#and now just normal tags im TIRED

[settecamara]

#god its the third time trying #i love them #and now just normal tags im TIRED #(i cant remember what i wrote earlier #serginho #sergio sette camara #formula e #fe season 2024 #dan ticktum #tokyo eprix 2024

[lunarharp]

the stroke of midnight

#witch hat tag #orufrey #uhhh idk what this is but im tired now. i was just going to doodle today... #oh btw i decided that every season they put on a little ball in the living room for the girls. and put up magical lights and stuff. #and make ~Special Party Food~ and such. like a school disco. and they're always up at night excitedly planning it all #you know just normal things to do with your friend. #im no good at drawing brushbug.. i think i always make him too small

[ittybittybumblebee]

i want to see exactly how many people actually have thought i am for research because ive gotten this quite a few times from different people i just wanna see how far it goes

#please understand while im not doubting so much now im not going to base off everything by peoples perceptions of my online behavior but #i feel like it does give good insight #i just always have a little hesitation in me because i feel like no one can get a full scope or honest picture of myself to Know me enough #to say that i can trust their opinion of me without knowing me enough in that sense #gahh. cuz i always feel like im doing Just Fine Enough i feel normal enough but im not guhh. #GUHHGGGHGH #it literally wouldnt change anything for me. like im autistic . ok! shrugs my shoulders. i cope i cant to anything more to help myself #than that #do u guys get it. do i have to go eat bricks or do u guys get it. my internal struggle. im like sisyphus #i cant trust other peoples opinions of my and i cant trust my own perceptions #while of course self diagnosis is a wonderful thing i dont want to put a name on myself that serves me no purpose #autism is awesome but do i deserve that title when dont feel like i own it wether i am autistic or not #im just so conflicted. #do you get it. do you get me. am i being reasonable . am i just fighting a truth about myself or are my doubts realistic. but the Evidence. #im so tired #i do not wanna b one of those tiktok girlies saying theyr hyperfixated on cooking pasta #Now do you get me #all my long winded rabbit trail rambles out of me before i finally get to my one point condensed conclusion #and now i just cant delete the rest of my tags because of all my time spent on them #enjoy my indentity crisis lol #i Might delete some of these tags later

[maplefield]

kinda funny in a sorta sad way how people will be calling a character trash before they're even out and then upon release when they realize the character is actually good they start comparing them to earlier units and calling THEM trash

#honkai star rail #yes this is about argenti #and now that they realized that argenti is in fact good jing yuan is getting called trash again he cant catch a break for real #but i remember people were talking shit about luocha as well before he was released #like idk maybe wait until you can actually try a character in game or smth #wish people could accept that diff characters have diff playstyles and some are harders to build then others #that doesnt mean theyre bad #normally i wouldnt care about this its just gotten too much and i had to go on a little rant #anyway my advice is ultimately just pull for and play the characters you like #hsr #my post #forgot to add and cant move tags so here it goes: when i said diff playstyles #i meant that even characters who are on the same path tend to work differently (and this is something i really like about this game) #dude im so tired i cant even convey my thoughts properly i hope this post makes sense

[enden-k]

refraining from drawing now to force myself to play through the genshin event until im done, so i can freely browse through my dashboard/tl/ao3/tumblr inbox/my fridge again without untagged spoilers

#its not a boring event at all like last update with the stupid cards its just i rlly dont have mood/energy rn to play more than an hour #bc theres sm art i wanna do #but considering that ppl spoiled me in my inbox just recently and that i cant even safely go through ao3 either #and that now my dashboard is full with untagged spoilers and i dont wanna unfollow and refollow my mutuals i dont have a choice but #seat my ass and play until i can MOVE again omg #usually i always was up to date bc i always played in a normal pace to keep up but this is the first time im so #behind and have to avoid spoilers left and right this is the most tiring stuff ever honestly #i always tag my (new archon quest when update etc) spoilers and leaks but this just makes me wanna tag it harder LMFAO #babbles #tbd #anw i might turn quiet for however long ill take save for the random babble about my progress i guess #unless i get weak and DO start sketching bc smth inspired me mid game but lets just hope ill stay strong and dont fall to my urges

