotta have a united front and stick together"

anyway this is me dissing on christianity for completely ignoring the context of the old testament (bc idk the singular word for it and iirc the torah is a collection including the old testament plus some fuckin law books) and using it however they want. AGH sorry its just the misuse of it makes me so mad for no reason. "jesus suffered for our sins" yeah fuck all those other people who got crucified ig. anyways im not even gonna bring up my hatred of jesus the actual dude (who i will presume to of been an actual person even though i dont remember if there was anything written abt him during the time he was alive. wasnt paul like, senile by the time it got written? idk dude)

i said religions bc christianity isnt the only culprit but they are the ones i know most abt and also the most acceptable target bc if i start shittalking the other religions i side eye passive aggressively some internet white knight is going to call me a racist creep even though im pretty sure i have valid reasons to have some negative feelings towards them

#though the main one i mildly dislike isnt even an actual religion lol (though im p sure under western standards it is) #real shit

[inner-community]

i feel like... i have been dissociating so much more recently x_x which sucks because i was doing really really good - feeling like even without my meds and stopping therapy and doing more of my self-motivated work (art) i was doing really good and staying present...

i think it might in part be that we're still trying to get balance in zone out/fun/games mode when we're home but i am really feeling like it's just coming from avoidance (really stressed about multiple things that will require Many Steps to start. ik i should write down the steps but rn just having to DO multiple steps on smth feels impossible. and money is so sosososososososo stressful. i hate you tax season i hope all taxes are cancelled forever x_x i think the self employment tax should only kick in if you're making like. over 20k. haha.)

but yeah i really WANT to be doing aspirational things, i am doing better getting art done again after a while of not being able to do any... i just i just feel responsible for too much. and it seems unfair to make my wife take on more but i think that would be the best thing. im just stressed.

and i hate hate hate hate that i have to work on driving again because i have to - call the place i need to take my test at. study for and then do that test. talk to the dmv about my permit being suspended for my medicines i don't take anymore (they were making me get papers signed by my psych to say i can drive on them). THEN i can finally do the real driving class to get my license. i fucking wish i could scream and kick and throw a fit at the first lady who i did a driving test at the dmv with she was so mean. she claimed i was speeding when i was WATCHING MY SPEEDOMETER SAY I WAS GOING UNDER THE LIMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i just want to be able to drive so we can do all 100000 things that i specifically need to be able to drive for. (like my wife cant get a job if i cant drive her there. we cant move if i cant drive us and our things. i cant go to school this summer if i cant drive. it is fucking killing me and driving me MAD. its so much pressure that i think it makes me want to do nothing at all. because it feels like theres no tangible way to do all these things. AGH)

so i guess i just need to call the fucking place while im walking to work today. because also i feel so sososososososososo embarrassed talking on the phone at home. i dont want to be heard.

#basically can someone give me $4k and a month off please. im weak.

[albedobeheading]

I’ve done a good amount of work today and still gotta do some more but I’m not mad about it. I think I’m gonna go get a few groceries when my hair dries a bit and then my bf and I will have a nice night in :)

negative things are my skin is breaking out weirdly on my chest (I know it’s from a lactic acid lotion I have that might be expired by now or just bc I left it on without showering for like a day) I also am still dealing with annoying ingrown hairs but I’m more mad about the discoloration that it leaves behind??? My skin is super sensitive to that so usually if I get a pimple or something that is slightly deeper than surface level it will leave a mark for months

I’ve been thinking for a while abt getting a chemical peel or buying a kit to do it myself but I’m scared of spending that much money on one and needing to come back again OR fucking myself up with too high concentration of a solution

Agh. Everything is fine it’s just all kinda yucky rn

#dishes are unwashed skin is fucked up work isn’t done #but I did do most of the dishes before and now I’m clean from a shower and I did do work earlier!!!

