sunshinedawn

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did a halloween party, took pictures. in the pictures, my girlfriend is just looking at me, and oh my.

there's such love in her eyes. i think that picture alone got rid of mt insecurities if i had any left.

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it's been over a month since i posted that. me and her got back together, and it's been such beautiful days since.

as much as it wrecked me, we needed it.

i love her. with everything in me.

being heartbroken fucking sucks especially when you broke up because you know you're just not a match anymore

i still love her

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if this person is right, i'm gonna lose it.

i did an entire rant to my gf about it all, and holy shit, i think this (while perhaps not getting with eddie as much as i wish for it, fox is a bitch) but the whole not being able to have kids is the likely route, i wonder how they're gonna tie it up

i mean cause this is like MAJOR life changing shit. if buck somehow doesn't end up donating, he's still gonna have the b r e a k d o w n of the century after.

i just hope eddie is there.

Going off @yramesoruniverse’s tags on this post but god if it turns out Buck accepts being a sperm donor, hangs all his potential utility/happiness on this situation working out, and then finds out he can’t be a donor for some reason? Maybe like the tags suggest, because he can’t have bio kids at all?

At which point his only future way to his having a child would be Eddie, his best friend literally ever, the love of his life even though he’s not totally aware of that yet, dying? And maybe that’s a thought he’s already had but that was about love and the fact he was never going to find a partner but to then find out that even if he DID find a partner he STILL wouldn’t have a kid?

He’s gonna snap like a candy cane yikes on bikes

#9-1-1 #911 season 6 speculation #911 spoilers #angst #evan buckley #buckley diaz family #firefam #911fox #buddie #oliver stark

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they run away like little gremlins lmao

HEN AND HER POPCORN BOYS

#911fox #evan buckley #firefam #buckley diaz family #911 on fox

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being heartbroken fucking sucks especially when you broke up because you know you're just not a match anymore

i still love her

#heartbroken #heartache #fucking best friends #why was she my soulmate #i'll never find a love like her

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literally dying inside at this (read: my mom is casey and me and my gf are buck and eddie)

me: *wants to date girls, specifically my gf of a year*

my mom: well you just don't know what'll happen

me: i don't know mother i think i hate dick thanks

screaming

#buddie #seriously this woman is going to end herself if she realizes it's not a phase #she's convinced i'll marry a guy #i've never seen somehow fool themselves more #oh wait casey did in their comments #anyway buddie is my ship till i die #as a active friends to lovers participant #i think buck and eddie should be canon #sincerely #my gay ass #evan buckley #buckley diaz family #firefam #fanfiction #911fox

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he looks like a giddy little kid on his way to his first day of school- just so happy to exist

that is such a lie

#tk strand #tkstrandedit #owen strand #2x07 #lonestaredit

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hiii to the few people that shared my question, here's the answer i got!! make sure to go over to their blog cause they're a literal god for answering my question.

dude i gotta know, what was the leaked episode title?? also, apparently there was an editing mistake in Brawl in Cell Block, what was that? it's killing me not knowing and i always feel left out cause i don't know how people find out this kind of stuff.

Hello! The episode title for 6x09, which led to my very random, barely spec ficlet, is Warning Signs. The list of all the 6a eps can be found here. The editing mistake in 5x06 is that it looks like Eddie is wearing Buck's turnout coat after they get out of the ambulance and are being searched (right before Mitchell asks about Christopher, I think?). Sorry I don't have a gif of it right now.

As for where to find this stuff, the 911bts blog is a fantastic source, plus I just hang out on tumblr way too often and see things here.

#hope that helped a little! #evan buckley #buckley diaz family #firefam #911fox #this person is god #also im so excited for this next season? #like just looking at the epis titles? #chances are we won't get buddie cause queerbaiting exists but god i hope we're getting closer

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dude it's been forever since i watched this episode i didn't realize how wack it was-

also on another note, wHAT WAS THE EDITING MISTAKE?? IVE SEEN IT MENTIONED BEFORE NOW IM CURIOUS-

We don't talk enough about how straight out of fanfiction Brawl in Cell Block 9-1-1 was , like just.... the Buddie of it all was indescribable....

