#yes! you talk too fast

[leave-your-body]

i think theres something to be said about how people are so quick to say that trans women cant be in women sports because "cis women are so fragile and weak :(( they wont stand a chance against 'biological males' D:" when 1) thats sexist as all hell and 2) its not even accurate. but most of all, the narrative is always trans women vs cis women

i have NEVER seen anyone say "we shouldnt let trans men in mens sports bcuz theyll get hurt" even though that technically aligns with their line of thinking- because the minute trans people are the quote unquote "victims," they dont care. they dont care about "protecting" anyone it was always about villanizing trans people

#sorry ive been thinking this for so long and i had to get it out of my system #trans #transgender #trans women #yes! you talk too fast

[heartshattering]

5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :') #way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh) #my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?' #and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy' #and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!! #which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!! #and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me) #'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that' #fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

[sing-you-fools]

i don't think the husbands fuck as a matter of habit yet but i do think they have fucked and specifically i think they have fucked exactly once

more specifically i think Bildad the Shuhite fucked that angel silly after the ox thing. they never spoke of it again and Aziraphale has spent the rest of his existence trying to get railed by a Crowley with less ridiculous hair

i think if Crowley had better hair in 1967 Azi would have been singing an entirely different tune such as perhaps "just take me back to yours that will be fine"

#you go too fast for me crowley #i know it's the style but god that’s almost as bad as the bildad look #come back in a few more decades and we'll talk #good omens #bildad the shuhite #bildaddy #neil gaiman #aziraphale #crowley #david tennant #michael sheen #yes i know the song wasn't out yet #shitpost #sing-you-fools

[lloydfrontera]

i stand by my conviction that the best way to read tged is by stopping in ch 401 but i do have a rant concerning ch 402 that is locked and loaded for posting and i don't know if i should wait for today's chapter to drop so you guys have the full context or if i should pretend it isn't happening and i'm talking about a hypothetical ending that definitely didn't happen

#i talk a lot <3 #god. i wish you guys could listen into my brain. it feels like the highway here the way those thoughts speed by me #i'm a very fast thinker but not in a 'takes good decisions quickly' #it's more of a 'if you don't say what you're thinking right now that thought will be gone forever in two seconds' #also i talk exactly the way i write it is non stop with me once you get me going i barely stop to breathe i am exhausting #where was i going with this #ah yes should i post it now or do i wait for later tonight #this is for the people that are reading the novel you poor souls i've spoiled the novel for... i'm sorry it's too late for you

[dirty-droid]

Carl Manfred

Of course you know he loves you. He says it freely, he shows you in his actions, he offers advice and he does what he can to keep you safe, to keep your head above water. But... Does he understand you? Does he accept you fully, for everything that you are? Can he, if he's incapable of understanding? You're so different.

Does he understand the role he played in your trauma? Does he understand that it's his fault? Does he understand that there was no right choice for you to make, that nothing other than what you ultimately did can fix it?

Does he know the weight of being the reason that you exist at all? Does he know how fucked it is that he used you and your existence to make his life a little easier? A little more bearable? That he needed to lean on someone who couldn't leave?

He protected you. He couldn't protect you.

He thinks he prepared you. He never could have. Or maybe he could. But the things he did, didn't work. He could have taught you more, could have taught you better. If only he knew what you were going to face, if only he thought MORE about protecting you. If he thought more about protecting you than he did about protecting his image as a father.

He loves you. You love him. More than anything.

There's nobody else in the whole wide world who's just like him. He's just like every other man. He's the best man you'll ever know. He's no better than the rest of them.

You can't overlook how much he hurt you. You can't overlook how much he saved you. The things he taught you. The things he taught you.

Because of him, you care. Because of him, you want better.

#carl manfred #markus manfred #markus rk200 #dbh markus #dean talks to himself #detroit become human #so i really fucking love Carl and Markus' father and son relationship because it's too fucking real #yes these are my thoughts about my own disabled depressed father why do you ask? #it's just... VERY relatable #this is also a sneak peek for the Hankus feelings fic that I'm writing that i made that poll about because I can't write it fast enough

[swampndn]

Um, y'all. I think I'm the main character now or something.

