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paeinovis · 22 days
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Compiled this lil piece from solar filter I used during the eclipse and plants I grabbed from my friend's parents' yard in Arkansas (they have those cool helicopter seeds we don't have around Florida)! Included Jupiter and Venus symbols on two handheld filters since those planets were very visible during the eclipse, and bits of a cyanotype I did the day before! So all the components are directly related to the eclipse/general area I viewed it from :-)
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dishsaop · 29 days
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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians
#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic#im just like. tired of gnawing#and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get#content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky#young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me#im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances#m text#i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story#not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a#lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out#bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples#and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified#(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here#(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein#out as lesbian#like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has#to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just#and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so#yknow. personal viewer bias here#but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian#and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out#but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes#I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'
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desperatepleasures · 7 months
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guhhhh i am struggling so much with ch3
#i'd say i hate it but i also love it like#it's fun to torment conrart while simultaneously letting conrart sit on adalbert's face#and if i keep writing he'll get to like. be a little mean to adalbert lol. in a way that is potentially gonna be ambiguous as to#whether he's just domming without proper negotiation or just being shitty lmao. well we'll see how it ends up coming out#like ch3 and parts of ch4 are the chapters where it gets kinda Unhealthy between them and that's a lot of fun for me#but also it's so humiliating to write LMAO#also agonizing having to like. do exposition. i hate writing exposition#if it were up to me everything would be like. one vivid scene with some dialogue and that would tell you everything. but noooo i had to#go and write a multichap with like. a tiny bit of plot to glue the smut scenes together/give them context#which means i actually need to write that glue#...and i already skipped ahead the other day and wrote the face sitting scene LMAO so i really gotta do the difficult parts now#ofc when i finish ch3 i get to face the void that is ch4...#like i know in summary what happens in ch4 but i don't know the details about the like really vital scene#BUT!!! in ch5 i get to start writing the conzak bits which are possibly my favorite part :) (aside from ch2 which i like a lot)#...i can't believe it takes four fucking chapters just to get connie out of adalbert's house LMAO. im so sorry my boy#you are gonna have some fantastic orgasms and learn some new things about yourself. but at what cost#fic tag
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orcelito · 2 years
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Sometimes i look at statistics for # of ppl who have had suicidal thoughts / etc & I'm just kinda like. "There's No Way it's that low, right?"
Guys I think I have a normalized mindset that might not be entirely healthy
#speculation nation#suicide ment/#NO IT'S NOT HOW IT USED TO BE. im fine for the most part.#but it still feels so normal to me lmao and apparently it is not in any way normal#or at least. shouldnt be.#majority of people apparently never even consider it as an option#meanwhile theres me with my longstanding philosophy of like#'if i lose literally every single person who cares about me then yea im killing myself lol'#BUT it works the other way too where so long as i got ppl who care about me. even just one person. imma keep living#that's what got me outta my teen years and im just keeping going with it#the underlying idea being that if i get to the point where i have lost literally every person who cares about me#i probs have some Pretty Big Problems so the wish would inevitably be there anyways lol#but yea uhhhhh yea. it's much more quiet than it was when i was a teen and thank god for that#it's annoying to deal with lmao#but it's still so normalized in my mind. i can end up muttering some rly concerning shit to myself when im really really mad or frustrated#primarily at work lol. as it goes.#then again ive always had a screw loose & bad ex just rly knocked it out of order lol#patched it up with duct tape and gorilla glue. slaps the top of this hunk of barely functional meat. this babey sure can brain#....in theory lmao#sorry for the dark topic i promise im feeling fine. aside from the muscle soreness and fatigue lol#just saw a post that got me thinking about how weird & skewed my perspective is. And So It Goes.
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hallowforest · 10 months
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Figured out how to give it bendy feets and also made the back legs thicc so they dont look so odd
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likely the last image of him this Nakey. im hoping to paint him after all the minor final adjustments are made
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anisespice · 1 year
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“ the fuck-it list ” || hq!
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two || three
synopsis: there’s a list going around consisting of hot guys on campus that are deemed “fuckable” with theories as to what they’d be like in bed. it’s all fun and games until somehow your boyfriend ends up on this list. 
pairing: various x gn!reader [ kags, akaashi, atsumu, kenma ]
warnings: cursing, suggestive language, mild objectification, mentions of cheating, cringe descriptions that aren’t 100% accurate lol 
notes: based this off how my friend and i speculate about how the men in hq would be like in bed sooo it’s really just a little jokey joke, so have fun with her :] thinking of making more parts of this with other characters, lemme know what you guys think, and hope you enjoy!! 
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To be completely honest, KAGEYAMA wouldn’t know much about the list aside from maybe surface level stuff. He knew it was full of nonsensical speculations, nothing but weird projections put onto strangers by other strangers who found them attractive. It creeped him out a little, so that’s as far as he wished to know. 
Plus, he had no reason to care about some dumb list—He had you. 
“Have you seen this bullshit?!”  Well, speak of the devil. 
All the training in the world couldn’t have prepared his reflexes for the amount of whiplash you put him through in the span of ten seconds. There he was, minding his business in his dorm room, chilling with a volleyball, then BAM; he’s getting bum-rushed by his 5-foot-something significant other with smoke coming through their ears.
Good thing you had a key because the setter was certain you would’ve smashed right through his door by sheer force. 
“Huh??” Frankly, you startled the poor man. The ball that was in the middle of being set toward the ceiling came barreling down on his face, causing him more disorientation. “See—ouch. See what?” 
You stood there next to his bed, one hand on your hip while the other practically shoved your phone in his face. He squinted at the harsh light, but eventually his eyes adjusted enough to read the post. His lips formed a confused pout. “That stupid, horny hit-list? What about it?” 
“What about it? Some bitch put you on there! Just listen to this garbage, ‘Tobio Kageyama. 6’2ft stoic, and mean Dom who’s pretty damn good with his hands. It’s obvious how much of a perfectionist he is, so be ready for some killer overstimulation. Probably won’t make any noise, and doesn’t know much about aftercare. Overall score: 6/10’. Are they deadass right now?” 
Ah. Now he gets it. 
He figured it was only a matter of time, homie was very much aware of his status around campus, not to mention being a looker to top it off. However, he figured being in a relationship would lessen his chances of him ending up on it, especially since you weren’t a secret or anything. Guess that list really had no morality after all. Who’d have thought? 
“I mean, the audacity to put your name on it knowing damn well if anyone even tried it, I’d gorilla glue all their holes shut.” He snorted, face scrunching slightly at your unusual threat. But, something told him deep down you were being serious. 
You continued ranting while pacing back and forth. “But not only that, they completely warped your entire sexual identity just because, what, you know how to mind your business and happen to have a RBF?” 
“RBF?” He tilted his head, making you halt mid-rant to admire the adorable sight. How dare he? You were in the middle of seething, dammit. 
“Resting Bitch Face.” 
He frowned. “I don’t have that.” 
“Tobio, you’re doing it right now.”
He huffed, looking away from you in defiance. His face was fine, he thought, a perfectly normal face indeed. A handsome face, he’d even say. Immediately picking up on his sourness, you chuckled softly before reaching over to cup his face and make him look at you. Kageyama instinctively wrapped his arms around your waist, his frown still apparent, but a little less heavy once it met your soft gaze. “Don’t be pouty.”
“I’m not…” he mumbled, cheeks squished under your palms. A small blush bloomed across the apples at your teasing giggle. “You’re the one that’s upset, not me. Why do you care if they misrepresented how I am in bed? Shouldn’t you be happy it’s inaccurate?” 
Now it was your turn to huff, your bottom lip sticking out. Kageyama’s eyes honed in on its pillowy surface instantly, licking his own as he restrained himself; there’d be plenty of time for that later. 
“I mean, yeah but…I don’t know. It just…feels icky knowing there are random people around campus theorizing about your dick size in the comments, or if you cry after an orgasm. The least they could’ve done was be a little accurate if they’re gonna cause us all this trouble.” 
“Us? Pretty sure I’m the victim here. Who sucks at aftercare, apparently.” He scoffed, of which earned another giggle from you. “Besides, the only person I care about knowing any of that stuff is right here. They can take their 6/10 and fuck right off. I know my baby would rate me higher than that, right?” 
You pursed your lips, avoiding eye contact as you playfully ignored his obvious bait for praise. Kageyama doesn’t take too kindly to that. He softly glared at you, arms tightening their hold around your waist and pulling you even closer to his toned chest. 