Buck and Eddie getting kidnapped together

THE editing mistake

Buck responding to threat's against Christopher's life like Christopher was his kid

Mitchell being around Buck and Eddie for all of two seconds before realizing the best way to get either of them to respond is by threatening the other

Buck wanting Mitchell to kill himself, basically, if it meant that Eddie was okay

Everyone running away from the gunshot when Buck ran toward it

Buck hearing a gunshot and saying Eddie's name in that voice like you know he was reliving the worst moment of both of their lives

Buck running to Eddie

Eddie shaking off the cops when Mitchell shot himself and only having eyes for Buck, trusting Buck to get the equipment to keep Mitchell's heart beating

Eddie looking at Buck when he said he was going to see his son like he expected him to follow

Buck's face when he said Mitchell didn't get to see his son, like he could relate

that whole episode was on crack and speed and heroin I can't believe they did that

#evan buckley #buckley diaz family #firefam #911fox #buddie #fanfiction #911 on fox

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it's like that when shit goes down.

for a moment, it's like it didn't even happen at all. and then it all zooms into focus way too fast.

those eight minutes are a lifetime, yet milliseconds at the same time. and the weight they carry is so daunting and large it'll set up the rest of you.

when things go bad, they flash at you. it's sudden, it's jerky, it's new. your brain pauses in seconds that last lifetimes to process, before racing again. not even long enough for a full breath.

when things get better, you don't even realize they're better, until it's been okay for you long enough to breathe. to realize that you've been breathing this whole time, and you should continue to breathe.

a deep breath doesn't last eight minutes.

it lasts as long as you want it too.

so take it slow, and feel it deeply.

If the sun were to explode, you wouldn’t even know about it for 8 minutes because that’s how long it takes for light to travel to us. For eight minutes the world would still be bright and it would still feel warm.

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oh boy do they-

i feel like if this is something that they do after a random lust kiss or a drunken action it's gonna piss people off. they gotta seriously show the progression of feelings on both sides, maybe some angst that causes a realization and boom love. a steady, truly domestic love, that shows they are partners in more way then one.

Sometimes I read a theory about how Buck and Eddie will get together and I think to myself, do you really want the culmination of 4+ years of their relationship building to end up like that?? They've got one shot to get this right and I feel like the writers really need to stick the landing here.

#buddie #911onfox #911 on fox #evan buckley #buckley diaz family #firefam #911fox #i think this would be epic if they got it right #if they don't fox better go on lockdown cause fans will riot #and i am one of them #i got so much relating to buck and eddie yknow?? i fell in love with my bestie and it was such a slow growing love that felt so sudden #especially at first but then it was like oh nothing changed #not really

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look

as someone who's fallen in love with their best friend and is a lesbian

it's daunting but f u c k is it the best kind of love

and i feel like it would be the perfect love that buck needs. he hasn't ever had a steadfast love like he does with eddie.

and it could benefit eddie too. clearly buck is a sense of stability in his life, one he trusts completely if his will is anything to go by.

buck and eddie deserve each other, in the best way.

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #they deserve it #they deserve some stable love #firefam #911fox #911 #9-1-1 #buddie #i ship these two so hard #like it isn't healthy #friends to lovers #is def superior as an active friends to lovers group member

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i think it says a lot that chris still calls buck right away when he doesn't know whats wrong with his father. like, it'd make sense if he called his tia pepa or his bisabuela, they live right there in LA and they're family. but no. his first instinct is buck. buck clearly lets himself in and when he enters eddie's room, instead of eddie lashing out (we know that when eddie is offered help like that he usually lashes out, he's run by anger and we've seen it before) yet he sits there, weak and vulnerable and though the scene cuts, we can assume buck helped him. and chris.

