toxicruins101

[toxicruins101]

Too much for the soul to take.

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Carmen Sandiego and Gn! Reader

Tw: character death, angst, hyperventilating, existencial crisis, funeral.

Rear at your own risk.

Everyone knew it was a risk.

That it might be too much this time around, yet they pressured on.

And look at the consequences.

Carmen yelling and crying, player trying to comfort her over the comms.

The twins stayed silent while tears fell, not saying a single word.

Chase and Julia hadn't been told yet, granted they wouldn't have such a heavy reaction as the others, but it still hurt.

And you? You stayed silent, saying nothing as Carmen yelled at you.

You should have done more she exclaimed, her hurt voice booming around the bases walls as she did so.

It all started with a simple stealth mission, get in, get the information, and get out, but the universe has a tendency of messing up things that aren't supposed to be messed up.

The alarms blared, the white walls stained with red from the flashing lights.

Carmen and you ran as fast as possible to get out of there.

The yelling of urgency from everyone was almost too loud to hear and understand, but the fear in their voices was more than audible.

Carmen managed to run out the gates as they were being forced down, you weren't as fast as her, guards running after you.

You heard a gun shot, missing you just by an inch of your hair. It took you by surprise, your feet stumbling on each other, making you fall to the ground with a harsh thud.

The sound of rapid footsteps and someone helping you up was the only thing audible to you right now, your vision blurring in and out.

You blinked a few times, you were so close! So close to the outside.

Just as the person who was helping you stepped foot outside the barrier, you both came crashing down.

Gasps surround you, slowly blinking your eyes open at the feeling of a warm runny liquid staining your skin and clothes slowly.

Your vision un blurs.

"Shadow san.."

You whisper shocked, the gate had closed down, leaving you and the team alone in the silence.

There he laid, dead, in a pool of his own blood and it was all because of you.

A month had passed, yet the tension was obvious.

It was a shiny day on the wrong occasion, you watched as they carried out the casket, and put it underground.

Player even flew out to the team in order to mourn Shadow san properly, guilt clouded your heart and sadness your mind.

Nobody said it, or mentioned it, but they didn't need to. Their cold looks told you everything you needed to know.

That if you had been faster, quieter, more skilled, Shadow san wouldn't be buried 6 feet underground as you mourned.

People dressed in black surrounding you, familiar and non-familiar faces alike surrounded you.

White roses, each slowly but surely dropped into the casket until it was finally Carmen's turn.

She walked up, her steady pace slowed down with hurt. She took the only red rose and laid it with the others, right in the center.

The casket was covered up again, and it was done, everything was done. Shadow san was officially gone.

Carmen broke down, falling to her knees but refusing for anyone's help except Players.

You felt so bad, so so bad.

To know the death of such a loved person was caused by your recklessness, your stupidity. If you had known you would've never tagged along for this mission.

Yet you did, and not even a God could fix this now, if you repented for all your sins and found the holy light, nothing could fix this.

Nothing.

"you have to understand, Carm is..."

One of the twins start out, trying to help out like they could.

It had been two months since the funeral but everything was just too cold now, to empty.

"Mad? Yeah I figured as much. I killed her only family. There's not much I can say to make it better."

You say with a sigh, looking down at the ground.

"Just give her some time yeah? Maybe she'll understand eventually. This is hard for her like it is for all of us, let's go inside, mate. It's freezing out here."

Their voices ringed in your head, lies, all lies.

"they are useless! What happens when they screw up another mission huh?! When more lives are lost because of their idiocy!!"

Carmen yells angrily, her voice booming off the walls as she yelled back and forth with a nervous Player on the comms.

Tears brimmed your eyes and you ran, not knowing where to or when to stop, you just ran.

You panted, looking around at the secluded part of the city, you looked down at the floor and your knees buckled under you.

You held in a sob and wrapped your arms around yourself in an empty embrace.

You just wanted to be reminded what it felt to be loved again, to be part of a team, but then it got messed up, and there's nobody to blame but yourself.

You sobbed on the ground, desperate to scream and yell.

Breathing un-tense and useless as you wailed on the lonely ground, slamming your fists down in sadness and anger until you bled.

You doubted your existence, if not even Carmen could see your use, what were you good for?

Maybe she was right, you think.

You shouldn't be on the team, more death will surely follow your unlucky path and anybody that crosses it.

Your tears ran cold against your face, the on-coming cars seemed almost invisible as they edged ever closer to your shivering frame.

It isn't anger or happiness that makes the soul breakdown, most of the time it's pity for oneself or the pity towards others.

At the end of the day,

Sometimes guilt is just..

Too much for the soul to take.

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[toxicruins101]

In light of recent events, I will no longer post any DSMP related works and any post in the working about the DSMP will be deleted.

My stories that I've published will still be up and available to read but I ask that you don't associate me with any of the creators in those stories (unless it's techno).

I don't condone or support any of the actions performed by this people and I'm utterly disgusted by the recent situation.

#justiceforshelby

I stand by the victim, not by the abuser.

The actions performed by William Gold are absolutely inexcusable and he should be ashamed, don't give him the shield of being called Wilbur and leaving him innocent.

Use his name, he isn't cancelled he is an abuser, and what he did is illegal.

I no longer associate my content with DSMP and will no longer post about them.

Thank you

- toxicruins101

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[toxicruins101]

can we have a part two of

YOUR WORDS KILLED ME

I have one in the works.

It's really long so I'm shortening it, but it should be put soon!

[toxicruins101]

GUESS WHO JUST GOT OUT OF THE MENTAL HOSPITAL YA'LL

I'M BACK ON NY GRINDDDD 😈

ANGST COMING SOON...

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[toxicruins101]

hey i have a question are you still in New York????? seriously you are so rude if you don’t answer

Came back yesterday, extremely jet lagged. 🫨😵‍💫.