[hanmasmommy]

rough sex with hanma and some fluff at the end😖💘

❦︎ - uhm excuse me? did you read my fucking mind? i've been thinking about rough sex with some bitch but idk who so ig i'll go with hanma💀and so sorry it took me decades to write this i actually finished writing it last month but i forgot to post it LMAO

cw - sub!hanma, dom!reader, pegging, orgasm denial, ooc hanma(lmao),really short cuz im dumb

your hips has been going non-stop fucking your boyfriend's ass. you see, this was supposed to be a punishment. because your dumb boyfriend was 'pranking' you by flirting with some bitches when you both are at the pub earlier. this is hanma shuji we're talking about here. ofc he's enjoying the 'punishment' you're giving him as of right now. "agh- good! 's good! more! fuck me more-" even though you're fucking him from behind, you can still see that satisfied grin he always have on his face.

landing a harsh slap on his ass repeatedly. hanma's moans just got louder and louder. your neighbors probably already heard your boyfriend's moans considering how loud he is. the punishment you're giving him rn is no longer a punishment because he keep asking for more. pushing his head on the mattress, you switch on the vibrator that was attached to his leaking cock to the maximum level. the tip of your strap hitting his prostate so hard he start seeing white. "cum-cumming! gonna cum- augh!" hands gripping the sheets tightly it almost got ripped.

you grab his cock on the base preventing him from cumming. and you continue thrusting your cock in and out of his sopping hole. "hey- y/n... let me cum!" ignoring his pleas, you thrust your cock deeper he can feel the bulge on his stomach now. "y/n- why are- AGH! you so qu-quiet? eek! ahm! say-say something!" trying to look back, his head got pressed even more onto the pillow. he hates this. no matter how much you get mad at him, you always talk to him. but not any sound coming from you somehow makes him anxious.

"yellow.." he mumbles slowly though you heard it and immediately let go of his head. pulling out, you turn hanma on his back. you can see tears pooling in his eyes. "i'm sorry hun... am i too hard? you ask while caressing his flushed face. "no... just talk to me! i'm sorry! i won't do that again!" he's looking at you with wide eyes, begging for forgiveness. you lean down and leave a kiss on his wet lips. "alright. don't do that again okay?"

"i promise! please don't ignore me.." hanma shuji hates when you ignore him. after all he got ghost by his bestfriend (literally). after a while, you continue thrusting back into your boyfriend's hole as you keep telling him how much you love his stupid ass.

now both of you are lying down facing each other while you push his hair out of his face. who would've thought that 'hanma shuji' would cry for his lover. "...ve you" he said. "what did you say?" you ask making him move closer to your chest. "i said i love you, stupid" and you couldnt missed how red his face while saying that.

"i know. and i love you too shuji"

he definitely love this affection it you're giving. it's warm and it feels like home<3

#❦︎ zay's asks #mann im too dumb to do this shit #sub tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers smut #tokyo revengers x reader #hanma shuji smut #hanma smut #hanma x reader #hanma x y/n #sub hanma #dom!reader

[that-one-queer-poc]

Yes, special snowflake, this is completely /srs.

agh ok here i go <333 also i dont want you to feel any pressure in trying to help me solve these problems, even just an ‘ok’ is entirely welcome after just to show you were listening (just clarifying bc ik i would be trying to fix the venter’s problems asdjhkdf)

so mostly my problems are coming from my dad and the music i listen to, like the songs slap and i like them but they make me think about issues that i dont have or dont have to deal with just yet so im just giving myself extra stress

also my dad is just terrible like he

doesnt care about other ppl

gaslights

refuses to change anything about himself but expects everyone else to change for him

thinks that he knows everything and tries to offer advice where its not needed

just a superiority complex in general

my mom is better but even she has her issues

and also im kinda pissed at majorities for no reason rn lol, as someone who just has to deal with the cards ive been dealt (mixed poc, queer, trans, nd, afab, etc) im just mad at the queer community rn and how generalized and super white it is. like what happened to all those black trans women who threw the first bricks at stonewall. where are all the latine enbies. why am i only seeing rupaul and black twinks who act like him. i thought we were supposed to be diverse but whatever lol

and then theres my sister who up until now, i believed had my back no matter what, but then when i tried to tell her i was trans, she just shot me down as if nothing she had said before about being there for me ever happened. i trusted her so much, she was my rock, i could come to her about anything, but like not anymore ig

also im failing 3 classes, which has never happened before, i have like a 30-something in one and i can bring the others up kinda quick but that grade might be the one that sends me to summer school or grade repetition, bc my mental health is so bad but therapy only happens once a month (luckily its soon but still) and my parents refuse to listen to me at all when i tell them about my likely adhd and my burnout and my insomnia and then wonder why im doing so bad and becoming a recluse

plus also i keep looking at myself in the mirror and every time i do i look different. and also none of them quite match how i feel on the inside. like someone this mentally fucked up shouldnt look like this, idk? but like yeah if you read this then im sorry <3

