#(i cant remember what i wrote earlier

[settecamara]

#god its the third time trying #i love them #and now just normal tags im TIRED #(i cant remember what i wrote earlier #serginho #sergio sette camara #formula e #fe season 2024 #dan ticktum #tokyo eprix 2024

[ellie-probably]

little note for one of my friends

one of my friends was questioning as aro-spec so i thought i would maybe give a few terms here

greyromantic/grayromantic - experiencing romantic attraction at a lesser frequency or intensity as the societal "normal" person. this happens to be me!!! it also doesnt exclude different attraction types

lithromantic - you like people... but you have absolutely no care for actually acting on those feelings or knowing someone likes you back.

frayromantic - you like people until you have a strong emotional bond with them, after which the attraction fades away.

quoioromantic - do i like this person?? is it a different type of attraction?? is romantic attraction even relevant to me????? who the fuck knows, cause thats what this term is all about!!!!! (op realizing this term may fit them somewhat)

aegoromantic - "romance seems cool i guess, i dont think it's for me tho haha, like its cool fantasizing about romance and thingies but like idk i would rather not do that irl" - someone, somewhere, explaining aegoromantic

i mentioned different attraction types in quoiromantic earlier, so heres a list of different attraction and relationship types

sexual attraction - needs no introduction, you just horny, moving on

sensual attraction - like physical but non-sexual desires, like hugs, hand holding, etc

alterous - my favorite!!! this type is basically indistinguishable between romantic and platonic attraction, im pretty sure i feel this a lot, either that or its queerplatonic. see op cant even distinguish them and they are the chronically online autistic who researches queer wiki pages in their free time lol

queerplatonic!!!!!! - my actual favorite move over alterous, this is basically the ultimate platonic relationship, most would probably see it as romantic relationship cause it sees a level of devotion and commitment not often seen in platonic relationships. if i may blatantly steal from the lgbtqia+ fandom, "deep mutual trust, emotional closeness, and loyalty" normally seen in romantic relationships are a defining factor of queerplatonic relationships. if you want a good example of one ive seen people say that frances and aled from radio silence (alice oseman, 2016) are a queerplatonic relationship, and one that i am VERY jealous of but ive already talked about that here.

remember, nobody expects you to figure this out immediately. i doubt even alloromantics get crushes every week to develop their understanding of their attraction (but im aro-spec so who knows), so i doubt you're gonna find a billion crushes to dissect your attraction with, it's probably gonna take a while, but hey, if we... (*remembers that making jokes about humanity killing themselves and their homeworld bring the mood down*) ...have a community, why not ask around?

if anybody has stuff to correct me on, or stuff that you want me to talk about too, please just reach out!!

and to that friend i wrote this for, a lot of this you've probably seen already, but i hope i could help a bit :3 - aidan/ellie

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#aromantic #arospec #aspec #lgbtq #attraction #lithromantic #greyromantic #aegoromantic #queerplatonic #frances and aled #questioning #did you know #you're reading the tags #wow

[ruikeremi]

"Ignored Blessing" (1/?)

since im bored ill put lore here :3 oh and the numbers are not errors i put it there on purpose, the story will be confusing but trust the process, i don't wanna reveal the true plot yet soooo i might double post

Harem x Reader

Warnings: Derealization

you always thought of yourself as an average person you don't know a lot of people you have a few friends and you have a job at a cafe shop you loved working there since the smell of coffee always relaxes you. You barely remember the events in your high school since it had been a long time since the last time you talked to any of your friends

You dont even remember if you even went to high school you barely remember your past too its like you just woke up and exist its strange all you remembered was a few friends from your childhood but you dont remember any person in your past that isnt related to them

You felt like you know nothing else in the past and only the present memories you have now

you woke up, what day was it? it was strange you were just dozing off and then you were back where you were, you shrug it off as just your imagination there was no way that was possible you thought it was just a dream you stood up from your bed getting ready for the day as you did you look down at your hands and squinting your eyes

am i real?

you start to look around you, you lived alone since you moved out of your parents house...parents? you don't remember their faces or names where was your home town? you don't remember...what was your favorite fruit? color? how old where you? you look down at your clothes, you wear the same clothes everyday but strangely enough you don't smell, did you even sleep last night? it feels like your repeating what you do everyday you just now noticed that, how come?

Nothing feels...real everything looked the same you wake up get ready for the day go to work and go home over and over again you were like programed to repeat the same things everyday when was the last time you didn't just go to work? you never remember having any fun it was like...you were a NPC

you look at your hands again your vision slowly getting blurry as you drag your legs to your room, you plop down your bed and close your eyes, you sigh your eyes slowly closing again as you slowly fall asleep you realized-

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looking at his paper, his room messy with papers around his room it was a messy scene as he sat on the floor staring at the blank paper thats writing on its own, he stared at the paper with shock the letter was writing on its own he shakily took the chair that he had threw earlier that was still in tact he stared at the paper

he blinked the character he wrote that he had already forgotten about was questioning its own existence it was a bizarre his gaze went from fear to interest. He slowly lift the paper stops writing on its own he blinked raising a brow, strange.

he put it back down and then its starts to write on its own again he instead starts to read what its doing, it was questioning its own life, he thought that he had threw away this one, it wasn't getting as popular as the other things he made so it was useless to keep it around any longer.

he picked up the paper once more and it stopped writing again. He carefully put it on his pocket and starts to clean up his room, after all he had more important things to write than focus on the one he threw away it was irrelevant now.

AAAAAAA i hope you guys liked it im not that good with writing and plots, this ones short so ill make the other part longer, i type slower at my computer soooo have a nice day/night

And for those whos waiting for the diamond reader x sagau it will come around soon please have patience with me T^T i get really random idea in my head so i cant really focus on one thing-

Edit: Reading this in my phone is actually very small, i have to make the part 2 longer

#yandere x reader #Dark romance #yandere themes #self aware reader

[venustothestars]

i love headcanons so much. so here are some more!! (angst edition:( )

after the inversion, angel struggles with sleeping. they gain insomnia because all they can see is david dead. ever time they fall asleep, they wake up thinking david won’t be there.

tank lost their shit when they found out what was going on. sweetheart had called them and they were with angel when the call came through. that was the first time angel had seen tank cry. they broke down in tears.

milo struggles with very bad self-image issues due to the pack constantly makes fun of his size and how small he is compared to sweetheart.

david has really really bad trust issues due to a past relationship. they are the alpha of another pack and david refuses to do business with them because of what they did. how they betrayed him.

freelancer struggles with getting out of bed in the mornings. the days that caelum or gavin aren’t around, they miss their classes because of it. they won’t get out unless someone urges them to.

gavin feels all of the D.A.M.N groups knots and he desperately wants to fix it but he doesn’t know how. he’s only an incubus.

sweetheart is blind in one eye due to the shade that attacked them when they teamed up with milo. their vision is so blurry (in the eye that can see) that they have super thick glasses. milo blames himself for not making it earlier.

in a fit of rage, when sam was first turned, he shaved his head and completely changed how he looked. if he was gonna have a “second chance” he was gonna make alexis despise him for giving him that option.

babe always tries to seem perfect around david. they want to be accepted by him, he’s their boyfriends alpha. they want him to like him. they tone down their personality so much it worries ash.

ash constantly dismisses pack problems to babe. it makes them feel insignificant. like the biggest part of ash’s life is something they aren’t involved it. it hurts them. (based off a fanfic i read, i cant remember the author:( )

huxley hates anything that isn’t land. flying? he hates it. boating? definitely not his favorite thing. skydiving? never ask him. he hates feeling out of his element (literally)

sometimes damien burns things when he feels very strongly and it upsets him. he once burnt a letter huxley wrote because it made him so happy.

freelancer still struggles with using the water element of their powers. it makes them feel like they will become kody. like they’ll hurt someone the way kody hurt them.

