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Hello everyone!!

So basically, I've been thinking about starting recovery for a while and I'm officially doing it. I've started a recovery account on instagram called @recover.with.natalia if anybody wants to follow.

I will be deleting Tumblr to avoid seeing triggering content. Thank you to all my mutuals, I love you guys and will miss you all deeply. I've grown to feel attached to this community and leaving it will be quite a challenge.

Goodbye for now! Once again, I love you all ❤

#pro recovery #tw ana thoughts #actually ana #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #4n4 vent #tw #tw ed vent #th1nz🎀 #ed diet #ed dairy #ed #ed ana #ed fast #ed behaviour tw #edtblr #restrictive ed #edbllr #tw ed diet #tw ed in the tags #tw m14 #tw 4n4 #tw ed rant #tw ed relapse #tw edd #tw restriction #caloric restriction #calzones #caloric deficit

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I got t-worded again

I was psychoticcinnamongrl and psychoticvenicebitch

Please reblog so I can find my mutuals

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todays meal

#tw ana thoughts #actually ana #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #4n4 vent #tw #ed dairy #ed #ed ana #ed diet #chcę być lekka #lekka jak motyl #anorektyczki #tw ed vent #th1nz🎀 #not pr0 4n4 #eating problems #ed behaviour tw #ed fast #edtblr #edbllr #restrictive ed #tw ed in the tags #tw ed relapse #tw ed diet #chude jest piękne #e4ting dis0rder #th11nspo #not pr0 anything

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not an ed related post but yep!! <3

#pride #pride month #lgbtq+ #lgbtq #lgbtqia #happy pride 🌈 #edtblr

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tbh 💀

#🦋meme #🦋 tips #e 🦋 #edmeme #anamemes #chcę być lekka #lekka jak motyl #anorektyczki #actually ana #an0r3xic #ed ana #not pr0 anything #tw ana thoughts #ed dairy #ed #ed diet #tw ed vent #ed behaviour tw #ed fast #edbllr #edtblr #restrictive ed #tw ed diet #tw ed in the tags #tw ed rant #tw ed relapse #tw #tw 4n4 #tw edd #calzones

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todays meal 💯

#tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #actually ana #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #tw #tw ed vent #ed diet #4n4 vent #th1nz🎀 #chcę być lekka #lekka jak motyl #an0r3xic #anorektyczki #ed ana #pr0 3d #only pr0 for myself #pr0anna #ed #edtblr #ed fast #edbllr #restrictive ed #caloric deficit #calzones #caloric restriction #low cal restriction #tw restriction #eating problems #mental instability

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I HIT MY GW OF 60KG!!

59.5kg atm :D

#tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #actually ana #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #4n4 vent #goal weight #tw ed vent #tw #ed diet #th1nz🎀 #skiny girl #chcę być lekka #lekka jak motyl #anorektyczki #anorexsick #not pr0 anything #pr0anna #pr0 3d #pr0 ana diary #pro 4na #eating problems #caloric deficit #calzones #caloric restriction #restrictive ed #tw restriction #low cal restriction #mental instability #i wanna be sk1nny

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i miss the twelve year old girl who ate everything she wanted.

the twelve year old girl that laughed with her friends while eating pizza and chips.

the twelve year old girl that ordered takeout with her family.

the twelve year old girl that bought ice cream and donuts.

the twelve year old girl that wasn't ill.

#tw ed vent #ed vent #ana vent #4n4 vent #vent post #vent blog #tw ana thoughts #actually ana #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #th1nz🎀 #4n4 thoughts #tw #not pr0 anything #pr0 @na #caloric restriction #c4lories #calzones #low cal restriction #chcę być lekka #lekka jak motyl #an0r3xic #ed ana #anorektyczki #anorexsick #i wanna be sk1nny #i want to be th1n #mental instability #i want to be small #chce widziec kosci

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made a lil ed meme

#edmeme #anamemes #4na meme #pr0anna #pr0 3d #pr0 ana diary #tw #tw ana thoughts #tw ed in the tags #actually ana #low cal restriction #calzones #caloric restriction #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #4n4 vent #i wanna be sk1nny #th1nz🎀 #skinnies #anorektyczki #anorexsick #anorexjk #pro 4na #eating problems #ed #ed diet #tw ed vent #i want to be th1n #chcę być lekka

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i ran out of ed tags to follow 🗿

#tw ana thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #4n4 thoughts #actually ana #pr0anna #pr0 3d #anorexsick #anorektyczki #lekka jak motyl #chcę być lekka #4n4 vent #i wanna be sk1nny #th1nz🎀 #tw #4na thoughts #tw ed in the tags #ed ana #tw ed vent #ed diet #caloric deficit #caloric restriction #calzones #low cal restriction #tw restriction #restrictive ed #an0r3xic #anorexjk #mental instability #pro 4na

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i fucking hate how my ed changed my entire mindset.

i dont just value MYSELF for my weight, i value others for theirs. i no longer see a "skinny" person as just a skinny person- i see inspiration. i no longer see a "fat" person as just a fat person- i see them as what i DONT want to look like.

worst part is i cant even control these horrible intrusive thoughts.