“Oh, it’s like that, huh? That’s fine.”
Before you could register what happened, your boyfriend swept you up without struggle and gently tossed you onto his bed. “However, I will admit they were right about one thing.” 
With a slight bounce, you couldn’t fight the delighted squeal as you watched him prowl towards you. 
“Oh, really? And what’s that?”
He hummed softly, large hands traveling up your legs from the ankles all the way to your inner thighs before spreading them open to rest in between them. Finding home there for a brief moment, Kageyama practically smothered you under his gaze, attention once again zeroing in on your lips. He could feel his restraint dissipating, biting his own lip before slowly leaning down to place warm kisses against your skin. He left no spot unloved until he eventually stopped at your ear, his warm breath sending chills down your spine. 
“I’m pretty damn good with my hands.” 
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Like Kageyama, AKAASHI didn’t care to know much about the list. He knows a good chunk of guys that ended up on it personally, and based on the conversations he’s heard them have it sounded like nothing but trouble. 
And he was right to assume such. 
One afternoon a few of his friends came barreling toward him during his break in between classes, each sporting various expressions that ranged from extreme determination (Bokuto) to absolute amusement (Kuroo), while the third looked as if they were brought there against their will (Kenma). Slowly, Akaashi lowered his sandwich with a sigh; so much for a peaceful lunch. 
“AKAASHI.” Bokuto exclaimed, hands slamming down on the table to keep himself from nearly toppling the man. Akaashi flinched slightly at the volume, but before he could reprimand him, Bokuto grabbed him by his shoulders and looked him square in the eyes with grand intensity. “How could you be so selfish? I thought I raised you better than this, young man!”
The former setter gaped; that’s not at all what he was expecting to hear. It didn’t help when Kuroo started busting a lung, both hands on his knees as his hyena-esque laugh bounced off the walls of the canteen. Kenma side-eyed the business major before going back to playing some game on his phone, offering the ravenette a soft greeting, then helping himself to a chair. 
Akaashi acknowledged the pudding-head with a small nod, sharp eyes redirecting back to his senior as he removed the rough hands from his shoulders. “What are you talking about?” 
“I’m talking about you cheating on [_____]!” 
Akaashi blinked. Then, like a switch, his eyes nearly popped out his head as he registered the spiker’s words.  
“WHAT.” 
Kuroo, after finally catching his breath, gave a hearty exhale as he placed a hand on Bo’s shoulder. “Way to rip off the bandaid, buddy. Thought we agreed to work our way up to that part.” 
“Screw that! I demand answers! Can’t believe I’ve been friends with a no good, cheating scumbag, hmph.” Akaashi blanched at the harsh accusation, falling deeper and deeper into a state of pure shock. 
“Wait, hold on—”
“Whoa there, let’s not jump to conclusions. The man hasn’t even gotten the chance to speak for himself. I’m sure there’s a logical explanation for this whole thing.” Kuroo reasoned, but was obviously eating it up. Kenma lightly scoffed.
“You’re so full of shit.” He voiced, not even bothering to lift his gaze away from the game. Kuroo gasped dramatically at the dig, hand over his heart and everything. The former paid him no mind. 
Akaashi abruptly stood. “Can someone please tell me what the hell is going on? I’m not cheating on [______], who’s spreading such a thing?” 
Bokuto squinted. “Oya? Then how do you explain this?” 
Like incriminating evidence being shown to a jury, the silver-haired tank pulled up the updated version of the list on his phone that was posted over an hour ago. Akaashi was still perplexed until he saw it. His name. Oh, god no. 
Akaashi snatched the device to get a closer look just to make sure it wasn’t some sort of prank. To his dismay, the post was legit. Oh, god no. 
“You’ve gotta be kidding me…” 
“Uh huh, busted your ass!” Bokuto snatched the phone back only for Kuroo to then take it from him. “Hey!”
Clearing his throat, the sly bastard began reading the caption. “‘Keiji Akaashi. 6’0ft tall, pretty boy with intelligent steel blue eyes. His mysterious nature and bored expression would automatically put him under the Dom category, but I can see right through him.’ Wow, they make you sound like some sort of experiment.” 
“Don’t read that outloud!” Akaashi lunged forward, only to be stopped by a large hand in his face. “Omf-! Fohkuto-son!” 
“What? Ashamed of yourself? You should be, traitor!” 
Kuroo continued. “‘What many would believe to be the strong silent type, I believe there’s a sensitive side to him. That’s why I declare Keiji Akaashi to be a Switch with Sub-leaning tendencies, who’s not afraid to be vocal and would 100% let you peg him. 11/10. Would fuck again.’ Holy shit, this is gold.” 
“Jesus Christ,” Akaashi felt like his entire face was on fire. This was like his worst nightmare come to life, and apparently now everyone on campus could participate in his misery. “This cannot be happening to me…” 
“Oh, me, me, me. Is that really all you can say for yourself? What about [_____], huh? How do you think they’d feel after finding out their boyfriend is an unfaithful—”
“I DIDN’T CHEAT ON MY S/O, BOKUTO-SAN. That isn’t even the purpose of the list, you should know, you’re on it too!” 
Bokuto gaped. “I am??” 
Akaashi groaned, sinking back into his seat. His hands dragged across his face in distress, feeling as if he aged ten years from this mishap alone. But, Bokuto had a point—How were you feeling about all this? Had you seen it?
Luckily, he didn’t need to wonder for long. 
“Keiji!” 
He flinched, as did the two stooges hovering near him. Kenma was the only one to greet you normally while everyone else resembled deer in headlights; this immediately alarmed you. What you expected to be a surprise lunch with your boyfriend since your class let out early, now felt as if you just walked in on an intervention. After taking in the weird atmosphere, you eyed Akaashi with mild confusion. “Uh…is everything okay?”
“It’s all good, [_____]! Turns out my best friend isn’t a scumbag after all. Akaashi is definitely not cheating on you, so no harm done!” 
You did a double-take in bewilderment; didn’t expect that. “O..kay?”
Bokuto looked so proud of his declaration, chest puffed out whilst Kuroo looked like he could barely hold it together. Your boyfriend clearly had seen better days, frown heavy as he glared at his seniors; all he wanted was to eat his goddamn sandwich. 
Eventually, you decided to just take a seat next to him, pulling out your own food while the two former captains began bickering about who knows what. Kenma continued to play his game, happily taking the apple slices you graciously slid over to him as a boost. After you got situated, Akaashi instantly plopped his head right on your shoulder, desiring comfort from the emotional turmoil he just endured. 
You kissed away the stress lines on his forehead before opening up your bento, already having an idea in mind as to what’s gotten him so deflated. But, you spared him any further humiliation—You planned to report that stupid post later anyways. 
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You chilled outside the locker rooms waiting for ATSUMU, upon his request to walk you back to the dorms after practice was over. You told him there was no need, that you’d be fine walking back on your own, but he insisted. 
And you were so glad he did. 
While you were waiting, you mindlessly scrolled on Twitter until a familiar username caught your attention; @/FckIt22. Everyone knew of the infamous ‘Horny Bucket List’ going around and boosting already inflated egos, speculating and even sometimes outing people of their most lewd fantasies with popular guys on campus. You couldn’t help but watch the drama unfold every time there’d be a new update to the list, eating it up whenever it’d be someone you knew, or someone you would’ve never guessed to be on it. 
And to your surprise, after you refreshed the page, it was both. Your mouth was slightly ajar when a picture of your boyfriend’s boyish grin greeted you, in his volleyball jersey, soaked with sweat and hair pushed back from his forehead; looking like a full course meal. 
Eagerly, you tapped in to read the thread attached to the image, intrigued to know what was said about Atsumu until… 
“...The fuck?” 
As quick as your excitement came, there it went. Right there, in big letters for the whole campus, no, the entire internet to see was your boyfriend’s face attached with someone else’s name. And not just any someone. 
‘O S A M U   M I Y A’ 
You didn’t know whether to laugh, or what. Could they’ve seriously not been bothered to make sure they had the right twin? And not only that, they mentioned you in the thread. Didn’t bother to @ you, though.
That only pissed you off even further.
‘Osamu Miya. 6’1ft of muscle and charm, whose insatiable appetite won’t be satisfied until he’s had your thighs wrapped around his face for an hour AT LEAST. Not the most expressive, but make no mistake that he’s the ultimate brat tamer; no doubt [______] could attest to that.’
