#deep shit

[blusthings]

[Religion trauma | Religion stigma | sexuality vent below]

I can't express what goes on in my head. When the world views my Religion as barbaric, backwards and uncivilised, i get so upset. And when my Religion views my identity wrong, i also get upset. I always think, what does that make me? I can't exist in two separate universes, but I can't leave either.

I truly question how I'll go forward like this. Islam is beautiful in its nature, but it keeps getting tainted by twisted thoughts of men in power, and I feel everyone thinks I'm oppressed or something.

I truly am not. I'm not brainwashed, I'm not in a cult or something. Islam is why I am the way I am, yknow? And in the same perspective, being queer is the reason I am the way I am, too.

But I feel like these days when you tell someone "I'm muslim" they kinda get their red flags going for them. And god forbid I tell any Muslim that I'm queer.

All I really want is peace of mind. To be comfortable in my own skin. And feel like I belong somewhere. With a community thats accepting and friendly. But I don't find it in either worlds, not entirely. But then again, you can't have everything can you?

I feel isolated from both communities. Somehow I float in between, and it all adds to the sense of loneliness.

#lou rants #ramble like.. RAMBLE RAMBLE #deep shit #religion #queer muslims #do i have religion trauma? idk i think i do but maybe i dont #i need a therapist!!! thats for sure

[truebluesnoopy]

my dad tells me i grew up too fast and that i am not a parent to my siblings little does he know i am filling the hole that he leaves with his parenting

#deep shit #i guess #fuck it we ball #real #lol #dad #i should. go to sleep #poetry #literature #spilled ink #writers and poets #poet #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #words #writing #random

[rosemoldaver]

OH lemme talk about my Latest Favorite OPLA Scene, the one where Luffy yells at Zeff about how he treats Sanji because he's projecting how Garp treats him onto Zeff and Sanji's relationship but immediately finds out there's a different thing going on here.

#opla #one piece netflix #one piece live action #opla spoilers #like HOW GOOD WAS THAT? #DEEP SHIT #idk it feels very not-anime-luffy to project his experiences BUT #i like it so much anyway

[missmichellets]

Please share your secret to being so fucking confident! Like, I’m being criticized on MY blog for the shit I not make or post, just what I reblog- slurs hurt-

Things are gonna get real deep now my love. I could say: haters are losers - and as a winner, I'm busy in a capacity they couldn't even fathom. So I simply do not have enough time in a day to give losers a thought. I could also say: haters are unhappy people with a tragic lives. It sounds like a cliché. But think about it, if you are a well-balanced individual, happy, safe, calm, collected, with a decently put together life and a clearly constructed short-term and long-term purpose/meaning... you won't be going around doing any hating. You simply won't. It's not even in the frame of your consciousness; you won't even be able to access the mere idea of hating on others as a possible task/behaviour to engage yourself with. Which means that a hater must live at the very opposite realm of that. And that must be awful. I genuinly feel sorry for people in this amount of distress - but simultaneously, I have zero empathy for their destructive ways of coping with it. I could also say: diet discipline. The same way your body will evolve and take shape based on what you feed it and what activities you choose to engage it in - your mind will do the same. Feed it with mush and you're gonna turn your mind into mush. I could also say: priorities. 1 minute spent on a hater is 1 less minute spent on a lover. Time is finite. It's your most valuable asset and you get to spend it however you want! With 2 big caveats; you can't take it back and you can't make more of it. With that knowledge at the immediate forefront of your mind, it becomes very obvious why you shouldn't engage with hate. Also, if you'd actually make a list of things that are more important to deal with than your haters, you'd end up with an infinitely long list. Really, clearing the filter of your washing machine is probably 80.000x more important than replying to a mean comment. The few times I actively do choose to engage with a hateful comment, it is to educate people in the "surroundings" by pointing out why this is either; a problematic way to conduct yourself, a failure in logics/reasoning or a generally poor behaviour you should strive to avoid for yourself. Bc I feel it is of value and importance to do our best to mitigate "up and coming" abusers and help steer potential trainwrecks back on track. I could say all of these things. Or I could simply just say idgaf. And all of them would be true.

#haters #mindfulness #zen #deep shit #TransGoddessMichelle

[beautifulheartandspirit]

THIS ALWAYS GETS ME THE LAST 20 minutes of the godfather part 2

And the abortion scene .. FUCK.

#the godfather #the godfather part ii #al pacino #robert de niro #cinema #best films #cinemetography #classic #dark #deep #deep shit #always gets me #brilliant

[koko056]

'I never understood why people saw me as such a "good" person. What did they see in me, I wondered...'

For all she knew, she was a failure of a human. She was terrible, and there was no way she could fix herself. She had tried to be better, failed, and found herself where she started, if not even further from her goals...