vincent hates that he turned lovely. not because he didn’t want them to live, it’s that they got gifted this wonderful power just for it to be ripped away from them. the power that was the only reminder that they are what got rid of adam. their life hasn’t stopped drastically changing since they met him and he hates himself for it.

tank cant stand to look in the mirror. it makes them nauseous. all they see is their friend or quinn staring back at them in the mirror. never who they truly are.

sweetheart spends nights up late (like 5 am go to bed, wake up at 7 am) so they can figure out closeknit and the quinn case, they don’t want to disappoint milo or david.

asher has permanent trembles because of the shades injury. he hates it. it took him 2 months to learn how to write again.

lasko still doesn’t talk about his job. he’ll mention small things but never a lot. not even to freelancer or damien. he doesn’t want them hurt. not after what happened.

and that’s it, i’m not sorry for the pain. please enjoy

#redacted asmr #redacted david #redacted darlin #redacted gavin #redacted sam #redacted angel #redacted babe #redacted freelancer #shit posts by venus #redacted damien #redacted huxley #redacted vincent #redacted lovely #redacted lasko #redacted milo #redacted sweetheart #redacted caelum #redacted asmr headcanons #venus rambles again

[pancakeke]

I wrote a bunch of paragraphs about nothing in particular again so here it is under a readmore so it doesn't take up space.

like 8 years ago when people used tumblr more via desktop browser than its app, I put a 3rd party metric tracker in my desktop theme that logged how people were referred to my blog. it also captured what pages of my blog people viewed.

at one point during this time I reblogged a piece of pixel art from a japanese artist. they came to my blog through their activity page, and then searched my blog in a couple different ways for the terms "ドット" and "ドット絵" ("dot" and "dot art", as in pixel art). I checked those search urls myself to see if they found anything but there were no results because I never used those terms or specifically tagged pixel art in any other way.

ever since then I've made an effort to tag all pixel art I reblog with the term "pixel art". that artist was probably hoping to find more art to check out and it bums me out that my tagging system wasn't thorough enough to help.

this is why I have my current specific tag system lol. it keeps evolving but having the ability to find stuff you're into without jumping through hoops is really handy. (the site-wide post and tag searches return sooo much bullshit. it's a slog sifting through thr noise whenever I use those to fill my queue due to the sheer amount of manga caps, polls, liveblogs, personal posts, and fics posted without readmores...)

if only the way to view all tags you've ever used still worked. I think it caps at 500 or 1000 now and is also chronological so the first 500 or whatever tags you ever used show up in the list. then there's a hard stop and it does not update as you delete posts or use that mass tag editor to remove certain tags for your blog entirely.

I went through my used tag list earlier this year to unify certain tags and remove tags that I stopped using in favor for other ones, but I only got like 400 tagged terms down the list. maybe downloading my blog data would show more. the trick I mentioned uses your desktop blog's archive page. the tags are in its code so you can use "inspect element" to view it. I remember scrolling a lot to load a bunch of posts on the page but cant remember if this was required or I just did it to see if I could access more tags.

it's formatted all fucked and hard to manage but you can copy and paste the long chunk of tags into one cell of a spreadsheet and then use Data options to split them into columns by commas (or whatever punctuation separates them, I forget). a wide list is a huge pain to view so from there you can click on a cell containing data, click ctrl+a to highlight all data in thr row, copy, then paste special as "transposed" to turn the copied row 90° so it pastes as a column. the spreadsheet will wide as fuck from the hundreds of columns so honestly its easier to paste the transposed data into a new tab and delete the original vs clicking in the column to the left of your transposed data and then pressing ctrl+ shift+right arrow to select all rows to the right, then deleting the extra rows.

if you're in Excel you may have to use the "delete rows" option from the "home" tab and then save the sheet using "file > save" (do NOT save via the save button on the upper left corner or ctrl+s). this returns the sheet to a manageable size for scrolling (plus reduces its file size). this piece of shit software usually retains the sheet width/length even after you delete hundreds of columns/rows unless you use this trick of deleting specifically via home tab + saving specifically through the save menu.

I got a round number of tags when I did this which makes me think there's a cutoff.

[rustedhearts]

hi rolly, hope all is well. i recently read "but i love him", and i think ive said this before, i cant remember, but your ability to capture very specific experiences/emotions really makes all of your fics stand out! like apart from the very well done characterisation (with each character/variation of steve and reader having a unique character voice), and atmospheric narrative that makes it easy to immerse in the scene, each story feels very coherent and complete thematically, even if its part of a larger series. i know its literally around only 1.5k words and written with a sort of particular goal in mind and so not like a totally accurate representation, but it was kind of fascinating from an outsider's perspective of like, what general setting a small (from the general sounds of it white coded) midwestern town would look like, especially as someone who grew up in a very urban environment with lots of other fellow immigrants and first generation people, and mostly read books that tend to reflect those specific experiences.

Its literally written as a warning but i was sort of shocked at how much of a bad taste in my mouth this guy put in my mouth?? like yeah he sucks, but i don't think his specific treatment of the reader is like, that egregiously worse than like some of boxer!steve's behaviour, or like the straight up abuse of power that is present in priest!steve. I thought about it, and, i think some if it is because of the fact that the boxer and priest are introduced with a charming and charismatic first impression.

but also i think its because of the aesthetic tones you've used really well! Your priest!steve series have always felt, at least to me, like some sort of southern gothic horror/romance, like crimson peak, where the high aesthetic of the language describing moral decay turns it into a story of appreciating that aesthetic beauty rather than examining that moral decay, which then gives readers pause to examine their own complicity in moral decay at a larger structural level. i really hope that made any sense but basically the way its written so beautifully, all the warm, gauzy summer scenes, and attractiveness of the various characters, movie-like dialogues, and sex charged scenes, distract me from the horror of the situation, that only really sets in after like a minute, and then i am doubly horrified which also weirdly is very aesthetically pleasing. i am trapped in a cycle it seems. boxer!steve similarly, especially at later points, is surrounded by like luxuries and wealth and a buzzing of californian excitement that make his actions seem smaller than they really are, especially when he apologises in the earlier chapters and i know there's a charged scene coming and allow myself to, again, get swept away in the beauty of the language that you wield really beautifully and effectively, despite being the polar opposite of a hot Christian Georgia town.

I think with this fic, the aesthetic pleasure was not as present immediately in the setting. Cold and lonesome with a guy introduced as angry doesn't give the same fantasy as sun soaked southern summer or wild shimmering california girlfriend, but it had a really unique hook all the same. the cold you wrote was so good, i swear it made me dread the canadian winter already and while it was strange sort of seeing the already dampened enthusiasm these two had when i'm used to seeing the honeymoon phase first, it also made me curious to see why these two did stay with each other, like on a character analysis level. as uncomfortable as i was in the cold, i was also uncomfortable because of the frosty relationship in the room and was caught between wanting to see them fight or make up, anything to see more of their extreme reactions to cut the cold you put in the room, to heat myself up. And omg! You did! in a way that felt true to what we knew about these people and let us know more about them (reader's desire to be possessed by a singular person who loves her to the point of wanting to cage her in and possess her and her doing a lot of the emotional labour and reparation after a fight), and that fit the tone of the rest of the story so well. there was always a feeling of something larger than both of them during that whole scene, like she was fixing a symptom and not the root cause (his anger and emotional issues, her not being able to get out of this), which is true, but you wrote it like a haunting ghost, always lingering even when you want it gone. specifically, what spoke out to me was when she looks at the cross on the wall, and then the one he has tattooed on his knuckle, and it felt almost odd, like he was taking this very real part of someone's faith and turning it into his own variation of an intimidation tactic, and seeing it in the bedroom felt just off kilter to me. And the car ride....omg....even when they're making up he will do something horrible! and she just sits there! hearing the yells but only in short bursts of scuffles, and then having him come back bruised and grinning while she sort of sits in horror and unsure felt like you captured a microcosm of their whole dynamic. idk if i'm making it much worse/darker than you intended and if so i apologise! i am genuinely excited to see how they will play out, specifically reader's desire to be consumed almost it seems for the price of love!