[lazaruspiss]

yeah its kinda depressing that every fandom seems to have some anti shipper niche but its also so fuckin funny sometimes. like im just remembering that rick and morty exists and holy shit was that a show that contained Sensitive Subjects portrayed only for crass amusement and self gratification. and even that show has anti shippers. (adding a cut for those who dont wanna listen to my sleep deprived rambled retellings of my rick & morty memories)

hey do yall know what the pilot was about. bc the og r&m pilot was a back to the future parody where morty has to suck off rick in order for him to have big brain power. like the og r&m has uncensored underage incest blowjobs. also the actual final show has an episode where a character proposes a "multi generational sandwich" 3way. yeah yeah but portraying incest is problematic. do u hear urself. incest doesnt even make the top 10 as far as ricks crimes against humanity go. how do yall live like that

#OH AND SOUTH PARK ANTI SHIPPERS. LIKE HELLO? #what do u expect in fandoms for shows like that. offensive content in the offensive show fandom. fork spotted in the kitchen cmon now #dangan//ronpa is also a very funny fandom choice for antis #theres like a whole subcategory thats specifically against shipping characters who canonically killed the other #like hello. you collect teenagers underwear as part of the relationship mechanics #the game is all about kids being forced to kill each other #SORRY ITS LIKE 1AM FOR ME. my brain in silly mode rn #hifumi haters are so funny (derogatory) bc hes literally tsumugi but nicer and dumber. but they like her and not him bc shes hot anime girl #SORRY I THOUGHT I WAS OUT OF MY DR PHASE. BUT THAT SERIES SHAPED ME AS A TEEN </3 #once a makoto kinnie always a makoto kinnie smh #Hghhhh hifumi is so cute and underappreciated #i gotta find the spin off comic where makoto dresses as a maid to help hifumi sell his comics bc it was cute as hell #hifumi getting fandom stereotyped as a perv is so dumb. hes literally only into anime and also maybe makoto. #hes not a perv hes just a DWEEB get it right smh #everyone was always so mean 2 him and i was like. ok. #and then i actually read his stories and yeah hifumi haters lvl 0 reading comprehension #TOO MANY TAGS. im shutting up now. #sitting my tired ass down and trying to be normal #ramble tag

[wowitsverycool]

sometimes i really vibe with disco elysiums brief moments of quiet apathetic misery that are distinctly intimate in the way they cradle you with melancholy’s ice cold hands. you almost want to savor the despair, pull it over you and be consumed by that awful, beautiful feeling of hopelessness. regret can taste so good. it’s a place other than the future, past, or present -- a realm of its own. time moves on, always ticking, travelling down one road forever, but here there is only sinking. to the depths of water you fall, the sound of rushing water so hypnotic and suffocating. a sensation in the back of your neck, the relaxing weight of resignation. as you’re anchored to the bottom, your mind detaches and floats to the surface. fine. you don’t need that here anyway. you don’t think, you only suffer. all that awaits you here is suffering. isnt it wonderful that you can predict everything here perfectly? there are no variables, just a buzzing in your chest aided by your concrete-filled lungs. it’s like they’re glowing. you once swam through your thoughts, but now you sink like a rock. she floats above it all, of course she does. she peers into the water and her reflection fragments in the waves. she can’t even see you. she would look away anyway. oh, beautiful, beautiful suffering, never leave me. all i have left is what you take from me.

that’s what it feels like to me anyway lol haha!!