“I know damn well they didn’t just…” You muttered in disbelief, shaking your head as you read on.
‘But, if you’re good, he mayyyy let you top. Don’t think for a second you’re in control tho. Unlike his brother, he’s got Dom energy for daysss. Doubt this man does anything but grunt and groan, but overall he still gets an 8/10. Yum ♡.’ 
Wow.
You weren’t expecting to see your future brother-in-law painted in this light today, but supposed there was a first for everything. To be fair, whomever ran the account sure knew how to sell a fantasy, but it didn’t excuse the lack of decorum they had. You felt a little disturbed, almost violated. One could only imagine how the twins would feel if they saw this…
“Hey there, stranger.” You jumped slightly at the sudden intrusion; speak of the devil. Atsumu wrapped his arms around your middle from behind, placed his chin on your shoulder, and gave a loving squeeze. “Ya ready?” 
“Uh, yeah.” You quickly locked your phone.
A little too quick. 
A small pout formed on his face. He immediately called you out. “What’re ya lookin’ at?” 
“Hm?”
“Your phone, y’were lookin’ at something.” Noticing your shifty behavior, his grip around you loosened a little as he strained his neck to look you square in the face. It wasn’t long before a teasing grin spread across his. His eyebrows wiggled, “Ya lookin’ at porn?” 
With a roll of your eyes, you lightly jabbed him in his bicep. “Yeah, ‘Tsumu. I was totally looking at porn. You got me.”  
Atsumu shrugged, sporting an even bigger grin as he started to sway both of you. “Hey, no judgement here. But don’t forget ya got the real deal right here, darlin’. Whenever you need it, your lovely boyfriend will take care of ya. All’s ya gotta do is ask.”
He spun you around in his hold, and grabbed your hips. With low, tired eyes he stared deeply into your soul. His lopsided grin brought more damage to your already fluttering heart, not to mention his semi that was now pressed against your stomach; this man had been dying to have you in his arms for a while, it seemed. However, even with this sexual tension growing between the two of you...you just couldn’t help yourself. 
“I’ll be sure to keep that in mind, Osamu.”
Immediately, his grin dropped. You did your best to remain stoic, but the absolute disgust that took over his face was just too good. Your body began to shake with laughter, small snickers escaping you as you bit your lip to hold it back. Atsumu was not amused.
“That joke wasn’t funny back in high school, [______], still ain’t funny now…”
“Oh, this is no joke. As of today, my boyfriend’s Osamu Miya, and apparently he’s my brat-tamer. Did you know that he won’t even let me top unless I’ve been good-?”
“Knock it off.” Atsumu glared, gently pinching your sides. You squirmed, but the teasing smile you had didn’t falter. “What’s gotten into ya? Tryin’ to get a rise outta me or somethin’?”
“Oh, you haven’t seen it yet?”
“Seen what?”
You unlocked your phone and showed him the thread. Atsumu held a look of utter confusion, squinting at it until it eventually registered what you were showing him. He’d heard about the list that circled around on campus, some of his friends and teammates used to brag, or complain about it to him when they ended up on it. At first, he found it entertaining…but now?
“THE FUCK?”
He snatched the phone out of your hands to get a closer look, catching on to what you’d originally been hiding from him in the beginning; Atsumu wished it had been porn.
“That’s what I said!” You laughed, incredulously. “The nerve of them to just mix the two of you up like that. And to add me into it without even bothering to tag me? Probably ‘cause they knew I’d call them out on their bullshit. Can you believe-”
“‘Unlike his brother, he’s got Dom energy for days’?? I totally have Dom energy! We’re fucking twins, why wouldn’t I? And ‘Samu ain’t no brat-tamer! If anythin’, he’s the goddamn brat.” Somewhere on campus, Osamu sneezed.
You stood there in bewilderment. That’s what he’s concerned about? 
Crossing your arms, you watched him in astonishment. “So, you don’t care that they used your picture? Or the insinuation that I sleep with your brother?”
“‘Course I do! Ya think I like the idea of his filthy mouth being anywhere near you? And usin’ my picture to clickbait my supporters is just cheap. But nothin’ pisses me off more than anyone thinkin’ that bastard has better game than me. 8/10 my ass…”
You snorted. Why were you not surprised?
Taking a small step closer you grabbed his wrist and lowered it, bringing his attention away from the phone. Atsumu now wore a heavy pout, one that you couldn’t help but to kiss; so you did. With a free hand you reaching up to his nape and pulled him downward, capturing his lips. Catching him off guard, man nearly dropped your phone when your tongue slipped into his mouth. With a soft groan, Atsumu wrapped an arm around your waist as he tilted his head in response to your sudden affection, deepening the kiss as it instantly made his mind go blank.
You pulled away too soon for his liking, the blonde blindly chasing after you with his eyes still closed as a light chuckle escaped you. You thumbed at his bottom lip, wiping some of the spit left behind as he slowly opened his eyes. Atsumu’s honey-gaze seared right into you, the hunger from early returning as the semi he sported was now fully hard, thick and heavy as it pressed against your stomach—So fucking whipped, after just one kiss. And you wouldn’t have it any other way.
Gazing at him lovingly, your nails raked gently through his hair as he practically melted into you. For a moment, you thought he’d start purring.
“What do they know, huh? How about you take me to my dorm and remind me why Atsumu Miya, my lovely boyfriend, is the only one who takes good care of me. Then, we’ll put that account on blast afterwards, what d’you say?”
His boyish grin reappeared, leaning in to place his forehead on yours. “Thought you’d never ask.”
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KENMA felt indifferent about the list. Nothing about it made sense to him, and he left it at that. It didn’t matter how many times his friends brought it up, or how many people whispered about it during lectures—He had no opinion on it. 
“You’re not even a little curious?” Hinata asked.
“No. Not in the slightest.”
The two of them were chilling in the canteen, in the student gaming section, both occupied with their own respective poisons. While Hinata farmed pixelated fruit on his switch, Kenma battled npcs on the public-shared ps4. The copper-head talked on and on about trivial subjects since they’ve arrived, ranging from tough assignments he nearly failed to new moves he tried in volleyball, while the quieter of the two responded occasionally when he felt it necessary. 
Hinata gasped, looking up from his game in genuine surprise. “Whoa, Bakayama said the exact same thing. You and him are probably one of the few guys I know who aren’t interested in knowing if they’re on the list. Well, you two and Suckyshima. And Sakusa-san...and...”
This went on for a good minute. 
Kenma sighed, neutral expression not matching the rapid movement of his thumbs across the controller. “It’s just some dumb list. Not like it benefits anyone.”
“Sure it does! I heard it brought lots of people together,” Hinata paused, tilting his head as he hummed in thought. “Although, I also heard it split people up, too. And caused a lot of rumors…and got that one professor fired…”
Yet another minute, passed. 
Kenma couldn’t help but snort, at least finding his rambling endearing enough to stomach yet another pointless conversation about that accursed list—Why people were so obsessed with it was beyond him. 
“Sounds like a lot of drama. No thanks.”
There’s silence between the two of them, the sound effects from their games being the only thing filling the space. Kenma continued rapidly mashing buttons, tongue sticking out as he concentrated on the level. However, he couldn’t help but feel like they were being watched. They were in a public space, sure, but…something definitely felt off. Choosing to ignore it, he refocused on the game. Hinata just finished up harvesting his watermelons when he suddenly let out a teasing chuckle.
“I wonder if [______] checked.”
Kenma’s thumbs stop. His character was taking incredible amounts of damage, but none of it registered after the mere mention of your name; the pudding-head flushed red. After a moment, he regained composure and went back to smashing buttons, ignoring how slippery his hands just got.  
 “…Why would they do that?” He muttered. 
Hinata shrugged, “Well, just because you’re not curious doesn’t mean they aren’t. Believe it or not, you’re a good looking guy, Kenma-san. And if there’s a fuck-list going around where my s/o might end up on it, I’d wanna be the first to know.”
Hm. Couldn’t argue with that. He always feared you’d end up on the list, but eventually realized it only catered to a certain demographic, mostly focused on the more sociable students, so he figured there was no other reason to care. It’d be a waste of time, Kenma knew for a fact there’d be no chance of him being on it, his outward appearance be damned.
He practically spent his first couple of semesters cooped up in his room, going to class, bare minimum socializing, streamed with his camera off, rinsed and repeated. He didn’t make many new friends during that time, and met you completely by happenstance during a late night cram session in the library; how in the fresh hell would anyone think about fucking him if he rarely gave other people the time of day? 
