#without that amount of pain

[tethered-heartstrings]

i lived btw if you even care

#sarcasm just in case #in reference to surgery i had last week #ngl never have had surgery this major and i anticipated pain and wound care etc but not this amount of exhaustion #i am sleeping so fucking much and i already slept a lot #but today is the first day without any acute surgical related pain and my drains are out #so i am sorry to all the dms i have yet to reply to bc my brain is basically sand and goo #i also fell down the stairs lmfao but i am fine! #i'll still keep my queue where it is and may keep it at this level permanently idk #ty to everyone who gave me well wishes i really appreciate it! #the speaking clown #delete later

[fisheito]

my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it #rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf #you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something #he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing #i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience #like [i can help you if you've never done it before?] #honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that #SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY #anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels #would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it? #rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes #but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party... #maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance #at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down #rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety #because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL #yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is #i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden #eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so #but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too #eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰 #i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights? #or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol #yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels #yes. yes this is the vision #yakumo #rei #yakurei #replies

[mytyldotwav]

Goofy Ultrakill Wiki captions

#ultrakill wiki my beloved #uktrakill #king minos ultrakill #mysterious druid knight (& owl) #gabriel ultrakill #can somebody make a version of this wiki without the obnoxious amount of ads #they made it a pain

[pastafossa]

Might or might not be a chapter tonight, having some nerve pain that's been interfering should have recognized it when everything felt overly scratchy yesterday. Fingers crossed.

#my body has literally decided that a six inch patch of skin on my back #is not allowed to touch anything including air #without a truly shitty amount of pain #normally i just vape some heavy shit and stone through it but i got shit to do #but now i'm frustrated because i literally cannot sit with my back touching anything #fuck chronic pain i demand a refund on this shitty nervous system #0 stars

[ratcandy]

hello abled person writing a character with a disability. i see you are considering "curing" their disability in your story. before you make that choice, consider: why do you want to do that. what compels you to make that story choice. why would it be necessary. what is the narrative significance of doing that. what message do you believe you may be sending by doing that.

answer correctly or i'm opening the trap door beneath your feet and you're going into the spike pit

#clamtalk #obligatory i do not speak for all disabled people tag #but i've been seeing a strange amount of. ''what if we just get rid of [character]'s disability'' and ... hmm. So. Why. #Run by me why you want to do that. What does it add. Why do you think it would be ''better.'' #like there are ways to convince me you're doing it for totally innocent reasons that do not include the word ''fixing'' #i don't know. rubs me the wrong way when I see it #like full honesty in real life if someone was like ''Hey I can make it so your legs function properly all the time without pain #and your joints don't try to assassinate you ever again.'' Like fuck yeah I'd take that. cure my POTS while you're at it #but seeing it in writing/media... just. Hmm. Well I don't feel great seeing it #because what are You saying. By putting that in writing. What are you Implying there. And to what extent was it intentional. #anyway that's my two cents for the day

[obihoe]

god, the ichibi truly is the most terrible bijuu of them all huh. like he's not even that strong, among the bijuus at least he is the weakest but he seems to be so much more terrible to live with than the others. and gaara ... he is not even That strong either? at least not at first, he breaks down all the time. and his jutsu repertoire is not all that various either, his main strength is his defence but after lee breaks it, all the other opponents he faces afterwards manage to break it as well. gaara i think is the epitome of a failed bijuu-host relationship .. his bijuu might be willing to help him by sharing his power with him but that power is too much for him and moreover, the ichibi doesnt help him exactly either, he moreso just uses him as his marionette to sate his own bloodlust .. as opposed to the other, non-jinchuuriki ninjas, gaara has an INSANE level of power and chakra but he cant channel it properly and its too much to handle for him. the image of his sand shield around his body cracking is fitting i think cuz his power quite literally breaks him apart