[toxicruins101]

Hi new moot how r u?

Love ur angst writing! Make sure you take breaks and eat smth

Hi!

I'm good, you?

I'm so glad you like my writing it means a lot to me, I'm currently on a short un-announced break for my mental health but I'll be returning shortly! <3

[toxicruins101]

"Learn to keep your promises."

Dream x Male! Reader

Tw: fighting, swearing, blood, mention of bone breaking, injuries, ect.

This was when Dream was in prision!!!!! Or prison idk

Read at your own risk.

You gritted your teeth as another wave of pain passed through your body originating from your leg.

You see when you were training with your friend you fell and twisted your knee, this has happened before but never that bad.

You felt the bones in your knee move as a huge wave of pain overcame you and your senses, you wanted to cry but wouldn't let yourself be seen as weak so you ignored it, got up and said you were done for today.

When you arrived at your house you sat down at your bed and sighed, knowing it was going to be a painful process.

You grabbed the bandages, water, alcohol for the wound and everything else you would need.

You pulled up your pant to your thigh and saw a large cut on your knee a bit off to the side and sighed.

A large bruise adorning parts of your knee and you drew in a sharp breath as another wave of pain hit you.

You started treating it carefully gritting your teeth in pain from time to time.

By the end of it the pain had subsided a bit but it was still painful, thankfully you could still walk.

You turned all the candles off in your house and went to sleep to get some rest, you were gonna need it for tomorrow.

You opened your eyes as the welcoming light of the day welcomed you and your senses.

You got up and got dressed, you left your armour in its stand and got your sword putting it in its rightful place on your belt.

You went outside and set a path in your mind to where you needed to go, pandoras vault.

~-~At pandoras vault cause I'm lazy I'm sorry~-~

Sam let you in as you stepped on the moving platform staring into the eyes of your ex-commander.

You see when war was going on you sided with Dream and, not to be cocky, you were the best of the best, nobody could beat you, and you always stood by dream, no matter what.

It took a lot of convincing (and money) from punz to get you to betray dream.

Yet you did, nothing haunted you more than dreams eyes when he saw you and you didn't see that confident stare that always knew what to do, you saw shock and betrayal, his eyes widden and he couldn't even form a word as he looked at your face which he had seen over and over again, until he finally trusted you.

He didn't think much of it but now that he saw you, on the other side of the battle, he couldn't help that feeling of hurt, he thought he could rely on you no matter what.

Guess he was wrong.

He had been foolish to trust you then, he won't make the same mistake twice he thought to himself as he saw you slowly approach his cell while making eye contact.

You stepped foot in his cell and the moving platform went away as the lave began to fall and the netherite blocks blocking you from the other lowered themselves and you were able to get on the other side of the barrier never breaking eye contact.

Dream stared at you and smiled, "Commander" his voice spoke in a firm yet humorous tone.

You chuckled to yourself a bit and looked down breaking the eye contact.

"General" you said in the same firm and humorous tone he did.

"what brings you here m/n?, I'd imagine a busy guy like you would be very, occupied." he said taking his time and choosing his words carefully as venom dripped from his every word.

"I thought I'd make time, you aren't exactly a, how to say this, walk in the park, dream." you said trying to explain yourself better.

He chuckled and started wandering his cell, still smiling

"so, how's life treating my best solider?" said dream staring at you

You looked at him and walked toward him a bit still keeping your distance and averted your gaze to the floor.

"could be better, yours and my reputation chase me like while dogs on a hunt."you said turning your back to him but moving your head slightly to still catch a glimpse of him in case he tried anything.

"hm" he only said, a quite word of agreement

"say.." he spoke carefully and slowly "what happened to your leg?" Said dream inching closer and pointing at the thick bandages wrapping your knee

"nothing important" you said quickly and turned around staring at him

"you know..." Dream started off slowly, once he got out he was planning on killing you for betraying him, but, maybe he could use the situation to his advantage.

"when we were working together this never happened, have you gone rusty commander?" Said dream smirking and looking at you in a taunting tone that was held in his voice.

You looked at dream and started to glare and spoke with venom in your voice "you wish"

Even though you knew this is what dream wanted, a reaction out of you, you weren't gonna let him talk down to you when even he lost to you in your training sessions.

Dream raised his arms up and laughed maintaining eye contact.

"i don't know, wanna make a deal?" He said and without you noticing the security cameras got shut off and Sam was knocked out in his chair.

"what type of deal?" You said staring at him suspiciously

"we battle and if you win, I'll leave you alone and admit your better than me, i win, you break me out and go back to being my commander" said Dream smirking devilishly at you

You looked down at your hand and even though there was nothing more that you wanted than to join him again everyone in the server would hate you and make your life a living hell.

But, you still shook his hand.

"Have any weapons?" Asked dream smirking and stepping towards you, you only smiled back and pulled out the two large daggers you always hid in your uniform.

"I knew you wouldn't disappoint me" spoke the blonde haired man as he grabbed hold of one of the daggers and dragged it closer to him, slithering it away from your warm touch and into his frozen one instead.

You guys looked up and made eye contact with each other.

Dream's eyes had always held: power, aspirations, fight and a little of insanity, they didn't change even once as you looked at them after all this time, most people found fear when they looked at the sharp green, you only found warmth as if it was your home.

The blonde had once felt like a home to you at one point, you didn't know if you could say the same thing about you, he was always so secretive and mysterious you could never figure out what went on through his head.

For all you knew he could be planning your demise this very second.

You guys went on position and glared at the other, slowly walking in a circle the eye contact never wavering, suddenly dream moved and lunged towards you.

You blocked his hit easily and retaliated by kicking him away.