this is so insanely long and i tried editing it to make it shorter but i really apologise for the length. you're such a talent and reading your work always makes me excited to analyse and try to pick up on your thematic and aesthetic choices that you always execute with such grace and we are all so lucky that you've decided to share this beautiful literature with us for free.

you never fail to blow me away with these asks, and every time you send one i genuinely try and sit and soak it all in and appreciate it, because wow!!! i’m so spoiled!! 💓💓💓

i also think you live in my head, because you completely understand everything and its purpose lol. i’m convinced you’re just a little chunk of my brain living somewhere else

this steve is definitely different because he’s bad for bad’s sake. like you said, there’s no passion behind why he commits these crimes. his reason is literally just “because he wanted to.” it’s just a cycle he was always bound to end up in. with boxer!steve, his overprotective jess and jealousy stems from his passion for libby. with pastor!steve, his icky, slimy grossness stems from desire for delilah.

this steve is just…evil, honestly.

#rolly! #asks

[chaotic-simp707]

Eyyyy im backkk! Sorry for the late shitpost, My schoolworks keeping me busy :'). I wrote this while suffering in online class so if theres been any mystakes i apologize 😭🥲

Just The Two Of Us (Fluff) [Mysta Rias X Reader]

Summary: Mysta can't sleep, so you take him outside and danced together with the rain

"ngghhh..." You mumbled as you slowly started getting your counsciousness back... You blinked your eyes few times and then process everything around you, now fully awake.

It was dark, but the radiant moon is helping you see. You turned to your left and see mysta with his brown-greyish soft hair with the moon's light while looking at the window. Ah... It was raining heavily

"...Mysta?..." You whispered under your breath, calling out for your lover's name

"Huh- Oh... Y/N sorry, Did i wake you up?..." Mysta asked with a soft and careful voice

"Nah, You didnt.." You blinked while rubbing your eyes gently

"...Cant sleep?" You asked, Remembering that mysta usually gets nightmares and have trouble sleeping. Seeing mysta's eye, it looks like he woke up earlier and cant go back to sleep.

"Yeah...." Mysta answered with a low voice

"..." The silence was comfortable, the two of you sat on the bed, watching the heavy rain outside the window and listening to the rain sounds

"ah!" You thought of something after a while

"Hm?" Mysta hummed, Curiously

"I have an idea... Wanna try it?" You stated, Mysta looked at you suspiciously

"..You and your ideas are not trustable-" Mysta got interuppted by you grabbing his hands

"C'mon!" You chuckled and then grabbed him outside the house, Without umbrella or anything to cover yourself from the rain

"W-why are we outside?-" Mysta questioned, furrowing his eyebrows.

"Hehe, Let's go!" You responded happily. Grabbing his arms and then getting on the spot where theres no roof to cover you up

After stepping out, You and mysta both got wet because of the heavy rain

"...now we are both wet" Mysta looked at you wondering what are you thinking (Ok but the sentence are kinda sussy-)

"Mysta... My dear boyfriend... Wanna dance?" You smirked, looking at him

"Y/N... Alright" Mysta sighed, smiling back at you

You grabbed his hands, While he grabbed your waist. The two of you danced with the rain, Syncing the steps, smiling to each other like crazy in love.

The rain poured heavily, But that didnt stopped you both from dancing. The moon and stars seems to be brighter than before, As if watching the two of you dance in the rain.

"I love you... Today, Tomorrow, the day after... And Forever..." Mysta said, Meaning every words. For you, That is very special. Mysta is never the type to be so affectionate and say these kind of words... But you know he'll say it only for you...

"I love you more.." You responded, smiling like crazy the whole time.

The two of you spended the night dancing together, Free from all the troubles in life.

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Next Morning

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"Haha" You giggles as ike stared at both mysta and you.

"*Sigh* what happened again? Why are the both of you sick?" Ike asked with a voice that is quite worried.

"We just spend the night together, Nothing more" Mysta reassured. Looking at you while smiling warmly

You smiled softly back at him. Ike looked at the both of you and sighed, Letting you both have your time together.

'These two are both crazy in love. Well, Love is really troublesome' Ike thought

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OK BUT DAMNNNN, I HAVE NEVER WROTE ANYTHING ROMANTIC LIKE THISSSSS AHHHHH THIS IS SO CHEESY IM CRINGING WHILE WRITING THIS 😭😭😭.

Inspiration: The damn rain in here. Thanks for giving me ideas and motivation to write this shit. I am definitely not gonna do this again 🗿

#mysta rias #mysta rias x reader #luxiem mysta #luxiem #x reader #rainyweather #rain fic #fluff #brainrot #nijisanji en #nijien #fypfypfypfypfypfypdypfypfypfypfypfypfyfpfyfpfyp #ike eveland #luxiem ike #dancing in the rain #sickness #nijisanji #shitpost #im dead

[emmacreatures]

A HEAVY START

OKAY. SO. Despite me and Nina literally made this ship earlier today, my brain did a BRRRR and went bonkers since I'm just extremely inspired and so happy to have nina in my life. This story starts off very gently, but well. Warning, it will take a big turn.

I cant tell yet how canon things will be, since we just made them, so I always need some experimenting and such! So IF I ANNOUNCE NEW SHIT, dont be surprised if it changes slightly through time, but despite all I'm nervous yet excited to hear what you guys think aaaa i literally wrote this in like.. 3 hours hoppla ENJOY! Featuring two new characters, called with their LAST NAMES!!! Muller and curran! __________

Everyone was just doing their thing at Bridgehead. Muller had been told to keep track of most developing recom bodies, as he was specialized in genetics. Though it didnt stop the man to go through more since he was one of tbe more specialized all 'inclusive' scientists at the RDA. His looks may seem innocent, but the man's mind was able to do more than just work on one part of their whole operation. He used to work beautifully along Grace, for they both had the beautiful passion for the Na'vi, and all living things.. But unlike Grace, Muller had a rather innocent look, so he at times got tossed around a bit, being asked to do various things which he did not mind.. In fact, he met alot of people because of that.. Something that at this day left a sour wound.

It was a big 'getting used to' for the man, when he was being brought back as a recom. He remembered waking up, as it felt like a dream at first.. He couldn't believe his own sight, and didnt remember anything when he started to slowly build up the fact he was a Na'vi now. He almost wanted to do tests on himself, as he was so mesmerized by the fact his DNA was now mixed with that of the native's... But the happiness was cut short, for his reality was slowly haunting him. It was like someone put a mental wall up in his brain. The more he scratched upon that wall, the more he rememberd from a past life. Memories they'd call it. But he started to feel it was becoming a slight nightmare. It wasnt his marvelous intelligence that bugged him.. It was the mere rather deeper emotions with attachments coming loose.

Through the months of being a Na'vi, he was asked a lot of things. He missed grace, for she kept a nice pace and control around the RDA, as they matched up well with energy, but he managed well on his own. His energy with the RDA didnt match so well.. So he tried to still be independant, and have his own corner to do what they asked of them. Originally he was put with the recom squad, to come along and explain them about pandora when they were developing to understand the na'vi ways especially, since like grace, he knew all about it. But slowly, Quaritch noticed the man becoming hesitant, as if something deeply put him on the breaks.. So for now, ardmore, after talking with quaritch about it, decided to keep the man at bay, and allow him to work in the labs for it seemed the best that way.