She wondered, did she ever really try?

To her, the answer was no, yet she desperately clung to the delusions that reality differed.

#shitpost #shitposting #idk what tags to use #spilled ink #desiblr #desi shit posting #desi tumblr #desi teen #idk what else to tag #spilled thoughts #spilled words #spilled writing #deep shit #ig #lol #idk wtf am i doing #lmao

[deeplorewhore]

How Countryhumans/Nationhumans are born

There are multiple ways that countryhumans can be born. Some of these methods are more socially acceptable and carry less physical danger for adult countryhumans, as well as being more reliable than others.

▪︎Natural

▪︎Stocastic

▪︎Social Necessity

▪︎Blood

*A quick note on countryhuman children: CH children are just susceptible to disease and death as much as non-CH children. Countryhumans only begin to be functionally immortal and unsuseptable to disease as they grow. The scale of child mortality in this post is based on the same factors as non-CH children.

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Natural Birth Method

The natural birth method is... exactly what it sounds like. Two countryhuman parents have sex, producing a child. This method requires pregnancy, which is unique to only this method. The countryhumans are related to their parents and their parents' families.

The likelihood of conception is high, child mortality is low. The social acceptance of this method is high, and the only way this method causing scandal is in the form of wedlock births (for those who place high value in tradition), harmful power dynamics between the parents, and assult. These factors are, of course, not inherent to the method. Any form of countryhumans can be born with this method.

Stochastic Method.

Stochastic in mathematics refers to randomly determined data, a random probability distribution or pattern. What this means for countryhuman births is that they can randomly be born. They can be born as fully formed adults, with the ability to rationalize but a need for education; however, this is uncommon and they are usually born as infants. These countryhumans do not have parents, but often require guardians (regardless of physical form). They are not genetically related to any living or dead countryhuman. This method, of course, does not require pregnancy.

The success rate is not quantifiable, as no living countryhuman can purposfully cause it. Countryhumans born by this method have a fairly average child mortality, as this method does not make them more or less prone to disease or death as any other. This method holds no social stigma, but those born this way may feel more forgotten than others. Many flag humans, countyhumans, and town/city humans are born through this method.

Social Necessity Method.

On the surface, this method appears related or the same as the stochastic method. It is different, as they have a more direct link to the people they represent.

When the people of a region must begin cooperating, a social necessity arises for a countryhuman. They too are not often born as adults age need guardians regardless of form. They are not genetically related to any living or dead countryhuman. They often take on any ethnic features of the group they represent. The success rate is difficult to quantify, as social necessity may not always produce a CH. This method also doesn't make a CH burn this way more or less susceptible to disease or death. Many city humans, townshumans, and countyhumans are born through this method.

Blood

This method holds the most social stigma. The blood method requires at least one countryhuman parent, or multiple non-CH humans (it is exceedingly rare that humans create a CH this way). A CH parent will create a figure out of mud and water from the land a people reside in, then spill their blood over the figure. If there is only one, it results in a nearly identical human, but as a baby. A single-parented countryhuman may exhibit the same personality, tastes, interests, features and psychology, but often become a more "broken" version of their parent. Most of those born through this method have two or more (unrelated) parents. This method often kills one or all parents due to its requirement of blood. The likelihood of CH parents dying in the process is lower if there are more parents involved. It is rare for a CH parent to survive, especially a lone parent. This method produce strong children, but most do not survive the initial process.

Blood, in this universe, hold significant spiritual and social power. When countryhumans make a binding deal, they use blood to seal it. When they make a promise or vow, they use blood. When they create anything Holy, they use their blood. According to mythology, the Great Pangea, the Mother of all Countryhumans, created tiny figures, In Her Image, out of mud and placed them in the heart of the earth to bake. When thousands of years past and the first humans walked on hind legs, She took them from their deep kiln and gently put them in different corners of the earth. When She was ready, She spilled Her blood and it flowed through giant red rivers to the figures to breathe Her life onto them. She peered upon Her grand creation as Her life seeped into her children. She died then, leaving the land and people to Her children. They became humanity's beacons, their light, and a deep connection to them was fostered.

This is why this method has so much social stigma. It is a Holy thing for Pangea but obscene thing for her children, reserved for the Gods only. Only countryhumans, nationhumans, organizationhumans and tribeshumans are born this way.

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This was a really heavy info dump, but it is critical to a lot of lore and backstories. I hope you enjoyed!

#countryhumans #countryhumans america #countryhumans art #countryhumans japan #countryhumansunitednations #countryhumanspangea #original characters #original character #my lore #oc #lore dump #deep shit

[hollysupertramp]

Incorrect quote.

#pasta #my life #original #nope #incorrect #quote #deep shit

[mlknhxny]

does anyone really know anyone? like actually know someone, who they really are? like deep deep down?