He smirked and resumed the glaring once more

This time you were the one that started the attack and went for his knees, you managed to kick them under him and got on top of him, straddling him to the floor your dagger to his neck, the only things stopping it from cutting his throat was his own dagger in between as he used all his power to pry you off him.

He managed to free his legs and kicked your chest as you landed a few feet away.

You quickly got up and got ready to fight dagger in hand and determination in his mind.

But.

When you stood up as quickly as you got up you fell down, the pain in your knee becoming unbearable

'shit...' you thought to yourself as your leg was practically numb with pain

"can't believe you lied to my face commander" spoke the deadly voice of dream across from you

You glared at him, pure fury in your eyes as he got closer.

He put the dagger to your neck and you felt a small droplet of blood fall.

"I win."

Dreams smirk grew as he was the defeat of your first ever loss pass through your body.

As you promised you took back your dagger and gestured for him to grab your hand.

You got a potion that was on your belt and threw it at the ground

It strated rumbling and cracking, dream feeling freedom so close he could practically taste it.

The walls of his place of nightmares crumbled as the light of day made it's way through the place.

You helped him out of the ruble and stood beside him as you walked out.

All eyes on you and him.

"L/n." Spoke dreams voice

"Kill them, kill them all." He ordered

"your wish is my command" whispered the falling warrior and he got his sword out, you facing your past friends with a new goal in mind.

To kill them.

You walked through the icy road as Dream reunited with punz

Honestly, punz seemed more close with dream than you have been for almost 6 years of serving under him since the smp started.

You simply ignored them and continued walking as dream and punz reunited, punz stared at you for a second and then gave you a questioning gaze.

You only death glared back and Dream laughed at your antics as punz hid behind the blonde hair man a bit, shrinking under your gaze.

"ease up commander, he's not a threat to us" spoke dream as he put his hand on your shoulder.

You only stopped glaring and returned your gaze to the path Infront of you

Punz visibly relaxing as he saw you only followed dreams rules and wouldn't harm him.

"So...y/n.." slowly spoke punz, his voice having a taunting tone to it.

"don't." You huffed, just because he was Dreams ally doesn't mean you will hesitate to break all the bones in his body.

"well, a duel between you two would certainly be entraining, and we have quite a lot of time on our hands." Dream slowly said as his smile grew more and more at the idea

You slightly glared at him and he just laughed

"I promise it'll be worth your while." Spoke dream getting out of the way of you two.

You sighed and drew your blades out, turning around and facing punz.

Punz laughed and drew out his axe, dream stayed silent while watching to the side.

You got on stance and lunged at each other.

You doged his axe and swept under his feet kicking him in the back as he fell, he got a hold of his axe and stood up.

He wiped the snow off his face and glared.

You smirked at him and lunged, your blades coming in contact with each other, sparks flying off because of the friction.

You kicked his axe in the air and then took both of your daggers, kicking him to the ground and putting them in an 'x' formation slightly touching his neck as he sweat dropped and put his hands up in surrender

Dream watched his smile never flattering when he watched you fight he remembered how much power you truly held.

Each move planned out and smooth, calculating each move of your enemy to win in the bat of an eye.

All the blood and tears that stained your hands red, all the bodies you left bleeding out in countless of cities and forests.

The cries and screams of all the people who met their fate by your cold hands.

All the broken and sad families, the running children and their dead parents laying wasted on a cold street

All because he told you to so, you weren't a puppet in his game.

You were a soldier, an asset, a weapon that would clean his path of blood and despair to a shiny bright new one until he got to the end

And as he slowly saw your figure, blades drawn and against punz' neck, he didn't see the calm and collected y/n he saw or fought back in the prison.

He saw the dangerous and blood thirsty y/n that led him to victory a thousand times

The y/n who saw red the moment he told him too.

He saw the y/n who served under him for years.

A pile of dead bodies leading him up to the spotlight under him.

All bloody and gruesome as they were killed by your merciless hands.

And in all your glory you stood on the top blood all over your attire and yourself.

He smiled as you made your way back to him with a defeated and drained punz.

He smiled and your voice slowly made his way into your brain.

"Learn to keep your promises" you spoke harshly with venom in your voice as punz slightly scoffed.

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[toxicruins101]

I don't normally repost, EVER, on this page, but I'm a exclusive male and gn writer, and my close friend @multifandom1writer even though they currently only have one fic out, they only plan on writing with male and gn readers!

I'm so sad about the fact that the male and gn readers writing community is so small because we need more inclusivity!!

It feels so nice to find blogs with your likings and male readers/gn/trans and way more readers.

If I can provide even a small amount of help or comfort then I'll continue writing my silly little stories all I can :).

Love ya folks!

Alrighty. I’m finally doing this.

Please comment or reblog if you write fanfiction for trans, gender neutral, or male readers.  Please tag other fandoms and writers if you know any that write for GN, Trans, or male readers! 

(a bit of a ramble under the cut-)

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[toxicruins101]

YOUR WORDS KILLED ME

Sbi! Family x Male! Killer! Reader.

Tw!: Gore, torture, mentions of torture, blood, killing, depression. Etc.

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!

you couldn't even keep count of how many days it had been since you were stuck down here.

1, 2, 3..678910..

Who knows? Yet as the faint sound of your blood dropping onto the floor making a slight consecutive sound you became aware of the passage of time around you.

The faint sound of chains rubbing with each other, making an awful sound.

Pain was the only thing you felt at the moment and you knew you weren't going to last very longer in this hell hole.

You committed a crime, a deadly one quite literally, and in exchange you got sentenced to this.

Torture and torture for days on end.

You heard the heavy metal door move and tried to look up but even that hurt.

You could try to look up with your eyes but you failed the energy to even do that.

"Hey mate.." Philza, oh your sweet father Philza, all this time he had been so hopeful and so relived when they told him you'll be able to get out instead of serving a life long sentence

Yet it pained you so much, knowing his poor heart was going to be crushed.