#kae is kool 😎 #kae's asks #conservative tsundere anon #kae aint kool wtf #jfc kae chill #pls dont rb unless youre like having a conversation or talking to me thats ok #but like if youre just rbing without adding anything pls dont

[aleksa-sims]

RL Story

My date with N. was....... great. 🤷‍♀️After what happened the last weeks and we didn’t see each other for that long, things went surprisingly well. But I must also admit that we did not talk about my short return to Daniel. Nico asked me, not to talk about the past weeks. He said, we weren’t together. Now that we got the chance to stay together for more months without him having to go back abroad, we should just start from scratch. I honestly thought that was a little strange. I wanted to explain to him, why I stayed with Daniel, but N. was against it. So I decided to listen to him, as long as we’re together.

N. also finally told his family about our Baby. His Mom wanted to see me, tomorrow.😳🙈 He asked me, if I wanted to spend the night with him, in his mother’s house. There’s no one there today. I agreed, but why didn’t he just invite me to his apartment?

Nico: I have to go to the house anyway. My dog is there, and if you accompany me, we’ll stay right there. We're alone.

Me: Okay. And your Mom’s coming home tomorrow? Where is she? And what exactly did you tell her?

Nico: Well, she'll be grama. 😬 And she’s with her partner tonight.

Me: Was she mad?

Nico: Ahm.... no. Rather surprised. She's in her mid forties. She feels too young for a grandchild.

Me: She’s 46! It’s much more embarrassing for my parents!! They’re only 41! 🤷‍♀️

Nico: Yea, but I didn’t tell her... you, were pregnant. She first thought.... Stephanie & I would have a Baby. But I told her it's NOT Steph!! She was relieved, but I didn’t tell her it was you, I wanted to surprise her.

Me: What??... Are you crazy N.?... Agh, why am I even asking. Of course you're crazy.

Nico: Don't worry, it'll be fine. It's just my mother! She always loved you.

Me: Yeah, that was before..... Philip & I got together. And please don’t tell her I’m still married, okay?

Nico: No one in my family needs to know. I leave it up to you.

Me: Maybe someday I’ll tell your Mom, but rn I don’t want anyone to know. Especially your sister must not find out about it.

Nico: Agh, screw Mel, she can’t say a bad word to you! Trust me, I won’t let that happen.

Me: I’m really scared of Melanie. I know that sounds stupid, but I can’t forget how mean she used to be.

Nico: You don’t have to see Melanie or talk to her. I’m not leaving you alone with her. First, she’ll have to apologize to you. Or she’ll never meet our Baby, I promise.

Me: Thank you..... ILY, N. Oh, and what about your Dad? I guess he doesn’t know yet, because you’re still not talking to him.

Nico: Yea. I don’t care what he thinks or what he has to say. I don’t give a shit. 🤷‍♀️... And no matter what he offers you, or our child, you say no! Clear?

Me: Yes! I understand! Your Dad’s still a red rag to us. 😬😕

Once arrived at N.'s House, we saw Fabienne, Philip's baby sister. 🙂

She was so excited to see Nico and me again. She started talking about Annabelle. P.'s little babygirl was visiting Fabienne. So Fabs invited N. and me to come by later.

How it went on with Fabienne and N.'s family for me, you'll see next time. My parents'll also join us.😬 Ahg yea, what a nice family reunion.😨

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[toddykun]

Complete Set of 110 Reasons To Live Special Edition With Extra But Not Enough Gay RightsTM And Extra LongTM Too Because The Three Caballeros Deserve It:

THAT MUSIC AT THE START!

Donald’s ‘Party Fowl’ waist bag

Webby’s excited rambling!

All the lady birds in that town were ridiculously pretty?? (makes sense since the giant carnivorous flower wanted to lure people to eat them so A+)

Dewey documenting his adventures with the help of his lil bro. BondingTM

“OH BOY! I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE MY PALS!”

Huey, my boy, asking the real questions

“Please, not everything has to be a dark family secret!” *Donald proceeds to say he has a dark family secret* Huey: :D Louie: >:(

DONALD’S FOND SMILE WHEN HE WAS THINKING ABOUT JOSÉ AND PANCHITO BEFORE TELLING THE BOYS HE WAS IN THE THREE CABALLEROS!!!!

