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radios-universe · 22 hours

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HELLOO??????? DID I JUST GET FUCKEN FLEABAGGED???? CREATOR????? THE HELL?????

EXCERPT #28:

Hello. I hope somebody is listening.

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I haven’t seen her since I last spoke to you, old sport. It’s been harder to wander the streets of the City these days. It’s been harder to get up and get the day started. Thalia and I were so close… We went from spending all our time with each other, to not speaking for days at a time.

What possible reason could she have…? For someone who cares the same way, she certainly doesn’t enjoy showing it.

It is so hard to read her mind. She doesn’t give me much to base any guesses on… If only she would talk to me. Have a conversation with me. One that doesn’t lead to her deflecting, or running away.

Every time I think we’re so close, but then the tide just goes back in again. And when that wave comes crashing back into shore, are we ever able to ebb and flow the way we once did?

Or am I back to drowning, waves crashing into my lungs I am no longer able to scream…? Did she ever hear me? Can she hear me?

I suppose I never recalled walking to the beach in the first place, old sport. But I found comfort in the waves. I found myself in the waves.

[A small and distant knock is heard in the background. Equipment rattles. Radio stutters in astonishment.]

Hello…?

THALIA: Can I come in…?

[Beat.]

THALIA: Please, Radio. Can we talk?

RADIO: …Okay. Come in.

[Door squeaks open, footsteps approach.]

RADIO: Hold on. Let me just mute this call quickly.

[A button is pressed, but sound continues to play. A chair squeaks and footsteps get further away. A conversation begins from afar, distant and quiet.]

THALIA: Radio, I… I am so sorry.

RADIO: I know. You say this every time… Do you want to get to a point?

THALIA: I want to be with you. But… I can’t.

RADIO: What do you mean, Thalia? What do you mean, ‘you can’t’?

THALIA: I mean that I can’t. I care for you… So much. I have never met anyone else like you. But, I just can’t be with you.

RADIO: I don’t understand… That makes zero sense, Thalia.

THALIA: I know. And I’m sorry. I can’t… I can’t explain it very well. I just- I have other commitments-

RADIO: Other commitments?

THALIA: In the City. And I-

RADIO: What can even be meant by ‘other commitments’? There’s someone else?

THALIA: No, Radio. There’s no one else. I just… I can’t be with you.

RADIO: We’re in the City… What possible- What do you mean… I… How could you have other commitments? You don’t have time? How is it possible to have that problem here, Thalia? I run out of things to keep myself occupied, stuck here. And with you gone, even fewer things. And I just have to be stuck here while you go and do other stuff? Leave me, even though I love you?

[Silence. A quiet, but suppressed sob is heard as it breaks past Radio’s boundaries.]

THALIA: It’ll pass…

RADIO: But what if-

THALIA: I love you too. And it’ll pass.

[A much louder sob is heard. It comes from both Radio and Thalia, this time.]

RADIO: [Quietly, through tears] Will I ever see you again…?

[Beat.]

THALIA: I think… that wouldn’t be good for either of us.

[The conversation fades into radio static. After a while, this fades to silence. Until a melody softly begins to play.]

♪ There’s nothing left for us anymore Why aren’t you listening? Why aren’t you listening to me? There’s nothing left. ♪

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radios-universe · 2 days

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i feel like people aren’t talking enough about how genuinely GOOD that looks

…they had to have known what they were doing, right?

#haha funny ace joke but GOD DAMNNN #maybe this is just further implementing the stereotype #because i am asexual #and this garlic bread looks good as hell to me #oh well what about it #acespec #ace #asexual #aromantic #garlic bread

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radios-universe · 5 days

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oh no… diagnosis is loneliness… my heart is breaking… i need a non-dating dating app to find aroace people in my area NOW STAT

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radios-universe · 5 days

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i’m so fucking miserable

Just saw a post saying

“Being aro is so cool because it comes with this fun little bonus of knowing you’ll always suddenly come second to your friends once they’re in relationships and you’ll have to respect that even tho you’ll never really understand it”

And now I’m sadly reflecting on my friendships again.