#seriously though #deep shit #everyone #like actually

[poets-world]

I, for one, love sad things. there is some kind of beauty in a sigh breathed while holding onto the glass of whisky for your life. There is beauty in the hastily written poems, as you bleed the words on the paper. There is beauty in sad things if only we see it. Then those sad things dont seem so sad anymore, they just seem beautiful. Sure running in a sunny field is beautiful, but ever read a book in which you are so emotionally invested, the death, the separation physically hurts you? ever cried cause of it? THAT is also beautiful. Sad poems are beautiful, sad stories are beautiful, sad pictures are beautiful,the woes are beautiful. And uk what? Sad people are just as beautiful. And extremely powerful too

so if you are sad, I think you are beautiful and i love you

#lit #talk #writers #spilled poetry #spilled ink #poets on tumblr #literature #prose #thoughts #deep shit #my poem #so if you are sad #i love you #Love #sad #its okay

[xxxlacrossekingxxx]

I don't even think I can pick on him anymore after this.

Overdosing on percs does stuff to you.

#class of 09 #co09 #kylar class of 09 #lacrosse #rp account #class of 09 the re up #co09 rp accounts #going through changes #evolving as a person #deep shit

[mademoisellepampelmuse]

Who am I?

Like please tell me who I am

Because lately I feel like I'm just a copy of all the people I meet.

Like I'm just a shapeless mass that conforms to the templates that all these fleeting encounters put on me.

I feel like I've been copied.

So please tell me

Who am I?

Because honestly I can't feel myself lately

#art #where is my mind #sad quotes #sad thoughts #sorry for being depressing #poets on tumblr #depressing quotes #missing #silence #lost my mind #lostsoul #lost myself #deep quotes #deep shit #deep thinking #spilled words #spilled thoughts #who am i #lost in space #depressing shit #depressiv

[ashes-and-ruins]

i walked out of oppenheimer repeating to myself:

“now i am become death, destroyer of worlds.”

such a raw line. it stuck with me and i have no idea why. we could have destroyed ourselves, and… we did.

#oppenheimer #SPOILERS #barbenheimer #movies #christopher nolan #new movies #movie quotes #deep shit

[qwerty-between-the-lines]

Will: (turns to Nico) Your sense of direction is better than mine. How long would you say it is until we reach camp?

Nico: (warms hands over fire) About another day if we keep going at the pace we've been going.

Luke: (nods) Yeah, that's what I'd figure too.

Will: Oh yeah, Luke. I forgot that you practically crossed the country with Thalia and Annabeth.

Luke:

Will: Sorry. Sore point?

Luke: No. It isn't that.

Nico: Not being able to put our feelings into words doesn't mean they aren't valid.

Luke: (nods) In a way Nico, you totally get me.

Nico: I'm not sure if I find that reassuring or not.

Will: He's just being a little dramatic, Luke.

Nico: (lips curve up slightly) Am not!

Luke: You know. I enjoy this. Just the three of us sitting around a fire like this in a makeshift camp. It reminds me of old times. In truth - I kind of like you guys.

Nico: I try not to be too liked.

Will: (rolls eyes) Oh Nico! For the love of the gods...

Nico: (snorts): Love? Speak for yourself. Unless you think of love as being used...

Will: Is it really being used though? For someone who really loves and trusts you to feel like they can rely on you?

Luke: You know, I've kind of reached the conclusion that the gods are the gods. They aren't required to make themselves acceptable to us. Besides, they're better masters than the Titans.

Nico: Well... I guess you got me there.

Luke: Its true. Take it from someone who knows about the Titans, and the kind of masters they are. The gods didn't lead me to my death. The gods didn't rob me of my body and my will. It was Kronos who manipulated me into betraying my friends and turning my back on the camp. Not the gods.

Will: Wow Luke... you've changed.

Luke: (manages a smile) Well, I'm about ready to turn in, unless you want me to take first watch?

Nico: Nah. You're good. Go ahead and get some sleep.

Luke: Thanks man.

#books #movies #pjo hoo toa #percy jackson #text post #deep shit #deep conversation #polytheism #religion #gods #demigods #banter #discussion #luke castellan #nico di angelo #will solace #character dialogue

[depressedvibe]

Growing up suicidal is kinda weird because I never expected being here. I don't know what to do with my life or where I'm going because I never planned on sticking around

#this is depressing #dead inside #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #all of us are dead #i hate my existence #anxiété #mindless and empty #tw depressing thoughts #depressing shit #deep shit #mentally ill #i wish i were dead #tw death #su1cide #tw sui implied #su1c1d4l #dead #depressiv #kinda depressing #depressing quotes

[fanatic-forthe-alluring]

No one :

Me : Why am I tired all the time?

#thoughts #emotions #deep shit