‘Kids Confused At Adult Reminiscing About Their Cool Past That They Know Nothing About’ trope

DONALD’S ‘FUCKING EXCUSE ME?’ FACE WHEN SCROOGE STARTED BADMOUTHING THE THREE CABALLEROS!

college band!

They played in Scrooge’s garage, fucking with Scrooge’s sleep, something with what I agree wholeheartedly since he fucks with other ppl’s sleep with his bagpipes lmao can he get more scottish? probably

Donald canonically plays the double bass and the accordion!!! (he also plays the guitar, the piano, the flute, etc, in comics and other animated media. Musical GeniusTM)

Huey and Louie’faces when they discover their uncle plays the accordion lmao

“I was so awesome...” with such a nostalgic feeling, baby, you still are! appreciate yourself, we love you!

Donald applying sunscreen on himself? Pure.

“Agh! You’re fine as is! A family man, a boat owner!”

JOSÉ JUMPING OUT OF A PLANE AND PLAYING HIS UMBRELLA!!!

HIS!!!!UMBRELLA!!!!HIS!!!!MAGIC!!!!!HIS SMOOTH ENTRANCE!!!!

*mysterious guitar starts playing*

PANCHITO APPEARING FROM THE SHADOWS AND MAKING A DRAMATIC, ROMANTIC AND TELENOVELESQUE ENTRANCE?? HOW MUCH TIME HE NEEDED TO WAIT THERE TO DO THAT?? ADORKABLE

That little blink in Panchito’s eye lmao Anime Rival ComingTM

those little gay fireworks when josé and panchito got together!

those little ‘ajá!’s from both of them!

DONALD’S FACE AGAIN!!! HE’S SO HAPPY!!!!

“DONAL’!!!!!!!!!!”

José and Donald’s weird hopping hug? lovely

Panchito clapping while they’re at it lmao

José tossing Donald to Panchito

Three Way Handshake!

“SQUAWK, CROW, QUACK! I’VE GOT YOUR BACK!” 

that little tail shake the caballeros do in their secret handshake

“SECRET HANDSHAKE! COOL!” *louie proceeds to lick his big bro’s hand whe he tries to do the handshake like the lil bro he is*

panchito’s super excited handshakes that leave people jumping

“JAJÁ, ¡SALUDOS, AMIGOS!” 

“OS PATINHOS!”

José and Panchito seeing the triplets as eggs

HAPPY DONALD DUCK

Donald juggled the eggs...

that creepy but nice guacamaya in the background

..DONALD JUGGLED THE EGGS AND HE DROPPED ONE!!! 

And that’s how Donald went from Cool UncleTM to Overprotective Best DadTM lmao

big bro and lil bro agreement that middle bro was the one dropped lmao

José’s smooth moves while he’s talking wiTH HIS UMBRELLA

Panchito throwing his phone and doing a hip move to put it again in the holster

“YOUR UNCLE WAS THE COOL ONE!!!!”

Donald’s blushing and his nervous smile

José and Panchito expecting that the Cool OneTM of the three caballeros is the Most Successful and ImpressiveTM of the three, like that’s how it's supposed to be lmao These BiconsTM

PANCHITO’S FACE AT THAT MOMENT!

Huey being actually helpful with Donald’s anxiety attack

Scrooge saying one of his I’m Genuinely Trying To Be Helpful In My Own Unique Way That Ends Hurting More Than HelpingTM and Donald like ‘nah, cant deal with your bullshit rn’ face

“Uncle Donald, you’re very successful! You raise three boys and are rich in love! Isn’t that the true measure of success?” U TELL THEM, HUEY

“Lie? Perfect!” nod to one of donald’s flaws that we have actually seen in other media, he can be really mischievous and conniving when he wants to, be it for a good reason or not.

Yet again, we have confirmation that ‘the smarter than the smarties’ is actually incredibly easy to manipulate with his ego and cheapness by the Duck Family but also THIS IS ACTUALLY A GOOD NOD ABOUT THE GLOMGOLD’S BET SINCE THIS TIME SCROOGE HAS AN ACTUAL REASON TO NOT LOSE ANY MONEY

Huey hugging Donald and Donald’s little thumb up? blessed

José and Panchito laughing with each other? bLeSsEd

THE WHOLE ‘SCROOGE IS OLD’ SCENE

Team UncleTM everyone, these idiots are two of the smartest ducks in the world, yes, even if u don’t believe it

José’s admiration for Donald! hello? beautiful

Webby and Huey and Portuguese? BLESSED

JOSÉ SAYING “OH, YOU HAVE TO TRY IT” VERY SOFTLY AND SMOOTH WHILE TOUCHING DONALD’S HAND

THESE TWO EXPECT SO MUCH FROM DONALD BECAUSE HE WAS THE BEST OF THE THREE IN THEIR EYES. I. AM. DYING.