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radios-universe · 6 days

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Been watching some YouTube reactions to JaidenAnimations video about being aroace and the ones I watched were really respectful and open to learn but some of them were like "wow I can't imagine that at all!!! Like you never look at a woman's body or a man's body and think 'I wanna smash that'?? That's crazy!!" and it's always like being an alien creature studying earth and for the first time you realize they find you as incomprehensible as you find them. I love my alloallo allies and I 100% believe you about your experiences, no shade, but I also would be lying if I said I had any idea what the fuck this means:

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radios-universe · 6 days

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shoutout these tags in this reblog. no one asked for an update esp because this was months ago

but if you were wondering how i was doing erm this friend ended up discovering they weren’t aro and in fact now has a bf from said discovery

so. yeah. i was cautious for so long knowing they were romance repulsed just for this to happen🚶🏻‍♀️ and im like. fully in love with this person truly in the most platonic sense sadly

but that doesn’t really hold against romance in this world so! i’ve been a little miserable recently

hence my search for aroace friends because erm. i don’t have any anymore ……

working up the courage to call my .. Platonic partner, closest friend if you will, ‘my rock’ but i’m scared it just sounds cringe

other than the fact that you can call someone your rock as a way of saying they’re a comforting person, their main nickname has already got ‘rock’ in it … so My Rock it’s like. it’s basically like saying my [their name], but with the play on words… you get it right? yeah you get it.

i cringe at everything i do . it’s so over before it’s even begun

#i look at all my old posts and they’re all so affectionately about them #but i never asked them to be in a qpr #because i personally had a bad experience with a qpr #where i got uncomfortable bc it got perceived too romantically #and i was so scared that they would feel the way i did #in my previous qpr #which i wouldn’t wish on ANYONE it was horrible #aaaand now bc we’re still friends i just have to hear about their bf #and literally i cannot bare it #it feels like the biggest stab to the chest every time #also he is…. not great looking #SORRY sorry i mean what who said that haha #but they’re changing so much about themselves and it’s scary #not just sexuality wise i’m ok with them discovering that about themselves #but not seeing me and the way i’m hurting #idk #it’s unbearable #also i hate it bc they’re nb but have suddenly decided they don’t care about #being called the wrong thing now #and that kinda makes me feel :///#it’s completely up to them but i know it’s not them… we talked about it so much over the years #idk!!!!! sorry for the yapping #aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #aromanticism #asexuality #aroace #aromantic asexual

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radios-universe · 7 days

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YES!!!!! THIS!!!!! THIS IS WHY I ENJOYED ENCANTO SO MUCH AT MY BIG AGE!!!! AND EXTRAORDINARY ON DISNEY+ TOO!!!!!!

As an aroace person I always feel really drawn to the "magicless character in a world full of magic" trope because I can relate to the feeling of other people pitying you for not having something they consider essential to life, struggling to comprehend that you could lead a happy existence as you are, having 0 connection to the things everyone never shuts up about and being told "maybe you're just a late-bloomer" instead of "you will be fine regardless"

#IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE #OHHHH MY GOD #aroace #asexual #aromantic

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radios-universe · 7 days

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how come you like heartstopper and not romance? is it that you like the idea of romance but not the real thing? did you say romance as in you just don't like being involved in it yourself?

i have no idea what post this might be referring to or maybe just in general but i probably have talked about this so here we go!

fun ask to get tbh i Do talk about this a lot

short answer: you’re right, i enjoy consuming romance media (especially queer media) because i love the idea of romance…. however, when i personally have gotten too close to it in the past, i just freak out.

no matter how much i think i want it, my brain and my body just shut down when i get too close… and then the aftermath of that can feel pretty shit! bc usually i’m just annoyed at myself in some weird way, as if i didn’t just experience the same thing as i did last time, and the time before….

LONGER answer:

in terms of heartstopper, of course there are aro/ace characters represented (i mean, come on, duh, even alice themself) but we all know it’s a very romance centric show/comic

i’ve never been able to define if it’s just… a sense of identity within the characters or just generally being happy for them or…. a whole mix of emotions but!

seeing characters im emotionally attached and invested in get together and be happy is like!!!! drugs!!! idk!!!! and probably the closest thing i’ll get to experiencing that with… another person which seems like a very odd thing to say!!!

but that kind of excitement is something i guess i could never feel with a relationship of my own so… living vicariously through characters like the ones in heartstopper actually really helps me with aromanticism? it’s odd! and that def doesn’t go for everyone but it’s at least what happens for me

to expand on the queer media comment too, i’ll consume queer media that even might not represent aro/ace people at all! and still feel that same fulfilment!

if you take a story about a character realising they’re gay, people will focus on them realising they feel attraction for the same sex. i mean, that’s what it is at face value.

