#wish it was used books instead

[scarlet-flowers]

Commission done by _yorey_.

#fire emblem #chrom #lucina #morgan #male!morgan #robin #fem!robin #askrembla #commission #exalt family #chrobin #i got this right before they got their ny alts and man #those designs go fucking hard #almost wish i had used those instead #but this one is still fun #book 6 still one of my favs

[lazaruspiss]

so many people just hear "dick was a cop" and go "eww im gonna pretend i didnt see that" and like. if its just bc you cant handle the subject matter thats one thing, but often times its just. performative. especially because the actually storyline is so much about dick trying (and as far as ive gotten to reading so far, failing) to make a change in the system and be a "good cop". it's an extremely heavy but genuinely very interesting storyline. dick does find other "good cops", but they're very much the minority and usually keep their heads down, because cops are bastards and will ruin the lives of "fellow officers" who try and do things right. they try to frame dick for murder at one point and everything.

#its such a long and significant thing that happened and im like. youre explicitly mentioning it just to say you're ignoring it? alright. #sure. so proud of you. im sure that makes a huge difference in the world. very cool. #not trying to shade at any one person but ive just seen that attitude from people have definitely never read nw96 lol #at most they read 93 so they can bitch about how 'terrible' they think it is and use it as an excuse to wish terrible things #onto like. one of Very Few women who were in the comic book industry at the time #but im sure theres nothing internalized going on there. sure its just coincidence that they never bitch about male authors #using the excuse of social justice #love me some social justice but fuckin hate people who try to do it in fictional space instead of like. reality #literally helping no one by harassing Problematic Woman Author #dont even wanna name her bc her haters are some of the worst people ive ever seen on the internet lol #ANYWAYS. im done ranting #woke up at 03:30 and chose violence i guess

[the---hermit]

I am going through a mild reading slump and of course my brain is trying to convince me to reread the lord of the rings

#the things is i have read lotr exactly 10 years ago and have not reread it since #i think i listened to the audiobook of the fellowship a few years ago but it's not the same things #and i really REALLY want to do a reread #but i have a block because what if i don't pick it up at the right time and what if i don't enjoy it as much as the first time? #my plan was maybe reading it in the summer when i won't have uni things to balance and i'll be able to really dive into the book #but in the past couple of days my brain has been telling me i should reread it now #and i know for a fact it's the wrong moment #i am way to busy and have to read so much for uni already #but on the other hand i am a mood reader so maybe in the summer i won't be in the mood to reread lotr #uuuuuuugh i truly feel what my old italian teacher used to say when she was like: #i kinda wish i'd break a leg so i could reread lotr unbothered #man she was so right #i think i might attempt reading a couple of pages and see what my heart tells me to do #i would also try to attempt reading it in the original english this time instead of the translated version but idk if my brain can do that #in conclusion i am going through a book crisis and i am doubting my brain thanks for coming to my tedtalk #cris speaks #the---hermit

[icewindandboringhorror]

#when you actually look at the recipes they're not even that weird or anything I just find the names interesting #there's one just titled ''Rocks'' which I wish would have fit as another option but I used all the spaces lol #Also some of the recpies from the section 'Cookery For The Sick And Convalescent' #are just like 'apple water'' 'beef essence'' #I tried to leave out most of the obvious ''weird'' ones like 'jellied shrimp' or potted pigeon or like beef livers or whatever #except for cold fish pudding which I just like because of the specifics #'fish pudding' ? eh sounds normal. 'COLD fish pudding' ? now it sounds funnier for some reason #like what else is it meant to be.. ?? lukewarm fish pudding #Also considered including 'bread queen' 'cracker queen' and 'egg balls' #the name 'baconized meat balls' is funny but also I felt it would skew the reuslts since everyone likes bacon #and would just choose that lol. I also like 'rummage pickle' and 'Creamy Eggs Basket Style' #Which again are all like. relatively totally normal recipes but the way they choose to phrase the titles can sound silly #Like ''rocks'' just seems like some sort of cookie maybe - with currants and raisins in it (not really an oatmeal cookie #but just .. idk.. ?? maybe little balls with fruit in them) but instead of being like 'Raisin & Currant Treats' or whatever #it's like ''yeah lets just call this ''rocks''. like a rock from the ground? yeah' #ANYWAY #Love old books so much.. I should do another one of these where people choose which product is the best out of #all the various weird things shown in the advertising section of the 1880s magazines I have lol #I dont remember clearly but I swear there was like 'Electric shoe!' or something strange. I dont know if I could find enough #though since most of them are just normal like.. buying furniture or things like that #aNYWAY.. hgh.. again I am not just going to post polls forever I do have other things I'm working on lol #I have low energy right now and polls are a lot easier to make than like editing 30 costume photos lol #I have a physical therapy appointment soon hopefully and maybe I can sort out some of the Constant Pains and such