Story time.

So, I'm teaching a class this semester. It's cool. It's great. I love it. Anyway, last week I was walking out with a student, and I was telling her the ways I like to stay grounded in this city, i.e. going to the water as much as I can, finding ways to be on the land. She's also Native and was struggling adjusting to this city. We part ways, and I walk out of the building with a random man who was leaving the same time we were. He opens the door for me, introduces himself briefly, and asks me if I teach here regularly. I tell him I do, just the one class though. He tells me that usually he teaches visual art at a local high school but was guest lecturing on his work in Afro-Futurism and public art for a friend's class. It's pleasant. He's nice. No weird vibes. Felt really normal. He walks me to my car out front. We part ways. Entire exchange lasted maybe 2 minutes.

Well, fast forward to today. He reaches out to me on Instagram. He says that he was thinking about me all week, and he wanted to get to know me better. We go back and forth. He's really sweet, funny, clever, charming, wicked smart, and matches my energy (which is RARE) - he also ain't said a single sexual comment to me. The respect. Also, I ain't gonna lie. He's tall, muscular, and fucking hot. And an artist??? Say less. I wouldn't have been mad about some explicit advances, although my traumatized ass probably would have reacted poorly (involuntarily), so good on him.

I give him my number after he makes a silly little joke that Facebook told him his soulmate is an Aries, and I said that he's in luck because I'm an Aries. Then boom. Dropped the number. (I still got it.)

Tell me why the first thing he texted me was a silly gif of John Cena strutting around then said "this me walking into your life as the luckiest man alive", then asks me on a FULLY PLANNED DATE: a PICNIC AT A LAKE NEAR A BOTANICAL GARDEN because he overheard what I was talking about to my student about last week, AND THEN I learn that he's also Native!!! That's really important to me, and he was telling me all about his family (we're here on his ancestral land, actually). And also he's asking me all about my work, and then straight up broke down how he was feeling about me in such a clear, direct way. He laid out his intentions. He may or may not have said he's gonna marry me, but he was trying to be chill about it 😅🫣

Anyway. This has never happened to me before. I'm like what the literal fuck is going on? Am I too traumatized for this? What is happening???

#but yes currently I'm concerned only for ongoing trauma #he was very clear what he was after #and frankly displayed the most healthy emotional availability I've ever witnessed #so I don't know what to dooooooooooooo #send help #my best friend was none #she told me to shut the fuck up and fall in love #but ya bitch ain't never been in love #been too busy being hella traumatized #so idk fam #I'll keep you updated #because if he had his way we'd be getting married on Thursday #we've been talking for 11 straight hours #he even responds hella fast like I do consistently #what the fuck is going on #it was real cute tho #he said that he liked me how grilled cheese likes tomato soup #and I said that's the supreme sandwich-soup combo so that's love #and he said #DIRECT QUOTE #I wasn't going to say this just yet but I may or may not be experiencing love at first sight that has only intensified in talking to you #SOS #HELP ME #WHAT DO I DO

[meownotgood]

mags im finally rewatching csm and like seeing aki in the opening had me squealing and then his whole intro scene is on rn I CANNOT BREATHE AKI AKI AKI AKI AKI! especially bc it’s winter like AHHHHHHHHHHGH winter reminds me of him sm

YESSSS AKI IN THE OP AND THEN IN EPISODE TWO GET ME PARTICULARLY CRAZY JUSSSTTTTTT...... reminding me of how many butterflies I had seeing him animated for the first time... I get those same butterflies all over again.......

and he's just so handsome too, so pretty and hearing his pretty voice hhnnnngggggg

#whether I'm reading the manga or watching the anime when makima is like 'this is hayakawa aki' I'm like #screaming and cheering and crying #YES THAT'S HIM!!!!! HAYAKAWA AKI!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S HIM RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #(spoken through tears) #my heart beats fast just thinking about it #and like the scene where he beats up denji #the way he talks there.... like the way his voice sounds........... #yah I cannot handle #I agree fall and winter are just so aki 🥹 #makes me think of him and how he'd stick so much closer to you during those times #he was definitely a fall or winter baby #I sense the scorpio in him #UGGH I NEED TO WATCH MORE CHAINSAW MAN TOO I MISS HIM #ask mags

