#kae aint kool wtf

[that-one-queer-poc]

lol remember that time when me n my mom started talking abt gay ppl and she was like “i don’t support that lifestyle” and then i brought up my lesbian sister and told her not supporting it would be being a bad mother and her saying “idc i disowned her (confirming what my sister told me abt my mom before) i never said i would give unconditional love” and then i bring it up a couple weeks later and she flat out denies it ever happening. lmfao

#literally gaslighting me acting like i don’t remember you saying word for word how you never promised unconditional love #and i have TWO SOURCES that you disowned my sister for being a lesbian #so why are you lying to me #acting like i’m dumb #kae aint kool wtf #probably shouldn’t post this on main but oh fucking well i’m just mad rn

[neutral-pogasm]

im the mutual who always likes every post but never gets any likes back 😔

#this isnt rly a neutral-pogasm post #its a kae aint kool wtf post at worst #but im mitskiposting on main rn i dont wanna interrupt

[that-one-queer-poc]

my parents: there's no way you've ever had adhd you can sit still

me in the single-digits: *had rsd so bad that i cried in my room for hours because i felt so rejected and unloved whenever i wanted to show them something but they were too busy*

#kae aint kool wtf #i literally just remembered this #and when i think about that happening to little me or any little kid i get so heartbroken #no kid should ever have to deal with heartbreak that bad :( </3

[that-one-queer-poc]

the way my gifted kid impostor perfectionism makes me feel like shit when i do mundane things wrong or make mistakes that literally everyone makes. i messed up singing a song to myself and now i’m sad what

#gifted kid #that’s the blacklist tag if y’all don’t wanna see any posts about school n grades n stuff #kae aint kool wtf

[that-one-queer-poc]

quick question if i ask my dad to not touch me randomly (in non-questionable places like my knee or head or ear) is that selfish and annoying? and if he does it anyway and gets mad at my annoyance is that justified? am i being a brat

#kae aint kool wtf #kae’s dad ugh 🙄

[that-one-queer-poc]

ok im gonna take a break from this site. my mental health on top of my dad and the stress of school and paranoia is becoming too much. idk when i’ll be back... im sorry and i hope you’ll forgive me

#kae aint kool wtf #sorry for hiatusbaiting you </3

[that-one-queer-poc]

my mutuals: i have familial, religious, sexual, etc trauma and have multiple mental and personality disorders because of it

me: heehoo sometimes i overthink and fidget

#kae aint kool wtf #this is probably a gross oversimplification of existential ocd but #yeah

[that-one-queer-poc]

how do ie xplain to dad that my metnall exhaustioni is not controlable and its not thaat ididnt sleeplast night its thta i hae depression and then hwo do ioconvinec him that depsresion is real

#kae aint kool wtf

[that-one-queer-poc]

lol remember when you were little and you loved to draw but you didnt know how much you sucked at it so whenever you saw a blank, white, clean sheet of paper you got so excited like ‘omg so much space to draw!!! :O’ but now that you’ve quit art because you became Self Aware of your own suck level you still see blank papers and get excited and remember how much you loved art when you were little with nostalgia and a little bit of pain or is that just me

#kae aint kool wtf #kinda ig #not rly a vent post but like #still

[that-one-queer-poc]

i. i hate monoracials 😁😁😁‼️‼️‼️

#black ppl: *say this shit whenever mixed ppl say that they’re still black* #also black ppl: ‘oh well mixed ppl don’t consider themselves black so why should we’ #kae aint kool wtf #hate and misery

[that-one-queer-poc]

me: *cries when i feel unloved and ignored and rejected*

also me: *cries when i feel loved and paid attention to and accepted*

#kae aint kool wtf #when will it end

[that-one-queer-poc]

glad to see everyone’s blocked this tag fr

#kae aint kool wtf

[that-one-queer-poc]

hhaha  what if i juts,,,, deactivated and left forever lol

#kae aint kool wtf #omg shut up #dw im not gonna tumblr and u guys are all i have lol

[that-one-queer-poc]

send help im feeling insecure about my race as a 3-poc mixed light skinned person again

#kae aint kool wtf #im 50% cape verdean 25% puerto rican and something percent native american #my grandma was like regular black but also native #my mom is native and puerto rican cuz my grandpa was from there #my dads grandparents were from cv so he's full cv #my mom and i are really lightskinned tho #and i dont ''''act black'''' #i dont use aave that much #i dont speak spanish #i dont know my tribe #i wasnt raised to be super knowledgeable about the cultures i come from #so whenever i see someone who is one of those ethnicities/races (theyre usually 100% that too) i feel like a stupid faker #plus im lightskinned #so even though i call myself black i feel like im not allowed to #bc technically i benefit from colorism #but ive been alienated by my own family for being light skin #which ik is stupid in comparison #but still #i feel so alienated from poc #i hate this i just wanna have one part of my identity that i feel is absolutely true and im secure in #just one #wtf

[that-one-queer-poc]

why am i actually the ugliest bitch ever i hate myself

#kae aint kool wtf #what am ii even doing #i wanna be held so fucigni bad i hate everythign #why cant i do anything #im beign a dramatic little whiny fucker agains rory #ill shut up now <3 dw

[that-one-queer-poc]

my dad really just went ‘youve been spending less time with me and im feeling really rejected and idk why’ well the fact that you dont know why, that you cant see the pattern in the things you do and me spending less time around you is the problem 

#kae aint kool wtf #kae's dad ugh 🙄