[mabelmidnight-takeover]

do people even understand that if benedict asks sophie to be his wife right away instead of his mistress there will be no plot? no growing from benedict's part? sophie doesn't want an illegitimate child and that's why she denies being his mistress. with benedict proposing to her from the get-go, what story would we have? sophie would probably never grow closer to the bridgertons in the same way she did while working for them, the whole set up of benedict giving up his privileges wouldnt exist. benedict asking sophie to be his mistress was never the problem, but him insisting and being inconsiderate to her while continuing to do so was.

#it's a vital part of their story and for us to know sophie #the lake scene and that happens after are one of my favorite parts of the book and it's specifically bc of the conflict #them wanting to be together but this thing being in their way was why we were able to see how strongly they needed each other #what kind of conflict we would even have if benedict never asked it #bc violet wouldn't dare come in between them #she said herself at the beginning of the book she'd let him marry a pauper if he wished so #the setup we've been getting with benedict in the tv show is been perfect #and would be even more when he finally faces the conflict of keeping his privileges for his sake or giving them up for sophie #we should be arguing about what would stop benedict from proposing to sophie after she first denies being his mistress instead #bridgerton #benedict bridgerton #sophie beckett #benophie #what* #im a strong believer that sophie would accept being his mistress if she wasn't illegitimate and only bc its benedict asking

[the-best-url-on-this-site]

Not caring about Alex Rider as an Artemis Fowl fan is a struggle but I'm being so brave about it

#Artemis fowl #it's not that i hate Alex Rider I've just for real never read the book i don't know who he is #when we were all in middle school reaching into different franchises to give Artemis a boyfriend #the rest of you found him Alex Rider and i found him a nice himbo instead. i feel like Artemis could use a himbo i think that'd be good #for him #i just wish alexmis wasn't like 50 percent of my boys whole tag. i don't know who he is. go home sir #y'all are kings though all of the posts are properly tagged. absolute monarchs i love you

[please-give-dd-bread]

hey! so um apparently bots keep following me???? assuming it's the same for everyone else

so if you're a person that's following me (why. what prompted you to make a stupid decision) and you have default... everything um maybe try changing your banner, write something in the desc (like pronouns and sexuality and stuff) and reblog a couple of stuff??? unless you'd like to get blocked. which is fine i guess (i question your motives but you do you)

#not art #but like please let me know you are a human #also recently i've seen a couple of stuff #and um siriusxremus now (and forever)* ** #actually tho does anyone know that post with the werewolf: *transforming* you have to go now! i don't want you to see me like this #human s/o: I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOUUU #werewolf: no no i'm just really dumb as a wolf and don't want you to see me bark at a mirror for two hours #i freakin saved it to like 3 boards twice on my pinterest cuz i had to it's beautiful #god i haven't read hp in a long time #and probably won't in the next 4 months #like i used the cube shelf thing where i stored the books as a junk drawer (literally. like candy wrappers) #and then like a small space for my phone to do nothing while i charge it #anyways have a nice existence or something i can't tell you what to do #okay hi im back and sometimes i wish tumblr would let you like drag tags to different areas #like can i change the order you read this??? just like i forgot to add something and i have this. literal wall of tags to go through #but you know what?? imma improvise and use stars instead #* unless the walls caved in and ate me... and i died (or you know i pass away for some reason) #** and even then my spirit will haunt this planet. and then one would randomly hear a voice. reading (assumably fluffy) wolfstar fanfics #and if/when i get reincarnated. boyyyyyyy im going to rediscover the fandom and ship them even harder

[thatfaerieprincess]

Feel free to skip on past this, I’ve just gotta ramble for a minute bc i cant stop thinking about this kid from work last week. They were so much like me at that age (5-6th grade) that I didn’t know how to interact with them? I didn’t know what to say to them bc I don’t know what I needed to hear back then, what I would’ve WANTED to hear? What would I have even listened to? They were almost entirely silent and looked out at the world with a hesitant curiosity, but would pull back so fast as soon as you tried to interact w them. Little to no eye contact, face hidden in hair, always looking down, following others until they could strike off on their own and just quietly explore. Intently focusing on drawing any chance they got. We did an art project and they hunched over their piece the entire time and wouldn’t let any of us see it in progress, refusing to look up or acknowledge us if we asked to see it or to know what it was. Idk. I barely interacted w them while they were with us for those few days bc I didn’t know how? It almost hurt to try? It was like looking back into a time machine and i didn’t know how to tell them that it does get better,,, I still don’t even know if where I am is better, some days feel so unsure that I don’t think I’ve made any progress at all. But seeing that kid, idk. I’ve come pretty far. And it DOES get better. Maybe it’s not the best now, or even that great at all, but it’s better. I wish I could’ve told them but I don’t think they’d have wanted to hear it anyway