#posts #gaara #just remembered this draft .. was watching his fight against naruto (or team 7) recently and god .. #its just so insane i think the way gaara is CONSTANTLY in pain and his powers seem to overwhelm him #like he partly transforms into the ichibi or he gets an arm like the ichibi has #half his face transforms into him. and sometimes he's screaming while it happens #but yknow what also just occured to me? might be a bit of a reach #but when i re-read the 'his power is tearing him apart' .. it reminded me a bit abt mdr .. bc mdr #he also in the end ends up torn apart by his own power. and his power ALSO belongs to a different consciousness #or being or whatever (kaguya) and she has an agency with him. she has a goal that she pursues and she uses mdr for it .. #mdr is in control of the power. he's not breaking down or transforming into something when he doesnt want to #except at the end!! in the end mdr ALSO transforms into someone else without wanting to and he cant stop it from happening #and the power is also too much ... ive talked abt this before but for me the kaguya transformation/manifestation is heavily laden #with symbolism. as in mdr's quite literally ripped apart by the power he has. kaguya pulls in more chakra as she is manifesting #and the amount of it becomes so great that it rips her host (mdr) apart .. the same way that gaara's sandshield cracks #even tho the cracks in the shield do not mean that the ichibi breaks him #but it looks a bit like it does. and when he becomes half ichibi half him. the ichibi is taking control over him #.. in a way. like gaara does want to use him but its more so the other way round. temari is scared the whole time #that he'll lose his control #anyways i feel like im rambling a bit. maybe this isnt rlly going anywhere after all SGDGDS but its interesting to #compare the first blorbo w the current one. maybe the message or commonality or whatever is #that both of these 'bijuu'- host relationships fail. the ichibi doesnt want to be trapped in a human. and kaguya (or all the bijuus) #do not want to be servants to mdr either. in gaara's case its involuntary for both parties. gaara doesnt want to be a jinchuuriki #and the bijuu doesnt want to be trapped in him either. the one who suffers from this here is mainly gaara #bc shukaku dominates their relationship. in mdr's case it is mdr who dominates the bijuu #and its mdr's hubris (his thinking that he will be able to control all of them. can just use them however he wants) #that turns out to be his demise. in both cases i guess its humanity's hubris to think they can take over and use supernatural powers #that do not belong to them and use them for their own purposes. and it both ends with the bijuus who that power belongs to #forcibly taking it back from their hands and destroying their hosts in the process ... something like that #hmm. im just rambling and forcing interpretations into this at this point i think. but yeah

[bookwyrminspiration]

I understand why Shannon did it and how it ostracized and shaped Sophie's childhood and set up the inciting incident, but I think it's incredibly stupid that Sophie couldn't figure out how to block thoughts on her own and "needed to be taught while awake" or whatever. There was nothing about the process that necessitated another person's guidance--she wasn't really taught, she was basically just told to do it--or was counter intuitive. It's literally the most basic, expected sequence of actions to block thoughts, and Sophie absolutely could've and would've figured that out for herself. Seven years of headaches for a girl who loved fantasy/sci-fi? She would've tried everything, and she would've figured it out! Building a mental wall would be like the first thing you try! Nothing about how it works suggests that the most powerful telepath the world has ever known wouldn't think to build that mental wall between her mind and others' thoughts, and even if she couldn't figure it out immediately because she was too young or something, she would've kept trying because she had the motive (pain) to, and that effort would've been rewarded. It took her no time at all to learn in canon, it's not a difficult skill. I know why it was done, but it's stupid and unless I'm forgetting something major she totally should've been able to block thoughts on her own long before she was "taught". it's necessary to the story as it was established, but I don't like the logic used; it's thin and contradictory

#kotlc #i'm rusty on the specifics. perhaps I'm wrong #but nothing I can remember suggests that blocking needs to be actively taught by someone else #the first telepath would've had to figure it out themself #therefore it's possible to achieve without teaching #meaning sophie could do so #and it was stated that she /had/ tried to block the voices. and had failed #but I don't think the logic of the story would indicate failure #a natural excellency with the ability. several years. pain as a direct constant motivator. and the solution being incredibly #intuitive? #especially for someone exposed to significant amounts of fantasy/sci-fi literature? #she should've figured out how to block thoughts on her own

[wat-zu]

Absolutely love your art. I want to nom it.

