#-even though they aren’t real

[loveaetingkids]

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#also read the “shit on her for no reason” as misogyny #it might come as a surprise but in order to write interesting female characters you gotta give them negative traits #ngl there are times when even writes do them dirty #but a)you can always write headcanons and “fix-it” fics.that’s what fandom is known for #and b)considering how some ignore the aspect of bad writing and continue blaming the woman characters- #-even though they aren’t real #-makes it seem like they just enjoy projecting their shit with no consequences #shower thoughts #meme #arcane #mel medarda #<= im not mildly interested but rather obsessed with her actually #but she still applies #gf mabel #tfp miko #avatar korra #atsv gwen #gwen stacy #spider gwen #ghost spider #idk i probably forgot some but oh well #mia winters

[goldensunset]

amazes me that people can remember information about routes in pokémon games. like ‘i loooove route 217 ❤️’ ‘route 209 has such a banger theme!!!’ ‘have you made it to route 225?’ ‘you can find this rare pokémon on route 210!’ bestie those are numbers. those are just numbers to me how do you remember which area is which. i think i have a general idea of most of them but i still have to look them up every time i need to refer to them in conversation

#of course i know some of them #but a lot of them are like uhhh #they do count up of course but it’s not like the map is a perfectly linear thing #how am i supposed to keep track of all those. please just name placed actual names #another reason i love pla the map locations are names and not numbers!!! goodness. #paldea is like. ok there are a total of four giant provinces simply and aptly named after the four cardinal directions #easy enough #however the sub-areas are once again. numbers. #and because once again a map is not a linear thing those numbers aren’t helpful #also the way they’re spread out makes no sense. the south province is huuuuge with six different areas #yeah uhh area six and area five are on opposite sides of the map!!! why. #i think they’re listed like that based on how early they expect you to get there #like you start in area one of course #you probably won’t get to area five right away even though you theoretically could fairly early. i believe #but you would have no real reason to bc there’s no main story beat over there it’s a very quiet area #area six is mostly alfornada and the cliffs surrounding it which you REALLY can’t get to until later #point being. i know there’s probably some sort of logic to this numbers thing. but it’s still a confusing system #pokémon

[bisamwilson]

why do none of the rebels characters or ahsoka have actual personalities anymore,,,,,

#ahsoka is witty!!! she’s a spit fire!!!! not just in clone wars but in rebels too!!!! #in this show she’s a stoic master jedi who makes like no jokes ever!!! who is that!!! #hera’s also a spitfire!!!! and so is sabine!!!! #also there’s no fuckin world where sabine doesn’t have the desert house she lives alone in booby trapped with explosives she controls #much less completely abandoning her armor #she’s a mandalorian!!!!!!!!!! there’s a whole bit in rebels about why her armor is so important to her!!!!! #none of them even really get mad at each other!!! just lightly snippy!!! even with all the supposed history they have!!!! #literally none of them feel like real people with real and big emotions even though we’ve seen them all have them and frequently #especially with something this important #they all feel sanitized and i hate it #stop making characters that were never Perfect Jedi (ahsoka and luke cough) into Perfect Stoic Jedi challenge #disney will always fail this apparently #anyways when will andor return from the war where we get characters who feel like they have real motivations that aren’t just the plot says #that i gotta care about this and do this right now this way #even the new nightsister is boring!!! where’s her flair!!!! why isn’t she terrifying!!!! #star wars #star wars critical #ahsoka critical

[monsterhugger]

sometimes I feel like non-Americans expect us to like. stage a military coup and enact an entirely new system of government

#like i truly wonder what some people expect us to do about. gestures vaguely at everything #and that’s honestly the only conclusion i can come to #yeah it would be awesome to have a president that’s not funding a genocide. it’s not going to happen though #short of said military coup #because the two-party system is a joke and the only real options are bad and slightly less bad #like. most of the laws in the US people here and internationally complain about? we don’t fucking vote on them!!! #we literally do not have a say in them!!! #personal responsibility is a fucking lie and if you believe the average American can change dogshit US policy #you have bought into US propaganda lmao #‘you can call your reps’ do you think they’re going to listen. be serious. #they still have private funding and a voter base of millions that aren’t calling them because they wouldn’t even think to #because they don’t know what’s going on because political awareness here is shit. or they don’t care

[introvertedkeni]

I finished LFLS!!!