"Are you feeling ok? I'm guessing your asleep right now though.."

'I'm not sleeping, I'm dying' you thought as a warm feeling invaded your pain struck heart.

Your father always did care for you, he always has, as his first child you meant everything to him.

You wish you could scream out to him and tell him your fate, but were unable as your tongue had been cut out in the early days of this sentence.

You wanted to cry and sob, tell him everything that was wrong, so maybe he could save you, he could rescue you.

That maybe you'll get to see your little brothers again.

Maybe train with techno one last time, teach Wilbur guitar again, and help tommy pull pranks on the others just for one more time.

But your death seemed closer than that possibility coming true.

"Don't worry mate, just 2 more weeks and your out of here, two more weeks and you'll get to go home." Spoke your father tears welling in his eyes at the sight of your broken hanged up form.

You'd be long gone by then, your poor heart ached at the thought of your caring family having to receive the news of your death.

You all meant a lot to the other, so just thinking about it made you weep.

"I'll be taking my leave now mate, stay strong ok? We are all waiting for you back home.." his voice spoke, you tried to move towards him, yell at him to stop and speak a little more.

To null the pain and bring back the good memories, you wanted to die with a familiar voice calling out to you.

Not the treacherous screams of the other inmates in here whose fates have already been decided.

Soon after though another person came in.

"Y/n? You there?"

Techno

Techno!

You were so glad, you wanted to run up and hug him so tightly both of you were out of air.

Sadly you couldn't so you slightly moved your arms making the chains jingle hoping that would give him the message you were listening to him.

"Ah good, thought you were passed out there for a sec and I got really scared.." he chuckled lightly at the end of his sentence

Don't say stuff like that...it'll only make it harder for me to die you thought

"listen, we all, really miss you ok? I know what you did was bad, but, nobody deserves this.

Come back home, ok? We all.

Really need you" spoke his grave voice as he slowly made his way outside, looking over at you again before leaving.

There were so many things you wanted to say to him.

So many

So so many.

You had missed him so much over the years it was crazy.

You didn't know if this was the gods way of having mercy on you and letting you hear your family one last time or their punishment.

Making you hear and bear that weight of sadness knowing all their hopes of you getting out of here were going to get tarnished by your inevitable death.

No-one?

Guess that was it.

Maybe Wilbur and tommy didn't think you were worth their time-

"Y/n?..." Spoke a gentle voice from the other side of the space.

Wilbur.

You slightly smiled, you wanted to cry more than ever.

You had missed him so much.

Hearing about his death in l'manburg broke you in a million pieces

Yet there he stood now, revived and well.

He only started at you and walked over.

He inspected your weak form and wanted to cry at the state of it.

In an act of anger, at seeing his brother, his blood, one of the men who raised him be hung up and treated like a punching bag he broke the chains holding up your arms, with a sword that always hanged loosely on his belt.

Guards came rushing in as you finally felt your hands in God knows how long.

You smiled at him and he smiled back at you.

Guards came in and started pushing him out

He screamed and thrashed in their hold.

"LET GO OF ME YOU FUCKS, IM TALKING WITH MY BROTHER, WAIT-

NO NO WAIT-

Y-!"

his voice got cut off as he was forced out and the metal door slammed shut.

The guards looked at your weak form on the ground and scoffed as they pulled you up and tied you by your wrists.

So much for feeling your hands again

This time you didn't hear a voice, not even a peep.

Just quiet footsteps as they came closer and closer to you.

You felt gentle arms around your torso, careful as to not hurt you as sobs emitted from said person.

Tommy, the youngest out of all of you.

You looked at his dirty blonde hair and wanted to reach out and hug him so bad as he hugged and cried onto your broken skin.

His sobs filled out the room as tears fell from your eyes at the sight of your little brother in pain.

All because of you

Your family was suffering

Your friends were suffering

Everyone was suffering

Because of you

"All right, visiting times over kid, scram" spoke your torturer and you wanted to punch him faceless because of how he talked to your brother.

He only glared at the man but then took notice of the various array of weapons desplayed on his cart.

Full of blood, your blood, to be precise.

"hey, wait, no." He said as he stared.

Two more guards came out and went towards him when they realized he had no plans of leaving.

"HEY! NO! WHAT ARE YOU PLANNING ON DOING TO HIM! NO! DONT YOU DARE-" Spoke the blonde haired kid as they dragged him out, tears falling from his blue eyes.

"Something permanent" spoke your abuser as he smirked at your disheveled younger brother being forced out of the room.

You could hear your name being called and sobs from the other side.

No

No

NO

NO

NONO

NONONONO

NO GOD PLEASE

Don't leave me please

Philza...

Techno...

Wilbur....

Tommy...

Don't leave me to die alone please...

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[toxicruins101]

Rules!

I'm doing some of my rules and stuff so people can get to know my content better!

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I will write about fluff/angst/comfort and anything among those lines, we keep it PG-13 over here folks :]

Request ask and submit anything! I'll most likely respond and will write your submission in a few days so don't worry abt it!

I can write about any fandom i know of really

I can write for: DC, marvel, gravity falls, httyd, Black Butler, saiki k, Carmen sandiego, inside job, Lego monkey kid, hazbin hotel, helluva boss, obey me and obey me nightbringer

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And most of all

Have fun reading!

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[toxicruins101]

Do you write smut? And if so can I request something?

Sorry to break it to ya loves but no I do not write smuts, I can write some making out if you want but that's about it.

[toxicruins101]

I just want some angst, angst and angst

I think you'll like some upcoming posts I'm working on then. 😏

[toxicruins101]

"An eye for an eye"

Wilbur x male! Reader

Tw: blood, shouting swearing and gore, read at your own risk.

You had known Wilbur since before you could remember, you were there for him he was there for you.

