#“not rly any of ur business anymore

[unorthodoxpartofyourworld]

i got too much purpose to be petty

#texted him a fucking paragraph this morning bc his dumbass is GETTING EVICTED #his building manager called me #and he ignores me #and he’s petty w me and rude #acting like i’m being nosy?? #acting like i’m trying to meddle?? #i said hey i still care about you and am worried #are you okay? #“not rly any of ur business anymore #OKAY THEN WHY AM I STILL UR FUCKING EMERGENCY CONTACT #god i fucking hate men #fine go get fucking evicted then #piece of trash.

[ritsufeet]

stay with me.

longing [ ft. m. kaiser ]

i don’t want u to leave… in which kaiser longs for you more than he thought he would.

k by cigarettes after sex heavily recommend to listen to while reading!!

all works from luvmouche & ritsufeet on tumblr.

𒁷 sfw, (forced to) made for ivelle (@n6gi)

𒁷 cw// hurt comfort(?), kaiser is too busy for u (dickhead), but it gets better i think, mutual longing, kissing smooch smooch, umm idk what else, kaiser tw🤓, “m” is his nickname given by the reader, rly short fic btw, slightly ooc kaiser but yk what idc!

i made this for ivelle this is literally yhe only bllk fic ill ever make (maybe) also i dont even like kaiser (kurona bwtter) i originally made this in my notes app i had to decide whether or not i eveb wanted to post this on tumblrHelp

synopsis: michael kaiser is a cruel, busy man—yet he finds himself pining for your warmth more than he expected.

not proofread!!!

kaiser, michael

your boyfriend, michael kaiser, who’s a famous, up and coming athlete, never has any time for you.

“i’m leaving, i have a meeting today.” he says, hurriedly pushing his shoes on with heavy sighs. you look at him and frown, “again? m, you never have any time for me anymore…”

“i know, but i’ll make it up to you, i promise. just not today, i’m busy.” he huffs, frowning right back at you, his blonde hair sways messily in front of his face and his fingers coming up to brush them up and out of the way again. you frown deepens and you sigh.

he looks up at you, his eyebrows furrowed. “what? what’s wrong with you?” his question only makes you sadder.

“can’t you stay?”

“no, i can’t. you know this. i said i’d make it up to you, didn’t i? trust my word.” you know this, you already know… but you can’t help but already begin to miss him.

he’s often gone for long hours, sometimes it’s more than just hours. it’s hard loving him when he’s absent majority of the time, and when he’s not gone, he’s doing something else that doesn’t involve spending time with you. what could be so important, anyway? of course, you love him, you love his career and support him with everything you can, but he could at least love you a little back.

you slowly walk over to him when he’s finished putting on his shoes. he looks at you with soft eyes, a face that he doesn’t show often. vulnerability that doesn’t come easily to him, something he only shows to you. “i’m sorry,” he says, his hand cupping your cheek. you relish in his touch, leaning into his palm. “i really wish i could stay too. you know that as well as i do.” he caresses your cheek, sliding his thumb over your skin.

“i get it… you should go, you don’t want to be late, right?” you look at him giving a reassuring smile. “i’ll be here, like i always am.” his heart aches as those words leave you, and the urge washes over him. he brings himself to your lips and kisses you—sweet, quick, and loving. he lets himself linger there for as long as he needs to. he doesn’t want to be late, yet he finds himself not wanting to move a single inch away from you. he wants to stay, wants to be here with you and the comfort of your kisses.

you pull away instead, you put your hand right above his—the one caressing your cheek so gently and longingly that you fear that it’d break his heart if he tore it away—and squeeze it. his face is solemn, his gaze wavering. he’s staring at you, but he looks away, as if hesitant to say anything. then, he looks at you again, and purses his lips. “..i love you.” your reassuring smile turns into a genuine one. “i love you too, m.”

he pulls you into a hug, holding you longer than just a few seconds, and he can hear himself the moment he decided to just go ‘ah, fuck it.’ a barely audible chuckle comes from his voice leaving you wondering what’s so funny.

“on second thought, i don’t think they’ll mind if i miss a day or two.” he says, smiling.

a/n: i hope ur happy ivelle. k bye im tired fuckkk

#ritsufeet #blue lock #blue lock x reader #blue lock x y/n #blue lock x you #blue lock x gn reader #blue lock x female reader #blue lock x male reader #bllk #bllk kaiser #michael kaiser #kaiser x reader #kaiser fluff #michael kaiser x reader #michael kaiser x you #michael kaiser x y/n #kurona better #i dont eceb likr kaiser but yk what Sigh #if this flops i blame ivelle

[meruz]

some weirdly specific artist game questions im answering while eating dinner. im gonna use my truly abysmal surface pen so theyre gonna be jittery af.

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in I feel like I don’t lose interest in projects so much as I run out of time to do them nowadays. I had a bunch of ideas for a shortbox comics fair project and then got too busy to execute and meet the deadlines. same with some zines... I still want to do them!! Idk when though. I guess when I was a kid I used to be interested in more ambitious original writing, long form fantasy type stuff. I think if you really dig through my archives you can probably find ocs from ideas like that but I don’t have a lot of interest in pursuing stories like that anymore because... idk even writing short things is tough for me.

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

I think this is mostly because ive been “finishing” art less lately? or like... making less small things and more singular big/complex illustrations? idk. it’s tough, I want to post more because I like posting art on the internet. I grew up watching other people post art on the internet and wanting to do the same. there’s a lot of artists who don’t like it but its fun to me. unfortunately this whole year has kind of been like a non-posting year tho.

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

25.  Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by Uhhhh this is tough idk. I think I’ve gotten like...ava’s demon before?

Which doesn’t make a lot of sense to me looking at the style alone but does like...make sense in the way that I think I share similar cultural inspirations with that comic like...being online in the mid 2000s...deviantart digital art type stuff. So even if there isn’t any direct inspiration there’s some shared dna probably.   I think I’ve hard art compared to transistor (the supergiant game) too and I think its like. a similar story there. Heck, If i drew more sexy characters my inking tendencies would probably get my art compared to hades just with how big that art style is culturally rn.too bad i only draw dumb looking kids.

I’ve never played a supergiant game. they look very nice and I rly respect them as a company but they’ve yet to make smth that’s really up my alley.

(unrelated but tumblr user wellnoe I’m a huge fan of ur art you have one of the biggest brains in xmen fanart imo...!! thanks for sending in an ask LOL ;-;;;)

#ask #wellnoe #viivianite

[pirategf]

hi i rly like ur blog and seeing u on my dash is always so nice (even though ur not on as much anymore) but anyways hope u have a nice day <3

Thanks a lot! Yeah I've been busy lately since I went back to uni + have a job, takes a lot of my time but 100% worth it. I also don't have the same drive to blog that I used to, I've not really been obsessed with any media in a long time which I find a bit sad because that used to be a really fun feeling :^( but you can't force that. maybe I should find a new podcast to listen to

[seollenda]

hiii i’m so glad ur back omg!! i saw reqs were open was wondering if you could write something w samo where sanas getting rly flirty w some other idol (wendy as of right now could be a good one 😭) and momo is super sure they are together and starts distancing herself :( ANGST TO HAPPY ENDING PLS PLS

hope you don’t mind i’m starting with a headcanon structure to get in the groove of things!! samo has my heart forever and alwayssss thank you for the prompt ❤️❤️

samo have always been some sort of ~thing~ but it’s obviously hard as idols to be anything open and resembling normalcy

it’s extra hard on momo, tbh, because sana is sana, and she’s affectionate and sweet and flirty and always well meaning and adored

and she’s so sweet to momo and loves on her but momo can’t help but feel some twinge when she sees speculation about sana or sees her play it up in the way she’s so good at

sana’s confidence has bloomed as of late, and this means she’s just radiant and momo can’t keep herself off her when she can

sana loves the attention

“i love you,” she tells her every day, over breakfast, whispered at any time of day, when tangled together in front of the tv, in her embrace when they’re alone and sana gives herself over to momo and only momo, always momo

but sana is sana

and love falls so earnestly and readily from her lips

and flirting so second nature and adored by all

so when the flames of…something are fanned and momo knows the other idol is in The Sphere that otherwise remains so insular and careful

and she hears inevitably that wendy is just a little infatuated

isn’t it natural for momo’s heart to twist a little

for her to see the dots connect

sana coming home from little outings with seungwan with cold-blushed cheeks and a cheerful chatter about their day

she loves to tell momo, nobody but momo

until that twinge turns to something tighter and colder

it’s the least pain if momo is slow and careful about it

when sana doesn’t seem to notice momo spending more time away

busy in dance rooms or taking up sullen space in chaeyoung’s apartment

or being pitiful in dahyunies place

sana doesn’t say anything

but momo can’t carry on

until one evening, she’s at her doorstep

ringing the doorbell and peering brightly into the camera with a plastic bag of jokbal

at a time of night at which she knew momo was awake

momo can’t turn her away, so when sana hurries in with a sweet kiss momo looks away to hide tears

“momo,” she says quietly, taking her hand

her eyes, bright with tears, isn’t what momo could’ve hoped to see

let me go, she wants to beg her. hate me, tell me you don’t want me anymore.

but she only presses a tentative kiss to that softest point on her cheek

her breath tickling across momo’s skin

and she knows she could never not want her

“if you don’t want me, tell me,” she says. her voice breaks

momo can barely draw a breath, her hands at sana’s cheeks and neck

“you don’t want me,” she mumbles

and sana is bewildered and frantic and firm in her kiss, clumsy and missing her lips the first time and then exact the second time

“momo, all i want is you.”