Kenma kissed his teeth, “You’re being annoying.”
Hinata merely flashed a bright grin, leaning over to playfully poke him in the arm. “Don’t mind~!” 
The dirty-blonde playfully swatted at the intruding hand, earning a bright laugh and another poke from the ginger just for shits n’ giggles, before he returned back to his video game. Unfortunately, the eyes around him didn’t falter, some being less obvious about it whilst others didn’t even try to hide their blatant staring. After a while it started to get uncomfortable, even Hinata couldn’t help getting concerned once he started to notice.
“Uh…is it just me, or are we drawing in a crowd?”
“I dunno. Maybe they’re just waiting for me to get off the game…” Kenma reasoned. But deep down, something told him that wasn’t the case at all.
After some time passed with the situation not getting any better, he decided to just call it a night. There was no point in trying to relax anymore with all those people pointing and whispering. As he began to leave the game, not bothering to save his progress, his phone buzzed. Immediately, Kenma knew it had to have been you—He kept everyone else on DND. When he unlocked his phone, though, the gamer was shocked to see the overwhelming amount of notifications on the screen, all from his closest friends, minus the one he’s currently with. 
It appeared they’d been trying to get his attention for a while. You must’ve been the last resort, as your message urged him to meet at your place.  He didn’t need to be told twice, grateful for this escape from the prying eyes of the random bystanders. 
“I’m heading over to [_____]’s. Sorry to cut our time short.” 
The ginger simply smiled. “It’s okay, know you don’t like crowds. See ya later, Kenma-san!” 
Kenma curtly nodded, offering a tiny smile in gratitude. Slinging his bag over his shoulder, he made haste for the nearest exit, keeping his gaze locked on the ground until he made it outside. He could feel the eyes following him as he left, making a cold chill run down his spine. He couldn’t wait to get to your place.
When he eventually arrived, his knuckle barely grazed the door before it flew wide open, startling him a little. Before he even had time to catch his jumping heart, you pulled him into your embrace, making him tense up slightly until he soon melted into your familiar warmth. Sanctuary. 
“I’m so sorry, Ken. You must be devastated.” 
“Um, I’m fine...” he mumbled. Your arms only grew a little tighter around him, as if you were…shielding him? Eventually you pulled back just enough to look at him, searching his eyes for something he couldn’t quite put his finger on. “Why would I be devastated?”
You blinked widely at him. “You mean you hadn’t seen it?”
He squinted, visibly confused, and your silence did little to calm his wariness. Another cold chill traveled down his spine, hairs on the back of his neck standing straight up as he struggled to figure out what this feeling meant. It wasn’t until after you gave a strained smile, sympathy swirling within your gaze, did it eventually hit him like a semi truck. The flooded messages, the suffocating stares, the whispers...It couldn’t be. 
He slowly began to shake his head. “No...”
You exhaled. “Yes.”
‘Kenma Kozume. 5′6ft recluse with the mannerisms of a kitten. But don’t let his meek demeanor fool you—it’s always the quiet ones you need to look out for. Though his posture may appear questionable, we all know it’s because of the monster between his legs dragging him down, baggy clothes no doubt concealing an absolute masterpiece of toned skin for you to mark up. The effort he puts into playing video games, don’t expect the same amount in the bedroom. I believe Kenma to be a lazy Switch with Sub energy, who’ll spend most of the session on his back, but that’s okay. We stan a pillow prince. 9/10.’
He looked at your phone with mild disgust. “You’re fucking joking.”
“'fraid not. It was posted less than an hour ago, probably while you were gaming with Hinata. Kuroo was the first to see it, and sent it to the groupchat. That’s why I assumed you had seen it already. Dammit, I knew someone would notice how hot you were sooner or later. And here I thought I was doing a good job gate-keeping you. ”
“Don’t just say stuff like that out loud...” He flushed, tugging on your sleeve in mild embarrassment. After composing himself, Kenma let out an irritated exhale. “What a pain. Whatever, this’ll probably blow over by tomorrow. Someone else will be posted and they’ll forget all about me. Guess I’ll just keep an even lower profile until then. Shouldn’t be too difficult.” 
Laying together on your Snorlax beanbag chair, Kenma turned on his stomach to bury himself in the plush cushion, wanting to forget this whole nightmare. But, you weren’t gonna let him wallow so easily. Tugging on the shoulder part of his sleeve to get his attention, Kenma groaned before tilting his head slightly to peek at you with one eye through the curtain of his hair. 
“You don’t understand, Ken. Bitches practically froth at the mouth for the sexy, socially awkward, gamer-boy type with the messy hair and lax attitude. I would know, I am bitches!” He snickered softly, rolling his visible eye. “My point is, this most definitely will not blow over by tomorrow. Not when they’re already hooked on the fantasy of you.”
“Exactly, a fantasy.” He said, slightly muffled. Shifting to lay on his back, Kenma rested his arms behind his head as he stared at the ceiling. “Meaning they’ll never get to know the real thing, so eventually they’ll get bored. You shouldn’t work yourself up over this, kitten.” 
“Yeah, but what if someone-” 
Reaching over, Kenma gently flicked your forehead. With a soft yelp, you half-heartedly glared at him before going to retaliate with your own flick. He merely grinned, eyes full of mirth as he swiftly grabbed the hand and used it to pull you in closer. “They won’t. And even if they do, I'll just get Kuroo to tell one of his lame jokes to scare ‘em off. Problem solved.” 
You lightly hit his arm, but still graced him with a laugh. Somewhere on campus, said rooster-head sneezed. 
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cherrygenshin · 11 months
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Obey Me! Rut HC's
Warnings: SMUT! 18+! MINORS DNI! Breeding, that's about it lol, it's pretty tame for smut.
GN reader
Smut under the cut!
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Lucifer
His rut lasts a bit longer than most demons, usually goes for one or two weeks.
Wouldn't really want you involved due to the fact his nature can be a tad uncontrollable during his rut, but will let you aid him if you insist.
His pride goes absolutely wild during his ruts. He doesn't normally mark you? Now he does. He doesn't normally like the idea of people watching? Now he'll take you anywhere, even if people are around.
Also becomes very possessive. Watch out if he smells one of his brothers on you, you WILL be punished.
Likes it when you're loud and will purposefully try to make you scream, he wants his brothers to hear who's pleasing you so well.
Actually uses LESS dirty talk while he's in his rut. His brain is filled with thoughts of breeding you and bringing himself pleasure, he doesn't really have the mental capacity to think of sexy things to say.
On that note, in place of where he'd usually talk, he grunts and groans.
Even though his brain is telling him to breed, he's not that keen on the idea of kids. He already has 6 brothers to look after, does he really need more responsibility?
In the short periods where his strong urges reside, he will make sure to be incredibly attentive to you, making sure you're staying hydrated, smothering you in kisses and praise of how well you're doing for him.
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Mammon
His rut is normally pretty short, only lasting 4 or so days.
He's demenor doesn't really change too much, he's pretty horny in general so you're used to being pulled aside for a quickie when he needs one.
Actually makes a little nest in his room, piling his blankets, pillows, shirts, and anything of yours he can find all together.
Unlike Lucifer, he will purposefully seek you out and ask for your help during his ruts. You're his human, you're both in this together!
Like glue to your side, in the small moments you're not fucking like rabbits he will be at your side, touching you in some way. Makes him more domestic??
Becomes slightly more subby, will beg much faster than usual and will whine/cry when reaching his climax.
DIRTY TALK KING?? "Fuck yes, gonna fill you up" "Wanna take my cum baby? Yeah you do." "Gonna breed you, gonna make y' nice and full with my seed."
Can't keep his fucking mouth shut, not that you mind.
Like Lucifer, he is an aftercare king. He's canonically really caring in general, and thankfully his rut doesn't take away from that. You're his special human, he needs to make sure you're okay :)
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Leviathan
Poor baby gets hit HARD, his ruts last for two or more weeks.
He won't approach you for help, you'll have to seek him out and offer to help him. Maybe even have to beg him to let you help him. Poor boy is just so embarrassed!
When he eventually agrees to letting you help, be prepared to not leave his room for days on end.
Nest King 👑 Fills his little tub up with all of his body pillows (and maybe he's got one of your panties hidden in amongst the pillows) it gets so full you can't even tell there's a bathtub under all that mess.
His tail will be wrapped around you 24/7, even when you're not busy going at it.