One day Wilbur came to you with the idea to build a drug empire, you said sure and went on your merry way with him to look for recruits.

A few days later and you had done it, you had recruits, a van and everything else you could need what neither of you expected was for that little drug van to become a whole country

And so while everything progressed you stayed by Wilbur and became his right hand man in everything.

You were always there for him.

You thought he would always be there for you too.

Well, you were wrong.

"Wilbur?" you asked him with a sharp tone in your voice but fear was also very noticible

He had just lost the election and was banished from the country along with you and Tommy.

Tommy had gone god knows where, poor kids probably lost but you were more worried about yourself in the moment.

Wilbur was looking down holding his arm since it was bleeding, he was angry.

"how could you let it happen?" asked Wilbur averting his stare at you instead of the floor, his eyes showing no emotion.

"what?" you asked, what did he mean by that? You had done nothing wrong, had you?

"how could you let me loose?" asked Wilbur his eyes staying the same but his tone was sharper and filled with rage, betrayal almost.

"what? Wilbur what are you talking about?" you had done nothing, you did what you could, it wasn't your fault he didn't win!

"you said you would guarantee we would win, that we would stay at the top, that there was nothing to worry about." said Wilbur venom dripping in his voice, he was really mad

"yeah I did, and I did try my best Wilbur, I got almost everyone to vote for us, how can you blame me for Schlatts and Quackitys desicion? It wasn't my fault you know?!" you said, anger lacing your words you weren't just gonna let Wilbur walk all over you and blame you for something that was in no way whatsoever in your control, that's just absurd!

"you promised me, and I don't appreciate liars." His voice was cold and deadly, even with the monotone tone of voice he used you couldn't help but feel threatened, who wouldn't if you had to look at a dangerous, powerful, man in the eyes who showed nothing, leaving his actions or intentions a complete mystery to someone who was stuck in your current position.

You stayed silent as Wilbur took a step closer too you. He opened a small leather bag he carried on his belt, his hand going slower in your mind the complete opposite of what's happening in real life.

He dragged out a black and gold fountain pen, he slowly removed the cap making a clinging sound once it hit the rock floor you were both standing on.

You only stared at him, unable to move as if your body was no longer connected to your brain and didn't listen to it's commands, the person you saw before you wasn't your best friend, the man you had joked and stayed side by side with all these years wasn't the same as the one standing before you.

He took a look at the pen and then at you, something going through his mind that you couldn't even start of thinking to figure out.

All of his thought, intentions, moves, were all a mystery, you couldn't read him as well you could just an hour ago, and it scared you but your body still refuses to run or try to talk him out of whatever he was thinking of.

"Such a shame, this was my favorite pen." He spoke but before you could even register or understand his words your left eye felt a giant unbearable pain.

You screamed out and your body moved backwards without you telling it too as you held your eye, tears threatening to spill as blood came pouring out like a waterfall, the pen stuck in the middle of your now blind eye bringing waves and waves of pain shooting through your body like crazy as your blood decorated it's beautiful shape and structure.

The gold and black shining in the fire's light as Wilbur stared at your injured form, he knelt down and picked up the pen's cap, slowly making his way towards your tensed and trembling form.

Your knees had buckled in pain and you were looking at the ground through gritted teeth and sharp breaths as you tried to overcome the pain.

You heard footsteps and looked up, as you were almost falling on the floor, at the other man who was standing once again in front of you, that same blank less look on his face.

He reached out and you thought he was going to help you, instead he just gripped the pen and pulled it out, your eye going with it.

You screamed in pain and knelt completely on the floor, tears starting to spill and join your blood on the ground as your breaths only become long, deep, ones, the pain you were feeling was worse than any other you've could've ever or have felt.

Wilbur looked at what remained of your eye on the pen and took it off with a disgusted look, he closed the pen with a slight 'click!' and stared at the crimson liquid staining it's form.

He stared at it in disgust and threw it at your vulnerable figure still lying on the ground, as it rolled onto the floor and into the puddle of your tears and blood only becoming bigger and bigger by the second.

"here, keep it, you already ruined it." He practically spat out as he looked at you, you slowly looked up at him and saw him walking away leaving you in the floor discarded.

Your eyes became heavy and your blood wouldn't stop falling you removed your hand from your eye and fainted as your l'manburg uniform stained itself on the mess below you.

'M/n L/n was slained by Wilbur Soot

Two lives remaining'

You slowly woke up as your eye was blinded by the bright shine of the lights, you sat up and noticed you were on a bed in a, cave or, ravine?, You couldn't really tell, you looked down at your form and noticed you were changed into your normal clothes instead of the l'manburg uniform, which you assumed was ruined because of the...fight...you had with Wilbur, if you could call it that.

You simply stared at the wall Infront of you, half of your vision cut in half, this was going to take a lot of getting used to and if you were being honest, you didn't want to, you wanted your old vision and eye back, you wanted to be normal once more but what happened happened, there's no point in crying over it.

You heard someone coming in and looked at the new duo who now stared at you shocked.

"Y/n! Your alive you son of a bitch! You worried me!." Spoke the blonde kid you knew as tommy as he ran over to you and pulled you into a hug, a smile on his features and exciment in his voice, his hug firm but gentle.

You let the boy hug you as you caught a glimpse of his gold hair just outside your outer vision, you hugged him back and closed your eyes shut not wanting to remember how you got into this position the first place.

The boy pulled away and smiled at you rambling on about something but you could only concentrate on the pink haired killer still in the doorway, looking rather bored as if waiting for the kid to calm down or just wanting to go home.

He met your gaze and glared, his eyes shining red, you only continued staring, you weren't scared, why should you be? He would never kill you even if he says he will, he won't, you mean to much to his little brother to do so.

Tommy stopped mid sentence and saw your guys' staring contense, he dead panned and started to be obnoxious to get your guys attention.