DONALD REALLY WANTS TO MEET HIS EXPECTATIONS AND IMPRESS THEM

PASTELES!

*battle of whistling inconspicuously appears* “OK, WE CAN’T ALL DO THIS!”

PANCHITO AND JOSÉ ACTUALLY BLOWING THEIR COVER TO THE AUDIENCE WITH ALL THE WHISTLING LMAO

*hand battle with Team Uncle appears* “EXCUSE ME”

*donald hits huey by accident while trying to get the wallet* *Huey helps him anyways and even bites Scrooge* Well, now I know who is his favorite uncle

WEBBY EXCITED!

THE THREE CABALLEROS’S THEME PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND WHILE THEY REMINISCED THEIR BAND DAYS

EVERY TIME THEY REENACTED PART OF THE SONG’S CHOREOGRAPHY FROM THE MOVIE

THEY!!!!!MADE!!!MUSIC!!!AND!!!DANCED!!!!OUT!!!OF!!!NOWHERE!!!AND!!!STARTED!!!TO!!!BE!!!THEIR!!!OLDSELVES!!!!!AGAIN!!!!

PANCHITO CAN PLAY JOSÉ’S UMBRELLA (AND DONALD CAN TOO PROBABLY)

Panchito’s face when realized he hit Donald by accident and knowing he was going to get mad, only for José to happy him up with some dance. cuties

HIS HAT HAS BEEN AN ACCORDION ALL THIS TIME!?

“Look at how happy Uncle Donald is! You can‘t put a price on that smile!” This boy loves his uncle so much!!!

“It’s only for the weekend...” “YOU’RE GETTING THE BAND BACK TOGETHER?”

THEY HAD A WAGON!!!!!??? (or i misheard?)

Panchito twirling his phones like he would do with his guns lmao

Panchito and José’s always moving around together

Team Uncle’s Actually Fighting (and we’re reminded of the bet yet again)

“HEY, WHAT’S THE BIG IDEA?”

Huey, The Voice Of ReasonTM

“NO WAY, I NEED THIS!” mischievous and egoistic Donald making a comeback, like hello old flaws, let’s see how you shine here.

The fact that they actually addressed that Donald’s bad luck sometimes really comes from his actual bad traits is freaking great.

*sings badly* “Perfect!”

The reminder that even if Donald is a little stubborn and egotistical at times, his kids come first and he will give up his dreams for them. Duty comes first for him, always.

Donald’s actually The Voice of ReasonTM and the bravest between the Three Caballeros, now we know why he is The Cool OneTM of the three

SCROOGE ACTUALLY FUCKING UP HIS BACK LIKE THE OLD MAN HE ACTUALLY IS

Donald tells the truth, not only because he has to protect his family and his friends for being eaten by a giant carnivorous plant lmao but because his friends thought he didn’t love or need them anymore because he was “rich” now. Love and Protection are his main traits and he knows his friends thinking he isn't as cool as they thought and putting down all their dreams will worth it if it means protecting them.

José and Panchito, who always look up to Donald more than anyone and know that he’s the one that actually got the guts to tell the truth, end telling the truth too because Donald shows his good traits again.

AGAIN, THESE THREE ONLY WANTED TO IMPRESS EACH OTHER BECAUSE THEY ARE ONES OF THE MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN EACH OTHER’S LIFE AND PATHS AND BEING A FUCKED UP ADULT WHEN YOU WERE SURE THE COOLEST PEOPLE OF YOUR LIFE WERE COMPLETELY SUCCESSFUL IS ACTUALLY SCARY AF AND YOU WANTED THEM TO BE PROUD OF YOU AS MUCH AS YOU ARE OF THEM

Donald is the only that didn’t run or looked scared when he saw the flower, he seemed only surprised AND THEN HE SAW RED WHEN HE SAW HIS KIDS IN DANGER LIKE HELLO? DAD DUCK TO THE RESCUE!!!

These three smiles before fighting like they did in acapulco!!!