In those few months, alot of exciting things seemed to develop. Quaritch and his squad managed to catch one of the two natives of the Omatikayan.. In which another tried to come to rescue them, ending up with two. Something they could definitely use. One of them seemed rather difficult to handle, picking fights with specific recoms who originally lured them out.. But the other, was rather adjusted to the surroundings despite humans didnt seem to like the idea to have a native around. Since bridgehead was so extremely huge.. Muller hears about the 'rumors' of having a native on their side.. His eager and soft energy certainly wanted to have a chance if ever, to talk to him. He had so many questions.. Things he loved to ask. Despite he was a na'vi himself, he still had the biggest fascination to the natives.. Even if some of them, didnt like their association with them. He didnt know, or couldnt know, for he was just minding his business, gently checking half of the tubes full of the new recom units.. "All is stable." he softly said, smiling as he checked everything before heading back to his own lab. He got quite the space which he appreciated, but in the back of his head, he still felt a certain unknown.. Emptyness he couldnt quite figure just yet.

Being nearby his own lab, he wanted to hand out some data to some of the humans he had to work with, eventually seeing the native he heard about.. Out of pure fascination and admiration, he gently approached him.. He seemed to just look at some of the bigger screens. "Gosh.. Hi- I'm so sorry." Muller said in actual Na'vi.. Smiling. "You're a real.. Omatikayan.. Right. you must be Ka'am? If I'm not mistaken?" Muller gently asked, almost holding his hands together to see the rather warrior typed man turn to him. The beads in his mohawk like way of having his hair tied made a heavy noise.. Turning to him. For Ka'am looked at a rather excited scientist just from having a look at him. "you're from neytiri's family? i've heard rumors you were around but..-" Muller kept on talking in fluent na'vi, making Ka'am, who now had fully turned to the man instead of just his head.. Frown while responding in Na'vi. "i've not heard people speak about me" "OH nothing bad. I'm just, very honored to meet you. I see you" muller kept speaking in Na'vi, softly making the gesture from his head to show out of respect he saw Ka'am. Making the native tilt his head, as he looked down at the innocent looking scientist. Ka'am was taller than the man, and he seemed respectful.. Truly. "You are aware I can speak your language too right" Ka'am said serious, changing to english for Muller just had a soft "woah.." before harrumping. "I just felt like it was more fair to speak your language, since this is technically your territory." Muller said gently for, he invited Ka'am to his lab if he wanted, also because he just loved to see a full powerful native so closeby without wanting to kill him, which he would even understand.

Since Ka'am was quite looked at from the humans at this point, having a more respectful approach like Muller seemed better for his day. "I rather not be associated with them if you wouldnt mind by all means" Ka'am then said, for Muller frowned. "Associated with..?" "My family." "Oh- I- I'll note it down. I'm sorry if I-" Muller wanted to deeply apologize despite he certainly grew curiosity on why, but seeing Ka'am just make a gesture with his hand to say 'no need to continue' on his apologies.. For Muller understood right away. "So.. Were you looking for anything specific? I saw you try and figure your way, these things can be a hassle, even for me" Muller said kind, having noticed Ka'am was slightly searching for something. Ka'am could certainly tell the man was intelligent, on how he could read ka'am's intentions.. But since he really wasnt trying to get into Ka'am's business, he felt like Muller could actually help him. "I was.. Or well. do me a favor.. Can you look up old.. I believe they're recordings or field recordings. Quaritch wanted some, and since he's busy-" "So considerate- Let me actually see if I can get into it.. Since I'm just a .. Scientist. Not really like security or stuff like that" Muller said as he really was as innocent as he sounded. He wasn't JUST a scientist, but the man never bragged and was honest.. Sometimes he might even belittle himself on accident.. The man was never too kind though.. He knew where to stand his ground, but with Ka'am, he was just so fascinated, trying to help the best way. He was so impressed by the natives, and Ka'am was certainly a lovely example in his eyes. Perhaps even slightly scary to some, which Muller respected completely.

He gently put his card through the computer, seeing he in fact did have access. "Ah, there you go. I'll leave you to it" The man said as he gently sat down at a different desk near it, hearing Ka'am lean forward with his arms on the desk, watching the screens as the the braid from Ka'am, falling over his own shoulder to the front, made a noise that you could just hear was quite heavy. For some odd reason it made Muller smile. He loved having a native near, it just fueled his nerdy hype about the reason be became a scientist. The rather big smile almost on Muller's face took Ka'am's attention.. It wasnt like.. A fascination to his body or such, just the mere fact he was around. He turned to Muller once, for the man wanted to explain himself the second Ka'am did. "Must be heavy right? All those intricate beads.. with their possible traditions and stories" Muller said for Ka'am stood more straight instead of watching the screens. "It almost sounds you've never seen one like myself this close have you..?" The man said with a frown, for his voice was definitely lower than that of Muller. "Must be obvious right.. Indeed I havent. You caught me there. I apologize for it. Well, We've seen your kind from afar, let alone.. One that speaks to you, even in english, though I wouldnt mind to switch to Na'vi again" Muller said for Ka'am just nodded once.

"Quaritch isnt so fluent in Na'vi, so I might as well at times speak your language when its possible." Ka'am said rather serious, before Ka'am actually found something on the security footage after some searching. Something Quaritch most likely needed. "This. How can I obtain this" "Oh on a USB or? I can do that for you" Muller said as he stood up, putting it into the system that Ka'am was going through, putting the specific bit without checking what it was onto it. "That should do it.. Anything else you might need?" Muller was so helpful.. As at moments like this, infront of Ka'am for the first time, he almost forgot he was a na'vi himself. It was still something to get used to.

Ka'am noticed the genuine help.. But as the man helped him. He just never wanted to owe someone anything.. Being a loner and tricky man like he was. He just never wanted to have strings attached.. So having noticed the man's pure nerdy behavior which was what the humans called it.. Ka'am thought of a perfect solution..

"here. May this fill your fascination that you have for our kind" Ka'am said rather serious than thankful.. putting a very special carved bead onto the table they were standing at.. Making Muller who softly took it.. Just gasp. The bead was from hometree.. as Ka'am was slowly pushing himself further away from his original roots due to complications, it seemed like a win win So.. Now he was standing even.

"Are you serious... This is a bead from hometree. You get to make these when you- suceed within your tribe with a greater good" Muller said for Ka'am certainly was surprised but didnt show it. This man definitely knew alot. But hearing the man be so happy with it, he just nodded once in a 'just take it. and dont bother me about it' before he left, leaving Muller so excited about it.. "I gotta sample this in the lab later.." He whispered, before softly putting it into the pocket of his pants, slowly realizing that surprisingly along all this, he seemed to have access to much more than he originally thought with his RDA card that he always had with him.. He realized he might be able to dig into more stuff if he wanted to.. and as innocent as the man seemed, that dark empty hole he kept on feeling whether it was in his chest or head.. started munching more upon his curiosity. The mental wall was slowly breaking after months, and this sudden realization might grow worse

Muller was always rather fast with delivering what everyone asked. As mentioned before he was one of the best scientists around while people felt like he didnt live up to that title when it came to his looks.. But the man had brains and was a complex and well developed human who now was a na'vi. Brought back by the RDA. He knew something bad should've happened after a few weeks, but it seemed it was almost normal that everyone came back.. So, maybe his 'older' self.. would still be around, despite not having seen it yet

For he was done doing what he was asked to, muller's curiosity finally bit the bullet.. Sliding his card through the monitor to eventually start digging deeper into the system. After alot of trouble he ended up within the older files of their place before bridgehead was a thing.. Remembering a slight piece of it in the back of his mind. He rememberd selfridge.. A dirty asshole who never showed mercy, and he rememberd everyone he worked with before, including closer contacts he met along the way. Sighing as he went deeper and deeper into thr system, being alone in his lab, he frowned as he seemed to have found 'doctor muller. Confidental' files.. Without much hesitation he clicked on them, noticing a complex password was upon his files. Like said, he wasnt stupid. but now what.. What would he possibly have done as a password. It took a few tries even for him, and as a clone it was already complex enough.. But finally, he cracked it, seeing a lot of recordings of the first days..