“i thought…you and wendy,” momo inhales shakily

sana stares at her for a long moment, sniffles and breaks into a weary smile

“oh, momoring,” she says. “don’t you know all i talk about is you?”

momo’s heart races, shaking her head, but sana nods, a tired smile on her cheeks, eyes bright and adoring

momo feels like she’s going to melt away in this spotlight

“do you know what seungwan unnie said?” sana says, tracing the line of momo’s jaw and wiping away a tear track

momo feels like the world has shrunk before her and buried itself in her chest and she can’t think past it’s spinning

everything a pinprick

“she said to go get my girl.”

and momo is taken, of course

because who wouldn’t be, when in the hands of minatozaki sana

the only subject of this gaze

for their moment, the only in the world

#twice fanfic #kpop fanfic #kpop headcanons #samo #twice samo #sana #momo #minatozaki sana #hirai momo #twice headcanons #twice #fluff #angst #headcanons #submission

[quirkle2]

yeah no i asked what i asked and i still . hated myself for imagining it bc i really hate that the idea that the loving and caring family the links have built isnt meant to stay AJSJSAJAHJ i say i love angst but really. i love hurt/comfort and yeah no theres barely any of the comfort . ask ouchy questions get ouchy answers on my part </3 but still ty for indulging me (i say with equal amount of tears) !!

so now i am sitting patiently like a kindergarden kid about to hear storytime . that storytime is your ranch au :>> please ramble as long as you like <33

NO NO UR SO VALID I TOTALLY GET IT imso sorry if i made u sad . i made ME sad. we're both sad :(

kicks my feet up into the air i will cheer us up mark my words

ranch au ...................my beloved and most cherished ranch au. a lotta people prolly have this idea but here is my interpretation of it i suppose

to sum it up rly quickly it's the boys not getting a permanent goodbye and Instead sticking together and going to live on time and malon's ranch happily ever after <333 that's it that's the plot GVEAIYGV

sometime after wars is exiled from castle town and he's had a bit to reflect, he realizes that he's not gonna have Any place to stay when they separate. he hates thinking about their inevitable goodbye in any capacity, but he knows that at some point he's gonna have to come to terms w the fact that he won't have them forever (he will.) and they'll have to say goodbye for good (no.)

he's . obviously very troubled by this in general but That on top of the exile has him stressed and upset and worrying about the future and how he'll even continue without them. the chain can See he's upset—of course he is, he was just betrayed by his "friends" and banned from his home, stripped of his title—and luckily, time comes to da rescue :)

time knows wars is worrying abt living situations n such on top of the Betrayal(tm), and he,,, offers him a place, at the ranch :) they both know very well that that might not be possible—fate drags them around as it is, and they doubt it'll be kind enough to allow wars such a luxury—but the offer is there, if they find that it's possible. and wars isso fucking touched by that that he nearly cries GVIAEYGV

fast forward to . The Inevitable. in this au they Do say their goodbyes, and they Do separate and branch off into their different eras. everything goes as it should, according to fate. everything goes well Except the fact that there's only 8 portals. wars' isn't there. and that just,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

that kinda cements it in wars' head that he's truly been thrown away by his Entire Era. why else would fate not let him go back home? that means he's Truly not needed anymore, and just like artemis and impa, his world abandoned him when he stopped being useful. even fate says there's no point in going back. wars might as well not even exist there anymore

so he goes through time's portal instead. and for the next few days they live on the ranch and ,,try not to fall apart. time basically just lost seven of his fuckin boys, the one remaining one an absolute wreck and definitely working himself to the ground to keep his mind busy and Also to sate that fear that he'll be thrown out by time too if he's not useful enough (malon is more than welcoming to wars and so very happy to have him there and she'sso fuckin gentle w him u don't even know)

and for those few days, they both live w Giant holes in their chests. it feels utterly and dreadfully empty, to just continue life after a loss that great. they're both constantly reminded of the other boys and neither of them are sleeping much at all; wars and ledge were So incredibly close and wars constantly misses him every fuckin moment and all the work he's doing around the ranch is not doin a goddamn thing to distract him from it. time has to stop him from overworking himself too hard multiple times

but one night time's lyin in bed, unable to sleep and Feeling Empty, and then wars is suddenly banging on his and malon's bedroom door. he drags them outside—wars has his sword on him, that's not a good sign—and lo behold, when they step onto the porch, there is a portal in front of their house. just,,,,,,, sitting there. waiting

call it magic or a sixth sense of sorts, but for some reason, Both of them know this isn't a simple calling for another adventure. they just,,, know it in their bones. this isn't that. somehow, somewhere in their minds, time and wars both understand what fate is offering them

they quickly pack, fully arming themselves just in case they're wrong, and they say goodbye to malon in hopes that they'll only be gone a few days or so (they,,, hope to god)

they r dropped in skyloft. so far, promising

they track down sky. he bursts into tears at the sight of them GVUYEAGV at first he thinks it's another adventure, and they say while they can't Promise it's not, they r pretty sure—"like . 80% sure"— that it's smth else entirely. the Opposite, rly

sky goes w them. next up is four, a tearful reunion ensues, same explanation is given. it repeats and repeats and repeats until they,, eventually have everybody :) Everybody is back together—and yes, wars and ledge did run to each other and absolutely Tackle the other

one last portal stands before them. they don't know for sure it's the last one, but they Hope. they hope to god. they all,, hold their breaths and walk through it .

and they r deposited right back where they'd left at the ranch

there is . a sort of strange, underlying apprehension that resides w the sheer Holy Shit We're Together and Home. it's the fear—mostly and justifiably felt by legend, since he's experienced,, what, 7 journeys now ? give or take—that fate is simply gathering them together at a safe spot just to get ready to throw them into smth else

in reality they Can't know what the Entities behind these portals r doing, what their intentions are. they can only assume. but ultimately, even though legend honestly doesn't think his body can Make it through another adventure, if he's dragged into another one and it's w These idiots ? he'd go, and risk destroying his body and mind a lot more in the process, just to spend more time w them. it's not the ,, best circumstances to spend time w ur family, but hey . when else is fate gonna let him do it

malon sees them all back in one piece and races for them, and that's sorta the thing they need to snap out of their little shell-shocked trances and Celebrate. it's . a very big emotional rollercoaster GVYEAGV they cry and laugh and holler and while they're all distantly aware there is a chance this isn't the end of their journeys and there's more to go, they still celebrate. they're back together. gang's all here

and this lets the boys be boys. they all get to live in a normal household (as,, normal as a house full of traumatized heroes can get) w PARENTAL FIGURES . HALLELUJAH. and the younger boys get to be kids and the older boys gets to catch up on a childhood that was taken from them. they get to be normal people

eventually time expands the ranch house to accommodate them. it is a very big change—malon: "there are 8 extra people in my house and i love them all dearly but also there are 8 extra people in my house."—and yeah they definitely struggle to adjust a bit, but eventually everything calms and settles and it's Peaceful. they live peaceful lives, for once