#im a rambling sam #I’m in a weird place again since getting here for this season of work #idk maybe I’ve been in a weird place all year probably #I don’t think I’m that far from where I was at that age but I know I am there’s just still so much further to go #one day I think it’ll feel easier but maybe not today #I do love working w kids but I’m considering going into horticulture instead of outdoor education bc I don’t know if I can handle this #I can #but god I don’t know #in my heart I’m still that exact kid and she’s still in there so damn anxious and unsure and needing to observe the world and everyone in it #just to get some sense of understanding of just what the fuck is going on around here #but by the time I’ve gotten a good handle on what is going on everything is already so set in place and my place is outside the system and I #I don’t know how to step into it #sorry sorry I’m still rambling I’m having a weird day I probably just haven’t eaten nearly enough in the last few days and I’m about to #start teaching on my own this week which is terrifying and I can’t stop thinking abt that damn kid I wish they stayed longer I think #we probably would’ve gotten along #but groups only come here for a couple days and then go home which is v weird after having the same kids for 3 weeks for summer camp #idk life gets better and it gets worse and sometimes u grow into the world a little more but there’s still a mute child in your ribcage #little hands pressed up against ur ribs like laying a palm against a bus window #I put my hand over my sternum as if we could press our hands together thru time #when I was that age I used to pretend to have someone around me like an imaginary friend but usually it was a book character that I liked #and I’d talk to myself in my head like having a conversation and giving myself motivation and assurances from someone else to me #and now I’m here and I still talk to myself like that but without the imagined friend as a buffer I just talk to myself in my head #now I’m the imaginary friend for the little Sam that lives in my chest #when I talk to myself I’m talking to her #I’m giving her the assurance she needed back then #the assurance I still need now #I am here for her so I am here for myself #this is getting poetically nonsensical maybe it’s time for bed

[kainebell]

can I say something

#I like little bitch boys what can I say #playchoices #I just finished alpha and damn i wish Markus and Kala were LIs #also Markus keeps going on and on about how badly he wants MC #and yet the story never actually shows us moments where they could’ve been more than platonic #need the writers to stop telling instead of showing relationship development #same thing with saying Asher and Lupe are MCs best friends #like yes they are bc they are the story’s state mandated puppydog bffs #and not bc we ever get scenes developing those friendships or learning about them as characters #I’m ranting about something else entirely now but this book was just. Not good. Kala’s my girl though

[arthur-r]

what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck #the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy #cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it #so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled #i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like #i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is #it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS #and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like #that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts #that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of #the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED?? #and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way #i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps #and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all #ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine #i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be #missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine #and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something #unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[terr4ance]

I have a terrible habit of not reading the books I own, so I am going to post here on tumblr to force myself to act. I am like 130 pages from the end of game of thrones, 1/3 of the way through brave new world, halfway through rethinking suicide, and very near the beginning of my late granddad's memoire. I want to finish game of thrones this week, and get further through brave new world. I will do this. this will definitely work. I never make false promises as far as goals are concerned I promise...

#booklr #books #literature #reading #no but like reading is really fun #and I wish I would just pick up a book instead of going straight to social media and youtube #same with other forms of media #I'm so indecisive I can't even choose which media to watch #then I have some kind of life event:TM: happen which means I stop watching a series halfway through #and then forget about it and can't be bothered to start watching again #the same happens with books #I really want to get through the few I've started so I can start reading snow crash and children of time #like... without feeling guilty #because I don't want to start anymore books without finishing these first #also this is how tumblrs use tags right? #just a big mess? #game of thrones #brave new world #george rr martin #aldous huxley #snow crash #neal stephenson #adrian tchaikovsky #children of time #a song of ice and fire #winter is coming #also tyrion appreciation post #we stan tyrion #my girlfriend really likes sansa and I just don't... I think that's because the tv series doesn't do a great job preserving her character #that's what my girlfriend says anyway...

[yourqueenb]

I remember you saying that MAH would've been better as a short slasher, so are there any other books that you think would also have been improved if they were significantly shorter (like if they cut out a lot of filler chapters/scenes)? Or for that matter, are there books that you think would've been better if they were longer than the usual 16-18ish chapters that Choices usually does (to make the story feel better developed and less rushed)?