Techno covered his ears because of the volume erupting from his brother as you sighed and leaned back into the comfortable bed and closed your eye, everything going black as the arguing of the two brothers became background noise.

You woke up and stared at your ceiling back in your house, it's been more than a year since pogtopia and you had already grown used to your limited vision.

It's a given that everything has changed, Wilbur died, l'manburg was destroyed, Dream got locked in the prison, a new guy joining his name was Ranboo, at least you think it was.

You couldn't care less, ever since Wilbur died you stopped caring, the only reason you stook around was for Wilbur and now he was dead and in the form of a, rather annoying, ghost, after his death you stopped caring, you couldn't leave the dsmp so you just, gave up.

But Wilbur did seem to like you in his ghost form, of course he didn't have any negative thoughts so he didn't know your injury was caused by him so when you told him, he apologized for a day straight and gave you a lot of blue but it did make him back off a little, so hey, a win in your book.

But you hadn't seen the ghostly form of your former friend for a while and that did make you curious.

You heard a slight 'ping!' from your side and looked at a message sent by tommy, the poor kid went through hell your surprised he's still standing.

'Y/n, meet me at sunset on the l'manburg ruins, I have someone you need to see.' the message sent by the blonde seemed important even with the lack of words that were written down.

You replied with an 'ok' and got ready for your day, putting away your sword and other weapons in your chest, a certain pen that has stuck with you over the years tucked away in your belt.

The day progressed without a single problem and soon enough it was sunset.

You made your way through the path you made, observing the once beautiful city now only be ruins in front of you

You walked and walked, on the glass, hovering over a giant fall if broken

You saw the figure of the kid you came here too see, he saw you and waved at you, you gave a tired smile back raising your hand as to greet him back.

"Y/n! Look who came back!" Said the blonde happily and clearly cheered up, you looked at his side and saw the man you'd never thought you'd see again

The world seemed to slow down and everything just, paused, eyes widened in shock as a taunting smile caressed the dead mans features, his eyes blood red and a large patch of dead skin on the side of his face as though it had been sewed on like a patch on broken clothes and patches.

A long coat following his deathly quiet steps and red lense glasses matching the color of his eyes, you thought he died, you though you were finally free of the menace who took your eye and best feature of yourself as well as the most useful one.

You couldn't believe your eye and ears as that devil voice crawled it's way into your brain and thoughts

"Hello y/n, long time no see, but I'm guessing that's more accurate to you, no?" Spoke the voice of the man, taunting you and clearly speaking about the fatal injury he caused you.

The way he spoke like he was so high and mighty, how he was proud of putting you through hours of suffering, how he was able to hurt the man who never once left his side and still have pride in it as if it wasn't sinful and repulsive of him.

Everything about him angered you and rage boiled in your veins and blood, as you shut your first closed, nails digging deep in your palms as blood started seeping out

Wilbur glanced at your hand and saw the blood slowly seeping out as it made a slight 'click!' sound when it hit the glass floor

He smiled and made eye contact with you, you acted faster than his brain could process and felt an excruciating pain emit from his eye.

He grabbed it in hopes to stop the bleeding as tears fell from his non injured eye.

Tommy was screaming at you but he could barley hear it because of his head pounding like crazy, his teeth were gritted and his tears were falling as you made your way to him.

He looked at up at you, his cocky facade disappearing as his tears decorated his gorgeous face, you smiled down at him as his blood decorated the pen just like yours did all those years ago.

You kneeled down and took the pen out, his eye following suit, he yelled in pain and fell completely now leaning on your shoulder for any type of support.

Tommy just looked at the scene in shock as you threw what remained of the eye following in his footsteps from all those years ago.

Except you didn't leave him stranded, you put the pen away and hugged him as he sobbed from the pain in your shoulder

Blood slowly staining your clothes, creating a beautiful crimson trace as his sobs were covered by your shoulder

You took a bandage and lifted his chin as he looked at you, you smiled at him, intoxicatingly sweet.

"An eye for an eye"

You said as more tears fell from the man and you put the bandages over the side of his face now missing an eye.

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YALL KNOW WHAT I JUST REALIZED, THIS BITCH @dax-enfinity IS ALWAYS ON MY CASE ABOUT THE DAMN LYRIC VIDEO, MEANWHILE THIS WHORE HASN'T EVEN POSTED THE PART 2 OF OUR COLLAB

LIKE

MAKE IT MAKE SENSE BRO

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Happy new years everybody! Hope you all have a great time!

#new year #2023 #2022

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"For making me feel" Tommyinnit X Male! Emotionless! Reader

PLATONIC

Angst

Tw: minor fighting if you squint, reader lack of self-care(kinda), I'm too much of a drama queen.

Read at your own risk.

Part 2!

Part 1:

Reminders!: @venomsvl @caffeine-mess @docskrew @soup-possum @ur-moms-used-tampon101

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"What?..." Tommy's voice came out as merley a whisper, a whisper of shock and disbelief.

M/n was, crying?

How was that possible? As long as tommy had known him, m/n had never cried, never!

Hell he had never done much of anything, tommy never thought m/n could feel much of anything

His eyes widen even more as he heard m/n continue.

"I didn't know you felt that way tommy, I'm sorry for being a burden to you". M/n said tears still running down his non-stop, he looked down as he apologized once again and tommy couldn't help but feel guilty.

It's like he was stabbed, deep in the heart by the blade of guilt and regret.

Sure, m/n never felt anything or showed much of interest in things but he still lingered around tommy.

He had always been there.

That's when it clicked inside tommy.

He stayed, because he cared, he helped, because he cared.

He didn't just stay around tommy for no reason.

As he looked m/n's tear filled eyes, he couldn't help but tear up himself too

M/n may not feel, he may not show and he may not act, but he still cared.