He watched some of them, remembering it now, much clearer in his head. Being excited about plants, and hearing the avatar program Grace started was slowly becoming reality. Muller in the day was a young man, who was overly excited when he heard he was allowed to come to pandora to contribute with his intelligence. The second grace and him met, it was like a perfect match. Norm was fantastic too, but Muller ended up being more in the background, doing a lot of genetic research on the avatar bodies. Digging deeper into the DNA of things. The videos started off like a beautiful memory lane, even some videos where some squad members entered, asking how Muller was doing.. One in particular.. As the sudden connection was made in his brain. A happy little push, which made Muller smile for a second.. but as he went down and down.. Some videos, he couldnt remember. The aura was dark from the preview videos, but he did decide to click on one of the last ones, seeing right after most files were broken.

"This is day 799.. It seems Jake sully tried to convince them to leave. Everything is chaos right now. I dont know what he wants to do.. They're asking us to do horrible things. But selfridge and everyone else is doing the worst of things. They made hometree fall.. They killed it.. They put down grace's lab completely. At this rate I dont know what will happen. I dont know if I can do what they're asking of me.. Its not what I signed up for, but I dont want trouble either.".

Muller stopped the video there, closing it as he felt like it was getting worse.

"Day 805.. Just a few days apart, but its war.. I dont even blame the natives. They killed everything. This is not what I signed up for. The RDA, they're reckless.. I cant seem to see enough of whose behind this, but all we know is that most are prepared to fight, while me and the rest.. We want to leave the natives alone.. Unoptanium cannot be the reason we're doing this.. I.." Muller sighed so deeply on the video.. Seeing the human version of himself was odd too.. But he didnt know it could go worse from here..

"Day 806.." muller heard the audio.. He heard his own human version, sniffing from crying.. It was wrecking his stomach. "I dont know if this will ever reach the systems. The whole unit is collapsing.. I dont know if I will make it out alive myself, but you might ask yourselves while I'm here." The tone of his voice, was making Muller shiver, not touching the screens anymore as he let it go. "Curran.. Protected me.. From all chaos a few hours ago.. And now, here we are.. He passed away in my arms. I saw him die, right infront of me. And you know whats the worse part. I'm here, risking my life to do what you filfty bastards asked me to." Muller said as the anger he never showed popped up, his eyes full of tears on the video.

"If you are smart and if you ever see this, all of you, from the RDA.. You better not bring me back if I dont survive this.. As the chances of me surving alone here are small from the looks of it, but I have nothing to loose anymore, nothing to moarn over anymore as all you did was break me and...." Muller on the video couldnt even finish his sentence anymore, mentioning how the love of his life died in his arms was already too much.. "Unless you cold, horrendous people dare to pull me back. I never signed up for this when I was brought to pandora, for you all to murder them like.. A pest purely for your own good and money. I know I never seem threatening, and it might look like an easy game for you guys.. But i'm so.." Muller said on the video as the tears flew down his cheeks.. The heartache was unbearable.. "I dont want to be a part of this.. My life is nothing without him.." Muller said as he laughed once with the tears in his eyes. "Its almost funny.. To think the RDA, made me meet Curran in the first place which supposedly, was one of the best things that happened to me.. And now, you.. Make me end up erasing his mind because I was threatened to, right?" Muller said as his tears in video kept on flowing again. "If I didnt do it, you guys would.. so no win for me I suppose" Muller said defeated, swallowing. "you all dared me to take away that core memory.. so he can be a weapon for your new plan as this one failed.. Can you even sympathize with what I just described.. well. Of course not. Since you all have turned into killers, with no mercy. Having control over us all" Muller said as his crying made talking difficult. "Goodluck with that. I really hope, for you all, that you will not throw me back into this hellpit, as a recom" the man said almost threatening, hearing more of the building break apart.. As soon as he had sent off the DNA sample a second before.. "Its done.. Its sent off. So it might as well be done for me too." Muller said as he wanted to predict his own fate almost, before hearing more and more of the building collapse.. Muller watched his own human self, still try and get out of the mess, but before it completelt collapsed, the video broke and stopped recording.

Muller felt all his flashbacks occur in the back of his mind. Everything came back.. Every single detail that was captured in his DNA for the recom project. Popped up. It was taken before the huge accident he just watched, but seeing it all.. Was the last drop for him. He was frozen, he felt and heard the pain his human version already was going through. He rememberd Curran, of the most expertise Units he ever met.. He rememberd how they met, how they got along, how they fell in love.. and worst of all, now how he lost him. The realization hit him as well, that there was a chance Curran would be brought back as a recom, as the RDA asked him? as sickening as possible, to adjust his DNA sample with his memories, to have no hiccups. No emotional interuptions.. He rememberd it all now.. He rememberd the most difficult conversation he ever had in life.. How they were planning to make the recom program. But also knew about the relation Muller had to the incredible squad part that Curran was..

"We dont care what you think.. Emotional influences like that can make a soldier fall.. So whats the use if we would bring them back in such a state. Its misleading. If you wont take it out of his system Muller before sending it off to the recom system to have it imprinted on him, then we will. Its either you, or us"....

The sentences echoed in his brain.. Muller slowly stood up from the table after closing all tabs, making sure they were gone, before falling on his butt on the ground, holding himself as he was shivering.. Tears flew down his cheeks, as he couldnt make a noise, he was so frozen, as his emotions were all over. Muller held his own head after a while, unable to get a grip on himself for it all hit him too badly.. Worst part was that he knew about the conversation all too well, he remembered it now, but to have figured the two eventually died most likely since he could hear and see the building was about to collapse when Muller was still there.. Still trying to make it, in which Curran died for Muller to protect him.. Was something his heart couldnt bear.

The chances were there.. That Curran could eventually be part of the recom group, meaning if they'd ever come across each other, it would be a man.. That wouldnt have a single clue about Muller. Everything they experienced, build up.. Was gone, and out of all people, muller had to take it away from him..

Muller sat there for the longest of time, his own glasses had fallen off as he had sunken his own head into his arms that he held himself with at last.. Trying to give it a spot, but it was so hard to bear. Though as powerful as the man was, after a few hours, he managed to slowly push himself up, as his tail was wrapped around him.. Trying to breathe. He almost felt out of spite, the RDA brought him back.. It was definitely something Muller wanted to talk about eventually if he got himself a bit back together, but he just experienced his whole life in a few minutes. The emptyness now made sense.. for Curran wasnt in his life anymore, as so it seemed. He was just another scientist nessesairy for their things.. But Muller was not agreeing with it. He didnt dare to check the lists of Recoms anymore at this point.. He hadnt seen curran anywhere, so maybe.. just maybe it would give him a break for a bit. "Its.. Its late Muller.. You need to.. Sleep." He said to himself to calm down, despite it felt impossible.. He would eventually try and argue with the RDA, but for now, he needed some time for himself. He knew picking up work was the best he could do first thing tomorrow morning.. but this would definitely need time to process. The man was very smart, abd despite this was tough for him to do.. he knew trying to continue his 'new life' would've been the best to do.. so he tried that, despite his emotions at times like waves and flashbacks would sit him wrong.. Of course he didnt want to forget about curran.. He was everything that he could wish for.. But it was tough to hear whatbhappened.. but that wouldnt stop the man from working and possibly doing things he did want to do.. whats the worst that could happen now?...

#Muller #Curran #muller x curran #angst #emmacreatures #niku30 #avatar ships #avatar fanfiction #avatar oc #quaritch x ka'am #HOPPLA

[chilipepperconverse]

Ao3 Author tag game!

tagged by my bestie @plushie-sentai <3

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

19!