AND YES I . I KNOW THIS HAS MANY MANY HOLES IN IT. but frankly my dear i do not give a damn HVGIEAGVA don't think about how all of them effectively left their families to join a different one. don't think abt that. they visit . it is canon in my eyes that the portals occasionally appear and let them visit their families. it's absurd but have u been paying attention ? so is everything else GVIEAYGV

ofc it's not all flowers n rainbows. they all just went through the fucking ringer w this last journey, and for people like legend who barely had any time in between each adventure to process the trauma, he's got,,,, a lot of catching up to do. they all struggle w a lot of different things, and even several months in they r still learning each others' boundaries when it comes to living in the same household

legend doesn't unpack his bag until 2 months in because he's fully convinced it's not over and he wants to be ready and packed when another portal comes to yank him from reality. hyrule's never,, lived in a home like this and he feels a bit out of place and unsure of what the etiquette is. twi in particular is absolutely terrified of the possibility that they could be dragged into smth else or separated again. both bc he's dealt w this before—being separated from midna between realms—and bc time, well.... the hero's shade thing is another can of worms entirely.

wars is still terrified he'll be thrown out despite the numerous reassurances from time, malon, And the others that they'd never. even though he had several years between the end of the war and the beginning of lu, a Few Years is not enough time to process and even Begin to heal from all the trauma that came from that war. he's still paranoid. he can't go outside at night, even within the safety of the ranch fences—yes, he'll admit he's developed a fear of the dark over the years, terrified of traitors lunging at him from alleyways or from around corners

they all still take time to spar outside, working hard to hone skills, and when time gently reminds them that they don't Need to do that anymore, they all ,, look so shocked and dumbfounded. a lot of them still keep emergency potions in their bags that they take to town. several of them r armed at all times w Some sort of weapon on them, even in the house

legend is still in Adventure Mode and keeps buying useful tools for journeys he might need, even though he's never going on one again. wild realizes that he doesn't have to mold his recipes around what will give them all the biggest buff in strength or defense; they don't need that anymore. he can just make whatever tastes the best w Whatever he wants

u get it. they all slowly learn to Live, instead of survive. they help each other heal in a safe environment, in a world they no longer have to babysit. time has his boys again. gang's all here

#qktalks #soul-of-rei #suncaster au #tw trauma #trauma tw #for da angst at the end there. if i need to add any more tags please do tell me ! #I GOT SEVERAL ASKS... urging me to yell abt the ranch au #pspspsppspspsp y'all over here pspsppsspsppssp #IM SORRY IF I MADE PEOPLE SAD W THE LAST ASK . IMSO SORRY #i made myself sad too . deadass teared up when typing it out i cannot Handle wars being that sad #dw tho ranch au gotchu covered #wars is 100% the Happiest he's ever been in his life when the ranch au comes around #the most content he's ever felt. even when starting to process all that trauma #overall he's just . so much better #many of my drawings and fics r made w the ranch au in mind btw. im obsessed w it #i simply have never mentioned it before out of nervousness <3 #maybe not so much the fics in like a tangible visible sense but i do think abt it when im writing #and i think abt what impact Insert Fic Here would have on the ranch au and it's just a fun time yaknow #! TRADE OFFER ! u receive: qpps wars and ledge ranch au. i receive: nothing this isn't a trade this is a Gift #the uhhhhhh sleepy morning w da qpp drawing takes place in the ranch au . i love them #i've THOUGHT abt writing a fic for this au but it'd be one of those rly long ongoing ones #or maybe like . a series of shorter snippets rather than a continuous narrative #idk <3 #i Adore writing dialog and like general vibes tho . and that's what that fic would be made of so GVIEAYGV

[commajade]

I just wanted to ask your opinion and please answer this when you aren’t busy

My family is finally visiting South Korea again and it’s my first trip I am very excited I’m Korean American so my experience with the language and culture is more limited (family felt it would be better for me to only know English) and I’m butch so I’ve been debating whether or not to go visit any of the queer bars and clubs when I’m in Seoul. I don’t want to pass up the opportunity to see other people like me but I’m worried I’m gonna look foolish and I know some bars don’t like foreigners. Do you have any recommendations for places or should I just not be adventurous?

Thank you so much for your time I hope you have a good day~

definitely definitely try to find some lesbian/gay bars. some bars don't like foreigners because they're rude and disrespectful and make a mess because they don't see korean people as real people or care about korean social expectations. ur not a foreigner ur 교포.

i didn't get to go to seoul much the last time i went to korea cuz i was mostly there for family obligations and too surgery but pls go to hongdae!!! pls have the magical moment i did where it was like midnight on a friday and i found the little area of hongdae that was just full of butch/femme couples walking around it was a formative experience!

idk if my knowledge is up to date cuz places move buildings a lot or closed down cuz of covid but for a chill bar experience, mong was rly nice. it's a cute little bar in hongdae with a butch bartender there's no pressure at all and they have good deals on drinks. there's also multiple bars called lesbos or lesvos and the original first lesbian bar in seoul is called lesvos and moved to hongdae a few years ago. there was also a bar called brick but i haven't been there and idk if it's open anymore.

#asks #korean lgbt

[gloopdimension]

hum hummm. what are the ways your ocs like to be complimented? :) what charms them... what kinda things do they like being pointed out about them?

OOHOOHOWOWUUW7

venus - loves being complimented on her looks and her personality bc she does try her best to be nice, though her Actively standing up for herself and not being afraid to be rude does make a lot of ppl think "WHAT A BITCH." So her being told and shown that Ur Super Nice would rly make her happy :)

elsie - anything really. He likes compliments and praise abt his body his looks his hobbies any of it! esp his body hes been objectified by a Lot of ppl so genuine compliments and praises abt it would make him real happy:)

veevee - their intellect and precision. theyve dedicated their life to being sharp and quick and a good thinker and have a good head on their shoulders and it wouldnt fix their arrogance but itd rly boost their (fake as hell) ego :) i tjink a body compliment would be nice too bc theyve grown to have a Severe disdain for it(although ONLY COMPLIMENT their body if they trust you enough to. unless if youre a woman. for some strange reason they cherish the opinions of women a lot more[THEYRE A RAGING LESBIAN AND THEY DONT EVEN KNOW IT YET])

orion - def his hair. He takes a lot of pride in it. i think hed enjoy being called sweet too (he wouldnt tell anyone this ever but he misses his wifey caling him so sweet and charming. he never hears it anymore i dont blame him)

leo - his body too i think:) he hears a lot of disingenuine compliments from ppl who are complimenting him for the sake of their own benefit. but in his business hes not walkin around naked. so whoever does get to meet w him outside of work and see him and compliment him he rlly does like it:)

#asks #my ocs #HEHEE

[menalez]

hey i just wanted to say thank you for talking about your SA. i actually had a very similar experience w/ a guy i was really good friends with in high school.

he was my best friend, but i got pressured into dating him by my friends, family, his parents. (his mom guilted me into being w/ him 🙄 practically stalked me til i said yes)

he ended up abusing me for nearly 3 years.

and in that time i wrote stupid notes or letters to him making sex jokes cuz i was a KID. the lawyer we hired blamed me for his actions bc of the letters bc of he did 🤦🏻‍♀️

but even still, some weird part of me misses our friendship that we had before other people started meddling in our business. it makes me feel guilty sometimes, and other times it's relief. iunno trauma is weird.

uh but yeah. thank you for sharing, i know it's hard to talk about and be open with this sort of thing. i just wanted to say that you aren't alone as a lesbian who wrote dumb things as a kid or who missed/misses what friendship you had before your friend SA'd.

i think it's also extremely fucked up for people to judge your sexuality based on the way you tried to cope in the past, let alone now.

just know that a lot of women, myself included, really appreciate you being here c:

hey thank u for sharing ur story with me ❣️ honestly the thing that rly hurt about it looking back is it was in a v vulnerable time in my life. i rly had practically nobody. i lost almost all my friends bc i was suddenly a "whore" for getting raped. i would get these messages on all my social media accounts like "you deserved it" "you were seducing him" "haha hes living a good life and youre cutting yourself looooooooool pathetic!!". my friend group went from a lot of my school (small school but its normal for bahrain) to like ... 4 people in bahrain. one of them was that guy that had a crush on me since we were like 11. he would stand between me n my rapist and went to the principal about it so that i would have lesser proximity and was one of the only people who seemed to empathise w my situation. i felt quite indebted to him n everyone would repeatedly call me an idiot and tell me i should be with him and my mom would say she wishes he could be her son in law or w/e and at one point he started insisting that we are together despite me telling him no we are not & that i dont want to be w him. i gave up on saying no eventually n just went along with all of it. i felt like i was stupid for saying no ??? ppl kept telling me i was n i was like huh i guess i am. never said no again rly, up until the very end where i could no longer ignore it n keep putting myself thru any of that. after leaving that situation i saw how fucked up it was that there were all these obvious signs and me obviously signalling TO HIS FACE that i dont want to be w him, that im not interested in him, that it was further traumatising me n harming my mental health, and also the times where what he was doing would fall under SA....idk i felt stupid for facing one male friend taking advantage of me and then another one doing it soon after right in front of my face n i thought it was somehow different and normal and ok simply bc i wasnt getting downright threatened. but i know if someone else didnt hear my rape story n tell me "uh thats rape and thats fucked up" to begin with i wouldve also probably let that happen again n again too n not thought much about that while getting traumatised until afterwards too.