THE THREE CABALLEROS’S THEME SONG!!!! WITH THEY FIGHTING LIKE THE BADASSES THEY ARE!!!

are we really sure they were only a college band??? because they fought like....u know......like they were something more. They Could Have Done A Lot Of Things While Being A Band Too HMMMM

Donald having a good ass aim with his double bass

NO ONE CAN SIMPLY CARRY A DOUBLE BASS CUZ THAT SHIT IS HEAVY AS FUCK AND LIFT IT AND THEN USE IT AS A MACE LIKE IT IS NOTHING, BUT DONALD DID!!!! THE STRONGEST BOY!!!!

JOSÉ USING HIS UMBRELLA LIKE A SWORD!!!

“WHO SAY SO?” “WE SAY SO!”

‘Fighting Actually Cured The Old Man’s Back’ trope

DONALD’S SOLO!!!

“WE SAY ‘AY CARAMBA’!”

THEY DID THAT IN ACAPULCO TOO!!!!??? LIKE HELLO? BADASSES

The Pig Tourists clapping at them because they deserved that and more honestly

THEY BROUGHT A BURRO WITH THEM!!!

SCROOGE DESTROYING PANCHITO’S GUITAR LMAO

That “I’m so sorry” with the Old Man’s voice

The episode dealt in a subtle way with the actual ever-present fear of being an adult and the expectations from others that we have to carry, society expects everyone to be on equal ground to be a successful and settled down adult that can handle their responsibilities alone and not be a failure in the system, the fear of not being free anymore or the fear of not having the right to fuck up anymore, and the sadness and anxiety that comes when you can’t meet those expectations or can’t be the adult that you wanted to be, like woah, these guys are in their mid-thirties, scared and with minimum-wage jobs, that can’t barely handle their real lives but they still found the way to be happy around them, they just needed to be honest to those they love the most and accept life with their ups and downs. Talking About Getting RealTM AND HELLO? They only needed each other to be reminded that they are just normal adults even if they’re not successful and completely responsible and they sometimes fuck up in this uncertain life and that’s okay? and that they can actually still be fun-loving guys even if they’re adults now, like hello? great I gotta be honest when I saw the ep i didn’t like it but when i cooled down my head and saw it a second time to analyze and as An Adult In The MakingTM, It hit me hard the real fear these ppl were facing during the comedy and the lying, they loved each other and they only needed to be honest to understand that love isn’t conditioned by how successful you are. A+ ep, would watch it again.

#wow this took a while #ducktales #ducktales 2017 #the three caballeros #donald duck #panchito pistoles #jose carioca #toddy watches #toddy watches dt #dts2e4 #toddy was here #toddy thinks #fc #dt #dt analysis #dt ss #duckverse #ttc #ttc ss #ttc analysis #duckverse analysis #duckverse ss

[gcaitlin00]

VENT WARNING LMAO

so basically yesterday was a terrible day all that rain was wasted (yes i really like rain and cloudy whether which is like every 10 years) first off my school is an outdoor school so when it rained the whole middle school (we are a small school compared to others probably like 200 kids per grade but also have a relatively small cafeteria) into our cafeteria and when my friends got up to do sm i followed them and when we came back some kids moved our stuff all the way to the fucking left and guess what! my friends moved their stuff to the table in front of us but it didn’t have enough room for…. ME!! i panicked and i just gave my stuff to my friend and went into the bathroom and i forgot my phone so i just sat there like “is this where i am in life?” AHAHHAROEJ anyways then i went to tryout for my high schools dance class (u get put into either dance 1,2,3) BUT TURNS OUT THEY CHANGED THE FUCKING THING IN WHICH MY GUIDANCE COUNSELOR FORGOT TO FUCKING TELL ME sorry very mad rn lmao anyways that was fine until i left the office and ran into a bunch of people AND I w LOOKED SO WEIRD anyways i wish i could’ve seen more rain but i was stuck inside :(

but it’s just like i wish i asked them to move bc when i was panicking some girl just forced everyone to move but i just can’t do that i don’t even feel comfortable around my friends anymore bc during quarantine i grew very distant from them (i had to spend all last year online and in my house bc my mom and little sister are at risk) it’s just i csnt talk to them or like anyone except one friend it’s so fucking hard to hold a conversation bc we have no common interests and i feel like they think i’m to clingy lols ehahejdjd agh it’s like they made two mroe friends who are constantly around us which i’m fine with this just whenever i talk i feel like they judge me i just i can’t talk i sit there and stare at the ground or table i just i im trying i really am i jsut csnt it’s so hard idk what to talk about i csnt i can’t i can’t AGH SORRY LMAO