Bachelorette Party definitely would’ve been better as a mini book instead of a regular length one. And I’m really not sure why that wasn’t something they considered. There was no reason for it to go on as long as it did, especially because it was neither entertaining nor funny. It was just really stupid imo. Courtney was annoying as hell, and her smiling sprite was terrifying. And I couldn’t stand Aisha and that damn briefcase. IIRC, that was the main reason the story dragged on for so long. The best thing to come out of that book was Ash Tanaka, but I feel like people forget about him because he was unlucky enough to be a part of BP.

Witness and MTFL both had the issue of an unlikeable MC. But I feel like that issue wouldn’t have been so pronounced if both books were shorter as well. All Witness MC and Cassian did was screw and argue for like 25 chapters. And they literally had MTFL MC wait until the 100th damn chapter to decide who she wanted to be with. Not to mention that god-awful first person narration along the way.

I think this last one is controversial, but Immortal Desires was also far too long. It just dragged week after week because the first 9 or 10 chapters were the same thing over and over again. Hang out with Cas. Hang out with Gabe. Oh no, our Mom’s sticking her nose where it doesn’t belong so we have to stand trial in front of the council again! Rinse and repeat 🙄 If they hadn’t wasted so much time on all of that, the ending wouldn’t have been so rushed and awkward now that they’ve decided to make a book 2

#choices #choices stories you play #playchoices #choices app #choices ask #maybe ID would’ve been more bearable if I had spent diamonds on it #but I had absolutely zero motivation to because of how boring the base story was #I liked Gabe as an LI but not enough to wanna get extra scenes with him #and I wasn’t interested in making MC stronger through the talismans #all of this said though I still don’t think I personally would’ve enjoyed any of these books even if they were shorter #bc they had more issues that just length #anyway though I don’t think any of PB’s books would necessarily benefit from being longer #of course there are books that I wish had gotten sequels but that’s different #I think there are lots that are at the right length #they should’ve just used certain chapters for character/plot development instead of filler if that makes sense #so basically instead of removing chapters altogether just change the content of them

[violentviolette]

idk why people treat you like an expert on mental illness and not just a tumblr blogger

its not entirely on them tbh, i think ppl are desperate for help in a time when mental health shit is both everywhere but also 90% of it is dead wrong, and so the moment they find somone who is making sense and is accessible they just kind jump in head first which is partly my own doing, like i do very much present myself in this space as someone who is both knowlegeable about mental health and also willing to give advice and speak on topics. so like while i am still very very much just Some Guy and not at all an expert, im also some guy with a college degree in sociology, counseling experience, multiple mental illnesses and almost 20 years experience with multiple different types of therapy and in the system. which i think for a lot of people is more than most of the other sources they're looking at

so like i get why ppl come here and ask me stuff and i dont mind at all, i just wish they would take it with a grain of salt when something i say doesnt apply to them or makes them feel some type'a way

#jack.speaks #anon #i used to be much more active in the tags and was very willing to answer questions and would advertise that #because i do have a lot of knowlege and experience counseling and doing education work #and i genuinely believe its fundimentally important for knowlege to be acessable and for ppl with experience to share that #theres so much shit i wish someone had told me or had voiced in a space i was in so i could come across it sooner so i try to be that #but i am just one book in a library of millions who is capable of being wrong and i do wish more ppl approached me with that in mind #instead of expecting me to answer for all the ills of psychiatry or every possible variation an variable in a situation i know 3 lines abou

[bassiter2]

i'm realizing through this book i'm reading (same-sex affairs: constructing and controlling homosexuality in the pacific northwest) that like... yknow the conflation between homosexuality and pedophilia. well i've realized why that is, and that it's more than just all "sexual perversions" getting lumped together by homophobes. but also insanely enough more mundane

it's literally that for many decades, the only concept most people were able to have of gay men were through the lens of it being a crime. aka arrest records and the newspapers telling you who got put in jail last night. obviously gay men who were only having consensual sex with other gay adult men did get caught sometimes, but you could only catch them if they were doing it in public, if you were sneaking around in their private home, or if someone involved ratted them out. and if you ratted someone out, whatever motivation you might have, you were also ratting yourself out, so why would you do that? but if you were underage, especially if it was non-consensual, you wouldn't be in trouble at all. so of course the majority of the "immoral acts" charges are going to be between an adult and a minor.

not only that but apparently "youth" in referring to a young person used to literally mean anyone under the age of 21. and the vast majority of charges that read "engaged in immoral acts with a youth" it's referring to like a 17 y/o or even 18 or 19. so then ppl in later decades read that and misinterpreted it too.

and that's literally it lol..... it feels obvious in hindsight but i never would have thought about it. crazy what bias confirmation does.