anyways... im glad that ur out of that situation. im sorry that we have some shared trauma there. shit like this is why i dont even trust "nice guys" anymore fr. i dont think that many ppl can rly understand that sort of situation and i can get how its confusing, bc it was a confusing time for me too. but idk why they think theyd know better than me about my own life either lol

[bivwifeybunny]

no i literally swear you always know what to do and say about everything. like you just know the right thing to say every time. i just have a lot going on and was having a mini breakdown LOL. yk how there’s a lot of pressure to keep pushing stuff out on here and stuff like that, im just so overwhelmed w it. bc ik you get it like wanting to write and blah blah but just not being able to (whether it’s literally or motivation related). i’m okay tho i think i just need to like take the time to work on asks and stuff ?? idk 😭

and thank you for your reassuring words about the whole friend situation thingy :(( i rly appreciate it

i miss you sm 😩. i hope ur awake rn so we can chat bc i feel like we barely have this week. hru doing today??

also my scalp is 10x worse now 😭. idk what to do anymore bc everything i’ve tried hasn’t been working. it kept me up all night last night bc it’s so painful </3

jeez you sound busy!! and i didn’t know you could sing ?!?! that’s so cool ??? i’d love to hear one day 😋. also what kinda food and shoes did you get??

sorry this is so long LOL

omg no ur too kind🥹 but i totally get that, especially since ive been struggling with it too. im a huge procrastinator on top of not even having any motivation and i have some asks sitting in my inbox from 2 months ago 😭😭😭 like the pressure to get stuff out and make everyone happy is always there, even when I tell myself that I need a break before i end up burning myself out. i would say to definitely take your time in working on asks and stuff, like go at your own pace, even if it's a slow one. ik for a fact the pressure won't go away but if you slowly work on it you can at least tell yourself that you're doing something, and that this way what you put out is gonna be great because you took your time on it :)

i missed you too!! good thing I am awake to talk to you :)) i'm doing pretty good I had an amazing good and bad dream last night with wilbur in it hehe :) hbu? how are you doing today?

im so sorry to hear that, baby :(( i wish i could give you a hug or do something about the pain :( but i honestly don't know what to do, cause i got burned when i was like 7 and my tia was the one to help me with that, but i would say maybe you could try going to the doctor? because it doesn't seem like it should be hurting this long after it happened, especially from just a sunburn, but again idk im not a doctor lol, maybe they're give you something for it tho?

lol yeah I can i just dk if it's necessarily good lmao, ill be sure to sing specifically for you one day maybe even soon but definitely when i meet you :)) anyways yesterday we got subway :D and i got some new balance shoes and they're purple (my fav color) and very cool looking and now me and my mom have a pair of matching shoes lol cause when she bought hers i thought they looked cool and wanted some so she bought em for me :)

and don't apologize i love getting long asks from u <33

#g <3

[kazuwhora]

SICK DAYS — TOYKOREV

ft. mikey, kazutora, and chifuyu

cw: fluffy thats all

an. anon headcanon request about how annoying they are when they're sick

MIKEY

- ok listen. this man is a big baby. im sorry but invincible mikey??? not when he catches a cold.

- he can get wacked in the head over and over again and be fine but the second he gets a stuffy nose and a little bit of a headache its over for him ok.

- ur gonna have to literally wait on him hand and foot even more than you normally would. he was already a needy mf when he's healthy and this is literally a million times worse.

- is convinced that he's dying. "this is it. can't go on any further" -- "mikey you don't even have a fever" -- "yes I do" -- "ok"

- dont even try to play it down or tell him he's fine because ✋🏻he isn't listening to you

- uses this as an excuse to do whatever he wants. (lets be honest he already gets everything he wants)

- will sleep a lot though and demands you to be in the bed with him. straight up does not care if you have other responsibilities or if you're trying to not get sick yourself. he needs you in his bed immediately. and you have to be the big spoon this isn't up for debate

- if mikey is sick you can expect to be using whatever sick days you hopefully have saved up because no matter how mild of a cold he has his smug little ass just wants a free pass to hang out with you while you do everything for him

- lets not talk about if he's decided he's done with being sick though but his body absolutely hasn't decided that because then he'll get up as if nothing happened and just go about his daily life

- and then he gets even more sick because he overworked himself when he should have been resting and was too busy resting when he probably could have been working.

- "idk what ur talking about" he'll claim when you call him out on it.

- cycle repeats 😐

KAZUTORA

- poor baby does not want you to know hes sick :(((

- he's like ?? please im fine rly its ok meanwhile he's suffering hardcore

- kaz is the type to try and pretend like he's fine until he rly can't anymore and when u catch on that he's not feeling the greatest and offer to take care of him he's like "omg pls help me ilysm please dont leave me"

- like he doesn't wanna seem needy or helpless on his own so it takes u noticing for him to be able to accept the defeat and surrender himself to you and the cold

- he's gonna feel bad bc he really doesn't wanna get you sick like "don't come any closer to me or else ur gonna get sick too and then what are we gonna do :("

- shush him and give him a kiss on the forehead pls reassure him that it's fine and you wanna help him

- watch out! he's gonna try and get up and help you do things. like kaz baby. no. the whole point is ur supposed to be resting?? more reassurance needed. put him back to bed and tell him ur here for him

- probably gonna need to frame it like "if u dont lay down and rest then ur gonna take longer to get better and im gonna have to take even more time off work to take care of you then"

- he'll be like !!!!! no !!!!! and will immediately tuck himself under the covers

- like mikey, give him lots of cuddles pls he needs it. maybe play with his hair and he'll probably shut up and fall asleep in seconds

- when he's feeling better its like it never happened. kazutora?? sick?? kazutora doesn't get and kazutora doesn't need no woman to take care of him 😡

CHIFUYU

- ngl chifuyu is actually pretty capable of handling himself when he's sick

- but that doesn't mean he isn't gonna milk this as much as he can

- this sly mf is gonna try and craft the perfect sick day storyline straight out of a manga

- he's gonna try and pull off some weird sweetly romantic but kinda gross plot to rope you into because like ?? how could he pass up this opportunity?

- he'll put so much effort into trying to make things go a certain way that he wont even realizing how much sicker he's getting in the process

- shush him and tell him he's dumb and he'll probably furrow his brow at you and then realize "oh shit" he actually feels like shit :(

- poor fuyu will give up on his fantasy and curl up on the couch in defeat, moping until he falls asleep

- bonus points if he wakes up with a blanket and a glass of water beside him

- bonus bonus points if you're curled up at his feet- but not to close! he doesn't want you to get sick thats not a part of his plotting

- pls make him tea to soothe his throat he'll be so cute for you sitting curled up in a fluffy blanket watching ghibli movies with you as he sips on his lil mug of tea

- he wants you to stay over but doesn't know how to ask, so pls just assume that you're staying there no matter what he says

- pls don't tell baji he's sick. he is a tough boy. baji can't know >:( (hes also scared bc he knows baji is gonna force some gross cough medicine down his throat and laugh and he would much rather listen to your soft coos and praises while u give him spoonfuls of the best tasting stuff you could find ok)

#look at me working on drafts #go kc go #doing the headcanons first bc they're easier to write at work than a full blown plot lol #tokyo rev x reader #tokyorev x reader #tokyo revengers x reader #kazutora x reader #mikey x reader #tokyo revengers headcanons #tokyorev headcanons #tokyo rev headcanons #tokyo revengers hcs #tokyorev hcs #tokyo revengers #anime matchups #tokyo revengers matchups #matchup #tokyo revengers fluff #tokyorev fluff #tokyo rev fluff #sano manjiro x reader #tokyo revengers imagines #tokyo revengers drabble

[mizunetzu]

hi!! i just found your blog and i may or may not have binged all the fics 😼😼 i was wondering if you could write a dabi or hawks x male reader where the reader is a rly gentle and kind barista and dabi/hawks is just wHIPPED for him? i think thatd be mad cute 👉👈

LMAOOO DABI + HAWKS TIME TURN IT UP-

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Headcannons - Dabi and Hawks whipped for their local barista

⚠️Warnings - kidnapping (dabi)

Pronouns - male, he/him

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Dabi:

Ok so like hear me out

At first

AT FIRST

you didn’t catch this mans eye

In fact, he didn’t go to the coffee shop you worked at much because yknow...villain...

