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[depressedvibe]

What therapy got me:

I realised my only friendship wasn't really... friendly. So I cut her off.

Now I haven't got any friends anymore.

Just some classmates who pretend to care but in reality they don't

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I recently argued with a friend.

He asked why I continue eating the way I do even though I know it's unhealthy.

So I asked, why do you keep smoking even though you know it's unhealthy.

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[depressedvibe]

Dear mother, dear father,

Love isn't supposed to hurt

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[depressedvibe]

Growing up suicidal is kinda weird because I never expected being here. I don't know what to do with my life or where I'm going because I never planned on sticking around

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My grandma thinks that I just need to be cheered up

She doesn't get that I'm not sad

I'm never sad

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[depressedvibe]

My grandma said: "Young people need guidance" when she says that...she means: "Young people need to be told what to do, because mother knows best."

Background: she forced her son to study law while he wanted to study IT engineering. Spoiler: She did not know best

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My father told my grandmother recently about my depression. And tonight, my sister wanted to prepare the Christmas dinner and my grandmother thought I needed to be cheered up and asked if I wanted to help my sister. I said no but she insisted. My emotions where already fragile, which is why I struggled to hold back tears. (Don't judge me, my sister made me feel bad before and my grandma made me overstep my boundaries) I could but I couldn't smile and pretend that I was fine anymore.

Well, I went upstairs, cut myself after fucking 14 months being clean (thanks grandma), went back downstairs, smiled and helped making the salad.

My fathers girlfriend later told me that my grandma seeked for conformation from her for forcing me to prepare dinner. She did not give her that. I fucking love that woman.

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[depressedvibe]

I died inside.

I want to die again - for real this time

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It's weird to be self aware and still self sabotage. It's like setting the kitchen on fire but make it on purpose

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I just got body shamed by my eight year old sister.

She layed her hands an my stomach and I instinctively sucked it in and she said "This is better"

I laughed and said "Did I just get body shamed by my little sister?" She tried to explain herself and said it was just because I was so "wide and long" trying to avoid "big".

I wish could cry

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[depressedvibe]

I will skip breakfast and lunch today 🧚‍♀️ because I want the feeling of cold water in my stomach 🦋

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[depressedvibe]

It hurts to have my own sister stigmatizing my depression

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[depressedvibe]

I'f been clean for nine months now. I'm thinking about cutting again. I mean...why not?

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My sister actually thinks that depression is just a mindset. So basically she's saying that it's my fault that I'm sick and it's my decision to still feel this way.

I just don't WANT to be happy

I could just ignore her and don't care... but I'm already blaming myself and her blaming me as well isn't quite helping at that point.

She just confirms my guilt

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[depressedvibe]

I just can't imagine who I'd bei if I was happy

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[depressedvibe]

Every step makes you thinner

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[depressedvibe]

I'm will never be good enough for myself

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