the writers can't write a scene like that and also say there's no possibility for buddie. there's some serious underlying something between those two. hen and chimney are close as hell, yet they don't act like that with each other's kids. hen doesn't act like that with athena's.

there's something about the way eddie apologizes to buck about scaring christopher in 5x13 - you don't really apologize to your friend for scaring your own kid. if it had been hen who came to the rescue, would he have apologized to her for scaring chris? likely not. maybe a apology that she had to be there, a sorry-you-had-to-deal-with-this. but with buck its very much an "I'm sorry I scared our kid" and its a quiet moment but it screams so loud

#buddie #angst #buckley diaz family #evan buckley #911fox #9 1 1

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We fell fast and hard, how'd it get this bad? [completed, yay]

buddie | 12.4k | mature

Summary: Several months ago, Buck got into a relationship, one he was certain would distract him from his current downward fall into love for Eddie.

Instead, Buck wears long sleeves, panics easily, and is hiding away his biggest secret.

Nick hits him.

The team doesn't know, yet , and if they find out, Buck knows it won't be pretty.

If only Buck knew how right he was.

Warnings: domestic abuse (not super graphic, but always caution), violence, angst, manipulation, temporary character death, possibly triggering scenes.

Pairing: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz

Excerpt: (this is from chapter one)

“Buck.” Eddie called. His stomach was tight, anxiety curling, and worry for Buck making his hands close into fists. Was Nick the danger that set off Eddie’s worry?

Buck turned. “Yeah?” Eddie was standing in the middle of the room, his face full of concern.

“You know if you were in any sort of danger, you can come to me, right?”

Buck’s stomach full of anxiety sloshed up to his throat as nausea hit him. “I know, Eds.”

Eddie didn’t look convinced but he let it go. Buck needed to know how safe Eddie would be for him, he needed someone to run too. “I love you, Buck.”

Buck’s heart fluttered, he knew of Eddie’s struggle with those three words. Eddie was trying so hard to say them, especially to those he truly cared about. He had only ever said them to Christopher and Shannon, and as of tonight, Buck. “I love you too, Eddie.”

I've finally released the whole fic now, so it's finished. it's four chapters, and I do have a couple extra scenes in the works that'll be out in a few days. I'm gonna repeat, I don't get too graphic with the abuse, but Buck does get slapped, yelled at, and things are thrown. I don't think it could be triggering to someone who hasn't been a victim, but you never know, so victim or not, exercise caution, as you should with any fic. Thank you for reading!!!!

[read on ao3 here]

#fanfiction #angst #ao3fic #buckley diaz family #evan buckley #firefam #9-1-1 #eddie diaz #buddie #soft eddie diaz #worried eddie diaz #no seriously this man is going to give himself an ulcer #911fox #bobby nash #domestic abuse #if you are a victim of abuse like this #please #reach out for help

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Christopher’s tears finally tipped over. “He can’t leave!”

“Chris, baby, I gotta go.” Buck said.

"But you can’t go home when you’re hurt! Dad has to fix you!”

"What does he mean, Buck?" Eddie asked.

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“Eddie, Nick is hitting Buck, and I think he’s gonna kill him!"

"Buck’s apartment, now!” was all Eddie had to say, and the team was taking off to the trucks.

Hen and Chimney went sprinting to the ambulance, Eddie, Bobby and the others not far behind to the ladder truck. As Eddie jumped inside, sirens clicked on, and the gas to the fire truck had never been pressed harder.

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Several months ago, Buck got into a relationship, one he was certain would distract him from his current downward fall into love for Eddie.

Instead, Buck wears long sleeves, panics easily, and is hiding away his biggest secret.

Nick hits him.

The team doesn't know, yet , and if they find out, Buck knows it won't be pretty.

If only Buck knew how right he was.

Hiii! Im back with a new fic.

This is a ongoing fic, four chapters (three plus a epilogue) all already written and waiting to be posted. Chapter one is out, and two is awaiting release!!