But it was late at night one day yk

And mans was like “oh boy, i sure am thirsty after committing homcide and robbery”

N the first place he sees

Dun dun dun

Is the 24 hr coffee shop you worked at HAHAHA

So he goes in, preparing to like-idk, threaten ur life for a cup of coffee or smth mean n whatnot

The door bell rings, and you turn around and give him the KINDEST MOST GENTLE-EST SMILE HES EVER SEEN

As a villain, and just someone who looks out of the ordinary in general, he never got much of that

SO WHEN HE SEES THIS...MAN SMILING FUCKING SUN RAYS AT HIM

HE FREEZES

You ask him if he’s ok, and DAMN UR VOICE WAS SO SOFT IT WAS BARELY INAUDIBLE WHAGSHDHEH

Mans usually isn’t at a loss for words but HE IS NOW

Instead of threatening you for a cup of coffee, he actually orders like a normal person

He’s the only one in the cafe since it’s so late, and you had the late night shift lucky you

He sat in the corner with his coffee in silence, occasionally stealing glances at you sweeping the floor or counting the money in the register

what was this foreign feeling in his chest whavabwhshs

He didn’t notice when you walked up to him

mans almost roasted you alive

LMAO BUT HE DIDNT SO IT OK

“Are you doing okay? Do you want a refill?”

He wasn’t really thirsty anymore but he did get a refill because he wanted to stay and watch you work some more like a creep

Yeah, one refill turned to three and he ended up talking to you for the rest of the night AWW

He was honestly suprised you didn’t know he was a villain, with the dark coat and scars and stuff

He ended up buying more coffee to take back to the league with the money he stole HAHAHA

Toga, sipping on her third coffee: yo why u buy so much damn

Dabi: 🤠

He started coming over more and more in the dead of night, on the days you worked which he totally didn’t find out by sneaking into the back room of the cafe and checking the schedule

You, somehow, didn’t find it suspicious that he’d always visit whenever you worked

One day, on one of the numerous times he’s visited, you mentioned how you used to be a bartender before switching over to being a barista

Something just...clicked

He’s a villain, right? Why’s he going so far to appeal to you, when he could just kidnap you and convince you to join the league?

So he did just that

You woke up in their weird club bar room hideout, tied to a chair with dabi and a few unfamiliar faces

Dabi lowkey felt bad (even for him) because even though you were literally just kidnapped, you gave him one of those heartwarming smiles

Even if it was a bit scared and forced, and probably a coping mechanism out of fear

“Look I ain’t gonna hurt you, dude. You’re one of my favorite people, so I’m offering you a deal.”

“Siiiiiiimp.”

“Shut the fuck up, Toga.”

Dabi nudged the girls side.

A girl with blond hair and a school girls uniform pointed a knife at you. You flinched and dabi kept talking

“You said you used to be a bartender, right? I’m sure you can help this guy out behind the counter. Join us.”

Dabi motioned at Kurogiri. He waved, LMAOO

“Join me...please”

As scared as you were, you couldn’t deny the fact you had a soft spot for this scarily intimating man who’d sit in the corner and sip coffee everyday at work

Hell, sometimes (all the time LNAJS) you joined him and you’d talk for hours

And hearing this guy say “please” for the first time?

You nodded slowly, and dabi smiled

It was a nice smile, even if it was a bit scary

How could you possibly refuse?

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Hawks:

Since he wasn’t yknow...fucking iilegal and a villain, he came by to your coffee shop during the day

He was workin, caught and turned in a villain yk the usual

And he was kinda far away from his house, n he was gettin kinda hungry

He was flying around the city, when he spotted your lil coffee shop

Well, it wasn’t really a coffee shop, more like a food stop that so happens to sell coffee n drinks aswell

And hEY

you just opened up too, it was a relatively new place

My mans hawks supporting new & local businesses <3

He goes in right

He sees yakitori on the menu and goes :D

So he goes to order

And sees this,,, BEAUTIFUL HANDSOME MAN BEHIND THE COUNTER

“Hi Mister! What can I do you for?”

YOUR VOICE WAS LIKE FUCKING ANGELS SINGING WHAGSHW

I think the main reason hawks was drawn to you was the fact you didn’t treat him like a celebrity and kissed his ass n whatnot, mainly bc you didn’t really keep up nor care about the trending hero’s and stuff (no offense to hawks and none taken)

He choked on his yakitori when you walked up to his lil table and asked for a picture for ur grandpa (who was a BIG fan, unlike you)

MANS REALLY HAD TO PUT ON HIS MOST CHARMING SMILE AND PEACE SIGN THIS SIMP IM HDHEIDIE

He kept going out of his way to visit ur shop frequently even though he lived preeeeetty far off

I mean mans has wings so it ain’t a problem but-

This simp-

He doesn’t show up in his hero outfit (unless he’s coming from patrol) so you didn’t really see him as “Hawks the hero”, more like “Keigo, the man who has stupid endeavor shorts and likes yakitori”

It’s really sweet he shows up in stupid graphic shirts and sweatpants he looks comfy-

He openly flirts with you, and at first you laughed and smiled because you didn’t wanna be rude (it still did things to Keigos heart)

but then

Ur laughs n smiles when he drops a stupid pickup line? They real

The way you offer to take over ur coworkers shifts just to see if Hawks stops by? It’s love just admit it

The totally unfair discount you gave him on yakitori, not mentioning the way you know how Keigo prefers it by heart? Just ask him out already DAMN

You two didn’t have any personal info on eachother, no numbers, emails, hell, Keigo didn’t know your first name (in Japan, you don’t really go by first names unless ur with fam or close friends yk?)

So when you nervously hand him his box of yakitori one day?

Hawks is like 🤠👍?

He opens it and sees:

“(Xxx)-xxx-xxxx -call me, and maybe we can, I don’t know, go out on a date and get to know each other more, yakitori-kun? ~(Y/n)

So ur first name was (Y/n), huh

HES WHIPPED

HES SIMPING

He looks over at you, hiding ur face and sneaking glances at him while ur coworkers stiffing snickers and nudging ur side

GOD TAKE HIM NOW

you bet ur ass hes calling u later and saving ur contact as “My yakitori man (Y/n) ✨❤️”

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Thank y’all for 700, by the way !! I love you all !!

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[valentine-writes]

MOVED TO @l0vem41l !

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i don't think i'll ever do any full ficz but plz feel free 2 drop hc reqz when open! i'd love to hear what you want me 2 write up! scroll down for things to know when requesting, tags, and other info!

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WILL NOT DO !

nsfw (requesting it will get u blocked), gore, heavily triggering topics (this is vague, so don't be afraid to ask about certain things!), incest, pedophilia, kink/fetish content

WILL DO !

x reader, my ocs x reader, romantic headcanons, platonic headcanons, general headcanons, specific gendered readers (default gender neutral if not stated!)

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my ocs (i gotta introduce them first though- oops)

OTHER NOTES + RULES !

i will and can refuse/delete requests i'm uncomfortable with writing!

i'm a sfw blog! i don't wanna write nsfw stuff and will never, so i'm putting it here a second time just so u know

i am strictly a sfw account! i'd prefer not to interact w/ accounts that are nsfw but tbh,, i don't rly care if nsfw accs interact w/ me. if u msg me or put sumn in my ask/req box tho, no majorly explicit stuff!!!

there are certain characters i will not write x reader for, just ask if you're uncertain!