#'omg harrier du bois is just like me fr' #<- words of a well adjusted happy person who doesn't have issues they need to work through #im having such a normal fucking time right now you don't even know #its 1:29 am right now i probably just need to sleep #the shivering i get when i stay up later affects my thought process a little i've noticed #'wow.. i feel like im floating through water rn.. thats so deep..' youre literally just tired and kind of dehydrated go to bed #or a vampire just bit you #but given how interesting your life usually is #its probably the former #disco elysium #why am i tagging this? because i thrive off regret did you not read the post

[wc-confessions]

Lmfaoo minkpools/angrysnakes blocked me when I called them out on their sagutoyas post. Bitch you don't get to complain about bad minor adult interactions in the fandom when you literally draw necro feral warriors porn and reblog zoo shit on your easily accessible twitter

i read the og post and its so dumb like..oh you join a kids fandom centered around books for kids and do/endorse gross things within said fandom, then get surprised that there are kids in the fandom and bad things happen to them. you are a full ass adult you need to do better have some fucking common sense stop blaming kids for being curious or falling into these situations. like its obvs whats the real issue but they want to make it look like kids are at fault

#idk who sagutoyas is tho but assuming they did the above #im also tired of older ppl in this fandom #acting like fools #like yk this is a fandom for a kids series #obvs there will be children #but now its the kids fault adults want to be weird abt a kids series #and make their weird shit accessible and public #and suddenly youre annoyed abt it like?? #are you dumb #like. if u really cared abt kids you wouldnt even do tht shit #if you really cared about boundaries you.. #would have established them!! #tht whole thing is literally just abt them #trying to make themselves look innocent #by shifting the blame on literal children #adults be normal within a kids fandom challenge. failed #not a confession #text #skeletal-panthera #ask to tag #grooming mention #not described #idk and like #that entire post itself is weird #strange ppl dont seem to realize that

[barkingangelbaby]

dude...

#if I don't stop hyperfixating on my breathing... like... idfk how much longer i can live like this... #it's been happening since last august snd I'm so tired of it..... #it's not even only when I'm high anymore it's like... all the time #i just like.. stop automatically breathing once i think about it and it takes me *so* *fucking* *long* to start again #honestly I'm just typing this post to distract myself a bit and hopefully i just start breathing normally again but I'm still manually #breathing rn. and now im wondering what the normal amount of time in between breaths is and if I'm taking too long ?? #i tried to time my breaths with N's but she's asleep so i know it's gonna be different than mine #hoooo boy wish me luck falling asleep this is so annoying!!!! #is this ocd??? I've had several ppl in the past year tell me they think I have it but thinking about it makes me spiral #but it would explain A Lot of my thoughts n habits #anyway. I'm very annoyed with myself rn i just want to breathe normally and not worry myself into panic attacks anymore #actually very worried about how bad my stress in general has been bc there's no way it's been good for my body #ok. time to snuggle up n try to fall asleep!! im v cold rn so i have to warm up before i hug N bc i don't want to wake her with my ice cold #skin lmao. i can't wait for it to be warmer so i don't have to worry/feel bad about that lol #OKAY BBYYYYEEE if you read these tags I'm so very sorry. #rAMbles

[tiktaaliker]

i dont have a name for this whale guy i got from @jaypgartifacts yet but i think that he's a retired boatswain currently acting as a lighthouse keeper.

ive also been thinking of their dynamic in relation to moonshine so i have a roughly sketched out bonus comic under the cut relating to that

#howling #art tag #i am having THOUGHTS and IDEAS about both of these guys now #i like to think that moonshine is some sort of spooky malevolent ocean spirit trying to fuck things up #and meanwhile the whale guy is just chilling despite this weirdo yelling at him from the docks #just COMPLETELY unbothered and moonshine cant handle it #tldr moonshine is just going arent you tired of being nice dont you want to go ape shit #and the whale is just like. no im good actually but thanks for asking! #also catch me posting at at midnight again #i cant help it. once i finish something i need to post it asap. ive spent too much time on this to wait for a normal time to upload it #i want this guy on my blog NOW!!!