I enjoyed it, but I do wish we would’ve gotten either a better tutorial or like that random NPC that shows up and explains things. I have questions that were left unanswered.

I also wish that we would’ve gotten like an entire episode after Myungha was deleted from the game and get to watch Yeowoon slowly figure things out.

#keni watches #love for love's sake #i was stressed #I’m happy that Myungha gets his happy ending #even though it wasn’t in the real world #life is hard and when you feel like you aren’t worthy of love it sucks

[luthienne]

no bc i was ready to comment on this too. the amount of redditors that believe sansa deserved how she was treated (abused) reeks of victim blaming and you cannot separate that from the very real culture of misogyny and victim blaming that go hand and hand. her passivity is what enables her to survive but nobody wants to think about that when arya is right there learning how to kill anyone who so much as looks at her wrong.

but, i mean, look at the way people treat women who come forward about abuse — and then are damned if they do fight back and damned if they don’t (why didn’t you protect yourself better, why didn’t you know better, why didn’t you stop this terrible thing from happening to you so we don’t have to look at you and how you survived it).

@when-did-this-become-difficult

#and even though it is mostly men. internalized misogyny is so real #but also it does come down to this perverted sense of justice that i think is especially instilled in young white men #she did this terrible thing that ended in her father being killed and her family being split apart so she deserves what happens to her #reductive but easier to swallow bc the alternative is truly tht nobody is wholly good & women aren’t inherently #pure & saints or violent & heroic. they exist outside of those dichotomies bc they are whole human beings

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Random ass alt au ideas I’ve had for a little while, but are probably not going to be made into fics right now-

-ghost shenanigans. Ruth, Adam, and Ms Torres trying to contact the living members of the BPS/Gabriel.

-Dave cares for alt Cesar after his alt transformation, and lets him stay at Mandela Tech for a while

-Seth gets possessed during an investigation-

-A group of curious (but stupid) teens decide to investigate the Heathcliff House. “hilarity” ensues.

-alt Thatcher kicks Alt Adams ass-

-Mark going around town. Visiting places he used to go to when he was alive.

#ramblings :) #tmc alternate au #I. come up with these ideas almost daily #but I’m just sharing a few for now #most of these aren’t canon events but HEY they’re fun to think about anyway #and even though I’m probably not gonna write about these I still want to share them #for real though I think the alt au is the most in depth. fun to work on au I’ve ever made. #not to mention the amount of interaction I’ve gotten with it. which is just. holy shit /pos #thanks for listening to my rambles :)

[havencrash]

I really have a lot of thoughts on why comparing Stolitz to Fizzozzie doesn’t work but I’m just quick venting.

They are two completely different “flavors” of ships. One is more cutesy and in an established relationship, the other is more complicated and only just now beginning to know each other as more than just fuck friends.

Stolitz isn’t for everyone and FizzOzzie is cute and I can’t wait to see how their story began, but I am more invested in seeing how Blitz and Stolas will develop as individuals and as a couple when they finally get there.

#idk #stolitz #but I agree the four of them can have swinger parties #but idk to say one is healthier is odd because… well a show about demons aside Stolas and blitz aren’t even officially yet #officially dating yet* #we know they CAN be soft and have a few moments though so we have glimpses into what they’d be like as a real couple

[no1ryomafan]

I’m saying this only out a vague of a irl even though I feel bad for this but someone please tell me there isn’t a collective of people who haven’t seen a lot of mecha yet played super robot wars and act like because they played that game they have authority to talk over mecha shows they know exist thanks to it despite still not watching them and ignoring the fact SRW butchers plot sometimes-

Because as much as I hate gatekeeping in mecha circles and hardly dabbled into SRW this basically happened to me irl with a person I already don’t like and I’m just like:

#meg text #super robot wars #ryoma nagare #There is nothing wrong with only caring about SRW for one unit because that’s fucking me lmao #Or also just knowing you won’t watch every show featured in the game because it simply doesn’t look interesting #but for the love of god please don’t act like playing this game means you know the show 1 to 1 bc SRW changes shit A LOT #Even putting aside this happening with getter I wouldn’t want someone to do this with a show I also don’t know #but I wont lie I am petty at this irl because getter IS what they know through SRW 💀 #me when I find a mecha fan on my campus but it’s a real robot fan: fuck me #doesn’t even seem engaged when I try to talk about it if they aren’t gonna watch this is so sad Alexa play No serenity #though I only felt inclined to make this post over mazinger funnily enough #Mfw bro brings up mazinkaiser being formed from SRW because I mentioned how weird SKL is even though mazinkaiser got it’s own anime #I need this person to leave my head because I just vague them these entire tags and I’m not gonna remove these LMAO