Gets very possessive, but in a quiet way? He won't openly tell you he's unhappy that --- spoke to you, but there will be signs.
LAYS EGGS!!!
Has two dicks for a reason, one lays eggs and one fertilises them.
The idea of you carrying his eggs drives him absolutely insane, he will cum at just the thought of you with your belly swollen with his eggs.
Loud, like, ridiculously loud. You know the way pornstars moan like they're receiving the best pleasure they've ever received the moment they get touched?? That's Levi.
Even though he's the one breeding you, he still begs when he's close to climax. "Please lemme fill you up!" "Please, please take my cum!"
Unfortunately bb boy isn't big on aftercare, he barely takes care of himself so it may be up to you to make sure you're both hydrated and well fed. He appreciates you very much though and will be sure to tell you.
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jamiesshelves · 10 days
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Parts of TSC I can't stop thinking about (after my first read)
Jean having a few minutes before Riko got to him and using it to text Renee a warning. NOT asking her to help him. But warning her. Probably to protect Kevin and Neil more than himself.
Jean viewing himself as a captive with Wymack and Abby
Jean calling Neil Nathaniel until that sudden switch (just like when Neil thought of himself as Nathaniel)
Jean being the same age as Neil, so one of the youngest characters we know
Jean worshipping Thea and her calling him Paris
Jean throwing out Andrew's candy
Jean roasting Aaron for being unimportant even with a murder investigation going on
Renee giving Jean forehead kisses
"Right person, wrong time"
Jean taking Renee's picture and it being the only picture he has
The way the world perceives Riko as a martyr after his death
The way the world brushes aside that he almost killed Neil on live TV
"The only one close enough was andrew"
Jean reaching towards the TV as if he could save Neil and wanting him and Andrew to run
Jeremy being brunette through the events of TFC
The Trojans being okay with their plan for the foxes game because they knew they'd lose to the ravens eventually anyway
Jeremy living at home and having an estranged family situation
Jeremy having a butler he loves and trusts more than his family
BarkBark
Jean's promise to Kevin
Jean calling Kevin a "beautiful boy"
Both Jean and Jeremy trusting Kevin whole heartedly
Kevin giving truths about the nest to Jeremy
Kevin admitting to sticking to Andrew like glue because he didn't know how to be by himself after the nest
The coaches concern as they realize the way raven coaches treated Jean
The rumors about Jean and that Neil never thought of them
Jean being confirmed a bi king and simping over everyone except canon beautiful Neil
Jean probably not simping after Neil because he's the partner that could've been, aka a brother/safe space he never got
Jean not realizing why top surgery scars, and his abuse scars, would be seen differently
Jean not understanding why Trojans can pick their own clothes, food, majors, etc
Andrew letting Neil go to the FBI in California without him because he trusts his runaway to come back
Neil's immediate response to hearing about Greyson is hiring a hitman
Neil sassing the FBI
"I guess Drake wasn't a biter"
Neil telling Jean he can lock his door if it makes him feel safe but he doesn't have to worry anymore
Cat wanting to teach Jean to ride a motorcycle
"Kevin has earned the right to be"
Jean being afraid to ever teach anyone French again
Jeremy hiding from the police
Elodie
"That's putting it mildly." WHAT THE FUCK STUART.
Jean's list.
Jean still texting Renee
The reason the Trojans stay so positive
"I'm not safe with you anymore"
The parallels between Jean and Neil
Jean thinking he never got anything he didn't deserve
Jean only having a carry on bag like Neil
Wymack giving Jean money and his note
The Trojans giving Jean forehead kisses
Jeremy being into Jean but wanting to allow Jean to be able to heal first
Honestly more but this is enough for now lol
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pasukiyo · 2 years
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𝐠𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐭.
read part two here.
— steve harrington x f!reader
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warnings; angsty smut lol, agreed arrangement
a/n; i have no idea how or why i’m writing so much lol but pulled this one out of my ass, so enjoy <3
word count; 2.8k
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“…can you come over?”
 as much as she hated it, her heart would race every single time he called and asked that very same question. despite his intentions, excitement would still surge through her veins at the idea of seeing him, of feeling him, of being with him. 
 “…yeah. yeah, i’ll be over in ten.”
 “you’re the best. see you in ten.”
 the line went dead when he hung up, but she still clutched onto the phone, her fingers toying with the cord as she pursed her lips together, her chest heaving when she drew air back into her lungs. she knew it was wrong to be feeling this way— to feel that little sliver of hope pricking her heart— when she knew all too well what his intentions were. 
 she could remember the first time she stepped foot in steve harrington’s bedroom like it was yesterday. she could remember the way he sounded on the phone, his voice meek and ready to break at any given moment while he pleaded with her to come over. she remembered the beating of her own heart and how she could hear it in her eardrums as she got herself ready, even dressed herself in her most favorite dress— the one that hugged her body in all the right places, the one that was his favorite color. 
 she remembered how pretty she made herself for him, she remembered the walk to his house, the nervous steps she made to his front porch, the way her heart skipped several beats when she knocked her fist against his front door. she also remembered his face when he did eventually answer, his cheeks sticky and swollen with the remnants of his tears. she remembered how she felt her world shatter as she drew him into her arms, how her heart cracked into a plethora of tiny pieces when he told her what had happened with nancy wheeler. 
 nancy wheeler. she should’ve known. 
 she should’ve known better from the start— she was always going to be second to nancy wheeler, whether that be in class, or in steve’s heart. it didn’t matter— she was never going to be good enough. it was something she’d grown and learned to accept— or at least, tried to. 
 she remembered later that day after she had let steve talk it all out, when he first proposed to idea to her. 
 and she remembered the way she agreed with hardly any hesitation at all. 
 she remembered the way she felt being touched by steve harrington for the first time, the boy she’d been mooning over since middle school. she remembered everything about that night— she even dreamed about it from time to time. 
 and she remembered every night like it after that, how she’d throw her feelings aside in exchange for a night tangled in the sheets with steve, to be the one who got to hold him at least for a little while— even if she ended up feeling the heartbreak when she eventually returned home.
 nevertheless, she still made herself as pretty as she could for him, searching through her closet for her favorite sundress, one he had complimented her on many times before. she still checked her hair in the mirror, purposefully avoiding her own eyes, afraid of what she might find. she made sure she smelled good, made sure not a bump or blemish was visible on her skin. 
 she was almost certain that none of it mattered— steve didn’t care anyways. 
 he just needed an outlet for all of his stress.
 she was perfect— she was willing and compliant, and always there, which was just what he needed.
 and if she couldn’t be nancy wheeler for him, it was the very least she could do.
 her feet moved on autopilot towards his house, her fingernails etching crescents into the skin of her wrist, her mind foggy, but her heart racing. she never quite understood her heart, why it wanted something she knew she’d never have. she wondered if perhaps she was always meant to break in order to glue others back together, if that was her purpose after all. if so, why couldn’t she be immune to the pain her heart went through?
 her chest heaved as she inhaled, air rushing into her lungs whilst her palms soothed over the wrinkles of her clothes, tucking her hair behind her ears as she made her way towards steve’s front door. she’d been here so many times before, but something felt.. different. perhaps it was just the nerves, she thought. 
 maybe.
 her fist rapped against his door, her palms slick with sweat as she locked her fingers together, rocking back and forth on her heels as she waited for him to welcome her in. she could hear his heavy footsteps just beyond the door, and she sucked in a sharp intake of breath, holding it at the base of her throat as the wood in front of her swung open, and there he stood.
 steve harrington, in all of his glory, stood before her, his lips curved into a small smile as he stepped out of the way, welcoming her into his home. “hey,” he greeted, closing the door behind her as she slipped her shoes off of her feet, neatly setting them beside the door. “hi,” she replied, daring a glance up at him. his eyes were delicate and sweet, like chocolate, and she melted, tearing her gaze away before she dug herself a deeper hole than what she was already in. 
 “you look pretty today, as always,” steve complimented, his palm giving her shoulder a squeeze. “i like your dress.”
 he said it every time she wore the exact one. she still flushed at his comment, ducking her head as her irises cowered to the ground, tucking a loose strand of hair back behind her ear. “thank you,” she grinned as his palm slithered its way to the small of her back, her body jolting in his touch’s wake. “should we go upstairs?” he asked, to which she replied with a nod. 
 his hand never once left her back as he guided her towards the stairs, down the hallway she knew all too well, and past the door into his bedroom, the familiar white walls with the pattern she found horrid, but never had the courage to say it to his face. she eyed the bed she’d laid on, and slept on, and other things on more times than she can count, heat searing at her cheeks as the memories came flooding in.
 she watched as steve paced the room, his brow furrowed, something seemingly on his mind. “are you alright?” she questioned quietly as she sat herself down on the edge of his mattress, tilting her head to get a better read of his face. his teeth pinched his bottom lip in place, worrying the soft, pink flesh.