Its a roughly 12,300 word fic, and its centered around Buck being a domestic violence victim. There's lots of angst, love from Eddie (+ the 118), and a soft ending.

I hope you stop by to read it!

#angst #118 firefam #buckley diaz family #evan buckley #buck x eddie #eddie's struggling like somebody help him #maddie buckley #bobby nash #abuse survivor #abuse tw #physical abuse #firefighter #firefam #christopher diaz #fanfiction #ao3fic #ao3 link

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"Peter who?" They sounded annoyed.

"Peter Stark."

The man's glare got darker. "You're no Stark. Stark's aren't puny. Or stupid."

"Um, the papers said so. Born a Stark, and raised one, thank you." Peter snapped, running his hand through his curls.

In seconds, the man's hand was around his wrist, tight- yanking it from his head. The other hand smacked his face. "Boys don't talk back to adults. It would do you well to learn manners, brat." ---- He flinched and closed his eyes as the man raised his hand again, only for the hit to never land.

"Don't you ever touch my son."

His dad.

"How dare you touch me, Anthony." The man yanked his wrist out of Tony's grip. "I am your father."

Hello!!!

I have another fic for you, this time it's marvel! This fic wasn't too thought out, and wrote in two hours, so it's not my best work but I really liked the trope despite the mess I made it into. Maybe I'll rewrite this fic someday wayyyy better with more lore and more background and better angst. Kinda inspired.

Anyway. This moodboard is a hot mess. I couldn't settle on one particular theme, I really liked the blue glow sort of theme, considering the focus on the blue arc reactor glow in the later half, but then ended up doing the historical brown/vintage aged look. The background is actually a blueprint of an arc reactor I found on pinterest that was bright white, and I aged it in lightroom (which i kinda was proud of)

The fic itself is like two of my ideas for angst scenes, the howard and peter scene and the arc reactor dream, shoved together. Not sure how I liked it and judging by the lack of comments and little kudos, I'm not the only one haha. It's fine, I uploaded a drarry fic right after I was more proud of.

This fic is 2513 words, a oneshot, and currently has 128 kudos and zero comments. It's called "the games you played were never fun" from the song Bored by Billie Eilish, if that wasn't obvious in the moodboard.

Anyway. If you like the fic, let me know!

#marvel #iron dad #protective tony stark #howard stark #angst #peter parker angst #hurt comfort #dream sequence #stony

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Draco’s glass dropped out of his hand and onto the floor, shattering.

“That was supposed to stop.” Draco was panicking.

“What hurts?” Harry was unsettled.

His hand let go of his shirt, and the hand that was once holding the glass jumped to his left forearm.

“The Mark.”

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“I want Draco Malfoy!” It yelled.

“Hudson. You think you can demand me?” Draco scoffed. Draco was no longer Draco, this saunter, this cocky aura, the head raise- the voice, that was Death Eater Draco.

“Daddy’s gone, remember? No one to protect you now.” Hudson’s cronies laughed a sickening chuckle, the kind that deepens within the soul and hovers for a few seconds.

Hudson raised his wand, and shot a spell aimed at Ginny. Ginny and Harry, didn't move fast enough.

But Draco did.

He jumped to the side, stepping in front of Ginny, and took the hit.

Hello!

I've written another fic that I made a moodboard for. It's good to mention I don't make moodboards for every fic, despite how much I'd love too. They take some time lmao.

This particular fic is set on Harry's birthday, at the burrow. I don't want to give any spoilers for this fic, but after Draco's dark mark alights, and people show up attacking at the burrow, Harry does something he had avoided doing the whole war. It also is a work in progress, I do have the third chapter (the probable the last or second to last chapter) half written and the ending basically planned, so it will be posted as soon as I finish my essay for school.

This fic is currently 2 out of 3ish chapters, and 6514 words. I hope you like it!!

#harry potter #drarry #angst #draco x harry #harry x draco #drarry fanfiction #dark mark #killing curse #ao3fic #ao3 fanfic #wandless magic