I AT LEAST HAVE ONE FRIEND WHO I CAN PLAY GENSHIN WITH AND WE WATCH THE SAME SHIT AND AND AND UGH

#tw vent #vent #sorry for this #dumping #~vent~

[smart-bebe]

why am i still making these

why do i still make these. not a single person reads them. no one. so why, why do i make these pointless little random things. if anyone at all reads this, it's bc it helps. it helps with anxiety and depression for me to be able to tell someone abt it. i know no one reads it, but i guess that's for the better. agh. so whenever i get mad or sad abt something particular, i just make a tumblr post. it's not bad for me is it? so, since it's not, i plan to keep doing it. idk. probably. hopefully. i might stop. i am definitely gonna stop this post soon. i'm sorry that i write so much, it's just that i could type for hours at a keyboard abt what i feel and how and why i don't get help and decide to push myself in farther deep into anxiety and depression. wow. it's like those two work hand in had. you might think they cancel each other out, but they only fede off of each other. they are really just close allys. helping each other. in destroying a person. silenctly silencing. the best victim is someone like me. not old enough to live alone. but their parents would get mad if they openly said they were depressed or that they have anxiety. they would just try to give their own help. or they would freak out. or tell me it's not real. i'm too young. too young to have lived through pain. too young to have real experiences. damn. if you're reading this rn, please comment down below "oof small depresso". it's not just to say hey look at how many comments i have, i just wanna know who actually reads these things. even further who reads their entirety.

[active-mind-15]

hi hi!! 14. Favorite sweet food? | 19. Princess, Fairy, Mermaid, or Unicorn? | 34. Favorite holiday? | 35. Favorite season? | 45. What’s your style? hehe!

Hi hi to you too! You’ve picked some interesting questions!

14- My favorite sweet food is sorbet because it is my LIFE. Mango and Raspberry are my all-time favorite sorbets, though. Just eating it makes me wanna get up and dance. 😋

19- Hmmm...this was a hard choice but I’m gonna go with unicorn because OH MY GOD WHO WOULDN’T WANT A UNICORN. I mean the only time I ever care about princesses are if they’re in a Disney movie and having a cute fairy would be super cute too but nah. Also a mermaid would be so awesome to have as a friend. But a unicorn tho... my dude... it’s gotta be a unicorn. We could go on adventures and stuff galloping across a sea of clouds. 🐎🌈

34- Well, as for my favorite holiday, I do love Christmas (because it means shopping and food my two favorite things HAHA) But one thing I do miss since I’m studying abroad rn is that I can’t experience American Halloween anymore. It used to be so hype when I was a kid. And then I grew up *sigh* damn you adulthood 

35- AGH HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CHOOSE. 

Well I mean I could rule out Autumn because even though I like the color aesthetic for the next two or so years I’m gonna be in the UK for Autumn and that means rain so hahaha no thanks. Winter is really only nice for Christmas and New Years but all the other days it’s just me bitterly staring out my window wrapped in a blanket burrito with my heating all the way up. Spring is nice in my neighborhood because the cherry blossoms bloom but it’s kinda chilly...

So with that, I conclude that it has to be summer. The weather’s better and I actually want to go outside for once. ☀😎👊

 And finally 45- I’m guessing style is about fashion soooo I’m most of the time wearing black jeans (because I rock them so good), and I like wearing graphic t-shirts but I don’t have as many as I would like because my sister gets mad when I buy too many but I do have a lot of hoodies and that I can get away with. I also have a lot of colorful patterned ankle socks which I wear (which my sister also gets mad about if I buy too many pairs) and as for shoes it’s usually something along the lines of high tops or lace-up boots.

But in summer I like wearing cute shorts (I also love anything elephant print tbh) and skirts, and I wear my blue jeans for a bit of color pop sometimes. And I wear summer dresses too. Also I wear open-toe shoes more often like gladiator sandals and the like (but gotta stay true to my adidas superstars and my yeezys tho) and I’m basically just more girly with my outfit choices in general. And yeah I think that’s about it.

Hahaha sorry for rambling but I hope you enjoy reading my answers!