[tinukis]

not to get personal or anything but one piece genuinely helped me become more emotional again. sometimes i still hate being emotional, especially crying a lot but— seeing my favorite characters cry or breaking down let me cry with them and just show me it is ok to cry. ive struggled with crying for years to the point i couldnt cry At All no matter my methods

it was until marineford- or rather purposely spoiling myself about if ace is really dead bc i was in such huge denial bc he was like my 2nd favorite... it was until marineford i cried so so so much. ace's death and seeing our beloved luffy who we've been following since he was just in a barrel with so much ambition... break like that. he was broken enough to the point he didnt care if he died from headbutting boulders/cliffs. and we get the backstory of asl, learning that luffy actually had two brothers and that he didnt have anyone left. until jinbe was there to take him out of rock bottom and reminding him of what he still had.

anyway, one (silly) reason that i hate being more vulnerable/emotional i guess is that i will cry easily when it comes to the tragedy of these characters 😭

one piece just has excellent storytelling and how it can make you feel such intense emotions from the strawhats to characters that we thought werent important

#tin talks #just rambling again #and i love one piece so much #im so glad i started reading it #and it's never too late to start #but it is especially a good time Now to start it bc we're in the final saga #+ luffy giving you a reason to live... very very important #thats rlly how fast he became like my top 2 favs of All Time #smth about luffy that rlly helps you keep going #yes hes not real but my attachment to him is and #dont you just want to see the very things you love blossom? #mini vent #maybe? idk #it's rlly bc i saw the 'thank you for loving me' panel and #i wanted to cry lol #ace's death hurts so fucking much i miss him it's not fair

[blizzardfluffykpop]

You sent me an ask so I shall return the favor! What is the most recent Kpop group you’ve gotten into and how did you find out about them? I always love hearing fan “origin stories” lol

Thank you for returning the favor~ That would be The Boyz 🥰💖 I love hearing fan "origin stories" too hehe (This is gonna get long I love them sm)

Anyways I've known about them since debut? I loved Bloom Bloom Pow with my whole heart when it came out and tried to fall for them then- It didn't work. The next time was when The Stealer (TS) came out~ I had watched them perform for Road to Kingdom- because ptg was on the show too- But I really loved TS cb- sm so that I bought the album about 6 mos later with my favorite members as inclusions at the time (Eric, Kevin and Hyunjae). But nothing came about of it even after watching the weekly idol episodes... Then came Whisper era and I ended up biasing Changmin (Q) and loving that song but again nothing came out of it.

(A little backstory is that Changkyun (I.M) got me into Dominic Fike's music-) Thus, when tiktok showed me Juyeon, Changmin, and Sunwoo dancing to Babydoll earlier this year as a dance cover: I fell. And then I finally checked out Watch It~ But Hui had his solo and it distracted me completely from falling further. Then I had gotten sick and decided 'well, what if I watch their content?' And I did... I watched their hello82 interview and their reaction to fanart of them, and lastly their mafia dance. And I loved each sm that I decided to check out more.

It was the first time I had watched their content and wanted to see more. And now, I watch their content almost daily. It's kind of like they revived the joy of kpop for me? My (old) ult of ults has been on hiatus due to the military so it's been stagnant content lately for me. But then they came in like a breath of fresh air- and I simply can't get enough. This month will be 3 mos and I honestly hope I'll follow them for a long time. (I think they're my new ult of ults tbh)

And lastly now here I am as a Younghoon and Juyeon bias (with bias wrecker: Changmin... he's doing everything to be bias again). And with them having a comeback I loved with my whole heart this past month, I think it really solidified them with me. Honestly, I'm so happy with them.