but an equally important part of the representation for gay characters is the realisation that they are not attracted to the opposite sex. and THAT i can relate to.

when representation for aro/ace people is this sparse, you get pretty used to finding representation in people you don’t really expect to. and that’s also what heartstopper does for me, while it fulfils my desire for romance through me living vicariously, it also represents me, not just in its aro/ace characters, but in every queer journey! because there’s always a sneaky hint of aro/ace representation anywhere as long as we can do something about it! hah

#osemanverse #alice oseman #heartstopper #heartstopper comic #hstv #send asks #asks open #asexual #aromantic #aroace #asexuality #aro #ace #aromanticism #asks #anon asks

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radios-universe · 8 days

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EXCERPT #27:

Hello. I hope somebody is listening.

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RADIO: Also… Guess who’s back…?!

THALIA: …Do- They aren’t gonna respond right…? Do I just… speak…

RADIO: [Through quiet laughter] Yes… Yes… Go ahead.

THALIA: Hi Radio’s ghost listeners!

RADIO: Okay, you don’t have to call them ghosts-

THALIA: Well, have you ever had anyone respond?

RADIO: No…

THALIA: How come you opted for radio waves anyway…? You do know pretty much no one uses them…

RADIO: Well, exactly! The City doesn’t monitor the radio because no one’s on it. So I can talk freely, in hopes of someone else like me on the other line.

THALIA: Oh…! Wait- Why do we not use this?!

RADIO: I don’t know…! I didn’t think anyone else around here had a radio set up.

THALIA: Hmm… I could make something up.

RADIO: You can just… Do that?

THALIA: Yeah…! I have some spare parts lying around…

RADIO: Seriously… How are you that smart? The amount of talent- There are some cyborgs out there who shudder at your name…

THALIA: You… Just- Shut it…

RADIO: It would be cool if we could communicate on the radio when we can’t be together…

THALIA: Awh… Can’t survive a second without me, can you?

RADIO: Thalia… Come on…

THALIA: Oh! We could have like… Radio sleepovers!

RADIO: Sleepovers…?

THALIA: Yeah! Come on, how does that not sound fun? When was the last time you had a sleepover with a friend?

RADIO: Friend…?

THALIA: What…? Have you never had a friend, Radio?

RADIO: No… Not that… Thalia, you seriously see me as a friend…?

THALIA: Of course I do? What- Would you call us aquaintances??

RADIO: No… I’d call us more…

THALIA: Oh… Radio…

RADIO: Can we talk about this? Now?

THALIA: I don’t know…

RADIO: What do you mean you don’t know? That was a yes or no question…

THALIA: I just don’t know, Radio.

RADIO: I’ve allowed you to not know for months now, Thalia. What do I mean to you, really?

THALIA: Everything… Really, everything… But-

RADIO: But…? Why is it always ‘but’, Thalia? Why can you never give me a straight answer…?

THALIA: [Timidly] Can we… can we talk about this later…?

RADIO: Seriously…?

THALIA: I’m not doing this now Radio. I’m sorry- [A chair squeaks and sounds of footsteps becoming more distant].

RADIO: …She never stays, old sport. At least now you know what I’m talking about. She cares, she likes me, she knows how I feel… Yet, there she goes again. She runs as though she is being chased, yet if she actually dared to glance behind her, all she would see is me, left behind.

I want to allow her to have this space, I want her to have this privacy… But this is frustrating. I’m not a villain for thinking so, right, old sport?

Miscommunication is barely even miscommunication anymore if it’s just straight up avoidance.

How am I supposed to have this kind of conversation? I don’t know how to talk to someone who keeps running… Maybe you would know, Februa-

…Maybe, I’m in this one alone…

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radios-universe · 8 days

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whaaaat 😭😭 tumblr what are u up to

i’m still undecided if i like this layout or not ….

#tumblrs weird algorithm strikes again

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radios-universe · 10 days

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this is so freaking cool!!!! everyone should check this out!!!

they are gonna hate me for this but...

OSEMANVERSE MOOTS ‼️‼️ may i have your attention!!!!????

my lovely friend is a film student who created their final project inspired by radio silence, creating a film version of a universe city excerpt (well, multiple excerpts cut up into one) with some of their own words.

i think it is AMAZING with this awesome fucking TWIST at the end which is just so so cool

if you would be kind enough to check it out, it's here! on youtube ^_^