#tw ana thoughts #ed vent #ana vent #4n4 vent #tw ed vent #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #tw #tw ed diet #tw ed in the tags #pro 4na #eating problems #pr04na #pr0 @na #pr0 ana diary #pr0anna #skinnies #getting skiny #i will be skiny #actually ana #4n4 thoughts #th11nspo #i wanna be sk1nny #i want to be th1n #mental instability #th1nz🎀 #ed fast #ed #ed diet #edtblr

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RELATE OHMYGOD

my mom: you have to find different coping skills than cutting

me: so how about not eating

#tw s3lf harm #made of styrofoam #shtumblr #edtblr #ed ana #ed #tw disordered eating #self h@rm #tw cvtting #tw self destruction #sh thoughts #caloric restriction #tw restriction #restrictive ed #actually ana #an0r3xic #tw ana thoughts #pro 4na #eating problems #caloric deficit #calzones #low cal restriction #pr04na #pr0 @na #pr0anna #pr0 ana diary #ed diet #tw ed vent #mental instability #tw ed in the tags

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❀﹏♡some weight loss tips, from me to you♡﹏❀

apple cider vinegar shots help suppress your appetite A LOT + boost metabolism. tastes gross but sure hey 🤩

lemon water!!!

cold water in general, drinking it, showering in it, helps boost metabolism

walking as much as possible! aim for 5k-10k steps

avoid fatty foods!! 100 calories worth of carbs or protein will always be better than 100 calories worth of fat.

diet energy drinks. do i even have to explain

ᵕ̈ i hope some of these help ᵕ̈

#4n4 tips #actually ana #tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #4na tips #weight loss #weight loss tips #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #eating problems #pro 4na #pr04na #pr0 @na #pr0anna #pr0 ana diary #4n4 vent #th11nspo #th1nz🎀 #tw #tw ed in the tags #i want to be th1n #thinzpo #caloric deficit #caloric restriction #calzones #low cal restriction #calories #tw restriction #restrictive ed #tw ed relapse

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my ed made me lose my entire personality and my humour.

#tw ana thoughts #tw ed vent #ed vent #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #actually ana #4n4 vent #4n4 diet #tw ed in the tags #pr0 3d #only pr0 for myself #pr0 ana diary #skinnni #skinnies #i want to be small #i wanna be sk1nny #mental instability #tw m14 #i want to be th1n #bing3 eating #ed #eating problems #ed diet #caloric deficit #calzones #caloric restriction #low cal restriction #tw restriction #restrictive ed

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me trynna focus in class without my minimum of one cig break and two vape breaks

#cigs #cigarrete #vapers #drugs tw #edtblr #ed ana #ed #nicotine #tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #not pr0 anything #4n4 vent #actually ana #4n4 diet #not pr0 4n4 #not pr0 4na #not pr0 mia #i want to be small #i wanna be sk1nny #i want to be th1n #skinnni #skinnies #low cal restriction #calzones #caloric restriction #tw #tw ed in the tags #tw ed diet

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DAY 3

i think one of my top thinspos has to be Rory Gilmore, although i hate her character, her body is everything i want iwl. her waist and chest are lowkey goals

#actually ana #4n4 blog #tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #not pr0 anything #4n4 vent #th11nspo #th1nz🎀 #4n4 diet #i want to be th1n #thinzpo #tw #tw ed in the tags #tw ed vent #low cal restriction #calzones #caloric restriction #tw restriction #restrictive ed #tw ed relapse #not pr0 4na #not pr0 mia #not pr0 4n4 #eating problems #i want to be small #i wanna be sk1nny #mental instability #tw m14

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DAY 2

I'm 173cm / 5'8! I used to hate being tall but grew to be okay with it

#tw ana thoughts #4n4 thoughts #4n4 vent #i wanna be th1n #i want to be a skeleton #not pr0 anything #4n4 diet #actually ana #tw #tw ed vent #th11nspo #i want to be th1n #i want to be small #i wanna be sk1nny #i will be skiny #tw ed in the tags #bing3 eating #ed #eating problems #ed diet #calzones #low cal restriction #caloric restriction #skinnies #skinnni #sk1nnie #4namia #th1nz🎀 #tw m14 #not pr0 m1a