[im-still-watching-anime]

my dog has decided that this is how we should sleep tonight and ngl i love him but i have some critiques here

#he CORRALLED me #he’s Very old and everyone was worried he wouldn’t be as attached to me anymore since i was gone for so long #but i really cannot leave the room without him chasing after me #very slowly though because he’s old and his legs are short #im SO obsessed with him #oh plot twist i was typing tags and our cat came in #so now my legs are straight and she’s on my lap #and i am in a position that is Not ideal for sleeping #like 70% of this bed is not being used despite three creatures being on it smh #why are they like this #my dog best boy on earth for real though #can’t even complain that much because it’s my BOY and he still KNOWS me and he still LOVES me #i WILL cry if i think too much about it #at least my legs are straightened now so my knees aren’t completely locking up anymore ig #life junk #not anime

[sindumpster]

Accidentally logged into my old mistake blog and only notifs I had gotten in the past year were for that one post with almost 1K notes

And I remember absolutely hating it and now I have the reminder that I really don’t crave that kind of attention anymore

#there’s no real point to this just thoughts #I’m honestly happier sharing my work with a small group of friends and getting that validation #than managing accounts and worrying about putting stuff out in the wild #downside is it enables my hermit tendencies so I’m even less inclined to post #when I do have art #…not that I’ve had new art in MONTHS #(I say having opened an art show today with my stuff in the gallery) #(it’s just not the art you guys want) #something something notes and attention isn’t everything #there’s like a certain golden zone level of attention #below it you’re sad people aren’t noticing you #above it and you feel like shit and burnt out trying to appeal to everyone #I don’t give a fuck about feeding social media and esp algorithms anymore #Forreal though mental health improved when I stepped back more and found my group #getting too much attention when I was younger fucked me up #and I’m STILL working through the damage #which I know probs sounds like bullshit to people struggling for attention/recognition #but for me it’s true. maybe improves things for others #but for me it just enabled my worst tendencies that I even got praised for

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

so i had a couple ocs as a kid (made for a story that i never wrote a lot for) and i haven’t drawn any of them since i was like. 14. so it’s been a hot minute but anyway i realized the other day that out of the 5 main cast i have gotten 3 of their haircuts. i remember vaguely thinking that one character always seemed to have the haircut i wanted and i had that haircut for years but recently i got rid of that haircut and had another one’s haircut then i changed it a bit and dyed it and now i have another one’s. so i’m like man 12 year old me had great taste in haircuts. i should go down the list and do them all

#sometimes i think i should redraw the characters but then i’d want to redevelop their story bc it’s not to my taste atm and that’s a #lot of effort but i might do it anyway who knows #but i’d have to open my box that deals psychic damage (the sketchbooks in there are so soaked with alcohol that opening the box #makes me nauseous lmao) for refs. hmmmm. i dunno #the characters don’t really speak to me anymore their whole dynamics and designs aren’t to my taste i’d have to *really* re-do #everything but hm. maybe #though perhaps i should just start from scratch. i wouldn’t mind having ocs again. idk #also on unrelated news i have purchases 4lbs of baking soda to mix with my acrylic paints i want to see what kinda texture i can #get out of it because i! am! in! the! mood! to! paint! #but unforch i have to sleep? taking away my valuable painting time? ridiculous but i think i’m going to legit pass out at some point #i’ve been getting real tired of sleeping #well. i love sleeping but i feel like it’s wasting all my time because i always seem to sleep 10-16 hours a night which is ridiculous #that’s so much time i’m wasting i have shit to do man so i’ve been staying up 24-34ish hours once every week or so to make up for lost #time but still i feel like i am making this all worse because now i can’t even fall asleep + it’s been messing w my mood but i don’t #know how to fix it #anyway that was way off topic goodnight i think i’m going to bed now bye

[corset]