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don't spam me or my inbox plz </3 i'm very busy so it might take a while for me to get to ur request

unless you're a close friend or mutual that's requesting, i will not write oc x character, oc x oc, or oc content of your oc(s)

i no longer write for genshin (just,,, not all that into it when sumeru hit)

i no longer write for ddlc (i LOVE MY GIRLS. but i will not write for them anymore ^_^)

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[hajimeow-archived]

Yo Hajime talk abt ur kin mems

since there were no specifications on which ones i am going to start from the beginning and go where my brain takes me from there. they're all gonna be for hajime bc i physically cannot think about my other memories anymore jsyk

also! this ended up being so long i had to put a cut. i will not be apologizing because i feel no remorse.

so first the basic stuff, i remember having a med skin tone and a FUCK ton of freckles like those motherfuckers were everywhere i had skin. also i was 5'7 i think?? or 5'6. i still can't remember exactly but it's something like that. i was also alloaro, some form of mlm, unfortunately cis, and autistic and probably had some other stuff like adhd or depression or whatever but i forgot. also i was kinda muscle-y but also chubby at the same time. and i had light green eyes. basically i was fanon hajime JSJSKDJDKS

and i was going over the wiki recently and my personality was EXACTLY how they described it like i'm genuinely surprised they got it so accurate

i don't remember much pre-game and post game, most of my memories are in game but i do remember pre game chiaki really well, honestly i rly miss her :( she would always reassure me that i didn't need a talent and i never even cared when she beat me in games cus just simply playing them with her was so fun .,.,,;:,,...,,!:&:&:jsjdjskskck</3

anyways. in game. ok. i'm gonna skip over memories where i just know feelings and not specific things like strong feelings or ppl saying stuff or else this would be so long. also obvious sdr2 spoilers

so i remember the party & blackout in the beginning of the game pretty clearly. i was mostly just standing alone in the corner and watching everyone have fun, but it was really freeing to see the others able to enjoy themselves in such pressing circumstances. then the blackout-- it was kinda like all that happiness going away and the dread and denial immediately setting in .

anyways i remember like panicking and wanting to cry when i lifted the table cloth cus i really liked twogami. i'm p sure i did end up crying cus i really liked them for their realism and leadership skills, and the realization that one of us killed them and that the killing game was actually real etc etc

anyway i don't remember much from the investigation or trial besides being really freaked out when nagito basically admitted to being the killer n stuff, and pretty much all the body discoveries after that (besides ch 5) we're just like "ah shit here we go again" but i do remember mikans trial really freaking me out when she just straight up shifted completely, and i also remember being really proud of fuyuhiko for putting his walls down a bit and deciding to help everyone out while the despair disease was going around

anyway enough of the boring stuff, i spent basically all my free time with komaeda, chiaki and mikan (in order of frequency) and with mikan i mostly listened to her talk about medical stuff and i comforted her when she needed to vent, but i didn't hang out with her much because the constant apologizing n stuff started to bother me since i really liked seeing her happy. chiaki i would mostly play games with and we wouldn't talk much, but she gave me a really strong sense of familiarity like when we played games together it gave me a shit ton of deja vu

AND i've already talked a lot about komaeda but idc i'm doing it again. so we started talking cus of him waking me up on the beach obvs and i was pretty attached right off the bat, but i stopped talking to him for awhile because the way he acted in the first trial REALLY scared me so i just got a pit in my stomach even being around him

but he was the one who started approaching me first, i'm guessing since he couldn't rly sense anything was wrong he just kinda picked things up where they left off and started talking w me at breakfast n stuff and it was pretty weird at first, but i wanted to give him a chance and didn't wanna be rude so i accepted offers to hang out in his cottage n stuff

i remember he has surgery scars tho and i'm rly mad ppl don't draw him with any!! i think he had about 5 and i don't remember all of them but i know one was a skin graft on his leg and the one on his side/stomach that i touched wassssss for appendix removal maybe???? mmmm i'm not too sure about that one tho

also !!!! his death. hoooooly shit. ok so yunno the despair that junko always talks about ?????? yeah <3!! i remember like once i saw his body and took the reality in i just. straight up could NOT stand i like fell to my knees and jsut . cried. like i had no thoughts my head was so full that it was empty i just kinda sat there and silent cried while chiaki stood next to me it was so awful dude

later while investigating n stuff i felt really bad ab how i treated him and thought about him, and i thought a lot about our last interaction. it was the first time i had ever approached him myself cus usually he'd come to me. i was gonna hang out with chiaki but i wanted to check up on him first, so i did and he told me to go hang out with the others and i just. knew something terrible was about to happen.

OH AND THE FUNHOUSE OMG ok i literally. i usually didn't mind being around komaeda like he was chill most of the time when he wasn't ranting about hope but when he was acting like such a bitch in the funhouse i wanted to punch his stupid twink ass so bad like...... what BUSINESS does this dude have being such an asshole. he doesn't even know what face wash is. what the fuck. which is another fun fact! komaeda did shower every so often which is why he didn't smell that bad but his skin was always so dry cus he didn't know how to actually wash right and do proper skincare so he just washed his face w soap and left it like that

also he didn't need to cut his nails cus they were so brittle they would just break off on their own <3 plus he had a nail biting habit so they just never grew ever

OH AND THIS IS THE SADDEST THING i remember feeling so bad for this man bc i would like put my hand on his shoulder and he would lean into it. i mean i'd tap his shoulder for a SECOND and girl when i let go hed be lowkey so sad i could just sense it like??????dude he needed a hug SSO BAD like when i hugged him in my cuddling memory he was like holding on for dear life but also was like "u dOnT hAvE tO tOuCh TrAsH LiKe mE hAjImE" like dude it was the saddest shit. i want to hug him forever. like what the fuck what the fuck!!!!!!!!!

also a thing hed do when he started ranting ab hope n shit like he would just go on and on and yunno that one sprite where he's hugging himself yeah he literally did that shit. also sometimes hed just stare dead at me and start backing me into a corner ((ish-- we were usually sitting somewhere but he mostly just got super close to me) and it was the scariest shit i. bro if i saw him like that on the streets i'd return him to the mental hospital like i can remember it somewhat vividly and that shit was TERRIFYING i mean obvs after i shoved him away and told him to cool it he'd apologize and go back to the way he was but jeez dude ....

also a little fun fact the only reason i really kept hanging out with him (i had a few ofc but this was the most prominent) is cus he was hot in my stupid monkey brain. yes that's it. like that's literally pretty much it. i hate admitting it but this post is SO fucking long i doubt anyone's gonna read it anyway so i'm admitting it now lol

anyway i hope u enjoyed :) i'm glad u asked btw! i'm sure you regret it though!

#do not fucking underestimate me #i feel like i'm not allowed to talk about myself in conversation so when i'm asked like this you're NOT hearing the end of it #kinblr #fictionkin #hajime hinata kin #nagito komaeda kin #putting this in tags bc theres so much and. i dunno ajdjdjsjdk #kin talk #ask #bestie neko 💕

[angeltrapz]

heyyy dude🖤 i come bearing chainshipping Qs! (+ I’m still working on an answer 2 ur ask, today’s just been kinda a nightmare skfjdjdh— will finish + post it 2nite tho) BUT …. what kind of pets do u think they have? one of my fav hcs is that Adam had a just ratty orange street cat who was his Favorite of all the ones he fed, n that Lawrence adopts 4 him as a surprise. but do they have any other pets currently? dream pets that just aren’t realistic but Maybe Someday? pets Diana wants? — ALSO ways Adam helps Lawrence w his recovery? moments where it rly sinks in for Lawrence that like.. he’s not alone, they’re in this together?

Thank you I LOVE questions like this!!! (I'm sorry your day's been a nightmare,, mine's heading that way so it was nice to just see this in my inbox after being busy today <33 take your time though!!)

Pets:

I personally also love the idea of Adam getting attached to a specific cat he fed at his apartment, I think about that scene in the script all the time!! Honestly I've given a lot of thought to that and the way I see it playing out is that when he comes back to his apartment after the hospital (since he and Lawrence definitely don't live together right away), and the cat is still hanging around, almost like it was waiting for him to get back - and maybe it was - and he's just... he's lonely, he doesn't want to be alone anymore, not after what he went through, so he just kind of. Picks her up and is like "I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I'm gonna get you to a vet just to get you checked out and then you're staying with me." He brings her in that night and has a fairly easy time of it, considering she's grown to allow him quite close, letting him stroke her back or her head while she's eating; he smiles for the first time in what feels like forever when he brings a hand down to pet her again and she bumps it against his palm.