[waywardsalt]

ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great

#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained #so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do #likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish. #like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired #hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic #hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow #he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit #he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation #and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now #he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng #and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever #like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting #hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests #and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him #hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked #because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess #his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free #he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves #idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him #like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon #when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff #that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then #i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow #im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with #its very cute

[orkpup]

want them to beat the shit out of me honestly

#howls #long tags teehee #they pretended to punch my face earlier and ive been thinking about that since #i mentioned that aside from hickeys and being bitten and i rarely ever bruise #and any scars i get fade very quickly #the look on their face was like that was a challenge to them #maybe it is #i joked that i was the perfect victim expecting them to not like that joke #but they thought it was funny and now im sitting here like. please make me victim to you #i wanna Fight them i want them to beat me and i wanna try my hardest to fight back in earnest #and i want them to overpower me and win and make me their victim #i want them to keep track of the things that i mention trigger me and eventually use them against me #i want them to force me into fight or fawn #and they can do all their cute and sweet aftercare things after the fact #but i want to feel scared of them #i want to create a fake safeword to use when i normally would want to safeword but dont want them to stop just yet #and i want them to laugh at me and make me cry and use me until theyre too tired to continue #which i can only imagine would feel like fucking forever for me #the stamina on that mf.. when he picked me up to fuck me better i actually screamed #creating a habit of fucking me fully awake when he sees me waking up.. #and im meant to not get obsessed with him.. ok #also intentional aftercare in name isnt foreign to me but its definitely something to get used to because just something as simple as him- #holding me and telling me i did good after violent sex meant the world to me #crazy

[frecklystars]

one-minute scribbles while i wait for my pen pressure to kick back on

#[loses pen pressure while lining a commission] oh ok. [starts drawing stsc] #im not even gonna tag this one bc the doodles are so fucking bad fkdhdslfkgh #itll just go in my doodle tag #lil doodles #💕 Everything I did to get to you 🌟🌸 #normally i clean these up a lot better and add some sort of color but man #im tired. today SUCKED i rly do wanna get lost into another dimension pls #starscream my starlight my beloved. come and get ur starflower she's tired #i just want to collapse tbh #i wanna leave right now right now right now right now

[pepprs]

i do not want to get out of bed omfg. this week has been so fucking insane im exhausted but we have aprogram tonight until 7 and i have to facilitate and there are a million things to do today

#but i got my p*riod and cotaught on tuesday and broke up w my counselor on monday and a few days before that redacted redacted so im ph #physically and emotionally exhausted but we have this program tonight until 7 and then 2 trainings tomorrow andi have like 2 meetings inbetw #between those. and i just want to sleep and/or lie down w a heating pad bc my cramps have been brutal this time around. literally could #barely get work done on tuesday bc i was in AGONY and forgot my heating pad and no one could bring it to me from home but it s like i have n #nowhere on campus to lie down or get checked out or anything bc im not a student anymore so i need to just writhe at my desk (<- i have one #of those now finally btw 🥹💗) and jusf hope i don’t pass out. and i didn’t but it was so bad and im not recovered from it yet. idk. #everything is so much. there are some intense and in some cases horrible things happening. iwwish we had time to pause and process them and #that we weren’t so tired and stretched all the time. i wish we didn’t have all these pressures to worry about. i wish we could just have #time to love each other and check in truly and to support each other bc we are friends before we are colleagues methinks and i jsut want us #to be ok and happy and rested and healthy. idk. augh #delete later #purrs #also i think i am not normal when it comes to cramps btw. i think maybe it might not be normal to be in this much pain. or maybe im just #weak or have a low pain tolerance but i feel like it’s a lot worse than it used to be + i get cramps at Other times too and it’s ummmm bad. #ask to tag #like how absolutely insane that this is a huge part of my life and i feel like i can’t even talk abt it and it’s so embarrassing but it #literaly is like.. every other week im scared that im gonna be unable to function bc of pain but i literally say nothing at all and just smi #smile and pretend im fine and barely talk abt it. i don’t think that’s good or normal. and i think ppl should talk abt p*ripds more so it’s #not as weird or bad or gross or cringe whatever to talk abt being in pain and to accommodate urself or whatever despite other ppl knowing #abt it. cringeeeee augh i don’t want to be one of Those people but like. it’s bad and i fucking hate it