#my 'fan origin story' hehe #lovely mutuals #asks #kate rambles from here #i even started a new kpop journal just dedicated to them and my thoughts- it's a 200 page journal and i have nearly 50 pages about them #and i started it in february ebhbha- #it's so funny because i saw one of my ults' concerts in theater the month before they should have became the ult of ults and here tbz comes #if the theory is true that you fall in love with certain people/groups/things at certain time then that means even when #i wanted to fall in love with them- that i had to wait until now to fall for them even if i wanted to fast forward it- i think now is a #perfect time- it's when i need them most i think- and fuck i could go on about them forever and why they mean sm to me in such little #time but oh how i love these guys- #no seriously everything i wish they could do- i find out they've done or will do- or for like pcs i like them a certain way and by golly #does yh do my favorite poses- and their music is just ?!?! i love it sm- ofc i've listened to them before a lot but ?? it's my speed rn #kate rambles #did i drag my close friend into them too? yes- yes I did- but she had full free will- she could have stayed on the happy mbb boat instead #of jumping into the water and swimming to lip gloss island with me- but alas she didn't so it's even more fun cause i get to be a new #deobi with her- and it's literally the best experiance i could have ever asked for- she prolly won't see these (i'm banking on it) and #honestly i'm so thankful for her- for joining me in this 'insanity' we've gotten ourselves into- i'm glad we were both stolen from our mbb #home together- it's sm fun to talk about tbz with her- because she's experiencing them new just like i am- i could go on here too #but i won't- so i'll stop here- i love these boyz sm tbh (every time i say it even if it's a lot- it doesn't feel enough)

[itafushin]

in lmkverse, female macaque demons would probably think mac is hotter than swk because they’re attracted to red facial markings, the darker red and more widespread, the better lol

hi its 7 in the morning and this is so random it made me giggle so much because i immediately thought of some female demons trying to flirt with macaque and wukong being all >:O >:( about it. dude gets tunnel vision and can not see the fact that macaque is very obviously not interested in them

#🏮 #shadow talks #i mean macs an attractive guy #so it only makes sense #sucks for the ladies though because mans gay as hell #idek what im saying i am so tired i should not be up this early #shadowpeach #i love protective wukong sm though #hed slide up and interrupt a conversation macs having and be like 'EXCUSE ME' really loudly and the girl macs talking to is like #'omg my king!' and wukongs over here nodding really fast like 'yes yes as your king i order you to stop talking to this man' #and when the girl asks why wukong gets all nervous cuz he does not want to admit he got jealous in front of mac #SORRY i put way too much in the tags sometimes idk if yall read these

[callixton]

my main issue w grindr is that i have no idea how to respond to people when i don’t have a quick straightforward answer. i feel like every conversation on there is a puzzle & i am missing so many pieces

#‘If you want we can do something rq that would put you right to sleep ;)’ #DO YOU MEAN OVER TEXT OR IN PERSON & IS IT LAME OF ME TO CLARIFY (yes) #the guy is really hot too….. but i freeze up in these conversations so fast when i feel like i don’t have the answer #it’s okay i figured out a reasonable + flirty response #i do just want to go to bed tho lmao i do not really want to do anything but idk what the hell he means by that either so ig i’ll find out #oh he meant in person. or is at least pretending to. dude you like 25 mi away from me there is no real quick involved #anyway #ted talks #minors dni

[leave-your-body]

ART IS NOT CONTENT!! ART COMES FROM THE HEART!!!!! YOU CAN TELL A ROBOT TO GENERATE AN APPLE AND IT CAN PROBABLY DO IT BETTER THAN ME BUT THAT DOESNT MATTER!!! I WILL STILL DRAW THE APPLE BECAUSE I HAVE A HEART THAT BEATS AND A LIFE TO EXPERIENCE!!! AND IF YOURE MORE WILLING TO SUPPORT A MACHINE THAN A HUMAN THEN U DONT UNDERSTAND HUMANITY!!!!!! WHAT IS THE POINT OF LIVING IF U LET A BUNCH OF CODE DO IT FOR YOU!!!!!