I like the idea of Lawrence coming over one night (maybe because Adam can't be alone, maybe because he himself can't be alone; regardless, he agrees to come see Adam) and noticing her (Adam names her Bug) when she jumps up onto Adam's ratty couch next to him after he sits down. I personally HC that Lawrence's family at least had a cat or two growing up, so it's not like he's never had one; it's just been a long time since he's socialized with one! But Bug is very friendly, and mostly she just kind of sniffs at him to check him out. She eventually settles herself in his lap after she seems to deem him safe, and when Adam comes back from the kitchen with two beers since that's all he has right now, his heart just kinda melts a little bit. He can't help it. Bug took a while to warm up to Adam, but it seems like maybe some attention was all she really needed.

After Lawrence asks about her and Adam tells him about her past, he asks if Adam's gotten her to the vet yet, just in case; upon getting a nervous little "No, I'm not sure how I'm gonna afford that yet" from Adam, Lawrence is the one to be like "Well, how about we bring her in, get her caught up on shots and such, and I'll cover it?" and of course Adam denies this vehemently at first, because he didn't say that to make Lawrence feel guilty, but Lawrence sees right through him + already knows this and so he argues right back that it's fine, it's no trouble, Bug clearly means a lot to him and he wants Adam to be happy, and well... that shuts Adam up, at least for a bit. Especially when he catches Lawrence scratching her around the ears a little, hears her purr.

He does try to pay Lawrence back later, though. It's just how he is.

Of course that means Bug goes with him when he eventually moves in with Lawrence, and she becomes their pet!! Diana LOVES her when she first gets to meet her, naturally, and Bug seems to love her too!! Honestly Bug is surprisingly patient, though Lawrence does make sure to kind of step in and tell her about what's okay and what might not be - especially because Diana is used to dogs, and there's a pretty big difference there. It's good though, and she plays with Bug as much as she can when she's over on the weekends! She's suuuper ecstatic about having a pet again.

As for pets Diana might want, honestly? She'd probably like another dog! In the first SAW there's a pic in Lawrence's wallet of Diana with a dog. My HC for that is that it was a sheltie Diana had named Lassie that they had to rehome due to Lawrence + Alison's work schedules at the time,, Diana has always wanted another pet after that so Bug is kind of like a godsend in that regard, but she's super fond of dogs. My heart is very drawn to the idea that Adam takes her to a shelter once (after an extensive talk with Lawrence beforehand, because again, Diana is only there every other weekend during the school year, so it'll be them taking care of the dog for the majority of the time; they both agree that it’d be good for her, though) and they look. They walk around for a bit before Diana darts over to a scruffy-looking mutt, a far cry from the pedigree dog she once had. The tag says his name is Benji (”Another ‘b’ name,” Diana tells him excitedly), he’s only a few years old, and he sniffs at her hand when she presents it. It takes Adam a moment to realize it, but when he does, he can hardly contain himself - Benji has three legs. You wouldn’t know it by the way he moves around, though! And Diana’s already made a connection with him...

And, well, they have the stuff necessary. That was something he and Lawrence had gone out and done prior to telling Diana they were getting a dog, just so they’d be prepared.

A quick call to Lawrence and it’s a done deal. Diana sits in the back with him, talking to him about how much he’s going to love it at their house, how he’ll get to meet Bug and Lawrence and how it’ll be so much fun, and Adam is up in the driver’s seat just like... wow. This is my little family. It’s something that felt so unattainable for Adam in the past, but like. A boyfriend, a kind-of-step-daughter, a cat and a dog. A house. He doesn’t cry or anything like that, but it’s just one of those things, y’know? It hits him a little. I know I talk about that a lot but for these two, it really is the little things like that.

Thankfully, he and Bug get along! That was something that both Lawrence and Adam were worried about, but it seems unfounded as the most they did was sniff at each other and then went back to what they were doing.

When Lawrence comes home, Benji is laying down on his new bed beside the couch, and so for a moment doesn’t realize there’s anything different about him - until the sound of the door opening + Diana’s excited greeting wake him up, and Lawrence is in the middle of saying “So this is the guy, huh?” when Benji kinda. Hops over to him in the way that he does, a way that Adam (and Diana!) are quickly growing fond of, and Lawrence pauses in the threshold. He doesn’t quite crouch down, because that can be a little hard for him, esp after he just got home from work, but he leans down as much as he can and just... has a moment? He pets Benji’s head for a good few minutes, earning a few kisses because that’s the kind of dog Benji is, and when he straightens up after hugging Diana, he just looks at Adam and smiles, and that’s all the confirmation he needs. The two of them end up being pretty close <3

Dream pets!! I agree with your tags on that one pic I reblogged that Adam would get one of those werewolf cats!! They're called Lykois and they're awesome!!! I don’t know when/if he would get one, but I love the idea of him having one!!! Esp bc they’re a breed that generally works well with others, so Bug and Benji would be fine! I feel like he’d let Lawrence or Diana name the cat if it didn’t already have one too. <33

You wouldn’t know it by looking at him, but Lawrence has always been fond of birds? He’s not sure he actively wants a pet bird, though, just that he likes them and thinks they’re neat. His grandma had one, a green ringneck parakeet, that he always thought was SO COOL growing up bc he talked and as a kid that’s so interesting!! He mostly appreciates them from afar, though; he’d hate to get a pet he couldn’t take care of.

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Moments Lawrence realizes it’s not just him in this:

We’ve both touched on this before, I think, but Lawrence has a tendency to bottle things up, push them out of the forefront of his mind to deal with later, and I think this absolutely extends to asking for/receiving help for anything post-Bathroom. Part of it is that he feels he doesn’t deserve it (though Adam strongly disagrees), but another part of it is that he’s supposed to be better now, he got out, they won and Jigsaw lost, so why does he still find it hard to sleep at night? Why can’t he do the things he used to even with the prosthetic? And it takes a long time for him to realize that Adam isn’t just... there, he wants to help, even when things are ugly and gritty and not easy.

A big one is helping him care for the stump where they’d had to amputate a bit more up his leg. I think at first that’s something he carries a lot of shame over, not being able to move around as easily/without help, ESP for those first few months - and it’s not something that really goes away after he’s fitted with + given a proper prosthetic and received a cane. I think the first time Adam assists him in washing the stump is one of the first times it really hits him that he’s not alone in this; it’s something he typically does on his own, with the door shut so no one has to see, but his hands are shaking so badly and he’d had a long day and so after a good ten minutes Adam gently opens the door, because he knew that’s what Lawrence was in there for + it’d been a while, and he just sees him sitting on the edge of the tub, slacks in a heap off to the side because it’s easier than folding the pantleg up, hands folded in his lap and head bowed, whole body trembling and skin pale, and he just mumbles, “I can’t do it. I can’t.”

Adam doesn’t turn away. He doesn’t think it’s disgusting, doesn’t see it as something he should be afraid of or abhor; in fact, he sits down on the floor at Lawrence’s feet where he’s already got the basin with warm water ready, takes one of the special, soft washcloths that are only ever used for this purpose, and makes sure there’s enough soap on it before he sets to work. His touch is careful, gentle, and completely unhesitant, and Lawrence’s fingers go white-knuckled where they’re gripping the edge of the tub, and his shoulders are heaving because he is trying so hard not to cry but he can’t help it. If Adam notices, he doesn’t say anything, at least at first - but once he’s done + has patted it dry as carefully as he possibly can, he kisses the flesh there, just once, and Lawrence breaks down. He has to carefully help Lawrence move off of the edge of the tub so he won’t fall, and Lawrence’s head drops to his shoulder and he cries, harder than he has in a long time, unable to do anything other than feel. The fact that Adam holds him through it, tells him it’s okay, he loves him, it’s alright, is something that hits Lawrence all at once. Adam didn’t have to do that, but he did it anyway, he did it because he wanted to. That’s huge for Lawrence.

Another one I think about is the first time Lawrence gathers up the courage to wake Adam up after he’s had a horrible nightmare. As we’ve both mentioned before, he hates feeling like he’s burdening Adam with these things, knows he gets just as little sleep and hates to disrupt it when Adam actually gets some decent rest, but Adam has told him that he wants to be woken up, he wants to be there for him like Lawrence is when he needs it. This would probably happen after that first time he follows Lawrence into his office post-nightmare and consoles him, so it’s like... the next biggest step, in a way. It’s the first time he actively seeks out that sort of comfort, which is a good amount of progress made.