[arthur-r]

how to not text somebody when you can’t talk but also. Not just not text somebody

i ran out of tags at the end i just content warning not feeling well not speaking well and also stressed out vent content warning but i will fine in the morning if somebody wants to not listen everything is okay im just having trouble and im not speaking well

for ending is just i don’t know i just am stressed out i want to know how to do it right and not being other people have to fix everything for me isn’t fair. and i just want to feel normal good not have complicated on top of everything. and i want to anpolkgize not while being making it worse from not speaking good i don’t know what to do. i hope everybody is doing okay bottom tags is just same but not for from the beginning. i hope everyone is doing well and please be just stay away if makes you not feel safe im not good at when somebody doesn’t say good and it’s not anybody’s fault. i just dont know where for who to tell to i just hope for everyone is okay and sorry for bothering

#i am not feeling well i had to my friend called an Uber and stuff for going home #and then we hungout stayed in my dorm for a little and then i fell asleep when he was leaving #and I want to say hey thanks for everywhere going coming home with me and finding walking me home and stuff #but for when i try to text that it doesn’t make sense and i don’t wa t to. be im tired of being not making sense #tired of texting people making them confused or like im not doing so it right #but i need to say something for thank you or goodbye case i wasn’t good before #and i was being so. im sorry was being so boring i was just not being good or interesting #i was distracted for being not feeling well and i want to explain but i don’t want to. be made it worse #and i really likethis guy and #don’t want to be distrsctimg weird and okay my room mate is yo #home now. so that is more stuff interesting now i know i can’t call on the phone #which is probably good but im just i can’t type article #articulate with typing im not i just don’t know how to talk #i know how to talk for having speaking real life #real life speaking. but it’s also weird for calling somebody isn’t normal you don’t call somebody #so #im texting on herrbjnstead of for texting #somebody so im sorry actually but. people who understand is different from if somebody doesn’t understand #but also im sorry and ask to tag and i know i would be so much upset if i saw and im not trying to hurt somebody #i just need advice for being talking to somebody but i promise im fine and just not feeling well in normal way it’s not special bad #anyways i hope everybody is doing okay and for if somebody knows and i just man i am not feeling well #heart isn’t too bad is 110 or 140 between for the long time staying between. but right now in just 110 while im lying down #I don’t know i think i should go back to sleep but my friend i was gonna talk to friend different friend today #for calling watching tv i might have slept past though and im not feeling well #but we needed for our for seeing each other we haven’t seen each other we were going to have watch tv #but im not feeling well i don’t like being sick i don’t like not being able to i just did walking today i did too far i dont like being sick #and it’s not fair for not doing anything i didn’t do anything shouldn’t count shouldn’t make me sick #i didn’t mean to be too much not being it’s not fair where im sick and turns so everything is cause of im sick it’s not fair i don’t want to #make it everything be it’s when im sick it’s not fair nobody can think about their self any more it’s not fair i didn’t mean to #and he wasn’t mad but it’s nkt j don’t want to be turned everything fkr where j just need help k want to be somebody on my own

[shittywriterbrain]

apologies to everyone who has to interact with me today or tomorrow because i just CANNOT be normal about hamlet and i WILL be doing this inside my head

#i have very complex feelings about fangirling over hamlet because like #its the best known play ever i think. like. yeah #like if i said oh my god do you know what makes you beautiful by one direction its so good i cannot be normal about it #but on the other hand. why should i care i should just enjoy this and not imagine that someones judging me the entire time #like yeah i guess for people who are into theater as well its like “basic” but who cares if youre basic yk this whole striving to be specia #is tiring and useless #and also. i could not tell you why i love hamlet. do Not know. i guess bc its drama and gay and emo i think thats why #i have no great theories about it i could not write an essay on hamlets character #i have however made a powerpoint about why hamlet is gay #im just ranting in the tags now i realise #sorry #hope you didnt read through all that #anyway #another one for the void #caspian is obsessed with hamlet