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I lost my motivation a while again and I can’t get it back. I feel lethargic and crap but it’s not enough to make me want to be better. I’m so fucking tired of feeling shit but don’t have the energy to do anything about it. It’s fucking pathetic.

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Me: **finishes eating**

My ED:

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Not eaten the best this weekend, I find weekends so hard. Had chicken Katsu curry for dinner and feel mega bloated so not feeling the best (feel a bit icky but not going to purge) Need to be super sensible next week but have all my meals planned and will have prawn salad for lunch every day.

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #diet #tw ed things #ed revovery #miaa

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I’m having one of those days where my resolve is being tested and I don’t feel as positive about my whole weight-loss journey. I know it’s only been 2 weeks and that these things take time but I’m one of those people that needs to feel or see results, which I know is ridiculous.

Today I thought I’d try on “that” bikini to see if I could see a difference, especially in the “back dent” I hate.

My thought process was: if I can’t see a change it will spur me on to try harder, if I do see a change it tells me that what I’m doing is working and that will spur me on also.

I don’t see a difference in the pictures, which is kinda frustrating, I guess I’ll have to get to the 1stone (14lb) weight loss mark before I start to see a difference. I feel like this has helped though, eventually I will see a change 🤞🏻

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #my diet #mum diet #diet #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #anna miaa

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Just noticed that at the top of my weight-tracking app, they advertise “just eat” 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️😂

Weigh in day and Ive actually had a loss which was a MASSIVE surprise. I’ve nearly lost half a stone in 2 weeks so hopefully I can keep it going!

Haven’t blogged for a few days, let myself down a bit on Wednesday and purged. So annoyed with myself. Had steak for dinner and thought I’d just have some salad with it but we ran out so I ate these potato things instead and I felt so full and uncomfortable. Before I’d even finished I knew I’d purge. So then I ate some crisps and had an ice cream just to make sure I did 😥 I hate the “uncomfortably full” feeling so much so I don’t know why I let myself get there.

I feel like I’m back on track now though. I’m starting to feel little changes in my body, which I’m enjoying. Know I still have a way to go though!

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OMG have you seen this site called “loser town”?! Seriously if you’re losing weight google it! With my details it says I’ll get to 9stone 10lb by my daughters birthday which is exactly the stone I want to lose and then 9 stone by the school summer holidays 🙌🏻 omg to be 9 stone by the summer! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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Weigh in day and Ive actually had a loss which was a MASSIVE surprise. I’ve nearly lost half a stone in 2 weeks so hopefully I can keep it going!

Haven’t blogged for a few days, let myself down a bit on Wednesday and purged. So annoyed with myself. Had steak for dinner and thought I’d just have some salad with it but we ran out so I ate these potato things instead and I felt so full and uncomfortable. Before I’d even finished I knew I’d purge. So then I ate some crisps and had an ice cream just to make sure I did 😥 I hate the “uncomfortably full” feeling so much so I don’t know why I let myself get there.

I feel like I’m back on track now though. I’m starting to feel little changes in my body, which I’m enjoying. Know I still have a way to go though!

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #anna miaa #bulimia #bulimua #bullimia #bulimxa #bulimina #buliima #buliimix #my diet #mum diet #diet #recovery

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Today I got home from work and just felt starving! Ever have a day like that where you feel inexplicably hungry for no real reason?

I snacked before my dinner 😫 snacked way too much! Starting to get worried that I’m going to have put loads of weight on when I weigh myself on Friday. So annoying. Haven’t even done my 10,000 steps yet 👎🏻

#clean eating #exercise #food #fitspo #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #losing weight #weight #my diet #mum diet #diet

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Couple of people commenting that BMI is crap and I know it is, but this list is personal to me and when I enter my weight on my app it would be really good for me if it didn’t scream “overweight” at me. But that’s just me.

Things I’m desperate to happen:

For my husband to grab or lift me and comment on how small or light I am

For my mum to see me after a few weeks and comment on how good I look

To buy smaller bras!

To fit some of the “too small” clothes I have stored away.

For people at work to notice I’ve lost weight.

To see some definition in my abs.