Yeah alright real

#My favorite part about being a system is that I literally don’t remember ever listening to some of the songs in my top songs playlist #Like I do remember listening to suicideboys a lot and that part isn’t surprising in general but apparently my top listening month for them #was in January and like. I flat out do not remember January through April #I remember December and May through now but January through April is gone #At this point I was apparently also listening to a ton of the Prodigy which I would not have even vaguely guessed to be in my top 5 artists #this year ? #I expected my genres to land about how they did and I expected the Voidz in my top 5 and in particular the song Alien Crimelord #Most of my songs aren’t even songs I listened to on repeat because I liked them but songs that skewed my results because I got really #obsessed with a 30 second portion of them and wanted to hear The Sounds over and over for stimming purposes #I used to fix this with private session but I didn’t touch it once this year so now there’s a bunch of random semi unexpected shit in my #playlist. Ah the Spotify #The majority I definitely just listening to over and over though like I cannot deny my love of semi cringy tiktok phonk rap. You guys go #got me there. I am a phonk enjoyer. Moondeity IS in my top 5 artists #listened* #Like I honestly expected I Monster to be in my top 5 and I also expected more songs by Air to be in the wrapped playlist but they weren’t at #all #One of my top 5 genres is gothic rock because I listened to a ton of it this year but there are like no songs from that genre in the wrapped #playlist #I somehow listened to Vivien by Crosses more than Pillars by Sunny Day Real Estate but if memory serves (which it admittedly often does Not) #that sounds Wrong???

[meowydoe]

”Heaven.. will Mommy be in heaven?”

(yeah, i think she will be)

“Then that’s where I’ll go”

#idk if this makes any sense #cuz. like. marcella didnt end up dying so they didn’t meet in heaven #though even if she did i dont think mommy would be there tbh #rag dolly #dollys lyric posting #<sure ill put that there #also ‘i dont dream i dread it’ sorta-kinda correlates back to ‘dreams aren’t real!’ - ‘thats what you think!’ #heavy on the sorta-kinda #it’s probably less cool now that ive explained it but whatever

[sleepdeprivationandcoffee]

It isn’t her fault, but I swear to God today was the worst day of therapy I’ve had since I started therapy ever

It’s not even her fault, she was doing what she was supposed to. I was dead ass just trying to talk about how I have been not doing great the past 2 to 3 weeks when she started providing resources that weren’t really currently relevant to what I was actually trying to talk about and she kept getting hung up on Old stuff** that had to be partially included for context so she would stop insisting that the issue must instead be X Y or Z.

Her inability to actually listen and absorb the info ended in me talking about traumatic ass shit right at the end and now I’m pissed off bc she wasn’t letting me talk about what was actually going on and that’s what I NEEDED to talk about. I didn’t need to talk about my ex’s, or how I’m dealing with trying to get child support, or how my mom let a pedo play cat and mouse with me for almost 7 fucking years. I literally have bigger things that are affecting me right now and I care about those more than this shit I’ve rehashed over and over again. I want to rehash it, but not right after you ask me how the past two weeks were and I’m actually trying to tell you about how hard they were

**I will give it to her that the old stuff was extremely traumatizing and definitely worth talking about but not at this moment like come on

#whoops it’s me #vent post #god like I’m actually kinda pissed at how dismissive she was and I can’t tell if it was actually her being like that #or if I was just getting frustrated and shutting down because I didn’t feel like she was listening #but like #for real I felt ignored even though I kept telling her that I’m trying to talk about the actual things currently bothering me #like #buddy my bipolar is being really awful and I really needed to talk about it but thanks for telling to to change all my contact info #like you genuinely aren’t helping by giving me a task list that won’t even fix what’s going on #me: hey like I’m depressed and struggling w/ irregular moods that are angry and I’m hurting my partner/friends/kid with lil angry outbursts #it’s not fair for them to feel anxious bc I’m in a bad mood and I really need help with it #but she was focused on my past abuse instead of my current and bigger issues and like I’m just really really upset

[eiledon]

God, maladaptive daydreaming really is a coping mechanism for being lonely. At least for me. I finally had a group of friends over for a party, once they all left, I assumed I’d daydream while I cleaned up. But then I realized I didn’t need to. For the first time in months, I got the social interaction I really desperately needed again.

#I’m kind of scared to lose my daydreaming though. #even though I know the characters in my daydreams aren’t real I love them all the same #so much so I’m writing or at least attempting to write a book about them all #i don’t want to lose them but I feel that if they were real they’d be happy that I was able to not need them as much #I’ll probably still have them on my death bed I don’t think I’ll ever completely escape lonelines #but it’s so nice to be able to have a night where I’m completely alone and not feel like I need to rely on them