2. What is your Ao3 word count?

74,854 holy shit. i hadn't checked it in awhile lmao

3. What fandoms do you write for?

oh all kinds of shit, but rn i'm up to my eyeballs in tokusatsu. i tend to jump from fandom to fandom depending on my current hyperfixations HSKDJGS

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

in the fall we sleep all day (the magnus archives, jonmartin)

the end was soon (the magnus archives, jonmartin)

feeling so alive, feeling something (my hero academia, tododeku)

we both need it to forget this fear (the magnus archives, jonmartin)

if that's what it takes (my hero academia, tododeku)

all of these are like. at least 4 years old LMAO

5. Do you respond to comments?

i always do!!

6. Which of your fics has the angstiest ending?

mmmm depends on your definition i think. if you include canon compliant events its def one of my danganronpa fics (a foreign still or light of the moon) but that feels boring to me SO i might say my most recent fic for kamen rider ex-aid (or just mine tonight) since it ends on kindof a sour note for the characters? im not sure tbh, as much as i love angst in a fic i tend to like happier or ambiguous endings.

7. Which of your fics has the happiest ending?

that's an easy one! my dimension 20: mentopolis fic (whale fall) was written before the finale and was my guess as to what would happen w one of the pairs of characters, and its very sweet and wholesome i think :3

8. Do you get hate on fics?

thankfully no!

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

i do! i used to be terrified of it, but i think i've gotten better the more i write! i don't hold any bars on what kind of smut i'll write, either-- whatever the characters are workin with, i'll do it!! lmao

10. Do you write crossovers? If so, what's the craziest crossover you've written?

i used to! back when i wrote for achievement hunter i wrote an au where the fake AH crew were killjoys, like from gerard way's comics and the MCR album danger days :p i got uncomfy with RPF as i got older tho so those fics are all lost media now HSJGHJD

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope! not that i'm aware of anyways lol

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nope but if anyone wants to... pleading emoji

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

not unless roleplay counts... i used to rp a certain anime with friends mostly as a joke in high school but we did try and write story-format roleplay a few times

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

i don't much care for it or the property anymore bc i've got some bad experiences tied to it, but i think the ship i've gone the most batshit over is probably jonmartin from the magnus archives. right now tho? definitely best match from kamen rider build <3

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

my magnus archives dnd au (write an anthem worth repeating), for aforementioned reasons of not feeling good about the source material anymore :( a shame bc i thought my writing in that fic was nice

16. What are your writing strengths?

i think i'm pretty good at characterization! i get a lot of comments saying i give good insight into how characters feel which is lovely to hear, bc thats what i like most about writing fanfic!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

PACING... AND PLOTS IN GENERAL... why do you think i only write one-shots!! 😭

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i don't trust myself enough to do it right... i write a lot of fic for japanese media so the most i'll do is use the japanese word for something that can't be translated (names of foods for example)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

god probably warrior cats in like 3rd grade... on Ao3 tho it was achievement hunter, but those are gone like i said earlier </3

20. Favorite fic you've written?

is it cheating if i say my wip?? ;3

i'm gonna tag @meganechan05 bc i cant remember who else im moots with who writes fic but if you see this and wanna do it go ahead n say i tagged you!! :D

#chili got tagged #writing things #shut up chili

[katkafe]

ok i have a couple really disorganized thoughts after that battle, so i just wanna talk about the stepmother and a little bit about pinnochi-crow. very lengthy post

i don’t think this is too much of a reach, but i’m really getting the feeling that pinocchi-crow is (was?) whatever the original sleeping beauty’s version of diablo is. it’s role in the last battle has me tempted to figure out what specific fairy tale it comes from. i’ve honestly never read the original or the brothers grimm version and i’m not sure if the evil fairy godmother even has a familiar in those, and ik diablo is actually a raven, but we already know that the stepmother is probably also the evil fairy from rosamund’s story. as far as i’m aware there’s no version of the evil stepmother in cinderella that has a crow or raven. we also know she’s probably the evil queen from snow white (being an amalgam of all the evil fairy tale stepmothers), though i can’t find anything about any earlier versions of her that have a raven or a crow. BUT there are versions of the story where the evil queen is snow white’s birthmother, and she’s not a fairy in any version of the story, but she IS a witch, and as brennan (as cinderella, i believe) has told us, some witches are also in league with the fairies.

now that brings me to the cannibalism. we all know about the stepmother eating her daughters in order to gain more power, which the evil queen also attempted to do, she wanted to eat snow white’s heart in order to achieve immortality. someone, i cant remember their url, brought up a grimm’s fairy tale called the juniper tree, which has a good chunk of cannibalism and a few minor parallels to snow white. i read it recently (and wrote a shitty summary that i might post if i remember) and i cant stop thinking about it honestly. in the juniper tree’s case, the stepmother cooks her stepson into a stew, and her husband eats all of it. since this is a grimm’s fairy tale, the story obviously has many religious connotations, so there is speculation that the stepmother is derivative of the devil, but she is not a fairy or a witch or anything magical at all, but while i was reading about it, i saw that there are versions where the devil, in some versions, “the evil one”, either possessed her or influenced her into killing her son. so, based on this, if the juniper tree is involved, i think it’s possible that, if the stepmother is not literally the same person as this stepmother, then it’s likely that she is “the evil one”, and made the woman kill her stepson. i think this idea lines up pretty well with what we know of her so far, and also considering how she acts as a puppet master, literally and figuratively. that’s pretty much all i got. the juniper tree is my new favorite fairy tale now tho, so tysm whoever made that post.

#neverafter #neverafter spoilers #dimension 20 #the stepmother #pinnochio #the curdled web

[disastersteps]

sits.

i usually never shut up about au stuff so been thinking about this au in particular- happy sidestep days au.

(its a old au of mine back in 2020s? cant remember) that i brought back and just revisit mostly based off what i learnt of.

the basic original summary of this au is 'what if sidestep never fell, what if themmy never died that way, and what if heartbreak incident never happened, and what if sidestep's not a regene'

but i had been considering having some of the stuff from the games into it, so its gonna be depend on how i can. integrate it with canon facts into a AU setting. i might change stuff by the time the series is ever over. wheezes.

anyway this au aka 2023 version is well,

Anita had never fell from the window, and Themmy never died from how they did- and as the result, Anita continued to be Sidestep and Themmy is alive and continues to be Anathema.

The current time is the same exact time as canon, so seven years later, Anita went ahead and changed their suit once they're more confident in their own persona and their own hero.

Unlike canon neets, Neets finally confess to Jules earlier and not a coward and as a result, these two are disgustingly cute together for the next seven years, featuring Themmy having to be the third wheel and audience who voiced 'this is fucking suck but good for you two through.'

During these years, Themmy and Neets gotten closer enough to consider each other queerplatonic partners

Other than that, it's just your everyday hero life, really, that's it.

Oh! In this AU, Anita still mentor Herald when he joined, and before him- Argent joined and she got to be mentored by Themmy!!!

Which is why Chen is currently under Jules' wing in passing down the rank of the Marshal. (Anita turned it down, and says 'Chen is the best in our team when it comes to leadership.' and Chen had to take a moment to realize Anita wasn't being a ass and actually geninue believing in him. This may or may not had bloom their friendship earlier.)

Also because Anita and Julia are dating together in this AU, they're still dealing with tabolds are like, gasp, Is Charge dating someone in public? and Wait, but Sidestep and Charge were very close are they? Is she cheating on Sidestep for someone!?

^ Themmy showing all of these to Neets and going 'oh my fucking god.' while Themmy is wheezing so loud.

Yes, these two managed to keep their relationship private from public eye. Doesn't stop the Rangers, old and new, to witness them being soft bitches in the breakroom.