To get rid of the horrible massive dent in the middle of my back where my love-handles are so fat (it’s literally the worst part of my body and I hate it)

To see my reflection in a window etc and think I look ok

To get out of the “overweight” bmi category

To feel more confident

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #diet #mum diet #losing weight

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Things I’m desperate to happen:

For my husband to grab or lift me and comment on how small or light I am

For my mum to see me after a few weeks and comment on how good I look

To buy smaller bras!

To fit some of the “too small” clothes I have stored away.

For people at work to notice I’ve lost weight.

To see some definition in my abs.

To get rid of the horrible massive dent in the middle of my back where my love-handles are so fat (it’s literally the worst part of my body and I hate it)

To see my reflection in a window etc and think I look ok

To get out of the “overweight” bmi category

To feel more confident

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #diet #ed revovery #tw ed things #losing weight

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Ate Chinese. Didn’t purge ❤️

Had a couple of naughty bits but mainly boiled rice and prawns, followed by a workout.

Not beating myself up for not being perfect.

Honestly can’t wait until I’ve lost a stone so I can do a before and after 🙌🏻

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #my diet #mum diet #diet #losing weight #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #anna miaa #bulimia

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So the kids have decided on a Chinese for the takeaway tonight.

Hmmmm.

Healthy-ish options available but also lots of hidden calories. ALSO *so* easy to purge.

But I went online and can’t believe the nhs actually have recommendations on how to be healthier if you’re having a takeaway! This is a revelation!

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #diet #takeaway #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #anna miaa

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Sorry if my account is confusing.

Is it ed recovery? Is it a mum trying to find health and fitness? Honestly it’s both.

I see so many inspirational stories of people overcoming Ed’s by finding moderation, motivation and fitness. I don’t know if I can “manufacture” this for myself but the journey is exciting.

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #losing weight #my diet #mum diet #diet #ed revovery #tw ed things

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Tw: Mia

Saturdays are quite triggering for me when I’m trying to lose weight. Me and my family always get a takeaway and there’s part of me thinking that if it’s something like chicken shish I can get something kinda healthy and just make sure I log onto mfp.

I though I’d do 1500 on weekends but now I’m here I really want to stick to 1000 max.

Then there’s that voice that’s already started today, saying I can eat with my family, enjoy the taste and feel of the food and then purge.

I don’t want to purge. My glands still feel sore from the migraine sickness and I think my stomach has shrunk this week from being ill, so the last thing I want to do is stretch it out again. Plus I’ve not purged for a week now which I’m proud of.

I’ll let you know how I get on but I’m determined so just count the calories and prove to myself that I can have a balanced diet in moderation.

#clean eating #exercise #fitspo #food #health & fitness #healthy eating #meal prep #motivation #nutrition #weightloss #diet #my diet #mum diet #losing weight #ed revovery #tw ed things #miaa #anna miaa #bullimia #bulimua #bulimxa #bulimina #buliima

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Got up late today (my lay-in day!) and by the time I had blitzed the kitchen and put some washing on it was nearly 11am! By 12 I kinda see it as lunch time so I’m skipping breakfast today and waiting for lunch which will be about 40 minutes.

I’m torn between the left-over veggie sausages (don’t want them to go to waste) on a slice of toast or a little sandwich thin with lettuce etc. Kinda want something fresh so think I’ll go for the sandwich with some rice cakes 🤤

#clean eating #exercise #food #fitspo #health & fitness #meal prep #healthy eating #nutrition #motivation #weightloss #mum diet #diet #Mia #recovery #ed revovery

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Rewards and targets:

Starting weight: 150lb

Goal weight: 129lb

140lb: lashes and nails

136lb: Botox

129lb: tan,lashes,nails for the summer.

Less than 129lb: New clothes

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5lb down this week!

Such a good start but now crapping myself about how little I’m going to lose next week (if I lose at all!) I’ll be eating more for sure so any loss next week would be amazing 🤞🏻

Still “overweight” but getting close!

#weight #clean eating #exercise #food #fitspo #healthy eating #health & fitness #nutrition #meal prep #weightloss #motivation #ed revovery #tw ed things #diet #mum diet