 “jonathan moved to california.”
 oh.
 “oh,” she nodded, her fingers linking together and resting on her lap. she shook her head, “i’m sorry, i guess i’m confused.”
 “nance said they hadn’t broken up, but she doesn’t know how long he’s gonna be gone and—“
 she didn’t hear anything else he said. she felt as if a weight had been dropped down onto her chest, knocking the breath out of her lungs and suffocating her.
 of course. of course this was all about finding his way back to nancy. she should’ve known— how could she be so stupid?
 the more she watched his lips move as he ranted on and on about trying to find a way back into nancy wheeler’s heart, the more frustrated and restless she became. why couldn’t he just see that she was right there?
 she’s always been right there, even before nancy wheeler. she was there for every basketball game, for every swim meet, for every heartbreak and everything in between. she was there for him through thick and thin— hell, she was practically tearing herself apart just giving herself to him like this, letting him use her to make every one of his worries and frustrations melt away.
 why couldn’t he see that she was sacrificing so much for him? why couldn’t he just see that she loved him?
 she cursed herself for being so silent, so unable to express how she truly felt, because the truth was, she was tired. she wanted steve harrington more than anything else in the world, but she wanted to be more than just his toy. she wanted to be what nancy wheeler was to him, she wanted to be the one with the key to his heart, the one he talked about so tenderly, the one he was in love with. she wanted to tell him that she loved him and for him to reciprocate the feelings back, she just wanted him.
 she hated that at the end of the day, she knew she’d never be able to tell him what was actually on her mind, that she’d let him pull her around on his string, that she’d submit to him as long as she got to at least be with him physically.  
 she realized that steve had gone silent, and he was worrying his bottom lip with his teeth again, his arms crossed over his chest, his fingers weaving through the hair atop his head. so, she suppressed everything, every feeling, thought, anything she had for steve harrington and rose to her feet, sauntering her way over to where he stood, enveloping his hand with both of hers. she braved a look up at him, capturing his eyes with her gaze as she brought the pad of his thumb to her lips, blessing his skin with her kiss. his jaw clenched and locked in place as she kissed his thumb again, and then his forefinger, then his middle finger, then the next one, and the next. 
 “i’m right here, steve,” she purred, her heart swelling in her chest at the ambiguity of her words. “use me.”
 and he did.
 steve’s opposite hand cupped the back of her head, his fingers tangling themselves in her hair as he drew her lips into his, his kiss vigorous and incessant as he laid her down onto his mattress, his palms caressed her waist and ventured further down to the hem of her dress, his fingertips a match against the flesh at her thighs. she let everything else melt away in this moment and chose to instead pretend that they were together, like they were in love. her fingers tugged at the brown ringlets on his head, moaning into his mouth as he tugged her dress up her body, breaking away from the kiss only to lift it all the way over her head. 
 “sh.. shit,” she gasped when his palms kneaded her breasts, her erect nipples sensitive against his skin. steve’s lips worked their way down to her chin and just below her jaw, his tongue swirling against the delicate skin of her neck and sucking a mark there, kissing the bruise he left in his wake. she could feel the tent in his pants against her thigh, and she grabbed at the collar of his shirt, gesturing that she wanted it off. he pulled away from her skin, his irises surging into hers as he tugged his shirt up and over his head, and she eyed the hair that had been growing on his chest as of lately, her lips trembling when he kissed her collarbone. 
 “you’re so…” he trailed off as his tongue licked all the way down to the valley of her breasts, his breath fanning over her peaked nipples. “…god, you’re so pretty,” he sighed, taking her nipple into his mouth, her back arching up off of the bed, her toes curling in. her heart skipped a beat at his words— she still wasn’t sure if it was normal for him to say such things when they technically weren’t together.
 she shook the thought away as his mouth trailed over to her other breast, kneading the opposite as he cherished her chest, groaning into her skin. she bucked her hips up into his and he growled at the friction against his erection, tearing away from her skin to unbutton his jeans, hooking his fingers over the waistband of his pants and his boxers before tugging them down his legs. she whimpered at the sight and squirmed as he kicked the pool of clothes away from his feet, his fingers now hooking over the hem of her panties and sliding them down her legs before tossing them to the other side of the room, not caring where they ended up.
 “steve,” she whispered as she caught a glimpse of the leaking head of his pretty, big cock, desire tying a knot at the pit of her belly and tugging, her cunt throbbing with her arousal. his fingers wrapped themselves around his girth and he gave himself a few pumps, his other hand teasing at her folds, gathering her slick before smearing it all over his length, throwing his head back and knitting his eyebrows together. 
 “all wet just for me,” he whispered, admiring the way her pussy fluttered at his words. “such a pretty, little pussy, just waiting for me to fuck it,” he cooed, swiping sweaty strands of hair away from her face and planting his lips against the crown of her head. “you ready?”
 she pursed her lips together, suddenly unable to make eye contact with him when she reminded herself that no matter how hard she tried to pretend— he wasn’t hers. she was here only to make him feel good, to be his stress reliever. 
 and no matter how tired she was, she would give herself to him a million times over and over again.
 “mhm,” she hummed as she nodded, toes curling when he slapped her aching clit with the tip of his cock. he rubbed up and down against her folds before he finally pushed himself in, and she heaved at the stretch, her fingers gripping the sheets as she screwed her eyelids shut and arched her back. “ffffuck, you’re always so goddamn tight,” he hissed as he filled her all way up to the absolute brim, hair falling over his face as he dropped his head. “feels so damn good.”
 and she let him set his own pace, the sound of skin assaulting skin permeating his bedroom as he pounded into her, his grip like iron on her hips. tears brimmed the outskirts of her sockets as she lost herself in the pleasure, her fingers locking around one of his wrists as the other kept a grip on the sheets beside her. “steve, please, feels so good,” she mewled as he came to an abrupt stop, suddenly feeling unsatisfied with missionary. he flipped her over onto her stomach and hooked an arm beneath her hips, pushing her up onto her knees until her ass hung in the air, her cunt dripping with her nectar. 
 “shit, gonna let me wreck that little pussy, hm?” he cooed as his palm struck her ass, pushing his cock back into her dripping hole, his hands once again gripping her hips as he absolutely destroyed her cunt, her moans muffled in the pillow below. it was so much to feel all at once— to be touched by steve harrington, to be fucked by steve harrington. she held onto every sensation she felt as if it may be the last time she ever experience it— because it very well may be. 
 and that was what she was afraid of.
 “steve..” she cried, fucking herself back against him to meet his brutal thrusts. “i’m.. i’m gonna come.”
 “yeah? gonna come all over me?” he panted, pistoning his hips harder into her. “me too. come. let me feel it, come all over my cock f’ me.”
 her orgassm possessed her body, her limbs locking and as if lightning had struck her, she jolted, her tears soaking his pillow. a string of curses tumbled from steve’s lips as his hips stuttered and he finally released, toppling over her body to calm himself down after his high. 
 it gave her heart more than enough time to sting inside of her chest.
 her chest hurt, she was in silent agony, as he rolled off of her body and settled himself into the mattress beside her, his arms drawing her in close to his chest, longing for that connection. she didn’t say anything, she didn’t protest, she didn’t even struggle underneath his touch.
 she just let him do whatever he wanted.
 “you okay?” steve must’ve noticed the blank stare on her face, his eyebrows knitting together in concern as he gazed down at her. 
 she had every opportunity to tell him how she felt then. she could have either destroyed their relationship or started something new at that very moment. she was uncertain, all she could do was try and find out. the ball was in her court.
 “..yeah. yeah.. i’m fine.”
 her heart wasn’t ready to go for it— it was a harder thing to do than to say. 
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heartfullofleeches · 2 years
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Ok so, do y'all know the game cult of the lamb?? I keep imagining Reader being the last worshiper of a entity who keeps demanding more and more followers from the reader who is like DESPERATELY trying to find new members for the cult. Mf running around with pamphlets and glue to stick them to walls and stuff. And also, I think it would be kinda funny if some people just started joining the cult for the reader and not for the entity lol
"Thank you all for joining me in the worship of our merciful leader. I was too once like you all, lost soul in need of a flock to call my own. We can all join together in harmony now and be one."