Yes, that meant Herald had no idea until he joined and then his world shookth when he learnt his teacher is dating their partner in crime. Argent, on the other hand, goes 'lmao i figured it out, they kept heart eyeing each other in the news so-'

Yes. It meant there's pictures. of them on the fridge and on top of that fridge is a jar full of coins with a label that says 'Walk in and you Find yourself witnessing Julita Being Gayasses' (wrote by themmy, 'you two keep being cute and kissy!' in jest)

Half of the coins are from Chen.

Actually, not just Chen but also Themmy, the curse of being their bestie.

Almost everyone except Argent had throw coins in.

No, Argent is too smart and she just knew and never failed to walk in.

Themmy insisted she reveal her secrets. she just laughs and goes 'nope <3'

and now with retri spoilers related

I still hadn't decide on Anita's background- it's either keeping Regene background, or the other ideas (yes im looking at you HG) but like I said, this part will be changed depend on how it went in canon.

If they were regene, it would be after they confessed to Julia and revealed themself to her, and it was a moment of waiting for her to walk out or not. She never did. "You're always Anita to me."

And if they're actually a lost sibling of HG, then Anita would've finally admit "It's that's why you had been so protective of me????? what the fuck jules!!! im happy being here! being with you! and everyone!!!"

so uhhhhh

other than all that, i just like drawing themmy and sidestep interactions which is why i use this AU just to draw/write about them, and perhaps chargestep being softies while being asses sO-

#lori ramblings 2023 #myaus | happy sidestep days #idk if i should it to there so im. gonna not to MDGMDSGMS IM EMBARRASSING #through i have to tag it as #fhr au #so ppl know its just a AU with a lot of headcanon heavy!!!

[dojae-huh]

Dont get me wrong ....I was frustrated and annoyed by jaewoos popularity so that I decided to do a quick research on woo's ships in 127....here is my theory...correct me as I knw I could be wrong....

When woo included in nct he was went with the concept of mark's soulmate??..may be sm was testing the water I understand...even in the radish pulling game episode where do jae and woo being asked questions about mark woo couldn't answer it properly..it I can say that mark and woo is close but their shipping didnt work...I think domark is still popular than woomark....sm didnt even try to ship woo with haechan I think....they can make a content funny but shipping didnt work...with taeil they did everything they can but didnt get the popularity they wanted...and yuta had a crush on woo and they did the shipping things but still yuta most of the all time prefer mark as his bf....and johnny I dont knw how they worked....i didnt even heard anything about johnny and woo I dont even knw their ship name...sorry....but u can add if u are aware of anything I didnt include here....ok....and with dy we all knw....so take ty...they were awkward first...but the ice is melting now...woo is the only person who visited ty in his solo mv shooting...and they talking about each other now....so I really hope their ship get the all popularity so jaedo could have their moment.....

Lastly jae....just put aside the fact that it is the only ship jae prefer to do infront of fans and camera only becoz he dont hate woo and also comfortable to annoy woo in public too....woo is not all that innocent for him it is the only ship that is very popular for now....so he does everything to go smoothly with this ship...so they both annoy each other...the problem with woo is that he is not effortlessly funny....he needs to make effort to be funny...if he is not funny he wont be seen in their vedeos...he is kinda moody person as far as I knw. ..so he cant work on both shipping and make fun all the time...and jae have no problem in make their ship float well...so in jaewoo woo can both do shipping and make fun for their group too....he dont have to make all the effort coz jae is helping him too.....

I knw I wrote this mainly to calm me down ...and may be all of my theory as not right...but it cant be fully wrong.....eventhough I am not an observer like you but I did made an effort...so u can correct me and can u reply ur opinion on this..?..thankyou

Hm. SM, without a doubt, uses shipping on earlier stages. We can see it currently with Riize ("Memories" MV) and Lastart (the way Yusion is portrayed and promoted). Neo City tour had bl fanservice.

That being said, Jungwoo used shipping so much himself, and very openly so, that it is hard to say where it was primarly his initiative with different members (and SM used the footage) and where it was by the management's design. SM tried different MC combinations (IlWoo, MarkWoo, DoWoo, JohnWoo), but I don't remember a special accent on LuWoo (and the ship was a super popular ship back in the day).

WooMark was a thing. They did vlives together, 24h relays.

The members understand shipping, and use it for entertainment as well (YuMark is the most blatant example). As you correctly pointed it out, it's not just for the purpose of being liked as a (bl) ship, but mainly as an easy to-go-to entertainment tactic. Fans like cuddles and interactions. Most fans don't ship seriously (as in really believe there is something), they just pretend. How many times Woo used "(to Yuta) Liii-oon" joke? Yuta can just hug Mark, and some footage to include into group content is ready.

Anyway. I don't think JaeWoo will disappear anytime soon. Not as long as DJJ exists. What we can wish for is for JaeDo to start to get their two-men content/gigs again. Woo is popular enough to be sent alone on shows nowadays, he doesn't need DoWoo anymore as much.

Woo is absent from ts7 unit, so let's look forward to Baggy jeans are, it should bring us something. Jaehyun gets more attention seeking when his rival Tae is in the vicinity.

[bookaddict05]

Hello people,

People who know me, know im one to have dreams that are printed in my brain and i remember them very detailed, and last night i had a marvel based dream which in my thoughts was very weird so im going to share this one with who ever is bothered to read it okay here it is ....

So im in this hotel (i have no idea where btw) and im helping my mam and dad with our bags taking them into the room. I remember walking up a couple of stairs and hear staff wispering about a celebrity guest who will be staying at the hotel but i brush it off.

I walk into our room and start writing a letter (god knows why im writing a letter) i cant remember much of the context behind it but it was about my admiration for someone. After writing the letter i put it in an envelope and it disappeared (like vanished one second it was in my hand the next poof gone).

Anywho me being the unsociable person i am i leave my room and go to the common area (it was empty and i was alone) and i read. Then i hear my mam looking for me so i come out the room then see her talking to this man in a grey suit and elderly this woman. I walk over and this man is no other but the actor who plays Namor in black panter 2 (ive just watch the movie for the first time earlier this week).

I think for some strange reason the letter i wrote went to him but i dont know what happened to the letter this is just a guess. Anywho hes at the hotel to stay cause hes doing a convention for black panther 2 and the older woman is his mom and she wanted to stay at the hotel we happened to be at.

And i dont know we just kept making eye contact i felt awkward and yeah then my brother woke me up 😥 really wished i knew where it was going but i guess i will never know

So yeah thats my weird dream if u would to hear more of my weird dreams leave a comment i have many ive wrote down for the fun of it

#marvel #namor of talokan #weird dreams #fyppage #personal anecdote #dreams #dream situation

[kneehighcrocs]

FOR THE FUTURE TRAILER SPOILERS!!!!

idk how big the gap has to be for it to say keep reading or whatever so just scroll rly far yk

im just gonna list everything i see and think

the collector let king keep francois but idk where they are

theres so many things i can say abt that stack of tomes i cant even start

LILITHS HAIR??? OMG <33 it reminds me of cissy but i wonder why she had to cut it that short

poor hooty :(

as hooty is showing king says “watch things pass” does that mean hooty is essentially dead

the collector rly let loose. everywhere is starry and purple now

also i thought the whole head of the titan was decimated? ig not since only rly the top left is gone

they puppetified (for lack of a better word) all the coven heads

but where is terra.

WHERE IS TERRA

i wonder if theres any reason why we cant see dariuss face

was king trying to sneak off with hooty?