#ai #art #CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #DOES THIS MAKE SENSE #tw caps #ai generated #no ai art #support artists #support human artists #anti ai #artificial intelligence #yes! you talk too fast

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

#argent #argent band #hold your head up #granada #set of six #1972 #ROD YOU TALK TOO FAST I CAN'T TELL WHERE TO SPLIT THE GIFS WITHOUT WATCHING IT #sometimes i'll be listening to an album and i'm like 'but i don't wanna pause it to play the video to know what's being said' #so i just wait until the song is over #but then another song comes on #and i'm like 'but i wanna hear this one first' #and then it's just me listening to albums and not making gifs at all #okayokayokay i paused and will check the video now #yes this is much easier #rod telling everybody forget that you're in a television studio just clap your hands anyway #you can't hold them back from crowd interaction apparently #i love that #and i love rod's hair #and i love russ's stompy clapping at the end #and i love everything

[starlitnyx]

okay sorry but I hate Booktok so much like so much so much so much

#Like yes I love romance too #But then you see girls only talk about smut and the romance and #It just leads to fav tropes and than that leads to fast fashion but with books #With authors making half-assed books with a persons favorite troupes just for it to sell #Like what happened to actually good books

[lightbulb-warning]

16 classmates means 256 potential dynamics to explore if we only consider 1 on 1 interactions (which i will! ...until this sentence ends) and that means 256 drawings. considering that group interactions exist and it can be any combo that is... a way larger number.

i have 2 hands, 0 time and too much ambition!!

haha! oh no.

#i would like to live my life and also fundematally tear apart my hpfxtn from the inside out and roll in its guts #that's not really possible unfortunately #because TIME #bitches love to hate on me for “quality over quantity uwu” which is valid as FUCK babe you do you #i need to do me and me wants to be engulfed in the concept of interaction. yes specifically through ship art. #that means gotta go fast. #as in. i get told a lot i should not try to improve my drawing speed because i draw fast enough. they fail to consider that i want to!!!! #my brain is an enigma to me too im a barely functioning human if me having social competence comes in the form of free art then #my therapist is gonna make so much fun of me i guess #/lh #mind you. this here talking to myself? this is all silly bullshit ego. i know very well whatever i WANT to do ill end up drawing koquichechi #“ok me we made a plan to practice drawing subtle understated emotions with charact-” “what if we drew koquichechi slapstick instead” #“but the PLAN??” “look at that. it's koquichechi.” #and then i babysit myself into FORCING myself to draw shit i want to draw and would enjoy drawing but it takes SO LONG #an doing things that take time *takes time*. outrageous. how dare you. i hate it. (bla bla bla time is an illusion i KNOW) #and im still figuring out subtle. groooooaaaaaaannnnnnnnn!!!!!!! #eh whatevs! #whether i make ANY of my bullshit projects real or not what matters is having fun with it before i die /lh #its gonna be okay #*yearning* i just think itd be cool!! #shut up maiora #rambling #i get threatened with violence constantly by art friends. they're so completely right. #anyway tell me all about your rare-pairs if you want!! i might scribble em in my free time :> #(use the ask box) #(yes platonic too!) #(i think itd be fun 👉👈) #(i wanna hear people's thoughts!!) #(might be done in pencil ^^') #(im getting distracted HAVE A NICE DAY BUHBYE)

[pumakaji64]

Choosing to take humor in non-Mexican Latinos appalled reactions when they hear that I want to learn Mexican Spanish dialects <3

#my co-worker literally went 😨 #'but it's not the Right kind of Spanish...' Spanish is Spanish- there's many kinds of English too y'know! #‘but they speak so vulgar!!!!!!!’ yes and ^_^? #’but your dad is Mexican and he would not approve of you speaking like that!!!’ #I’m my own person so I don’t see why I need to worry about that :p!!! #her and my mom started talking on and on about their opinions on Mexican Spanish so fast that I couldn't keep up #but I really don’t care… I am Mexican I want to live that part of my culture 🤍~! #I literally didn't even say what kind of words or slang I was interested in... just that I wanted to learn more Mexico-centric words #and they heard that and jumped to the worst conclusions