You look around the crowd; relieved before compare that you finally had other followers for the deity that demanded worship and sacrifice, who had left the task in your hands. After weeks of trying to convince people, a large group of them just randomly appeared one day. Standing above them all, they look upon you with awe and disbelief. It was... honestly kind of odd. They seemed to be focused on you rather than the mercy and power of your lord. You could've sworn you heard someone say, "They're even cuter up close", but that may have been the heat of the sun frying your brain. Your proud facade breaks. You take a deep breath.
"Ok- I'm super happy that you all are here, but may I ask why you're here? I've been doing this for a while and most people just think I'm crazy."
There's mutters through the crowd. Somewhere in the front, someone sheepishly raises their hand.
"I only came because I wanted to see if joining meant I had a chance to ask you out.'
What.
"Me too! I thought I was the only one. I heard rumors that to become a part of this cult, you had to kiss the leader and swear your eternal loyalty to them by sacrifice what you hold dear. And I'm honestly down for both."
There's more mutter, all of agreement. Aside from trying to get people into the cult, you hardly went around town. The few times that people saw you after a while was like a ghost's tale. One that captivated the audience rather than strike fear into their hearts. Those who saw you, described you as a breathtaking soul. The one's you actually talked to had always been enchanted by your voice itself rather than promises of salvation. After a while, some of them just decided to see you for themselves; coming to find they wanted to join the cult for all the wrong reasons.
You stand there, stunned. Somewhere in the back, a person shouts.
"I'll give up my blood if you go see a movie with me on Saturday!"
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newapocalyptia · 2 months
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I gotta be honest, I feel like you can’t really kill Sal because he’s kind of the glue of the whole thing? He’s the catalyst for a lot of plot it seems, and if it wasn’t for him, a lot of the characters wouldn’t have met each other (probably?), had their kids, and idk I know you keep saying he’s a bad guy but I really like him. He has redeeming qualities *to me* lol. (I totally understand it’s your universe and you’re of course deciding what happens in the end! If this was a Real TV Show™️ though I would definitely be the one on AO3 woobifying Sal in my fanfics. I just love a morally ambiguous/‘evil’ character and everyone else is so nice lol)
oh, I have no intentions whatsoever of killing Sal! jokes from the time traveling bits about his future demise aside, he’s a load-bearing asshole— you’re right, he’s almost as much of a plot catalyst as the apocalypses are. The core of the narrative is Marian’s irresponsible loyalty to her scumbag brother, they’re essentially the two main characters.
I love my little bastard conman, and his nihilistic fuckboy bestie lmao
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no-name-publishing · 6 months
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Tiny Book? Tiny Book. Pt3.
Previously we covered everything from typesetting and printing, to rounding and backing. Let's continue on with step 4, endbands!
Tiny books part 1; Tiny books part 2
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Just like with regular ficbinding, there are layers, and they are:
1 - Typesetting and Imposing 2 - Printing 3 - Cutting, Folding, and Sewing 4 - Gluing, Rounding/Backing, Endbands 5 - Building the Case and Casing In 6 - BOOK
In this part we will be focusing on the rest of step 4, and we'll see how far we get before I run out of photo space tbqh. Please feel free to skip to the area you're interested in most.
4, pt2 - Endbands
Endbands--there isn't anything overly exciting to say here, except that sewn endbands on tiny books isn't impossible, just ridiculously fiddly. For a core I recommend going with embroidery floss, stiffened with PVA. It's a nice relatable scale to the tiny book and will be perfectly firm-yet-flexible with the PVA coating. Because of the thickness I do not recommend using more than one strand of embroidery floss, if that's what you are using right now for your regular books. For all of the examples I include below, they've been sewn in a double core french style with a single strand of satin-finish sewing cotton sewing thread. Here are some examples of ones I've done:
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Doable, but at what cost? My sanity. If you've got some to spare though, it will be very impressive to other bookbinders lol.
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Don't be fooled into thinking tiny sewn endbands will be quicker or easier than their regular sized counterparts. And as a treat, here is how the tiny endband looked in my press while I sewed:
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It's just 🧍‍♂️
In a sewn endband's stead I can recommend using prefab endbands, which will just be snipped to size and glued to the spine. Might be hard to do on tiny books with fewer signatures but not impossible, and it will look... as fine as a prefab endband can. Otherwise what I've really liked doing are paper endbands. I make these a bit wider than my textblock, so that I can trim them down later after they've been glued.
These are made from taking a strip of paper, applying glue around 15mm down the length, and laying down a piece of the PVA-coated embroidery floss. After a moment, to let the paper soften from the moisture and the core material stick a bit, you just roll it up a few times. Go slowly, as it can be finicky. Set aside to let it dry completely, then glue to your spine, as with the prefab ones. Let that dry, and trim to size carefully with your scissors.
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(Imagine the pad of sticky notes is our tiny book lol, it's what I had on hand) Anywho it's that easy! I find these so preferable in part because the rolled up core sits forward and covers the folds of my signatures, where prefab endbands usually don't. A tip--while you're coating your floss in PVA, you can take advantage of any remaining glueyness to roll it between your fingers, to remove any hard edges or unevenness from the thread before it's totally dry, and won't transfer any lumps or bumps to your finished paper endband. Once you've glued and trimmed the paper endband to size, you can reshape it with your fingers to remove the pinched ends from the scissors. @simply-sithel got me onto this process and it changed the game for me. She's been my tiny-book mentor 🙏
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Referencing this image again, the book on the right has the paper endband, compared to the left, which has a sewn endband. On a regular book endbands are protective, decorative, and offer some support; on a tiny book they are purely decorative. I like to use the accent paper of my case as the paper for the endband, to bring everything together.
5 - Building the case and casing in
SO! We've made it this far, to what I believe are the easiest steps of this whole thing, building the case and casing in. As with my regular sized books I do these tiny ones in a square back bradel binding method. This construction uses a piece of connecting paper across the spine stiffener and allows you to tailor the case to your textblock's unique shape, rather than fiddling with it's exact measurements.
Instead of making this a square back bradel binding tutorial, I will refer you to DAS's video where I learned it myself. The case construction begins around the 13 minute mark. There are no notable different between using this method between regular sized books and tiny books.
The first things to note in this step are your hinge measurements. Whereas on regular books they may be 9-12mm, depending, on tiny books anything much wider than 8mm is noticeable and not strictly necessary. The full range of motion gained from the hinge measurement isn't as important with tiny books, so I recommend staying within the 6-7-8mm range for the aesthetics.
My other note is that the 2mm overhang measurement surrounding the textblock is still preferable, even on this tiny size. Something in your heart will try to make it nearer to scale, like .5mm or less, but this will result in a tiny book that looks badly made. My recommendation is not to go any narrower than 1mm in your overhang measurement. But also this is purely for appearances' sake and I'm not your mom, and even if I was you're (hopefully) an adult. Go nuts and find out what works best for your tastes!
In my experience you also have a slight bit more freedom selecting your cover materials. I've never gotten full-paper cases to work where regular sized books are concerned, but it's been my preference for tiny books. I have so much decorative scraps of paper that otherwise wouldn't have a home with regular books. This is also a great place to use offcuts of bookcloth as well. No gods so rules!!
Here are some photos of the process of building my tiny case on a tiny textblock following the square back bradel method:
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Now comes casing in. This part also couldn't be easier imo. I almost feel like I don't need to even say anything. I've found straight PVA, while having too short a worktime for full sized books, is perfect for casing in tiny books. You're brushing over like 2 square inches of paper?? You're using virtually no glue AND it takes 15 seconds?? I can only get so hard. As standard you should use some kind of moisture barrier between your endpages and your textblock while it dries in whatever your press situation looks like. For me these are sheets of plastic stolen from some plastic envelopes you use for archival work. These stop the moisture from going into your textblock and warping it. Some people have luck with parchment paper, but I am not one of them.
If you're using plain PVA, these babies will totally dry in maybe like, 3 or 4 hours. Take them out after an initial nipping time of like 20 minutes and let them dry open.
6 - BOOK
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You've got a tiny book!!!
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If you have any questions on something I've covered or didn't cover, please don't hesitate to ask!
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offseason-if · 6 months
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How would you describe the overall vibe of each route?