SHORT HAIRED EDA

seems like shes been shifting into harpy form way more judging by the amount of feathers

im assuming the collector is who scribbled out the “but should they meddle in our affairs” etc paragraph, but we dont get shown fully what theyve written under

they even puppetified the damn bugs

im assuming they are the one flicking that star but where are they? it shows bump at hexside after but wherever they are doesnt look like hexside. looks more like a house

they got all the teachers even the illusions one

the transformation could be painful judging by the split second we see bump grimace

they all look sad/disturbed apart from hunter who looks angry

hes also stood a lot further away than anyone else idk if that has any significance

marcy wuz here reference? lol

i do wonder who wrote these bc “there is no titan” doesnt seem very collector-y

“bad word” does tho. also smth abt “kissing ___ grass” and “owls r dumb”

hootys weird vein thingies arent in the door

maybe another grimwalker?? but idk how belos would have the materials

could be beloss hand as he tries to go back into his human form but im not sure

i thought it could be in his cave but theres what i think is a curtain off to the side so maybe not

theyre at hexside now judging by the bg

amity saying oh my titan is rly confusing to me bc the first two shots of her face seem serious but the last seems comedically exaggerated? idk

no idea what she could be looking at to be honest. possibly the twins or smth

we dont know what that glyph is but maybe it has smth to do with the potential grimwalker

is that the cave belos was in in ep12?

the collector has changed the whole town

idk who could be attacking but a puppet is running away in the bg so it could be eda or smth not realising who hunter and willow are

matt i dont approve of the beard

barcus, skara and matt seem very calm but i find that weird. all the teachers have been transformed so i thought the school would be basically unavailable, but they seem to have set up camp there

not sure where they could be here. my first thought was the detention pit just judging by the eyes and claws on the wall but remembering the size of it changed my mind a little

why isnt matt fighting whatever luz and amity are?

camila looks terrified but she did only just get there so

MAJOR REVELATION HERE TO WHOEVERS BOTHERING TO READ ALL THIS- they looked through luzs memories. THEY LOOKED THROUGH LUZS MEMORIES

she looks guilty, matt looks confused and maybe sad and we cant see amitys face but guessing off context and body language shes concerned

again, idk who could be attacking here

seems like not all the students managed to avoid getting puppetified. cat and amelia are off to the side

king looks determined, the collector looks angry in a childish way. im not sure what they could be flying towards

ig king is pretending to side with the collector

we see more of the eyeball cave thing from earlier, and theres what i think is a clear entrance, so i rly dk where this is.

but CAMILA IS FIGHTING 💪💪

the owl beast can take over even when eda is in harpy form?

idk what it is abt this scene but the animation of eda losing it seems different. i think its just the lack of shadows since the lightings behind her

im gonna guess this last scene is what happened right after the hexsquad went through the door

bc theres still chunks of the skull floating and king has no robe

this mustve been before they got the idea of transforming everyone bc if eda got that close and is still fine then yk

king looks very worried but seems like he knows theres basically nothing he can do abt it

thats all ive got for now 🤭🤭

#the owl house #for the future #for the future spoilers

[lille-rcord]

Wed, 14 Dec 2022

hey.

my first log here is about me telling you what has happened today.

today's morning was somewhat normal. well... if you'd overlook the fact that me randomly woke up at 11pm-ish after fell asleep at 6pm as then went back sleep a couple of hours later only to wake up at 5am for morning prayer. at least thats pretty much what i remember. i didnt get a blink of sleep since.

morning was meh. i got to do morning walk with mom to nearby 24h cvs to buy sugar, cup ramens, a family sized white bread, kewpie mayo, and bottled chili sauce. kewpie mayo was an impulsive buy since they offered a bogo sale. idk whether it was a good decision or not. we bought 2 cup ramens from different brands, thought we could compare and see which ones tastier.

we went home, i proceed to cook the cup ramen and pan-toasting a slice of bread with grated chocolate. the bread took the cherry by a miles, i didnt know a warm toasted bread smothered with melted choco could be so comforting. but the calories and gluten were haunting.

around 9am-ish i got a message from uni that said my yudisium was scheduled on 10:30, and i was like bruh why is this announcement came out of nowhere?? i told mom about this, asking for her help to quiet down anyone cause i got yudisium to attend. mom was delighted. the event was something we've waited so long since my thesis defence. she was like "oh i havent ordered those graduation sash, if only you told me earlier... " yes, i always oppose to the idea of buying it cause i see no need for that thing, yes its a once in a lifetime event but i do just fine without it. it only serves as decoration purpose anyway and it costs quite a lot of money. ive been well aware of how sensitive our economy has been, we practically have debt left and right its getting harder to breathe each passing day. so why should we buy that thing?

so then, mom made the sash from papers. she wrote my name on it along with my newly obtained degree behind my full name and proceeded with coloring it with highlighters. she made a couple of mistakes on placing the punctuations. i cant imagine how proud she was, her only child graduated college after so longg, also her child being the first one to gradute college among her cousins from mom side of the fam. when i had done attending the event i hug her and gave news that my final gpa is 3.85 out of 4.00, i'm 0.05pts short compared to my lifetime rival cousin. she forced me to take photos, smiling and posing with her handmade sash:')

then my old bro came home, much later than usual. mom told him the news abt me graduating. would have been a lie if i didnt expect some sort of present from him but we've been very disappointed after what happened two weeks ago.

later on the evening we called dad to convey the news. i asked him for some money cause i want to buy a handcream. the one my friend got me was really nice but it wasnt as hydrating as i wanted it to be, kinda felt underwhelmed with the effect, mind you it was a body shop product. it comes with price higher than my roof. so i want to buy another from different brand, korean, this time. shouldnt be surprised when he didnt give me anything and told me to be patient *sigh*. anw i had a blast talking with dad, sure its quite sad, so sadd cause i wanted to buy something for only 5bucks for my graduation present yet i wouldnt get it till idk when.. probably till i forget i ever want it.

lianne, logging off.

[phoenix-is-the-hottest-thing]

the theme of faith in honkai storyline has always prevalent. especially during elysia realm where they emphasize that faith cant be changed with aponia character writting. with how she tried to change faith only to make it happen someway with her actions of being aware about it. but i remember aponia saying she wrote some book for the soldiers and some end up being careless because of the prophecy which end up killing them earlier, wouldnt that imply faith can be changed?? did i somehow misinterpret this part of the story? aponia did say the way you reach the end can be changed but the ending itself is set in stone. does that also include how early they die?

By faith I assume you mean fate?

These people did NOT die early. What happened to them was that, because they were paralyzed by the fear of their predicted end, they couldn't bring themselves to make any decision. Remember, the process can be changed, but only the process, no matter what they did they would always die at the same moment.

This was so terrifying to some that they simply couldn't bear living anymore... (while others, by contrast, simply used Aponia's predictions in order to prepare for what was ahead. They couldn't change the end either, but they could improve the way they would get there.)

Relevant dialogue below the cut:

Ascetic’s Memory 7

Aponia: I have not asked you this question yet… Mei, are you curious about your future? Aponia: If you see the book that records your life story, will you open it? Mei: No. Mei: I know what I’m supposed to do and I will make it happen. I don’t need a book to remind me. Aponia: Is that so? Indeed… I’ve handed out many books of fate. Aponia: Few owners deemed it a gift. Most owners deemed it a torture. Mei: I thought none of them would like it. Aponia: There are people who disregard the outcome, Mei. I sense the same tendency in you. Aponia: Since the books revealed several life nodes for them… they prepared them for the inevitable. Aponia: If you know you have ten years left, you will not worry about the risky operation next day. Mei: I… have reservations about it. Aponia: Understandable. You have been skeptical. Aponia: Even if you know the answer, you are advised against acting recklessly. Aponia: There were people who, after receiving my gift, thought nothing except their own fate could kill them, and ended up paralyzed for decades. Mei: …. Mei: This reminds me of something… you once said that the ability to see into the future is a heavy load and potentially an unbearable pain. Mei: It’s unusual for you to tell others of their fate so hastily. Mei: ….. Mei: You didn’t… only gift these books to the people you hated, did you? Aponia: My… why would I? I never had the heart to torture others. Aponia: “Please” believe me. All I did was… schooling gently.

#aponia #hi3 #hi3 lore #honkai impact #i have the wild theory that Aponia's writing changed a LOT during production #so not everything she says fits together #but this does