How could he forget the countless nights were m/n stayed at his side helping him think and recover from panic attacks, how he sneaked in exile just to keep tommy company, how he followed him through everything, l'manburg, disc war, exile, dooms day.

All of those historical moments only mattered since m/n was there.

He wasn't on l'manburg's side, he wasn't on pogtopia's side.

He was on his side, on Tommy's side.

He never once left, when he needed him most he was always there.

So as he saw m/n look up and walk away tears hitting the floor repeatedly, as everything suddenly made sense, tommy ran and hugged m/n, tears now running down his face as the h/c fell on the floor surprised by the sudden action from tommy.

"Tommy? Wouldn't you prefer it if I go?, I've clearly become a burden to you and I don't want to make you upset." Said m/n, concern filling his voice like a worried mother

Tommy just sobbed deeper in the h/c's shirt as he spoke through tears and gritted teeth.

"don't you dare leave, you haven't left my side for all these years, please don't leave now because of my own stupidity."

M/m just stared down at tommy, confused.

"but I'm not wanted by you, I think you made your point tommy, really I can just go and bother you no further."

Tommy stayed quiet, processing your words, his grip on your shirt tightened, as he looked up at you glaring, angry.

"Listen to me, you will never, EVER, bother me, I let my own emotions get the best of me and forget who you were and how you acted and blamed you for something you can't control, something you were cursed with at birth, and even so you've never left my side, don't leave me now."

Your eyes widen as you looked at tommy, you smiled and hugged him, happy tears streaming from your face now.

Tommy stood up and dragged you along with him, you two continued hugging in a comfortable silence.

"I'm sorry" suddenly came Tommy's voice

"for what?" You asked, "your wound, it reopened" you hadn't even noticed.

"don't worry about it, In fact, I should be thanking you."

"what for?" Asked tommy clearly confused

"For making me feel."

(LISTEN, I KNOW THIS ONE IS SHORTER AND SHITTIER THAN THE FIRST ONE I JUST HAD A MAJOR AUTHORS BLOCK AND HAD NO IDEA WHAT TO DO FOR PART 2 BUT DIDN'T WANT TO LET YOU GUYS DOWN, HERE YOU GO AND IF YOU WANT ME TO RE-MAKE IT THEN JUST TELL ME AND GIVE ME SOME IDEAS, P L E A S E, 😭)

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"I wish I could fucking hate you."

Dream x Male! Reader

Enemies to lovers

Tw: blood, fighting, screaming, crying.

Continue at your own risk.

Dream had always hated m/n, to his voice, to his hair, to his personality, everything about him ticked dream off.

He wanted him dead, once he met him he didn't care about tommy or wilbur, he just wanted to make sure the h/c felt pain.

Everytime he was in a duel with him he never held back, he hit him with everything he had, he wanted to absolutely destroy him.

M/n already had a lot of scars because of Dream, the most obvious one being a giant burn mark on the side of his face from one of the multiple times Dream had thrown TNT at him

M/n had no idea why Dream hated him he only knew he felt the same.

Dreams mask had a large crack, his hands had millions of bruises and a large scar that ran through his chest to his mouth leaving a large part of his teeth uncovered, it was a terrifying sight to most people.

But everytime they fought and dreams mask fell a bit and he could see the large scar he had caused him, he smiled wickedly and fought with no mercy.

It was no secret to the SMP that those two wanted to kill eachother

Infact they didn't really mind it, ever since Dream left all of his plans to go kill m/n there hasn't been any incidents or wars.

Hell even tommy was fine, he was slowly working through what happened at l'manburg but other than that the kid was back to his old, childish ways.

And even thought the server finally had peace

M/n's and Dream's world was being turned upside down

The two men were seen fighting on a large cliff, swords swinging left and right making eye contact as they hit each other with all their strength.

Dream smiled wickedly and hit m/n's sword causing them to clash together

They both mantained eye contact and glared at the other, but..

Dream felt as a slight spark fly in his chest and he was slowly trying to break out of his gaze while looking at the other

His hatred slowly vanishing.

Dream gritted his teeth and gripped his sword tighter and swinged with all his strength

Hitting m/n's sword over and over again

M/n blocked with ease and fought back, but for the first time, Dream was caught off guard, he swiped at his feet and dream fell on his side

M/n pointed his sword at Dreams neck, he noticed Dreams mask fell and forced him to look up at him

M/n could only stare at the man Infront of him

Everything he hated about him now only seemed like a likable feature.

M/n clenched his jaw and gripped his sword tighter and tighter on the verge of tears.

Dream got on his hands and then on his feet grabbing his mask and running away.

M/n only watched as he dropped to his knees letting his sword fall, he looked everywhere minus where the man once stood and started looking for an answer, an explanation, anything.

Yet he couldn't find one, he only looked to the ground as tears welled up in his eyes and made his hand into fists, punching the ground over and over again until his knuckles were messy and bleeding and the dirt below him was denting.

He stopped and fell as he gripped the grass harder and harder stopping himself from crying.

Dream got to his house and as soon as he closed the door he fell into his wall as he slowly lowered down, closing his eyes.

He stayed there for a bit, he opened his eyes and looked down at his hands, covered in scars he earned in duels, duels with m/n

Dreams eyes teared up and he stood up before his legs gave up on him and he had to balance himself on the kitchen counter

He stared at it with wide eyes as tears fell from his eyes, he was searching his brain for anything to explain what was happening

What was happening to him.

He put every scenario possible to the test but none of them fit quite right

He thought about the last option and glared harder as more tears fell.

Love, he was feeling love

Dream gritted his teeth and fell to the floor, his breath started speeding up and he couldn't stop himself from crying a river as he gripped his hair and shut his eyes.