Lawrence doesn’t exactly wake up screaming but it’s a near thing, chest heaving and shoulders hunched up around his ears because jesus christ that was way too vivid, his heart is threatening to beat right out of his chest, and he absolutely cannot be awake on his own right now. Neither of them are deep sleepers anymore, so it’s fairly easy to wake Adam up, but as soon as he does Lawrence just kind of... freezes, because what does he say? He doesn’t really want to talk about what it is that he saw, but doesn’t Adam deserve a reason for being woken up like that? So he’s just sitting there as Adam sits himself up, mouth opening and closing because what does he say, but it’s okay that he can’t talk. Adam doesn’t mind. He just places his hands very gently on Lawrence’s cheeks (he’s crying, he realizes then), presses his forehead to Lawrence’s, and holds him there. He moves one of Lawrence’s hands to his chest so he can feel his heartbeat and every breath he takes, because he knows that’s what helps.

He doesn’t make Lawrence explain, doesn’t try to get him to stop crying, just holds him through it while he lets himself be upset in a way that he’d been suppressing for so long in the care of someone who loves him. Eventually, staying close like this, Lawrence slowly stops sobbing; his breaths even out, his eyes slip closed, he’s okay. For now, he’s okay. And Adam just kind of pulls him close, manages to lay them both down with Lawrence’s head on his chest just so he can still hear his heart, and for the first time, it kind of hits Lawrence that he feels like he can go back to sleep. He’s never felt like that post-nightmare, too worked up to get himself to relax enough to do so, and again, it hits him that he is not alone in this. Adam wants to be woken up, wants to hold him while he cries, wants to be there. After that, it’s easier for him to seek out comfort like that, to ask for help, because he’s kind of got undeniable proof now, doesn’t he?

There are smaller things too, like when they need to park somewhere and they just can’t find a spot, and there’s a parking garage nearby that’s sure to have a space open - but Lawrence can’t do that. He can’t. He doesn’t even do that at work anymore. And instead of being frustrated, Adam’s just like “It’s fine, we’ll find a spot eventually, don’t worry about it,” and Lar’s just like Huh. He’s Not Upset. He Could Be But He Isn’t. It’s still something that blows him away, sometimes. He ends up with a hand on Adam’s knee, a silent way to say thank you for understanding. Adam just smiles back, and Lawrence knows that he’s been heard.

Another one (+ one we’ve both touched on!) is during the times where Lawrence has holed up in his office after a rough day because he’s got paperwork to do and he needs some kind of distraction, but in doing that he’s thrown himself into a distressing loop of I’m keeping myself away from my partner, this is what I did before and look at how that affected Alison, what am I doing, while furiously trying to focus on the paperwork he wants so badly to take him away from confronting his emotions right that second - but then Adam pops in with a snack and a water bottle, just like “Hey, I know it’s been hard today, but I brought you some stuff. I’m gonna go chill over here but you can keep doing what you’re doing,” and it’s just like... that level of understanding. Knowing Adam is there, that he doesn’t resent Lawrence for doing this, making it known that he’s there when Lar’s ready to talk? Oof. He finds it a lot easier to work through it like that.

Eventually he’s even able to allow Adam to draw him away if he senses that Lawrence is frustrating himself too much, and it’s just like. That’s progress!! That’s good + healthy!! And it’s things like this that tell Lawrence he’s seen, he’s heard, he’s trying his best and it’s recognized. He’s not alone, just as Adam isn’t. They’re there for each other. It’s okay that he still struggles. They both do, even if it’s in different ways, and that’s okay. Just!!! I think abt this a lot!!!

#adam #lawrence #asks #can u tell I ADORE the idea of them adopting a pet that ends up having 3 legs #I genuinely think it'd help lar a little too yknow? solidarity. having it treated as just another ordinary thing #and something even to be celebrated. idk. I think it wld help him a lot #long post #I went. off a little bit kdjfkldsd #AGAIN TY I absolutely adore getting asks frm you + looove getting 2 talk abt these things #I write abt them a lot so I think abt them a lot too <33

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Clariii hiya I hope you are doing good 💕

I’m sorry I have taken a while to reply, been packing again to move into new student housing so busy stressful times sorting all that stuff out but I’m moving this week so not too much stress left <3

My tattoo actually didn’t hurt at all, I got my lil koi fish done on the side of my wrist like if you hold your arms out straight and then turn it to the side so your thumb is facing up its on that side if that makes any sense - ngl it was kinda relaxing, I told my tattoo artist that I could’ve fallen asleep

Also I saw your post about damiano and omg in so happy that you love them too - I thought you would like them and honestly the whole band are fashion icons and I am obsessed <3 because they won Eurovision they’ll do a Europe tour and I am hoping to get tickets whenever the dates are realised because I need to see them live

How are you doing? What have you been up to recently? I haven’t managed to make anymore progress on the film list you gave me so no film updates unfortunately - oh actually I went to see Candyman in the cinemas and it was not my favourite horror in the world, more gory than scary which I don’t mind but gore doesn’t bother me, I’m not very squeamish so if I see a horror movie I do want it to scare me and I can’t say that this one did so if you’ve seen it or were planning on it then that is just my thoughts <3

Anyways I’ll finish this lil ramble now, I’m glad to see you’re doing a bit better now but remember to stay hydrated and rest because being a bad bitch is hard work (I apologise if that was kinda cringe but I mean it with love) <3

I’ll love you and leave you now, hope you’re having a fantastic day and I’m sending you all the love and hugs in the world <333-🍯

hi honey bb!!!

no oh my gosh no need for apologies!!! that sounds really stressful but also really exciting!! i hope everything went smoothly <3

WAAAH THAT SOUNDS SO CUTE!!!!!!! omg no i totally get what you mean, i don't really mind the feeling but i'm also a huge masochist sooooo LMAO

YES YES YES OH MY GOSH I'M SO GLAD YOU SAW IT HAHAHA holy fuck yes i'm totally obsessed too honestly i think they're all v talented and i find them super inspiring???? both my boyfriend and i also feel this immense amount of pride for them, being italian ourselves you know? AAAAAH oh my gosh i hope you get tickets!!! we nearly bought tickets to their show in rome in 2022 since we plan to travel to italy in 2022 to explore potential places to live (but i really don't want to go in july lmao so :( we didn't purchase them).

i'm,,,,,,, ah. yeah. every day is different; some days are better than others. but i won't give up!!! i'm trying my very best to get better again, and i have a few appointments coming up etc.

in happier and more exciting news, i finally got my hair done!!! decided to dye it ash blonde (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ i really love it, i miiiiiiight post a photo for a split second to share it with everyone, waaah idk i'm rly shyyyy

other than that, i've been spending a lot of time with my family + my boyfriend. we've been going to the zoo a lot, and just this past weekend we went hiking right along the niagara whirlpools, so that was super fun and scary but rly pretty hehe <3 my boyfriend and i are also picking up learning italian again (LMAO) because the prospect of moving to italy seems to be becoming more and more of a reality with each passing day, so!! my mom's been speaking to me in italian at home, but she speaks a calabrian dialect and not standard italian, so there's a bit of a disconnect there hehehe <3 but it's still cool, she's so happy we're learning lmao

and then every day i write a bit of break my bones. i've been jumping between part four, part five, and the epilogue, but so far i'm really happy with what i've written, even if it's going suuuuper slowly (i only wrote like 800 words last night D: but it's better than nothing!)

i totally get u on the candyman issue; i wasn't planning on seeing it in theatres but i'm with you 100% on gore vs terror. like i LOVE gore but i don't find it scary. i haven't been to a theatre in so long and i miss it a lot but :( i'm still really selective on the public places i'll go to hahaha

ah thank you so much for this message, honeybun <333 i love you more than anything!!!!! i hope you're doing well, and that the beginning of school is being kind to you <3 HAHAHA pls ur so cute <33 i am trying my best to take care of myself, pinky promise!! hopefully i can return fully to my blog soon :(

#SORRY THIS IS LIKE #ABSURDLY LONG LMAO #i just kindaaaa rambled on and on #but it's been nice to spend so much time with the people in my life like irl yk??? #i think i really needed that #just being in the here and now with the people i love #enjoying their company and making memories etc #i do miss my blog so much though #i'm going to try and figure out a good balance that i can maintain between the two (irl and blog) before fully returning #i think this new psychologist might be able to help me with that as well so i guess we'll see!! #but anyway!!! i love u!!!! #please have a lovely week and as always stay safe out there <33 #sending u bunches n bunches of health + happiness my precious honeybun <3333333333 #🍯.anon #clari gets mail