#i'd highly recommend the book and also Gay New York btw #they're both centered around the same time period and the emergence of gay culture #(and emergence of the widespread concept of gay as something you can BE instead of just something you do-- #--specifically one of the many degenerate things done by lower classes and immigrants #prior to the white middle class becoming aware that their own could do it too. and what that meant for concepts of gender and sexuality) #just different parts of the US. but the pacific northwest one centers mostly on the aftermath of a specific scandal #and it's CRAZY #a lot of modern gay culture would probably be different if not for the actions of like one gay kid #who ratted out portland's whole secret gay community in 1912 bc he got caught shoplifting and thought that info would protect him #i wish i could ask him now if that was worth it. god #anyway i do also think that as for actual cases of gay adult-minor relations. the criminalization of homosexuality in the first place #is partially to blame. like at least for some of it #bc surely part of the motivation there is specifically seeking out boys who do NOT have the social power to be homophobic to you #ntm homophobia in general giving men an idea of needing to be the masculine one. and youth is automatically more 'feminine' #not an excuse just an explanation btw. yeah just my 2 cents #ok to rb

[starswallowingsea]

oh yes i finished the kingdom of sweets. its an interesting take on the nutcracker story and definitely takes a lot of liberties and gives more of a horror vibe. really fun read for the most part up until the epilogue which felt like the author shoehorned 15 historical events and figures into 15 pages because they could. the final chapter was still really nice though and i think tied everything together nicely, but the pacing of the rest of the epilogue was bad enough to drag my rating down to 3.5 stars

#shay speaks #the kingdom of sweets #erika johansen #bookblr #booklr #book review #really informal review this time but ehhhhhhh #also i wish we got years with the chapters instead of One mention of it being 1905 in the middle of the book and having to figure it out #like either leave it vague or use dates consistently please do not throw one single date in there and then never again #but thats more of a minor thing compared to the epilogue. imo anyway #oh natasha you are such a bad person and unreliable narrator trying to justify everything #but its okay #i support womens wrongs etc

[cerbreus]

had a trainwreck of an in person consult for my sleeve tattoo yesterday only made better by the itty bitty yorkie shop dog adoring me and sitting on my lap the whole time.

#also chatting with my partner after ofc i felt so much better tysm chris ♥ #but yeah it was not great #it was supposed to be on friday #but she changed it last minute saying she was too busy can we do it the next day at 5 instead? yeah fine #kinda disappointing she didn't tell me in time to like do smth with friends i was invited to but had to opt out of bc of the consult #but whatever #get there early text her that i'm there. stand out side. in the rain. for 15 minutes. she didn't see the text. she didn't see me outside. #in fact.. she was in the middle of tattooing somebody. the client noticed me after 15 minutes and finally let her know. #she comes over all suspicious like. cracks the door and asks 'who are you?what do you want' #even after i say i have a consultation at 5 she didn't remember it was HER who had the consult. i had to rattle off all the details for her #to finally remember it was HER consult and say 'oh i completely forgot about that' #finally get let in and sit down and. she then spends the next couple minutes profusely apologizing to the other client. saying like #'ohhh im so sorry i completely forgot i had a consult scheduled.... i'll get this over with quick' which. well. :( #finally start going through it. she doesn't remember anything about the tattoo. not that it was a sleeve. not what elements were in it. :( #i wasn't expecting a sketch or anything but. even just having re-read the emails before the consult would have... been nice.... #after she does that she says 'oh we didn't really need an in person consultation' which is also. :( because she suggested it. #i get a whole like 5 minutes to rehash stuff we already went over in emails including her not remembering i'd put down a deposit AND we had #3 sessions scheduled already.... and it needs another 2 sessions which i wish she'd told me about because she's booked so far out my last #session might not be until. may. #i didn't even get to ask any questions! i wanted to ask! like does she use saniderm? (i can't have that on my skin) #does she want other things for a tip than just cash? (absolutely not offering that now) has she dealt with KP before? are there any things #she wants me to bring to the sessions? (they're gonna be long) #and then i'm rushed out the door and sitting in my car in the rain and just absolutely fucking crushed #and feeling bad that i feel so bad because like. is it entitled of me to think that like. #maybe if u have a client paying u thousands of dollars to design & tattoo their sleeve tattoos.... you'd like.... treat them like a client #i was so excited about my sleeve i was so fucking psyched and now im. not. at all. #i'm worried about what if she forgets about my appts? what if she books over my appts like she already did with just my consult? #and i'm left hanging trying to get things scheduled in so so so so late like i'm some second rate flaky walk in.... #i guess it could have gone worse