"FUCK!" A loud voice boomed, his, he wanted to scream and destroy everything in his path until it was merely ashes

He hated m/n, he hated everything about him, he wanted to make him regret being born, he hated him and his friends and his life and soul.

He wanted to absolutely destroy the other for making him fall in love

He wanted to scream and punch him till he was bleeding and almost dead from blood loss

Dream closed his eyes as all these new emotions rolled around in his brain as he gripped his hair harder and rolled into himself so no one else could feel his pain but him.

It had been at least a month since their last duel and people were getting suspicious of them

Normally both would have already tried to kill the other multiple times but now everytime the other saw each other in public they just turned the other way and pretended they didn't know each other

Most people weren't having it, if dream and m/n stopped fighting it would mean dream would finally come to his senses again and would start targeting tommy, tubbo and the others again.

So a part of the community came together and formulated a plan so the two would HAVE to fight the other.

They put everything in place and a few days later the plan was in motion.

M/n came to his house tired and angry after a long and stressful day

He turned and were his house should be only stood a large raging fire

He looked everywhere for a way to stop the fire and came across the thing that haunted his nightmares.

Dreams mask.

Dream was going nuts, he looked everywhere and didn't seem to find his mask no matter where he looked.

He was getting pissed off and went outside to look for any place where he might of left it by accident

When he came back his house was in complete shambles

His stuff was gone, his furniture and decorations destroyed and he saw a large mark painted on the wall

It was your initials

Dream stared at the wall in hatred as he opened his ender chest (the only thing that wasn't damaged or robbed into for obvious reasons) and got his armour and axe out

Both men were walking and soon enough the other came into view and they stared daggers at the other.

No words had to be exchanged as the two leaped at the other clashing swords in the middle making sparks fly from the friction.

They both pulled away and stared at the other hatred in their veins

They both ran and started dueling in the middle

Swords going left and right as blows were exchanged

But something was different than last time

This time the blows weren't smooth and planned

They were savage and agressive

Both men staring at the other as tears welled up in the others eyes

They looked at each other without breaking eye-contact

The both of them wanted to get lost in the others eyes but couldn't, they wouldn't and most importantly

Shouldn't

Their enemies, they hate each other's guts that's no lie

They wanted to absolutely kill the other till not even the revive book could bring them back but their emotions and brain were telling them to do everything but.

Their fighting stopped abruptly as their sword clashed a bit above their heads and they both stared at the other

Fear written across the others face, and they could both tell from the others expressions that they were in deep shit too.

They both stayed like that for a while

Part of m/n wanted to drop the sword and run over to Dream

Yet the other part told him to move and stab Dream in the heart

They both slowly lowered their swords and stared at the other

Dream looking through almost closed eyes as tears started welling up at the sight of the man he was apparently doomed to love

M/n looking at him as his jaw became stiff and his eyes widened in terror while looking at Dream

He wanted to go over to the other man hug him and wipe his tears away but mentally slapped himself and tried to break out of his trance to no avail

As his jaw relaxed a bit and he looked at the other his mouth opening slightly, his eyes wide as plates.

Dream only took a step back and raised his arms a bit a a sign of defense

M/n raised his hand towards the other but stopped himself

Quickly he grabbed one of the TNT's on his belt and set it ablaze

As he ran without looking back but he heard the other man running too

He looked down as he ran wanting nothing more than to cry and breakdown onto the floor.

Closing his eyes shut as tears started coming out.

Dream has had enough, if the feelings for m/n weren't gonna leave then he'd just have to do the next best thing

Kill him.

He spied on m/n the next couple of days and figured out that at every afternoon as the sun was about go down he would go to a tall hill and sat down looking at the sky.

Dream would catch himself staring at the other man while smiling and slowly inching himself towards him but stopped himself so he didn't get his cover blown.

He walked to his hiding spot and soon enough saw m/n arrive, he sat down as he always did and rested on his arms as he looked at the sun slowly disappearing and the moon appearing as the stars slowly stared too appear one by one.

Dream stared at the other and wanted to let go of his weapons and join him and sit by his side

But no he had already planned this far he wasn't going to give up now. He grabbed his sword and slowly made his way to m/n

He raised his sword and as soon as he was going to lower it m/n rolled away at the last second, Dream pulled his sword out of the dirt and stared at m/n as he got to his feet.

If he was going to kill him he wanted it to be a fair fight

M/n got his sword out and pointed it at dream, dream did the same thing and both men swung at the other, suddenly it was almost like that day 2 months ago were he first fell in love with the man he hated.

They both fought relentlessly

Both of them were beaten up pretty bad

M/n had a cut on the side of his mouth and one right by his eye with multiple bruises around his face and neck became purple and it slowly stared to tire m/n out.

Dreams mask was long gone and he had multiple little cuts around his face with large bruises on his chin and face, his energy slowly leaving him.

Soon it came to the point were the both of them were beaten and tired but their moves and strength never flattered

Both men were looking at the other and this time no hatred was seen

It was nothing like their other duels

No hatred

No violence

No bloodshed

It was pure silence

As they both now stared at each other in a form of want

Of caring

Of sweetness

Of love

Both men stopped all movement and stared into the others eyes, the moon shining behind them, it's glorious glow reflecting on the skin of the two enemies

Dream let go of his sword and M/n followed suit both taking a step towards the other

Staring at the other with the deepest yet sweetest glare ever

Dream took another step forward and hugged m/n burying himself in the others chest as tears pored out

M/n's instincts were screaming at him to push Dream and run.

But he slowly wrapped his arms around the other burying his face in Dreams blonde locks

Both men pulled away and looked at the other

M/n put his hand in dreams cheek and spoke in a soft voice tears running down his face

"I wish I could fucking hate you."

Spoke m/n in a hushed voice as Dream smiled and nodded pulling the taller man into a kiss as the moon in the background made the scenery look like simple shadows to the blind eye.

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