Also, Hollow Heads Siblings my beloveds,,,

Theyre the doomed siblings ever its not even funny

#Oouugh i have thoughts abt the hollowhead siblings. How theyre so intricately tied to eachother since their birth but they'd be #Eachother'd downfall. Esp when it's Dark and his relationship with the others #Dark would never understand what chosen went through. Mainly bc i think chosen is used to fighting his internal battles on his own #While he was in captive as an ad blocker. He loves Dark. He's grateful for Dark bc without him he wouldn't be free #But Dark isnt exactly someone reliable enough for Chosen to get the necessary healing he wants and needs #But that won't stop Dark from trying to fix him. Creates the virus for revenge. As chosen watches his brother spiral and spiral #As he watches him drift further away. Unable to get him back without a shouting match. As he watches with his heart heavy and cracked at- #Their stiffed interactions and strained relationship. He can't remember a time where they shared geniune laughs. #Then tsc coming came and changed everything. #Because this is someone who went through Chosen's pain albeit a lil differently. Someone who knows. Someone who /understands/. And this- #Someone is so much more younger than them and had to go through that pain in such a short amount of time since their birth #He sees himself in them. And he's rather walk up to alan demanding to get his hands cuffed than let tsc fester in that pain. #So tsc became chosen's priority. Healed eachother in many ways than one and are at echother's beck and call if need be. #As for Dark. I think he'd manipulate tsc into using him for his revenge. After stalking out his code and finding out about his potential #And TSC cant help but fall for his manipulations. Since this person is very very important to Chosen and they want so badly to impress- #Them both. They agreed and overtime grew to love eachother. And overtime Dark shifted his goals just a tad bit. Getting TSC more and more- #Involved. Since hey if Chosen doesn't like touching alan with a 10 ft pole why not let this kid do. And TCS agrees to this thinking that- #This is it. This is can finally heal them completely. Finally out of sight and out of mind. Finally can't live without the pain lingering #And chosen watches them with a sense of deja vu. At loss at what to do and so so afraid to lose two of his lil siblings #Then shit hits the brick UBSJDBSJSN #They make me so ill im not even kidding when i said theyre so so very very doomed!!!!!!!!! #This is abt the au btw BAHHAHAHABHA

[taylortruther]

tmi but

#i hate how my period will be like normal flow for two days #then for three days it is such a minimal amount of blood that tampons or pads are pointless (or painful re: tampons) #but it's enough that i can't just go without anything #so panty liners it is #but the liners don't stick well to my preferred underwear #anyway just a rant

[4rk-in-the-road]

physical disability "accessibility": "hey we half-assed allowing people with mobility aids to technically be able to get into our building (AKA only one entrance w an automatic door that works 30% of the time) while not considering for anyone else, especially people without use of their hands/arms. aren't we so progressive? what do you mean "it's not enough?" god you people want everything ://"

#I'm so tired of not being able to enter any of the buildings on my campus without some amount of pain involved #ableism #tw ableism #spoonie #chronic pain #physical disability #disability #chronic pain vent #chronically ill #accessibility #disability rights

[trianglesimpfordpines]

ok so. ford has the physical durability and sheer self-destructive work ethic that every minimum wage job expects from their workers. however ford would not SURVIVE most minimum wage jobs. this man was basically hand-crafted by the powers that be for the job of Being Chased Across The Multiverse By Bill Cipher and maybe being a mad scientist. any other job just doesn't work. you put ford behind a customer service desk or a retail counter or put him in a warehouse or a call center and he just spontaneously combusts