Waaaaaugh. This has been in my ask box for a while n ive been thinking on it. Ill give u a few songs that remind me of their routes (subject to change bc we are in early planning lol)
Noel - allies or enemies, still into you, too close
extra. are you in love (intro), valentine
H - glue song, rose-colored boy, trouble
extra. boyfriend, never ever getting rid of me, best worst mistake with a cold/stoic MC!!
S - the side of paradise, intertwined, love like you
extra. like or like like
Valerio - this is how it feels (with laufey), talk, decode
extra. wouldn’t change a thing, 7 things
p.s want u back is a good exes-val and noel poly route song 🤔
Some of these r like. Overdramatized obviously n val’s n h’s extras r silly but general vibes!!
More in depth explanations beloooow~
Noel’s route is about.. hmm.. not to be corny but following your heart? But seriously, some people are the kind of people to keep feelings locked away because of whats ‘expected’ of them, which can result in hurt not only to themselves but others as well, even if it’s not intentional.
H’s route is about identity and family. Obviously your family plays a big part in your identity and finding yourself growing up. Especially if you come from a tight-knit family, but, finding yourself without the input and influence of your family is just as or if not more important.
​S’s route is very much about realizing your worth on both ends! Self-worth issues can come in multiple forms whether its in relationships, performances, hobbies, etc., which totally sucks but if you don’t do anything to work on them it like, ultra sucks.
Valerio’s route is about mistakes. Realizing you made a mistake is difficult and admitting to it is even more difficult especially if you’re.. prideful. But there comes a certain point where you have to decide if putting your pride aside is more important than losing a person/people close to you.
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ask-the-rag-dolly · 6 months
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First of all sooo excited for your blog! The one thing I don't like about digital circus is the complete and utter lack of Ragtha love! Lol
I know you said you prefer platonic relationships, and for my girl Ragatha, I think if her and Jax were secretly besties, it would add so much more to each other. Cause it means Jax does have a vulnerable side, and Ragtha has an unlikely ally perhasp willing to push things a little far for her.
Also just a personal headcannon since Ragthas been there the longest maybe she's actively helped some of the main cast figure out to cope and hold on to their sanity, because she did say their was still time to "fix" Kafmo. So that's implies someone can be brought back if their not completely constructed yet. I think there's so much potential in her doing that for Jax because their different morals and personality seems like the most interesting dynamic to me. Plus, gotta love that angst.
// yeah same ! ragatha quickly became my favorite - for several reasons that will be too long for this post - and it really saddens me that she's already getting pushed aside ...
like don't get me wrong , she gets more attention than gangle and zooble ( who are also characters i'm fond of that i wish gets the same level of analysis as jax and kinger ) , but there's so much to pick apart and analyze with ragatha that someone has to take the mantle ^^
besides uurgh i may love jesterdoll but ragatha has so much potential for interesting dynamics , not just pomni ! like her being very compliant towards caine , how she might've helped zooble considering they were the newest before pomni , the history she might've had with kinger , how she's the most suitable to comfort gangle , and just !! her entire thing with jax !!
like i can see why they can be an interesting dynamic - they're like two sides of the same coin in a way ( both are secretly terrified out of their minds and hides it by either servicing people or pushing them away . do you see my vision ) . i personally see them as begrudging siblings - really dislike each other but most likely won't be able to live without the other
( also a part of that may not be fueled by how ragatha's heavily inspired by raggedy ann and that jax's voice is a raggedy andy impersonation ... )
i will admit it's a bit too early to draw a conclusion on what's going on between them though since gooseworx keeps reiterating that no one likes jax and that he's an irredeemable asshole - but i know their dynamic won't just be pure , mutual hate . i personally love the thought of them being the only one who truly understands the other despite the vitriol lol
also ! i've always thought of ragatha as the group meditator in a way ! in my head , she's the glue that helps hold the group together - i don't think the current cast will survive even a single hour without the only person who isn't panicky and/or irresponsible . i won't be surprised if she actually saved someone from near-abstraction !
though i don't think it's a role that's doing her any big favors . do you think anyone ever asks how she's doing ? (: //
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emypony · 7 months
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come grab your freshly off the grill cooked ship!
This time featuring the 'arts and crafts project' because Felis is glue here, otherwise the rest would fall apart.
FOR THE RECORD this is if all three Hua's here were individual entities separate from each other
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I'll put my unhinged mentally unwell takes down below for your enjoyment <3
ill try to. help make sense of their personalities and thoughts on the others. Felis: basically her usual self, though maybe a bit toned down with her antics (I say toned down as if I ever elaborated on what she's like lol)
treasures Hua the most, best friends and partners, tries to get Hua to be less stiff and enjoy life but also is scared to lose her
admires Phoenix and gets along with her really well
thinks AE is kinda scary because she's a celestial but there's something alluring about such a powerful entity being so mysterious and 'cold' (girl cant help getting a crush tho)
Hua: soldier, shy, unsure of herself, basically her moths era (NOT her Elysian Realm SIM!)
got attached to Felis because she is a source of comfort and feels like 'home', likes having someone to come to after her missions
Phoenix's happy and relaxed attitude is calming in contrast to her life but her and Felis can get a bit overwhelming when together, she appreciates her though even if they're not that close
AE is very scary and she tries to keep away from her, feels like AE doesn't approve of her for whatever reason and glares at her sometimes (it's just the AE resting bitchface she gives to everyone by accident but holds no malice)
Phoenix / Jingwei: deity, thinks humans r funny, clever and wondrous and loves them dearly
Felis's happy attitude resonates with her and she may have gotten a little crush on her because of that as well, but she can keep herself in check if her feelings aren't reciprocated
thinks Hua is a cute little birdie that she wants to protect bc shes so precious
longtime friends with Azure Empyrea and they have a weird but mutual friendship (and maybe more...? unspoken feelings towards each other that they never address but are both sort of 'Aware Of' since Phoenix is the one who calms down AE if she's being unreasonable OR the first person AE goes to if she's feeling down / feels negative emotions)
Azure Empyrea: cold, calculating, has an eerie calm attitude but can be scary if she gets angry, stern and firm in her ways but can be persuaded (see: Phoenix) to compromise. means well but doesn't know how to show it
finds Felis intriguing because of her nature, also catches her sometimes glancing at her or following her around, can't sense any malice from her so aside from being a little annoyance at first, she warmed up to her presence (and she keeps Phoenix happy whenever she can't partake in whatever silly human thing she wants to play / do)
sees Jingwei as an equal, cares more about her than she lets on but doesn't want to tie her down to someone like her, still appreciates the fact that Phoenix spends time with her and tries to be the bridge between her and humans
her feelings towards Hua are complicated and she usually keeps her distance because she can sense the fear coming off her. however Hua reminds her of her past self(?start of her journey as a celestial deity), unsure and without a place in the world and she feels the need to be there or give advice (if ever asked), doesn't hold any hostility towards her but something about her own expression (? too dumb to figure out) scares Hua and she doesn't understand why
I have a so many more snippets to share...if you will ;3
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astraladversity · 2 months
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Hello! Your Gabriel cosplay WIP is looking fantastic. I've been picking up foamcrafting for the first time in years and am rusty as hell, but it's been fun and satisfying. I had a few questions about your build. Did you find your armor templates online somewhere or make your own? Have you been using hot glue or contact cement for the chestpiece/arm greaves/shoulders? And what thickness EVA have you been using? I really want to make an Ultrakill cosplay once I shake all the rust and dust off, and have been debating between V1 or Gabe, but I think I'd lean towards whichever has available templates online somewhere. Making your own is...difficult! Thanks in advance for the answers, and I hope your crafting goes as smoothly as it can. Good luck!
Thank you for the ask :]]
I made the templates largely by myself with the help of my dad, I made them out of paper first before going on to use foam. Had to find a LOT of references, but the ultrakill wiki’s great for that (though I discovered Gabriel’s armour changes slightly between cutscene arts, which is a bit annoying lol) (there was also a lot of improvising by me as I’ve been working on the cosplay, so I didn’t follow the templates 100%)
As for materials, I used 8mm foam for the chest plate and shoulders, and 12mm for the belt (wanted them to be the most durable pieces), the rest of it is 6mm, aside from the hand & shoe plates which I’ll probably make out of 3mm. And I’ve been using a mix of contact cement and hot glue— hot glue’s definitely easier to use and is better with more complicated shapes (like the chest plate) but if you just need to stick two flat surfaces together I’d definitely go with contact adhesive/cement, since it leaves less to clean up and tends to make cleaner seams :]
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