#gravity falls #stanford pines #ford pines #actually on a more serious note the reason why ford could never do most of these jobs is because #he may be capable of tanking an ungodly amount of physical and emotional Pain but #he is not as capable of dealing with degradation and being talked down to #nor is he able to deal with conflict in which he's not allowed to fight back #so in a job where he's expected to just let people (customers and/or superiors) treat him like garbage #without ever even being irritated let alone actually speaking out against it or defending himself #while also being expected to smile all the time and pretend like this job is such a privilege to have? #dude would get fired on his first day for throwing hands with someone

[bittersweetblasphemy]

of course my fibro meds would run out and i would need a new script and my doctor would take too long to refill it literally on a day it rains

#like yeah not a small amount of this was my fault by not paying attention and calling it in late #but i was told by half a dozen different people it would be ready yesterday so i wouldn't be without it last night and this morning #and that was incorrect 🙃 #i couldn't even be forwarded literally 2 pills bc it's name brand and there is no generic version yet bc it's so new #and they can't do that with namebrand medications apparently #despite the fact the pharmacy had it in stock and confirmed ive been taking it for months #and that it's not a medication you just Stop taking #but the doc took too long so it didn't go through until this morning #and i dont have a way to get it until this afternoon #chronic pain #chronic illness

[warlordfelwinter]

oh fiver's in for a Talk

#'this is not the time for false bravado' incorrect y'shtola every time is time for false bravado with fiver #it's all he knows how to do #being told yet again to go to bed while everyone else goes to talk without him is doing Wonders for his mental health #bad wonders #he doesn't care if his insides are turning to crystals and broken glass #he just wants to be part of the group #stop leaving him behind it's his biggest fear #i like thinking about what monstrous amounts of pain the light probably causes #and fiver's pain tolerance is just so insanely high #that he's able to keep functioning without really showing it except occasionally when it spikes #the glass crunching noise #gives such an unpleasant image of what it feels like #fel's ffxiv #shadowbringers lb #oc: fiver

[theoldandnewfirm]

AU where everything's the same except producers finally realize that Zack Snyder is the modern-day Uwe Boll and stop giving him money

#instead of watching Rebel Moon just run headfirst into a brickwall at top speed #you'll get the same amount of ensuing pain and possible brain damage without wasting hours of your life you'll never get back

[2boldlyqueer]

I am doing real badly these days

#Hello I'm just shouting into the void for a minute #But everything hurts all the time and I have no desire to be alive or do anything #Chronic pain and suicidality are a fucking miserable combo I already don't want to live and now it's actively painful to?!?!?! #Bullshit #Also I know part of my misery right now is the meds change I'm in the middle of bc the only thing anyone wanted to prescribe for my pain #Was a fucking antidepressant that I couldn't take since I was already on one #But no doctors would give me anything else at all so I ended up getting my psych to switch me #So far it's the same amount of pain but worse mental health so that's awesome #Also I can't take muscle relaxers during the change over so I'm actually in more pain than usual since that's the only other thing I get #Honestly just wishing something or someone would kill me so I can stop being miserable without having to do it myself

[polyamoryprincess]

things I don’t give a shit about: a bunch of chucklefucks at the top who want money and power who think they’re the representative of an entire country

things I give a shit about: as many people as possible being able to live as safely, comfortably, and happily as is possible.

#👏government fuckheads 👏 eat glass👏 #You can be pissed at an individual for a heinous crime but my god will the government that let it happen and subsequently tries to cover it #Will be the main focus of my wrath #Give me a politician who runs on empathy and not just saying keywords to get the most amount of money and power #I’m drunk on soju but I’m also right #I keep seeing clips about the Horrors ™️ in China and I think of all the people who demonize Chinese people #Like my guy they’re under an insanely oppressive regime I just want those people to be able to live safely #And for the people who make that impossible To fuck off #I get people look at countries as its most oppressive aspects but man it’d probably be a lot harder to blame the down fall of society #On random minorities if they could simply go about their lives without living in fear and pain because random assholes decided that would #Make them the most money